Letting Go From Fear Or Love

This is a talk or spoken word journey of sorts for the in-between moments-when you're not sure if you're holding on, letting go, or just spiraling in circles. It's not a meditation or a how-to; it's a spacious, honest exploration of the patterns we replay and the identities we outgrow. Through grounded reflection and gentle spiritual truth, you'll be invited to question what you're clinging to-and whether it's still serving you. We'll explore the modern mess of boundaries, block buttons, and the ache beneath clarity. If you're standing at the edge of something and craving permission to just be where you this is for you.

Transcript

Hey everybody,

Welcome back to my Insight Timer page.

It's nice to have you.

If this is your first time joining,

So great to have you.

This is gonna be a track about,

Let's call it letting go from fear or love.

I did an Insight Timer track recently and it got a little personal because I was going through something and I always aim to be vulnerable and open because I think that's the pathway to healing.

And a lot of people in the chat said,

Can you please make a track about this?

And so here we are.

And I'm gonna just express it exactly as I did or as close to it as I did that night.

And this is really for anyone,

It's really about the confusing moments when I or we are not sure whether we're making a choice out of fear or love,

Whether our boundaries are clear or just a form of control and how to honor the truth in relationships that still store something deep inside.

This will,

It's really about,

It's for anyone who's ever asked,

Is this clarity or is it avoidance?

Is staying love or is it fear?

Is walking away self-honoring or is it self-protecting?

So I created this to explore it together and I'll be sharing a story rooted in a recent romantic relationship.

This moment of do I stay or do I go?

It can show up in many forms,

By the way.

That friendship that quietly drains your energy or it feels like they're draining your energy.

The job that used to inspire you but now it feels really heavy or maybe it always did.

The belief system that once offered total safety but no longer feels alive.

Was it ever really safety or was it pseudo safety?

Even the old identity or role that you've outgrown but still wear like armor.

I know this one all too well,

Like the spiritual judge.

The guy who thinks that he's just being discerning and helping others but is it spirit or is it ego?

Is it love or is it fear?

That's truly motivating the decisions and the choices.

So if relationship doesn't quite land for you tonight,

Today,

Wherever you are in the world,

Let it be a metaphor.

Let it point to whatever you're still holding onto out of guilt,

Out of nostalgia,

Out of fear,

Out of shame or the fantasy that maybe this time,

Maybe just this time,

This person,

This job,

It'll finally feel different.

I really want this to be a demonstration to you guys about how dualistic and clear and then not clear can be the act of yes or not yes,

Yes or no.

Yes,

We shouldn't act.

And then all of a sudden,

Wait,

A long pong.

Yeah,

That's right.

This is really meant to show real time the battle of the ego mind and it's game to stay stuck in right or wrong.

I'm not here to like glorify duality but we're not here to run from it either.

The only way to freedom is through the mess and that's why I wanted to really expose my mess.

So I went on to chat GBT.

That's right,

Just in a moment of doubt and fear because it's actually quite fun.

And I said,

This is the question that was really plaguing me about this two year relationship that I'd really had a lot of patterns of staying stuck in.

And I said,

In SLAA,

Which is a 12 step program around sex,

Love and intimacy and healing,

They suggest blocking past sexual or romantic or even love addicted partners.

This allows for withdrawal,

Just like somebody withdrawing from coffee or sugar or a drug and no dancing with past energies.

But I also once heard a woman in SLAA say one time,

I personally don't block because I'm clear when I'm done,

I'm done.

But that also doesn't afford me the opportunity to work my program and my principles.

Like blocking is a real quick,

Easy way out.

Now from my background and of course in miracles and if you don't know,

That's kind of where I speak from a lot.

We're all one,

We're all connected.

So it's kind of a mind fuck on one hand,

I'm blocking myself or I'm blocking an illusion of a separate self.

Underneath it all is a mind of duality and fear that basically worries all the time that whatever I choose will be wrong.

To either hear them out from their latest request to talk or connect after two months or to block their energy and clear the energy.

I can't discern or know what is spirit's choice versus the ego or fear.

Disguised as love.

I'm clearly trapped in my mind right now,

Help.

