Release Trauma Signals - Bitterness

When we release the grip of bitterness and open our hearts to peace, we can move into a place of freedom where the past no longer defines our future. Let us talk about the trauma signal of bitterness so that we can heal the hurt beneath the sting and rediscover our joy.
Join us in transforming pain into purpose and light.

Transcript

So sweet people,

Should we use our time really well?

We know that this time goes really quickly and we've got a lot to cover as we open up this energy of great healing and connectivity to bring healing through our community,

Our connection with each other.

So let's set that up so that we really create the most sacred space that we can hold.

We're gonna unwrap another one of these trauma signals.

This one is the one about bitterness.

This is a very hard one because none of us want to even admit that we feel a bit bitter about stuff,

But so it is,

We do.

And we hold that energy in us for sure.

Let's bring in the bell,

I'm gonna do that.

We're going to just bring in our energy,

Create this beautiful energy vortex.

So if you can right now,

Where you are,

Settle down and bring your body right into this moment so that we can create the strongest vibration of light and love that we can hold at this time.

Right there where you are,

Wherever that might be.

Let's take a deep breath in,

My lovelies.

Then a long,

Slow out-breath,

Release,

Release,

Let go,

Drop,

Drop into this moment.

You can feel your whole body just dropping,

Connecting right here where you are.

And as you hold this space,

We open our hearts to each other with so much love,

Kindness.

It's wonderful when we don't know each other,

So many of us don't know each other at all,

But we hear time and time again.

Because of that,

We've opened up a space of a really precious connection.

So we begin to open up that from this heart,

And we imagine this like a thread of light going out from our heart to all those around us.

Then as you breathe in again now,

Let's do a long,

Slow out-breath.

So take a breath in.

Long,

Slow,

Considered out-breath.

As you do this,

Center and calm yourself right now,

Right where you are.

Feel connected to where you are.

And smooth the skin on your beautiful face.

Relax your jaw.

Imagine that you can even smooth your brow and your scalp.

Then feel the balance of your body on the left and the right.

Move from your shoulders,

To your hips,

To your knees,

And to your feet.

And then see if you are in the center of you,

Balanced and right connected,

Holding this beautiful connection right through your center.

When you know this and you can feel it,

Then send this message to your mind and your body,

To your being,

That I am safe,

I'm loved,

I'm held,

I'm supported.

And all the things that we rely upon us to help us to do this life,

To be held in the arms of gravity,

That's happening anyway,

Nothing you have to do there.

For this breath of life to be available to you,

And here it is,

Right here.

You can choose how much or how little you want to give you.

Nothing you have to do there.

All the systems of your being are functioning,

Your heart is beating.

And nothing you have to do there.

So if the most important things are being taken care of right now,

Could you allow yourself to rest a little deeper into the arms of gravity?

Allow yourself to settle down and be here,

Be present.

Life is so distracting,

There's so much that we can play with and do.

But let's see if we can bring our awareness all the way to the center of this being,

The one that I say,

This is me.

Connect now to your solar plexus.

If you like,

You can put one hand on your heart and one hand on your solar plexus.

I love to think about this connection as the heart and the soul,

Heart and soul.

When we open this beautiful connection,

We create a space between the two hands and right between that,

There is the hidden chakra.

This place that holds our magnificence,

Our heightened awareness.

As we realize what it is that we're here to be part of,

Something that is very worthwhile,

Part of a divine and sacred agreement,

Your solar plexus knows that.

And your precious heart is always pulling you towards that.

Your highest expression,

As the heart longs and yearns for love and kindness,

Compassion.

The heart and the soul together create a powerful energy.

And we drop it into this place deep within us,

Into the hidden chakra that is holding all of our capacity,

All of our brilliance,

All the codes,

The blueprints,

Whatever it is that we're here to be part of,

It's all being held deep within you.

When we realize this,

We allow ourselves to trust that we are here on time and on purpose,

And there is a journey to fulfill.

Then we ask ourselves,

So why is it then that we feel all these very disturbing energies?

