9-Day Prayer Challenge- Surrendering Everything To God Day 2

“He was crucified so that his spirit could spread throughout the world. He sacrificed his body for the dharma. He never died, he never died. He is Atman (the Soul), living in the hearts of all.” -Neem Karoli Baba

Join me on this rosary journey. This is Day 2 of our 9-Day Prayer Challenge.

Transcript

Good morning.

God morning to you.

Nisargadatta Maharaj says without a name,

Without a body,

Tell me about yourself.

Tell me something about yourself without mentioning your memories or your mind.

Can you tell me something?

Nothing can be said.

That's you.

That's you and that's the presence of God.

But I saw a sermon on Instagram that said there's a difference between the presence of God and the glory of God.

And if you only visit his presence,

This presence,

Your presence,

And only view what he can do for you rather than who he is in his glory,

You do not have the gospel.

You have a hobby.

If you can leave his presence unchanged,

You are not a tabernacle of his glory.

You are a slave to entertainment.

You have a hobby that you can just pick up and put down,

Become interested in and uninterested in at your own convenience.

If you can be around the things of God but never be changed by the glory of God,

You do not have the good news that shook the world.

You have another form of entertainment.

Do you ever wonder why you're stuck in a cycle from event to event and you feel like you're waiting on certain events or church services to breathe life into you?

It's because we have become addicted to temporary trips into his presence instead of hungry to live in his glory.

Close that body's eyes.

Every morning while you're in my presence,

You touch his presence,

Your true presence,

Your essence.

I'm only here to point to what else is here.

I speak to stop speaking so you can hear.

You are here and you linger for a while but then you get lost again.

You imagine that you're lost again but you're only ever here.

No matter where that body goes,

No matter where that mind goes,

No matter what you're feeling,

You're here.

You are loved and you are loved more than you can imagine.

Before we pray together,

Day two of our nine days of prayer for surrendering everything to God,

I want you to pray this prayer to God.

Please let me feel your love as I pray.

And feel those words as you pray them.

Feel the love.

Begin.

Feel it get stronger,

Realer.

As I share,

I speak on multiple levels at the same time and I'm sorry if it gets confusing.

I go between you and me.

I'm sorry if I'm confusing you.

I'm sorry if I'm confusing you.

I'm sorry if I'm confusing you.

I'm sorry if I'm confusing you.

There's only love.

But right now you imagine that you are someone that can feel love,

That can give love,

That can receive love.

And you will give it and receive it in a way you've never given it and received it before.

Because now you know you are love.

And it's not a mantra,

It's not an affirmation,

It's not a belief.

It's a felt knowing.

When you're feeling it,

You're being it.

It's just the mind that says I'm filling it or I'm not filling it.

When you're not filling it,

It's because the attention has become thoughts.

Seemingly,

If you keep the attention on love,

As love,

Where are thoughts?

Where's the mind?

Where is the you feeling love?

There's just love.

No description or narration necessary.

You can't lose what you are.

But now that you're remaining as what you are consciously,

You will begin to see that glory,

Those changes,

The fruit that you've been looking for out there on other trees,

On their branches.

Hold out your branches,

Your arms,

Your hands,

Which are his hands,

Palms facing up,

And see what you can feel.

Don't imagine,

Don't think,

Just feel.

It's a silent experience.

You don't have to think to feel,

To notice what's here.

With eyes closed and those hands still suspended,

Not moving.

Without thinking,

Can you even label them hands?

Or is it just sensations in space?

Remember those eyes are closed and if they aren't,

You need to take this all the way back and hit play again.

Start again.

The mind tells you those are your hands in front of you.

But without the thoughts,

These are my hands in front of me with just the silence.

What is your direct experience?

If we can say anything,

It's sensations,

Vibrations that have no shape,

They have no form,

They don't make up hands.

That weight you're experiencing doesn't make up a body.

Those thoughts you experience don't make up a mind.

Just be with the sensations,

With the vibrations,

With this energy you are.

This energy is the life-giving water.

Your awareness of this energy produces fruit.

Your fruit,

The kind of fruit that can't be taken away from you because it wasn't given to you by this world.

The kind of fruit only you can bear and then give to the world humbly.

The saints say branches with heavy fruit,

They hang low,

They hang towards the ground,

They bow,

They surrender to this energy.

You have to be courageous enough to stop and feel this energy,

His presence.

When you're upset,

When you're driving,

When you're happy,

When you're talking,

When you're listening,

You have to stay aware.

When I'm aware like this,

I'm sitting up taller,

My ears are like satellites even though I'm not listening for anything outside of me.

That's the posture that happens when I'm listening inside of consciousness.

When I'm trying to feel what's happening inside consciousness,

Not just the forms that it's taking outside.

That's surrender.

In Be Here Now it says,

Except ye be converted and become as little children,

Ye shall not enter the kingdom of heaven unless you start again and become that trusting,

Open,

Surrendered being like you're being right now.

This energy can't come in,

That is the kingdom of heaven,

The energy,

It's the same thing.