This is the answer.

Oh my God,

This is such a real raw place you're in.

And one so many people feel but rarely name this clearly.

You're not just caught between yes or no to a text,

You're standing in that deeper ache between truth and ego.

Between spiritual love and emotional patterns.

Between wanting to honor the wisdom of healing and not wanting to bypass or control your experience with some spiritual sticker that says,

Love everyone and love everything.

Oh,

There's nothing better than the spiritual wrapping of the spiritualized ego.

Here's what is like underneath the words.

Like I'm aware of the spiritual truth that there's no separation.

That blocking someone or something can feel like you're saying,

I'm cutting off a part of myself or I'm denying the opportunity to forgive.

That comes straight from your Course in Miracles bones.

You're also aware of the addictive patterning.

The part of you that could use connection,

Even spiritual sounding connection as a justification to stay looped in old stories.

That's SLA 12-step program wisdom.

That's the ego using spirit to stay tied to pain.

Or what I like to say is the ego using spiritual language.

So for all of you who have never been to my lives,

Let me point one thing out before I continue.

And this is kind of deep,

So you may have to sit with this one.

The ultimate self,

The unified soul,

The Christ self,

The awakened one that I truly believe we all are,

That's beyond the body,

That's beyond past and future.

It doesn't need to seek anything.

It's already found.

And I think so much of us,

The journey is just becoming the one who's already found themself,

The true self.

So I wanna say that when I say things like the ego is using spiritual language,

Because the ego,

When it's in charge,

It's gonna use everything that we teach ourself here,

The synthetic knowledge of the world.

It'll use all that in a bunch of fun spiritual ways to really keep us hooked into patterns of guilt,

Shame,

And pain.

But it loves to disguise it with spiritualized love and light type ideas and thoughts just to actually trick us to stay in pain.

It's nuts.

And then there's like a third voice,

The doubter.

The doubting voice,

The one that says,

Whatever I choose,

I'm probably gonna get it wrong.

So I'm aware of that.

That's the voice of the fearful ego,

Not truth,

Because spirit isn't in fear.

Spirit is in love and peace and union all the time.

So when I'm in doubt,

It's not my true self.

Here,

We're gonna untangle the rest of this.

First,

Spirit doesn't do fear.

Okay,

So for you guys that are wondering,

And by the way,

I think it's somewhere in the track,

Somewhere in my live,

Maybe it's coming in a little bit,

Because I'm just reading kind of the prompts that I did when I had my live.

It gets to the fact that it doesn't matter if it's a romantic relationship,

If it's a job,

If it's a past,

It's all the same thing.

Mine just happened to be in a situation on the surface that had to do with a romantic.

So whatever brought you here,

Oh my gosh,

How to do it,

When to do it,

What's right,

What's wrong,

Spirit doesn't do fear.

So the part of you that feels anxious that you might screw it up or mess it up no matter what,

That's the ego.

That's an old pattern of the false self.

There's no shame,

It's just what the ego does.

It loves setting up impossible choices and then judging whichever one you pick.

But spirit,

On the other hand,

Doesn't traffic in that kind of energy.

A Course in Miracles teaches that spirit is only love,

Its voice is still,

Quiet,

Peaceful,

Not scattered and rattled,

It just gently knows.

So let's take a moment,

By the way,

And just feel into that,

Right?

For those that are listening,

You can close your eyes if you want or soften your gaze,

Whatever feels right.

Bring up something in your life right now that feels unresolved.

Maybe you already came here knowing what it was,

Something you've been circling.

Maybe it's a decision,

Maybe it's a relationship,

Maybe it's something a little softer,

Just like an ache in your chest,

A physical symptom or an old roll of like,

God,

I'm tired of always being the good one that no longer seems to fit.

And I don't want you to try to solve it.

I just want you to be with it.

Notice where it lives in your body.

Is there tightness,

Pressure,

A pull to fix it?

Maybe there's a surprising softness.

Just breathe with that.

And now gently ask whatever it is,

What would bring you peace?

Not comfort,

By the way,

Not safety,

Not a guaranteed outcome,

Just peace.

Stay with that question for one more breath and slowly return.

