Good day,
My friends.
The intention of this meditation is to hold space for your inner child,
Specifically if you have a belief system that you are a burden to others in your life.
If this is you,
I invite you to take a comfortable seat with your spine stretched long and tall,
Or lie down if that feels more comfortable,
Lowering the gaze or closing the eyes,
And just taking a deep breath in,
And letting it out the mouth.
Again,
Another deep breath in,
Pause at the top,
And out the mouth.
Just getting into our bodies here.
One more deep breath into the belly,
Through the nose,
And hold.
Release as you relax your shoulders and relax into this seat.
At this time,
I invite you to call forward this part of you that feels like a burden.
Notice where you feel that sentence in your body when you think,
I am a burden,
Or my feelings are a burden,
Or my needs are a burden.
Where do you feel that in your body?
What does it feel like?
Does it feel tight,
Or heavy,
Or dense?
Does it have a color,
Or a shape?
How big is it?
Instead of exploring the words right now,
We are just exploring the feeling,
Allowing ourselves to get familiar with this sensation.
And as you sit here with this sensation in your body,
This shape,
Begin to just breathe love and compassion into it.
Not needing to fix it,
Or change it,
Or shrink it,
Or get rid of it.
Just allowing it to be there and holding it like a sweet little child,
Embraced in the energy of love and compassion.
Notice if doing this shifts the sensation at all for you.
Does the ball move?
Does the feeling change or soften?
Does it get smaller?
Does it stay the same?
Maybe you even are experiencing some resistance.
Just noticing and allowing.
I want you to ask yourself,
Is this a new feeling,
Or is it familiar?
And as you sit with this sensation,
If it's familiar,
Just ask it if it has a message for you.
This could show up in the form of a memory,
Or an image,
Or a word,
Or words.
Just notice what it has for you,
If anything.
And if it came with words,
Or a memory,
Or a message,
I invite you to ask this what it needs to hear.
So if it's a childhood memory,
Or if you're just feeling connected with the sensation still,
Ask this part,
What does it need to hear from you,
From your higher self?
And as you tell this to this part,
Notice if this part has anything to say back,
And then shifting back into that space of higher self,
What would you say back?
And if this part feels safe,
Or feels comfortable with this,
You might even offer to hold its hand,
Or embrace it in a hug,
And just allow it to be here again,
In that place of love and compassion.
I'm so sorry that anybody ever made you feel like your feelings,
Or your needs,
Were a burden.
They probably didn't realize what they were doing either.
And what a gift it is that you can see this now.
It's not your fault.
You are not a burden.
You do not have to take care of everyone else's feelings just to be safe.
You don't have to ignore your own just to keep others comfortable.
Take up space,
It's okay.
It's not your responsibility if someone feels something about that.
It's just your responsibility to be true to you,
And know that you are worthy,
And you are loved.
And it's okay if you can't see it,
Or you can't trust it now.
But the more that you revisit this place,
The more it will soften.
Take a deep breath in,
Exhale and let it all go.
And repeat after me,
Either out loud or in your head,
I forgive myself for buying into the misunderstanding that my feelings are a burden to others.
The truth is,
What others feel is a burden is not my responsibility or my fault.
The truth is,
That everyone has needs and feelings.
I forgive myself for buying into the misunderstanding that I have to take care of everyone else's needs so that I don't feel like a burden.
The truth is,
I can have needs too.
And sometimes being uncomfortable is better than being safe.
The truth is,
Sometimes the safest place is in the discomfort.
I forgive myself for buying into the misunderstanding that it is my responsibility to take care of anybody else's feelings but my own.
The truth is,
I am kind and compassionate and considerate.
And I deserve to speak up for my own,
Or communicate when I don't have the space to hold for others.
I forgive myself for buying into the misunderstanding that my worth is wrapped up in how I make others feel.
As long as I don't rock the boat or cause someone a burden,
Then I'll be good enough,
Then I'll be loved,
Then I won't be rejected,
Then I won't be abandoned.
The truth is,
My worth is inherent.
It is within me.
My worth has nothing to do with the way people see me,
Just like their worth has nothing to do with the way I see them.
I take a deep breath in to integrate all of this,
And I let it go back to the earth and the ether where it might be transmuted into love.
You can revisit this practice as often as you need until you begin to see or notice a shift in this energy.
Make sure you take time to journal after this practice or take a walk and just allow these shifts and sensations to move through you.
And may this bless you on your healing journey as you begin to step into your worth and your full body empowerment because you deserve it,
And your feelings and your needs and your desires are divine,
Honey.
They are placed there for a reason,
And you deserve to have them.
I love you,
I love you,
I love you.
Aho.
