What Clearing Fear Feels Like

Premasudha describes the story of a person in the process of clearing fear of lack. It was a complex tale including lakefront property and family history with her two sons. The seeker experienced sleepless nights and heightened emotional turmoil but had finally begun to come to a bigger self- understanding.

The secret is learning not to fight the fear or upset (which will make fear bigger) but instead, observe the whole situation and your own responses by metaphorically taking a photo of it.

Over the next few weeks, Premasudha says that this seeker would extinguish some fear of lack and also move into more true non-attachment with her two sons.

Maybe that outcome is worth a little, temporary emotional intensity.

Premasudha warned that sometimes when we are clearing ego, we can feel worthless and want to give up. Don't! Just keep going. And enjoy life on the other side of such episodes, feeling lighter, clearer, more loving and yet more non-attached.

Transcript

Blessings.

Blessings,

All of you.

Yeah.

Blessings.

Welcome.

Welcome to our heart space that belongs to all of us,

As well as the Creator.

Ma.

Right.

We're bringing the space in our hearts.

We're opening to allow our hearts to be filled up with grace,

With Creator's love,

With our soul's love for us,

Alma's love for us.

May it become easier and easier for your hearts to open to grace.

Maybe a little bit more every day.

It all adds up.

It all adds up.

Yeah.

Please don't judge yourself.

Yeah.

Just a little bit every day.

I'm just feeling as if and honoring,

You know,

Whenever those of us on the earth plane,

You know,

Stop and open to light and love and stop and remember the divine.

You know,

It's all the angels and our souls are so happy.

I'm really feeling this.

I mean,

I can see it.

Yeah.

And,

You know,

This is what happens.

The more you go on the journey,

The more subtle your perceptions become and the more data you get that it's true,

That the spiritual journey is true and that love is the source of all and it holds you and you're safe here on earth.

Yeah.

Asking for help,

Asking for guidance,

Seeking to be more and more pure.

Okay.

So it is.

Yeah.

So one of the things that really helps the journey is when we really get to the point where we accept hardship,

Difficulty.

We even accept seeing our own withholds.

We just get,

This is the process.

You know,

It's not like a chocolate box.

It's,

It's,

I've said a million times,

It's like pregnancy and birth.

Yeah.

And to all the guys,

You know,

You've been women and other wives,

So you will,

You have it within you,

The knowledge of what I'm talking about.

Yeah.

So it's like the sooner we just give up on like trying to fix our lives and trying to fix it here on the earth plane.

And we just,

You know,

Surrender to the fact that we're here and we're here to be here and to do something,

Whatever it is to,

You know,

Somehow express this light within us.

If we just accept it,

A whole bunch of rules,

Regulations,

Beliefs,

Kind of a feeling of responsibility will just fall away.

It just falls off your shoulders.

You just see that it doesn't matter.

All that matters is you being here and expressing your true nature.

And,

You know,

A lot of Prama Sutta's work right now is the emphasis on helping all of you feel more and safe on the journey.

And,

You know,

And at some point,

We have to get that we have to go.

Okay.

Yeah,

It's time to,

It's time for me to like go to school.

No,

A mom sends a kid off to school and there's no rush.

No rush.

Some of you,

But the journey,

You're like a kid,

You know,

Going to school.

I understand this,

But we're here.

Oh,

You know,

So,

You know,

It's really like the,

You know,

Getting over ourselves,

You know,

Prama Sutta had to get over herself a lot.

There's no rush.

There's no rush.

You'll just feel a lot freer when you do it.

You'll feel lighter.

You'll feel happier.

You'll be stronger.

You'll be more lit.

Yeah.

Right.

You know,

The,

I don't even know if we have homing pigeons anymore,

But during the war,

These homing pigeons carried messages in the army for the people,

And they'd go many,

Many miles,

Even through gun,

Gunfire,

And they would bring the message.

There were very,

It's probably World War I,

Mostly.

I don't know if they used them in World War II.

It was very dependable,

These homing pigeons.

So,

It's like there's a homing pigeon in your heart for your return to the creator.

Yeah.

Right.

Right.

Your heart knows how to get you back to the creator.

Your heart knows what you're here to do,

What you're here to learn.

