Lost Love

Our Heart longs for Love and we interpret that through the connection with another. So often that is just not available to us as we seem to be on different paths, yet the attraction is there. How do we understand this place of pain and loss?

Transcript

So together let's take a deep breath in,

Breathe out and just drop,

Drop,

Drop into this moment.

Feel how deeply honoring this is for you and for your body and your mind and your beautiful being.

As you breathe into it welcoming this life force energy,

Wellness,

Welcoming into you something that nourishes you and nurtures you and loves you and provides for you,

Sustains you.

This beautiful breath,

This life force energy.

With every breath that we're breathing in just feel the fulfillment of it,

The fullness of it and the flow of it.

Ask your body to welcome in this breath and breathe into where you think you've got to capacity and then wait there a moment and then surprise yourself and breathe in a little bit more and see how many of these you can do in just a single breath where your mind says okay that's enough.

Just wait a moment and then ask your being can it do more and be amazed how many levels you can do going up,

Up and up.

And it's amazing because once we decide it is available to us suddenly more breath is available to us and our body can reach for more because our mind and our body now are turning in,

Tuning in to the idea that there is more and that I can reach for it.

You open that up into your field.

Thank you amazing mind and body now for coming into a connection with this is what I seek.

Me stepping into my highest capacity.

Me opening up my awareness and my being,

My abilities to reach for that.

Me unlocking all the blocks and all the ideas that have restricted me and confined me.

Me opening my lungs and my ribs and making more space,

My throat making more space and then even right up to the top of my head that I can breathe in so much fuller that it even opens up to the top of my crown.

And this is me seeking me,

Seeking me connecting with my highest vibration of light and love.

It is me in my mortal form remembering that there is more and it is this body and this mind that says well then let's seek it,

Let's bring it in,

Let's allow for it.

And so we start to do that now,

We start to allow for so much more.

Opening up the energy field,

Opening up the vibrations,

Extending our capacity and then imagine when you get to the top of the breath and you're ready to breathe out that at that moment you're just breathing out and releasing and letting go so that the next breath can reach even more.

And that we thank this body for being able to release so that we can go up another step,

Release the tightness,

Drop down all the way through the outer breath,

Drop through the tightness of the squeezing to release,

Release,

Release,

Release,

Press,

Press,

Press and then drop through that tightness into the place where there are no restrictions and then start to breathe again.

Breathing in as a stream coming in,

Opening and enveloping this mind and this body and filling you up beautiful life force energy.

This is me reaching into all my possibilities,

All my potential.

This is me opening up my awareness and allowing myself to come into the highest vibration I can hold.

And this is me through my divine heart remembering,

Remembering who I am as a divine being of light and love and reconnecting through this passioned heart of ours,

This heart that feels the breaks and the injuries and the love and the connections and the disconnections and this heart that always calls for that which is for our highest best.

Notice that.

Notice that when you're seeking love and companionship and kindness,

It doesn't belong to a face or a person.

It may resemble that in another.

It may be that another awakens it in us.

But that which our heart is seeking is to be sought.

It is to be felt and it is to be embraced.

Think about this beautiful heart that is never forgotten.

It's always known the way home,

The sense of love,

The sense of compassion and kindness,

Abundance and laughter,

Fulfillment and passion.

That is the way home.

And those who come into our life and help us to feel this again,

Feel this immensity of the heart opening,

We love that person for opening that heart space.

We adore them.

We love and adore them because they helped us to open the space.

And perhaps their role will only be that,

Just to help us to open the space.

So we open the space now.

We extend our arms,

Our energy,

Our hearts,

Our souls.

We feel the love that we have felt with another.

And we let that expand our heart.

And we know that there is no end to it,

No end at all.

It goes on and on and on.

If we could use the yearning of the heart as a pulling cord and imagine that it goes into our heart and reaches into the deepest memories,

The deepest set memories of who we truly are.

And it pulls that memory forward.

Somebody comes in and says,

Yes,

That's it.

Look,

Look at me.

You can find it in my eyes and my touch and my voice.

You'll see it in me,

But it's not me.

It's the energy.

And now keep pulling yourself beyond just that experience and pull yourself a little bit more and let the heart continue to open.

Coming into higher vibrational fields,

We begin to feel and see even more.

We begin to connect in with many beings on this vibrational field who are also seeking this beautiful love of the heart,

Who are also on their way home,

The journey home to the space of absolute love.

We are taking a mindful journey.

Send a message to your beautiful body now,

This beautiful being in your form.

And ask your body and your being to relax deeply in the space now,

Just to rest here.

