Taking Hold Of The Power Within

With her signature humor and ability to put words to vague perceptions and feelings, together with her healing touch, Premasudha's work is life-changing. She has a truly great knack for assisting people out of the emotional prison of their ego/intellect into true freedom. This means that sometimes even serious diseases disappear too, as part of the emotional shift into a new more love-based understanding.

Premasudha primarily teaches in India, Europe, and North America.

Transcript

You are an eternal being and you are in human form.

So the art of living is learning to embody this and to do this,

Our heads,

We have to dethrone the head.

Now,

This is what you all struggle with because we're so taught that the head is king and what happened is out of the sorrow of our child self,

Our child self left her heart and she grabbed hold of her head to try to figure things out,

Okay?

This is where we all get stuck.

So we're holding on to our heads with a death grip.

Now,

We have to start relaxing the grip,

Relaxing it,

So that there's room for our head but also the information from our hearts to come up.

Yeah,

And this is exactly where people will fight with me and this is exactly where I bring out my sword around if somebody's clenching their head and they're unwilling to open up to their heart,

Okay?

To spend time with me,

You have to be able to relax the clench of your head.

You have to be willing to allow it,

Okay?

And what will come up are emotions and physical sensations that can be unpleasant too.

It can be unpleasant.

You know,

First of all,

What will come up is unpleasant emotions but if we just feel them and just put our arms around them,

What happens is you start tapping into joy,

Okay?

So this is what I want for all of you to tap into this joy of being a vehicle for universal energy here on earth.

And you don't have to do it all at once.

It can be gradual but you have to allow the clench to relax.

So may this video,

This work we're doing together,

May the byproduct be that.

And if you just say yes,

You will start to get glimmerings of what I'm talking about on a deeper level.

Yeah,

That's so easy.

You know,

Amma says that,

You know,

Women,

We actually can evolve so much more easily than the men.

It's just the female face of God can accelerate,

Can go 0 to 100 just with opening our minds a little bit.

Okay,

Now the other thing,

If you want to release this clench,

You have to give up your berating yourself,

Okay?

You just,

You can't do it.

You have to at least be able to observe it.

Watch yourself,

Slaughter yourself,

Okay?

Watch the,

Oh,

I'm just a mess,

I'm just a.

.

.

You have to be able to watch it and refuse to buy into it completely.

Yeah,

So who's willing to stop buying into the intense self-criticism?

Okay,

Let's see,

Show of hands.

Okay,

Okay.

Alexa?

Yeah,

Sure,

You too.

Yeah,

You too.

Okay,

That's it.

You don't have to do it anymore.

Please.

Yeah,

But you guys,

The most challenging thing with working with people is that to communicate like this,

What I did,

Which is because my life fell apart so much,

I sided with myself.

And this is what is sometimes a problem for people around me.

They don't want to do that inside themselves,

In a deep,

Deep place,

To side with their true nature,

To decide that they,

You know,

Deserve to be here,

That they're of value.

Okay,

Now this is where I will fight with people if they're not doing it.

It's like,

You have to do that.

And it takes a certain amount of courage to side with your true nature,

You guys,

To side with the God in you.

Yeah,

This is what's facing all of you,

Is how much can you do that?

And if it feels hard to do it,

You know,

Notice that.

Just notice it.

Like,

Oh boy,

That sounds like impossible.

But do you see,

This is where our work together will keep stumbling over this.

If you don't do it,

Do you see what I mean?

I will keep drawing attention.

You're not loving your God self.

But some of you are.

And I'll tell you,

All of you will.

All of you will.

I promise,

All of you will.

It's just,

Really,

It's up to you for how soon you do it.

That's all.

Because all of you,

To finish your cycle of lives,

You will all have to do it.

Otherwise,

You're just going to be here doing the earth thing for like,

For infinity.

And you won't.

You will complete your earth lives.

It's just how soon do you want this?

So it's not really a question of being bad or good,

You see.

It's not like you're bad if you're having trouble siding with your true nature.

Yeah,

That's very beautiful.

You guys,

You're very beautiful.

You're just stunning.

Yeah,

Right.

Well,

You guys,

I'm feeling all your souls.

Yeah,

Yeah.

Oh,

It's very beautiful.

That's it.

The other thing is,

You know,

If you're having trouble siding with your God self,

If you just accept this,

Yep,

I'm having trouble.

I feel like I can't do it.

That I can't really like move into integrity.

Just accept it.

Well,

That's how it is.

Yeah,

Just accept it.

I'll tell you,

If you do that,

You will,

You will shift.

You will shift into being true to yourself.

Because the ability to accept your imperfect state comes from your soul.

Do you understand?

So if you can just go,

Okay,

That's me.

That's how I am.

You'll start coming more from truth.

That's it.

Now,

Women,

We have the ability,

It's easier for us to shift into this acceptance just because we raise kids.

So,

You know,

If you're too,

If you get unaccepted,

Sometimes you,

You know,

It turns into a mess when you're raising kids.

So,

Yeah,

Women are predisposed to be able to do this.

You know,

The joke is,

Is at the top of the spiritual mountain.

It becomes obvious that God is doing everything.

So we think we're individual people,

And we are sort of like,

I'm this one,

You're another one,

But it's just all God.

So there's another level,

But it doesn't matter how caught in your ego you are in a funny way.

It's just the state of God at the moment,

Being hopelessly caught in the ego.

You guys,

It's so loving.

That's what you don't get.

Do you understand?

It's like,

It's,

It is so loving.

It's like I feel like I'm sitting in 80 degree temperatures talking to people in 50 degree temperatures or lower.

Do you see what I mean?

And I'm trying to communicate this warmth,

And it's like,

How to communicate it.

It's like there you are with yourselves and you're in 40 degree weather,

And it's by your will,

By your will,

That you will be brought into this bigger understanding,

You will start to feel the love through the use of your will,

Right?

You have to will it,

And you can will that it happens at a pace that you can stand,

That you can manage.

All along you should be doing that,

You know,

Wanting to serve God,

But at a pace you can handle,

And with all the support you need,

You need to be really saying it,

But that will work,

But standing in one place being ambivalent and,

And,

You know,

Hearing this over and over again.

