Certainty In Uncertainty

So let's take a nice deep breath in,

My sweetheart.

And drop your shoulders,

Breathe out,

And just come into the sweet space.

Feel your energy here.

And imagine that your room that you're in is really a cocoon,

A chrysalis of light and love.

And that inside of this little chrysalis,

We can undo.

We can just undo everything that we are and that we've assumed who we are and how we are and what's been impressed upon us to be.

Imagine that in this beautiful part,

This chrysalis,

There are no expectations.

There's no titles.

There's nothing.

There's just the presence of the self right there now.

And all I have to do is breathe and relax into this energy.

Feel like you can ask your body to relax very deeply into this energy,

That it's perfectly okay for me right now to experience myself without any identity.

Eyes are closed.

And I can sense my body.

And I can also sense the air around me.

And I can sense the temperature around me.

I can hear the sounds around me.

And imagine that you're hearing and sensing all of this from an inside space,

This capsule of light and love.

And sensing that is coming to us is just what our five senses are connecting into.

And we give permission to our five senses to pay attention to these for a little while and then to just let them go as well.

We imagine that the form that we are,

That holds the five senses and interprets the five senses,

Can now release and relinquish even that.

No need for my five senses right now in the safe part that I've created to listen out for anything,

To tune into anything.

And we imagine we make some space for our five senses.

We ease the space around us as awareness and our mortal sensing perceiving being.

See this as ripples opening in a pond,

Just gently opening,

Opening.

We are making space right here,

Right now,

Gracious space that I'm creating.

There is nothing that informs me because I've released my idea of me as a form.

I'm simply awareness.

I am awareness that could be in my form and drop yourself into your body and just feel your body presence for a moment.

And then open up your energy into the outer layer,

The subtle energy around you,

Perhaps into the temperature of the room and place your awareness in that.

And then I'm without my form,

Formless.

And the only thing that connects my sense of form and formlessness is my awareness.

And then ask your being,

What is this awareness?

What is this?

What is this awareness that can hold itself in a form and out of the form?

And we become very aware that that sense of ourself as awareness that can witness ourself and be present with ourself at the same time.

Witness is our gift.

And if we can witness ourself in this form,

Then we can also have witnessed ourself in all the forms that we have taken through all life journeys,

All the companions who have been with us.

And even though these might be far away and very difficult to reach until we drop a little deeper,

Nuances and glimpses of those connections come towards us.

We understand that there have been many who have traveled alongside us.

Allow your beautiful being to honor that.

And the continuity of those connections is already.

It does not rely on a place and a time.

It is in the awareness of me as my being and me as a non-being,

Just light,

Energy.

Bring your awareness now to your treasure that you feel so deep within your heart and the love,

Unconditional love.

And feel the certainty of that love,

Unconditional love.

That love and that certainty of that energy is our stabilizing anchor.

Imagine now you bring this beautiful energy around you into your heart and draw it right down into your beautiful being.

Bring it in to the place where you are right now.

See this as it is creating itself as a stable,

Grounding platform upon which you can rest now.

The certainty of this love that you have known through eons of time that is always calling you home.

Feel the presence of that energy.

Feel how strong and unwavering it is.

Delight in how you have understood it and known it once again in this life.

And you have known it through many,

Many existences.

Anchor that energy in now.

Bring it right through this body form and hold it in your form.

Feel the substance of it,

Stabilize it into the space-time reality.

Imagine that you're putting it all the way down to the earth like roots that you now can see down,

Right down into the bedrock and the crystals,

Into the deep,

Deep earth.

This massive grounding network is stabilizing grid lines.

They are not based upon any evidence of what is above it.

They are stabilizing because they know how to hold onto the space where they are.

They know how to move around the hard rocks and find earth and nourish itself.

Bring your awareness to this beautiful network,

This powerful grid,

And anchor your energy into it.

Stabilize it as known,

Always known,

Always has been.

I've known it through all time,

All fields,

All dimensions,

Through many realities.

I've shared this experience and the sharing of experience,

It has amplified it.

We feel the deep ache and the yearning and the weeping of the soul when we don't hold it with the one we love anymore because they're not here.

But they don't have to be here for us to feel that awareness of presence,

That anchoring energy is an awareness.

