Trust The Heart (Live Replay No. 8)

Trusting and daring not to! This Live explores the importance of trusting your heart and your highest truth, to unlock the key to Self Realisation. You may not have realised how long you have been subconsciously choosing not to follow your heart, for fear of the repercussions or judgement of others. When you open your heart and identify your true calling, it is profoundly powerful and life-changing.

Transcript

So welcome everybody.

As I say,

Philip Wayne here from North Yorkshire in England.

From the home of the Universal Studio,

This beautiful space I'm broadcasting from,

Complete with pyramidal roof,

It's lovely.

So tonight is stream 6 of 11 in 2022 of the Self-Realisation Programme on Insight Timer.

But in total it's actually stream number 8,

Because I did a couple of precursor streams at the back end of 2021,

Which also fit with the programme.

So very much part of that.

And I've actually,

In case you haven't realised,

I've been able to publish the audio replays of the first four live streams.

They're available now on my profile.

Obviously only audio because for reasons that are not entirely clear to me,

The replays aren't available to you in video formats,

Even though I can see them.

So we've got audio versions available.

So the first four are there and more are coming.

So this stream,

6 of 11 of the 2022 programme,

And I'm calling this one Trusting the Heart.

And each of these streams are building upon the previous ones,

But they do stand in their own right.

And I really want to explore what this really means,

This whole process of trusting the heart as opposed to going with the head,

Which is how we've been conditioned mostly to live our lives.

So also just to say for those who've donated today,

That's been great.

Thank you very much.

It helps both myself and Insight Timer.

So we've been exploring so far a number of different facets of self-realisation.

And really,

As I've explained a number of times now,

It all revolves around the resolution of the question,

Who am I?

Who am I?

And when the resolution of that question,

As I've explained in the previous stream,

It goes like this,

Who am I?

The question dissolves the questioner and the self is realised.

And this self is the true self as infinite awareness or infinite consciousness or infinite silence.

I use these terms interchangeably to point out the same thing.

And what is it that's going to keep you going on this spiritual journey?

Because we experience it as a journey,

Even though as the true essence is realised,

And it's seen that you are in fact always this and have never not been this.

In the human domain,

Which we experience in space and time,

It will always be experienced on as a journey.

And the thing that's really going to keep you going is the power of awareness,

Which is expressing itself through your heart.

And the key thing about the heart,

The energy of it,

It feels very,

Very different to the thought processes that we're most often identified with.

So when we're in insight,

Inspiration,

Information is arising from the heart space,

It's going to feel really very different.

It's going to feel inviting.

It's going to feel uplifting.

It's going to feel inspiring.

It's going to feel expansive.

And quite often it will also feel surprising.

A new way of looking at things,

A sort of aha moment or oh my gosh moment.

These kinds of words and the sensations that come with that energetically and spiritually speaking are all the kinds of indicator that whatever's arising is coming from the heart.

And that's in quite a stark contrast to the thought space of the mind,

The belief space of the mind,

Which will feel very much like should,

Must,

Ought to,

Obligation,

Time-based,

Pressure,

Judging,

Contracting.

And we all know energetically what that feels like when we're stuck in our heads.

So if you bear in mind these indicative type pointing words that I'm offering here,

You can start to distinguish immediately and energetically where anything is coming from.

If it's of the qualities of uplifting,

Inspiring,

Inviting,

Expansive,

Surprising,

Then this is a really strong indicator that's coming from the deepest space of awareness.

Whereas if it's of the other categories,

Should,

Must,

Ought to,

Obligation,

Judging and so forth,

Then this is really all coming from the case of mistaken identity that all you are is the body-mind.

So these very simple,

And you can feel this,

These very simple words,

Very simple energetic messages give us a great start as to which of these spaces it's coming from.

Now the key thing about something that's coming from the space of awareness through the heart,

And this is going to be a number of,

A series of key kind of like one-line insights I'm going to give you tonight,

Is this.

It's really ultimately blindingly obvious when we come to recognize it,

But it's important to understand this.

The heart never lies.

Let me say that again.

The heart never lies.

