Recipe For A Happy Life

This was a wide ranging satsang but the strongest aspect was the heartening, empowering, uplifting energy that Premasudha brings to this self-realization training.

Whether she was speaking about setting boundaries with compassion or about becoming 'harmless', or highlighting care masquerades as control in society, Premasudha inspires us to be courageous and true to ourselves.

Remembering that we gain control of our outside existence as we learn how to deepen into our hearts, is something that Premasudha often repeats.

The growth in the individuals who regularly attend this satsang is increasingly obvious. These Awareness Satsangs are powerful indeed.

Speakers: Laura Komninos & Jenna Schroer

Transcript

So we're calling on grace.

We're calling on the love that our souls have for us,

That the creator has for us,

That Amma has for us.

And we allow it to come into our bodies.

Even if you just think that.

Let it in.

Or know that it's there,

You know?

You can just know that it's there.

You're surrounded with it,

This incredible warm grace of pure love that the universe is made out of.

And may you feel it more and more in your lives.

And I'm just making a prayer now,

That not only do you feel it now more in the present,

But that in the future,

That you really feel it way more strongly than you're capable of feeling it right now.

No matter what's happening in the outward world,

That you feel this grace.

Because any self-realized person lives in it.

They know it's there.

So be it.

Whether you're self-realized or not,

May you just feel it so strongly.

Yeah,

Blessings.

There's just a thread from yesterday I wanted to speak about,

Ruthann,

About,

You know,

The insomnia.

We discussed that from Masuda's feeling about insomnia.

It's really a fear of surrendering,

A fear of allowing the unconscious,

Fear of clearing the unconscious,

Fear of getting too close to the creator,

Because we actually access the creator through our unconscious.

Yeah.

And so Ruthann is doing a tremendous job of observing her mind.

And I was just so touched,

The way you spoke about,

You know,

50,

100 times returning to your breath.

Yeah.

And I just want to say that over time,

As this mind becomes less of a bucking bronco,

Which it will with just what you're doing,

That you will sleep better as a byproduct.

I promise you this.

Prama Suda used to have tremendous insomnia.

Yeah.

And as I surrendered,

As I learned,

I slept better and better.

I can go through periods of insomnia,

But it's quite rare.

And it used to be all the time.

Yeah.

And so Prama Suda knows how wearing it is.

So I just want to say to you that you will just end up sleeping better.

And I,

Again,

I want to talk about how our troubles,

Physical or emotional,

Are all about our relationship with our soul.

So if you start there,

You can go to the heart of the problem,

Then all your efforts will have the most impact.

You know,

If we try to fix problems without addressing the cause,

We can spend 10 years doing therapies,

Pills,

All kinds of things.

But if you,

Any problem,

If you just accept that it's a soul problem,

It's a problem with your connection with your soul,

You'll be able to go to the heart of it much faster.

It is how Prama Suda solved her difficulties.

Her many splendid,

What's it,

Many faceted difficulties.

Yeah.

So I just want to remind you about that because there isn't much support in the outside world for having that kind of attitude,

But it is the one that works.

And so that's the payoff,

That it works.

Hmm.

But it takes patience and self-love.

Yeah.

And it's really good if your attitude is that you're in for the long haul,

You know,

That you've signed up for soul work and you're in it.

Yeah.

Not like a five-year plan.

Okay.

I'll listen to my soul for five years and I'll solve all my problems and then I'll go back to,

You know,

Being a worldly person.

Yeah.

No,

Don't do that.

We were talking about a person and there was a lot of soul energy coming to this person and they were responding to it.

But this person didn't have a teacher and the person didn't have a focus on spirituality.

So what can happen in a situation like that is a person can seem to get worse.

You know,

We have a tendency to try to box a spiritual journey and go,

Okay,

I'm going to go on the journey and everything's going to be better and better.

All my unhappiness is going to be fixed.

I'll have abundance.

Everybody will love me because I'll be coming from my heart.

This is just the Western mind.

