I don't need to be overwhelmed by the selfness that is associated with the soul.
It isn't about me.
It is about everything but I.
A soul in me that is as much a part of you as it is me.
That is as much nature as it is human.
That is everything.
Not contained in me but luminous.
Shining through my life.
It fuels true life.
Life that is not about what's and why's but about here and now.
It is a yes that never says no.
A door that is never locked in a garden that never stops growing.
I am blessed beyond belief.
We all are.
What a gift we share.
It keeps me going.
It isn't physical.
It is intangible.
Perhaps because there is no possible greed or pride alive within its presence.
So it cannot be materially collected and kept.
It has to be felt.
Therefore it must stem from connection.
Things will come and go.
My body will change and react to the physical as it will but this gift of my essence will never fade and will remain with me forever.
I do not fear sickness.
It is not me.
Therefore it is not a part of me but something that is existing within my physical body.
So it is not a threat.
I wish to move its presence out of my body and return it to the earth that it came from,
Transforming it from sickness to a triumphant relief.
A freedom from the cage that is illness.
Even if I am sick,
I do not wish to identify with it.
And I know that might sound strange but I feel that I will do what I need to in order to get better but I do not need to bring it into my emotional,
Mental and spiritual existences as well.
I am well because I am alive.
I am balancing myself to become grounded and steady within my life.
That is my goal.
Not health but balance.
Because if I can stay balanced,
I can exist in peace.
Where I do not let my emotions get to a violent place where they weigh on me and paralyze my authentic existence.
This is how the illness can take home in other parts of my life and hide me from the beautiful gift that is my essence in life.
I feel authentically allowing my emotions to purely exist and present themselves.
But I do not let the worry and uncertainty become an antagonist in my life.
These feelings are normal and won't hurt me.
So I greet them,
Hearing them out so that they do not need to get louder in order to get my attention.
Illness is a difficult thing.
At times it has caused me to question my own sanity.
But breath always brings me back home.
Above all I trust in the divine love of the universe and leave the control up to the greater power.
Balancing is a journey that we all are on together.
And so long as we are active on that journey by being mindful of our feelings within our bodies and souls.
We are doing it and moving forward.
To have a singular goal of health can be frustrating because there are so many ways that health can look because of the vastness of the human existence and body.
But balancing is a singular practice where it is just you.
Whatever feels good for you is what is right for you.
Some days you might need to take more water from one glass and pour it into another or vice versa in order to balance yourself out.
It will look different every day.
And that's the beauty of it.
No need for expectations or assumptions that often accompany the idea of a healthy lifestyle.
Because a balanced life depends solely on your own body.
So we can all be balanced together regardless of the state of our physical bodies which we cannot always control.
Leave that up to the doctors and the universe and commit to balancing ourselves.
If you are feeling like your ocean is empty and you might need some help to get started,
Take this metaphorical glass from me as a liquid of hope and love.
You are resilient.
You are life.
And you are filled with the most beautiful light.
Thank you for joining me today.
Until next time.
