Disentangling From Your Conditioning Live With Manal

Disentangling From Your Conditioning
Enjoy an inspiration with Manal to explore, understand and detangle from conditioning. We are all born to life conditions that serve our growth and expansion. We will journey within to calibrate to freedom. Enjoy Q&A and guided meditation.
As seen live on InsightTimer Tue Aug 16 - 10:31 am

Transcript

So have you started to think about conditioning?

Do you recognize your conditioning patterns?

I know that since we talk about conditioning,

Every time,

Every time,

Did this topic arouse anything within you?

Do you know what your conditioning patterns are?

So when you behave and things happen,

You recognize like,

Oh,

This isn't personal.

This is not personal.

This is part of the growth that I am here for.

This is my personal growth journey.

This is my expansion journey.

And that conditioning,

Growth and expansion journey might change based on where you are growing in your spiritual path.

Always before I come on,

Because I know I need to talk a bit,

Get the preamble going on before our discussion starts to awake,

I always think about,

Okay,

Now what's the approach?

Because ultimately at the end of the day,

You all know that there's certain theories that and certain things that foundations,

The foundations for the work that we do,

And all of the foundations we talk about each time.

And I think about,

Okay,

How are we gonna tee this up?

How are we gonna tee this up so we can start to talk about it?

Conditioning,

Once I recognized that what we are growing and expanding from,

Conditioning is a design of the universe.

It is a design.

Somehow,

Somehow,

Which I believe is a mis-human design,

We have adopted that things that have happened to us is shameful,

Is bad,

Makes us bad.

We have put judgment on conditions,

Whether we grew up with different color skin,

Hair,

Gender,

Sexual orientation,

Socioeconomic,

Things that may have happened or not happened to us,

Where our parents are from,

Whatever it might be,

External conditions,

External to us,

External to us.

Once I realized that,

Hey,

Wait a second,

How can we judge or hold shame?

Shame is one of mine,

Guys.

Shame is one of mine and shame is one of many,

Many,

Many religion,

Many cultures.

There's many areas that shame is integrated into the root of the people.

Once I realized,

Wait a second,

Manel,

Wait a second.

How can we as individuals be holding so much judgment,

Resistance,

Shame,

To things that we had no physical choice?

We can debate whether or not we had spiritual choice and whether our soul chose this character.

We can debate that.

We can believe that.

We can unbelieve that.

It really doesn't matter what you hold.

It doesn't matter whether God made the choice,

The universe made the choice,

Or you were deliberate in that choice.

It doesn't matter.

But the fact is our physical body,

You guys know,

I think about us in four bodies,

Okay?

For those of you that are new to us,

I'm gonna go quickly.

Four bodies,

Our egoic body,

Our beliefs and identity,

And I'll slow down in this later,

Our mental body,

Where we hold our thoughts,

Our logic,

Our processing,

Mental processing,

Our emotional body,

Where we feel,

And our physical body.

This is our physical experiences and our physical sensations.

So I look at the body from four dimensions,

And the more you work with me,

And tell me if you're new,

And I will expand as we go into this.

I will expand.

I will expand.

But everybody that said good morning so far are regulars,

But let me know if there are newbies in here,

And if you need me to expand on anything.

But our physical experience,

What we were born into,

What we look like,

Whether we're underweight,

Overweight,

Perfectly weight,

Perfect body,

Not perfect body,

Even the fact that I say perfect body,

Underweight,

Or overweight,

Indicates a judgment society has put in my belief,

And the way that I see,

So maybe I should,

Instead of saying underweight,

Overweight,

Or perfect weight,

Really it is self-image,

Body image,

Positive one or negative one,

Because it really doesn't matter what your physical looks like,

As long as you have positive body and self-image.

And it is our conditioning,

Again,

Our conditioning,

That makes us adopt good,

Bad,

Yes,

No,

Right?

Yes,

Zero,

One.

Life isn't zero,

One.

Some places it is,

But it's not zero,

One.

And we are here to come and make one our freedom,

Our worthiness,

And our love.

So my whole thesis that I sort of digressed a few times is,

How,

In our physical experience,

Our physical experience,

It was given to us,

Our parents,

Whether or not we have our parents,

If we were adopted,

Our siblings,

Our conditionings,

Where we were born,

The conditions,

That is the universes,

Or God.

You use whatever word you guys like,

Universe or God,

If they're synonymous,

Great.

If one of them causes resistance in you,

Use the other one.

For me,

I've came to a place there's no resistance.

I love God,

I love universe,

I love nature,

I love the meaning of life,

I love source,

I love energy.

They're all synonymous to me.

But if they're not for you,

Use the word that brings you no resistance.

It is by the universe's design.

It's by the universe's design for us to be fully,

Fully,

Fully dependent on other human beings.

And in that,

We pick up thoughts,

Beliefs,

Emotion and physical experiences.

And our job as the humans that we are,

Isn't to hold resistance and shame to our past,

It's to understand the conditioning,

To recognize where our growth orientation is directing us towards.

And like I said,

Everything falls under worthiness,

Freedom or love,

Happiness,

Peace,

A sense of a belief that you are loved or you're worthy of happiness.

So I've talked a lot,

You guys,

Talk to me,

Talk to me.

What is your journey?

Is it freedom?

Is it worthiness?

Is it happiness?

It is going to be a bit of everything.

Nobody is born,

But some of it,

For me example,

The love part isn't very distorted.

My love part is I was born beautiful,

Love and an amazing childhood.

But the freedom and the self worth because of the color of my skin,

Because of growing up in a place that isn't necessarily where everybody is like me,

The things that differentiated me.

I think English,

Even though it was my first language,

Cause I was born in Canada,

They're worth some things that I had trouble with,

With the sh and sh,

The S-H and the C-H and the th.

And even now sometimes pronunciation,

It's not the gift that was gifted to me.

And sometimes it actually brings in a element that makes me feel less than or unworthy.

And it's one of my deepest that I haven't,

Don't really,

It doesn't really come to my consciousness,

But it's,

I'm just sharing,

Just sharing,

Just sharing.

The things that I become aware of that are the conditioning that I'm here to overcome to find my unconditional worthiness,

To calibrate to unconditional worthiness.

Valerie,

Worthiness is a big one for me,

For sure.

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

And Farnaz,

I've seen how me and my culture view women.

Exactly,

It could be the culture,

How it views women,

How it views,

Again,

I talk about race a lot,

Because race is huge in America and the world.

There are eye color in Europe,

Eye color and hair color,

Just so many different things,

But it's not bad.

None of this is bad.

None of this is to judge society,

To judge community,

Judge those caregivers of ours.

One of my favorite things that I say is the conditioners were conditioned and their conditioners were conditioned and their conditioners were conditioned.

For us to pass blame,

Again,

Resistance on resistance.

The whole point is for us to get to a place of awareness,

Awareness,

Awareness,

Awareness,

Awareness of the four physical bodies,

Awareness of beliefs,

Misbeliefs,

Misbeliefs,

Misbeliefs that don't serve us and reorienting beliefs that serve us.

So if I,

Today,

If all of us orient and I could invite you all right now to the past is not anything to do with shame,

The past is a gift.

The past is a gift that leads me to understand how to calibrate to a place of worthiness,

Of love,

Of freedom.

And I'm gonna use my past as a map,

A map,

A map for me to get and elevate and amplify my current life to find and calibrate to worthiness,

Freedom and love.

How was that?

Who wants to join me?

Who wants to join me on letting go of resistance in the past and adopting it as a gift,

A map to calibrate to our truth?

Give me the hearts,

Give me the words.

Valerie,

Exactly,

Generational trauma.

And I believe that it's genetic,

I believe it's in the body,

I believe it's in the heart,

I believe it's everywhere.

But once we become aware of it,

We can heal it for ourselves and for our future generations.

And that doesn't mean our future generations won't have stories and conditions,

But at least they can expand and it can grow beyond.

And maybe it won't be the trauma on a physical level,

Maybe they'll explain it on an emotional level,

Or maybe on an egoic level,

Maybe on a mental level.

So the extent of the conditioning will impact future generations in a much more insignificant way.

And I was thinking about this,

I was thinking about this a lot,

Because again,

I think and I focus on the topic and how are we gonna frame it and how do we come from a very simple,

You guys know,

I'm an engineer,

I'm a mechanical engineer from training,

I'm very logical.

My dad is the logic,

My mom's the heart.

They're both,

My dad's here,

My mom's here,

They're both here,

They're both very,

Very,

Very spiritual.

And I believe that I'm blessed with their best,

The best of my mom's heart,

The best of my dad's mind,

And a very strong spiritual,

Spiritual,

Spiritual belief.

So when I was thinking about this and thinking about,

Okay guys,

Okay Manal,

Okay Manal,

We're talking about conditioning,

We're talking about the,

Yeah,

It exists on all of the different levels.

Yes,

It comes in on the DNA,

It comes in on this.

Do we have to physically experience?

Do we all have to physically experience?

And the answer is no.

To break away from the stories,

We do not have to physically experience.

However,

Most people don't become aware until something happens in their physical experience to perpetuate that.

You're all here for a reason.

And I know you all have your stories,

And you all have your stories that have guided you to finding the answer within.

And we can all tell our stories.

So no,

We do not.

We can do the work by meditation,

By self-awareness,

But life needs to happen to create the desire and to create the awareness,

Because if everything is peachy keen,

Beautiful,

And happy,

Why would we wanna change?

Why would we want to change?

But once you become aware,

A lot of the things that are going on can heal without the physical trauma,

I'll use Valerie's words,

It can happen more gently.

The growth can happen more gently.

We can grow without it.

But when things happen,

It's not bad.

It's not bad.

It's not bad.

It's really interesting,

Because there's things that are going on in my life that's making me and my mom talk about things when I was younger,

In my late teens,

In my 20s,

When I was defiant,

And when there was a lot of.

.

.

And in the beginning,

When we talked about it,

There was actually,

We would be angry and would stir up energy within the two of us.

And yesterday,

We were able to talk to it from a place of logic.

And I could feel that we were emotionally both really healed and had accepted some of the things,

But last week,

It wasn't true.

So even the past will come into present in some beautiful ways,

Even when you're doing your work.

So the whole point,

The whole point to conditioning,

If we can walk away with the whole point to conditioning,

And I feel the emotion,

I feel a lot of energy coming up,

And I appreciate all the hearts,

If we can come to calibrate to whatever happens to us,

No matter what we're doing and where we are and the work we're doing,

And to honor it and accept it,

Recognizing that it is what it is because there's work that we're doing,

There's something bigger that the universe is.

And just as long as we know our intentions,

And we're sound of mind,

And we focus on the empowering beliefs,

And we do things in our physical body that lends itself to love and happiness and health and wellness,

We just honor,

Just honor everything that happens.

Let's honor the unfolding of life,

Recognizing that everything that happens is for a reason,

And everything that happened is for a reason,

And let's let go of the shame and the judgment and the holding our past as something that makes us less than the fullness of our freedom and our worthiness and our love and our happiness.

And I love this heart,

I love the hearts,

And I love that it's resonating.

Enemy,

Freedom,

Harmony,

Peace,

Trust,

Acceptance,

And surrender,

Oh my God,

These are all beautiful words,

All beautiful words,

And I invite you all to sort of come in with an ami and jump in.

What are the words that you wanna calibrate to?

Freedom,

Harmony,

Peace,

Trust,

Acceptance,

And surrender.

Surrender is one of my favorites.

Surrender is one of my favorites,

Because I believe that that's what we're here for,

Is to learn how to surrender,

To surrender to our past,

To surrender and trust for our future while we create it.

We are the creators of our future.

We don't react,

We are actors.