Nothing to do.

Allow this body to start feeling well,

That the energy begins to flow through you and no restrictions in your energy.

Feel that you can just open up your energy.

Feel the flow,

Feel the ease,

Feel the connection.

See how the body is using its energy flow.

And thank your body.

All your systems are working perfectly.

Your blood is flowing,

Your energy is flowing,

Your digestive system,

Lymphatic system,

Respiratory system,

All the systems of our being working perfectly.

And as you are resting,

They work,

They know what to do.

And there is nothing you have to do here.

Absolutely nothing.

This body is taking care of you.

So what is the part of me that is not my body that is being taken care of?

What part of me is being taken care of if it's not my body,

And it's not my mind?

And that my beautiful body is the vehicle through which I have the experiencing of this life.

But the essence of me,

The part of me that just is,

That part is being held and loved and nurtured.

This body is taking care of the presence of you as presence,

As energy.

And the body is giving you a place to place the energy into a beautiful vehicle,

A receptacle.

And imagine that you could see your body now not just as a dense,

Solid form,

But as light.

That all these little lights are connecting in all their wondrous ways to create our shape and texture and who we are,

Our points of personality.

And see the light that is you opening up vibrantly in all directions like sunlight dazzling off a diamond.

See the light dazzling off this beam,

Uncontained,

Beyond its shape,

Beyond its identity,

Form,

Personality,

Beyond.

This body feels such deep gratitude.

And the body rests because there's nothing it has to do now,

But to be its light.

That every particle,

Every mitochondrion,

Atom of this beautiful being can start to open up its energy field even more.

There's no need for me to stay contained as just identity with this name,

This personality,

This form,

That as I'm resting here that I can dance into all energy of high vibration.

And imagine your energy dancing into that beautiful flow,

Beautiful ease,

Gentleness.

This beautiful body as well and happily and vibrant.

And in this soft and gentle place,

We feel the connection to the heart,

Welcoming in this vibration,

This frequency around the heart.

Bringing in this memory into our very center.

I remember who I am,

A divine being of light and love.

I remember how to hold my heart.

I remember how to feel.

And I remember how to just be.

And deeply embedded in the form is the heart that beats to help and provide this life form with life.

And for as long as I am in the form,

This heart will beat for me.

And with every beat,

I'm reminding myself that my heart beats to the rhythm of something else,

To the rhythm of love and kindness and compassion and passion.

It beats to a rhythm,

To a sound of the universe.

It beats into the energy of absolute oneness,

Into the divine,

Into the highest vibration that we can hold.

And this heart is beating it from our body,

Is pulsating it through.

And every part of my body,

All my veins,

My blood are collaborating and working together to pump and pulsate this blood.

But more than the blood is the vibration,

The beat,

The rhythm.

We are remembering.

We are remembering the sound.

We think about for mummies,

Holding a child,

And it doesn't become real until we hear that child's heartbeat on the monitor.

And suddenly we realize this truly is life,

Not just an idea.

It's been contained in a womb,

But there is a pulse.

There is a song,

A song of the soul.

And this beautiful rhythm,

This beautiful pulse and the song of the soul is the soul,

The divine,

The light,

The spirit being.

It is the connection to all that is.

And if we hold this right here in our heart,

How do we possibly think we could be alone and lonely when we hold the very heartbeat of the divine in us,

Where our heart is always reminding us?

Think about how we've interpreted heartache and heartbreak and heart longing.

We see the reflection of this in another when we share a moment of love and kindness and passion.

And then we think it's them.

It's never them.

It never was them.

It was that awakening into your own heart,

Into the one heart.

It simply awakens the memory.

That other awakens the memory of who we truly are and where we are moving gently towards.

It is the heartbeat and the calling for home.

If we could follow the beating heart and the compassionate loving heart,

We will find the way home.

And those who remind us along the way will fall in love with them.

It's because we are to fall in love once again with this remembering of love.

We want to get busy and get into the mundane and the humdrum of life.

We forget.

We just get busy and distracted.

And then someone steps in and awakens this sense of passion and love.

And because we've been out of it for a while,

Maybe lost a little while,

And it awakens in us.

It's so intoxicating and so beautiful.

We long for it.

The heart breaks for it and it yearns for it.

And so often the one that we yearn for is not available.

But what was available was them awakening our heart.

That gift that they gave us to remind us by reflecting the divine light of Christ's spark.

They reflected it back.

We felt it.

We saw it.

We embraced it.

And now we seek it again.

But we get lost in our heartache and our despair,

A sense of lost love unrequited,

Unfulfilled.