That's not going to work.

What will work is you realizing that you,

You have to do it.

If you want a true life,

You know,

If you want to walk your talk,

You have to say,

Okay,

I'm willing,

And please give me all the support I need.

And if fear comes up,

You know,

Do your best with it,

Try to comfort yourself.

I'll tell you,

You see,

If you're in 40 degree weather,

And you want to feel this 80 degree weather,

What you're going to have to face is the fear in your cells about being scared to experience the 80 degrees.

Do you understand?

It's like the cells are kind of used to 40 degrees,

And the idea of being in 80 degree weather,

That's scary,

Because if you didn't have the fear,

You would be in the 80 degree weather too.

Now,

This is a challenge because fear can be very difficult.

But if you,

If you know what you're doing,

And you have trust of a teacher,

You know,

If you trust your teacher,

Trust some teacher,

Even if you don't trust me trusting Amma,

Then it's easier to get through.

But,

You know,

There's a cost to everything.

It's like,

If you want a child,

You have to go through the labor.

If you want to really connect up to God,

You're going to have to move through some difficult emotions sometimes,

And some fears,

But it's not the end of the world,

Truly.

It's like,

You'd be amazed at what you can handle.

You'd be amazed that you'll be able to go through your day and that your hair is standing up on end with fear,

But you managed to get through it anyway.

And then suddenly you start feeling,

Oh,

I'm feeling 50 degree weather.

I'm feeling all connected up,

Feeling more connected up.

I get what she's talking about,

Because you'll get what I'm talking about in a physical way.

Yeah,

It will come in through the physical.

This is a big misunderstanding that we think,

You know,

We think that somehow we have to get to heaven separate from being human.

It comes in through our humanity.

It's like a woman loves her children.

That's part of God.

That's God.

Yeah,

Yeah,

That's it.

That's it.

You know,

One of the things that for the people who've known me a long time is on the journey what happens around where I am,

It starts really accelerating.

So,

Increasingly,

What happens is you start becoming a presence,

Rather than an individual.

So,

In you relating to me,

It's like,

Get that it's like the individuality of my old self is going way down.

And you guys,

If you guys think of yourself as a presence,

Which you are,

You are your soul is present in your human form,

But who you are is,

Is your soul it's that's who's present,

Really.

So,

If you think of yourself as that,

And then you act from that,

That your presence,

That your true identity is your soul,

You will find that you're more patient,

You're clear,

You're more beneficent,

You will start acting like this presence,

Rather than thinking that you're this individual.

Do you see?

Your presence.

Mm hmm.

Who saw my video about,

Have you guys had a chance to see the video about the Nobel Prize in the physics.

Yeah.

Well,

I just want to talk about this so they basically concluded that the universe is illusion,

Which is great,

And that particles can communicate faster than the speed of light,

Because basically because everything's one.

But in the report,

They said that human beings couldn't that these new quantum computers that we're going to be forming we're way better than what we've got because the particles can communicate faster than the speed of light,

But that humans that we can.

So,

What this did was it kind of demoted humanity,

That machines were higher than humanity.

Now,

This is our era,

And this is where we're why we're in so much pain,

Really,

Because human beings can communicate faster than the speed of light.

It's like,

If,

If there's a mom and a child,

And even if the child's on the opposite side of the world,

And that child is in a car accident,

The mother knows immediately,

It,

It happens inside her cells.

Okay.

The other thing is,

You guys,

Everything is one.

So,

We are all one.

So,

The communication between us is instantaneous.

Okay.

So,

I just want to point this out that the science is so great.

But if,

If our humanity is getting demoted.

This will set the stage for,

For terrible things to happen because if we don't think that human beings are much,

Then,

You know,

It doesn't matter whether we live or die or whether we're cruel to others or,

Or not to see this,

This work is returning to value,

The human as a vehicle of God,

And that we are higher than machines,

Our consciousness is higher than machines.

Please,

This is where actually you guys,

All of you get stuck.

This is my biggest problem with trying to help you get to the 80 degree weather is because you,

You,

You get mechanistic with yourselves,

And you,

You downgrade yourselves,

And you,

It's like you criticize yourselves and it's like you're God in human form,

Please.

Now,

It's really important to see your flaws,

And where you're,

You know,

To see your shadow side.

I mean this is another challenge of working with people is some people find it really easy to blame other people but it's really hard for them to see what they're doing.

So we,

We do have to see our own shadow side and see,

You know,

Where we're,

You know,

Where we're,

If we're mean or whatever and allow the darkness within us to heal you.

It's funny there's a feeling as if you guys are about to vote to get a bigger understanding.

It's like you can have a total experience of playing out your dark side,

And still be part of God,

Do you understand,

You're still God.

Even if you're playing in your dark side.

It's just will just mean that you'll have a lot more lives here on earth if you want to keep doing that.

But it's,

It's not,

It's not so terrible.

It's the point you guys are just about to get is that you're okay no matter what,

That you're lovable no matter what.

It's just that playing in the dark side doesn't work.

And if you really want to experience God within you,

You have to be able to see your dark side,

And give it over to God and ask for help.

You have to allow yourself to be purified.

Yeah,

Because you see,

Everything's one so when we step back,

And we point and judge other people like it's so stupid because everything's one we're all the same,

We're just seeing our own darkness in them.

So better to,

You know,

Observe your own actions,

Observe how you handle difficulties and purify it's a purification you guys like,

Okay,

We can either stay really stuck in our egos and like constantly feel bad about ourselves,

Or we can make this shift into,

Okay,

We're God in human form,

And become willing to purify.

You see,

As long as we're too hard on ourselves.

We can't start purifying.

Okay,

This is really important for some of you to get,

You know,

You can go soft with yourself.

It doesn't matter what happened to us as little kids is,

If you keep this focus of self embracing self compassion,

It will start to become as if you were had always been deeply loved.

I mean,

That's what that's my experience.

And,

And,

And as you do that you become a presence,

Rather than an injured individual,

You guys,

The will to be compassionate to yourself is crucial I can feel it's really hard for about three people,

Please,

Please.

It's hard for you because you don't have the will to do it.

It's hard for you because you think there's some payoff in staying the way you are.