I'm gonna do another one of actors versus reactors,

And I didn't record that one,

And I wanna record it and have it on my YouTube page.

We are the actors,

We are creators,

So the past we are gonna accept and surrender and love and find acceptance,

And then the present we will be just be,

And then dream and amplify and create for the future,

Create for the future.

Being on the receiving end of unconditional love would be quite nice too,

And ami,

You know what I'm gonna say,

To be on the receiving end of unconditional love means that you give it to you.

You know that,

I know that,

Yes,

As we are saying,

Tell me if that's what you're saying,

And I know that you said that seven minutes ago,

Because I was going on and on and on,

You guys know you can stop me at any time,

But well,

I guess you can type,

But in the more you type,

The more it makes me realize I'm talking too much.

But anyway,

The answer is,

Me and one of my friends have been talking a lot and just connecting on what's going on in our lives,

Many of my friends,

I say one of my friends,

But all my friends,

And I have friends that are different dimensions and different spirituality,

But one of the things me and her and I've been writing and we've written it to each other,

That everything that we need in life is found from the universe,

God,

Love,

And ultimately it's within,

Truth and within,

Within.

So that unconditional love,

Within,

And when you calibrate it to it,

Within,

When you calibrate to it,

Within,

Then you will get it externally.

When you calibrate to everything internally,

It's mirrored to you externally,

Externally.

So you want the unconditional love?

Find out what's holding you from unconditionally loving yourself.

And Nami,

I hope I'm not putting you on the spot,

But you know what,

I'm not,

Because you don't need to answer it,

But I invite all of you,

All of you,

What is it that's keeping you from your unconditional love?

What is it that's keeping you from unconditionally loving yourself?

Your body,

Your brain,

Your judgment on your brain,

Your socioeconomic,

Your career,

Your path,

Your education,

Your background,

Your past,

Your conditioning,

What is it that's keeping you from your,

Let's bring it out.

Valerie,

Sometimes it's difficult for me to honor my conditioning.

I tend to want to control,

Letting go is what I've been practicing and what helps me a lot is staying in the present moment.

Beautiful Valerie,

Let me ask you something.

When have you recognized that conditioning is to honor?

How long ago has it been?

How long of it has it been?

Has it been a week?

Has it been a month?

Has it been a year?

When have you shifted to that belief of recognizing that conditioning is just a normal part of life and that we came in fully dependent and how long ago?

How long ago?

And everybody tell me,

How long ago?

How long ago?

Anami,

I don't mind being put on the spot.

It's a mere opportunity to further expand.

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

I think conditioning,

I think it's pretty astonishing.

I love myself as much as I do,

Given I've been conditioned my entire life to believe that I was unworthy and unbelievable.

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

So it was that you were told that you are not.

Find it in your body.

We're gonna do meditation today.

Find it in your body.

This is what I love,

Thursdays about emotional body.

Everything we're talking about today is right here.

When I do my preamble,

Mostly we're here.

The egoic level,

The mental level.

Egoic level,

Mental level.

And mostly I try to reset our egoic beliefs.

Sometimes when someone brings up something so emotional,

We all go into our emotional body.

It's the emotional body that allows us to do the shifting.

It's finding those feelings where you buried it,

And Nami and all of us in our emotional body is where the shifting comes.

And that's where the magic is.

That is where the magic is.

Using new beliefs,

Figuring out where that resistance occurs in your mind,

And then finding the emotional component finding the emotional component to it.

There is with every feeling a thought and it becomes buried in our body through conditioning.

And we are on the journey to find,

Recondition to new thoughts,

Find the thought,

Beliefs,

Find the thoughts that resist it,

Figure out where those emotions are buried,

In our abdomen,

In our heart,

In our shoulders.

And the physical pain is an indication of where we're hiding those emotional pain.

Recognize it,

See it,

Love it,

Stop judging it,

Stop holding resistance to it,

And then letting it go,

And then letting it go.

Five steps,

Awareness,

Awareness of all the bodies,

Acknowledgement of the deeper desire,

Whether that's freedom,

Worthiness,

Or love.

We might use other words,

But ultimately it's one of those three.

I don't care how what we call it,

But it's a recognition,

Not of what is not wanted,

But what is wanted.

We are conditioned to think in what is not wanted.

We are going to move to start to think in what is wanted.

Resistance is an indication of what is wanted.

You will only experience resistance if there is something that's happening that is unaligned with what you don't want.

We are conditioned to say,

I don't want that.

We are going to recondition ourselves together to recognize,

Oh,

Here's something I don't want.

What is it that I want?

Three,

Appreciation.

That conditioning is here as a gift.

Everything is good,

Nothing is bad.

I am good.

Life's design,

The universe design is exactly happening as it is.

I'm doing the best that I can.

I am amazing.

I am on my journey of self-growth and I will continue to grow and calibrate.

And do and honor that.

And then once we do that,

Once we become aware and we acknowledge the deeper meaning and we appreciate,

Boom,

We can let go.

We let go.

That's where we discover it in the physical body.

Where are we holding it in our shoulders?

Where are we holding it in our elbow?

I don't know why I picked our elbow.

Our knee,

Anywhere.

And we can let go.

We can let go.

And you all intuitively know how to let go.

In our heart,

In our heart,

In our heart.

Last night I woke up at three o'clock because I had a caffeinated coffee.

I usually drink decaf.

I'm out of my Nespresso decaf.

And so I had to have a caffeinated because I had to have it.

I had to have my second,

And it was a second cup of coffee.

So at three o'clock,

Did a meditation.

That's what I do when I wake up in the middle of the night.

I'm like,

Perfect.

It means meditation.

And sometimes I wake up more revived than I had,

I slept during the night.

There was some stuff trapped in my heart.

It was here and beautiful,

Beautiful.

I became aware of it.

And I asked what it is and what do you want me to know?

And how can I learn from you?

And how do I,

And what should I see?

And how do I liberate myself from it?

I held,

You hold your resistance in a place of love.

Another thing,

If we can take away it from today,

We are not going to put resistance on resistance anymore.

No more resistance on resistance.

We are going to find a way to calibrate,

To finding everything to be from a place of honor,

Acceptance and beauty.

Life's design is exactly as this is meant to be.

This is life's design.

It is fine.

Okay guys,

I have missed some of the comments.

If I missed it,

Write it down again.

I see that Valerie,

I remember,

But I don't see it on my screen anymore,

Said self-doubt is one of her things that keep her from her self-love.

Self-doubt.

Valerie,

What's the opposite of that self-doubt?

What is the opposite of that self-doubt?

Kim,

Not having gone further in my education,

Career and money.

So again,

I think we're all answering the question I said,

What is keeping you,

What is keeping you,

What is keeping you from your fullness and your belief that you're worthy,

That you're free or you're lovable or love or peaceful or happiness?

You guys,

I'm sorry that the shade keeps coming in when I'm moving with my camera today.

I'm very aware of it,

But I get dark and light.

I guess it is what it is.

It's where the sun is.

Kim,

I just finished reading Think and Grow Rich again.

It was written in the 30s,

37,

I think 1937.

And I also have been reading Self-Mind Control again.

There's all my favorites that I feel like are some of these books,

There's most amazing books that are,

And I actually wrote them down a timeline talking with some of my friends,

Some of these teachers that some of the greats that have uncovered that your brain and there's vibration and there's all these things.

And I wrote down,

I'm like,

Okay,

Manal,

Let's sit down.

It was me and a friend on the phone talking.

When was this one written?

When was this one written?

When was this one written?

Education,

I believe is a blessing if you have education.

I believe so much in education.

Not everybody has been able to get it.

And money and abundance is everything,

But they're not necessarily connected.

And I believe with anything,

There are greats.

There are greats in our history and present without an education,

Without an,

And from nothing that have created themselves into.

So Kim,

That's a wonderful awareness,

A wonderful awareness of conditioning that you have.

And I'm gonna invite you to break through that.

And it is irrelevant of what you had.

You are capable of doing and coming up with anything,

Anything.

So we're gonna come back to that.

For Naz,

I let myself down a lot by trusting too much.

So I ruminate on that a lot.

Okay,

Beautiful.

I have a big thing about trust.

It's not about trusting others and trusting people external to you.

It's about trusting yourself on who to trust.

What we want to calibrate you and all of us to is trusting our judgment,

Not trusting others and then they let us down,

But calibrating to having a full trusting of knowing when I can trust and when something smells off.

And we all have gut instinct.

We all know,

We all know,

We all know when something is off.

We all know,

We can all develop that and strengthen that and build that muscle,

All of us.

So it's not about trusting others.

It's not about giving your trust away.

It's not giving up your power away.

It's about calibrating to the trust,

Your trust in yourself and your trust in again,

Your language,

The universe,

God,

Source,

Energy,

Inner being,

Pick it,

Pick it,

Pick it.

I don't care what you do,

What you pick,

Nature,

But the trust in the bigger story.

And that is what keeps you from feeling mistrust from the world.

Because you know what?

If you're gonna feel it,

You're gonna find it.

So what we wanna calibrate is to,

Did that,

For now,

Did that help guys?

Do you get it?

I got some hearts in there.

I got some hearts in there.

Okay,

Let me go up.

Let me go up,

But I think that's beautiful.

Do,

Do,

Do,

Do,

G-E-S,

Or G,

Ah,

G-E-S-S,

Guess,

Guess.

I'll call you guess,

But there's no you,

But we're gonna say guess.

Conditioning is lifelong from day one,

From every direct and indirect introduction from the world.

Yes,

When you're in the womb,

When you are the womb,

You can pick up things from your mother when you're in the womb.

When I do some of the past work with some of my coaching clients,

Sometimes it's like,

What did you feel from your mother's energy when you're in the womb?

It's from the moment of inception.

We are energetic beings and we feel all of that.

Yes,

Yes,

Yes,

Yes,

Yes,

Yes,

Yes.

Absolutely.

It's difficult to condition myself in a world that's always conditioning me to its liking or disliking.

This is very similar to what I'm saying.

It's about us becoming the actor,

Guess.

It's about us becoming the actor.

It's no longer about me reacting to the world.

It's me acting to the world.

And I see that you liked resistance and indication to what is wanted.

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

I'm glad that resonated with you.

Okay,

First of all,

Guess,

I think you're new unless you've never spoken in the past.

Let me say something.

Everybody that knows me knows that I really like to remove some words from our vocabulary every now and then I'll sneak it in.

But one of the things that I really dislike us being conditioned to is thinking that things are hard,

Life is difficult,

Suffering and struggle.

We've been conditioned to use that so,

So,

So frequently.

And I believe that things can be easy.

You know when you're lined up some days and everything boom,

Boom,

Boom,

Boom,

Boom,

Boom happens?

You know those days when things just happen smoothly and that you don't even have to try and you're like boom,

Boom,

Boom,

Boom,

Boom?

Things can happen with ease.

We need to move from efforting,

That's the physical to allowing,

That's the spiritual.

And it doesn't mean that we're not gonna work hard and we're not gonna do.

I've been like,

During my days,

I go from this to this to this to this,

But when I'm in my flow,

It does not feel like work.

One of my dearest,

Dearest,

Dearest,

Dearest,

Dearest,

Dearest friends,

And yesterday we kept best friend,

Best friend,

Best friend,

But I have so many best friends in so many different worlds.

So I don't wanna say my best friend because one of my best friends will say,

Well,

I thought you were my best friends.

I have so many best friends,

But she's moving.

She's my next door neighbor and she's moving.

I try not to let people know who people are,

But anyway,

I just said it,

My best friend and my next door neighbor is moving.

We've been moving together.

I have never had so much fun moving,

Packing,

Going from upstairs to downstairs,

The attic and moving things and sweating.