Yeah.

It's in you.

It's like,

You know,

Our true north.

It's like the North Pole.

It's like every magnet.

Well,

You know,

The north,

It shows.

I mean,

If you're lost,

It is the most dependable thing,

The north.

Same with us on our journeys.

You guys,

When you feel really light and really good in a fulfilled way,

You're on the right track.

Yeah.

You'll know.

I'm not talking about kind of a phony feel-good.

I'm talking about a really deep,

Meaningful feel-good where you really know that you're getting it more and that you're,

That comprehension is dawning within you.

It's like,

That is what happens.

Comprehension dawns in you.

It's sort of like you get dawn breaking over your true north.

Yeah.

There's no rush and there's no judgment.

But just remember that the love and the words coming to you will help carry you in the right direction.

Right?

It's how it works.

You know,

Grace pulls out all stops for us,

If we're sincere.

It will.

Grace will find us at the earth,

40 feet underground,

Surrounded by cement.

Grace will find us if we're sincere.

I'm not kidding.

I'm really not kidding.

We can be so deluded.

And if we're sincere,

We will be shown.

It's that sincerity of the heart,

The true north.

And it's wordless,

Absolutely wordless.

And if we feel that our true north isn't 100%,

If we're not 100% sincere,

Just ask for mercy.

Ask for mercy.

It's that beautiful step that Michelle pointed out.

If we can't have compassion for ourselves,

We can have just have mercy.

Right.

It's all okay.

It's an unfolding.

Is a flower wrong for beginning to unfold?

It's not in full bloom yet.

But is it wrong?

Come on,

You guys.

Is a flower wrong for being a bud?

But please,

Like these carters who are like squirting,

Bud,

You're just a bud.

What's the matter with you?

It's like,

This is what we're like.

Yeah,

Please,

You guys.

Watch yourself do that.

You know,

The disembodied expert that's instructing you to death is,

If you look,

The foundation,

It has a very insecure,

Weak foundation.

And the love in your heart can topple it.

You don't need it.

This disembodied expert that criticizes you is just the voice of alienation.

It's like the loud speaker of alienated culture.

And it's just,

You know,

It's just,

It's nonsense.

It's absolutely nonsense,

You guys.

You know,

It's sort of like some of the advice that comes over the internet,

You know.

It's just nonsense.

It's the same with our,

You know,

That disembodied expert within us criticizing us on our journey.

So please,

Pull up the roots.

You can even imagine pulling up the roots of this thing,

Giving it over.

Who needs it,

You know?

Right.

I want to talk about deepening.

And there's a level that this is,

You know,

High level work,

What I'm going to describe.

And some of you are actually doing it already.

And you think that you've got it wrong and that you're making a big mistake.

I want to talk about when fear clears.

You know,

We all,

We're all carrying levels of fear.

And,

You know,

There are about seven brands of fear that people carry.

There's a kind of fear of change,

Fear of vulnerability,

Fear of lack,

Which is,

It's a greed.

And it's very common in our culture.

There's a fear of missing something.

It makes people very impatient.

Very impatient.

Yeah.

So all of us on the journey will feel the impact of the fear we're carrying.

And we'll notice that it makes us miss the mark.

I want to talk about how it's cleared.

Now,

It's nothing.

It can be forced.

It shouldn't be forced.

It shouldn't be rushed.

Don't go after this.

Don't go.

Okay,

I want to clear my fear.

Okay.

You know,

Give it to me,

Universe.

Don't do that.

Don't.

It will come when you're ready.

And it will come,

You know,

As your sincerity and deep commitment to the journey brings it,

Brings the clearing.

And it will come when you're ready.

But I just want to spell it out because so many seekers go into,

I'm doing it wrong.

I'm bad.

And it's this where fear can grab us and take us,

Keep us in that shame and humiliation.

And I don't,

I don't,

I'm really hoping to support you coming out of that.

Okay.

So I'm going to give you a story about how,

A fear story about how somebody went through something.

And as we spoke,

And she was talking about it,

Because she,

She called me about it.

She removed some very thick veils around her body.

Yeah,

And they would have come off her psyche,

They would have come off her physiology,

They would be,

It would be lifting all over.