And really,

If you really wanted to make the shift you what it's just you think you're going to lose something,

Or that it's not going to work or.

Yeah,

Yeah,

There'll be some payoff to keeping it going,

But I'll tell you from my perspective it's just delusion.

It's just like,

Oh God,

Really this one like Oh God.

You don't have the will for self compassion for real self compassion of the will,

Please,

Any of us can do it.

And,

And the thing is,

You know,

I mean I've heard,

You know,

This to be quite I mean,

Alma right Stephanie Alma is talking about that we all have to live it now right she's really hammering this and I'm like,

You know,

We're,

We don't do this like will be like a failed experiment.

It's going to be a failed experiment and our souls will probably go into mourning for the failed experiment was that was humanity.

Yeah,

You guys,

Mr.

Goat really matters what you do.

Yeah,

I mean,

Some of the stuff that I'm caught as I climb higher,

It was some of the stuff I might not really want to see but I'm seeing this and stark relief.

I'm like,

We're going to do it or like we're toast,

And it will come in through the women.

And what do we do if the women don't want to do it.

Okay.

And then I know I scare everybody with this but I'm kind of like you guys,

You know,

You've been hearing this for years and years and years it's kind of like,

Wow,

You know,

One of my videos to I talked about,

Instead of having you know all the meetings and all the,

The environment.

You know we're spending thousands millions of dollars and we just go around in circles nothing changes,

If the whole population if we all got down on our knees and prayed with real intensity,

I'll tell you,

There would be changes overnight.

Yeah.

So you can do that too.

You can just,

You know,

Take the focus off your own development and just pray for humanity and pray for Mother Nature,

You can do it that way you guys,

You don't,

You know,

Actually that's kind of how it comes in,

You end up like Stephanie,

Talk about what happened to you about the boys.

Okay.

Can you tell that story.

Okay.

So I'm here in India for the first time that I'm a washroom,

And I had an experience where these two boys.

They're about seven and five,

They'll come to the recycle center where we do a.

Just,

They come to play with me with the recycled toys.

And they've been coming the last few Sundays.

But yesterday they came for Darshan they came from a blessing.

And this morning I also saw them in the gallery,

Where they do prayer.

And in that moment,

It just hit me.

They're my boys too.

And it really just struck me how deeply connected we are.

They don't even speak English at all.

We can communicate really.

We communicate through airplane.

Like,

When they play with the toys and the airplanes blowing in the air,

But it was that moment where they're my boys and I had this realization or just this moment of really wanting to bring in the love for them,

Really wanting to just the love for these two boys that I don't even know and they're not my physical son,

But I just feel so much love for them.

And it was just such a beautiful moment today.

Now,

That those experiences can come in,

And they can heal us to see what I mean.

So you can move into self love that way.

And what will happen is that love comes in like that you open it up,

And it will take away.

It will lift this,

The thorns that you're that you might be carrying close to your soul the thorns of the self,

Where you dis yourself and you sit on yourself and you empathize yourself.

So,

You can do it either way,

You can move into loving yourself and you love all humanity,

Or you take a step out of yourself like like what Stephanie did.

And then that comes back and heals your wounding.

So,

Stephanie then also tell about was this was the tell the other part of the story of the shift that you've been making.

Yeah,

I think,

Because of that experience with the boys this morning.

And the rest of today.

It felt so light and warm is the only word that I can really put to it and some of the people here at the ashram,

Who,

In my world,

Because I'm reflecting back so just a reflection of me and my world seem a little bit harder.

I don't know if it's because I'm not as warm to me because of my own inner state today.

They just came,

They were saying hi to me they were so warm.

There was one person working in the garden where didn't have a good encounter within the past but just before this zoom session I saw her and the Christmas lights.

And we just started chatting.

And he was having a hard time and I just let her talk.

I don't want to say there was really no words she was just having a hard time.

So I just put my arms out to just give her a hug and premise that I'd mentioned this in a video before about how to just kind of talk to her sons or she would just use touch,

And for whatever reason I just felt to do this and she hugged me and it was just a wonderful embrace with someone who I think I've talked to maybe once or twice,

But it just felt so warm and it just changed my world and very moving.

And I know for her,

Too,

It just was like a meeting,

Meeting of souls,

It felt like for me,

See what happens if you keep at it,

Your whole world will start to warm up.

And even in in the city and even working professionally,

It will still warm up.

Like it's easier in a way in the ashram in some ways,

But the ashram is not easy,

But you can be a little,

You can behave in wilder ways in the ashram like you can hug and you know what I mean.

But still the principle is,

You know,

Your whole life will warm up as you allow this love in,

Because I'll tell you my,

My life used to be you know,

Zero,

One degree,

Two degrees.

Yeah.

Sweeties.

And remember the other thing is please get that your soul evolves you,

Your soul does it.

You don't do it,

Your soul does it.

It's like your ego cannot evolve you.

Okay,

So don't keep a very spacious mind.

Yeah,

Yeah,

I mean,

Judging and monitoring your journey obsessively in a,

You know,

In a judgmental way.

Yeah,

I mean you can notice what feels good.

What doesn't feel good.

You can notice if you're becoming more generous more peaceful.

Yeah,

It's like that's the big,

More generous more peaceful and more self accepting you're doing it.

And the other thing is guys sometimes if you're in transitions you know you're making a leap,

The darkness comes up very strong and you will feel very a lot of thorns,

And you will feel like you're making no progress,

That it's all a big mess and everything.

And that's when you just really clearing your ego.

Okay.

Yeah,

Yeah,

Yeah,

That's good.

Funny all of you guys I can feel it.

All of you are allowing some thorns to be cleared.

Yeah,

I knew this video was going to this zoom was going to have a power to it.

All of you are allowing this.

That's it.

That's the power of love.

That's the power of love,

Like,

Uh huh.

Yeah,

I know it's just,

It's so wonderful.

It's just,

You know,

It's just like living in a fairy tale and sometimes you go through the dark woods and it's scary,

You know,

You have to have your light and just keep going and everything.

Yeah,

That's it.

Yeah,

I'm feeling real.

That's it letting go of the thorns.

It's good.

