Welcome to this session.
Before we begin,
Take a moment to arrive.
You don't need to fix anything.
You don't even need to achieve anything.
Just be here.
My name is Jason Wild and I've spent decades working in mental health and exploring meditation and consciousness.
Now what I've learned is simple.
Most of us are carrying more attention than we realize and the nervous system rarely gets a true break.
The space is that break.
There's no right way to do this.
If your mind wanders,
Well that's okay.
And if you relax deeply,
Well that's okay too.
Just follow my voice and let whatever happens happen.
So take one slow breath in and just let it go gently.
Take a slow breath in and let it go softly.
Before we begin,
Understand something important.
An urge is not a command.
An urge is a sensation.
It rises,
It peaks,
And it falls.
What makes OCD exhausting is not the thought.
It's the response to the thought.
The checking,
The neutralizing,
The reassurance,
The ritual.
And each time the ritual happens,
The brain learns something.
It learns that the urge must have meant danger.
So next time it sends the signal even louder.
And today we practice something different.
Not suppression,
Not fighting,
Not proving.
We practice riding the wave.
So take another slow breath in and an even longer exhale.
Feel your body in the chair or bed.
Feel the ground or the bed.
And then notice the next urge that shows up.
Maybe it's an urge to check something.
Maybe to replace something.
Maybe to mentally correct something.
Maybe to seek reassurance.
Now don't act on it.
Just notice it.
Where do you feel it in your body?
In your chest?
Your belly?
Your throat?
Jaw?
Just describe it neutrally.
Tight?
Buzzing?
Pressure?
Or even heat?
Urges are physical before they're behavioral.
They begin as a body activation.
So now imagine that urge as a wave forming in the ocean.
It starts small.
It gathers height.
It crests.
And then it breaks.
Every way it breaks.
Every single one of them.
You've never seen a wave stay frozen at its peak forever.
And urges work the same way.
The problem is not the wave.
The problem is jumping into it.
And right now you're going to stay on the shore.
The wave rises.
You feel discomfort.
And your brain says,
Do something.
Instead you breathe.
Inhale.
And a long exhale.
And again.
Inhale.
Notice the urge increases when you resist it aggressively.
So don't resist.
Allow it.
And say quietly,
This is an urge.
Not this is danger.
Not this means something.
Just this is an urge.
And again.
This is an urge.
Urges are uncomfortable.
But discomfort is survivable.
Your nervous system can tolerate activation.
It may not like it.
But it can handle it.
So now imagine watching that wave build.
You feel tension.
Your mind says if you don't act something bad will happen.
Notice that sentence.
Don't argue with it.
Don't try to even prove it wrong.
Just label it gently.
Prediction.
That's what it is.
A prediction.
Not a fact.
OCD thrives on certainty.
It demands 100% proof.
The life doesn't offer a hundred percent proof.
So the brain it keeps searching.
Right now practice sitting in uncertainty.
Say quietly,
Maybe.
Maybe discomfort will fade.
Maybe I don't need to solve this.
Maybe interprets the demand for certainty.
Notice if the urge spikes again.
Good.
That means you're not feeding it.
Waves get bigger before they break.
Stay on the shore.
Breathe and inhale.
Take another big inhale and an even longer exhale.
Feel your feet pressing into the ground or the bed.
Feel your back supported.
Your body is here in this room,
Not in the imagined catastrophe.
OCD pulls you into hypothetical futures.
Return to present sensation.
Air entering your nose.
Air leaving your mouth.
Hands resting.
The wave begins to shift.
It may still be there.
But notice,
Is it exactly the same intensity or has it changed slightly?
Even a 1% drop is movement.
Urges are dynamic.
They move when they're not reinforced.
So now imagine the wave cresting.
Foam at the top.
Energy high.
And then it crashes.
Water spreading thin across the sand.
Energy is dissipating.
You're still standing untouched.
The urge did not destroy you.
It didn't force you.
It rose and it fell.
That's the rhythm of the nervous system activation.
Now notice if your mind wants reassurance.
Are you sure this works?
Are you sure nothing bad will happen?
And label that gently.
Seeking certainty.
So breathe again.
You don't need to answer it.
You only need not obey it.
Every time you ride the wave without performing the ritual,
You retrain the brain.
You teach it that the signal was a false alarm.
You weaken the association.
It doesn't happen instantly,
But it does happen steadily.
So take another slow breath in and an even longer exhale.
Now notice the urge now.
It may still be present,
But you're not inside it.
You're not observing it.
That distance is power.
So say quietly.
Urges peak.
Urges pass.
And again.
Urges peak and urges pass.
One more time.
Urges peak and urges pass.
Feel the truth that is in your body now.
Think of past urges.
They felt overwhelming and yet here you are.
They passed and this one will too.
You're not required to solve uncertainty.
You're not required to neutralize every thought.
You're allowed to let discomfort exist without fixing it.
That is strength.
So sit here for a few moments breathing.
Allowing.
Not responding.
Not correcting.
Just riding.
And when you're ready,
Take one final slow breath in and a long exhale.
And open your eyes gently now.
Good work today and namaste.