Why do we feel this fear and anger and hate,

Rejection,

Loathing?

Why do we feel all this grief,

Abandonment and betrayal?

Why on earth are we feeling all these other feelings when this being is being so beautifully taken care of,

How incredible the space is?

And we're right here in it,

And surely there must be a reason that we're in this mind and this body,

In this space with these feelings.

As we talk about the energy,

The trauma energy signal of bitterness,

We understand that it comes into that place that hits the liver and the gallbladder meridians,

That we start to express ourselves in a way that is a little bit sour,

A little bit tight,

That there is an unkindness to ourself and others in that bitterness.

And we know that we all feel this bitterness and anger,

Resentment,

But mostly what we do is feel that as self-loathing.

I wonder when that came in,

When we started to disregard ourselves to such a point that we could forget who we truly are,

Forget that we are the very breath of the divine and we are being breathed into as we take this journey.

How did we forget that?

And why did we forget it?

When did all these stories come in,

These signals of pain and despair,

Anger and resentment,

Guilt and frustration?

And we start to understand that this being here needs to know the full spectrum.

If a rainbow just had one color,

We wouldn't really be admiring it so much.

But because of all the colors,

The spectrum of colors,

And as they merge one into another,

Creating new colors as they merge,

That's us.

We have got so much more than just what it is that we are now defining ourselves as.

We think we're broken.

We think that we are bitter,

Angry,

And resentful beings.

But that is not the truth.

Because if you just stop and you feel into your heart and you ask your divine heart,

But what do I know?

What do I know inside this divine heart?

What is my heart calling me towards?

Every time you feel this anger,

This bitterness,

Perhaps we could just stop inside of that without shaming and blaming and disregarding ourselves.

Perhaps we could just stop inside of the awareness of that feeling and ask our being,

So where did that come from?

I wonder what that's about.

Remember those words,

Those two little words,

I wonder.

The moment we start to wonder about something,

It sends a signal to the whole being that says,

Could you find the answer?

Rummage around,

Go and look in all the filing cabinets,

Let's work it out.

So if we can do just one thing right away,

And we say to ourselves,

I wonder why it is that I feel so bitter.

So angry,

So resentful.

I wonder why I feel so jealous.

If we were to step right out of the story that has been given to us so that we can feel that,

Then we can start to look at the substance of it and the story that's in it.

We stand one back,

We witness ourselves in the story of our jealousy.

Then we notice it and we look at this and we ask,

So what is that about?

Why would I feel bitterness?

When did it possibly begin?

When did this story begin in me?

If you could look back at your entire family line and all their history and all their story,

You would see that the imprint,

The idea of bitterness,

The feeling that we know,

The experiences that bring it about and show it and reveal it to us,

These,

My lovely,

Are embedded in the history of your line,

Where there were so many obstacles for people to overcome,

Where they had to really struggle just to survive.

So the bitterness,

The hardship,

The struggles,

The resentment that builds within that is so hideous,

Isn't it?

Then we have one more thing that's happening.

And if we're standing back and we're really observing this,

We will see that we all are on a stage,

A great stage.

It's a 3D reality stage.

And this stage holds all the props,

The lights,

The costumes,

The storylines that go around contrast.

3D reality is all about contrast.

If we could just come to accept that,

Stand back and then stand back again from your story,

No matter what it is that you are in right now,

No matter what you're feeling or experiencing,

Look at it as if it is being played out in front of you on this grand stage.

And know that the stage is called three dimension.

In the 3D reality,

This is the greatest opportunity for us to see,

To understand,

Because it's black and white,

It's so evident.

It's gonna show the story to us so blatantly that we cannot miss it.

And yet we keep missing it.

How did we get to this point where we could be in so much denial that we can't see what is being played out in front of us?

It's such a very big pity because all the time while we are playing in the story,

The story is playing within us.

If the story is playing within us,

Then we are maintaining the status quo of that.

We are holding each other hostage on the stage.

