Willing To See

So we're going to allow ourselves now to come into a much deeper energy space.

Feel this beautiful body in here.

Feel that you have grace all around you.

See if you can relax right into your body.

Bring your energy to your heart.

Let the vibration begin to resonate and then open.

I'm opening my heart to me.

That I'm being in connection with me and who I am.

And I thank the guidance that is always being with me,

Helping me,

Uplifting me.

And I trust this implicitly.

So think about the decision that you've just made a little while ago with a sense that this perhaps is not the right way to go.

We bring it into the heart,

We open the space and we come into agreement with ourself.

We trust that what we are hearing and sensing and feeling is for us.

When we have that idea that this is for us,

Then what we are doing is we're putting our faith and our trust inside of a space that is always for us.

If we think of our higher self,

This beautiful guiding light all around us,

Guiding us,

Then we know that this is for us,

That this is a journey that we are upon and everything that we are feeling and encountering is for this journey.

Imagine if we could just settle into that idea and know that this is for me.

Every single nuance,

Every expression,

Every word,

Every rejection,

All of this is for me.

And all of it is coming towards me because it's part of the unfolding.

And we come into the energy of the heart and we become centered here and we agree with ourselves,

Allowing ourselves to have this journey with all these experiences.

Imagine how freeing that would be to us if we could truly absorb that and know it.

This is for me.

Guidance is speaking into me and through me and around me.

And the life is unfolding and I trust that every step,

No matter how it looks,

Is the perfect step towards my fullness,

My sense of completion and wholeness.

Here at the solar plexus is where we want to visualize a sense of wholeness.

We want to see this like a beautiful circle and all the little segments of that circle are looking full and complete.

There would be empty spaces in this if I was not able to experience something,

If I didn't allow me to have that experience because it was inconvenient or didn't feel okay because I would have to judge myself in some way.

So then I don't allow myself to have that little segment.

But then that little piece is empty and the fullness that my heart and soul is desiring cannot be gained.

So imagine that,

These little segments that we so do not want to look at,

The moments when we have to look at our shadow self,

That we are willing to look at it now completely.

The part of us that's angry,

Hateful,

Vengeful,

Enraged,

Disappointed.

All of these are just feelings that this body is processing towards something.

We cannot feel rage unless there is a sense of justice at the end of that,

Something better,

Something that we desire.

We cannot feel disappointment unless there is something pointing towards what it is that is not that.

Whatever this is pointing towards,

It is an echo of the heart's desire.

The sooner I can turn my heart on,

The quicker I can become complete.

So I'm willing to feel my heart's desire and I can only feel it fully and completely when there is a space,

A shadow,

A gap.

Because then the heart seeks and when the heart begins to seek,

It will find.

So think about what it is that you are seeking.

It feels like a frustration and we want the other person to make it better so this feels better in us.

But it's got nothing to do with the other person making it better.

It's with me understanding what it is pointing towards.

What is this feeling of rage and fury,

Disappointment in this relationship that keeps coming up,

That is pointing me towards something else?

Connecting now to your heart,

If I were to stand in a very clear place and if I could look at each of these aspects that are shadows and I could stand there and look at them,

Just choose one and just be willing to stand there and look at it and then feel it.

And once you begin to feel it,

You begin to awaken the heart,

The feeling within the heart,

The heart's desire.

Here embedded in the heart,

In this beautiful heart is the code.

And the code is calling itself out.

I would much rather have,

I so desire,

Why can't it be like?

And we say this with our mind and our words and we expect it to be coming towards us from another.

We are listening to the heart's calling but we're placing the calling into the power of another or into the path of another.

If they did this,

Then I would be able to have that.

It's that dependent energy.

And if I could let the other that I had this expectation for come out of my circle and be in the far peripheral of this and it's just me standing here in this cleared space,

Feeling what I'm feeling.

And as I'm feeling it,

I'm willing to see it.

