Namaskaram,
Sadhguru.
I have been in the ashram for the first time for three days.
I have been here for a week.
Sometimes I feel more comfortable,
Sometimes I feel more uncomfortable.
Sometimes I feel like going home,
Sometimes I feel like staying here.
I feel so confused,
Please guide me what I want to do.
Generally,
It is like that for everyone.
So he is saying,
He is here for the second or third time and when he comes here,
He really wants to come here,
So he comes here.
But when he comes here,
Suddenly sometimes he struggles,
He wants to go back home.
When he is there,
Of course he wants to come here.
So I am saying him that this is not his problem.
This is a age-old problem.
Somebody is married for thirty years with eight children,
He is still thinking,
Maybe I made a mistake,
Maybe I should have walked the spiritual path.
This is not a new problem,
This is a very ancient problem.
So whatever you wish to do,
You must bring yourself to moment of joy and clarity within yourself.
At that moment what you decide,
Even if you die,
You must go by that.
Whenever your emotions go up and down,
Your mind says many things,
That's not important.
It says one thing today,
One thing in the morning,
One thing in the evening.
It says one thing today and another thing tomorrow,
That's of no consequence.
In the moment of clarity,
I am saying joy because when you are happy,
You are not compulsive.
When you are very happy and clear,
At that time if you look at things and see that,
Yes,
This is what is more sensible for me,
Just do that.
It doesn't matter if it feels like hell.
It doesn't matter.
You go through hell for ten years,
It doesn't matter,
You just do that because that's where your well-being is.
When you are in different states of compulsiveness,
If you make decisions as to which way to turn,
You will be endlessly lost.
It is not about what you are doing.
It is just that you are doing it in an unwavering way.
Every day you are off and on,
Off and on,
Doesn't happen.
You just… unwavering,
You have become unpointed.
It doesn't matter what it is.
If you want to be a butcher,
Be a butcher in an unwavering way,
It will open up.
Just not wavering for a moment.
What you have decided in a moment of clarity and joy,
Just sticking onto it without wavering a little bit,
Nobody can deny it to you.
Every day when your thoughts and emotions fly this way and that way,
You keep changing your mind,
Changing your mind,
Changing your mind,
You will go in circles,
Endlessly in circles because one who changes direction too often,
Obviously is not interested in going anywhere,
Isn't it?
You know,
This is… the world is round,
So which direction you go,
It doesn't matter.
As long as you go without changing direction,
You will make the journey,
Isn't it?
You will complete the journey,
Isn't it?
If you change your direction,
It will put you into an endless state of being lost,
Always lost.
So,
You want to be there?
Be there,
No problem.
You want to be here?
Be here.
Don't go on changing your mind every day,
Morning one way,
Evening another way.
You are a torture to yourself and everybody around you.
One who is constantly changing their mind is a torture to the himself and to everyone around,
Isn't it so?
In the… right now you are thinking tomorrow morning I'm going to do my yoga.
Tomorrow morning when the don… at five o'clock in the morning,
I hear it every day,
I don't know how many of you hear it.
The moment it goes down,
Maybe we should beat a drum.
Then your body says,
To hell with this yoga,
All I want to… It keeps changing,
Its priorities keep changing and changing and changing.
There is another way to live where the biggest joys that you have known in your life,
The greatest pleasures that you have known in your life will look like,
You know,
Will look like ants' pleasure.
This being is capable of that.
When it… when it comes to body and mind,
We are all differently capable,
No two bodies are equally capable,
No two minds are equally capable.
But when it comes to this being,
Every being is equally capable of containing the very existence within himself.
Scientists are saying it's ever expanding.
How to contain it?
That's the whole beauty of it.
That which is endless,
That which is eternal,
That which is boundless and that which is always expanding,
That can be contained in this being.
About that,
No two beings are differently capable,
Every being is equally capable.
It doesn't happen because you keep changing direction.
Wherever you find a little niche which is comfortable,
You try to settle down there.
Do you see every time for different situations that you get into,
Different states of comfort,
A discomfort you get into,
You develop a new logic?
Have you noticed this with yourself?
Like they say,
When you are a student,
Everybody is a communist.
The moment you come out of your education and get yourself a job,
You become a socialist.
The moment you get married,
You become a capitalist.
According to new situations,
Different levels of comfort or discomfort,
New levels of logic will come.
Now,
The world has come to a point where the Maoists have become capitalist,
That's it.
That is it,
You know.
So,
It keeps happening,
That's why in a certain moment of clarity and joy when you are there,
You look at something,
What you see is your well-being,
You stick to that.
Tomorrow it looks like horror to you,
It doesn't matter,
You stick to it.
It feels like hell,
You stick to it.
That's well-being.
If you keep shifting,
Nothing happens.
