This will be the practice of self inquiry.
But let's start to be consciously aware of the posture of the body.
Feel where your feet are and how they feel.
Feel the seat under you,
Carrying your body.
Notice your shoulders and relax them.
But make sure you're still sitting upright with a certain energy.
Feel your hands resting.
And relax the face.
However,
The crown of the head,
You can reach up gently a little towards the sky,
So that there's a sense of uprightness and lightness.
And start noticing all the various sensations in the body.
Some warmth,
Some cool,
Some pressures,
Or lightness.
Whatever you can notice.
Noticing also how they come and go.
They arise,
They last a little,
And they will pass.
And something else will appear and come to the foreground of your attention.
Just notice this coming and going of the sensations.
So this is what we call perceiving the body.
Observing the body.
But now,
For our inquiry,
We can start looking for who the observer is or what it is.
So ask yourself who or what is observing the body.
Can this observer be observed?
Now,
Make sure this is not a rational question and there's no need to find the correct answer.
There's no hurry for finding the answer.
Just ask the question and be quiet and notice what appears.
So it's not about being clever or analysing,
But it is an inward looking.
So the body is being perceived,
Perceiving the various sensations in the body.
Now who or what is perceiving all of this?
Can the perceiver be perceived?
Look for yourself.
Look what or who is this perceiver,
This perceiving faculty?
Can you find it?
Is it a something?
So again,
Maybe for a bit observing all the various sensations,
The cool,
The tingling,
The pressure.
Thus observing the body.
And again investigating who or what is it perceiving all these sensations?
Who or what is perceiving?
So the answer may come up,
I am perceiving.
Then investigate further who or what is this I?
Can this I that is perceiving be found?
Can it be localised?
Where is this I?
How does it look?
Accept wherever you end up.
Accept what happens,
Maybe an emptiness is found,
A silence occurs,
A confusion,
A not knowing.
But what is here is still aware.
They could ask again.
All this is happening,
The body is happening,
The confusion or the inquiry is happening and is perceived.
What is perceiving all of this?
Can this perceiver be found?
Keep looking.
This pure looking may be your answer,
May be what you find,
Pure awareness.
All that is left and all there is,
Is this pure awareness.
You can keep enquiring like that,
Not frantically and not hastily.
But just now and then dropping in that question,
All of this,
This experience now,
Whatever it is,
Is being perceived.
Can the perceiver be perceived?
Can it be found?
For the mind it's very frustrating,
It wants a clear answer,
A clear concept or an image.
But now we go beyond the mind.
Even the mind and the mind's questions can be perceived.
But who or what is it perceiving?
Who is perceiving?
Can you see that?
Can it be found?
Can it be found?
Can it be found?
And if the answer keeps coming,
I am perceiving.
Investigate who is this I?
Who am I perceiving?
Can this I be seen,
Be found?
The same could be applied for any thoughts,
Maybe the many thoughts of any kind.
To whom do these thoughts appear?
Who or what is perceiving these thoughts?
Can the thinker be seen,
Be found?
Acknowledge the silence that follows this question.
You can rest in this silence.
Once more.
To whom do these thoughts appear?
Can the perceiver of thoughts itself be perceived or be found?
It may become clear that there is no tangible perceiver,
No tangible I.
No tangible subject perceiving the world.
It is all a happening.
Sensations happening in awareness,
As awareness.
Thoughts happening in awareness,
As awareness.
Even though the thoughts speak of an object and a subject,
So there's me and the experience,
The thoughts speak that way.
But now looking we cannot find a separate I.
Keep investigating.
Keep looking.
Is there really an I and a sensation?
The sensation is briefly experienced.
But the I,
Where is it?
Look inward,
Don't think,
Look inward and all you find is spaciousness,
Quiet,
Presence,
Pure awareness.
Look inward.
This is a freedom.
There is no solid I like we often imagine.
There is only this field,
So to speak,
Of happening.
This ever-changing life.
Unfolding as awareness,
In awareness.
You are silence itself.
You are silence.
You are silence.
You are silence.
Thank you for trying this journey,
This investigation with me.