What is the resonance,

What is the color,

What is the sound,

What is the perfume,

What is the texture,

What is the taste?

And we connect with that fully and completely.

I'm willing to feel because I'm willing to heal.

So I stand here and look at this feeling,

This sense.

And I feel it in with me,

Feel it in this heart and then I hear what my heart is calling in.

See your heart beginning to awaken.

The heart will always call in the opposite towards light and love.

The mind will bring in the rage and the fury and the vengeance but the heart will always call in something else.

It is my deepest desire not to have this feeling.

It is my deepest desire for this not to awaken in me.

I do not like feeling this feeling.

I blame,

Judge me when I have this feeling.

But imagine where you're standing,

You have no blame and judgment towards yourself.

That I stand here and I just feel it fully and clearly,

Passionately if I must.

And I let all the shaming and blaming self-doubt of self be released right now.

I do not need to hold on to this.

That right now I can simply feel that which I've been pushing away.

I stand and face it now.

And there is nobody else here,

Just me and this feeling.

And my heart is calling something else.

My throat is beginning to awaken to truth,

To the idea that I can give this to me,

That I will allow this for me.

That I can expand into this.

Heart's desire begins to awaken at the throat.

With all my heart and all my soul,

I wish it could be.

When we begin to say this to ourselves,

If only it could be,

I wish it could be,

I would so much rather.

And we speak these words.

We are beginning to claim this that we seek.

We begin to call it in.

So imagine here you are in this clearing.

Here's the shadow,

Here's you.

And here you are with your voice.

What would you claim with the energy here at your throat?

What would you allow you to receive,

To call,

To give to you?

We are angry because we are not at peace.

We are infuriated because our peace is unsettled,

Our sense of harmony and sense of self is rattled.

This enrages us.

Bring this beautiful energy and translate this energy to courage.

Rage,

Courage.

Rage through the heart.

What does my heart desire?

And when your heart speaks so clearly and your throat allows you to receive it and you're willing to speak it and claim it,

What do I really want for me,

Not for the other?

Their job is for them to claim their own space,

Their own heart's desires to awaken and speak to them.

What do I claim for me?

Think about the peace,

The harmony and the wellness that you wish to bring into you.

How would I like to feel?

We begin to set up a new contract,

A new awareness.

We are finding ourselves standing absolutely in our courage,

Only us.

There is nobody else around.

There is no one upon which I can trust this obligation,

This feeling,

This sense,

Just me.

And I ask now that I can begin to see this with new eyes.

I see it through the eyes of my higher self as a kindness to this beautiful human being that can feel so much.

What would I wish for my human being from my higher self?

What would I wish for this beautiful one to feel and experience in this life?

Imagine that you are experiencing a sense of that now,

That you are drawing it into you from your higher self,

Your higher awareness.

Opening up a whole new range of your sensory being,

Clear annoyance,

Clear audience,

Clear sentience,

Clear cognisance.

I begin to see this whole story that has nearly made me crazy in a whole new way.

I begin to embrace me and the willingness I have to be right there inside of adversary,

Sadness,

Disappointment,

Struggle,

Anger,

Rage.

I'm willing to see it,

Feel it,

Hold it.

And I'm willing to see it through the eyes of this human being.

Imagine you as your higher self looking through these eyes.

And while we do this,

The higher self speaks to us.

There is another way.

When we decide that we can become full because of our life experiences,

That we can find a sense of completion,

Satisfaction because we were willing to have all these life experiences,

Then this life is worthwhile.

Not simply going through this life hoping that every moment is delightful.

I don't need to be in my human form interacting and connecting or colliding with others.

If I'm not to learn,

If I was a spirit being,

There would be none of this connecting and colliding.

It would be an easy realm in which to navigate.

But because I take a form and because we perform and show each other,

We are gaining so much information.

There is so much valuable information about who we truly are and what it is that our soul seeks.