It only becomes unfulfilled when we attach it to another.

This love is not attachable.

It doesn't belong to a structure at all,

A body,

A form,

A book,

A words,

A song.

It simply is.

It simply is the energy of absolute love.

And when we say our heart is broken,

It is our heart opening even more,

Cracking open,

Appealing for more of this love,

Urging us to move forward towards it.

But we get lost and we get stuck and we think it belonged to the one who came in.

It never belonged to them.

But they did reflect it.

We are not lost because we don't have them in our life.

They have simply helped us and given us a gift for our life journey,

For our most expansive life journey.

They have given us such a gift.

That one who stepped into my life gave me the greatest gift of all,

To remind me who I truly am and what it is that I seek.

They have given me the greatest gift of all.

I receive the gift when I remember this.

I lose the gift when I attach it to them and experience some need for an outcome or validation.

And I throw it into a lower vortex of need,

Must,

Dependency,

Reliance,

Low vibration.

Can I see the gift?

Can I feel the love?

And can I remember what my heart is urging me to remember?

Find your way home through this.

Find your way back to the divine where this love is all the time,

When we are never separated from it.

When it is and we are,

There is absolute peace and harmony here.

We find our inner peace when we release ourselves from dependence,

Reliance,

Need,

Servitude,

Manipulation,

Betrayals,

All of these systems are locked into the energy of need,

Fear,

Guilt,

Shame,

Blame,

All low,

Low,

Low frequencies.

We step back into our very center,

Feeling the connection here at your solar plexus.

Here the imprint of your divine sacred agreement is.

You remember it and you knew that this was going to be the path and you knew there were going to be many choices to make along this journey.

And one would expand your consciousness rapidly and the other would sink you down into a low vibration.

What would we choose if we could truly remember what it is all about?

Why it is that we are feeling so passionately about everything?

And we take away all the games and all the pretense and all the posturing.

We take all of that away and we look at what it is right in the center where it is clear.

We can look at every single thing this way,

Sweep away all the disguises and see the truth and there embedded in the very,

Very center of our being is the energy of love.

I remember who I am.

I thank this beautiful body for constructing itself around this idea,

Giving me a way to reflect and interact and connect and sometimes collide with the world around me.

Thank this body for my five senses that helped me to perceive and see and sense my world.

I thank my brain for being able to interpret on the level it can for my human body.

And I know now that it is not enough,

That it was enough when we were running our system just to be safe.

When we were running all our systems,

Our sensory system,

Our limbic system into reactiveness,

We instantly put ourselves into a defensive position to be safe,

To defend,

Protect ourselves.

I understand that that system no longer serves me and I stand here at the center of my being,

Remembering who I am and opening my energy field so magnificently,

Feeling my energy expanding and expanding through the energy of love,

Appealing for this love.

And as we open and continue to open the energy field,

We release the bondage that we have through the body and the mind.

We release ourselves from being imprisoned and locked into these systems through our five senses,

Forever vigilant.

We imagine that we can begin to reprogram this beautiful human body,

That without dependence upon another,

We can start to retune and reconfigure our mind-body connection.

I begin to seek with my eyes that which delights me.

I seek what my eyes would love to see,

Embrace and delight.

I feel the fun and the joyousness of this adventure,

The seeker now turns its five senses into the energy of delighting.

What might I hear that would awaken a feeling of delight and happiness,

Laughter and kindness?

And we reprogram,

Retune the system.

What would I choose to hear and see,

Taste,

Touch and smell that is for the delighting of my being?

As we connect into the switch,

We reprogram and as we reprogram,

We start to see and interpret and understand this world in a whole new way.

In this moment,

We can release our attachment to drama and karma,

To knowing and understanding through another.

But if I release the five senses from being vigilant and I release my body and my mind and my interpreting of my life to have another feel and show and experience and reveal to me,

If I release that,

Then I'm able to connect into a whole new way of seeing and understanding.

I begin to welcome that into my being.

What would I welcome into my being?

What would I see for me?

And I absolutely disconnect that seeing from my vision.

There is no facade of a human body that must look like this or that.

I see in a different way,

With clear voice,

Clear audience,

Clear sentience,

Clear cognizance.

I open my heightened awareness,

My intuition,

My instinct.

This body and this mind is free now to see and understand and interpret this life,

But from a much broader spectrum of awareness.

This beautiful body can just be here to play and dance and enjoy,

Simply be.

This beautiful form can interpret the delight of this life.

And as the body creates this,

We manifest it.