In contrast,

Body-mind,

Thought-space,

Belief systems is shape-shifting,

Moving,

Adjusting,

Always trying to impose judgment and its beliefs,

And the idea of trying to keep you as this body-mind safe.

And that safety is a false kind of safety from the truth of who you really are,

Because the ultimate safety,

So to speak,

Is the realization of you as life eternal.

So the heart,

When anything's arising with those kinds of energies,

And it's usually in those quiet moments,

Maybe you're in the shower or you're out in nature,

Or there's a pause in that moment,

And some insight,

Some energy,

Some clear sensation with these kinds of energies arises,

That's the moments,

And that's the energy that you can trust.

The heart will never lie.

What typically happens as we get a moment of insight,

Inspiration,

Clarity,

Calling,

Is that the mind,

Whether a few minutes later,

An hour later,

The next day,

The next week,

Will start to kick in and get you to start second guessing or questioning what it was that that insight was in the moment that it arose.

And it'll bring up all sorts of our books,

And remember that your last time you did this,

Or,

Oh,

That's going to be a challenge,

And it will bring in fears,

Doubts,

Questions.

And this is quite normal for the mind,

And it's linked to the live stream that we covered in length,

Which is the one transmuting fear into love,

Because that identification is what's led to the development of the emotional body.

And as long as there's energy in that emotional body,

Then these types of questions and questioning the inspiration arising from the heart space is always going to arise.

And indeed,

There may even be emotional blockages that come up.

You have a moment of inspiration.

In that moment,

It feels great,

It feels uplifting,

Inspiring,

Inviting.

And then later,

Fears are coming in around that insight,

That inspiration.

Now,

This isn't the point to turn back on the heart.

This is actually the point to face those fears head on,

Using the power of the awareness,

Witnessing that fear,

Letting it be there,

Feeling it fully,

But trusting only in the power of awareness.

And we covered that process in length on the stream,

Transmuting fear into love.

And the audio replay of that will be,

Again,

Will be coming as soon as we can get that available to you on Insight Time if you missed that one.

So this is the process that happens.

The inspiration arises and then identity,

Mind,

Emotional body kicks back in and starts questioning what in that moment you knew to be true.

So which are you going to trust?

Are you going to trust the mind,

The identity,

Or are you going to trust the heart?

And I've actually,

The very first track I uploaded on Insight Timer three years ago,

And then kind of left things for a while,

And I've only come back to it more recently,

It was originally a video and it's now an audio on Insight Timer and it's called Trusting and Daring Not To.

And I'll give you the essence of that now tonight,

This track called Trusting and Daring Not To.

It's based upon a one-to-one I was doing a number of years ago with somebody and we got to the point in the conversation where it was clear that this person's heart was calling them in a particular direction.

That was crystal clear and I knew this person quite well anyway so I knew that this was clear in terms of the direction and so forth.

And the person said to me,

Trust in this quiet and simple truth I see,

But dare I trust it.

And the immediate response that emerged from the space of awareness,

The infinite silence as I call it,

Was this,

Dare not to trust and you will suffer.

Dare not to trust and you will suffer.

You see the inspiration was clear from the heart,

But we talk about daring in life,

But the real dare is going with the mind than the heart.

It's never a dare to go with the heart,

Even if stuff is arising,

As long as that inspiration is clear in that moment and there's a really expansive,

Inviting,

Uplifting pull towards it.

This you can trust.

The questioning judging,

Fear-based approach of the mind is not to be trusted,

But if these energies are present in the moments after the inspiration,

Whether it's five minutes later,

Ten minutes later,

An hour later,

Then this is an invitation,

Not a challenge,

It's an invitation to face it,

Feel it,

Witness it and let the power of the awareness,

The infinite silence dissolve it.

And this is very important because in doing that you clear the space for the invitation of the heart to move into,

Because unless and until that has been dissolved there's always going to be these doubts and questions creeping in.

So the big dares that we actually take in life is actually going with the belief systems,

The thoughts,

Than actually going with the heart.

Remember the insight I offered earlier,

The heart will never lie.

The heart never lies.

And we can tell the difference as I've said several times already now by the energy,

The energetic sense that comes with those.

So this understanding it energetically,

Bodily,

Sensationally,

What these two energies feel like are your guidance system.

