I'm going to share some personal experiences and my own personal journey into healing with the top three things that I've healed and lessons that I've experienced in my lifetime.
I often tell my clients,
I remind them that healing happens in layers.
So when we overcome one layer of healing at a later part of our experience of our journey,
That lesson might come up and it might come through in order to be revisited in a new and a profound way from a light of healing.
And it just started raining in the background.
So just in case you hear some of that beautiful cleansing nature as we talk about healing during this process,
I'm going to start with the mother wounds.
The mother wounds was one of my deepest,
Most profound things that I've healed and I've learned from.
My mother and I had a tumultuous relationship that's being very kind growing up.
And when we can view not only our mothers,
But our parents from a place of objectivity and taking in their true essence,
Their true nature,
Looking at them as people,
Rather than the attachment of them being our parents,
We can view them with a much more deeper lens of compassion.
My mother was of immigrant.
She came to this country with nothing in her pocket,
And a dream and a vision to really create wealth for herself to build a life for her children and her family.
It really was the story of,
You know,
The immigrant who came to this country to make it that American Dream Foundation.
So me being first generation American,
I didn't understand a lot of not only how she was raised in the Philippines and the things that she had to experience in terms of survival and scarcity and necessity and safety.
So that caused a lot of clash between us.
She was a very strict,
Very restrictive,
Very protective.
I couldn't do a lot of things.
I struggled with identity and belonging.
There were so many compounded wounds through this motherhood wounds that I experienced that dove into the depths of worthiness,
Emotional reciprocity,
Validation that I really carried over into all of my relationships,
Even into my work habits,
The way that I showed up,
The way I viewed women in authority.
So many different,
You know,
Parts of my life were controlled by this deeply embedded mother wounds.
Once I started unpacking and learning where those behaviors and identifying really where they were coming from,
And my relationship to this wound and also to my mother,
I was able to not only view her with love and compassion,
But also such admiration,
Such new levels of respect and love.
And now someone who I would have said was my arch nemesis as a teenager is truly one of my best friends.
So when we can work with these levels and really acknowledge and give ourselves the permission to lean into this work and to heal,
We could shift so many different aspects of our lives.
The second thing I'm going to share with you that was really profound on my journey of personal healing was my relationship to the divine feminine for so long.
Oh my gosh,
Growing up,
I always said,
I wish I was a boy.
Like I re buked everything that had to do with femininity.
I didn't like roses.
I didn't like butterflies.
I didn't like the color pink.
I really felt like being a girl growing up was weak.
I felt like I was at a disadvantage.
I held so many wounds to the feminine that I resented being a girl.
I resented growing up and being a young woman.
I resented my body.
I resented the way people looked at my body,
The way people treated me differently.
Not only,
You know,
In my identity crisis and wanting to belong because of this mother wounds,
But also in just feeling comfortable with myself and in my body as a girl and as a woman.
This really profound wounds came to,
You know,
A head and an awakening when I was pregnant with my daughter.
When I was pregnant with my daughter,
I remember finding out I was having a girl and just crying.
And I was so sad because I told myself having a daughter,
Being a woman,
Being a girl in this life,
There's so much baggage and emotional heaviness that comes with it because,
You know,
We see the world,
We see how women are treated and that is very much changing.
I became empowered by being a woman.
I told myself,
I'm creating a new narrative,
Not only for me,
But my legacy from my lineage.
And I instill so much beauty,
Power and confidence in my daughter,
Even though she's only three,
We go through affirmations where,
You know,
We tell her,
You are strong,
You are beautiful,
You are loving,
You are kind.
And it's in this new found power and relationship to femininity that I've found on my journey that has really opened up so many ways of being for me and how I operate my business and how I go about my day to day life.
This really beautiful feminine energy supports the masculine energy that I've cultivated throughout my lifetime.
And I'm so grateful to have really honored,
Acknowledged and worked with the divine feminine energy that for so long,
I tried to stay away from and I resisted.
The third really important powerful lesson on my healing journey that I'm sharing here with you today is heart,
Heart healing.
We don't even think that we need this.
But we do.
Because guess what,
All of these things,
The mother wounds,
The divine feminine wounds,
All of these things compound,
And they affect our ability to love,
They affect our ability to love ourselves to love other people to give and receive unconditional love.
Love is our natural state of being we were born into this world as this beautiful ball of love.
And over time,
We become conditioned to,
You know,
Life chips away at us and we become jaded,
We become separate from love.
I experienced such a far separation from love that I was overly critical.
I was judging myself,
I was judging other people,
I was putting barriers,
Walls,
Separation.
And when we can knock those defense mechanisms down when we can feel safe to love to give love to be loved to receive love.
So much opens up for us abundance,
Wealth,
And this is not only monetarily but just in our lives,
Just the beauty of our lives.
And when we open up our heart,
We can call in and create space for so much to manifest.
And a lot of the times when I'm having client readings,
The heart is one of the most blocked spaces because we put up so many defense mechanisms,
So many walls,
So many gates.
And it's understandable because our circumstances life has led us to that.
But when we intentionally heal the heart space,
When we open up this beautiful portal,
We have a new profound energy to work with that really creates change,
Cultivates an everlasting sense of value and beauty in our lives that cannot be taken from us that cannot be stripped away.
When we are healed in our heart space,
We are one with everything we return to that natural love state that unity consciousness that flows through our veins.
And life becomes more easeful and harmonious.
So the message that I'm really leaving here with you today is how can you lean into the things that you were resisting the blocks,
Maybe some of these shadows that you are really not wanting to look at and get in touch with,
But affect so many different aspects of your life that you might not even be consciously aware of.
Feelings of guilt,
Shame,
Worthiness,
Value,
All of these things are so deeply embedded into the mother wound,
Into divine feminine resistance of resisting that energy,
Especially if we're in heavily masculine jobs,
If we're in the corporate structure,
And we take on all of that masculine patriarchal energy,
We tend to absorb that and resist our feminine nature of trust,
Surrender and flow.
So how can you look at some of the patterns,
Some of the beliefs in your life and start really chipping at those and becoming the observer to them and finding ways to really heal and receive that support.