So the story is someone here in Canada,

And they,

They bought a cottage,

They wanted a cottage on a lake for a long time.

Now in British Columbia,

If you go far enough from Vancouver,

Especially in this economic climate,

You can get,

You know,

A little cabin for not that much money,

If you're far enough from Vancouver.

And so it had been a dream of hers for a long time to have like a cabin near water,

By the water.

So she and her two grown up sons went,

You know,

Driving around BC looking,

And they,

They found this property,

And there was also a well,

And it was enough that they could also,

You know,

Grow food,

Which was also part of a consideration.

And she,

She had trouble with her car,

Right at the property,

Something went wrong with her car,

And it had to be fixed.

And she wondered if that was an omen or not.

But she'd been thinking about buying property for a long time.

And even though there was this kind of omen,

She wasn't 100% sure,

And it would take a lot of her money.

She's an older woman,

So it would be,

You know,

It's for her retirement.

And she felt like,

Gosh,

I shouldn't,

But some part of her went ahead,

And she bought it.

And afterwards,

She went into a really,

Really difficult time.

And it was all about,

But she was going to be unsafe in her retirement,

With the amount of money that she had left.

And it was all about concern for her two sons,

Who will,

Who were going to be also clearing the property.

So she had the feeling of,

Oh,

There's going to be an accident.

And,

You know,

She went,

Like,

I should have listened to this about the car.

It was so clear not to buy it.

She was in great distress over this,

Like,

Really,

Really heavy,

Couldn't sleep,

You know,

Walking around the house,

Really distressed.

Okay,

Now that,

The level of distress,

That is what happens when we're clearing fear in a big way.

It feels just like that.

And there will be a storyline,

Just like what she had.

And in her case,

There's a fear of lack,

Fear of not having enough,

And it's quite strong in her.

Now,

In a negative way,

You could call it greed.

But,

You know,

I mean,

Some people like buy,

Like,

You know,

They go overboard with it.

Like hers,

It's like,

You know,

It's not extreme.

It's just a fear of never having enough.

No matter how much money she ever had,

There was always this feeling that it's not enough.

And it made her very,

Very kind of tight over her life,

Like,

Very,

Very thrifty,

Which is also a good thing.

It's like,

There's nothing bad,

You guys.

And she also,

In this,

She had some guilt running about how she was with her children in the early years.

Okay,

Let's see.

So,

It was a big stew,

And she was really stewing.

But I want you to understand,

Like,

She was upset on all these levels,

The physical level,

Concern for her boys with her grown sons being,

You know,

Caught under a falling tree or something,

And also guilt about the early years.

This is what it is like when we're clearing fear in a big way.

Okay.

So,

She reached out to me,

Which is unusual,

Which is quite a proud woman.

And I said,

Yeah,

Let's talk,

Because Premasudha knows this stuff,

Like,

The palm of her hand,

Believe me.

And so,

We spoke.

And,

You know,

As I spoke,

As we spoke,

The data I was getting was that,

You know,

The problem with her car might not have indicated that it was a bad thing to buy the property.

It was also kind of,

Maybe it was a reflection of that she was,

That she needed to do some deep inner changes in her own body,

Her own vehicle for the spiritual journey.

Yeah.

You know,

So there's always this ambiguity.

You know,

We've got to keep our minds open to all the possibilities.

And,

You know,

As we talked,

Really,

She had plenty of money.

I didn't think she had to worry about whether she had money for her retirement.

It was like,

Seemed fine to me.

Yeah.

And as we were talking,

Too,

I got,

Like,

It wasn't necessarily a bad thing that she got the property.

Like,

It didn't feel like a terrible mistake.

It felt like she should just be with it and see how it felt.

Like,

As this,

You know,

The clanging and the noise of all this fear was clearing,

That what would happen was it would gradually,

She'd gradually become calmer and know what to do,

Like whether to sell the property or not.

But,

You know,

She was meant to sell the property.

It would become clear and it would turn into a lesson of,

Yeah,

I don't have to grab at things.

You know,

But maybe it was a good thing she got the property for,

You know,

Inheritance,

Whatever,

For the kids.