We've been laughing all day.

We've been allowing and it's so beautiful and I've moved several times and it has not been pleasurable.

And so let's move from efforting on the physical level to allowing on the spiritual level.

Sometimes when I do these live streams,

Sometimes I feel like,

Ooh,

And I'm in my mind.

Today is just coming out,

Coming out,

Coming out,

Because I'm sort of aligned.

There's just some sort of truth that just keeps coming out,

Keep it going.

There's no effort.

There's no effort.

There's no effort.

So what I want for all of us,

And this is the journey that I want us all to be on,

All to be on,

It's let's move.

It's again,

It's all in this egoic level of trusting the universe,

Trusting there's something bigger,

Trusting the stories,

Trusting ourselves,

Trust,

Which comes surrender,

Trust and surrender,

Which allows us to allow.

And then we start to dream and then we feel good and appreciate and find gratitude and find acceptance in everything.

And then our life is perfect exactly as it is.

And then we dream,

But life is perfect exactly as it is.

And then we dream and then everything unfolds exactly as we want.

That's what everybody calls manifestation,

But it has to come to acceptance with where you are,

Acceptance with where you are,

That everything is perfect.

And we're not going to effort it to believe it.

We are going to just know it and trust it.

Okay,

Let me see what I missed.

You guys,

If I miss any of your comments,

Please retype it,

Please,

Because I love talking to everything.

Anami,

I've been infusing more awareness to the conditioned yum yuck of late.

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

It's all awareness.

It's awareness of like,

Ooh,

Why did I think that thought?

Ooh,

Why am I feeling that?

Ooh,

Jealousy is something that used to come out and I used to be ashamed.

I still sort of have some ashamed to say that I used to feel jealousy in some instances.

I have not felt it in a few years.

Only after I was willing to say to one of my friends,

I feel jealous every now and then,

And she never did and I love that she didn't,

But I had to say it to let it go and to not be ashamed.

And she held me in such,

She wasn't judgmental and she was just really curious.

And she's like,

Oh really,

Manel?

Because you've got every,

Like,

And it's not about me having everything or not having everything.

It's an emotion that was somehow conditioned in me for feeling less than,

And it could only be let go when I was willing to just say it in a trusting place,

In a vulnerable way.

Even,

You don't have to say it to other people,

But sometimes I grow the most by having a mirror of somebody on me and I'll say,

I'm gonna tell you stuff.

Can you tell me what you see?

Can you help me?

Because sometimes when you're stuck in your own conditioning,

That ability to see is not as clear as somebody else.

And when they say it,

Can you,

Sometimes she'll tell me and I'll be,

Yeah,

That's it.

And sometimes I'm like,

Mm-mm,

You're off.

That sounds like your own conditioning.

Don't give me your conditioning.

I want mine.

I want to figure out my own.

But yes,

Yes,

The tool is awareness and it's non-judgmental awareness.

And all of my meditations,

I'm gonna say to you guys,

Become aware,

Dude,

Be objective observer.

Do not overindulge in the feeling.

You're not overindulge.

You're an explorer.

We are detangling.

It's like we have all these wires that are tangled together and we're slowly detangling them so we can calibrate to freedom and worthiness and love.

That's what the journey is.

That's what the journey is.

We're gonna do it with pleasure.

We're gonna do it with pleasure.

Just like now.

Is this heart,

You guys,

Is this hurting?

Are we saying anything bad?

Are we crying?

We can be crying and I was moved,

So I'm not in any way saying it.

But it could be done with spirit and with excitement and with zeal and curiosity for life and like an investigator,

Like an architect.

I didn't mean an architect.

I mean,

An archeologist,

Like a historian,

Like a scientist.

We do it through like,

Oh,

Observation and curiosity and fascination,

Fascination.

These stories that repeat itself generation to generation to generation.

Guys,

Isn't that fascinating?

Isn't it fascinating?

Isn't it fascinating?

Fascinating,

Fascinating,

Fascinating.

And what's fascinating to me,

Sometimes I have a client that her experience that she's feeling mirrors one of her family members,

But her family members is all in the physical level at need while hers is all in the spiritual level and happening,

The emotions and the conditions and the beliefs are the same,

But her family members is in from need,

From need,

Not able to be safe and secure in the world.

And hers is from a place of comfort,

But still experiencing things that are painful and it's happening at different levels.

So you will still grow spiritually and still feel the feelings,

But it doesn't have to impact,

It doesn't have to mean that it's hurting you on your physical level.

Godavari,

Godavari,

Godavari,

I hope I'm saying that.

I know I'm sort of not saying well.

I'm following you Manel,

This was fabulous.

Have to go back to work now,

Blessings to all.

Thank you,

Thank you,

Thank you.

You are marvelous,

I'm so glad and I'm excited.

I'm sorry,

I see now that I'm scrolling that you said some things,

But you're talking to Farnaz,

Moving from efforting to,

So you were repeating some things,

Fantastic.

Oh my God,

I'm so behind you guys,

I'm so behind.

And Nami,

So appreciate you.

All as well,

I so appreciate you all as well as the view you share with us.

I've been so deprived of nature.

I missed,

I lost it.

It moved you guys,

It moved.

Okay,

If I missed anybody,

Can you type it again?

Is that bad,

Is that too bad to ask?

I'm sort of scrolling back and it moves and stuff.

Let me know if I missed anything.

I see right now that Farnaz said yes to something and Nami said,

It's interesting.

I've been noticing up late that all my life,

I've been incredibly objective and observant with others and with myself to some degree as well,

But have had a great deal of difficulty in leaning into the more observer with myself and my feelings and my feelings.

And Nami,

That's a beautiful observation.

And I think the reason is,

I think the reason is,

We are scared to feel our feelings.

If we don't know that they can tool us and we can use them to let go,

We don't go into them.

The work and the meditations that I know and I know you know,

I get us to go in to the feeling,

Go into the emotion and feel it.

And feel it with curiosity and with welcoming and I believe what it is that's happening vibrationally is that when you go into your sadness or your anger and you're willing to feel it,

And then you honor it and you ask it what you want from it and you just go into it,

It's resonance and the vibration continues until it,

And it goes and it breaks.

It's almost like those bridges that resonate to the same frequency of the wind and then they break.

That's what happens with our vibration,

With the sadness or the anger.

But we're not adding resistance to it and to shame to it,

Which means that you're adding more resistance.

No,

We're feeling it and feeling it and going at that same frequency until it breaks.

And then it's releasing love and peace and beauty.

So it's hard to go into feelings if you don't know that you can use it as a tool and love it and honor it and then let go of it.

That's my favorite part of the work.

It's my favorite part of the work is just going and exploring that emotion and being so curious with it,

So curious with it.

So,

So curious with it.

It's my favorite,

Favorite,

Favorite,

Favorite part.

Okay,

I'm scrolling again.

Farnaz,

I guess I fooled myself because I was desperate for attention,

Acceptance and love.

Beautiful,

So where are we gonna,

Ah,

Valerie,

I see something.

I think acceptance is the opposite of doubt.

Yeah,

I think acceptance is,

I think worthiness is that I believe I'm unconditionally worthy,

Exactly.

Acceptance is doubt is a word that's not worthiness.

Doubt is doubt,

Confidence,

But confidence,

I always believe is a derivative of worthiness.

Absolutely,

Absolutely.

So when we know that we're feeling something that feels resistant,

What we're gonna do is become aware,

Hey,

I see you self-doubt.

I'm not gonna doubt my self-doubt.

I'm not gonna judge myself doubt.

I'm not gonna hate on myself doubt.

I'm not gonna hate on myself for having the self-doubt.

I'm gonna say,

Hey,

Doubt,

I see you.

Recognize where it's coming from.

Oh,

You've been here since I've been in the womb.

Oh,

You came when I was three,

When mom had a second baby and all of a sudden I was displaced.

Oh,

You came in when I was six,

When I was in kindergarten and I thought I was loved,

But somebody didn't wanna play with me on my playground.

So you'll sort of come through your timeline,

Figure out where it was introduced in your physical reality,

Sort of take a look at your parents and your family and see whether it's generational and whether this is something that is meant to grow on a larger scale,

Sort of float through it and say,

Oh my God,

I love you,

You're beautiful.

And I am going to calibrate to what is desired.

I am so happy that you've been my teacher and that you've been with me and you've been a secure friend.

You haven't always been a friend,

But I recognize now that you're a friend to my growth.

So maybe you're a frenemy or maybe before I thought you were an enemy,

Now you're gonna be my frenemy and later on,

I'm gonna make you my friend.

I'm gonna make you my friend because now I recognize you are pointing me to my growth,

To my expansion,

To my worthiness,

To my freedom,

To my self-love.

And I see that this has been a story of my life.

I see the story of the universe.

Some things may have started with Adam and Eve,

If you believe that that was the start.

Some things may have started.

The relationship between male and female and male being good and female being bad starts in Adam and Eve's story.

Some of the work that I've done,

I sort of seen that the conditioning started from some of the stories that talk about how life has started and I'm like,

Oh,

This is so interesting.

Blows me away,

So interesting,

So interesting.

So yes,

It's about confidence and worthiness and letting go of that self-doubt and calibrating to the beauty of who you are,

The beauty of who we are.

Okay guys,

I'm scrolling back again.

Anami,

I think I've lived most of this life in the depth of my feelings and more times than not dwelling deeply and for far longer than necessary,

The unfavorable ones.

Beautiful.

So why don't you,

When you explore your feelings,

Create the intention to say,

Hey,

My intention is to understand you so I can let go of you and calibrate to truth.

So I am not going to linger.

I'm going to see what is it that you want from me to grow.

And if you continue to linger,

Ask,

Hey,

Is there something I'm missing because I want to calibrate to X,

Y,

Or Z?

So just become aware and just say,

Hey,

I'm going to build my muscle that I can process through you quicker and quicker and quicker.

And it's part of the,

It's part of the muscling.

It's part of the muscling.

All of you that have known me and for those of you that this is your first time,

I call everything that we're being unconditioned to,

It's like a muscle,

It's like a muscle.

We're accepting if we need to work on our abs or we got to work on our biceps or build up our quads.

If we haven't worked on this muscle for our whole life and now we're in our 30s or 40s and 50s and we have this awareness,

Honor that we got to build up the muscle.

And don't say,

Well,

I worked on this yesterday,

So.

How long does it take us to learn a language?

Years.

It's a new language,

Guys.

This is a new language.

It's a new way of acting,

Of walking,

Of being.

Allow it to take the time that it needs,

The time that's best for your highest good.

It's one of my favorite phrases that I had learned.

The time that's best for your highest good.

Let go of time.

Another thing,

You guys,

Another thing.

I don't like hard,

Difficult,

Suffer and struggle.

I do not like measuring time.

I do not like the limitations we put to time.

That things will either take too long or not are possible or even saying.

Allow time to evolve from the place of allowing time from the place of allowing and not efforting.

Don't put limits on your time.

Anytime that you see that something you think,

Something will take a long time,

Replace it and recondition yourself to say,

The time that's best for my highest good.

The time that's best.

The time that's appropriate.

Find the times that you limit and constrain yourself in the physical earth of time.

Because in the emotional level,

The mental level,

The vibrational level,

There is no time.

And when we limit on the physical,

We limit allowing.

So that's another thing that I would love you all to walk away with today.

To recognize where you're limiting yourself on time and let go of limitations.

Valerie,

One of the conditions I've been challenging and trusting my intuition rather than my rational logical thoughts.

Beautiful.

Over the weekend,

I broke up with a five and a half year relationship because I had a gut feeling.

I realized that I'd been so conditioned by feeling and overreacting a lot of emotionally unstable,

Not leaning into my intuition and not trusting myself.