You know,

It's,

It's pregnancy you know when you're giving birth,

It's,

It's intense contractions then release intense contractions and release.

Sometimes darkness comes.

Then we feel some peace and then darkness again and peace,

Darkness,

Again.

And suddenly we start realizing that we're into a whole new birth of a whole new perspective.

So guys I can feel some of you are really trying to get there.

The other thing is,

Guys,

The,

The journey is deeply personal,

It has to be.

You can't get there by putting your roots in someone else,

You have to put your roots into yourself,

And into your true nature.

Now a teacher can help give you enough peace and reassurance to do that,

But your roots have to go into you.

And this is what is so hard for your for some of you to put the roots into you root into your true nature root into your experience of life.

You can't get illumination separate from that.

It's very very personal.

Aha,

That's it is so personal.

It's like every experience is just tailor made for you to help you,

Particularly awaken.

Yeah,

It's so personal and that sense of the personal,

That's in our,

That's kind of where our soul comes in,

You guys.

It's just that what we do with that is we'll go to Starbucks and order incredibly complex coffees in an attempt kind of to love ourselves.

That's not it.

That's not it.

It's,

It's,

It's being,

Being okay with your deeply personal perceptions,

And your deeply personal experiences,

And some of you try to bond with me and avoid that in yourself and that's not going to work.

Yeah,

It comes in through you personally,

And the self awareness,

Self awareness of how you are personally,

And what is difficult for you.

And I feel like,

You know,

How do I explain it,

We,

It's like you have to love yourself like a little child,

Like premise Suda.

For me it was,

I,

I knew I had a gift to give.

And at the same time I,

I had a lot of trouble with know so many things.

And I had to just keep loving myself like this flawed child,

You know this,

This goofball who kept making the same mistake over and over.

And I would just have to forgive myself and try again.

It's a personal connection to God that you come into truth through.

Yeah,

That when you start feeling like beloved child.

That's it.

That's it.

Good.

That's good.

Some of you are.

It's funny you've you're,

You're starting to turn and really face this,

It's kind of like you've hit the end of an era.

Okay,

That's good.

Yeah,

You know,

Sometimes I don't know what's going on like about a week ago I felt like that there was something ending,

Like almost a whole kind of world ending something was ending.

And the next day was like a new dawn but it wasn't.

There was no emotion and I still don't know what was going on whether that was a change of dimension whether this is the end of the old energy on earth or what was going on.

So,

Pay attention to everything and value it.

Keep a journal,

You guys keep a journal.

If you have trouble keeping a journal is because you,

You,

You're scared to allow the universe to be personal with you.

See,

Our culture is anti personal really.

So,

When to,

To go to the personal within yourself to bond with your heart is taboo.

So that's why we don't want to write in our journals,

It's kind of like,

I want enlightenment but I don't want to write my journal.

I want enlightenment by trying to become a machine like I've been taught to,

It's not that way.

Yeah.

All of you are God right now.

You're all God.

You're all God,

You're all perfect in your imperfections.

And like I said the angels looking at you going,

Oh,

Look at her there she goes again.

Oh,

She's doing again.

Oh,

Sweetie pie that's just going to cause you pain,

Don't do that.

Come on,

Let's try this.

Come on,

You can do it.

This is what's going on.

And we will we mean while we're walking around feeling like it's 30 degrees below zero and nobody loves us.

To so we can feel the love,

Because once you're recalibrated and you feel the love,

Then completely different things happen to you,

Then they happen when you're walking around at 40 degrees,

Where life feels like hostile little bit doggy dog,

You know,

And you,

You,

You bump up and you go like everything's love.

And the thing is it's scary.

I have a lot of compassion,

You have no idea.

It's like,

For what it's like.

Yeah,

Yeah.

And remember God's doing everything so the whole thing,

Like our heads just can't get it,

You know what happens is your body rises in vibration and then your head gets it.

So it's not a intellectual process,

It's actually a physical process.

Does anybody have any questions or comments or exclamations or.

Yeah,

I would like to share something.

Please.

Can you hear me.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Maybe an hour before our meeting,

Something like you're describing I felt what's happening.

I'm freaking out and panicking I'm telling myself I cannot do it I need some help.

And then right afterwards,

I felt so,

So loved.

I was so sure inside really feeling and sensing is that I'm,

I'm so loved,

You know,

And it was so new,

Because I did my own,

My,

My old show again my old mistake and,

And at the same time I felt so loved I was so convinced,

But not with my head,

But all of me.

I just knew that even there I was going again the same thing over and over again.

I felt it all over that I was left and there was so much compassion from me.

That's it.

That's it.

And it was so beautiful and it felt like as if our meeting was happening already or starting already you know,

Yeah,

Or it started.

Yeah.

Right,

It started when you guys signed up,

Listen,

My alarms going hold on I've got to go get it.

Hold on.

Okay.

That's T but that's exactly what I'm talking about with the,

The temperature rising yourselves are getting used to this are letting the love in.

So what happens is,

Are the stuff in our heads gets loved out,

Just like what you're talking about,

Or Stephanie's experience with the boys,

It's the same thing.

You guys,

This is what's possible right at this time we can let huge amounts of ego stuff be loved out,

Just like that.

The Tiba is just like,

It's just like you know like you're hearing the angels talk about how loved you are right oh there you're doing it and don't worry,

Don't worry and then you start feeling that and it's like it's okay you just grow out of it,

Just grow out of it.

That's it.

Yeah.

Yeah,

It was sweet because in a way it happened at the same time.

I was noticing that I did my own behavior again,

Which I'd love to be cleansed up.

And at the same time I felt so much compassion and so much love,

But it wasn't really coming from inside but I felt it as if it was,

I don't know,

I felt offensive with my body but if I felt God's love.

Yeah,

And it was outside to write.

It's,

But you,

You wouldn't have even been able to feel it coming in from outside you,

If your cells weren't able to let it in.

Do you understand.

Yeah.

Yeah,

This is,

This is it.

This is the,

The,

And you guys just go,

Just go me too.

If you want to feel something like that me too,

You know,

And then keep fanning the flame of your true nature.

Yeah,

And you just you'll just be brought to these experiences.

Right.