And maybe after this,

She'd have,

Her body would be clear of light,

Would be clear of fur,

Animal,

Clear of fear.

You know,

I said fur.

It's like our mammalian nature.

Like,

We need our caves.

So,

There's always going to be a little bit of concern about the physical safety until really you get really,

Really high.

And then it really kind of nullifies.

Right,

So she's,

So at the end of her conversation,

What happened was these veils around her body,

You know,

When you,

With the,

When,

You know,

Somebody's hit by a car or something and they outline the body on the street with white,

It was like this whole outline of her body,

She was taking it off like a sweater and it was a whole level of resistance to receiving grace,

A whole level of resistance to the creator that she was letting go of.

Now,

Premasutra was so glad that she reached out because this is easier to clear,

You know,

With,

You know,

It's like Amma's hug.

When you get a hug,

It's like you,

You take it all up to Amma and when you,

After the hug,

You just feel better,

Even though nothing's really changed in the outside world,

But you,

You feel better because you let it go.

Right,

Okay,

It's interesting.

I'm feeling like some of you are feeling the outlines around your body.

If you're feeling that,

It's just coming up to be clear.

Don't worry,

Even just hearing these words is helping to dislodge this material,

Even a little bit.

Oh,

It's all good.

It's okay.

I'm seeing more light come in now.

Good.

Yeah,

We can't manage our journeys.

Okay,

This can be really hard for Westerners.

We're used to managing.

It does not work.

We're witnessing.

You witness.

That's what you do.

You witness.

It's all you can do.

Witness.

And as you witness,

The fear clears.

But some of this,

Some of you,

You know,

Are ready for this and some of you need more time.

Don't worry.

Just,

Just let it be bathed in the love that all this is coming from,

You know.

The reason I'm spelling it out is because it is totally possible to go into one of these fear things and kind of hold on to that stuff.

Hold on to it.

Hold on to,

Oh,

I've made a big mistake.

You know,

All this stuff.

And stay in that pain.

I mean,

We can actually even hold on to our fear.

Yeah.

So,

This is,

This is why Premasood is really interested in shining a light on the lived journey.

So,

We know what the territory is like.

When you,

You know,

You don't get surprised.

Right.

And you're perfect as you are.

You're perfect in your imperfections.

Truly.

You know,

I've heard,

I don't know,

But I've heard that our lives are set in motion by the creator giving us one vasana.

So,

We come out as,

We start off as like Buddhas,

Right?

Now,

If we stay as Buddhas,

We're just going to go through our life cycle as Buddha.

Like,

That's not the point.

So,

The creator,

I've heard,

Gives us one vasana,

One pattern,

Whatever it is.

One negative thing.

I don't know.

Well,

Let's talk about greed.

Why don't we say it makes us just a little bit greedy.

So,

The next,

So that life we live and,

And we,

We get,

We contaminate ourselves with this greed that we're running.

So,

Then we go the next life and we contaminate ourselves more with the greed that we're running.

Maybe we add other vasanas.

And finally,

We get so covered with this stuff that we turn to the creator.

This is how it goes,

You guys.

And we go,

Please help.

And the creator goes,

Yay.

Our souls go,

Yay.

We can start the resurrection.

We can start the journey home,

The journey off the earth plane.

Yeah.

So,

We come here to get covered with dirt,

You guys.

And then we come to allow it to be lifted from us and our souls grow from the experience.

And Amma says that,

You know,

The earth plane experience is rated so high,

It's like Ivy League.

It's like getting a degree from,

From Harvard or somewhere.

Oh,

You've been on earth.

Oh,

Wow.

It's like,

And this makes total sense to me.

It's like,

Yeah.

Who in their right mind would choose it?

But we did.

And we came here to grow.

But it's all just like a bit of a joke,

You know,

Underneath.

You know,

I read some or heard some sage saying that from heaven's point of view,

Even the absolute worst experience on earth was kind of equivalent to like a bad,

A rough night in a kind of a,

Not a good hotel.

Right.

Yeah.

Right.

Right.

Right.

We're in a theater,

You guys.

We're on our,

We're on stage in our own,

In the drama created by our minds.

And we're the hero.

Everything that happens to us is just created by our minds.

It's like,

Think of our mind being like the playwright.

