Do you sometimes feel like you are coping instead of living?
Whatever made you close the door to your inner self or whoever told you that you have no right to feel,
This was a mistake.
All this denial about who you really are.
When we're born,
We're perfect.
Then the conditioning begins.
And when we felt our deepest heartache,
No one said that we were allowed to simply feel all of it.
That we were taught to hide,
To deny and to abandon ourselves.
To condemn the pain instead of comforted.
Please know that this was a mistake simply because no one knew any better.
But now we know that our hearts are here to speak to us.
Our hearts are asking for loving attention,
Not abandonment.
Instead of pain being a source for suffering,
We can make pain a portal to awaken not only our hearts but actually our nervous systems inborn process of healing.
So let's give ourselves permission right now to start listening to the voice of our innermost selves and find freedom by honoring our brilliant system of sensitivity.
No matter what caused you to leave the seat of your heart,
To forget who you really are,
No matter who it was that told you that you are not allowed,
Remember this was an accident.
All of this denying who we really are.
As long as we're still breathing,
We have the opportunity to make it right.
Now if you haven't already,
Let your eyes gently drift close.
Spend a moment and feel your body breathing.
Feel your aliveness.
Notice where in the body you feel the breath the most.
Maybe it's in your throat,
Your chest,
Your abdomen.
Perhaps it's in your nostrils.
Gently start lengthening your inhale.
And ever so gently see if you can slower down the pace of your exhale.
Don't try to force it.
Just make tiny,
Barely-noseable adjustments with every breath.
Bring your awareness to the pause between your inhale and your exhale.
Between your exhale and your inhale.
Lower the possibility to lengthen that gap even just a tiny bit.
Softness is really the key here,
So notice if there is anywhere in your body that you experience a tightness and let that part relax with the breath instead.
Now let go of the need to control the breath and let it return to its own pace.
I invite you to place both hands over your heart and begin opening to yourself in this moment.
Open your heart to these words and repeat them silently or out loud after me.
I am allowing all my emotions to be a part of me,
Not a part from me.
I am allowing the wisdom of my brokenness and feelings of disconnect to help guide me to embrace my tender heart.
I will allow the wounds and memories of hurt their place and hold space when pain comes.
I will sit with the discomfort and listen so that my dis-ease has room to leave through the door of my presence.
This is how I free myself from recycling.
When you get caught up in doubt or fear,
When all pain surfaces and demands your attention,
Take your hand to your heart,
Gently bow your head toward it,
Feel your body breathe.
Let all come as it asks.
We don't have to fight against ourselves anymore.
We are allowed no matter if we're kicking and screaming.
This is how we want to be loved.
Feel this,
Dear one,
Is how we learn to love first our own beings.
