Release Trauma Signals - Heartache

Welcome, dear one. I'm so glad you're here with me today. In this sacred space, we're going to gently explore the heart's vibrational field and its profound capacity for healing. As you settle in, know that you are safe, supported, and held in loving kindness. Together, we'll activate the deep signals within your heart that are ready to release old trauma, allowing your beautiful spirit to expand and breathe freely once more.

Transcript

We are now going to unwrap one of the trauma signals that we need to be looking at.

This is the one about heartache.

It's such a very big space because our hearts are opening.

With that,

It feels like they're breaking.

So we want to play with this energy field in a way that we don't amplify that story of pain and despair and heartache and misery.

We want to use this aching heart as an amplifying energy.

Does that make sense to you,

My lovies?

It's such a different way of coming into what it is that's appearing,

What it is that's showing up in this world,

Different way of being here now.

If you can,

Let's settle down,

Bring our full attention to where we are and how we hold in this space so that we can amplify our energy.

Can we do that together?

And we connect in.

So feel the space where you are right now.

Take a deep breath in.

Become aware of you in your space.

It's a wonderful way to extend our perception.

When we close our eyes,

And if it's safe for you,

You can do that,

We become aware,

A little bit more aware of our own body,

Where we are in the moment and how we're feeling,

How we're being held.

So just feel that for a moment,

If you can.

Close your eyes,

Feel your body,

The space that you're holding,

Feel your connection.

Now,

As you hold this,

My treasures,

As you're connecting into this beautiful energy stream around you,

Try and focus right into your being.

Start with your breath.

Start with the earth beneath you,

The surface or whatever it is that you're sitting or resting upon.

Feel that connection,

Make that connection.

Become aware of your breath,

Your body breathing for you.

Then smooth the skin on your beautiful face,

Relax your brow,

Your jaw,

Even your scalp.

Drop your shoulders and soften your being.

How wonderful now that you can hold yourself here.

You're focusing on you in your space.

Now open your space a little wider and think about how the earth is holding you and become very conscious of the connecting points of that where your body is being held.

If you're sitting,

Notice it in the bottom of your body,

Down your legs,

The soles of your feet,

Maybe a cushion at your back.

If you're resting,

Feel it all the way down through the back,

Through your spine.

Feel that connection to the earth.

And focus,

My lovely,

On that connection.

Now,

Come back to just you,

Just you and the awareness of you and how you feel in this moment.

What your head is saying,

What your heart is feeling.

When you make this connection now,

Being able to go out and back in,

And then out again.

And then back in again.

Imagine that these are two very different layers of perception.

Through the body and the mind,

The being we are able to perceive through this instrument.

And we are able to perceive ourselves in this time-space reality.

And notice that there is a connection that there is feedback coming to you through the soles of your feet,

The base of your body,

As you connect to this earth.

You,

My love,

Are connected to this earth.

That there is a part of you that knows that it is connected to this earth.

There is a part of you that knows and recognizes,

Feels itself breathing,

Thinking,

Hearing,

Understanding.

And if we were to connect with another,

We would feel that connection or that collision in so many different ways.

We'd hear what they were saying,

And a part of us would assimilate that information.

And we would feel the content or the impact of what they're saying.

Where do you feel that?

Where do you hold that information?

We might be enjoying a meal or something lovely to drink with that other person.

There is another way of receiving a sensory input into this beautiful being.

While we are integrating and connecting and opening up our awareness in all these ways,

We are also,

My lovelies,

Beginning to create an awareness of ourself in this time and space.

So here you are in this awareness,

Assimilating,

Integrating,

Understanding,

And noticing yourself understanding.

I think that is a wonderful step for us to take now.

And the more we practice it,

The better we're going to get at this.

When we can start relating to who we are in this time and space in the reality that we're in,

Then the reality doesn't dictate the full story that it's trying to thrust upon us.

We start to assimilate this information in this being as our human,

As our vehicle.

But we also have another part of us that is able to understand this input,

Work it out,

Start to consider what it is that is coming towards you,

What it is that you are connecting into.

Can you make that extra leap,

My treasures?

Just feel you in witness to your journey,

Your life.

Witnessing all the people and all the stories around you.

Witnessing how this being is interpreting it.

If you get really cute,

Perhaps you can take it one step further back.

Could you witness the witness of you?

Could you be paying attention to the way and the tone and the presence of the divine in you,

Watching how you are doing as your own delightful,

Ridiculous human?