Right.

And we're the ego playing this.

And the playwright has written all kinds of opportunities for the protagonist to allow change,

To open to something different,

To get past themselves,

To get over themselves,

To open to grace.

And our play in this theater is,

How much could we do that in the course of our lives?

That's it,

You guys.

Or,

And this is the worst thing we can do,

Do we go through this play and we actually make the vasanas and the fears bigger,

Which is,

Which can happen.

Yeah.

I mean,

That is what the normal asleep person is doing.

They're actually making their,

The garbage pile bigger.

And they don't know it,

Like they're the tragic figure,

Really,

Because they don't realize what they're doing.

You know,

There's,

I've often heard,

I mean,

I've heard this so much,

The spiritual journey is not logical.

And my experience is,

It's profoundly logical.

You just have to have,

Allow your mind to expand.

And then you see the logic.

It's like,

Karma is very logical.

You act badly,

You get bad karma.

It's very logical.

It's just,

It's just,

You know,

The spiritual journey isn't logical to our ego minds,

To our ego-driven intellects.

Okay,

So here's a beautiful example that we're doing right now on the earth.

So,

We know early childhood is a really important time.

So,

The prevailing consciousness is make a lot of money and have,

You know,

Have a home,

Get a home to,

To provide safety for your family.

It's like all good.

So,

Maybe somebody goes back to work after three,

Three weeks.

When in ancient times,

Children were carried on the mother for like two years,

And they had a village,

And they grew up like with that early bonding.

And Gandhi says,

If you take care of the early bonding,

Most of our social problems would disappear.

Because you'd have whole healthy people operating from their hearts,

As well as their minds.

Okay,

So,

So it seems maybe not logical to not do that.

To,

You know,

Maybe you need money,

But you,

You,

You,

You know,

You just,

You just feel like you just want to be there for your children in their early years.

And you,

You know,

It seems not very logical.

Like you're losing you're,

You're losing your career path.

You know,

You're,

You may never get high again.

You know,

You're,

You're going to be more hostage to your husband,

To the owner,

Or to the whoever earns the money.

It's a little more delicate,

It's harder.

Hopefully,

He doesn't use power,

Doesn't use economic power.

You know,

You're,

You're putting yourself in a vulnerable situation.

I mean,

It doesn't seem logical.

But on the other hand,

If,

If the early years with the child,

The child emerges bonded,

Well bonded,

Safe,

Without trauma,

Then it's very logical.

It's like that whole child will have an easier time their whole life.

We just have to expand our minds to see the logic.

Same with the journey.

No,

No,

I'm feeling you guys,

You're very beautiful.

It's like,

It's like the feels like the universe wants to soothe you.

Yeah,

To soothe you with this.

Yeah,

I'm seeing the picture I got was a whole bunch of little birds that weren't quite ready to fly yet.

They were in the nest.

But just with what I was saying,

It was like they were,

It was upsetting them,

They were flapping around a bit.

Like,

Even though they couldn't fly,

It's like,

Just soothing,

Soothing.

Yeah,

Soothing.

It's okay.

You get brought to this understanding.

You will get brought to it.

It's like,

You know,

Even last night,

Premasuddha had a dream.

And something was cleared in the dream.

Yeah.

So like,

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah,

Sometimes Premasuddha will dream about like how to help,

Help you guys.

And it was a dream about how to get closer and be more helpful.

And the,

The results of it were this morning,

This morning,

I felt closer to,

I felt wonderful.

Yeah.

Like,

Like a soaring bird.

Yeah.

Yeah.

These,

All this stuff is just,

You know,

Let it wash over you.

Let it wash over you.

It's,

You know,

I can't help but speak.

Like,

Sometimes at an advanced level,

They're,

They're all,

You're all,

All over the place.

But it's sort of like,

Just hearing it will help,

Even if it takes a bit of time to get there.

Don't worry.

Yeah.

Right.

It's just like little kids hearing stories about adventures,

You know,

They're not,

They haven't left home yet,

But it's helping to prepare them for their adventures.

It's okay.

And we're,

We're getting a big rise in vibration.

And I don't know if you guys are feeling it,

Even just on the earth plane,

There's a big,

Energetic shift that's being made.