Making shift is scary,

But I wanna really trust myself.

Valerie,

That's absolutely all fantastically beautiful.

And I want you to trust your intuition in any way.

The story unfolds.

Whether you return,

Whether you don't return,

Whether whatever,

It doesn't matter.

Don't say that my gut intuition at this moment,

Which may,

That is right.

Your gut and what's right can shift with what is right or wrong.

So sometimes we feel that if I've got reaction yesterday,

That if my reaction or my belief of doing something differently is today,

Means one was right and one was wrong.

No,

No,

No,

No.

Things unfolded in a way to allow conditions to change.

Are you with me on that one?

But I salute you,

I celebrate you,

I honor you,

I love you and I think this is amazing.

And just recognizing,

Hey,

I'm here again.

I am here,

I am here and I'm gonna come to here.

I'm gonna trust myself.

I'm gonna believe in myself.

I know that when I'm in alignment,

When you're doing things from a place of clarity,

When you're doing things from a place of knowing,

When you're doing things,

Not reacting emotionally,

But in true pure alignment,

You are doing the right thing.

And Valerie,

I know that your gut intuition is strong as heck and I know that you have the right alignment because you're telling me that you're aware of it.

And that means if you're aware of it,

Then you're using your mind and telling your mind,

Hey,

Have you shifted yet,

Valerie?

Have you said yet,

Have you done the meditation that puts your heart as the command center and asks your heart to lead the mind and the egoic and the physical?

And that you're shifting from your mind to your heart?

Have you done that meditation from any of my meditations or any of my live stream yet?

Because I think that's a really powerful,

Beautiful one.

I make it a deliberate practice for us to say,

Hey,

I'm leading from the heart and the mind is more powerful when the heart leads.

Have you done that,

Valerie?

Have you all done that?

Have any of you?

Valerie,

I'm not sure,

But I'll definitely look for it.

I've been listening to your meditations every morning the past few days,

Beautiful,

Thank you.

I will put it in the attaining your authentic life.

I believe it's called heart,

Mind,

And body alignment,

But that's not exactly the,

I don't think that's exactly the title,

But it's that intention.

I'm going to put it on the attaining your authentic life and all of you that are here,

Attaining your authentic life is a group and I want us to keep the discussions going.

It's relatively new,

So the group is still small and we're not as chatty as I'd like to be because I know there's a lot of things for us to share,

You know,

Seven days a week and sort of get things out and be there for each other with the new language that we're setting together.

But I'll put in there and list what that one is,

But I think it's a very,

Very beautiful one if you and your four bodies,

Your go with body,

Your mental body,

Your emotional body,

And your physical body are ready for you to create the intention for your emotional body.

You know what,

We'll do it today during the live stream.

I don't know if I've ever done it during a live stream.

I will do it and I'll also list it in the meditation if you guys want to reinforce it.

Good,

Good,

Good,

Good.

Okay,

I'm gonna scroll again and see if I missed anything because I know that there's some really big things that people say for you all say,

Valerie,

You are amazing,

You're all amazing.

I love you all,

I love you all,

I love you all.

I love everybody that's with me all the time and following and I love everybody that's new and I love everybody that wants to grow and find themselves from a place of a higher level and look within and take responsibility for our life.

Beautiful,

Rita,

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

Okay,

I keep scrolling and it keeps moving and if anybody wants,

If I missed anything,

Please put it in there.

Anami,

Smiles,

Inhale deeply.

I really needed to hear and feel these sentiments.

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

Okay,

Anybody,

Is there any other comment?

Is there anything that you'd like me to say or would you like a meditation or are you all feeling good?

We don't always do a meditation if you all feel in alignment,

But if anybody feels like,

Oh,

This woke up some emotion and I wanna do and I think it would be a good idea for us to get that alignment of heart,

Mind and ego and body.

Anami,

I'd like to also add alignment,

Celebration,

Healing,

Honoring,

Showing up as my best self,

Receiving,

Making wise decisions,

I'll call that wisdom,

Ease and fluidity and getting away from striving to what I'd like to calibrate to.

In addition to the aforementioned freedom,

Harmony,

Peace,

Trust,

Acceptance,

Surrender and unconditional love.

Okay,

Beautiful,

Anami,

I'm gonna read that again cause it's beautiful.

Alignment,

Celebration,

Healing.

I don't usually like healing cause it means something's broken.

So I used to use healing a lot,

Anami and I try to stay away from it and I try to go to health and strength.

So I know it's a positive word because it indicates,

But it indicates subtlety that something is broken.

So I'm gonna,

If you can calibrate to that,

Great.

If you feel like you're in a mode of healing,

That's fine but I try to not include that as one of the things to calibrate to because it means that it's always something is not well.

So I'm gonna say it and you adopt if not,

If it's in line with your truth.

Alignment,

Celebration,

Health,

Strength,

Honoring,

Showing up as my best self,

Receiving,

Wisdom,

Ease and fluidity and striving to what I calibrate to in addition to freedom,

Harmony,

Peace,

Trust,

Acceptance,

Surrender and unconditional love.

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

And that's all from within,

All from within.

Rita,

How to handle work at stress.

Stress is a fun one.

Stress is sometimes a label,

Anxiety,

Stress.

It's a label of emotions that we don't want to go deeper in so it's sort of like hiding.

So if you asked yourself,

Rita and all of you,

If we asked ourselves,

What is the underlining emotion with stress?

Is it frustration?

Is there anger?

Is there sadness?

Can you dig a bit deeper to see what are the emotions that you're repressing when you're saying stress?

Describe to me in more detail what and where that stress is coming from.

Leslie,

Meditation please.

Then we'll go,

Yes,

Absolutely,

Absolutely.

So happy to see you,

Leslie.

And I don't know how late it is for you if I do my math in my head,

I'm sure I can figure it out.

Anami,

Beautiful.

Vitality in each of my bodies,

Physical,

Emotional,

Mental,

And spiritual,

Beautiful.

I love that word,

Vitality.

Vitality,

Exactly.

Calibrate to vitality.

How does that feel,

Guys?

Vitality versus healing.

Healing feels like we're less than.

Vitality feels like strength and energy and wellness and power.

Rita,

Rita,

Rita,

Talk to me more about your stress.

And anybody,

Talk to me about your stress.

What does stress mean to you?

Where is it coming?

Is it in your physical body?

Is it in your emotional body?

Are you feeling stress tension?

Are you emotionally feeling it?

Is it in your mind?

Let's break it down to understanding what the stress is.

So Rita,

You answer me,

Or any of you answer.

Let's work out stress together and then we'll go into a meditation if nobody has anything else.

What does stress?

Beautiful,

Rita,

Unsupported bosses,

Feeling unsupported.

Work subpar,

Not feeling motivated.

Now I'm gonna ask you something.

Rita,

In your life,

Have you felt supported?

Have you felt unsupported?

In your life,

Have you felt motivation?

So does this start from your work or can you see that there was a story before there that you actually lived in different areas unsupported?

Beautiful,

This is the magic of the work,

Rita.

This is the magic of the work.

And sometimes I get excited and say fantastic when people say really negative things and I'm like,

Guys,

You know I'm not talking about the physical story.

I'm talking about the energetic story.

So in your life,

If we rewind,

Okay Rita,

Stay with me and everybody else that wants to answer just because Rita's pointing out hers,

This aligns to all of us.

When did your unsupported story start?

In the womb,

One,

Two,

Three,

Four,

Five,

Six,

Seven.

Tell me what it is.

Farnaz,

Me too,

Sadness about being unsupported.

Beautiful,

Farnaz.

When did your story start?

When did your story start?

Being adopted,

Rita.

Beautiful,

Children that are adopted,

Fostering,

Have a beautiful,

Really initial unconditioning that they've gotten from their very beginning.

Guys,

I know that I can hear that somebody started to do their garden back there.

If it gets too loud,

Tell me and I'll have to shift because I know I've had to shift in the past but I hope it's not too intrusive.

Rita,

People that have not had their beautiful gale,

Beautiful gale,

Womb,

I was out of wedlock by mistake.

Beautiful,

Look at you guys.

This is unconditioning.

This is the whole thesis of today that we're holding judgment on something that we could not control.

Rita adopted gale in the womb.

She was a mistake.

There was so much feel,

A fear and probably shame and uncertainty and self-worth in her mom,

Carrying her for nine months and then she came out.

Kim,

10 years old when my parents divorced.

Look at you guys,

Fantastic.

This is the work.

This is the work that Rita,

Rita,

Your story is that you're unsupported in work but it's not.

The truth of the story is that it started as a child and now that we know that,

We can recondition and it's painful.

Like I can feel the emotion.

I can feel the emotion.

I'm smiling and tell me guys if I need to shift and we're gonna do the meditation to shift all of this now.

Yes,

Paris,

Sending so much love to all of you but this is the conditioning.

All of us have stories from our childhood that have hurt us in so ways and we buried it and more and more and more,

We're giving our kids counseling and therapy and the tools that they need to start to untangle from them at a younger age but even that is calibrating them to different things that they need to uncalibrate from but today,

The whole intention is to become aware of the power of the conditioning and to shift back to our alignment with truth and our inner power.

Farnaz,

As the last child,

So only got in the way or felt connections was through feelings and shows of emotions.

She had to,

Farnaz had to act out to get attention.

Beautiful and you know,

One of the teachers that I listened to said,

Even if your parents were perfect,

Children will start to have unconditioning to feel resentment that they never knew what the resistance is because there's resistance in the world.

So this is just part of the natural part of the human story and if we can find a point of holding our stories with honor and respect and recognition that they're here to teach us and to detangle with the recognition of our worthiness.

So everybody that shared and that talked and Rita and Farnaz and Gail and Kim and I know Paris,

You didn't say anything but Paris and all of you,

Are we willing to recognize that the way we feel now is strongly correlated to lifelong stories,

To conditioning?

Are we willing to hold that?

We want that belief.

Give me a yes or give me a no,

Give me a heart,

Give me a love,

Give me something.

Farnaz,

Yes.

Come on guys,

Are we willing to?

Are we willing to?

I know there's a bit of lag in here but I'm not seeing,

Are we willing to recognize that there is strength in our stories,

There is meaning in our stories instead of holding it from resistance and I think I held it earlier on but there is a reason that is guiding me in this life to calibrating to war.

Kim,

Yes,

I see the heart starting,

I see the hearts,

I see the hearts,

Beautiful.

I think the lag is gone,

Perfect.

So if we're willing to then,

Then Rita,

Mind blowing,

Beautiful.

That's where I want us to go to,

Mind-blowing.

Kim,

Yes,

Paris,

I've been willing for a few years and slowly doing the work but I need to keep going.

Exactly,

It's a lifelong process because we keep going up and up and amplifying,

Amplifying.

Guess,

I thought you were leaving but yes,

Yes,

Yes,

Yes,

And Gail,

Yes,

And Valerie,

Yes,

100%,

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

This is the work,

Rita,

A second ago you thought you were unsupported at work and now you realize,

Oh,

This is my story.

Isn't there power?

Isn't that power?

And you probably are unsupported in work.

None of this means the truth is not true but it means once you find that you're supported in life,

You'll either quit your job or your bosses will change.

You'll either,

It doesn't mean that you have to change your conditions.

The feeling that you have can shift and you might get motivated,

You could get promoted,

They give you different things.

So the physical doesn't have to change.

You don't have to do things differently but when you shift your egoic belief,

The physical follows with it and either things happen organically that someone comes up and says,

Rita,

You're perfect for this new role,

Can you come?

Or your bosses shift and see something in you or you pull out and something comes and boom,

All things shift.