And I'll tell you what they do,

These experiences,

They heal our religiosity.

You know that batter good thing and being overly tight and it just heals,

And you just start feeling like you're this beloved child in human form.

Yeah.

Okay.

If you guys are,

You know,

Whatever you're feeling,

You're entitled to these experiences.

And if you just just keep going.

And it will come at the right time for you.

Okay.

It all comes at the right time.

Yeah,

Right.

Don't,

Don't separate yourself when you hear a team has experience or Stephanie's experience.

Don't separate yourself and go,

Well,

You know,

Just go.

This will happen for me at the right time.

Yeah,

I'm open to it occurring.

That's it.

That's it.

Yay.

Yeah.

Yeah,

Good.

That's it.

That's it.

Yeah,

That's it.

Because the alternative is staying in this religiosity our whole lives,

And that's just,

You just don't want to do that.

Who wants to do that.

Yeah.

And the other thing is,

Teachers get really really patient if somebody is really deeply sincere.

If they're.

Yeah.

If they're,

If they're really sincere and not not playing games the teacher will be infinitely patient infinitely.

And if you're playing games on some level,

The teacher will get impatient so just use the teachers and patients to take you to the next level.

Just go okay show me,

God,

Show me how I'm playing games show me why she's responding this way.

Yeah.

Uh huh.

And then you'll get the,

Then you'll get it,

You'll,

You'll shift and get it and and evolve.

Uh huh.

That's it.

That's it.

Good.

Really late on so that's how loved you are you guys.

That's how loved.

Yeah.

We were all taught to make ourselves different and make ourselves wrong.

I'm different I'm a I'm a hard case it's like me,

Not like you just need to use your will to help yourself,

You just need to get really sincere about the journey,

Really willing.

That's it.

And I'll tell you,

You know what,

You guys,

Life will keep crushing us until we get like that right.

I mean,

The mills of the gods,

I mean,

The challenges come.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

So even they're friendly our challenges are friendly.

They're trying to help us.

Yeah.

I'm feeling all of you kind of a little bit like,

I don't know if you're feeling this.

I'm feeling of.

Oh,

This is a lot to digest.

Yeah,

It is.

But this is what's so great at this time is if we just side with the truth of things.

If we just have our own true self,

We can do centuries of acceleration.

At this time,

You can just drop so much karma.

Please,

My experience has been.

I was listening to a loop of the gratitude tape,

It's like a lot that I realized this morning I'm like,

When I go to bed at night,

It's a gratitude meditation and when I wake up in the morning it's a gratitude so I would just pull to whatever I felt to go to sleep.

But I realized this morning is like every single day it's been a gratitude meditation.

But what happened as a result of that was actually a deep feeling in my body of that this is the best time to like that how what a great time this is the gratitude meditation actually made me feel the sense of.

It's so safe,

It's so safe,

And something was said in one of the gratitude meditations that really brought that home to me was the woman said at another time.

She said that you have never been more comfortable,

It's never been easier.

You have it better than kings and queens did in another time.

And I felt the sense of like,

Yes,

It's so I just felt,

I don't know doing this for two weeks non stop really felt like it's,

It's helped me to,

To move to a place of more acceptance.

It's really good.

Yeah,

That's what I,

I felt and do you guys see why I asked you to do this.

Yes,

I completely understand,

Like,

Because it shifted me like doing it and being willful about it,

And taking it to the point where it was like,

Well,

You know,

If you can't do a 30 minute meditation to a five minute but do something like do something.

And then,

Like I said it just kind of like kind of seamlessly became one of gratitude and it was like it shifted me.

Yeah,

That's it.

That's it.

Beautiful,

Beautiful thing.

It's beautiful isn't it.

We go like,

Right.

That's it.

Yeah,

That's it.

And all this goes into then self awareness so next time,

You'll be quicker and quicker to surrender right quicker and quicker to take steps to help you stuff.

Yeah,

That's it.

That's it.

That's good.

Happy,

Happy.

Yeah.

Both of us are happy,

Happy.

Yeah.

And also I just have to say before I came on the call to,

I just had this feel an overwhelming feeling of the bigness of this today.

Just a feeling like there was going to be some huge understanding that I was going to come into from participating in this like from being here with all of you today.

Yeah.

I wouldn't be I felt nervous you know like tingly kind of like nervous about it,

But I knew that it meant it was a good thing.

Yeah,

That's it.

But so just be more and more responsible for yourself Andrea for your reactions for.

And I know it's hard when you're when you know we're moving really fast and you got obligations and everything but the universe will make it possible do you know what I mean,

Abba will make it possible for you to do that,

And everything to do everything.

I know that's true.

Okay,

That's true.

In my body I feel that's true.

Okay,

I don't think I could feel that before but I can feel that.

Yeah,

That's it.

Okay,

It's good.

It's really okay and just,

It's that you guys,

The,

The importance of humility to open to learn,

You know,

Really,

It's like I said to you,

You know,

Stephanie,

Stephanie came across my book that I'd written climbing the inner Everest and,

You know,

I wrote it when I thought I was enlightened basically and,

And,

You know,

Took it up to Amman she went you know not yet.

Not yet.

Like,

I have had to be so humble.

So,

Over and over again I go.

Oh,

I've got it.

No,

You don't.

Oh,

I've got it.

No,

You don't.

But my strength,

My strength is,

I was always willing to go.

Okay,

I don't know.

Okay,

So that's what I'm just wanting with you guys just that ability to go like I don't know everything yet,

And,

And,

And just stay open,

And I don't know everything yet.

So we'll just bumble along together.

That's it.

That's it.

Thank you so much.

My good to see you.

I'm glad you came.

Thank you.

I got mixed up on the time,

My apologies.

Oh,

Here.

Beginning I thought it was 11 on my time but it's 10.

Well,

We'll send you can get everybody can get a copy of the audio.

So,

Any other,

You know,

Questions or comments or just Laura,

Do something to say.

I'm so glad to be here.

And I just want to thank you for what you said that if you don't feel your soul will take you there,

Your soul will work on you because my head is a mess,

And the rest of me is unraveling,

And I have to believe that it'll come from my soul,

And they keep stepping away from my body every time I drop something or stumble,

Or whatever.