Maybe you write it down what came to you.

So the second thing that there's an awareness from,

Blocking is not punishment.

And when I say blocking,

Blocking,

Cutting the energy out of your life,

But sometimes we might need to block or cut the energy out totally.

From A Course in Miracles perspective,

The body isn't real.

This might be a little heavy for some,

But I just want again to say blocking is not punishment.

It can be devotion.

I want you to sit with this.

So from A Course in Miracles perspective,

The body isn't real,

But your mind's experience feels real.

And if your mind or your thoughts is still addicted to playing out a particular dynamic,

Then withdrawing access,

Even blocking,

Can actually be a way to protect the divine holiness of your own mind.

It's not saying you are the enemy person or job.

It's saying I'm devoted to no longer attacking myself through this experience or relationship.

And that's not unloving,

That's self-honoring.

That is the form forgiveness can take until the content,

What's underneath the surface,

The truth of oneness feels steady in you,

Right?

And third awareness,

Not blocking can be equally divine or holy if it's truly from a neutral place.

If you're truly not activated,

And numb can feel not activated by the way.

So there's a difference,

Right?

Like you can be numb like on drugs and you can be like,

Oh my God,

I'm totally not activated or triggered or at peace in this situation.

But really you're just so in the drug of the situation that you're actually numb to what's real.

But if there's truly zero hook,

Like zero longing,

Zero spiritual rationalizing,

And you feel totally clear and at peace to see this situation or person as innocent,

To respond from peace and to not abandon yourself,

That might be your deeper healing edge.

But,

And this is totally key,

Oh my God,

Do I know this one,

You can't take this neutrality idea,

You cannot fake it.

You can't fake true neutrality.

If there is even the slightest bit of,

Maybe they'll get it now if I say it this way,

Maybe I'll finally say it right,

Then keeping the line open is more about fantasy than forgiveness.

Meaning keeping the line open to the relationship,

The job,

The situation,

Your identity.

So,

You know,

Really what if the decision isn't a test,

But your relationship to yourself while making this decision is?

What if spirit doesn't care whether you block or don't block,

Leave or stay,

But instead spirit cares that you're totally honest with yourself,

That you don't like spiritualize your fear or shame for needing a boundary.

What if the moment,

In this moment,

While you're deciding on what you need to do,

You get to say,

I don't need to prove I'm spiritual by staying open.

And I don't need to prove I'm strong by slamming the door.

I just need to be honest about where my peace is.

So here's a question you can sit with.

Which choice that you're considering,

And again,

You might need to get some people in your life,

A spiritual advisor,

A therapist,

Journal,

All of it.

Definitely invite people in.

Which choice feels like a deep exhale and not some kind of patterned strategy?

Not a high,

Not a fix.

It's just a quiet,

Peaceful yes inside your being.

It might be like a relief where you're like,

Oh my God,

That's so true.

You might break into tears or laughter when you find that peace.

That's the one to trust.

That's the choice to trust in.

And whatever you choose,

We're not blocked from love.

We are the love.

Meaning so whatever choice you make isn't gonna have some negative effect that blocks you from the love.

You already are the love.

You're already held.

So in my situation,

This was the situation.

What if I did block her with love?

I feel such tenderness as maybe I do this.

Maybe not anger,

Not avoidance,

Just honesty.

When I really arrive at the place that I'm not blocking her because I hate her or I'm blocking her because I love myself enough to say,

This pattern no longer serves the pattern.

I can't keep offering my heart to a space that confuses it,

Hoping it will finally feel clear.

And maybe that clarity will come in time,

But right now I need distance.

Not to escape her,

But to stop abandoning me.

And I've danced this dance enough to know how the rhythm goes.

And I want a different song now.

So I bless her.

I bless the past.

I forgive us both for the ways we tried to love while still tangered in past fear.

But I'm walking forward now with peace as my partner.

And maybe that's what you need to say in your situation with a person or a situation.

And then something like that,

If you journal it or write it down,

How does that version land in your body when you consider saying it?

Does it feel clear?

Maybe a little sad,

But also free.

Maybe grieving,

But not circling a pattern.