It starts here on this ogoic level.

So now,

All of you,

All of you,

All of you,

We all said that we're willing to realize our stories are here for a moment,

Mind blowing,

Mind blowing,

Says Rita,

Mind blowing.

Are you willing to recognize that we're fully supported?

We are supported by the universe and that our physical experience is here to teach us that we're supported by the universe,

From within,

By God,

By inner being,

By source.

If you wanna type in who you believe that's supporting you,

Whether it's your inner being,

Whether it's universe,

Whether it's nature,

Whether it's God,

I don't care what you wanna call it,

But do you wanna recognize you are supported in this amazing world we call life?

Join me,

I will wait for the lag.

Join me if you wanna know that you are supported.

Valerie,

Higher power,

My higher self,

Beautiful.

I love higher power,

I love higher self.

Smiles,

Yes,

Very much so.

And then I mean,

Yes,

Yes,

Yes,

We are supported.

Guess,

Yes,

Kim,

Yes,

We're supported,

We are supported.

Ray,

I am supported,

I am supported,

I am supported.

So fabulous to see you,

Ray.

I am supported,

I am supported.

So when we get that feeling,

Rita,

Here's your answer.

Here's your answer.

It wasn't direct,

But we got there.

I feel stress at work.

Become aware.

Oh,

Look,

I'm feeling stress.

Ask yourself,

Where am I feeling this physically?

Oh,

I'm carrying it in my shoulders.

Oh,

I feel like my throat is congested because I can't speak my truth.

Oh,

I just feel my chest feels heavy.

Then you're like,

Hmm,

What's the emotion?

What's that stress emotion?

Oh my God,

I don't feel supported,

I feel unsupported.

And then you're like,

Oh,

I know this is a story.

This comes back to me being adopted,

Being a last child,

My parents divorcing,

Being a mistake.

Oh,

But that's me and my physical body.

I'm actually supported.

I'm supported by the universe,

By my higher power,

My higher self,

My inner being,

Universe,

Nature,

And this is the work.

This is the work.

This is the work.

And I am excited to do the work because I have found a way to do the work from a place of celebration,

Of honour,

Of excitement,

Of growth,

Of expansion,

And calibrate back to my worthiness,

To my freedom,

To my self-love.

This is the work.

And it's not work,

It's fun.

It's interesting.

It's exhilarating.

It's mind blowing.

So Rita,

Did I answer the question?

How do I deal with work stress?

It's empowering.

Thank you,

Valerie.

One of my favourite words,

And all of you that know me know that sometimes people call me and my kids would sometimes would say toxic positivity,

Mom,

Positivity,

You're too positive.

And I felt like for a while now I'm like,

Oh,

No,

No,

No,

No,

No,

No.

This is not positive.

This is not positivity.

This is empowering because I honour every belief.

I honour it.

And just because I can process it quickly and because I get it quickly and I understand it doesn't mean it's toxic positivity.

That's a bad thing.

To not honour your feelings,

To not honour how your body feels,

To not honour your emotions,

That's bad.

I am never saying that.

I will never say to you to say an affirmation that you do not believe.

It will not happen.

But I will celebrate the exploration of old beliefs,

Of limiting thoughts,

Of emotions and physicality to find alignment and beauty in this world.

And I know this world is beautiful and people are great and amazing.

Rita,

I'm very hard on myself.

Beautiful.

Welcome to the world of being human.

I'm a recovering perfectionist.

You want to be a recovering hard on myself person?

Who wants to be a recovering perfectionist?

Who wants to be a recovering I'm not good enough?

Who wants to be a recovering I'm very hard on myself?

Who wants to recover from that?

And I mean,

Me too.

Me too.

Me too,

Valerie,

Yes.

Hands up,

Sharon,

I do.

Let us recover and let us accept ourselves.

Sharon,

Yes.

Paris,

I'm a recovering perfectionist too.

Kim,

Yes.

Yes,

Yes.

Yes,

Yes.

Yes.

Let us recognize that's part of the conditioning.

We are all good enough.

Doesn't matter.

Doesn't matter.

Listen,

People are born blind,

Deaf.

There's limbs.

Don't tell me they're conditioned to believe they're not worthy.

They're believed that there's things less than.

ADHD,

ASAs,

Whatever it might be.

All of these things.

No,

They're here to learn from life,

To calibrate back to worthiness and to freedom and to beauty and to love.

Anami,

Beautiful.

Today I have such a joyous energy too.

It's like amazing.

Sharon,

Anxiety and chronic pain.

Anxiety is exactly the same thing as stress.

It's a fear that I'm not willing to acknowledge.

There's a fear.

If you wanted to go into more,

And chronic pain is because you're not willing to acknowledge the fear,

It's gonna keep coming up into your body until you learn how to let go and surrender.

And I have some meditations on foot pain and shoulder pain,

And I keep meaning to do the rest of the bodies,

And I actually wanna do chronic pain as well,

Because it's the emotional.

So if you wanna share more about Sharon,

What is your anxiety about?

We can figure out where it came from and everybody can say,

Oh,

Me too,

Me too.

You just haven't learned how to acknowledge it because it has not been safe,

Safe.

And today's intention is to make it safe.

Safe for us to say,

Hey,

That was a mistake.

Hey,

My parents got divorced and it really messed me up.

Hey,

I was adopted.

Hey,

It doesn't feel good.

Some of my conditioning from my child does not feel good.

So Sharon,

What is it that,

What are you anxious about?

And if I tell you that anxiety is a fear that you cannot name or a fear that you do not want to name,

What are you scared of?

Kim,

It includes chronic fatigue,

Chronic pain and chronic fatigue.

It's the same thing.

Fatigue is an emotion.

It's not just a physical feeling.

It's an emotion as well.

And being tired of life,

Not being able to move on,

Feeling that things are stagnant,

But not being true to yourself,

Not expressing yourself,

Is going to make you tired.

Your energy is not flowing.

You're not flowing.

We are meant to flow.

We've got our seven chakras,

We've got our four chakras,

We've got our seven chakras,

We've got our energy,

And we are meant to flow.

So if you're not flowing because we're not speaking our truth,

If we're not flowing because we are anxious,

Using Sharon's word,

And fearful,

Usually the fear is in the first chakra,

In your root chakra,

You don't feel safe,

You don't feel secure,

Energy's not flowing.

And that's why at the end of all my meditations,

I imagine the universal light coming in.

Sometimes I imagine it going through all your body.

Sometimes I like to imagine it from the crown to your heart.

You guys know I flow it through from the top of your head,

Your third eye,

Through your head,

Your neck,

And then ground into your heart.

And then I like to imagine the divine earth energy coming in through the soles of your feet,

Your calves,

Your knees,

Your thighs,

Through your pelvic area,

Your abdomen,

And then meeting that light in your heart.

And that allows our energy to move again.

And any resistance keeps our energy from flowing,

And that will make us feel,

That resistance will give us emotional pain.

And if we keep ignoring the emotional pain,

It turns into chronic pain,

Or cancer,

Or any physical ailment.

It starts as stress and tension,

And then it builds and builds and builds and builds.

Okay,

Beautiful,

Sharon.

I think my anxiety comes from me parenting my mom.

She relied on me as a best friend.

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

And so what did that make you feel?

Not free.

I'm guessing,

Tell me if that resonates.

So it's fear of not being free,

Fear of being stuck,

Fear of being tethered and not safe.

Tell me where the not safe comes in.

And this is powerful.

This is so powerful,

And this is beautiful.

And Kim,

I'm glad this is resonating with you.

Anami,

Beautiful,

Thank you.

Love you,

I'm so glad that you are here.

I hope to come on Thursday.

Anami,

They're not on the Insight Timer,

They're on YouTube,

Because they don't replay the ones on Insight Timer.

Sharon,

I think because I didn't have a parent,

And I was worrying all the time about her.

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

You only had your mother,

And so if anything happened to her,

Means that you were unsafe,

And there was a sense of lack of security in your future,

Because having not won,

Did I say that appropriately?

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Sharon.

So this is the exact same thing as being supported,

That we're supported by the universe.

And there's a fear of not being supported,

There's a fear of losing something in the physical,

There's a fear of it could be financial,

Could have been in the house,

Could have been different things.

And ultimately we calibrate back to recognition that we're supported,

And the universe works in amazing,

Beautiful ways.

And there's reason that things happen,

And that you're connected.

You're connected to the support of the universe.

Sharon,

Tell me if this is resonating.

And did I get it right that you only had one parent,

And that was some of the fear that if you lost the one,

You didn't have another?

I wasn't sure what the both was resonating with.

So tell me how this much.

And Ami,

Thank you.

A lot of them will be uploaded this week.

Ray,

A lot of anxiety comes from not believing in our capability,

Even though experience tell us otherwise.

Beautiful,

Ray,

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

This is wonderful for you to recognize.

That's the abdomen,

That's the third,

The solar plexus.

That's the solar plexus.

And so doing work on your solar plexus,

Recognizing that in your life that you don't feel capable,

And you are fully capable because you're supported by the universe.

You have access to infinite intelligence.

You are unlimited worthy,

Unconditionally worthy,

Unconditionally free,

Unconditionally love.

You are connected to the universe that gives you everything that you need.

And that's your solar plexus.

So look at how you feel.

Even how you feel about your stomach is helping you calibrate to your sense of capability.

Do you judge your waistline?

Do you judge your waistline?

Everybody tell me if you judge your waistline.

If you judge your waistline,

That's a form of you not judging,

Not trusting your capability in yourself.

And if you control your waistline by doing so many sit-ups and doing many planks and doing all of this stuff,

It means that you're trying to control your sense of capability,

Not allowing.

It's only when you just sort of allow and flow that you are in alignment with your capability and your ability to support yourself.

Ray,

Does that resonate?

And do you judge your waistline?

And Nami is talking to Sharon,

So I won't read this.

Sharon,

I have both parents,

But my dad wasn't super involved.

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

But I think we got down to it.

Do you feel,

I know we're gonna still do the meditation and it's hour and 15,

So I know we're gonna go to it very shortly.

Sharon,

Do you feel calibrated now?

Do you feel that you understand your anxiety in a level that you didn't?

Do you feel that you could start to detangle from the stories and start to become self-aware when you feel anxious and you ask yourself,

What is it that I am fearing?

I used to call it anxiety because I wasn't brave enough,

Courageous enough,

Or willing to call it fear.

I wasn't willing to call it fear.

It wasn't willing to call it fear,

But now I am.

Sharon,

Beautiful,

That's okay.

We do this two,

Three times a week and it all comes down to the same things from different ways You can ask Kim and Valerie and Nami and Ray,

We come back to it and it's building and building and building and building.

We come in from different approaches all the time.

Just keep with it,

Just keep with it,

Just keep with it.

Beautiful,

Follow me on Insight Timer and just keep with it.

And if anybody,

And you've got it.

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

I'm missing some stuff,

Let me see.

Sharon,

I have both parents,

Ray and Kim and everybody giving some love.

Sharon,

I'm glad you're here too.

Leanne,

Talking to Ray.

Paris,

Oh,

Paris complimenting me.

I haven't come across a teacher like you yet.

You're healing a lot of people.

Paris,

Beautiful.

We're all different and we all give in different.

We're all,

You know,

Somebody is like,

Manel,

Who's your competition?

I don't even see competition in any business that I'm in.

Even I'm very technology,

You guys.

I'm a very,

You know,

I'm a mechanical engineer and I'm into software and I'm into a lot of things.

And I don't believe that competition exists.

I believe that it's really about finding what your truth is and even best friends.

I say I have so many best friends because we don't need to compete.

They're all best,

They're all best.

