How Long Will You Carry This?

We go into the deep space of hardship and pain so that the part of us that knows how to bring healing to this place of wound can heal our turmoil and torment. From this strong, anchoring energy we open the space to feel the depth of what we have been experiencing, so that we can heal within that place with our Gracious Heart. Ask yourself - How long will you carry this pain? - and ask what the value might be to you.

Transcript

All right my treasures,

Let's come into the sacred space and let's hold it now with our energy as we take a deep breath in and then fall down into the space.

Imagine that you can just release,

Let go and drop down into a sacred space right here,

Right now.

Lovely my treasures.

Try and still your body,

Just breathing into this beautiful space and as you breathe out,

Feel like you can release,

Let go with every exhalation and then with each inhalation just breathing in this beautiful breath of life into your being,

Welcoming this flow into you.

Know this as a stream,

A beginning,

A new stream of life,

Of wellness or flow.

Let that come into you now.

Beautiful view.

All right lovely ones.

So let's do this now.

Bring into your awareness a moment when you felt this immense longing,

Connection,

Perhaps loss,

Pain,

Whatever it might be.

Whatever has been activated in the last little while,

Just use that and take great care of yourself in the moment where you are and the place where you are.

If you're feeling a little overwhelmed,

Just stop and allow this breath to come in and soothe yourself with a long slow inhalation through the nostrils,

Count to five and a gentle exhalation,

Count to five.

You take care of you in the space where you are,

Just with your breath and with the ability to be very still right there where you are right now.

And with your mind and with your heart,

Imagine that you can drop into the place where the wound is and feel your willingness to go into that space and know that you can only go there now because you have grown immensely in your being and you come to that place where you are beyond your three year old just having the temper tantrum.

And now we are sitting deeply within our emotionally mature part of our being.

That little three year old can also be there,

Not in this moment right now.

Feel like you are calling in that part of you that is your very clear,

Emotionally mature being,

The part of you that is pure light and pure love.

Imagine this as the energy of the essence of who you are,

Your light being,

The part that we go back to when we finish playing in the body.

That aspect of us that is pure light,

Wisdom and understanding and connected into all that is.

Bringing that deep,

Strong,

Connected energy.

And then drop it right through your body and anchor it into the ground,

Into the earth,

Hold the space here.

And then relax your tummy,

Relax your shoulders and relax the skin on your beautiful face.

Drop down,

Drop down,

Drop down.

With every breath coming in,

Feel as if you are softening your belly,

Relaxing your back and feeling the balance of your left and your right side of your being.

Bringing around you a sacred part,

A chrysalis of light and love and you are cocooned inside of it.

You are safe,

Held and adored in this space.

Now calling your guides,

Angels,

Divine presence,

The highest vibration of light and love that you could hold at this time.

Bring that energy into you and feel the awakening and the quickening within your heart when you feel that connection.

Ask your beautiful being now from deep within,

How long must I continue to hold this pain?

And as you ask the question,

Just feel into your gut,

Into your enteric.

And then ask your being,

If I am to hold on to this for any longer,

What is the value to me?

So drop that question right down,

What is the value to me?

And search for all the ways that this might be of value to you,

How it might serve you positively in an affirming way.

And then ask your being,

Is it truly affirming?

If I'm holding on to this,

Is it truly affirming for me?

Is it of value for me?

Does it add anything of worthiness to my life from this forward step onward?

And listen deep down into your being.

And then ask yourself the question,

Why have I been carrying this?

Why have I been carrying this?

Why have I been holding it for so long?

And listen for the answer right there.

Listen to the beginning of the sentence that says,

Because,

And hear what else you hear after this.

And then ask again,

Is this of worth to me?

Now ask your being,

Could I give myself a worthy life experience?

Could I give to me an experiencing life journey that is filled with flow and light and love and abundance,

Laughter,

Worthy of a life?

Could I give this to me?

Dropping even deeper,

Does my happiness,

My wellbeing connect in any way to that sense of loss or pain?

Is my happiness and wellbeing reliant upon me holding this pain?

And settle your being down even deeper.

Would it be okay for me to slide right through the center of this pain and drop into that deep space of self-worth,

Self-love?

Could I know myself as pure essence in this deep,

Quiet,

Still place?

While you hold this gentle space of your connectivity right now,

Open your heart and think about how many people are having the same experience as you right now.

Around this world,

If your sound of your pain would resonate as a tune or a vibration or a frequency,

We would hear it everywhere.

We would hear that tune,

That signal everywhere.

We are all carrying immense codes and chords and imprints of pain,

Hardship and suffering.

And if you were very quiet and if you could tune in to the sound of this sad space,

Then you could open your heart to immense compassion,

To all beings,

To all life,

To all who are singing this song,

For all who are crying out,

Yearning and longing.