Could you go that step back as well?

When we find that we can,

Because we start to expand our consciousness,

We also open up a whole new realm of knowing around us,

Our subtle awareness.

In the subtleties of connections,

There is so much information.

When we just approach that as our human being in our default setting,

Anxious,

Defensive,

Protective way,

Because that is our default setting just to survive.

So we're gonna come in first in that way.

Notice that.

Then step out of that space and come into a deeper conscious space of you.

And notice yourself being defensive or aggravated or exhausted or pulled into the story.

Notice that.

And notice what is there.

It's your heart.

That is your heart.

That is trying to interpret this whole story,

Trying to work it all out.

The very first layer of our connectivity helps us to protect ourselves,

Just like a beautiful nut with its hard little shell.

And people have to knock on it.

Those of us who have little nuts inside of it,

The little delicious bit,

We go,

Ooh,

I hope they don't break it.

But if they do break it,

We get to see the light.

We get to be exposed to something else.

It's a little bit like that.

Sometimes we're gonna get people tap-tapping upon this outer crust,

This outer defensive space of us,

Shattering the illusion that we've created,

That we are safe and it's okay,

And we're managing and we're hoping and coping.

Sometimes a great impact comes in,

Smashing upon the door of our consciousness,

Our awareness.

In that shattering,

Our heart feels the impact.

Not just our mind-body that's trying to defend us and protect us,

But the part of us that yearns and seeks and longs for the love,

The kindness,

The compassion.

This truly is our divine essence.

And that part of us opens up in the most beautiful way.

But oh,

Gosh,

Does it hurt.

Oh,

Does it hurt.

It aches so deeply and so badly that we can almost not bear it.

And our first impulse then,

When it hurts and it aches,

Is to shut it down.

I can't feel to this level.

It's just too much.

It's overwhelming.

It's breaking my heart.

And we'll find all the ways to pretend and protect and defend ourselves.

We'll distract ourselves in as many ways as we possibly can.

And yet there is within us this beautiful heart that knows something,

That knows and feels and longs and yearns for something.

And that part of us that is the sweetness within,

It sits there in its safe space.

Body is trying to protect it and say,

No,

We can't let all this stuff in.

It's just too much.

It'll break this heart.

This heart just sits there yearning and longing for the light,

Yearning and longing for the connection.

But in the safe place,

That connection is not so easy because the greatest peace,

And we spoke about this just the other day,

The other big trauma signal is vulnerability.

Because once the shell is cracked open,

The sweetness within becomes very vulnerable.

At any moment,

We could be gobbled up.

That sweetness that's there within each and every one of us is right there in your heart because your heart remembers who you truly are.

You are the very breath of the divine.

You are here on a mission.

And there's something that is to unfold through you and through your heart.

Your heart remembers and holds the God code,

The DNA,

The blueprint.

All we have to do is activate it.

And the only way we can activate it and open it up into a higher stream of consciousness is if we open it.

So closing it up,

Protecting our field,

Defending ourselves,

Not wanting to be hurt or injured,

Not wanting the sad stories to come towards us that break our heart.

I'm okay,

I can't be bothered about you or I don't wanna know about your pain.

I just wanna just manage mine as all I can actually do.

You're right,

It is all we can do as our human.

That is all we can do.

But if you were to speak to people who have gone through immense trauma and horrors,

Terror,

And the awfulness of humanity,

They have found an aspect of themself that is pure grace.

I think of the beautiful book in the work of Viktor Frankl,

Man's Search for Meaning.

If you haven't read that book,

This is a really good one to read.

In the torment of what he was in,

He just allowed and just allowed and just allowed and kept softening and coming back into his heart.

All the time,

There is a sweetness that's within us that can find the way back home.

When we stop playing this game that we're just a human and we must protect and defend ourselves,

Lock ourselves up in a very tight space that separates us,

The moment we open our heart and our mind,

Our soul,

We begin to express ourselves.

And it is the shattering of the illusion and the shattering and breaking of our heart,

That wretched heartache that knocks our breath away,

That longing that is so deep and sincere,

So truthful,

That my love is your key right there.

The moment we connect back into that part of us and allow this heart to open and expand,

To feel all that we are meant to feel,

Because the more feeling we can bring into it,

The more we can feel,

The more real we become.

We become truthful beings in the moment,

In the spaces,

With all the others,

All the creatures and the plants.

We become sensitive to each other and we become conscious in the way we connect and collide.

And I'm so sorry.

