Welcome,
My dearest.
Thank you for taking the time to pause and spend some time with yourself,
And me for that matter.
I consider it a great honor to guide you in this practice.
And may this bring some peace to your heart in otherwise crazy times.
So you could either be seated or lying down,
Just checking in with your body,
Whatever feels right.
Maybe even lying down on your back,
Knees bent,
Your feet apart about hip distance,
And then you've been bending your knees towards each other.
Perhaps one hand on heart,
One on belly.
Just find some stillness here just for a moment.
Feel the stability and security of the earth supporting you.
Feel held and nurtured by your skin,
Cradling your body,
Holding in the miracle that is you.
Today we're going to do a short practice involving inviting a gentle,
Compassionate energy towards that fear self inside,
The scared,
Fearful part of us that we just want to push away or silence or wish we would have done enough therapy to get rid of already.
Oh,
But that my friends is also the source of our magic.
So this is a practice to be able to start to welcome,
Welcome in anxiety and allowing it to just be present with us,
Even if just for a moment.
Please know if you become activated at any point or this becomes too flooding,
You can certainly turn this off or just go listen to some uplifting music that shifts your energy or certainly you can just lie here and listen to my voice,
But not necessarily have to focus on anything in particular.
So to connect us first with this compassionate,
Nurturing sense of us inside,
I invite you to recall a time that you provided care,
Some kind of nurturing,
Caring for another being.
It could be certainly a small child,
An animal,
Maybe beloved pet.
Just thinking about a time,
Maybe you just held a tiny baby puppy or bunny,
Scrumptious little newborn baby.
Just see if you can connect with a memory of holding something that is truly deserving of nurturance and then also become aware that you're the one observing the sensation.
Become aware of the observer self beyond our experience and really begin to feel in the body when we are giving care to somebody else in a way that feels good,
Not in a way that we feel like we're obligated to,
But like a real feel good opportunity where this happened maybe once.
You can use fictional characters too.
You could even think about seeing this in a movie and really kind of thinking about what it would feel like to be in the character's body and just sense where do I sense my energy flowing when I connect with giving nurturing energy.
There's no right or wrong,
Just a matter of observation.
See if you can just stay curious,
Take note if there's judgment,
And try your best not to judge yourself for that.
This next part's optional,
But I would encourage you to just try it if you're game.
So I want to just briefly invite and bring to mind what fear or vulnerability might look like or manifest as.
And very often it seems like it's a very loud creature,
But usually it's a teeny tiny version of us perhaps imagining a smaller version of you you've maybe seen in pictures.
Just see if you can see what fear inside of you embodied looks like.
And if at any point it becomes too much,
I invite you just to set that aside and shift your mind back to the nurturing energy.
But otherwise I would also invite you to connect with this nurturing energy inside and then intentionally,
This is going to feel weird because we don't usually do it,
But intentionally invite that fear,
Vulnerable younger part of you to come sit with you.
Maybe in your lap,
Maybe next to you on the couch,
Maybe they're a little scared or not quite sure what to make of you.
They can stay even hidden in the room if they need to,
But just see if you can connect with this nurturing energy of this observer self and then you're inviting that sweet,
Sweet precious scared,
Vulnerable,
Fearful part of you to come closer to you.
Allow deeper breaths to come through the body if they want to perhaps gently swaying or rotating our waist around,
Kind of rolling around in a circle on our spine or on our seat.
And just be present with whatever wants to show up for you today when you connect this nurturing beautiful energy and inviting fear in instead of trying to hide it or make it disappear.
There's no right or wrong way to do this.
It's probably going to feel awkward or uncomfortable at some point.
That does not mean you're doing it wrong.
It just means it's new and this is a new connection your brain is making.
Each time you come back and practice this,
There are new connections being made in your brain and carved deeper so that each time you do this,
You're more likely to use this pathway in your brain instead of the old reactive fear avoidance,
Fear response.
We can't necessarily completely override our fear by any means because otherwise it wouldn't keep us alive.
But we can learn to step a little bit closer to it instead of feeling like,
I'm not anxious.
Who's anxious?
You're not anxious.
God,
We're all anxious.
I'm so sick of us acting like we're fine.
I think finally maybe it's changing because of how the world has changed.
But let's just be real about how chaotic and hard life can be.
It's beautiful and wonderful and magical,
Yes,
But dang.
It's all so hard.
And we deserve a lot of credit for what we've lived through at this point,
Honestly.
Every last one of us,
Regardless of our circumstance or situation.
We're surviving a worldwide pandemic,
Et cetera.
I hope this invited a new space of connection inside for you today.
Again,
Feel free to come back to this and practice this.
And I'd encourage you to stick with it for a length of time and see how this process evolves over time for you.
And just imagine building trust with that fearful part of us just like you would with a scared child or a scared new puppy.
I don't know how many puppies are too timid.
They're all pretty wild in my world,
But I don't know,
A timid something.
And then if you get stuck by any means,
Certainly feel free to message me.
I'd love to dialogue further about this meditation,
About connecting in with a resourced part of us and being able to connect and learn how to absorb in and let in the parts of us that we've previously wanted to just amputate out of our existence.
Sorry,
That's a graphic analogy,
But that's how we treat a lot of the sensations inside we don't like.
And so this is just how do we make space for the other half of how life is.
We're never,
We're never going to stay in bliss forever.
Otherwise it wouldn't be bliss when we get there,
Right?
Like there's an ebb and flow.
Inhale and exhale.
Sun,
Moon,
Energy.
May you be well.
May you have peace and joy and love in your heart,
Even amidst all of the crazy,
Crazy,
Crazy.
I love you dearly.
It has been an honor and I pray many blessings over you.
Namaste.