It belongs in the subtle realm into which we shall all pass.

It is not at home in the anchoring of the human form that is transforming.

Everything that our human form has been holding is shifting.

And imagine you're just watching this amazing network beneath the ground stabilizing,

And there is a certainty in that.

The uncertainty is what does it look like above the space?

How am I holding it above the space?

Here is the uncertainty.

But as I'm deep down into this earth,

Connecting into all journeys,

All awarenesses,

Through all time,

The certainty and the love of those who have shared my journeys,

Many,

Many,

Many journeys,

Rest into that.

Feel that the more you can rest into this space and feel held and cocooned and safe and loved here,

There is no identity here at all.

There's no performing and doing,

No obligations,

No structures to administer.

There's just a strong holding energy that says,

I'm certain about this.

It's the certainty that we are getting in the messages that say,

Do not do this now.

Don't create anything new.

Stop.

Wait.

Don't perform.

It's the certainty of that energy that we are grounding in and anchoring into our field.

As we do this,

We open the energy of absolute trust,

A trust.

I am being held here.

I'm deepening my roots.

I'm establishing my energy.

I'm holding a gracious space.

This is the greatest gift I can give.

As you anchor in even more,

Settle in even more.

Allow your awareness now to come into both places,

Here resting in the space that you are,

And then your energy awareness,

Holding yourself in the space of your own life.

Listen to the messages that you have had in this life that says,

I don't want this anymore.

I'm tired of this.

I can't go on being and holding and doing this.

Listen to those messages.

And instead of going into,

Well,

How am I going to do this?

How will I be?

Instead of finding a way around it,

Don't go around it.

Don't go to the how and what if.

Just hear the message and the feeling and honor that in the human as the feeling,

The sensing,

And the awareness that has come through your mind,

Body,

And honor it by simply being in agreement with it.

Trust this as guidance that is coming to you.

Guidance is saying,

Stop,

Don't go on.

Wait,

Something else is coming.

It can't come in if you clutter into the space.

Keep the space open.

Come into an agreement that you can keep the space open even if you do not know what the next step needs to be.

Drop into trust.

Because I don't know what the next step is,

I can still hold the space,

Absolute trust.

Feel into that.

Drop that energy down into your anchoring energy.

That even if I do not know,

I know.

How sweet is that moment of not knowing and the acknowledgement that I do not know what the next step is.

Because right there,

I've already come into the agreement that says with my own being,

Because I don't know,

I'm uncertain and the uncertainty makes me not do.

That not doing needs to feel like it's a certain agreement,

A certainty in that agreement.

I'm not doing because I don't know and I'm certain about that.

If I needed to move forward in any way,

I would be given a guiding post.

I would be given some kind of indication of where it is that I am to go,

But I'm not receiving that.

Feel the certainty of that message.

Feel the certainty in the message of do not.

Do not distort it and then then what,

Then what.

Do not distort it.

Imagine you leave the then what and the how as a beautiful open space of potential and possibility.

As if you could emerge from deep down in the roots and the bedrock where you were placing the strong stabilizing force and you could lift your head up and above and suddenly all light is around you and all the blue skies wide open vast and expensive and the but how belongs here.

It is here.

It's already here.

How will I go forward?

How will I manage?

It's all here.

Reassure yourself that it is all here already and take a deep breath into this beautiful energy of light and blue and vast open air and expansiveness.

And as you breathe that air into your being,

Feel as if you are drawing in the possibilities.

Give it to your body and nourish this beautiful body with this breath of air,

This breath of life,

Life force.

And when you breathe it out,

Relax your body and breathe it out completely so that when you're ready to take that next breath and to choose into this abundance and possibility,

This vast expanse,

When you're ready to choose into that,

Notice that the breath of air and life is right here.

There was nothing you had to do to deserve it,

No conditions that needed to be met.

You could simply breathe it in.

How wonderful is that?

Let that awareness reassure you that it is here already,

All potential,

All life.

It's here already.

Feel how glorious that is.

It's all here.

Now breathe and relax deeply into that.

Bring in a sense of calm and peace into your being.

Feel the stabilizing energy.

Just bring your awareness to the base energy.

And how am I feeling here?