But in fact,

It is not,

It is sort of uncontrollable.

So,

You know,

Yeah.

I mean,

If a person is,

I'll tell you what,

I'll come back to Pramasutha.

I tapped into spirituality very strongly.

I went,

Okay,

I really want this.

And so then the soul energy came to me and I went,

Well,

It's not going my way.

It's not,

I'm not getting my dreams coming true.

This is just,

There's no point continuing.

And Pramasutha got worse as a person.

I did.

I fell in vibration.

Yeah.

I became,

Yeah,

I became less ethical.

I became destabilized.

I became like,

Well,

I can do whatever I want.

Really.

So I want you to understand this,

That it's like nuclear power.

When you tap into the divine and you set off in the journey,

It's like you're opening up to nuclear power.

And it's like,

You have to be careful with it.

You have to be respectful with it.

And,

You know,

One of the things I have concern about,

You know,

Is if,

Like supposing a whole bunch of people have openings and they,

Maybe through something on the internet,

But there's no physical teacher and maybe there's not a lot of spiritual training the person's had.

And they have an opening through something on the internet and they get disillusioned.

What happens then?

We could have thousands of people just getting disillusioned all at once.

Having tapped into the divine and having,

You know,

With this power,

It's like a nuclear power.

That's why we need teachers.

And this is why Prama Sutta focuses on teaching you guys how to embody.

And I do it out of my own,

You know,

My own turbulent history.

That's a pretty way of putting it.

So,

You know,

I've talked about that it's possible to exit from the spiritual journey,

But it doesn't bring happiness because we're meant to be on the journey.

So,

Really,

The only thing,

Once we started it,

Is just keep going and be respectful to yourself and your teacher and compassionate to yourself and patient.

Yeah.

Are there any questions or comments about anything I've said?

Maybe it just makes intuitive sense to you.

You know,

We've all seen people in mid-life.

I've told you that the soul often calls in the 30s.

And we've seen people get worse,

You know,

Have a life change and actually become worse people because they actually turned against their soul more.

Or some people become better people.

Yeah.

And that's the safe thing,

Become better.

That's the safest.

The thing I wanted to talk to you particularly about tonight was about setting boundaries with compassion.

It's really,

Really important.

And our culture,

We don't understand this.

And I really want to highlight women on this.

So,

Any woman knows what it's like to,

Every woman,

Especially if you have children,

At some point you will feel like a dishcloth,

You know,

That's been squeezed dry.

You know,

Squeezed,

Squeezed,

Squeezed.

Like you worked hard,

Worked all day,

Maybe your face,

You look in the mirror,

You look plain,

Your eyes don't have any light.

It's hard to do the housework or cooking or anything with any kind of joy or light.

You're just feeling like,

Oh,

Got too much to do.

And if you have that for months and months and months,

It's a grinding kind of feeling you can have.

And,

You know,

This is common.

I mean,

A lot of women just live this way.

I mean,

Women have got a lot of things on their back.

A lot of them are earning livings and keeping the house clean and raising kids and,

You know,

Going for Botox,

All those things you have to do.

It's just,

I think it's just crazy.

And then you have to go out with your friends,

You know,

Keep up with your friends.

It's like,

You can just,

Oh,

And now you have to be spiritual.

It just goes on and on.

So,

I want to talk about,

You know,

With the woman,

There is an empress energy when a woman's really in her truth.

And it's a beautiful energy.

And there's no,

She helps the world when she's in that energy.

It's captivating when the female's in this energy.

So,

How do you get from,

You know,

The squeezed dishrag,

Overburdened person to the empress energy?

Well,

You do it through self-compassion,

Through listening to yourself about what you can do and what you can't do.

And you stay with it.

An example from Pramasutha's life has just happened.

So,

You know,

I've been saying about that I really want to work with as many people as possible.

I really want to help people on the journey.

But I am going to be available really for the people who turn up regularly in the satsangs,

Apart from email other people.

They can put themselves on the prayer list.

But for in-depth phone calls,

That's kind of satsang people.