Those who are showing up in my life and those who are pressing all my buttons,

They are perfect because they are making me grow.

Bring that energy now again to the solar plexus.

They are making me grow in my awareness.

Right here at your center now,

Love and honor this human being,

Willing to feel,

Willing to know,

Willing to allow,

Willing to learn and willing to grow,

Willing to have all these experiences,

To find a sense of completion and fulfillment in my own soul's development.

Every situation,

Every experience is perfect.

I see that from my higher self.

I allow that vision to filter into my human self with a gentleness that bathes into this beautiful being,

A gentleness that resonates with compassion,

Kindness,

Empathy,

Deep understanding.

Bring this energy now to your second chakra.

I can connect with all beings and all life from this point because when I'm complete and I don't have these gaps,

Because I've found a way to fill them up with the heart's desire,

Something else,

There are no leaks inside of it because I do not depend on anyone else to fill it up.

I am filling me up.

I am creating a completion in my soul's embrace.

I am holding myself whole,

Clear,

Beautiful.

I can stand here with this sense around me and I can be with anyone at any time and anywhere in any way and what they have to say and what they do,

I can see it as being for them and I can stand and feel clarity,

Clearness.

We think about that beautiful energy of the bubble around us and we hold this beautiful energy and the light on the outer side of the bubble,

That reflective light.

With that beautiful reflective light,

We create a mirror-like effect.

With this beautiful mirror,

Those who come towards me,

I can see them and they can see me,

But their behavior bounces off this beautiful,

Peaceful,

Reflective outer layer.

I am peaceful because I'm whole.

There are no cracks in this mirror.

This body is feeling strong,

Connected,

Aligned,

Honored,

And the ones who come towards me may see themself because I offer no judgment,

Shaming,

Or blaming towards them.

I'm simply honoring them for their journey,

For whatever their human being needs to experience.

I allow them that privilege.

The sooner I take my hands out of it,

The quicker they can come to their fullness.

I have grown because I was willing to stand right here with everything that I'm experiencing in honesty and integrity,

With light and compassion and love to me,

My human being.

Think about how we are guided by our light,

The part of us that is pure love and light,

Into this beautiful human being that is holding so much information.

And then we bring these energies together.

We begin to assimilate who we are as deep,

Beautiful beings of light and love into this human being,

This form that can perform so well.

We bring it into one perfect stream.

Let your consciousness align into this perfect inner stream.

See yourself standing in that column of light through the top of your crown,

Bathing you,

Through you,

Cleansing you,

Fulfilling and enriching you.

In this perfect stream,

I find myself being in the perfect way,

The perfect time.

Experience love and light,

Wellness and flow,

And just rest here.

Allow this to deepen into your soul.

Let this beautiful body feel deep cleaning,

Cleansing and healing.

Put this beautiful energy of happiness into the space.

We open our field to the energy of delighting and opening in the energy of gratitude.

We express this life,

Our words,

Stating who we are clearly,

Claiming the energy that we are holding,

Standing in our space,

Trusting the guidance,

And opening our field to creativity.

And we place ourselves in this beautiful energy of transformation.

We truly are transforming with every breath and every step and finding a way to be here and to hold our space.

Think about you holding your space now.

We open the energy towards grounding us,

That where we are is the perfect place and the perfect time and the perfect body.

Being the perfect experience.

All is well.

Standing in my truth,

Strong,

Centered,

Aligned.

Standing in my courage,

Flexible,

Moving forward.

This life supports me abundantly and I support this life abundantly.

Lovely you.

We put this beautiful energy all around us now and feel the energy flowing through your beautiful being.

We make a commitment to ourselves to allow ourselves to witness our journey and to do so in a loving and gracious way.

Take a deep breath and we can come on back to this time and this place,

This space.

Feel the energy around you and in you and through you.

And then when we carry on being here,

Showing up as we do,

May it be in a whole new way,

So much easier and clearer.