It can be said that the truth is incredibly confrontational,
And as it relates to the truth of life,
Or a truth that spirituality points to,
As beautiful as it might appear,
My goodness,
In a very,
Let's just say,
Real way,
There's so much it wants to take from you,
There's so much it wants to set fire to,
There's so much that it wants to call you out on,
That invites you to step into the proverbial light.
We don't want that,
Generally speaking.
Human beings want what they want,
Not realizing that what they really want is God,
And being confused about what they really want,
They just end up living a life that is in stark opposition to God,
Running away from God,
Not realizing that that's really where they want to go.
And no,
Not our silly ideas about God,
Not our dogmas about God,
But the heart of God,
The heart of what is actually real and true,
About you and about life as a whole.
And we feel so threatened because we see it as an invitation to give up our lives,
Which in a way,
That is what it is.
But such a beautiful relief,
Once you realize the life that you think you have,
Is simply the burden of trying to protect an imaginary character in your mind that doesn't really exist,
Frantically trying to get to the future,
Frantically trying to control how other people see you,
Frantically trying to hide from all the imaginary monsters in your mind that you think really exist somewhere out there.
You see,
In one way,
The whole world revolves around,
Let's just call it a delusion,
And it's not said in a judgmental way or even a negative context.
It's an upside down way of seeing things that are not in alignment with the fabric of reality.
And the consequence of this,
To put a flavor of religious spin on it,
Is to create hell in the process,
To create an inner torment that feels separate from life and God.
And it's perfectly allowed.
And I'm not holding out any flavor or ounce of hope that someday the whole world wakes up to this.
I don't see that that is the point.
Furthermore,
The more I wake up to it myself,
The more I literally don't need anyone else to wake up to it.
In one way,
To speak poetically about it,
It's like being liberated from the world.
I'm here,
But I'm not really here.
Furthermore,
It's to see,
In a way of speaking,
That I'm untouched by the world.
But importantly,
To see that I'm untouched by the world is to also see that there's nothing in the world for me.
Like the world doesn't have anything that I want or need or is somehow withholding from me.
Likewise,
Other people.
Other people don't have what I want or desire.
So I can let them go.
I can let them be.
I don't need them to see me a certain way.
I don't need them to have certain thoughts about me.
I don't need them to validate me.
And you know,
I understand that perspective that might assume,
Wow,
That's so alone.
But you might say lonely.
But it's only lonely if you think there's something out there that can rescue you.
But when you see that the aloneness is inherent,
Which is kind of like seeing that it's all just one,
There's no separation.
And without separation,
There can't really be this thing called lonely.
And understand that I'm attempting to illustrate the nature of something,
But I'm not trying to illustrate some sort of goal of experience.
Does that make sense?
Because so often in spirituality,
We can illustrate and make it profoundly clear that there is nothing to be afraid of.
There's nothing to suffer about.
All this incredibly well.
And then we try and force ourselves into the image of that.
It's the great spiritual pretending.
When really,
If all of those things were true,
That there is nothing to fear,
All is well.
If that was actually true,
Then you would just relax into your most effortless naturalness.
Meaning,
If you were afraid,
You would allow yourself to be afraid.
If you were suffering,
You would meet your suffering.
You would allow yourself to finally be honest.
That is the liberation.
That is the great release.
To finally allow yourself to be,
Regardless of the season that's moving.