Well,

We're starting to vibrate in a higher way.

Remember,

The creator is doing all of it.

Please,

We just witness.

It's all you're doing,

Really,

Just witness,

You go along and witness.

So,

You know,

With a spiritual teacher,

They witness,

And then their heart might go out to somebody.

And the fact their heart goes out to somebody actually communicates soul energy to them and helps them make a shift.

It's just,

That's why teachers talk about it's silence.

The answer is silence.

It's all done in silence.

The creator's silence.

And a teacher might feel a very human compassion and almost an angst for somebody,

But on a,

They also understand that a person's really safe,

And it's all okay.

It's just like watching children go through their struggles.

So,

It will take this woman I've talked about several weeks for all the reverberations to clear and for her to realize that she's more in the light than she's carrying less fear.

But everybody will notice it,

Everybody around her.

And the danger of these periods is just sometimes the,

Right in the middle of it,

When with all the reverberations,

The,

You know,

You start feeling like,

Oh,

You're never going to get it,

You're a miserable sinner,

And the temptation can be to roll around in the crowd.

It's very human,

But it's not Dharmic.

It's not,

It's not,

It's not the best.

So,

One of the things that would happen to Prama Sutta is I would start seeing the cost of me rolling around in it.

I would see it very quickly.

I would see it in my children,

And I would stop.

I would go,

Okay.

I'm getting up again.

I'm going to climb again.

Right.

You're good enough.

It takes some strength to focus on the creator and to live in truth when the whole culture is going another way.

But,

You know,

In times where things are falling apart,

It becomes obvious that it's safest to do this.

Because the culture's just not very safe.

Yep.

So,

That's the good news about difficult times.

Yeah.

You know,

The creator's not communicated through words.

I mean,

Sort of.

I mean,

Words can be very close to silence.

But,

I'm feeling the gap between what I'm wanting to communicate to you and the limitations of the words.

Right.

So,

Maybe we can just all open our hearts a bit more.

Yeah.

Yeah.

That's it.

It's very beautiful.

Alma says the creator sees every tear.

It's one of our tears.

It's every,

You know,

Wish to do good in our lives.

Every struggle.

Every step forward.

You know,

Our souls,

The creator sees it all.

And we're always accompanied.

It's just,

You see,

Before self-realization,

You don't know that because your body is carrying these veils.

But,

After self-realization,

Just know that you're accompanied.

You are.

It's like I said,

The swaddle.

You feel like a baby swaddled.

And that's why there's nothing.

You don't get disturbed.

Well,

There's something funny going on.

It's like,

Speaking all this to help reassure you,

But it's not.

It's sort of like,

I don't know what's running.

It's either,

Oh,

I'll never get there.

Or maybe that's not true.

Or the gap between where you are and being a swaddled baby feels intense.

Yeah.

And let it feel intense.

It's,

You know,

I sort of wrote a story once about a guy who made shoes to create spiritual masters.

And the shoes he made hurt the person right where their ego was.

So,

They walked around in these shoes and they were painful,

Just like our lives are painful.

When we're,

You know,

Stuck in our egos,

We feel cut off and lonesome.

And this shoemaker,

He was kind of a magic shoemaker because as people felt the pain of how the shoes didn't fit their feet,

Things altered.

And they became more and more true to themselves.

Because the pain of not being true to themselves,

The pain of walking around in this ego,

Made it seem less scary to flow with the creator than to continue such an alienated life.

And then,

But when the person really achieved union with the creator within them,

The shoes fit perfectly.

So,

This is what,

Like,

Where I like our lives,

They hurt,

You know,

To the extent we're out of alignment.

But if we celebrate this hurt,

You guys,

I don't mean in a masochistic way.

I just mean in,

This is the gig.

And use the pain to bring about a surrender to more truth.

Don't hold on to the prickles.

Let the prickles,

The pain of your prickles,

Bring you into increased yearning and longing for the creator.

All of you can do that.

All of you can do that.

It's like an open,

You know,

Those houses,

Those houses,

Well,

They'll have like,

There's like no wall to the outside world.

They'll have like sliding doors between them and their garden.