Your body has a fantastic guidance system built in and by recognizing those insights,

Those inspirations when they arise and the heaviness and the contractedness as that arises you get a clear distinction about which is it that you are going to be in service of the highest truth.

Because the heart will always be in service of the highest truth.

And in fact when you get clear upon that and then you face the stuff that arises from that,

If it does in the moments after,

Then you will clear the blocks in the way of that and it will allow the calling of the heart to flow through you and be expressed more clearly.

So I trust that's making sense to you and by the way just to reiterate any questions around any of this,

Just pop them in the comments and I'll pick them up as we go along.

Another key insight and this is to do with the emotional energy that can come up around this,

When we get that moment of inspiration then five minutes,

Ten minutes or whatever later there's fear there around following this heart's calling.

So I'm going to give you a little bit of a quick overview of what is going on in the mind.

And I'm going to give you a little bit of a quick overview of what is going on in the mind.

Is this,

Actually your heart can bear it all,

Your heart can bear it all.

You see in language there's actually some misunderstandings in some of the terms and languages that we use around the heart and this comes from a misunderstanding of what self-realisation is and what it is,

Where the real power lies.

So we'll use phrases like my heart's broken,

Things like that and actually in truth it's never the heart that's broken.

It certainly will feel like that,

Don't get me wrong,

That energy and I'm sure many people here have experienced that kind of sensation of being broken hearted but actually I'm going to offer you an insight here.

It's not the heart that's broken,

It's not the heart.

The one that is broken and feels that way which is creating an energetic overlay and creating that emotional sense in the body is not the heart,

It's the identity.

It's the belief in the case of mistaken identity,

The ego mind,

That all you are is the body.

It's that one as we've explored on some of the prior streams when we did that the Who Am I meditation and I'll do a version of that again tonight.

People started,

We're starting to see clearly,

In fact I think I'm not sure if it was Vereena who's on the stream tonight or somebody else when I asked about who is the one that believes.

Somebody put the comment,

The tired one,

And that was a great insight to come up from that meditation,

The tired one,

Because it's actually very tiring.

It's very tiring to go with the belief system and with the identity,

The personality,

And that is the one that feels broken in those moments of brokenheartedness or deep emotional pain or deep suffering.

It is not the heart,

It's the identity that's feeling broken and when people experience and many people have breakdowns,

It's that that's breaking down and if we can allow that process to continue and witness that,

Actually breakdown will lead to breakthrough and an opening to a deeper realization of the other exercises that we've done on the prior streams.

Which was to recognize,

When we did the Transmuting Fear into Love stream,

I explained at length and we all did that exercise together about recognizing that which is unchanging,

Unmoving,

Untouched,

And unblemished by the comings and goings of life and particularly the waves of emotion.

And if you didn't see that stream,

The replay of that audio-wise will be coming soon,

But recognizing that unchanging witnessing presence.

It's that from where the heart energy is coming from and it's that where the insight and inspiration is coming from and it's that and only that awareness because it is untouched and unmoved that can be trusted.

Everything else is impermanent and moving and changing and the Ego mind is the great shape-shifter.

It will duck and dive,

Bob and weave,

All in an ultimately vain attempt to maintain its version of reality.

This is neither good nor bad but it can be very challenging in the human experience.

So this is,

For all of these reasons and more,

Is why trusting the heart is central to the process of Self-realization because there's only going to be a part of the Self-realization because there's only going to be one result to that and that is the true nature of the Self will flower.

Your heart will guide you,

Lead you on the steps that are right for you to that realization.

If we choose,

And we've all done this,

To go with head,

You know we're bouncing head and heart,

Then the journey becomes much more rocky,

Much more up and down,

Peaks and troughs.

This again is neither right nor wrong,

It is what it is and every path and every person has their own unique path.

But by one moment going with the heart,

Next minute going with the head and then or maybe going with the head 90% of the time and the heart only 10% of the time,

What we're doing is kind of creating a mixed message for ourselves and up and down,

Up and down,

Up and down,

And the energy between the higher energy fields of the heart and the much denser and more contracted energy fields of the mind space and the identity space.