And it's all about figuring out and figuring out what is it,

You guys are gonna make me cry.

It's all about figuring out what your truth is because we're all so uniquely different and calibrating that truth and shining your truth.

And there's gonna be different teachers at different times that are gonna take you to different levels.

And so I'm so excited with growing and working with you all.

I'm so excited about getting a new language and a new way for us to hold life.

And I absolutely love religion.

I love religion and I love God,

But I do not like the fear and the shame.

And I want to filter out all of the things that keep us from holding life from a place of excitement and love and celebration and awareness and beauty.

You guys are all making me so emotional.

You guys are all,

Okay,

You are all beautiful.

And Abby,

I love you all.

You guys are gonna make me cry.

Oh my God,

I'm gonna scroll back and see what I missed.

If I missed anything,

My mouse is sort of,

The way that they have the scrolling bar on these live stream is sort of hard to scroll back.

So that's why when I say I'm scrolling back,

It takes so much time.

Oh yes,

The waistline.

I don't judge my waistline,

But I deal with colitis.

Okay,

So what does that mean,

Ray?

What does that mean to you?

What is it you're dealing with?

And where does that,

Tell me more about that.

I am so grateful,

And Abby too,

For you to be here.

And I love your participation and your energy and your insight and your desire for growth.

For Naz,

I have anxiety because of losing people I lived.

A lot of people have a fear of death,

A fear of death.

And that fear is what's perpetuating a lot of it at the end of the book.

So what is your relationship with death?

If we can all come to such a moment,

To such a beautiful place of recognizing that life and death are all the most natural processes,

And that the universe,

God,

Higher being,

Higher power decides inner higher self,

It doesn't matter when the time is done.

And it's done when it's time that's best for the highest good.

And finding recognition that on the physical,

On the physical plane,

That there is a loss,

A very strong loss.

One of my favorite meditations,

I have a lot of my favorites,

But is about grieving and honoring loss.

And it was time when three of my very close people,

One lost a cat,

One lost a,

Was end of a relationship,

And somebody lost a father,

A parent.

And I just saw that they were all grieving so similarly,

Even though the losses were so different.

How do you compare a cat to a parent and a relationship?

But the elements of the pain were so similar,

They were mirrored,

They were mirrored,

But different physical circumstances.

So if we come to terms with honoring death and honoring life and honoring,

And recognizing the fear of that,

And calibrating to an acceptance of the beauty of the life cycle,

Then a lot of that fear and anxiety that we hold will just go,

Just go,

Just go.

So I'm gonna ask you all,

Who is willing to calibrate to life and death as part of the natural evolution of life?

Who is willing to recognize that there is such a deep fear of the pain that death brings,

But it's something that we can't control,

And it's one of the beauties of life?

Who's willing to recognize how much resistance we have put on to the end of anything,

The end of middle school,

The end of elementary school,

I say middle school because my son just graduated from middle school,

End of middle school,

End of college,

End of elementary school,

Going into kindergarten,

End of a relationship,

End of life,

End of a pet's death.

How much resistance do we have on the end of anything?

How much pain do we hold on the end of anything?

And who wants to let go of it?

And who wants to just hold it as life?

Who wants to start holding that as part of the natural evolution of life?

Who wants to start to recognize that we've calibrated to fear,

Change,

And transition?

Oh my God,

Ray,

Beautiful.

It's an immunity issue that affects the intestine and it keeps checked by medicine.

Beautiful,

That's an internal abdomen.

We've got two conversations going.

Internal abdomen,

Internal,

And that's beautiful.

That's beautiful.

If you do work on your solar plexus and you recognize that you are capable and that you are beautiful and that you're amazing and that you are worthy and that you just continue to honor your abdomen and your sense of self,

And you're already in physical alignment because of it,

But just recognize it and start to see that it will calibrate,

Calibrate,

And calibrate.

Beautiful,

Ray,

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

And that just shows that if we hold a misbelief that we're going to see it on the physical in different ways.

For Naz,

I wanna live a happy life.

Yes,

I am ready.

I am ready.

We're all ready.

We're all ready.

Ray,

Getting there,

I'm so glad that we're doing this together.

I love whenever I see your beautiful faces together in this window and at the bottom scrolling through.

I love to see you.

And we are getting there.

We are getting there.

And you know what I've been shifting,

That getting there?

I've been shifting.

We're there.

We're there.

Who doesn't feel amazing right now?

Who does not feel amazing right now?

I feel amazing.

You are,

I missed a lot of the love that you guys were all giving me.

I think I see a lot of love,

A lot of love that always embarrasses me.

I missed some comments about love.

Your love and energy is infectious.

Thank you,

Kim.

I love you.

And now you're the breath of fresh air that has been missing in my life.

Kim,

Oh my God,

I love you.

And Valerie saying yes,

And Anami saying yes,

And Farnaz,

I think that we were talking about death.

So beautiful.

I feel amazing.

Beautiful.

Ray,

You are there.

We are there.

We are there.

We are there.

We are there.

We are there.

Stop getting there.

Be there.

The journey is there.

The journey is there because it's a lifelong journey.

The journey will never end.

And when we think we get to our destination,

We create a new desire for a new destination.

We are never there.

We are creators.

We are creators.

Our life will get,

Chronic fatigue will come when we stop creating.

Guess,

Yes.

You feel a little lighter if that makes sense.

Yes,

It's your first time to come here and there's resistance with some of the things that I'm saying,

But there's an indication.

You know that there's truth,

But you still have years of,

I don't know how old you are.

Tell me how old I are if you'd like to,

So I can reference you.

You've got resistance,

You still have to let it out.

That's part of the journey,

But you're there and you feel lighter.

And there's where it's 52.

Beautiful.

You're 52.

You have 52 years of conditioning for you to get to uncondition.

And today you entered a live stream that calibrated to your truth and allowed you to recognize,

Oh,

I see the keys to getting out.

I see the ways to uncondition.

I see the ways to get liberated.

I see that I'm not holding myself with worthiness and freedom and love.

And guess what?

I am going to shift that and change that.

I'm gonna shift it and change it.

I'm gonna shift it and change it.

Honor the process.

Honor the process.

Join,

Be,

Keep going.

And now I'm getting out of my own way so that I might be there rather than striving to a place I'm already at.

Tapping into rather than acquiring.

Beautiful.

Acceptance and surrender.

We are exactly where we meant to be.

The journey is the destination.

Everything is beautiful.

Leanne,

I'm glad that you came back to death because I didn't feel that we finished it and I wanted us all to create intent.

We are taught to fear death.

I used to be more afraid,

But I'm accepting that it's a natural part of the cycle.

It's a natural part of life.

Death is life.

Death is a natural part of life.

And if you hold that the spirit still stays alive,

There is no death.

But there is on the physical plane and there is a loss on the physical plane.

But the quickest I can calibrate to recognizing that's part of the universal plan.

There's something big about it.

I might be a bit concerned on how I will pass,

But I have to trust that however I pass is how it's supposed to be.

I believe that we'll transition to a beautiful place.

Leanne,

Beautiful.

Beautiful.

And then I start to ask the universe higher power or higher self God,

Please take me in a loving,

Beautiful,

Peaceful way.

I've said to my children before,

Listen,

When I pass,

I'd like you to celebrate.

And they don't like it,

But I'm like,

Please celebrate when I pass.

Please celebrate it.

Please celebrate when I die.

Please celebrate my life.

And some of the things that help me,

Me when I'm living this physical life,

I actually imagine when I'm dad,

What I want people to say about me.

And that helps me know what the decisions are that I want to make and the priorities in my life.

Ray,

I'm learning to accept that I'm well enough.

Ray,

Me too,

Me too.

You know,

Because I've said it enough times that I hold myself as stupid sometimes.

And today,

One of my,

This week,

One of my girlfriends said to me,

But now I got,

You got to stop saying that with something bad that I'm like,

Oh my God,

I'm so stupid.

You got to stop saying that.

And then me and her had sort of butt heads on something the other day.

And I said to her in my heat of passion,

You know,

I'm brilliant.

I get this stuff.

And I was so proud of myself because of the heat in the moment,

I didn't say I was stupid.

I was like,

I'm smart.

I get this stuff.

Don't come at me from logic.

I get this stuff.

So yes,

I'm well enough.

We're smart.

We're brilliant.

We're tapped in.

We're connected.

We're beautiful.

We are enough.

We are enough.

Our stories are enough.

Paris 53 and things keep going.

Things keep getting better.

Beautiful.

And Navee I love and appreciate so much.

I donated.

Oh,

Thank you.

Thank you.

I think that was when it was all scrolling so quickly.

Thank you for the donation.

They always warms my heart as a recognition that there's a gift that you feel that you're getting.

I love it.

I love it.

Thank you.

My mom says that to us too.

Celebrate,

Celebrate,

Celebrate.

Yes,

Kim,

There are cultures that celebrate death.

And I think it's beautiful.

And Leanne 68 on September 18th.

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

And thank you for your donation too.

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

Okay guys,

It's an hour 28.

I'm gonna ask you something and then we're gonna go into a really short meditation.

I usually do these for an hour and a half.

Is this too long?

I know that some people come in late and some people come in early.

I feel like the hour we just start to get into it and like now it's an hour and a half and we haven't even done our meditations.

Is what do you guys,

Does anybody have?

I know this is administrative.

Is that yummy?

What are you saying?

No,

I love it.

So an hour and a half is okay.

I joined late about 20 minutes ago and I'm so glad I caught this.

You're inspiring and I'm right there with you.

Can't wait to meditate with y'all.

Thank you.

Beautiful,

Katie.

Okay,

Love this Leanne.

Paris,

Yes,

Yes,

Yes.

Okay,

So an hour and a half is good for you guys.

Okay,

Beautiful.

Cause I feel like people jump in late.

I know a lot of you are coming in from the beginning cause guys,

I start right at the zero.

Right at the zero.

We start and we go in and longer even Paris says.

I just don't know whether you guys like an hour and a half or not.

And I mean,

I was gonna do about a 10 minute.

I feel like,

Does everybody feel good?

Does anybody have any resistance that they're aware of?

Let me ask you that.

Is anybody aware of any resistance?

Is anybody feeling something particularly strong?

Paris,

Yes.

Okay,

Katie resistance gone.

Kim,

Not at the moment.

10 more and Nami can stay.

For now has always had resistance.

Yes,

Still have some resistance.

Okay,

Can you guys know what the resistance is or where it is?

Cause it will guide the meditation.

Careen resistance change career directions.

For now has my legs.

Paris,

You said something too.

Yummy echo stress test.

Sharon,

Yeah,

Keep joining.

Keep joining,

Keep joining,

Keep joining.

You'll see that there's a common language.

There's a common approach.

It's very simple.

It's very simple.

It's very,

Very,

Very simple.

And it's all truth and it's all empowering.

Okay,

Paris,

Only resistance is that I'm afraid to leave my husband because they're a better way of life financially with him,

But not my truth with him.

Beautiful,

So I'm gonna say that differently,

Paris.

I'm gonna say,

Because sometimes when we change,

Things change.

So there is a desire for things to change with a relationship with your spouse,

But there's a fear to make a change that you think you want because of security.

Because sometimes we can change and the relationship can be.

And so I don't like to presume that when we have resistance that our conclusions are right.

Can you tell me Paris,

If that resonated with you or if it offended you?

Because I wanna make sure that you get my interpretation right,

Good.

I don't like when we have resistance to believe that our conclusions are right.

Just like earlier,

Wasn't it,

Sometimes you guys,

Because we go so quickly,

Who was it?

Was it Sharon?

Was it you that with work?

Who was it that said it was work stress and it turns out it's the story from birth?

Sometimes we blame our partners for resistance we're feeling but the story is different.