And feel the love that you can bring into your heart and transmit along this line,

This thread of awareness,

This music,

This frequency.

And you can send it out into the space where all the wounds and aches of the world are.

That you can find each other's hearts and souls through this longing,

This note of such deep,

Intense longing.

With the deepest wish and the deepest longing,

Imagine that you would wish the best for another,

A mum,

A child,

A dad,

A grandparent,

An aged one,

A sick being.

That you would wish the very best for them.

If you could,

You would open up your entire energy field and just beam this beautiful energy,

Light,

Healing love to them.

See yourself giving,

Transmitting this energy to those you know and love and to those you don't know and will never meet.

To those that you are connected through this beautiful song,

This longing,

The song of the soul.

You step into that place as the healer of that unique pain.

We can only heal when we go into the deepest place of the connection to the feeling.

If we can feel it,

We can heal it.

If you knew right now that what you have understood and suffered and known in this life journey has such immense value and this is its value.

It is the connecting point to immense healing in the quantum field.

It goes beyond our own singular expression of being.

And if you were willing just to be still for a little while and know that you have been carrying it all this time to this point because you had to know and you had to know how to dive deeply down,

Down,

Down into the very depths of that despair and then radiate your light.

Open your heart and radiate a healing balm of light and love to all those who hold the same note as you.

What a wonderful gift this is for us to give.

Now sit quietly and imagine that this beautiful energy is being transmitted through you.

And then the beautiful connection with all life.

The energy that we send forth returns tenfold plus.

Imagine that that which you radiated out to so many,

Many millions of beings comes back along an energy wave and reconnects with you.

And if you knew how much love is coming back to you now,

Would you bring it into you?

Would you allow this to come towards you or would you shut the door again?

Could you just keep this door open for a little while and receive immense loving healing from the energy,

This compassionate,

Grateful,

Gracious quantum energy?

And so it moves like this,

This glorious infinity,

This infinity wave.

The willingness to receive this back began with your willingness to amplify it from your place of knowing.

It is the spark that you alone can ignite and the moment you ignite it and the moment you radiate it outward with wishes of wellness to all beings that know that same place,

That energy comes back to you.

Tenfold and more and more and more.

And then there is one thing left to do,

Is just receive it.

Would you receive this now?

Would you let this bathe through you,

Wash through you?

Would you allow yourself to receive this healing of gratitude?

And then imagine that if you are willing to receive it back to you,

Then this energy can continue to move.

But if we cannot receive it back,

The energy stops,

The shutters come down,

The game plays out again.

Stay as open and as clear as willing,

Receiving and amplifying the energy field through the gracious heart.

Beautiful you.

Just relax there now.

Ask your being to be very,

Very still.

Feel the breath coming in,

Gentle sipping in of the flow of life force in through the nostrils,

Counting to five,

Then breathing out through the nostrils again to count to five.

Soothe your being.

Beautiful you.

We feel that flow.

We feel the grace and we allow ourselves to experience this life in a whole and a new way.

In the gentleness of where you are right now,

Bring your balance back to your beautiful being.

Place your hands together at your heart.

Thank your being for its willingness to go on a little journey of deep,

Profound inner healing.

Let your mind and body receive the gifts that you have brought into it.

And may all those who are also in the same energy reverberation,

May they also receive the kindness that you have radiated from this loving heart without conditions,

Unconditional loving regard.

So lovely.

All right,

My treasures.

And take a deep breath.

We're going to do an ah sound to bring oxytocin back into the body and bring in flow.

Take a deep breath in.

Very good.

Let's do three of those.

Take a deep breath in.

Very nice.

Take a deep breath in.

Lovely you.

You've got it.

Hold it and gently come back.

Beautiful you.

Just stabilize your energy.

This goes beyond what you in your cute little immortal form can do.

This is healing along the energy lines.

It's working into the quantum field.

It's beyond and it's beyond and it's beyond.

And we can reach it because we have this divine heart and we have this imagination which is not an imagination.

It's gifts of awareness,

Pictures and feelings and senses being poured into us.

Your imagination is your greatest gift.

I ask that you just hold the space that you're in.

You are so worthy.

You are so necessary right now and your pain and your ache and your longing is a calling for us to call in and create something new.

Hold that in your awareness.

Keep it close to your mind,

Body and soul and just send this love.

Love,

Love,

Love.

Namaste.

Thank you for you heart and soul.

Thank you.

Reviews

Such a precious soul with an understanding of emotion and soul purpose beyond our "cute" little selves. :)

❤️this meditation.
Thank you 🙏

So so deeply connecting, healing and recharging. Such an absolute gift!!!!

Lovely, got insights and guidance that was helpful. Thank you!