Does everybody see what I'm getting at here?

I noticed that Vereena's put a comment there,

That this distinction is so powerful and deep,

So I'm glad that that's resonating with you Vereena.

Can everybody see the distinction I'm drawing between that which is coming from identity,

Ego mind,

The case of mistaken identity,

And that which is coming from the heart space?

Yeah good,

It's actually very simple when we can recognise these energetic patterns and the recognition,

Good there's a few yeses coming in now,

The recognition of these energetic patterns are very important because your whole body is like a guidance system to spiritual self-realisation.

All these different messages are arising,

An emotion arises,

That's an invitation to face it,

Feel it and let it dissolve from the power of awareness.

An inspiration arises which is inviting,

Uplifting and so forth,

That's an invitation to follow that direction.

It is ultimately very simple.

So Ruth is saying we are conditioned to use the my almost exclusively,

I seem to be on the rocky path back and mind,

Okay,

I seem to be on the rocky path of back and forth and what's actually going on there Ruth?

Well first the important thing to say is recognising that that's the pattern that you're following and the recognition of that pattern is more than half the journey to the dissolution of the pattern because when you can see the pattern that's unfolding of this back and forth,

Rocking around the pattern,

You can see the pattern of the pattern back and forth rocking around between inspiration and heavy contracted stuff and on all the rest of it and then know that there's the unchanging awareness within you that we looked at in length in the previous streams.

Then trusting that and only that will do the work to dissolve.

The reason that one rocks back and forth is that we're placing our trust,

We're daring to trust the mind rather than actually trusting the heart.

And that's why that pattern plays out.

We're placing our trust in the wrong place.

And what is it that you are trusting?

What is it that you are trusting?

It's not the idea of yourself as to who you think and believe you are,

It's the power of the infinite unchanging awareness that you truly are.

And this leads us to another key pointing which is this,

What is the highest form of trust?

I'm asking you to answer that,

Just raising a question what is the highest form of trust?

And it turns out that the highest form of trust,

Listen to this carefully,

The highest form of trust is not having to trust at all.

The highest form of trust is not having to trust at all.

And that is because it's a knowingness,

It's a knowingness and we've all had that.

There's a,

In that moment of inspiration,

Insight,

Clarity,

There's a sense of just knowing that this is true.

I just know,

I just know.

And it's not the identity I that just knows,

It's actually the infinite awareness I that knows.

You as that that knows.

And it's that at least temporarily the mind and the identity has been bypassed and the trust has become the knowing.

The trust has become the knowing.

Just going to look at,

So hopefully that helps you there Ruth.

So Jo-Lynn is saying what about being walked over Philip and being adorn that by trying to be a nice,

By trying to be a nice person I guess that quite a lot of people have experienced that.

Trying to be a nice person and being walked over.

So what's actually happening here is that in trying to be this in quotes nice person this is also a function of identity.

It is unlikely to be coming from the mind even though mind might try and convince you that being nice and all the rest of it is a good thing.

There's a trying,

There's an efforting,

There's a actually often especially if one's being a doormat not standing in one's own true power and true space of awareness by trying to be nice.

Realizing the nature of the true health isn't about being nice it's about being completely trusting in the calling of the heart space and when there's clarity on what that is and the emotional blocks have been removed and you're clear what that calling is.

This is not only in your highest and greatest good once that clarity is there it's actually in everybody else's highest and greatest good.