As you connect into your base,

Ask your being from two perspectives.

Give me the information about what it is that I'm feeling at my base energy and the part of me that is my human mortal form,

And give me the energy and the understanding,

The reading for the awareness energy of my base,

The part of me that is pure awareness that goes beyond this life and this form.

And how am I here?

And how am I holding these two energies together?

See them now merging into each other.

One field merges into the other.

I'm sensing myself as stable and strong and aligned,

Connected.

And the awareness of me being pure awareness and that it's okay as pure awareness to be in this life and any life,

To be in any space,

In any time,

In any way.

That's perfectly fine for me to be having this experience and honoring the body that is willing to hold the awareness and hold our mind,

Body,

Being,

Spirit.

Beautiful you.

Lovely.

Feel the stabilizing energy,

The alignment energy as if you placed two hands together and they agreed with each other and felt like they rested well one upon the other.

Perfect connection,

Perfect symmetry.

Now take a breath and come to your second chakra.

Hold your awareness here and ask your beautiful being to hold you gently here.

The awareness of ourself in this life and the connections that we have to all others.

How am I doing here?

How am I holding this beautiful connection of this body and this being and its willingness to feel and encounter,

To connect with all others,

With all life?

And how am I in the awareness of myself?

In the awareness that I have done many journeys and I have encountered many life forms,

Experiences,

And that I have a body,

A reservoir of knowing and knowledge that is easily accessible to me.

And that I can draw from this and I can understand that in all the journeys that have ever been,

I have always been.

Me as presence,

As life,

As light,

As awareness,

I have always been.

And we drift in and out of these like in and out of dreams,

But that we are always on stabilize that energy.

This life does not determine itself based upon where I am and with whom I am and how I'm doing and what I've achieved.

This life is valid,

Significant because of the awareness that I gain,

That I carry as a thread of truth into all existence.

Let your body feel a comfort in that and bring the two fields into perfect alignment,

Connecting them now to second chakra,

Taking a deep breath and merging now into the solar plexus.

Hold your awareness here.

The life purpose as I know that from this life,

My mortal frame is filled with conditions and validations,

Judgments.

There is a desire to accomplish and to be the best that I possibly can be and to finish my divine and sacred agreement.

And while we hold this longing and while we hold this agreement,

We are also holding an awareness that we have been in all journeys through all time.

We've had all experiences and this is simply another one.

And the purpose does not rely on the life,

But the purpose is that we awaken gently through all the dreams of our life experiences,

That we awaken into wisdom and clarity and more love.

We send a deep reassuring feeling into our center,

Our solar plexus.

It's okay for me to have this life and have this experience.

I've gained so much from it.

I'm constantly understanding who I am as a being of light.

Bring your focus into that,

Who am I as a being of light,

Not a pursuing,

Doing being,

But a being that can hold the purpose of all life and this life.

Bring the two fields together of awareness and place them gently in the palms of your hands and connect them gently to your solar plexus.

And take a deep breath and come to your heart,

Your glorious,

Gracious heart.

And feel the love here,

The heart,

The compassion,

The expansion.

The ability to feel so deeply.

How do we feel so deeply?

How do we feel that?

What makes our heart ache and yearn?

And we realize it is the fragility of life.

We realize how fragile this life is.

And then we understand that this life is fragile.

It's like a dream in a mist.

Release all the pain that has become locked in through many,

Many journeys,

A sense of despair and incompletion.

Seeing that this beautiful being can remember that the life purpose is that life is known to us through all lives.

Life is known to us through all lives.

The life does not determine the life purpose.

The experiencing does not determine it.

Bring a comfort to your being in that.

The life purpose is an unfolding,

A gentle unfolding through the illusion of life after life after life.

All the time we are in awareness of each life,

Connecting in that awareness,

Not to who I am,

But who I am in the greatest sense of all existence,

The very breath of the divine.

Breathe through and just relax.

Wonderful.

Now,

Take a breath and come to the heart.

Think of this heart that aches and yearns and longs and feels so much.

How would we reach this deep well of knowing if we didn't go into the depth of what it is that we were feeling and have been feeling through all time?

How would we possibly connect?

Honor this human being for its willingness to feel so deeply,

To ache and to yearn,

To sob and to cry.

