In the healing journey,
In the transformational process,
In the spiritual awakening,
The self-development,
Self-realization,
Self-actualization,
Whatever you want to call it,
In this process,
It's hard.
And it can be very lonely and very isolating.
And a lot of the programming that we have been through,
A lot of the things that we've experienced in our lives,
Have led us to believe that we can't do it on our own.
That we need help.
And yes,
Of course,
Community,
So important.
Interpersonal relationships,
Connections,
All of this is so life-giving.
But when it comes from a place of needing to grasp,
To hold,
Or needing someone else to make us okay,
That's different.
So if you're ready to work on this,
This feeling of I need help,
I can't do it on my own,
I need help to begin,
I need help to get started,
I need help to move forward,
I need help to make it through,
I need help to save me,
Whatever yours is.
And you may know it.
You may be able to say,
I need help with this,
With that,
Or with these like 4,
000 things.
But the core of it,
What we have focused on in the past is I need that help.
What we're gonna work on is the need.
When we are in a state of need,
We are in a state of lack.
We are in a state of not enoughness.
So let's help support that.
Take a deep breath.
And we're gonna start to give you a little bit of like bumpers,
Like in bowling.
A little bit of help to get you gently supported back on track,
Feeling like,
Okay,
I can feel myself,
I can do this,
I can figure it out,
I got this,
All right,
I'm okay,
I'm okay.
So breathe.
And think about the concept of support,
Guidance.
You can even use the visual of the bumpers.
What would it feel like if you had that help?
What would it feel like if you had the support?
If someone or many someones,
As the case may be,
Were to come in and like hands in,
Show up for you,
Be there for you.
You have questions,
Like here's the help for it.
You need something,
Here's the direction,
Here's the guidance.
I want you to feel what that would feel like.
Not to save you,
Not to answer it all for you.
But what would it feel like if you just had the edges help?
Let your body feel heavy.
Let yourself be supported wherever you're seated,
Wherever you lay.
Feel the surface underneath you and feel how it's holding you.
Feel your body drop just a little more as if to say,
Okay,
Surface,
You're supporting me,
Support more of me.
Nice deep breath.
And tune in with your spine.
What does it feel like to you?
What does it feel like to notice the structure within you that's holding you,
That's letting you move,
Stand,
Walk,
Be active,
Be still?
Let it know you see it.
Even if there's pain or challenges,
Dysfunction,
Whatever is going on,
Let your spine know that you see it.
That you know it's been supporting you and you haven't been appreciating it for that.
Maybe just complaining when it acts up or when it doesn't do what you want it to do.
And I want you to think about the parts of you.
Let the memories rise up when you weren't appreciated.
When you were expected to carry the heavy load and no one saw you.
No one said thank you.
No one even noticed what you were doing.
All the times that you did the thing,
You gave the help,
You showed up,
You lifted,
You carried,
You held,
You scaffolded,
And no one saw you.
I want you to bring up the times as an adult to mind.
The times this happened recently.
And it happened when you were in the young adult stage,
The 20s.
What did those times look like?
How was your support not seen?
How was all the weight that you carried not heard,
Not heard,
Not held,
Taken for granted,
Misunderstood?
In the teenage years,
You carried a lot and no one knew.
Let yourself feel that burden.
Let yourself acknowledge and see what nobody else saw.
What nobody else even knew.
They didn't look for,
They didn't try to see,
They didn't care to see.
Let the energy move.
Just keep breathing.
You're doing so beautifully in a place that you didn't have support.
The preteen years,
11,
12,
13,
That transitional time.
How were you not supported?
How were you not held?
What help did you never get?
And what did you have to carry because of it?
What did you have to figure out and make sense of and help yourself,
Help others because you didn't have it?
Having to be the adult.
Having to guide and to do the things because no one else took that.
No one else showed up.
You were not enough.
Just let the last memories come up from childhood,
From 10 down,
From elementary school,
Kindergarten,
Preschool,
Wherever you were,
Whatever you were doing.
When did you do the work for others?
When did you support when you should have been supported?
Let the memories show you.
Let yourself breathe,
Let yourself cry,
Let yourself feel.
Just let them move through.
All the way back to birth.
What you didn't get as an infant.
What you needed.
So we're going to repattern that now.
Because guess what?
Someone just helped you.
Someone just saw you.
Someone just showed up for you in a way that no one else ever has.
They saw you as an adult.
They noticed when you were a young adult,
And a teenager,
And a kid.
And now they're seeing you.
What you needed as a baby that you never got.
They're seeing you.
And I want you to imagine the mirror that appears in this moment where you get to see yourself there.
Let yourself feel this.
Let the tears flow.
Let the energy move however that looks for you.
Because you just showed up for yourself.
You just helped yourself.
You just changed the pattern that said nobody's there for me.
Nobody's helping me.
I'm carrying it all on my own.
But you today,
You changed that.
You showed up.
You helped.
I want you to reach out to whatever age needs you the most.
Whether that is baby,
All the way up to you today.
And I want you to reach your arms out and hug the you from today backwards into the past that needs it the most.
The place that was the most painful.
That you needed the most help.
That you were the most left behind.
That you had to hold and carry and lift.
And you didn't have support.
I want you to hug that time,
That version,
That part of you.
And let them know you are here now.
You're not going anywhere.
You're here now.
You're not going anywhere.
And you can tell them anything they need to hear,
You need to say.
Or you can let the hug speak.
Hold them.
And feel yourself be held.
Feel someone see you at this time in your life that was the most alone,
The most unsupported,
The most that you had to fight to make it through.
And lift the heavy burden and survive the deepest darkness.
Let yourself be held by the you today,
Right now,
That can help you.
The you that has resources,
The you that has capacity and capability.
This is the you that you have become.
This is the help that you needed.
And this is you finally,
Finally receiving help.
Just breathe right here.
Stay in this space.
Stay in this place.
Feel the help.
Feel yourself receiving it finally.
And when you feel ready,
And not a moment before,
Slowly open your eyes and come back to the room.