And then what if there,

Instead of no response,

That once you get clear in your body,

There is a response.

Because you are one of those people that finds that there's still something left in the situation and you're really totally at peace and you're totally in neutral.

You really are in neutral because you checked in with yourself and friends.

Then it could look like this with the person or the situation.

Okay,

I'll open this door for a moment.

Not because I want something.

Not because I'm hoping it's different this time.

But because I feel genuinely still in my body.

I'm not chasing closure.

I'm not looking for resolution.

I just know that avoiding her or this or them isn't coming from peace anymore.

It's coming from fear.

So if I choose to respond,

It's not to fix.

It's not to re-engage an old thread.

It's to bring a light to what's left in this experience.

To let them be seen one more time in wholeness.

But,

And again,

This is for people that then decide they are gonna respond one more time or they're gonna keep the door open for another moment,

Which could change.

But I'm watching myself closely.

The moment my body or our body tenses or our mind starts fantasizing,

I'm gonna pause.

Because what I realize now is most important is our inner safety matters more than any conversation we still think we need to have.

If we do respond,

It's not a door swinging open.

It's a light gently shining in.

And you still have to ask yourself again,

If this is the decision you almost decide to make,

Does it feel steady or slippery?

Are you really free enough to step in without more attachment?

And you can always just ask yourself,

What's the pattern been?

And between the last time you engaged with this pattern,

Have you done the actual internal work to heal whatever kept you in that pattern?

And if the answer's no,

Then you might just be lying to yourself.

There might still be a hook that's just trying to pull you back to pain.

You know,

Really what I'm getting at is don't choose based on which one sounds better.

Choose based on which one feels more honest to the season that your heart is in right now.

And if both still feel really cloudy,

I know that one,

That's okay.

You don't need to rush.

You know,

Sometimes waiting,

Not reacting is the most spirit-led choice I think there is.

And maybe for you,

The block isn't a person.

Again,

Maybe it's a belief that used to keep you safe,

But now keeps you small.

Maybe it's a version of you that learned how to survive by performing or producing or pretending that it didn't hurt.

Maybe it's a job or a role that once made you feel really powerful,

But now feels like a costume that you've outgrown.

Believe me,

I know that one.

The heartbreak isn't always romantic.

It can really hurt.

Sometimes it's letting go of who we thought we had to be.

Maybe that's what we're letting go of.

Maybe it's the belief that if you rest,

You're lazy or that your worth is measured by how useful you are to other people.

Maybe it's the voice that says,

I need to keep it all together or I'm gonna be abandoned.

Or the old programming that told you love equals sacrifice.

So you keep bleeding just to feel close.

Maybe it's the lie that says,

If you let go of the grind,

Everything will fall apart.

Or that being spiritual means being nice,

Agreeable or above anger.

Or that you can't change your mind.

You can't take a break.

You can't walk away because what would they think?

Oh,

The drug of what would they think?

And maybe the most heartbreaking belief of all is that you'll finally be free when someone else understands you.

When maybe freedom is deciding to understand ourselves instead.

So,

You know,

I came back later after having these epiphanies because then I had another question.

You know,

From that earlier idea of like which one feels like an exhale.

So what if you guys do like what I did and both feel equally clear and true?

Neither one is better than the other.

What if you really arrive at that place where blocking,

Deleting,

Cutting something out of your life totally and going in a completely different direction or staying for a little longer because you're really in neutral.

What if they both feel equally allowable?

And this is the answer.

That that is totally holy ground in that moment.

If both feel equally,

Truly clear,

Equally rooted in love and not fantasy,

Not fear,

Then you're standing in what the Course in Miracles calls true decision.

Not ego reaction,

Not compulsive fixing,

But choice from presence.

Which means there's no wrong answer here.

And I know for some of you like me that is so unnerving because the ego has,

It only wants to hear right and wrong,

Right?

So in fact,

When you reach the place where both paths feel light,

Unattached,

And aligned with peace,

Then the real invitation in the situation becomes which one feels more alive to you right now?

And remember to keep it light,

By the way,

Guys.

Keep it simple.

Keep it light.