Please forgive me.

I love you.

Thank you.

Those four little phrases of ho'oponopono are just so beautiful.

If you haven't read the book from Joe Vitale called Zero Limits,

This is a beautiful book to read.

And you'll hear all about ho'oponopono if you haven't heard about it yet.

But those four phrases,

When our heart is breaking and our soul is aching,

And you speak that into the space or the place where the person is or the situation is unfolding,

I'm so sorry.

Just speak it into your heart.

It's energy.

Please forgive me.

We could not be in the situation if we were not participating in some way or another.

Whatever we're seeing and feeling and connecting into is so that we can be part of it.

We wish it to go away.

But it's there,

Knocking,

Tap-tapping upon that outer hard layer,

Waking us up.

I'm so sorry it's taken me this long to see it.

I'm so sorry I've put you into pain and I held you in a place of being hostage as the messenger trying to send me a message.

Please forgive me.

I'm so sorry.

The moment we wake up to who we are in the story,

We recognize this beautiful heart.

We can say to ourselves and to all life around us,

I love you,

Because we speak with the voice of divine,

The grace,

The kindness,

And all that is.

I love you.

Please forgive me.

I'm so sorry.

Thank you.

When gratitude opens through our heart and we realize who we are and how we are and what it is that we are creating and amplifying,

We truly start to understand ourselves in a whole and a new way,

A whole and a new way.

Not just a fragment of us that is trying to save us and protect us,

Not just that little outer layer,

But the whole being begins to know itself,

Know thyself.

Remember who you are,

Very powerful commandment that we've got to get back into as quickly as we can.

When we look at all the pain around us and our hearts are breaking,

And they are,

We realize just how horrible we have become.

Thank goodness we know that.

And thank goodness our hearts are guiding us towards something else.

Our heart is a magnetic field.

It generates energy.

When we play the blocking and the resisting energy,

It does not generate.

It blackens it off.

It drops all that energy.

It just drops it.

We want to open our heart because when we feel and we feel with so much urgency and so much love and so much depth of pain,

That is amplifying the energy of the heart,

Which makes the magnetic signal pulse.

If in that moment we can pulse this message into all that is,

Life is okay.

We're gonna help each other.

We're walking each other home.

Come alongside me.

I'll be here with you.

Let's do it.

We'll do it together.

That's what we're doing.

All of us,

We are lightworkers.

Remember who you are.

You're a lightworker,

My love.

You're here on time.

There's no mistake.

And your beautiful heart is aching and breaking.

Thank goodness,

Because that means we've still got a very good chance of bringing ourselves into a whole new species,

A whole new reality,

Human kind.

We'll find our way back through the heart that is our home,

The signal that is amplifying and the energy field that is opening because of that.

And we find ourselves and we find each other and we reconnect the most incredible way.

So now hold your precious heart and breathe into it.

Breathe out and just feel this connection,

My lovelies.

Whatever you're feeling right now,

To the depth that you are willing to allow yourself to go within that point of pain,

Know that this is your opening.

This is your access point to a vibration that only you can know the exact frequency of that because of what it is that you've known and experienced in this life.

This life has been tuning you in,

Fine-tuning you,

Switching you on so that that little thread of information,

That tiny little vibration that is incredible and unique to you,

Begins to sound into the matrix,

Into the collective field.

You open your heart and you allow that signal to come through you,

Through your longing,

Through your deep desires.

And you,

My lovely,

Are changing everything,

Just like a drop going in a pond and the ripple effects so we don't have to say,

Please make a little ripple.

It is ready.

You're fine-tuned.

You have this magnificent heart that is connected to the divine.

Remember who you are and then you amplify that energy in whatever way you can.

You might think it's a very small thing to do,

But that is how we're gonna do it.

Not the big tarantulas,

The small and real.

We don't need or rely upon any accolades or people or stuff,

Just you as you are where you are with your life and your story.

Beautiful,

Beautiful you.

Thank you for what it is that you are holding,

For what you are bringing in and for what it is that you're gonna clear through the amplification of your heart.

Thank you for what you are doing,

Ani.

So much love,

My treasures.

Let's take a deep breath in.

And a long,

Slow out-breath.

And drop into this moment and be with this beautiful being now in a whole and a new way.

Reviews

Another deeply healing ❤️‍🩹 meditation and message. Thank you dear Joy- sending infinite love your way! 🤍🤍

Amazing Joy! So much heartache loosened and it was safe. Bless you!