We begin to manifest that which our energy field begins to see and see and understand and feel and know and sense and taste.

And if we're seeking it,

Then our entire system begins to seek it.

What do I seek with all my heart and all my soul?

Go to the energy,

The feeling,

Not the relevant form.

Go to formless awareness.

Call it in as energy,

As frequency.

Call it in.

Let your whole being know what it is that you are calling in.

What are you claiming for this life journey?

That could be almost sparkling journey of all of them.

That it is in this journey we take the leap,

The quantum leap out of the doldrums,

Out of the set structures,

Performances,

Procedures,

Patterns and imprints.

And all it took was a moment of awareness that began with my heart aching and the awareness that the heart aches and the heart breaks to open.

And that everyone who is participating in that journey is helping me.

We are collaborating with each other,

Reminding each other that at the essence we are loved.

I release all attachment to the need of evidence,

Of form.

I release that absolutely now.

I release the energy of need,

Must,

Should,

Have to.

I release all ancient structures,

Vows,

Oaths,

Curses and promises.

I release these from my line,

From me and from all those still to come and those gone behind.

I claim the energy of freedom,

Openness and readiness to see and understand and feel this life in a whole new way.

Connecting in with the crown.

Letting this beautiful energy wash right through you.

See yourself standing in this beautiful light that is now bathing you,

Pouring in from the top of the crown.

The beautiful body is open and clear and so this light can go into every cell,

Bone,

Marrow,

Nerve,

Tissue,

Mitochondria and every atom of your being.

Clearing and cleansing,

Healing.

See your entire system becoming refreshed,

Revitalized,

Reprogrammed so that you can connect into the highest vibration of love and light.

That you can start to operate in that and work within it.

That you can start to manifest and create in it.

And that this beautiful body gives you an opportunity to feel it and experience it in a delightful way.

Holding the energy of understanding and my absolute truth.

Tuning in to this beautiful body that is holding the form and understanding who I am.

Seeing the clarity of this now.

In the awareness now through the higher vibration that we are being guided to be in this body to see.

What we are seeing is who we truly are.

Connecting into the highest vibration of your light being.

As the light pulls in the body and the mind and the beautiful being receives and the fields of energy merge.

We merge the energy of our light being and our life being.

Feel like you are integrating these perfectly.

The swirling Kundalini energy in the very center of your body.

Opening and expanding every chakra coming into perfect flow of light.

Feel this energy embracing you.

We thank our light being the part of us that returns to this and this life being that is giving us such an incredible opportunity.

May we truly see it and understand it.

May we get it.

Beautiful you.

Letting the stream of light energy flow into you now.

Connect to your thoughts of the love and lost love and the quieted love and sense it with a whole new feeling of such a deep gratitude.

This gift that has awakened my soul,

The heart of my soul.

This truly is a gift and I thank you.

Thank you for reminding me how deeply I can love.

Give this gift to your mind,

Your body and your being.

And allow yourself to simply accept this as the gift without any attachments at all.

I see the gift and I am so deeply grateful.

I don't need any performance or behavior or humanness to convince me about what it is that I know in the deepest part of my being.

It's just love.

Letting that beautiful energy sit well within you now.

May we take the gentle breaths,

Feel the stream flowing through you.

Become aware of where you are in the time of day,

The seasonally year.

Become aware of your mind and your body.

Can we gently bring ourselves back to this time and this place?

Think about those with whom you connect in your daily life.

Send love,

Unconditional love to each and every heart that you know.

Beaming it out now into the spaces of darkness and destruction and hardship.

Beaming this beautiful light of clarity.

Beaming it into all the hearts and all the souls that are yearning,

Confused or in darkness.

So much love.

May there be light.

Take this beautiful love that you feel and hold it and set it free now into this beautiful vibration so that it may be received by someone else in great need.

What a gift this is to give.

And then gently,

Met your whole being,

Come back here now.

Those deep breaths bring you back as we breathe in.

We're going to breathe out with a deep ah.

Breathe in.

Ah.

Deep breath in.

Ah.

Lovely,

Last big breath in.

Ah.

So much love here my darling.

Thank you for you.

Namaste.

Reviews

Incredible heart touching. Thank you for helping me receive this reverent gift x

Than Koh for all the beautiful reminders of how special my life is. Graciously humbled and blessed by your teachings.

Thank you dear soul. I feel so much love and it sat like pain until you showed the way 💖💡

this was a must for me…..thanks

Gratitude and so much love to the divine guiding force that has synchronized our connection. Tears of joy for Joy... that she may truly know the love she has helped me find within 💜💜💜