Welcome.
This meditation is for those moments when it feels like the world is falling apart and some part of you believes it's your job to fix it.
When the world says you're doing enough and you're amazing but inside you feel like you're falling short.
This is the space to rest,
Not to fix,
Not to prove,
Just to be.
So let's begin by letting go of trying and allowing this moment to hold you.
So we begin by just settling in,
Whatever that looks like and feels like for you.
Let your body find its own weight.
Let the chair or cushion carry you.
Just let gravity do the work.
You don't even need to hold your body up right now.
Just allow your body to be held.
And now just become aware of your breath.
But don't do anything with it.
No control,
No change.
Just watch it come and go.
Breathing in calm,
Breathing out relax.
Your body knows how to breathe.
We don't have to get involved.
Let it be wild or calm.
Let it be shallow or deep.
You're not here to fix your breath.
You're here to meet it.
To meet in this moment just as it is.
And let the body soften.
The jaw,
The hands,
The belly,
Even the thoughts.
Let them wander if they want.
There's nothing you need to do.
There's nothing you need to manage right now.
You are safe.
You are held.
And you are here.
Breathing in calm,
Breathing out relax.
And now bring your awareness to what some might call the small mind.
This is the thinking mind.
The surviving mind.
The part of you that wants to get things right.
The part that still feels like it has something to prove.
It might say I must do more.
I must not let them down.
And just notice it.
Feel the weight of it.
Not as a burden,
But as a sign of how deeply you care.
This small mind is not your enemy.
It's not wrong.
It's a child that never felt finished.
It's the part of you that longed to be enough.
And never quite believed it was.
Let it speak.
Let it ache.
And hold it gently.
No need to banish it.
It just wants to be heard.
Now feel beneath that.
Beneath the thoughts.
Beneath the emotions.
Beneath even the breath.
There is a space.
A stillness.
A presence that does not want because it already holds everything.
Some call it the big mind.
Or the heart mind.
Or just awareness itself.
It doesn't need applause.
It doesn't crave recognition.
It simply is.
It simply is.
Let yourself rest there.
Even if just for a moment.
Let yourself be the sky.
Not the clouds that pass through it.
Here is the paradox.
You are both.
You are the small mind that longs to change the world.
So it can finally feel whole.
And you are the vast heart that knows there is nothing to fix.
Nothing missing.
Nothing to chase.
And you,
You are the one that sees both.
The one that holds the tension.
The one that no longer needs to resolve the paradox.
Because you've learnt how to rest in it.
This is the middle.
You are the middle.
Say to yourself now gently.
I let the small mind ache.
I let the big mind open.
I do not need to choose.
I rest in the middle.
I let the small mind ache.
I let the big mind open.
I do not need to choose.
I rest in the middle.
There is no finish line.
No final moment of perfection.
There is no applause that will quiet the ache forever.
And yet you are enough.
Even now.
And let those words sink deep.
Let your body feel them.
Even if you never do another thing,
You are enough.
Breathe them in.
And breathe them out.
Let the fire of not enough burn.
Without feeding it,
Just sit beside it.
Like an old friend who no longer scares you.
Just sit in silence.
In stillness.
In the middle.
With those words.
You are enough.
And when you're ready,
Just gently deepen your breath.
Bring your awareness to this moment.
Wiggle your fingers and soften your gaze.
Return to the world,
Not with a task,
But with the truth.
You don't need to become.
You already are.
You are home.
And thank you for sitting.
And this is a wonderful meditation that recognizes the inner child,
Which I sit dearly with and feel like on so many occasions that I'm not enough,
No matter what I do.
No matter how many friends and people say how wonderful we are,
It just doesn't nourish and fill us.
And I think the greatest gift we can have is realizing that is enough.
We are whole.
And we find that wholeness in the space between.
The vastness of perfection.
The vastness of what is.
Of pure stillness.
And the ache and longing for wanting more.
There's that stillness in the middle.
Thank you for being with me today.
Thank you for sitting with me.
Thank you for being enough.
I'm Stephen Webb and thank you for supporting me.
Take care.
