Hello dear Cassie,
Thanks for sharing again.
Emotional times,
As you were sharing,
Not fully able to embrace that which seems to be hard,
Painful,
In life,
Difficult,
Hmm,
Yeah,
Right now a new timeless moment for us to tune in,
To soften,
Learning moment to moment that it's like this,
Life,
Sometimes can be experienced as truly impossible,
Very painful,
The tendency to run away from painful feelings,
All is well,
I feel,
Also running away,
Distracting ourselves,
Krishnadas is sharing so beautifully about these topics,
It's ok,
He says,
It's ok if you distract yourself for a week or two,
At some point you'll notice that this also will shift.
Being kind to ourselves in that sense,
Letting it all be at times,
I feel is very helpful,
Not being too hard,
And also witnessing life more from a distance,
Opening up to this beautiful possibility to no longer feel so identified as being this person,
By softening moment to moment,
Silence,
Noticing,
Silence,
Ahh,
Resting,
And then maybe being frustrated again,
This morning I was pretty frustrated,
Angry even,
Out of the blue it felt,
Noticing this,
Noticing the unexpected feelings that come up sometimes,
And choosing to listen after those moments to my teachers,
My teachings,
And now,
Ahh,
Settling down,
Tuning in with you,
Kesi,
And immediately gratitude is arising,
Noticing the beauty,
How life connected us,
How we somehow learn from each other,
How we,
When we sit down,
Take the time to share,
And as soon as we do so,
I feel,
Ahh,
That my whole body mind system is settling down,
Such a joy,
Even when these stormy feelings are still palpable,
Even when thoughts arise that why did you get angry,
Or why did you do this Ruben,
How come you were not clear in that moment,
Or maybe in your case Kesi,
Why am I not able to fully embrace all that feels so painful,
Why am I distracting myself,
Learning from this,
Learning to be kind to ourselves,
Learning to not punish ourselves over and over,
Maybe we've done this enough,
Tuning into this spacious,
Loving,
Non-personal awareness again,
Right now,
Following the breath for some time,
Also very helpful,
Sensations in the body,
The belly,
I am okay,
All is well,
I allow myself to fully soften,
It's okay to distract myself at times,
To not practice,
To not meditate,
To feel doubtful or depressed,
It's all okay,
May I be well,
May I be happy,
Let's repeat this Kesi,
And you that might be listening right now,
Let's repeat this within ourselves,
May I be well on the in-breath,
May I be well on the out-breath,
Once again on the in-breath,
May I be well,
May I be happy,
And when thoughts arise again,
Just let them be,
They come up,
They will vanish again,
And you beyond the feeling of being this person,
You are already fulfilled,
Fulfilled,
Complete,
Quiet,
Unchanging,
Maybe you can sense this right now,
Something,
Wow,
These words are entering your consciousness,
Something isn't changing,
Not at all,
Something is totally stable,
When memories arise,
Feelings,
Feelings of guilt,
Doubt,
Something within all these mysterious experiences is untouched,
Isn't moving,
Isn't asking anything,
We could say we,
In our essence,
Are never demanding anything,
We are already fine,
Complete,
Fulfilled,
And tapping into this,
While experiencing difficult moments in life,
Can truly be helpful,
And it might not take away the feeling of suffering immediately,
This is also fine,
Returning to the practice is always helpful,
Kind of entering the silence,
That which doesn't move,
That which is so soft,
Moment to moment,
Timelessly so,
Softening,
Being kind,
May I be well,
May I be happy,
May all beings be well and happy,
Safe and free from suffering,
These words came to me through Achanachalo,
A Theravada Buddhist monk,
I might have shared about this before,
Sometimes it can also be helpful when life seems to be very difficult,
To tune in to the teachers that you resonate with,
I feel all my teachers are there for me always,
This is going beyond the physical expression,
One more thing,
Cassie,
That is now arising,
That was quite helpful and still is sometimes very helpful for me to repeat some words that I heard some time ago,
Sort of a mantra,
Please help me God,
My boat is so small,
Your ocean so immense,
Please help me God,
My boat is so small,
Your ocean so immense,
Maybe you already heard this before,
Repeating this in my own experience can be really magical even,
Very soothing,
Please help me God,
My boat is so small,
Your ocean so immense,
Opening up for something bigger,
So to speak,
And for some this might be in a religious way,
For some it might be a pointer pointing to that which is beyond belief,
I'm wishing you a beautiful soft day,
Cassie,
Thanks again for responding,
Connecting,
And if you're listening right now,
You too,
Thank you for being here,
For exploring life,
Thank you for allowing yourself to soften,
Or at least trying,
All we can do,
Our best to live this life in a way that is clear and soft,
Warm and loving,
Being as kind as possible for ourselves at first,
And most likely automatically towards others,
When being kind to ourselves,
Thank you,
And wishing you all well,
Bye Cassie,
Until the next timeless moment,
Somewhere in between the Netherlands and Australia,
I would say,
Much love to you,
Bye.