However because people have their projected view of whom they think that you are it's likely that some of those people may not buy into that idea of this is the path for me now this is direction and yet they will want you to remain as their version of you and they may continue to treat you like a doormat but if you truly are clear about what it is you're calling is and others don't like that but you're crystal clear the emotional energy around it has gone the insight the inspirations there then what's clear is that you must follow that path because it is in your highest and greatest good even if others don't think so and yes you can respect them yes I appreciate that you have a different perspective on this but I am crystal clear that this is my calling and that I must follow this because not doing so I will be not only deluding myself but actually denying myself it's like that Shakespeare quote to thine own self be true to thine own self be true and I forget the rest of the quote now but this self that you're being true to is the infinite awareness that you are it's not the identity self they're trying to be a nice person self so this if that's been your experience of being walked over like a doormat then that really means that both you and the people who are doing that walking over are not really listening to the calling from the space within because when you're clear of what your calling is and you're prepared to stand up for that in a loving it doesn't have to be in a fight type way but to prepare to stand in that power and in a loving way say I am clear that this is my direction and calling and that this these actions I'm going to take and these actions that you are taking on in service of that in a loving and supportive way then you can stand in your power and move on from being the doormat so I hope that helps you and Jolene with that but if there's anything else you want in terms of clarity on that do let me know John is asking the question to am I pointing about faith when I'm talking about trust well it might be but we need to look at that word faith and what we mean typically good thank you Jolene when with the word faith is used if you to use that word in different parts of the world it will mean different things to different people and usually in those situations and in most of the world people are talking about faith in something faith in something and this something appears or is certainly experienced as external to that which external to you and so faith can become belief now this isn't actually going to serve you again for that reason see the live stream replay which I think has just gone live on insight timer the one beyond belief in the context I'm pointing out there faith is becoming belief and belief is the central block to spiritual self-realization as we explored in depth in that stream on the other context of John's just put a further comment there looking at it in a deeper way if the faith that we're talking about here isn't a faith in some thing but actually is a faith in the power of awareness the infinite silence the unchanging essence the untouched essence the unblemished nature of the true self then this is a faith that's worth having because that unchanging unmoved unblemished permanent essence source infinite silence the heart space of awareness then this is shall we call it the same as what I'm speaking of in trust and that faith becomes the knowing and that self in John's words there is the true self and we use the term self realization but it's important to understand and I've even done a whole live streams on this in the past this self in self realization is not an identity it's not a personalized there's nothing personal about the self of self realization it's the self as infinite awareness or infinite consciousness or infinite silence so if that's the self that we're pointing out there John then this self faith becomes is the same as the trust I'm talking about that becomes the knowing that becomes the realization that one is that which has already been seeking and always has been that and that we collectively are all that let me just look at John's mud so not so much as a belief as the pause between thinking and beliefs yeah well I'm getting that John from when you put the self faith so I've drawn a distinction between what will look most often in the world be referred to as faith which is in somethingness and the self faith the infinite awareness faith actually is a faith in this might sound strange folks no think no thing and as I've explained on previous streams no thing we are so used to thingness but no thing or nothing is actually infinite it's actually unchanging it's actually unmoving it's actually the energy field the self aware energy field of the universe so this faith in that is the same as the trust in the heart is the same as the highest form of trust that becomes the knowing the realization of the self all is making sense folks if you could just let me know if there's any questions around that oh and I can see a donation has come through there from Bruce so thank you very much for that the donations are helpful to both of myself and insight time for in spreading this message around the world okay thanks for that David I'm glad that that works for you another insight just just when I was I was through something on my website quite a few years ago now and just writing something down and suddenly into awareness consciousness came these words living from the heart is living in the mystery living from the heart is living in the mystery so let me unpack that a little bit for you when I say heart I don't just mean your physical heart although that's important because that is the energy field of the physical heart is actually very very powerful and actually quite a lot of research these days that has shown what is a double toroidal field around the heart in fact if you looked at the work of the Institute of heart math at the Institute of heart math I think he's based in the States they've done a lot of work on the heart space energy and measuring that and it's I thought it's many many more times powerful than anywhere else in the body but I don't just mean the physical heart when I'm talking about the heart I'm also talking about it as an energetic link to this infinite field of awareness and we express it and sense it and feel it often through the heart space the heart is filled with that peace that silence that loving energy so when I say heart I mean heart but also it as a connection to the universe living in the mystery you see