Transform Old Patterns & Reprogram Your Subconscious Mind

This track was created to help you process the patterns you feel are affecting your current reality. You can use it when you feel triggered by someone or a specific situation, as the process will guide you on how to use your triggers to help you transform them and build a deeper connection with yourself and others. Increase your self-awareness, process your emotions, and break repetitive patterns of behavior so that you feel empowered and connect with your authentic nature.

Transcript

Hello and welcome to this transformational journey.

Take a comfortable seat,

Whether that's lying down or sitting on a chair or however you feel more relaxed.

When you're ready,

Close your eyes,

Take a deep breath in and as you exhale feel that you're just letting everything go.

As you're taking in another deep breath,

When you exhale feel all your muscles relaxing in this moment.

And now bring to your attention this reoccurring emotion that you have noticed and which appears again and again in your life.

Try to bring it into your awareness.

If you cannot pinpoint it exactly,

Maybe remember the repetitive situation that you're facing and in which you're feeling bothered or which keeps coming up for you and which you want to resolve.

And when you bring that situation in your mind,

Try to focus on yourself.

How does what is happening in this situation make you feel?

Is it an emotion,

A feeling or a sensation that is quite recognizable to you?

Do you feel it somewhere in your body?

Remember this last time,

The most recent time that you felt this way,

Experiencing those specific emotions or emotion and visualize a step into the picture of that scene as if you're stepping into this scenario,

In this situation,

This relationship or the place where you experienced that emotion.

See what is the strongest emotion that you're feeling in that scene,

What is the strong sensation that you're experiencing here?

When you find it,

Rate it on a scale from 1 to 10,

Least intense and 10 being the most intense.

Inside of your mind's eye,

Make this picture more true,

Clear and more alive.

Try to become aware of what it is that you're seeing,

What it is that you're hearing or feeling in that scene.

And now imagine that you're disassociating from yourself in that scene.

Imagine that you're taking a step back from yourself as if you're coming out of yourself in that specific place and you are now looking at you in front of you,

Standing there having this problem and feeling those emotions in that moment.

Imagine that you're starting to float and you float up and you go higher up.

At some point you go as high as you need to so that you can see that now this other version of yourself is down there and they feel that emotion.

So keep on rising until you're able to feel that you have completely removed yourself from that emotional state and you're just the observer who can now see that person down there feeling that way.

And now as you are up there,

Imagine as if you are on a timeline where in front of you is the future and behind you is the past.

And turn yourself around so that you face your past and start moving backwards at whatever pace and rhythm you need to.

And focus and try to find the last time before that scene that you just visited where you experienced this problem or this emotion.

So try to find the time before the scene that you felt in the same way that you experienced the same emotion.

How long ago was that?

Now still being on the timeline,

Keep moving further into the past and identify the time before the last one where you experienced the same emotion,

Where you felt in the same way.

Notice how long ago was this one and if it was the same emotional problem.

And now keep moving back into your past in this timeline,

A little bit further back and try to find the time before the last one that you visited.

Maybe find the one time in your past when that emotion was really strong.

Can you see if it is the same thing that is reoccurring?

Can you notice the similarities in all those events as if they have the same theme,

The same pattern?

Now move back a little bit further when this issue or emotion was very prominent.

Maybe try to find in your past the time when you first remember yourself feeling like this.

Maybe the circumstances are different or the same but your emotion,

The way that you experienced it would be the same or similar.

And if in one of your previous visits you felt that that was the earliest time that you experienced that emotion,

Then bring that to your awareness again.

Otherwise try to find the first time that you ever remember yourself experiencing this emotion.

If no memory comes up,

Bring to your awareness the emotion again and imagine your young child self in front of you feeling like that.

Trust whatever age comes to your mind.

Notice if anyone is there and maybe what is happening.

Can you also notice what it is that you were seeing,

What it is that you were hearing or feeling that was going on and how is this event,

If you have the memory,

Connected with that emotion?

For what reason did you feel that emotion in that scene?

Or if there is no scene,

Try to see what your child self has to say about why does this emotion exist there?

Which interpretation did you give about what was happening that caused you to feel that way?

What did you tell yourself that led you to feel in that way?

Now imagine that you are floating down to that scene and imagine that you go right down so that you are now standing behind this younger version of you.

