Today I am thinking about the feeling of anxiety,
That thing that we feel because of any type of fear of the future.
It's when I worry about something,
Some kind of result,
Something that I will achieve with an action or at some point of a situation.
It's that feeling of worrying about what is coming that brings me this anxiety.
To be anxious about something that doesn't exist,
The only place where it truly exists is in my mind.
It can actually be part of the collective mind because we think a lot of thoughts in a collective way.
So this thought that I think and that brings me this anxiety is actually an illusion.
It doesn't exist.
So it's something that I bring to myself.
It's something that I focus on and then what happens is I am focused on something that it's not real and it doesn't have to do with my reality.
But I am anxious because I am projecting that reality.
I am projecting that thought into the future.
And I am afraid that that thing that I'm thinking becomes true because I don't like it for some reason.
And this has a lot to do with the expectations that I have about myself in relationship to what I think the other people expect from me,
The society.
It's actually thinking about things that brings anxiety.
Because if I allow myself to be spontaneous and to be as much creative as I can and to let the energy really flow through me,
I don't get anxious because I am letting things just happen and I am trusting the universe.
I'm trusting myself.
I am trusting my life.
I am trusting my value.
I am validating myself at each moment.
So when I let it flow,
When I let everything just go with the flow,
I don't get anxious.
I actually allow myself to be happy,
To relax,
To chill out and to bring everything that is best in me to life.
But it's when I rationalize that creativity,
That action that I'm taking or the path I'm choosing,
It's when I bring logic to the things I am doing or expressing that I become anxious about it because I start to overthink on something.
And that can bring me anxiety because I will be focused on the mind instead of the heart.
I will be focused on the fear instead of love.
So because I am not fear,
I don't recognize it.
I become anxious because I'm focused on the fear.
I am focused on something that I am not.
And that's why I feel anxious because I start to believe that what I'm expressing,
What I'm creating,
What I am is not enough or is not something with value.
It's not what is supposed to be.
And that's why I become anxious about something.
So what I do is I become conscious about my anxiety.
I become conscious about my thoughts,
What actually caused my anxiety.
And I come back to myself.
I step away from fear.
And I come back to love.
I come back to where I was before thinking those thoughts.
I can actually remind myself of that particular moment in which I was in tune with my action,
With my choices,
With my energy,
With my creation,
With my expression.
So I can allow myself to come back to that and to recognize that the thoughts I had after that were not me,
Were not about me,
But actually about some sort of projection that my mind created and that I decided to focus on.
So coming back to me,
I actually allow myself to express my unique self in a spontaneous way.
And without rationalize it,
I can truly embrace the continuous results from that.
And this is the way to truly feel myself.
Because when I don't search for some sort of logic in what I'm doing,
Saying or feeling,
It's just me being me.
As long as I feel well with my consciousness,
Everything flows and everything is exactly in the right place at the right time.
And it's that particular moment in which I can truly feel no worries about the past,
No worries about the future,
Only joy at the present moment.