It's like,

I'm not that I'm my soul.

I'm breath.

And when I got on this zoom I was very nervous in adequate individual,

And I found that by the time within halfway,

I was open and embracing all of you.

And,

Yeah.

And the last thing is my house alarm went off in the middle of the night,

And I think it was guys where you're shaking me up and cracking open said that you could fall in this morning.

And that's what someone told me about on this tour is on my cracks this open,

So she can fall in,

Because there's only one I'm cracked open that I'm like,

Okay,

Show me.

So thank you,

Laura.

Oh,

Adorable.

Out of the mouth of babes,

There it is.

That's it.

And you know,

I'm a crack says open,

But what happens is,

I'm a cracks,

Open our heads.

And then for us to fall into our hearts,

Which is what you're what you're doing Laura.

And you know,

If your body is not functioning.

Well,

And you're you drop things.

Remember that you're,

You're.

Yeah,

You are your soul but your,

Your body is very precious to that you're precious with everything.

And the angels are are walking with you,

Knowing what it feels like when you keep dropping things,

And what it feels like to be right now trapped in your body.

And you know that there's just so much love coming to you,

Sweetie.

It's just off the charts you just being held and supported.

You know you learn what you're doing you have my highest respect you just do,

It's just,

Yeah,

Yeah,

You're just handling it with so much grace.

Yeah,

So much grace.

Okay.

So,

You know what I'm feeling is you,

You're opening to receive more love and support from the universe.

Yeah.

So,

You remember the feeling like a tibet talked about.

She was doing her ego stuff but then she felt the love anyway so maybe you'll start feeling the love even if you're dropping something you'll just feel the love coming yeah for your whole self.

That's it.

That's it.

Yeah,

Sweetie.

Yeah,

Yeah,

You know the courage to walk in innocence,

No matter what,

No matter what we're faced with,

You know,

To just walk it and know that it's the,

It's the most loving thing that could possibly happen for us,

Even when it just happens.

Oh my goodness.

Yeah,

Yeah,

Yeah.

I remember that like with getting with breast cancer you know and being with this is the most loving thing that could possibly happen.

Oh my goodness.

Yeah,

I want to tell you another story about somebody that I heard about.

And it was,

They lived about 30 years ago,

And this woman had had a soul opening,

But she didn't really know that she'd had a soul opening and she kept on going around to therapists think you know she'd think Oh there's something wrong with me and I'm so unhappy there's something wrong with me.

And she'd go around to these therapists who had never had a soul opening so they couldn't really help her.

So for like 25 years she kept trying to heal herself.

And I'll tell you from,

And never got got anywhere really never because she didn't know enough to the spiritual master,

And they're not always so many in the West anyway.

But the thing is from heaven's perspective,

There was just so much love and respect and compassion for her that she kept going no matter what she just never gave up.

Her experience was really walking in the desert endlessly with no happy ending from heaven's perspective,

It was like,

Oh my goodness this woman.

It's like all of heaven bows down,

Really,

All of heaven bows down to human beings who are living on this plane,

Who are keeping this journey going and doing it a really sincere level,

Like all of heaven will bow down,

Because it's harder to do it on the earth plane than it is when you're disembodied.

And like,

That's why Yogananda's teacher used to,

The angels would surround him,

And when he meditated and bow down,

Because he was doing it on the earth plane.

This is what you guys,

This is,

This is an important key is to get the respect for doing it on the earth plane,

And Laura for going through what you're going through here on the earth plane.

It's like incredible response in heaven to what you're doing and the way you're doing it.

And may you feel that more and more.

Yeah,

I feel like you will.

Yeah.

Oh,

You guys.

Yeah,

We're all one remember.

I'm just speaking from part of yourself.

Is anybody got any questions or comments.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Can you hear me.

Yeah,

Lisa.

Okay.

Um,

So when I'm dealing with people in my life that aren't exactly as easy to communicate with,

And I end up bringing myself out of the,

Out of the place that I don't want to be like I'm communicating back in my normal everyday,

You know,

Monkey mind self rather than the spiritual self that I've developed,

You know,

Since I've discovered that we're all God.

I just feel like I'm kind of taken out of that mode,

A lot when I'm dealing with people that think that they're spiritual but don't really walk the walk.

How do you stay in your softer self,

When you feel like your natural self wants to constantly be a teacher in a more harsh way than the soft way.

Do you really tell them where they're where they're like,

Tell them that they're irritating you or tell them that they're doing it wrong or what is it.

I think it's all of the above.

I am a pretty outspoken person,

When it comes to telling people what I think.

And if I think it's for their greater good I will let them know it's never out of malice.

I rub people the wrong way when that happens and I don't mean to,

So I kind of steer clear of people a lot.

Well actually I,

You know,

I think the steering clear people's probably a good idea in the sense of like the just being with yourself and and and being with kind of a constant prayer.

So,

You know,

Lisa,

There are a couple things.

One is the misunderstanding is when you talk about that you want to stay in that higher spot all the time.

As soon as you talk like that,

As soon as you think that way,

You're,

You have a misunderstanding,

Because it will come and go,

It will come and go.

And when it goes,

It will come back.

When it comes back it will be stronger.

Do you see what I mean.

Yeah,

We go from joy to sorrow joy to sorrow,

And with the evolution,

You know,

Maybe first of all 10% of you is in truth,

And then you keep,

You know,

Going off,

And then coming back and then 15% of use in truth,

Like it's a gradual increase.

So,

If,

And when you go off,

If you think that you are clearing veils within you.

It doesn't really have anything to do with them,

They're showing you about things that are not cleared within yourself.

We think it's them,

But they're just showing you about you.

Yes.

Yeah,

I noticed that.

And the other thing is,

Everybody's in pain.

So,

When we talk to people or especially if we want to instruct them at all.

We got to remember that they,

They're in pain.

Maybe coming from the fact underneath there and pain,

And they have also had a whole other set of past lives that are affecting their point of view and make them look at things in a certain way.

And we might have other past lives that make us look at things in another way.

Do you see what I mean.

Yeah,

So they may not be that wrong,

In a way,

For them.