Which one feels more alive to you right now?

Real simple,

Not safe,

Not correct,

But just quietly alive.

Which one invites the next layer of your unfolding?

Maybe the block feels like a ceremonial letting go,

A claiming of your future self.

Or maybe the response feels like a gentle exhale,

Like you're not ruled by avoidance anymore.

If neither is better and both are love,

Then this isn't about what's right.

It's about what you're most ready to experience.

And that's where spirit meets you.

Not in the choice itself,

But in your willingness to show up with no fear.

But that was a really interesting reflection that I had.

But then this was the next question that I had after that.

Remember,

I told you,

This was all about the dynamic of the ego trying to get to a place of right,

Wrong.

It really wants to be like,

Ah,

This is the right one.

I think after reflection,

I go to the body,

The body,

And I mean the physical body or form of the woman I was with,

Lust of mind,

Objectified feeling.

I go to lust and comfort of their body and their form and their face.

I don't wish to continue patterns of past guilt with her or myself.

With feeling that ambiguity and form and comforting seems to be here.

I feel I'm in the present awareness of that I have a belief somewhere that freedom will come from blocking this particular situation or their body can't tempt me now.

So if I block them,

I'm safe.

But if I'm clear or free,

Why do I need to block?

In this day and age,

The ease with which to use screens and technology to stay in patterns,

Even with our exes or situations.

But I still feel the idea to block social media with them and to block her.

Why?

Because she's become a qualifier in my sex,

Love,

Intimacy program.

Because she's become a symbol I use to stay in guilt and past patterns of body comfort.

It's so weird to sense that on one hand,

I can crucify and bind myself to illusions with her as well.

As freedom could be found with the holy vision.

But I'm also told two people need to be both dedicated to this goal to truly be awake.

And I'm just voicing my frustration spirit.

And here was the answer that I felt.

Oh my goodness,

This is the divine wrestling.

The place where the ego would love to label you confused,

But spirit sees you as wide open.

You're not in doubt.

You're just in the raw,

Quiet dismantling of illusion.

The veil is really,

Really this thin right now and you're naming it.

You're not just naming the partner.

You're naming the whole pattern of form.

You're naming how the face,

The body,

The energy,

The ambiguity,

The sexiness,

The vulnerability,

The comfort,

The mystery,

They all become a symbol.

A symbol the ego uses to keep us bound to cycles of guilt,

Longing,

Our past selves,

Body identification,

And also possibly a symbol spirit could use if both are equally devoted to seeing things differently.

But as I already mentioned,

That's not the case.

So now what?

So here's the paradox.

And again,

I hope this is helping because whether it's a romantic partner,

You could substitute a job,

A family member,

You could really substitute anything because it's what's underneath the surface.

So here was the question.

If I'm clear,

Why do I need to block?

So if any of you out there,

If it's a romantic partner,

If it's blocking a job,

Like I'm done with this,

I need to cut this out of my life,

I can't keep reengaging with the same boss,

The same family member,

The same toxic pattern.

If I'm clear,

If you feel totally clear,

Why do I need to still then block?

Because in this world,

Clarity sometimes needs form.

Clarity in the mind manifests as boundaries in the world.

I'm gonna say that one again.

Clarity in the mind manifests as boundaries in the world.

Not to reject someone or something,

But to protect your devotion.

You see,

Folks,

The spiritualized ego can go,

Oh,

Well,

Because you feel clear in your mind,

You don't need to do anything in the world.

You don't need to take any action or cut something out of your life.

Just let it all be there.

Clarity in the mind manifests as boundaries in the world.

Not to reject someone or something,

But to protect your devotion.

In a world where you can get pulled back into patterns with the flick of a screen,

Blocking isn't punishment,

It's closing a back door.

God,

Did I need to hear that.

If it's you saying,

Spirit,

I'm done playing in the same room of mirrors.

I'm ready to grieve this pattern and see what's beyond the body.

I'm ready to grieve this old pattern and see what's beyond the body or the form,

The outer situation pattern.

You're not blocking them.

You're blocking access to the hallucination that they became in your mind.

That's not unloving,

That is divine vision.