Put your hands on this younger version of you's shoulders so that you can see what he or she is looking at,

So that you can feel what it is that they are feeling.

Maybe remember with more clarity what it is that they were trying to do.

What did they want?

When we are children our thinking is very simplistic and we make interpretations of the situations that happen around us in a black or white way of thinking.

So we might believe in those ages,

In relation to things that are happening,

That oh this is happening because I am not good enough or this must mean that something is wrong with me,

Otherwise it wouldn't happen.

Or this must mean that I am not loved,

That I am not worthy or that I am not safe.

Because as children we haven't yet developed a critical thinking in those ages.

So anything that happens is being taken in with very simplistic interpretation that we cannot possibly understand at that time.

And whether those interpretations do make sense or not,

It doesn't matter because they do form the basis of our subconscious for when we grow up.

So maybe try and see here what it is that that younger version of you believed about what was happening that made them feel that way.

What does what happened mean about them?

Imagine that you're kneeling down and you turn this younger version of you so that you're now looking at each other face to face.

Can you tell her or him what is something that they didn't know back then?

Something that you now know that they didn't know in that scene or at that time?

And something that never anyone told them?

Can you give them the acknowledgement that how they felt is valid and it matters and that it's okay that they felt that way?

Because now you're here for them to listen to them and to be here for them.

Can you now maybe also give them some guidance,

Some input that would mean that they don't have to pick up that emotion?

Now that you're here for them,

Since you came to find them and to listen to them,

You're here to listen to their needs because you want to protect them.

You're also here to show them your love and compassion to how they feel.

Maybe you can also explain to them that what happened in that scene or back then was also probably because the adults were also hurt inside of them and they were not aware that this was being caused due to their own conditioning and defenses.

If you find that the child version of you is a bit hesitant to listen to you,

It could be because they have felt abandoned before,

Because maybe they haven't been heard in a long time.

So they could be a bit unsure as to why you're here.

And if that's the case,

Ensure them that now you want to recreate this connection with them.

And now that you know you are here for them and you want to create this trust,

Because now they can talk to you whenever they feel like they have to share something,

When they need your attention.

Because now you are their parent,

So they can come to you for support.

Ask her or him what is it that they need from you.

It's okay to give them what it is that they need.

And tell them how much you love them and maybe give them a big hug.

And now associate yourself with this younger version of you.

Imagine you're stepping inside of them with this new understanding,

As if you now have become them.

And now reevaluate this entire situation from that perspective and see how things might have changed.

If there is one thing you could say to the people around you,

If there were any,

That you never said,

What would that be?

And if you don't feel like saying anything,

That's okay too.

Is the child version of you okay with this new outcome?

If not,

See what else he or she has to communicate with you.

And now disassociate yourself from her,

So you are now looking at each other and assure them that you will come back for them whenever they need you.

Give them a warm hug and say goodbye to them.

If they want to come with you,

Take them with you.

Otherwise,

They can just stay where they are.

You can always visit them or if they want to go anywhere else,

Let them go wherever they want to go.

Now start floating up again out of this whole situation and go higher up until you are back on the timeline.

Start moving forward towards the present but as you're floating on your way,

Look down at all those past events that you visited,

Where that emotion was before,

And look down to see how things might have changed in all those scenes.

Keep moving back until you finally move to the point of that scene that you initially started from.

When you do,

Lower yourself all the way down and step back into that original version of you,

With all those new lessons and understandings that you have now gained.

See if you feel any different in that scene as well.

Notice how your body feels in relation to that emotion,

If it has moved,

If it has changed or integrated.

Know that you can always return to this recording if you feel that there are even earlier memories that could be there.

Or you might even find that in the same scenes that you visited,

There could be different emotions attached to them.

But maybe now that you have lowered your trigger response to the emotion that you did this recording for,

Maybe another one has made itself more known because it's now ready to be integrated as well.

So you can visit the same scenes that could have additional emotions and you could even have different emotions for different scenes altogether.

So in general you can follow this process for whenever you feel any repetitive emotion in your life or situations that keep appearing and that you feel triggered towards them.

Whenever you're ready,

You can start returning yourself to the present moment.

Bring your awareness back to the room in which you're at and feel your body lying or sitting and start noticing any sounds around you.

And then when you're ready,

Open your eyes and return back.

Thank you for doing this meditation.

It will have a greater effect not only in your life but in the lives of those around you as well.