So,

It's just the doors,

You know,

Pull back and all of a sudden they're in the garden,

Really.

It's like we can come out of our egos more than you realize.

We make different choices and they help us out of our ego.

We'll make a choice,

You know,

Even if our thoughts are really negative one day.

And finally,

Like we get like,

I just don't want to think like this anymore.

And we start,

You know,

Observing our thoughts with more oomph.

And we,

Not in a forcing way,

Just gently,

Gently,

Gently,

Steering towards more constructive thought.

It's like that.

You guys,

Your upset is your best fuel.

Being upset can give you a fuel to oomph,

To surrender.

That is the point of it.

That's the point of it.

Not to hold on to the upset and make bigger storylines about it or feel sorry for ourselves.

It's to feel the upset and give it over.

Who needs this?

It's like walking around in shoes that don't fit.

Give it over.

Oh,

And I'm hearing somebody is saying,

I know who it is.

I don't know if they're aware of it,

But they're saying,

But if I do that,

Then I'd have to be silent.

It means I'd have to go into the silence.

I'd have to feel the silence within,

And I don't want to do that.

Okay,

This is where you see Premasutha has done so much work with her subconscious that with you guys,

I hear stuff that's in your subconscious,

And it speaks to me as part of the clearing to help you clear.

Yeah,

And the person who's doing this has gone very stony.

They probably know who they are.

It's not a bad thing.

It's just,

This is what our egos are like.

So,

Even this coming up in the group will be helping to just weaken all the withholds,

You know,

Because if we stop believing our withholds,

It's easier to be free.

See,

The ego will tell us that our withholds and our outlook is real.

It's reality,

And it's not.

It's this play that's going on in this theater,

Full of sound and fury and signifying nothing,

Right,

Like Shakespeare says.

Really,

And we think it's so true,

And it's like,

Yeah.

Some of you are very cautious about the silence within,

But it's a thing that will save you,

And it's why you come to the satsangs,

You know.

Yeah,

And just take your time,

Patience.

Don't try to fix it.

Don't try to fix it.

Just laugh,

Really,

Just ha ha ha,

Because we can't fix these things.

We just have to patiently wait,

Just like,

You know,

A child who's being difficult.

Just stay patient,

You know,

Like a little child who's being difficult.

Patience,

Right.

Okay,

Good.

So,

Interesting.

The person who I've been speaking about has just accepted that they can be patient with themselves,

And that's saving them.

Yep.

I wonder if you know who you are.

If,

You know,

After the satsang,

You're just a little freer of your storyline,

You know.

I mean,

A little more,

And maybe it's not really real.

Maybe I'm just really making this thing up,

But you see,

It's your complexes.

It's coming from complexes,

And from other lives,

And patterns in other lives,

So it seems real,

But it's not.

That's it.

That's it.

I feel a lot of grace coming to you.

I'm feeling some deep movement in some of you.

You know,

The other thing is,

As you become freer,

Your perceptions become freer,

And in my experience,

They become increasingly poetic.

You might get imageries,

And all sorts of interesting things happen,

And just be with them.

Be with them.

Be with them.

I just saw part of,

It was like rocks of an island,

And rocks,

Like a whole sort of cliff,

And rocky cliff,

Fall away into the ocean of grace.

You know,

It was a picture of resistance coming smaller,

This island.

We say island,

And the non-dualists say our problem is our I-thought,

And our I-thought makes us feel separate from all the others in this world who are also us,

You see.

So,

It's like part of this,

It's a visual that some of the support for keeping the I-thought of separation just fell into the ocean of grace,

You see.

So,

This is the kind of data Premasuddha gets.

I feel like a symphony conductor,

Really,

With all these perceptions.

So,

Anyway,

I'm just very touched,

You know,

Very touched by your presences,

And your coming to be here with all of us,

For us joining.

And just before there's time,

If somebody has got something very pressing,

They need to speak about,

Or a question,

Or may you feel the grace of the love,

And this compassion in which you're held.

Oh my goodness,

Can you,

Can you feel it more and more strongly,

As you proceed through your days.

May all of us do that.

Blessings,

Blessings,

Blessings.

Thank you,

Thank you,

Thank you,

Thank you,

Thank you,

Thank you.

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