The story is different.

So if you can recognize the emotion and the physical resistance and recognize the stories,

But be allowing for the universe to guide you to what is right when you're resistance free.

Farnez,

I don't care if you said body or stories,

It doesn't matter.

I was just trying to figure out where you're all at so that I can get the story right.

So Paris and Farnez and all of you,

Raise my realistence to accept.

Okay,

Beautiful.

How do you become resistance free Sharon?

We're doing it.

We're doing it.

Deborah's with Paris.

Yeah,

A lot of us that are in relationships,

We think that the answer is the end of the relationship,

But we're fearful of security.

Then we leave our relationship,

We're still fearful of security.

And so,

Okay,

We're gonna go into a meditation.

We have one on emotions.

A lot of these things are big and we will get to them together.

We are going to get to them together.

We are going to make decisions from alignment.

We are gonna recognize the conditioning that we're in and then realize whether the partner that we picked was supposed to stop at this point,

Or when I grow the relationship transforms and that I have another spurt with it.

And I feel when I get the sense of security,

Independent of the relationship.

Okay,

Okay.

Paris,

I'm allowing universe and what paths are laid in front of me.

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

I don't like the preconceived conclusions when we have resistance.

I don't like the preconceived conclusions because it's filtered and distorted from resistance.

We need to get resistant free on the sense of security and worthiness and freedom.

And then the calibration to truth will come and it becomes easy and it flows and it comes from truth.

And in no way is a,

How am I saying this properly?

An hour and a half with me today in a group isn't going to help us answer those big questions,

But it's going to allow us to open ourselves up to the conditioning and the resistance that's blocking our allowing.

So I am never going to say,

Yes,

It's true to leave.

No,

You keep working on that relationship.

I don't know.

And when you have resistance,

You don't know.

And when he has resistance,

You don't know either.

But when you're willing to do the work and look at the stories and find the conditioning and release from them,

The universe brings you the answers to your relationships,

To work,

Into everything,

Your sense of security in such a beautiful flowing way.

Is that fair,

Paris and Deborah and everybody?

Is that fair?

Is that fair?

Does that resonate?

Is that an alignment?

Tell me if that is good and that gives you comfort.

Paris,

Beautiful.

And Deborah and Ray and everybody,

We're gonna work together to get alignment within our bodies to allow our truths to resonate.

We're going to do it by honoring our past,

Looking at the conditioning,

Finding all the different layers,

And then getting to truth.

And recognizing that things that are happening are all guiding to our truth.

We're going to be explorers together,

Archeologists together,

Scientists together,

Emotional scientists together,

Egoic scientists together,

And keep coming till we find our truth until we are living the life we desire.

You all know,

Not all of you,

Because I'm of you and you,

I got a divorce.

I never wanted a divorce.

I got a divorce.

Is it the best thing that happened to me?

Yeah.

Is it sometimes the worst thing that happened to me?

Yeah.

I've got that story.

I've got that story.

And it's because of the family,

It's because of the different things,

But the way that it liberated and freed me in ways are just incredible.

And you don't want,

Exactly Deborah.

And the answer isn't always divorce.

It isn't always.

It is sometimes,

But it isn't always,

Because if you still have the story and the resistance with you,

It's not going to go away.

So it's what are you going to do with it all?

What are we going to do with it all?

Okay.

I hear you,

Deborah.

Okay,

Okay,

Okay.

We're going to go into our bodies.

We're going to keep working on this together.

All of you join attaining your authentic life.

I'm going to type it in the window.

Attaining your authentic life.

Thursday,

Between today and tomorrow,

I'm going to make something for next week,

A few more live streams.

I always try to have two or three in the queue.

So you guys know when they're going to be.

I think I'll do something this weekend,

Probably on Saturday actually.

So keep your eyes out for that.

That's not a lot of notice.

Today's Tuesday,

Wednesday,

Thursday,

Friday,

Saturday.

Yeah,

I think I'll do something for Saturday,

Maybe Saturday morning.

I love you all.

I'm going to say it again after the meditation,

But I love you all.

Some of you might have to leave.

We're at one hour and 37.

Valerie,

Beautiful.

I won't see you Thursday,

But we'll see you Saturday.

I love you all.

I love you all.

You are all brilliant.

We all have amazing lives.

We are creators.

We are dream makers.

We are fulfillers of our destiny.

We are going to be empowered to create the life that we desire together.

None of our external life's conditioning is going to limit us from the desires and the deepest desires and dreams that we have.

Anything is capable.

Anything that you see any other human has created,

You can create too.

We can all create whatever the heck we want.

And it starts with calibrating to the truth of our freedom,

Our worthiness and our self-love.

It comes to calibrating to the beauty of who we are internally because we know that we're supported by the universe.

Okay guys,

Let us go into a meditation.

If anybody needs to leave,

I obviously at any time,

If anybody needs to leave,

But if anybody needs to leave,

You guys leave,

We're going to do,

And I know Anami,

I told you 10 minutes and it was 10 minutes ago,

But when we are talking and doing,

Sometimes it's hard for me to break away because I see so much growth and growth happens in so much.

I do love our meditations.

Paris,

Beautiful.

You guys all draw this out.

Beautiful.

Leanne,

I am filled with hope and I'm smiling.

Beautiful.

Gosh,

I needed what you're saying today.

My anxiety was bad,

But I'm filled with hope and I'm smiling.

And Leanne,

What I'm going to ask for you,

What I'm going to offer for you,

Okay?

I know that you have calibrated to calling yourself anxious and having anxiety.

I know that because you've called it a few times.

What I'm going to invite to you and to all of you,

If there's a particular resistant label that you have given yourself to,

Let's change it.

What's the label that you want to get away from?

Leanne,

Instead of anxious person,

You're connected and aligned.

Truth.

Everybody look at what the label you have given yourself and create the intention to find a label that aligns with truth.

You are truth,

You are beauty,

You are light,

You are love.

Find something that does not contradict you in any way,

That doesn't resist you.

And when you think about your anxiety,

You calibrate to truth.

I'm connected to universal,

I'm connected to nature.

I am light,

I am love.

So Leanne,

I'm going to invite you that one of the first calibrations that I can see,

One of the first muscles that's going to liberate you is saying,

Oh,

Anxiety.

I see that I've called you anxiety my whole life.

I recognize that your emotions and fear that I wasn't willing to acknowledge.

And guess what?

I see you and I acknowledge you and I love you.

And I'm going to recognize that you are a tool that I never saw,

That you were helping me to calibrate to the truth of my beauty and my love and my light.

And you took me to Insight Timer and Insight Timer introduced me to Manal.

And through that,

I'm going to continue to calibrate to the truth of who I am,

The beauty of who I am,

The strength and the power of my ultimate love and light.

And I used to resist you,

Which would add more resistance to resistance,

Which created so much pain in me.

But I'm going to look at every body part of mine that might have any pain.

And I'm going to say,

Hey,

I feel you.

There's a lot of resistance in there.

I'm going to do the work that I need to do to let go of your resistance.

I'm going to do the work to do,

To come into the relaxation of the body of me.

I'm going to do the work to allow my light to flow.

Anxiety,

I love you and I love you so much.

I'm not even going to call you anxiety anymore because that has such a negative connotation.

I am going to call you calibrator.

I'm going to call you power.

I'm going to call you beauty.

I'm going to call you my gift to help me find the truth and the power and the line with my inner power.

Yes,

Release resistance.

Yes,

Let it go by looking at the beauty of it because it's helping us become connected and aligned.

Debra,

Yes,

Release the resistance.

And Leanne,

Connected and aligned.

I love it.

I didn't like the word either.

We were conditioned.

Oh,

You're so anxious.

Oh my goodness,

You're so anxious.

Oh,

Look at that anxiety.

We've been,

It was passed on to you.

I will love the word.

Use words that were,

But victim.

We never use the word victim today,

But I try to make victim not a bad word.

I'm like,

Guys,

That's victim story.

Let's get,

Let's go of it.

Let go of it.

And in the beginning when I'd say it,

I realized,

Ooh,

People were thinking that I was calling them weak,

But no,

No.

It's a recalibration to say,

Hey,

This is a conditioning we're going to let go of.

I'll change it.

Beautiful,

Leanne,

Beautiful.

Sharon,

I need to look at anxiety as a gift.

Anxiety is sending me messages.

Exactly.

Sadness,

Anger,

Anxiety,

Fear.

All of the resistance is a gift.

I think Ray,

It was your judgment,

Your self judgment and Valerie had that and not accepting yourself.

All of that is,

And not being capable was yours,

Ray.

All of that's a gift.

It's a gift.

Say I'm my power.

I am aligned with my inner power.

I am power.

I am purposeful.

I am powerful.

I am amazing.

Treat it as a guest,

As Ruby says,

Beautiful,

Farnaz.

Treat it as a guest.

And when it's time for it to go,

When it's been here and it's did its work and now it's time to go,

Goodbye.

Hope not see you again.

You overstayed your welcome.

Oh my God,

Now I'm being really mean.

Okay,

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

Okay,

We're going to go really,

Really,

Really,

Really quickly into a beautiful meditation.

We're going to explore our bodies.

I think Farnaz said you have pain in your leg.

So whether,

When I guide you to feel,

You feel it's your physical body,

Your emotional,

Your mental,

Your egoic,

It doesn't matter what body the resistance is.

And we're just going to let it go.

Okay,

Beautiful.

So we're going to start with three cleansing breaths.

And I love to start with the breaths because it just tells our body and our mind and everything,

Everything that we are shifting.

So shifting.

We're shifting and we're going to go into our body.

So let's start with a big deep breath in.

In.

And release.

And release.

And release.

And a third and final deep breath in.

And release.

Today we have had an amazing journey to help us to recalibrate to the knowing,

The absolute knowing that our stories and our conditioning and all of our physical body,

Emotional body,

Mental body,

The egoic body is a gift to calibrate us to truth.

That we recognize that everything that's happening or happened and will happen in life is a beautiful gift to help us to calibrate to the truth of our freedom,

Our worthiness and love.

Absolutely unconditional worthiness,

Freedom and love.

And we're going to use our bodies and our emotional body,

Our physical body and our emotional bodies in ways that we never have to direct us to truth.

And many of us have been conditioned to use our physical and emotional and our mental body as a form of resistance,

To resist the messages,

To resist the messages.

But today we are going to create the intention to honour all of the messages from our physical,

Emotional,

Mental and egoic bodies as a guide towards our truth,

To alignment with who we are.

So become aware.

We're going to start with this through awareness.

Become aware of your physical body.

If there's a physical location that's calling out to you with your legs,

Your abdomen,

Your shoulder,

There's anywhere that you have chronic pain or if it's all over self judgment,

You just decide.

If you want to look at yourself as a whole body or if there's a particular physical location or if there's a particular emotional or mental judgment that you might be holding.

But just sort of take the opportunity for you without becoming too indulgent on going in deeper,

Deeper into that resistance,

Whether it's the pain in your legs,

If it's numbness,

If there's your mind being too active,

Your shoulder and body part,

Internal,

Your intestines.

So you go deep as if you're just,

Just go deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper until you feel like you're immersed in that area,

In that body part or your whole body or your mind.

You go with later layer,

Your emotion,

That emotion.

If you're going into an emotion,

Just become immersed in it.

Now start to explore it,

Just say hi.

Recognize that you're going to hold it from a place of love and honor and celebration.

Hold it from a place of curiosity and invitation,

An invitation of that body part,

That emotion,

That mind,

Mental thought,

The egoic limitation,

An invitation for it to guide you to the truth that it would like you to know,

The truth of your internal power,

The truth of your unconditional worthiness,

Of your freedom,

Of your love.

