Blessing In A Crisis

This story is about a period in time when everything seems to be working against us. Core pillars of our lives crumble to the ground and we feel trapped beneath its rubble. Some call it: ‘The Dark Night of the Soul’ and others: “An Existential Crisis’. The purpose behind this story is to relay the questions and emotions undulating the experience and to offer some glimmer of hope at the end of what seems, a very narrow tunnel.

Transcript

There came a day after a long,

Long winter,

When I slipped on its icy floors.

I cracked and I broke open.

Instantly,

I watched my world morph into a crushed paper.

The text enclosed within was my story.

Each line defined me.

The friends.

The job.

The lover.

The glory.

A gust of strong wind blew it away and I was barren.

Empty of meaning and full of dismay.

I looked around desperately trying to hold on to something that seemed familiar.

But nothing and no one was there.

Day in and day out I filled my time with anything that would quiet the silence.

Anything that would calm the quiver.

I felt so lonely.

So insecure.

I questioned myself over and over.

I rolled over and just wanted to die.

But while I was submerged in despair,

Two questions kept whizzing around.

Why is this happening to me?

What is the message in this for me?

I realized that I had been wishing for this all along.

Only this time,

My wish came on a bit too strong.

I had been slapped many times before,

But I resisted the signs.

And signs do not appear for the purpose of being avoided.

I avoided them.

I saw them and ignored them.

I delayed the inevitable until it bulldozed its way out of me.

Shattering everything around me.

Sometimes you have to taste the bitterness.

All doors have to close for you to see the one door that is open and to have no choice but to walk through it and into the unknown wilderness.

Otherwise you'll linger and repeat the same cycle that got you there.

What can seem like a painful war against you?

What can feel like an ambush at every corner?

Maybe a blessing guiding you and breaking you out of the tight and limiting armor that has become too small for you.

Reviews

Wow, this was absolutely profound, so incredible. Touched the very core of my soul. Thank you

That is one of the rawest and most powerful descriptions of this process. It reminded me why I was where I was and that going through door that is open is also uncertain and the feeling lost doesn't mean I am. Thank you.

This is a very aspect of my being right now. I have to understand. 😪

🙏🪷😌…this is a wonderful and yet gentle reminder . Thank you .

Wow very powerful! Such a perfect message in a short timeframe. Helped me reframe my current situation perfectly.

That was most needed in my life right now ! It will help me heal along my journey ! Beautifully well spoken with grace and elegance

A depth of thought so insightful and true that makes you acknowledge the 'signs' and act on them, love your teachings Maryam G, namaste 🙏

You are so amazing in your poetic words that touched my soul. Thank you for holding the space to inspire me through the sufferings of life.

Been depressed

This is so beautiful. My dearest friend is in crisis and this hit so hard. I’m going to share it with him.

Touching de.e.e.eeeply. Liberating. Thanks so much.

Thank you 🙏❤️ - I found this very powerful.

Having on armour does not mean we aren’t authentically ourselves. ‘The slings and arrows’ we must deflect, and protect ourselves from in life are very, very real - they come from clueless and/or triggered, and/or volatile or intentionally harming partners, family, friends, society, and the establishment.

So, daily put on your armour, take up your shield, and step out bravely, all you dear souls.

Your words are so profound, thought provoking, they touched me at my core. Thank you.

I love this. So powerful & meaningful. Thank you 🙏

Amazing! Thanks. Just what I needed to hear in this moment.

Simply amazing. I’ve never felt a better story around the dark night than this. It went straight to the depth of it.
Many thanks!

Beautiful 😍 it totally resonates. Thank you for these powerfull words.

Oh my god, the second meditation of yours i listened in a row...what is this and why are you describing it so well? I have been searching for answers and for some clarity and relief for three years and this three minute meditation helped more than anything ever has...after i finished it i screamed in my pillows till i felt like i had nothing more to scream. You are god sent

Amazing
Incredible
Perfect
Beautiful
Resolutional
Caring
Loving

A story. Something different. Turns out, this is where I am. The armor is off.