Gosh,

Do you guys feel that?

So when you're considering cutting something,

When you get to that place where you feel,

Oh my God,

That is why there is a need to do it and that's why it's still just as divine.

Because when you do it,

You're blocking access to the hallucination,

The illusion that they became in your mind because we're it.

We're the answer we're seeking for.

We're already it.

And also,

When you're clear that something is totally kind of an addictive pattern,

That they've just become a drug or the situation or the job has become an addictive pattern,

They're a qualifier.

And in the world of 12-step,

That means they're like cocaine.

Like you can't ever make cocaine all of a sudden like a green juice,

Right?

You can't wrap spirituality around something that is just,

It's not shame,

It's just sometimes things go into the category of a qualifier and they just,

You can't dance with that cocaine.

So that means when they trigger the addiction to ambiguity,

When they trigger the fix of closeness without union,

The ache of maybe this time if I say it right,

That's not clarity,

That's reenactment,

That's re-engaging.

So again,

Why block?

Why end something in case you're asking?

Because you are no longer willing to compromise your awakening to soothe your nervous system.

Oh my God,

That brings me tears.

Ooh,

That one hit the chat really hard when I did the live.

Why would you cut something out of your life folks?

Because you're no longer willing to compromise your awakening to soothe your nervous system or to pretend that chemistry equals calling,

To recycle guilt just to avoid feeling the death of a pattern or to let spiritual language keep the cycle on life support.

You're ready to bury the role that they play in your mind,

The job plays,

She plays,

He plays.

That's blocking,

Not in anger,

But in devotion.

So what if blocking isn't closing the heart,

But finally sealing the tomb of an old pattern so resurrection can begin?

You're not failing,

You're letting something die right this time,

Meaning fade away.

So I still had one more guys.

I still had a deeper question.

It's weird because the pattern feels like when I'm facing scary emotions and triggers,

My pattern feels like that for me,

I quickly cut it out,

Like reactively quick.

I just block it out,

Leave it,

Throw it away,

Start over.

So not that blocking isn't still something available if it's done from presence instead of fear,

But it's just tough because the new choice feels like to not block,

But maybe allow and do nothing.

But that feels terrifying because my ego is secretly,

Like maybe my ego is just tricking me to keep an energetic door or pattern available by doing nothing,

You know?

So again,

I'm just giving you all the answers you might have as you listen to this,

Or maybe you listen to it again and that voice tries to hook you,

Right?

The impulse to cut it,

Block it,

Throw it away,

Start fresh,

That's a really,

Like it's a pattern,

But it's not just a pattern,

It's a survival strategy.

And maybe a lot of you like me develop that at a young age.

It's a part of us that equates emotion with danger,

That things like,

If I feel too much,

I'll lose myself.

So I need to erase the source really quickly,

The person,

The situation,

And then I'll be safe again.

And man,

That part of you has probably saved,

You know,

That part of us has probably saved us more than once,

And it deserves a lot of compassion.

That part of us that just wants to cut it out quick before we pause and get some peace before we act,

That part of us learned how to shut the valve so quickly because staying in the presence of emotional unclarity felt like we were drowning,

Right?

If you're anything like me.

So the paradox that I was sitting with that you might be sitting with is blocking can be divine and a loving boundary,

And it can also be a way to avoid feeling what's still alive.

Maybe the paradox is leaving the door open can be a trap of old ego loops,

And it can also be an act of radical stillness and self-trust,

And the trickiest part can be that the same action can come from fear or love.

There is no formula,

But here's what I,

You know,

Probably might be rising in some of you,

Or at least what I know was rising in me.

What if I don't block?

What if I do nothing and just feel what arises?

And guys,

Let's be honest.

Sometimes these spiritual awakenings,

They don't happen during a silent retreat or while holding a rose quartz when you're sitting in the sunlight.

Sometimes they happen while you're pacing around your living room,

Half-dressed,

Staring at your phone,

Wondering whether to delete a number or send one more,

Hey,

Can we just talk for a second?

And this is that moment where the curriculum kicks in,

Not in the perfect posture,

But in the breakdown that doesn't have music in the background.