Just tell it you see it,

You feel it,

You hear it.

If it wants to guide you to a particular time in the womb,

Before the womb,

If it's genetic or generational,

Any time when you're a baby,

A toddler or a child,

Just let it guide you to a deeper understanding of where and why that resistance is part of you.

And when you see yourself at that age in the womb before any of your family members,

Yourself as a toddler,

Baby,

Child,

Just love.

And just thank,

Thank it for being there and for being there for the rest of your life.

And just let it guide you to a deeper understanding of where and why that resistance is part of you.

Thank it for being there and for teaching you and that you're willing to hold it from a place of strength and power and alignment and to orient towards your truth.

Watch as you could start to shift from holding resistance to that resistance,

Whether it's physical or emotional or mental or egoic.

See how you can start to see that it's a passion and love.

See how you could start to see that it's a gift,

It's a celebration,

It's nothing to take too personally.

It's the human journey,

It's a journey to celebrate.

And you're not just getting there,

You are there.

You're exactly where you're meant to be.

That this moment is beautiful and every moment,

Every moment you just have the moments and your ability to align and believe and calibrate to this moment is the power,

It's your power.

This is how you create the life that you desire by finding the beauty in your now,

In your moments and honouring and accepting and celebrating every moment that has passed in the past and recognizing the resistance is a celebration because the resistance gives us the insight to find beauty in everything.

And at this point,

If you see any resistance,

You feel it,

Just let it go,

Just let it go.

And your body knows what to do.

You can do many things if you wanna shake it off,

If you wanna physically hold it on your shoulders or your heart,

Wherever it might be,

Your back,

Your intestines,

Your abdomen,

Just physically hold and take it and throw it back to the light.

Send it back to the light,

Back to the light.

Sometimes I imagine it as fireworks if you wanna take a deep breath in and just let go,

Let go of all the resistance.

If you wanna name it from the physical location,

If you wanna name it in emotion,

Or if you just wanna just say,

Let go of the resistance,

Take a deep breath in and just let go of all the resistance that you released to your connect with,

Just release,

Release,

Release,

Release.

It is in your power.

Once you recognize the gift of the resistance,

It's your power to let it go.

And that's thoughts that you don't care for,

It's emotions that are not aligning with the motion of unconditional love and happiness and bliss and joy.

That's any physical tension,

Any physical sensation can be let go through the power of your intention,

Of your mind,

Of your alignment to truth.

The power that you hold in your whole being is unlimited.

And you're gonna start tapping into that unlimited unconditional power because you can.

And just creation of that intention enables it cause you can,

Because we can,

Because it's the beauty of being a creator in this world,

Being the actor of our world.

Beautiful.

Just let go.

If there's any,

Just take a quick scan of your body and if there's any resistance,

Just go through the process quickly,

Just become aware,

Acknowledge it.

Acknowledge its direction towards your liberation,

Your worthiness,

Your love.

Appreciate it and say,

I'm gonna hold you differently than I ever held you and I see the beauty that you are and I recognize the power you are.

Let it go,

Just let it go,

Let it go.

Now just create the intention to surrender to life.

And surrender doesn't mean giving up.

Surrender means letting go of control and accepting the flow of life because you know that you're aligned to infinite power and you're connected to infinite power.

And when you surrender and allow,

Life unfolds from a place of fluidity and beauty and grace and ease.

And we're gonna create the intention to surrender.

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

At this point,

Just imagine the light of the universe,

The vine just entering the crown of your head and going through your forehead,

Your head,

Your throat and anchoring into your heart and just exploding with beautiful love and light.

Any resistance,

Just allow it to flow in a time that's best for your highest good.

And you recognize that this is a journey of us calibrating to the unconditional truth of who we are and we're gonna celebrate that journey.

Now imagine light coming in from the universe,

The divine earth going through the soles of your feet,

Through your calves and your knees and through your thighs and your pelvic area,

Up your abdomen and anchoring into your heart.

And again,

Just exploding with beautiful light,

Letting go and moving any resistance that's best for your highest good,

Any physical resistance,

Emotional resistance,

Mental resistance,

Any limiting beliefs and just trust that your journey is journeying beautifully,

Just as meant to be.

And that you're supported and you have all the tools that you need to create the most beautiful,

Amazing life that you desire,

Regardless of your past.

And we have infinite access to the power of now,

Which is unconditionally beautiful.

I'm gonna pause for just two minutes,

Give you the opportunity to allow all of this to integrate and create any intentions that you have for the beauty of your life,

For the allowing,

The acceptance,

The surrender,

The celebration of your amazing life.

I will pause and call you back.

I will pause and call you back.

Beautiful.

And at this point,

Put your thumb together with your index finger and your middle finger and just create the awareness that you have access to feel this way at any moment.

And by just putting your thumb with your second and your third finger,

You just recreate within your mind,

Recreate,

Rewire your system to know that when you do that,

You create the intention to calibrate back to this feeling,

To this truth,

To this alpha zone,

That you can create a deliberate intention to recalibrate to this feeling through intention.

And this physical movement of putting your thumb with your second and your third finger will help accelerate yourself to getting into alignment,

To getting back into this alpha and to feeling the truth of who you are.

Now I'm gonna count to three,

Actually to five.

And at three,

Open your eyes and just come back into the virtual room.

One,

Two,

Three,

Open your eyes,

Come back into the world.

Four,

Five.

Sharon,

I'm glad that you enjoyed it.

This is fabulous.

I have tears flowing beautiful.

Many of us have explored our emotional bodies and our physical tension in a way of recognizing that it's a body and it has a voice.

I compare it to a toddler sometimes.

What happens when we don't give our toddlers attention,

That they just act out and they have tantrums and they do all they do and all they need is attention and our physical bodies and our emotional bodies are just like that.

And we have been not taught to hold our bodies in a way that they are held and honored and heard.

Farnaz,

Beautiful,

You too.

You too,

Beautiful.

So how's everybody feeling?

Do you get,

I almost said the work,

But do you get the play?

Do you get the intention?

My intention,

Matain,

This is what I call matain,

Aligning with your authentic self,

Attaining your truth,

Finding alignment with who you are.

Farnaz,

Much lighter.

Sharon,

I have a hard time sitting because of my pain,

Usually lying on the stomach or side,

It's okay.

You,

Yes,

Any comfortable position is okay.

Anyway,

I do yoga and my yoga teacher likes us to do yoga and needry and we lying back on our back and I actually don't love it.

I like to meditate sitting,

Whatever way,

Whatever way,

Whatever way,

Just get comfortable,

Just comfortable and honor your body and listen to your body and nobody knows what's okay for you,

But you.

Everything is okay.

The point is coming to a place where you become aware of your body and you just honor and accept everything that comes,

Every thought,

Every belief,

Every emotion,

Every feeling,

It's all a gift and find a way to,

Everything is beautiful.

Everything is beautiful.

And Deborah,

It's let go.

If you let go,

It's let go.

It might take a while for you to calibrate.

There might be old thoughts and conditioning that you've patterned yourself into and you just look at it kindly and lovingly and just acknowledge it and just say,

Oh,

I see you,

But I've created an intention to move past.

I see you,

But I've created intention to calibrate to truth.

I see you.

I see you and I love you,

But I'm calibrating to my unconditional worthiness and freedom and beauty and love.

But you have let go.

You have let go.

You have let go in this moment.

You have let go,

But conditioning will bring up stories and it's all part of the journey.

It's all part of,

You guys,

What are we gonna call it?

Cause we're not gonna call it work.

If anybody has a good name for it,

All part of the team,

It's all part of the play,

It's all part of the process.

It's all part of life.

It's all part of life.

And it's all part of us calibrating,

Unconditioning,

Being,

It's all part of us being.

We're gonna redefine being.

It's by accepting,

It's by flowing,

It's by loving.

It's by experiencing.

It's all beautiful.

It's all beautiful.

Kim and Farnaz with amazing,

Beautiful hearts.

I love it.

Beautiful.

So everybody,

I feel,

Everybody feels good.

I'm excited about Thursday.

You guys know,

I always say excited about topics and Deborah experiencing exact what?

Did you hit too quickly experiencing what?

Thursday is emotional body.

So we're gonna come in straight at the emotional body.

So today we're talking about conditioning.

So conditioning is more,

I think more on the egoic level.

It's more of the stories that have been come in from our beginning.

So it's really more on the egoic and coming back and recognizing that the situation of my birth made me adopt beliefs that aren't untrue and finding and aligning to the new truths.

On Thursday,

We're gonna come in and approach all the work,

The work,

I called it work again,

The journey through our emotional body.

We're gonna come in through our emotional body.

We're gonna come in through our emotions.

So we're gonna talk about anger and we're gonna talk about,

We're talking about,

We're gonna talk about,

Oh,

Experiencing,

Oh,

Beautiful,

We are experiencing.

Thank you,

Deborah,

Thank you,

Deborah.

You're saying we're experiencing,

Not the work,

Exactly,

Beautiful.

We're gonna talk about emotional body.

So we're gonna come in from the anger.

A lot of,

One of my coaching clients,

Explosive anger her whole life,

Her whole life,

Explosive anger.

And how do you honor that?

And how do you recognize that there was something in there for her magic to come out through the anger and the only way for her to release that explosive anger was through honoring it,

Accepting it,

Recognizing where it came from.

Sadness,

We'll talk to sadness,

We'll talk to depression,

We'll talk to all of the emotions and come into a place of doing what we did with the anxiety today.

Honoring it,

Loving it,

And seeing what it's opening us up to.

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

You guys,

We did two hours today.

We're at two hours,

Six minutes and 56 seconds.

So I appreciate all of you.

I love you all.

You are all absolutely incredible.

You all give fuel.

Sometimes I talk to the camera with nobody there and I can tell you,

It's just not the same as when you're all here and you're engaged in your energy.

So I appreciate every single one of you.

Those of you that contributed and spoke and asked and those of you that didn't,

But are here and you're growing and you're loving.

Farnaz,

Thank you so much and I really love your new picture that you have on there.

So that's a new one.

It's really cute and I like the purple and the red.

It's so vibrant and lovely.

Thank you all.

You are all brilliant.

You are all beautiful.

You are all inspiration to me.

Deborah,

I look forward to meeting you again too and everybody else as well.

First time here,

Only came in last 20 minutes.

Namaste from Vegas.

Beautiful.

It's Scarlett O'Hara.

I didn't realize that.

Farnaz,

It's beautiful.

I love it.

At first I'm like,

Wait,

Is that Farnaz?

And then I'd like,

Yeah,

Your tone,

You talked enough that I knew,

Oh,

That's my Farnaz.

That's the Farnaz that I know.

So I wasn't sure at first that that was you.

And I'm like,

No,

That's her.

That's the girl.

Sharon,

Thank you so much.

I really appreciated you and your speak and your talk and your everything.

You are all brilliant.

We are all brilliant.

Thursday I'll see you.

If not,

Like I said,

I'll schedule something for Saturday.

I think I have to look at my schedule.

If not for sure next week.

I go through mornings,

Sometimes afternoons.

I haven't done evenings yet because I'm scared of how I'll feel in the evening.

But anyways,

Fear guys,

Guys,

I have fear too.

Love you all.

You are all amazing.

Excited to see you.

Everything,

Follow me if you don't.

Join the group attaining your authentic life.

Talk about how you feel before,

During,

And after today's live stream.

Do the preamble for any live stream coming up and sort of get ourselves ready.

Get those emotions.

Let's grow,

Not through suffer and struggle and difficulty.

Let's grow through awareness.

Let us grow through awareness.

Ray,

I always love to see you.

Thank you everybody.

My love,

Always.