Honor this human being and feel like your higher self can gently comfort your human presence.

Gently soothe the wounds around your heart,

The deep loss and the grief,

The pain.

Gently soothe it,

Gentle it into you,

Releasing all the hardships,

All the pain and all the suffering through all time,

Through all fields,

Through all dimensions.

Feeling a gentleness into your being,

Calmness.

My heart knows I follow the heart.

I follow the guidance.

I connect my heart and the desire for this life and the longings that are coming in my heart as desiring.

I connect it to this life.

Feel like now you've drawn this beautiful line that you're creating all the way from your base to your heart.

Take a breath now and come to your throat.

There here is the agreement.

I allow,

I give to me,

I honor.

I hear my voice.

I hear the yearning.

I hear the longing within my voice.

I hear the expression and I also feel the assuredness,

The certainty of the messages that are coming in.

I open my beautiful throat of my mortal being to hear,

To respond,

To connect,

To trust.

Awareness is awakening more and more through me and draw those two energies beautifully into your center of the throat.

I speak my truth.

I'm willing to let go of everything that no longer is needed in my life and trust it absolutely that it is what is to be let go of so that we can shift into a whole new energy,

Into a different frequency.

There is so much that I'm willing to let go of without feeling impact in my body,

Without my body having to say,

Well,

I will have to stop if you won't.

Make an agreement now with your mind and body that you are listening to guidance and it does not have to stop you as your form because your form is listening to your awareness,

To guidance.

Come into an agreement here so that your mind,

Body of this mortal form can feel refreshed and strong in alignment,

Holding the higher connection.

Beautiful you.

Lovely,

Lovely.

Now take a breath and draw that single beautiful line all the way to your brow.

We hold the awareness at the brow that we are light and we are love,

That we are guided and that guidance comes to us in our dreams and visions,

Thoughts and perceptions.

But every idea that is coming to us is here to help us awaken even more.

Allow your mind now to sift through what it is that is necessary for expansion of your awareness and what is just clutter and what no longer serves,

That that might be released with great ease.

We start to tune into subtle awareness,

Opening up our intuition,

Clairvoyance,

Clairaudience,

Clear sentience,

Clear cognizance.

More and more awakening points are coming into this mind,

Body and soul.

And feel the ease of that.

Feel the calmness of that.

I'm in alignment and in agreement with higher thinking that is able to come in now because I'm able to stay clear of the clutter and the drama,

The fear and the mistrust.

I'm able just to sift through it and understand it as simply a contrast from which I can then choose.

What do I choose?

Connecting to that,

What do I choose?

That's beautiful energy,

Beautiful.

Aligned,

Draw that single beautiful light thread right through your center now to your crown.

And see yourself being bathed in that energy,

Standing in that shower of light.

This mortal being being refreshed,

Reinvigorated,

Healed,

Cleared,

This beautiful energy flowing through and the refreshing energy of pure awareness,

Love and light flowing into this beautiful being.

Feel your breath moving gently,

Your heart beating.

Feel the presence of your form,

The one who is able to anchor in this energy and hold it in a space that makes absolute sense,

In this existence that makes very little sense.

That the sense of everything that it is,

Everything that is around us and everything to which we move so graciously,

That awareness is awareness.

It is already and we are picking it up in subtle knowing,

In marking points.

We are interpreting it in our mind and body as a tiredness and a fatigue,

An unwillingness to go on.

The body is helping us to understand it,

But we ask now that the body need not suffer in listening to the messages so that we will hear them and see them,

Feel them.

We ask that we can start to pick up more and more subtle awareness so that the impact upon the body and the five senses can be released.

That I agree with me as my light being to hear and follow guidance and to trust it with all my heart and all my soul,

With every breath and every step that I have to take upon this life journey as I unfold myself towards my higher self.

It's a gentle progression,

A sweet process.

Take a deep breath in.

Breathe through your body,

Feel the stillness here.

Feel a deep inner core stillness.

See how long you can stay there and just keep holding that beautiful energy.

May a great peace be within your mind,

Body,

And soul.

We take a deep breath in and allow yourself to come back in your own perfect time.

So much love.

Namaste.

Thank you for your much,

Rejana.