No one gets to upgrade.

No one gets to elevate into a higher awareness consciousness because we all holding ourselves here.

We refuse to see the great gift of the 3D reality contrast.

And every time you feel a bitterness,

Ask your being,

So what is that about?

I wonder what that's about.

I wonder why I feel so bitter.

And what is it that is making me feel like that?

If you were to look at your life and say,

Okay,

I can see it's because there is enormous struggle and there is lack.

There is great suffering and hardship.

When I look across and I see the other dear souls that are here,

They don't look like they're suffering.

They don't look like they're having such a hard time.

Of course,

We're going to feel bitter about that.

How come?

How come I get to do the hard stuff?

How come they're not suffering?

This that is causing me so much pain,

They don't even seem to be aware of it in this delight of oblivion.

How come is that?

When we're seeing that,

The two stories,

Your story and the other,

What we're really seeing is the 3D reality.

We're seeing the stage being propped up with this game that's being played out right here in front of us.

Instead of seeing what it is that's being revealed to us,

We drop into a place where we shame and blame ourselves and we feel poorly about who we are and how we're doing.

We start disregarding everything that has been wonderful that we have done.

We start shutting down our energy.

Such a pity,

Isn't it?

If we could see the story as the contrast and say,

Okay,

So they look like they've got everything,

That everything is just going smoothly and hunky-dory.

It feels like to me that I'm not,

That I'm experiencing great pain.

They seem to have everything and I seem to have nothing.

Could it be that you said at some point in your divine and sacred agreement that you would encounter and hold the awareness of lack because for some reason your soul needs to understand it?

So then what's the point of making a soul agreement to experience some kind of lack as you might be perceiving it and then be angry about that and bitter and resentful about the ones who have?

Maybe their soul agreement was that they would experience abundance,

Prosperity,

And they would get to have that experience this time.

It's all a setup.

It's an absolute setup and it's a stage that is showing us what that setup is so that we can see.

When on earth are we going to see?

And even in yourself right now,

Feel the resistance you might have to doing just that,

Seeing what it is.

Feel your resistance,

My lovely.

It's perfectly okay because that's how we defend and protect ourselves from the wounds.

We won't listen to anything else.

We'll just lock it out.

No,

I'm not having that.

I'm just going to stay angry and bitter.

Yes,

You can,

But you can also do something else because guess what?

We're in 3D and there's a contrast.

There is always something else in this 3D reality and the two points,

The two faces are expressing themselves to you right now.

You can choose to stay in the one that hurts you and drops your energy,

Or you can choose to feel the pain in that,

The bitterness,

Resentment,

Anger,

And at the same time,

You can see what abundance and wellness looks like.

And thank goodness there are some showing us that picture,

Reminding us of what our souls are really seeking,

Collaboration,

Kindness,

Fullness,

Happiness.

There are some holding that like holding a flashlight in a dark night.

How could we possibly be bitter about them showing up in this magnificent way if they're shining a light for us to see?

But what holds us trapped is our own resentment,

Anger,

And bitterness.

Long as we stay in that,

The light that is being shone for us to see another way,

The contrast that is being presented through the duality experience,

The 3D,

Is not being seen by us.

And what a great pity that is because you,

My lovely,

Have all the capacities to make this a different experience.

There is one thing in this whole game that changes everything.

Here is your choice,

And it's to choose,

To choose with all your heart and all your soul.

What would you choose with all your heart and all your soul if you knew what you choose right now?

The stream that you wish to play in,

The consciousness level that wishes for you to stay in with it.

What would you choose if you knew it would make a change,

A shift of consciousness for all of humanity that would support this earth,

All the plants,

And all the creatures?

Would you not be prepared to let go of this little thing called resentment,

Bitterness,

Anger,

Hate,

Fear,

Judgment,

Self-loathing,

Shame,

Blame?

Could you not let it go already so that we can start to live in a different way?

When we make a choice,

When we choose just with our mind,

We open up a frequency that I always point to the throat,

It's your free will.