Consciousness,

Feeling this during the day is surrender.

Day two prayer.

Jesus is speaking to your soul,

Surrender to me does not mean to fret or to be upset or to lose hope,

Nor does it mean offering to me a worried prayer,

Asking me to follow you and change your worry into prayer.

It's against the surrender,

Deeply against it to worry,

To be nervous and to desire,

To think about the consequences of anything.

It is like the confusion that children feel when they ask their mother to see to their needs and then try to take care of those needs for themselves so that their childlike efforts get in their mother's way.

Surrender means to placidly close the eyes of the soul,

To turn away from thoughts of tribulation and to put yourself in my care so that only I act,

Saying,

You take care of it.

And now we say 10 times,

Oh Jesus,

I surrender myself to you,

Take care of everything.

Oh Jesus,

I surrender myself to you,

Take care of everything.

Oh Jesus,

I surrender myself to you,

Take care of everything.

Oh Jesus,

I surrender myself to you,

Take care of everything.

Oh Jesus,

I surrender myself to you,

Take care of everything.

Oh Jesus,

I surrender myself to you,

Take care of everything.

As you say this,

Feel the presence,

Feel that energy.

Bring those hands together in front of you.

Bow down if you need to smile.

Oh Jesus,

I surrender myself to you,

Take care of everything.

Ramp up that energy.

Oh Jesus,

I surrender myself to you,

Take care of everything.

If you're speaking this inside,

Say it louder inside.

Oh Jesus,

I surrender myself to you,

Take care of everything.

Like you're shouting and excited.

Oh Jesus,

I surrender myself to you,

Take care of everything.

And now the concluding prayer.

Mother,

I am yours now and forever,

Through you and with you.

I always want to belong completely to Jesus.

Amen.

And the words of Jesus to your soul,

He said to close the eyes of the soul.

Close the eyes of the soul.

He didn't say close the eyes of the body in order to fill him.

Open that body's eyes.

In the beginning,

It's easiest to close the body's eyes to reduce that visual stimulation.

But notice that even with eyes open,

You can still feel him as if you've brought him from within to the without.

But even with eyes open,

You can still sense the darkness that you experience behind closed eyes.

Don't let your mind try to figure that out.

Just notice that even with eyes open,

You can still sense the darkness you were aware of just a moment ago.

As if that darkness is the screen that this,

That you're looking at now is appearing on or appearing as.

Close that body's eyes again and to feel your presence,

Which is his presence.

That was his gift to us.

Nimcharoli Baba said he was crucified so that his spirit could spread throughout the world so that he could be your spirit,

Your heart,

Your breath,

Your eyes.

Open them again and look at what's in front of you with his eyes.

When I'm looking with his eyes,

I'm looking at everything lovingly.

I'm feeling love while looking.

The same love you'd look at a newborn baby with or a puppy with.

I saw a beautiful,

What are those super curly tall dogs?

They're usually like tan or brown.

The way I look at those dogs,

You know what I'm talking about.

I look at everything like that.

Everyone like that.

Indiscriminately,

This love doesn't turn off.

You have to stop turning off.

You have to stop taking trips into this love.

You trip into it sometimes when you think you've fallen in love with someone new or when you get good news you've tripped back into yourself.

But we're staying.

We're lingering.

Say that word.

Linger and feel it.

Feel the love that doesn't leave.

When I was with my dying grandmother,

Grief came.

Sadness came when she was taking her final breath and it was just the two of us in that hospital room.

But this love didn't leave.

That was in December 2015 and that's when I knew I had found because I predicted that that moment would crush me.

I always knew it was coming.

I feared it from when I was a little girl and it was finally there and the love that I had just discovered,

Rediscovered months before that,

Practicing that presence months before she left as if she waited on me to find it.

When I could feel this,

When I could be this even though Nikki was sad,

I knew I had to share.

And so if you find yourself upset or sad today or during these nine days,

If you find yourself worried,

Stop in the worry and ask is love here too?

And you're not looking for words as an answer.

The mind may say yes,

It may say no.

You're asking to feel something right next to whatever it was that triggered you to remember the truth.

It's going to become automatic.

You're not even going to be able to stay overwhelmed by your anger or your fear or your worry for long.

Messing with me.

Like it won't last.

It'll be moments before you recognize Jesus is here too.

Which means I'm fine.

Which means this couldn't be any other way and it's only here for me to recognize it as a temptation.

As nothing.

You have to translate it,

Whatever you're looking at,

Back into love.

Back into him.

You have to dissolve it.

It dissipates,

Evaporates,

And only love is left.

That's every situation I've ever been in.

I stand there long enough or I sit there long enough listening and whatever emotion was there,

It parts like clouds.

And there's the sun,

Jesus smiling like you did good.

Let's do it again.

Can you recognize me again?

Can you find me again?

In this scene,

In this mess,

In this moment,

And in this one.

And in this one.

That's all you're doing today.

And in this one.

I love you.

And we'll chat soon.