So I want you to know that if your clarity looks and sounds a little messy or a little unhinged or crazy,

Or like just a little late night like me sometimes,

You're not off track.

You're actually just right where you're supposed to be.

So not to respond,

Not engage,

Not reopen,

But also not run,

To just let the energy be there.

Let it stir,

Let it teach you what it's trying to say.

Not because you're letting this situation stay,

But before you block or don't block,

You're letting yourself back in first.

And this might be the new edge.

It's not silence or ghosting as avoidance,

But silence as surrender.

No blocking yet,

And again,

You still might,

No answering,

Just being the still space that can finally hold the charge without reacting to it.

Maybe pause is the learning here before.

Maybe part of the learning is can you pause and then choose?

And that's not ego.

That's,

For me,

That's like on the way to mastery.

And listen,

It might terrify you.

It's terrifying.

It might scare the heck out of the ego because it means you're not performing safety anymore.

You're not just putting on a show like you've got it together.

You're actually starting to embody it.

So if it helps,

Here's a little script you can say to yourself.

So feel free to pause and write this down when the fear kicks up in the middle of a choice.

I'm not leaving the door open.

I'm leaving the lesson open.

I'm not inviting their energy back in.

I'm inviting my feelings to come up and through.

I don't need to respond.

I don't need to block yet.

I'm choosing to sit in the fire,

Not because I'm unsafe,

But because I finally trust I can handle the heat without running.

Spirit,

Father,

Mother,

God,

If there's still something here,

I surrender it to you.

Show me what's mine to keep and what's mine to let go.

I don't need to push or pull.

I just need to stay honest and open to peace.

And folks,

That's not passive.

That is powerful.

That's how the old pattern loses oxygen.

And again,

If you haven't learned by this yet,

This is all about undoing the pattern.

It's not about the right or wrong choice.

So this whole talk might've been about one person on the surface,

But underneath that,

It's been about everything.

Every place you feel torn between an old identity and a deeper peace.

Every place that the ego whispers,

You'll lose everything if you let go.

Every moment you wonder,

Am I leaving this too soon or staying too long?

You don't need to know the answer.

You just need to feel the next honest,

Peaceful step for you.

And I wanna offer something simple and symbolic to carry forward.

After this track,

After listening to this,

If it feels right,

Write a letter.

Not one that you actually send.

A letter to the pattern,

To the person,

To the job,

To the belief,

To the version of you that's been clinging or circling.

Say what you've never said.

Let it rip.

Bless it,

Release it,

Or rage at it.

Whatever's true.

And then maybe rip it up.

Burn it.

Tuck it away.

I like to burn it.

Let that act be a soft ritual,

A turning point,

A release,

But not to be dramatic.

Just to be done.

So let's take one big breath together,

Okay?

Just one to seal this time.

Ah.

Whether your next step is silence,

Blocking,

Blessing,

Or breathing,

May it come not from pressure or performing,

But from true presence.

Maybe healing doesn't look like years of efforting or striving.

Maybe it looks like breathing again.

Laughing again.

Oh,

God.

Being nobody again.

Maybe letting go isn't loss.

Maybe it's remembrance.

So I really thank you for being here,

For listening,

For being brave enough to trust this track,

And thank you for not rushing your becoming,

Your homecoming to yourself.

If you need any further guidance,

You can go to my About page on the Insight Timer profile and reach out to me if you have any questions or need support.

You are not alone,

And I look forward to having you on one of my lives that I'm gonna do soon.

And feel free to listen to some upcoming tracks.

And stay well,

Stay blessed,

And stay peaceful.

Reviews

Interesting talk. I need to think about this and apply it to my life.

Thank you as always Beau! This track is just as amazing as the live version of it was. So many beautiful truths to take from this. I especially love the part where you state that blocking a pattern/role that no longer serves us, is choosing our own spiritual wellbeing instead of soothing our nervous system! I may not have repeated it exactly how you said it, but this is how I remember it. Will absolutely listen to this track more often. Grateful for you and what you teach us here, you are so very much appreciated! Sending you blessings and love 🙏💫🤗❤️ And can't hardly wait for your next live! 😉😁