Lisa,

The,

The,

The self love,

I'm,

I'm feeling like this is,

This is where you're,

You get stuck a bit is allowing the love to come back to you so just as I'm working with you right now I'm going to be opening up the cells of your body to help you open up to receive love you to receive love,

And that will make you less reactive with other people.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Okay,

So we're working.

That's it.

I'm gonna,

I'm just going to spend a few minutes working with you.

It's right around your heart right around your D part that you are.

Yeah,

You're entitled to be here you're really valuable.

It's,

It's for you to get that you're entitled to be here and you're very valuable and you bring a quality of love and compassion to this world that is that if you weren't here,

The world would be poor.

It would be bereft,

It would be.

Yeah.

And,

And,

And I can also feel the part of you that you that you come to sometimes when you feel sad and and bereft yourself and you feel like there's this little unloved child within you.

There's a little unloved child within you and I'm,

I'm wanting you to get how loved she is she's very loved.

Yeah,

It's hard for you to love her.

You see this is why people bother us because we have trouble loving our little child within really,

That is,

That's,

That's kind of it.

That's it.

Right.

You're,

You've this really heartfelt quality this little child within cheap cheap deeply heartfelt little munchkin,

Who just knew things could be so much happier and simpler here on this earth than what we were doing.

Yep.

And that it didn't have to have so many hard edges and everything.

Yep.

Yep.

Yep.

Love to you.

Love to huge left to you.

Yeah,

You're right.

She was right.

She was right,

But it's by feeling our love for our child self and think tears letting ourselves melt and love for this little munchkin we were.

It's hard for you.

You feel like it's not safe.

You see this is the stuff why we live at 30 degrees.

Feel like it's not safe to really love her.

Yeah,

Yeah,

But it is.

And Lisa really you came out of inside time or did 10 this like you are willing to receive lots of.

I mean you're the only person who stepped forward,

Like all these people all these great reviews and I'm going well come to the zoom and they're like,

Right.

Yeah,

Because to come to the zoom you have to be willing to receive this.

This love and,

And it's just coming to you Lisa,

She's okay hold on it she's so sensitive I'm getting she's so sensitive.

It's like,

Even my words are too abrupt for her in a way.

It's too.

There's a harsh quality to my words that she's experiencing.

Yeah,

That's it.

She's so sensitive she's like 99% sensitivity.

Yeah.

Yeah,

This is your struggle really,

That's kind of,

Yeah.

So the burping is a clearing.

It's like she's being punished you know that if she if she if she is herself she'll be punished you guys this is the stuff we're running that if we're,

If we're true to our God selves that will be punished and yeah so I'm,

I'm just,

I'm asking,

I'm asking you to take very good care of you Lisa,

As you make this movement into more self love,

And may it be as calm and as gentle as possible.

Yeah,

I mean part of you just wants to open up wide like this and you see this is what we do sometimes we open up really wide,

And it's too wide.

We shouldn't do that biggest step.

In fact,

What happens is our egos get in there,

And they open up wide,

Because what happens sometimes if we open up wide we,

We have a stumble,

Something happens and we have a stumble and our ego is so tricky it like tries to get in there so,

But so you've just opened perfectly.

It's the perfect amount,

Just what you've done yet,

Perfect amount,

And you'll be able to integrate this.

Yeah.

It's beautiful Lisa.

We'll do more of these zooms.

It's good.

I mean,

They're a joy for me.

Yeah,

I'm so happy.

Stephanie,

Did you have a question.

Did you have a question Stephanie.

I just wanted to say the thing that you said about keep going.

Always comes back to me and it just kind of came in the moment of this like your story your journey you just kept going and I think it just gives me so much hope that even when I stumble,

Or something doesn't go right.

I just hear your words,

Come back and say,

Keep going.

It's okay just keep going.

So I just wanted to share that because I've stumbled a lot here especially at the ashram.

Literally,

I,

My story of falling and literally falling in my own shit no joke that's a story for another time but,

You know,

It was almost grace but also to keep going in your words.

Just keep resonating with me so maybe we all keep going.

That's the thing it's just keep going.

I mean,

And we can't stop anyway so you know,

We might as well keep going but that's it it's just getting up and trying again and trying again and trying again and then suddenly you get a breakthrough.

Yeah,

You just get a breakthrough,

You get,

You will always get enough to keep you going.

Yeah,

Yeah.

And again you know heaven.

The angels go very gentle with us when we keep going,

It's sort of like,

You know,

Alma,

The heavens,

They help so much as sincere seeker,

You know,

When we're innocent,

We get so much help,

Because it's so valuable you know,

I heard on the internet.

They will take the horse,

And the horse will be safe for a couple of days without food,

And then it's allowed into a paddock,

And on one side is the food,

And on one side is the,

The owner,

The previous owner.

And if the horse goes to the food first,

Or if the horse goes to the owner first.

If it goes to the owner,

It sells for a much higher price than the horse that goes to the food.

And it's the same with human beings around our innocence,

And our spiritual journeys,

The more innocent we are,

The more we go to Alma,

The more we,

You know,

Before everything,

The,

The more valuable we are,

And the more help we get from heaven,

And it doesn't matter about what other people you know maybe most of the horses go to get the food first,

And,

And maybe lots of people would go get the food first but doesn't matter if,

If you go to Alma first go to,

You know,

You get the.

You know,

You're valuable here on the earth right now but you will get so much support from heaven,

But you can even quantify.

And you know,

Christ said,

Seek ye first the kingdom of heaven,

And all will be brought to you.

It's the same principle,

You go to heaven first,

You go to Alma,

You listen to your teacher,

You go to your guidance,

And you,

And then you go to life from there.

You go to heaven first.

And it's the most,

It's the safest thing you could possibly do by far the safest thing,

Even though it might feel safer to go for the food first.

It isn't.

Yeah,

Yeah.

And of course we'd all love the horse that went for the owner more.

When you just you just would love that horse more.

Even if you weren't the owner you would just love that horse it's sort of like,

We just need to be like that horse.

Yeah.

And the joke is you see,

We all know that this sort of stuff is really important,

But we act as if things in money are really important.

It's this stuff.

And you see,

Being women.

