How to stay grounded in the knowing everything is everything.
Not getting pulled back all the time into the learned false beliefs.
How to,
She asks.
How?
I invite you to ask a different question.
It's not a how-to question.
A how-to question is like saying,
How can I get control over something?
How can I exert my dominance or force over something,
Which isn't seeking what's true?
So maybe a more appropriate question that might actually lead to a flavor of progress is,
Why would I make it a priority to see the oneness in everything?
Why would I?
That is a question that invites a discernment of your level of devotion.
Let me put it this way.
The things that are pulling you away are the things you're fighting for in the mind,
Which are the things you think you want in the world.
Which is to also say,
Are the things you think you want more than the truth of life.
And therefore,
If something in you really thinks you want something more than you want the truth of life,
It's important that you get pulled away and go chase after those things so that you see for yourself,
It's not the answer.
And so if you're getting pulled away,
It's right on time.
You need to be pulled away.
Because you need to see for yourself that which pulls you away.
You see,
This is seeking to understand your experience rather than to get some form of control over your experience,
Which is to also embrace your experience,
Accept your experience that you get pulled away.
Because once you accept that that's the reality of it,
Okay,
Now let me seek to understand what's happening.
Why is this happening?
What is it that is so appealing over there in my judgments of other people,
In my arguments with other people,
In my worry about the future?
What's so important about that?
What's in it for me that is more important than being present or seeing what's true?
And there's again,
A beautiful humility in this.
And I really mean that,
Like this,
The whole foundation of this opening up is such a humble journey.
It's a beautiful contrast because that which pulls you away is a very arrogant journey,
Which is this life thing is all about me and what I want and me being right and other people being wrong.
Me getting what I want.
And the humility,
The humble heart in this journey is to deeply see just how much you don't really know.
And again,
That's just an expression of a beautiful truth.
Like,
For example,
Do you see that when you judge other people,
You think you know something that you don't really know?
And do you see the more you embrace the truth of just how much you don't know,
It becomes impossible to judge other people.
Do you see this?
So it's not about stop judging.
It's about see the truth of things you won't be able to judge.
What I'm saying is that at the absolute core and essence of what you crave most in this life,
Is a byproduct of the truth of things.
And therefore,
The more your heart is oriented through a devotion to the truth of things,
Then there is a natural byproduct of experiencing more of what your heart truly craves.
So in effect,
From one perspective,
Or my perspective,
And again,
Not that I see this in every moment of every day,
But what I see is such a little significance on everything that I think I want.
And that life in its totality is asking for my absolute devotion to the truth of things.
It's asking for my absolute devotion to see what's true,
Because life knows that's what I really want.
And so there's a surrendering of my life to that truth.
But also understand,
I'm living a human experience just like you.
So I can speak from a depth of honesty of what's seen in my heart,
But I'm still swimming through my own flavors of bullshit,
Just like you.
And that will happen until I die.
Because it's also a mechanism of learning.
It's a mechanism of expansion.
And that will always go on.
There's no end to that.
So there's no final payoff if you figure it out,
And there's no longer any work to be done.
The underlying theme throughout this whole journey,
It's been wild to witness,
Where it is a great unraveling of everything that I think I know,
And everything that I thought I knew just led to more judgment and the withholding of love.
And the more this,
What I think I know unravels,
The only thing that's left is God and an infinite supply of love.
And those are just silly words that in this moment seem to express what's in my heart,
But I can also understand how it makes no sense at all.
And the more I see that,
The more I become devoted.
And the more I abandon that,
The more I suffer.
It's a constant cycle of the most beautiful humility.
You know,
I hear these words come out of my mouth,
And it just fails completely in communicating what really wants to be said.
But it's like this whole life thing,
Not just my life,
But this whole life thing,
Is about the love of God.
And not about me at all,
This character I imagine myself to be,
That thinks it might be better than somebody else,
That thinks it's more important or less important than something else.
It's all just God.
And it's all held together by such a loving energy.
And it's a loving energy that loves what is.
But also that love of God doesn't give two shits about my imaginary sense of a separate self-importance.
Which is why it can often feel like God doesn't love me.
No,
God doesn't care about who you think you are.
God cares about the reality of what you are.
And so God has not created this life so that you could be better than somebody else,
So that you can prove yourself as being worthy of love from other people,
Right?
So that you can be worshipped by other people.
That's not why all of this is happening.
And to operate from that frame of reference,
That it's all about you,
Creates a life where it really looks like God doesn't like you.
Where it looks like you're being punished.
Where it looks like you're terribly inadequate.
Where it looks like you're broken.
Which is just another way of saying,
To live in your own version of hell.