It's the one gift that we've got to get home.

We activate our free will and we choose something else.

Doesn't mean it's gonna be easy because we've been choosing the tough stuff,

The hard stuff,

The misery for eternity.

Gosh,

We've been doing this on and on and on and on forever,

Haven't we?

But if enough of us could see who we are,

Feel the stories,

Feel the pain,

And then start to look at what the picture really is and how it's presenting itself to us and ask this being,

What else could I do?

How else could I see this in this moment?

The trick here is to catch yourself in the moment.

It is so subliminal,

The moment we drop into that space,

The whole mind and body races into that point of pain and tries to mask it or defend yourself or deflect,

Deny,

Distract,

Detach,

Destroy,

Pooh,

Pooh,

Pooh,

And all those chronic chemicals get pushed into this body.

Your adrenal system starts pumping itself crazy,

Throwing out cortisol,

Epinephrine,

Norepinephrine,

All those stress hormones that are really,

Really struggling in our bodies.

We just can't be the container of this misery.

We were not designed to be that.

At some point,

We're either going to be at our complete demise because we have now pumped so much of this pain and misery and so many chemicals into our being that our cells can no longer thrive or we could choose to start to see.

If enough of us can do that,

And that's why I absolutely know that us gathering in these spaces,

Reconsidering,

Thinking about another option already opens that option.

We're not gonna be champions at it,

Of course not.

We're gonna be probably pretty revolting.

We're gonna have to practice a little bit today,

Do our best,

A little bit tomorrow,

Do a little bit better.

The next day,

Oh gosh,

Just a train smash disaster,

Awful,

Not doing great.

It's okay,

Take a breath,

Recognize it.

Love and honor you.

We've gotta do this again and again and again until we get it right.

And if we can keep reminding each other that that's what it's all about,

We're gonna do a really good job.

We're going to get it right,

But we need to practice.

We've been practicing the other story of hardship,

Suffering,

Survival forever.

Remember,

We are the first ones who are here for that switch.

There is no more time to carry the debris and the stories.

Look very,

Very carefully at what is being presented to you.

Get a very certain awareness of what it feels like in you,

Because if you can feel it,

You can heal it.

It's an energy synaptic connection.

Allow yourself the gift of knowing and feeling,

Trusting that you can,

You're not gonna fall apart by feeling what you're feeling,

Rather than going into the denial and the deflection.

The minute you go into that,

You're just putting yourself into a deeper space with that pain.

Allow yourself the luxury of feeling all your feelings without shaming and blaming you.

But in it,

Start to understand the contrast,

The 3D that it's presenting something to us,

The heart and the soul,

The hidden chakra and the space between.

Listen to that.

There is so much more.

If you listen carefully,

You're going to hear what is vital for us,

Each and every one of us,

As we step into the next space,

A higher evolution of the species.

We can do it if we pay attention.

We can do it when we are together.

It's a wonderful gift,

A time to show up as your excellent,

Most divine,

Most illuminated being.

It's the most wonderful time for you to remember who you are.

Remember who you are.

So beautiful,

My treasures.

Let's take a deep breath into that and just feel that energy flowing into you now.

Bring into your mind the idea of bitterness,

Sadness,

Rejection,

Hate,

Anger,

All those things,

And just see them for what they are.

They are stories of understanding.

And then bring to your mind the energies of love,

Grace,

Kindness,

Compassion,

Integrity.

We know that too.

You know so much,

My lovely,

And you standing right here in the space between,

What will you choose now?

What would you choose with all your heart and all your soul?

What will you choose,

My love?

So much love here.

Thank you for you,

My treasures,

And for holding the space with me week after week.

We're very kind to you.

These are big stories to unravel,

But that's okay.

We're just gonna put on our big girl and big boy pants.

We're gonna do it.

Oh,

Sweet people.

I just love you all so much for being here.

It's very,

Very wonderful that we have this time together.

Thank you for being here.

I'm sending you love,

Love,

Love.

Take care of you all.

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