It's just,

You know,

Because we give birth and we have to bond with our children.

You know feminine values aren't valued in this world so women were tough and we turn away from our truth,

But I'll tell you,

That is just leads to nihilism it's terrible it's just go through the growing pains of,

You know,

Being true to your true feminine self.

Yeah,

Yeah.

It's like told you the story of the girl who was picked up and he stole it out to the moors in England,

And they're going to rape and killer as they had done several women,

And she,

They threw on the ground and she suddenly went into huge discussion for them,

And was so concerned about how they were going to feel after they killed her.

So what they,

What she didn't do was she didn't reflect back their terror and alienation and face of life.

They just wanted love.

They couldn't kill her.

They picked her up,

Drove her back into town and dropped her in front of a subway and she,

She fainted.

This is the power of the feminine.

Don't,

You know,

Don't,

You know,

Treat it well like treat it well please don't throw it away.

Because when we throw it away the quality of women we become to it's like,

Oh,

We just,

But I have so much compassion for why women do because it seems so not to work,

But it works in big ways just like with that girl who is going to be murdered she,

She got to live,

You see that's how powerful it is she got to live,

And the ones who went into fear and terror and reflected back the alienation they died.

That's kind of where we are in this world it's like what are we going to do,

You know.

And you see we women are good at it.

We're good at it.

You guys,

It's right there in us.

We give birth.

And you know some of the guys are getting better at it than the women.

We're all getting so tough and you know what I think is going to happen I actually think marriage is going to go to style and women are going to bond with women for a while men are going to bond with men,

And then we'll recover kind of true femininity and true masculinity and then we'll just try marriage again.

And that's what I think is going to happen,

You know,

Over the next decades,

With the culture.

But you can,

But you can,

You can clear it now and have marriage now.

You know,

You can.

You don't have to go at the,

At the pace of the culture,

You know,

Or,

You know,

You can bond with a female spiritual teacher and get your feminine strengthened that way.

I mean that's what I did with Alma.

Yeah.

Oh,

So big I mean I feel like this is big.

We're just going.

We have to.

Is there anything coming up Alexa at all.

Anything you want to comment.

Yeah,

I think I just feel dizzy.

I feel dizzy after a whole day of intense anxiety for probably no real reason.

And,

Yeah,

So I'm just relaxing into dizziness.

Yeah.

I love that childlike quality of you it's just so adorable.

You know,

Do you know what the anxiety is.

Yeah,

Well,

I don't know.

It's just like a general anxiety of,

You know,

Yeah like fearing loss or whatever you know like something like something could happen just a general,

You know,

Or,

But on deeper levels yourselves are scared to allow the temperature to go up.

Okay,

I hope it's this way.

Yes.

So yeah.

So just every time every time somebody feels anxiety it's like temperatures,

Trying to race or rice.

Yeah,

Really,

All of our anxiety,

The root of it is fear of our true nature,

It's fear of love,

And we just have all kinds of storylines about why we have anxiety but the bottom line is that's what we're scared of.

Yeah.

So,

When you work at this level,

You can heal a lot of anxiety is a byproduct,

Because you're going right to the heart of the issue.

If you clear your fear of love,

Then you're a lot of anxiety will just disappear.

Right.

That's what I mean you start living in a temperature warm,

Warm temperature.

Yeah,

That's it and the dizziness is just,

You know,

Part of you doesn't want to see the truth of things it's like part of you doesn't want to really admit what I'm saying.

Part of you doesn't want to admit that you're a divine being in human form.

It's part of you it's just too big a leap.

So like,

How is that possible.

But it is,

It's the truth of things,

But it's okay,

Like it's good.

I love your innocence Alexa,

Like,

I love it.

Great.

Our innocence saves us,

Believe me.

Yeah,

Really.

Yeah.

So how do you feel when I say all this.

Yeah,

Well I was hoping that this way,

That anxiety is always like for for no real reason but just because our,

Yeah,

Frequency is rising and we are embodying the real self,

Even more.

Yeah,

That's it.

So yeah,

Good to hear this.

Yeah.

You,

This,

The simplicity of this overview becomes very clear you start being able to see it.

It's like you climb high enough in the mountain that you get a bigger perspective,

A higher perspective.

And then you go,

Okay,

I'm just scared of the love within me even though,

You know,

Whatever storyline,

But it takes time and please be very patient with yourself,

Really,

And it's the whole reason for sad saying is,

Is to come and kind of get another support,

You know,

To it's sort of like going in and plugging into the generator to warm up a bit so you get to remind your body of what it feels like what love feels like,

But we can do these again.

We'll do this again.

She's a my is there anything you need to say or comment before we.

We had premise sutra and I spoke yesterday on the phone so we had this session.

And since then I've just been sad,

You know,

Just feeling kind of sad,

But I've been just being with it,

And I haven't been judging it I've just been,

You know,

Just observing it and watching my thoughts like you told me to do so.

And I guess that that's really you know it's just that it's just the sadness.

It's just that's all it is but I guess it's,

Like you say it's open and I don't know what to say really,

To be honest.

It's the sadness comes up when we start feeling how sad we are at carrying resistance to our true,

True nature and it's it's it's the sadness of the little child who realized that she couldn't be her true self,

And so the sadness comes up again,

But it will release out to my it's like,

Yeah,

Part of you,

I can feel it part of you feels like there's no love on the other side of the sadness but there is,

There's kind of a joy that's wanting to come into you as you move through the sadness like part of you as a little kid goes like,

Oh life is just sad,

But no it's like you're clearing this so the sadness,

You can just flow through this sadness and come to more joy,

But part of you doesn't want to.

This is what we're like,

It's okay it's okay it's good that we're just part of you doesn't want to it's like kind of,

You're kind of going,

I'm settled in my ways.

Yeah,

But it doesn't matter how many years,

It's like we we help the earth by allowing the sadness to dislodge and yeah I can feel you're willing to do that.

Yeah,

You are.

Okay,

You guys bless your hearts.

Yeah,

Thank you so much for for coming.

Thank you so much.

Thank you,

Bringing your sweet souls.

Yeah.

Blessings.

Okay.

This was the best Christmas present ever.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you guys.

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