this infinite sense field of awareness this infinite silence this infinite consciousness to the mind is deeply mysterious but the knowingness knows itself as that so it's this living from the heart is a complete space of trusting in that unchanging essence that is seeking to express and experience itself in your form and as I've said before the body is something that you have but it's not that which you are and so it will feel like we're living in this magical mystery tour of the heart space that actually is a flowing space of peace joy love grace when that trust is complete and total so living from the heart is living in the mystery and this is a beautiful mystery the mystery of the totality of life that is seeking to express itself uniquely in your form how beautiful is that so look at Lorena's comment here doesn't everything evolve including infinite silence or is it that behind everything sorry including infinite silence or is that behind everything else in the universe there's a bit of a both and type answer here of arena in the human domain which we experience as time space evolution then certainly in that space there's a constant process indeed you could say infinite evolution ongoing an infinite process of evolution evolution ongoing but the the true essence the infinite silence what is seen and what is realized and you don't need to believe me on this because as it is seen and as it is realized the infinite is infinite and it's untouched unmoved unchanging essence and so in that sense it that won't experience evolution because for evolution to be experienced there would have to be time and space and this is before and beyond time and space it's like I was saying in one of the earlier streams every sound returns to silence every phenomenon which is just a vibration also returns that you need silence to have sound you need silence to have any phenomenon because all phenomena are vibrations and so we need this unchanging backdrop for the experience of phenomena the phenomenal world and constant evolution to appear in on the green screen of consciousness just like in the movies you can project anything on the green screen so there's though in the phenomenal domain there's constant evolution infinite evolution but in the absolute essence it's just always unchanging and these are not separate these are not separate but you need that unchanging backdrop for the other to occur so hopefully that answers your question Verena what the guest is saying why does this infinite awareness choose to suffer in all appearances is it all just a game okay so this is an important question and there's a number of facets of that that we need to explore so the infinite awareness the infinite silence the infinite consciousness is before and beyond time space form and cannot be understood from the space of mind it's an inner standing and in a knowing that arises from this now this because there's no phenomena there is and there's no space and there's no time in that absoluteness and that's what's realized there is no experience whatsoever no experience whatsoever and this shall we say and here's an insight from the silence variety is my cause and the my here is the infinite awareness variety is my cause it chooses shall we say to come to know itself in its own experience and within that pure beingness arises and that beingness this the pure I am that I've spoken about in the meditations space time form and contrast now in that expression the pure expression without identification with the expression there is no suffering so what all realized beings have come to see is that they are this infinite awareness this infinite silence and when that's recognized and embraced and importantly the emotional body is dissolved there is no suffering the suffering comes from believing in the case of mistaken identity that all you are is this body mind which creates as I've explained at length on previous streams this in a sense of separation from that which you truly are creates the polarities of love and fear it creates belief in the thoughts the identity upon which the emotional body gets built so it's this identification process which happens in the finite domain that that is the cause of suffering at one level no let me go back that infinite awareness has no judgment about any of the appearances none whatsoever none it neither sees it as good nor bad it just is what it is at the human level the finite domain that were so typically believe all there is and work with and live with all the time because of the identity and this is good that is bad we have we create the experience of suffering because of the identity so at this level it isn't the infinite awareness that is making that choice although all energy comes from that it's the choice to go with the identity rather than the realization that's creating the experience of the suffering so when we were to ask this question well what is self-realization one way of us expressing it is an end to suffering an end to suffering because as that true essence is realized and importantly the emotional body is dissolved then the suffering will go the suffering will go so hopefully that answers your question guest that's that

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thanks, great discussion. i agree pain is inevitable suffering is optional. grieving the death of my husband (married 35 years) has challenged that belief. but i’m assured that i’m doing healthy or integrated grieving. and I even have glimpses now and then of the bigger picture. i’m claire sentient and claire audient. i talk to my husband everyday and i hear him talking to me. so when you mentioned the laughing, there are times im laughing and crying at the same time— because i can sense that bigger picture. sometimes i even sense that i chose to go through difficult emotions not because of karma but to experience deep contrast again. namaste 🙏 😊🐞💛😊🐞💛😊🐞💛

Thank you so much for this talk and meditation. I just joined your group and listened to this very insightful session . Thank you so much for sharing your insight about silence and our true nature . Much love and gratitude ❤️🙏🕊️

Beautiful truths expressed thank you really enjoyed listening again 🙏😇🙏

I had to listen to this way before 🤭 I'm grateful I did now and defiantly I need to listen more times 😉.
Thank you, Philip, for your guidance and for helping us to realize what already are ✨.
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So many reminders. Awesome . Thank you Philip🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻👍👍👍