So,

I got a call from somebody that I've,

Who had come to satsang a long time ago.

And we spoke a couple of times.

She's a lovely,

Lovely woman.

But she,

You know,

Hasn't attended satsangs.

And she phoned me,

She emailed me in great distress,

Wanting me to speak with her.

So,

You know,

My heart went out to her because her distress is real.

But I have had so much experience with pouring unconditional love down into people who did not want to take responsibility for themselves,

Who do not want to commit to growth.

And it's like,

They're better with a therapist,

Not Prama Sutta.

Yeah,

And you can get hold of a therapist pretty easily.

So,

I found this extremely hard,

I always do,

To put the boundary to say,

No,

You know,

We can email,

But I can't talk.

And she was angry with me.

And,

You know,

The anger is coming from her ego.

And it's sort of like,

You know,

Maybe she'll get over it.

But it's also part of why I didn't want to speak,

Because there's,

You know,

There's not much desire for transcendence.

And this work is transcendence,

It's self-realization training.

And she's a really,

Really lovely woman.

And she may get there.

But Prama Sutta does this.

And increasingly,

I'm getting more like this.

And it's out of compassion.

But it can seem heartless,

Especially to the people who want the help.

Or to people who think that,

You know,

Prama Sutta should be available to everybody,

All the time.

And I'm not saying just Prama Sutta,

You know,

That maybe they'd have that idea about other people too.

You know,

We could say,

Oh,

Yeah,

We need to be selfless,

The spiritual journey,

Be selfless,

Right.

But this is key,

You guys,

If you're selfless,

To the point where you lose your center,

Or you lose track of your gift,

What good is that?

What good is that?

Yeah.

So particularly the women,

But everybody,

I want you to really think about this,

What I'm saying.

And Prama Sutta has learned to set boundaries late in life,

Through as a result of just direct experience of that it was a waste of the creator coming through Prama Sutta,

If I didn't take care.

Yeah.

And actually,

It can be a form of abuse,

You know,

It,

It,

It,

I remember,

One woman cancelled appointment three times in a row,

Last minute.

And the third time,

I said,

Okay,

You're going to have to pay me half of the appointment,

If you ever want to come again.

And she was outraged.

But this work,

It comes from the creator,

The 40 year spiritual journey.

I can't allow it to be treated like that.

And now,

If a person cancelled,

I probably would last minute.

I probably wouldn't.

I wouldn't book another appointment.

I might be available for a phone call.

It's not,

You know,

In a way.

And I want you to really hear this.

In our culture,

It's more sanctioned just to be mean than to set boundaries with compassion,

Rather than to honor yourself enough to set your boundaries with compassion.

The honoring of yourself is getting increasingly taboo.

I want you to guys to be really aware of this.

So,

There's a lot of talk about depression and,

And kind of care,

But it's control masked as care.

You know,

This is what Candice said,

Stay away from anything that makes you feel powerless.

And,

You know,

We're starting to use depression like almost a badge of honor.

I've got depression.

It's like,

I've got depression.

I'm off the hook of my life.

I can,

I'm depressed.

I can't take responsibility.

I can't cope.

You know,

But they get their deathbeds,

You guys.

We get our deathbeds.

So,

That's,

That's no,

We,

We can't get out of it.

We can't get out of our dharma.

You might go through,

You know,

If you're depressed,

If you go like,

Okay,

I'm depressed,

But keep a journal and do what you can to help yourself and,

And decide very deeply that you're,

That this depression is going to help your self-knowledge.

And that it's going to,

You're going to learn from it.

And that you're going to clear,

You know,

Emotional garbage through it and become a wiser human being.

It's like,

You know,

I'm going to raise it again,

The fire,

The Los Angeles fire.

For $40,

People could have bought extra sprinklers for their house.

And now,

Like,

About 10 people did.

And they turned on the sprinklers and their houses were safe.

About,

It's about,

Really,

It's about 10 people.

Instead of thousands.

This is how passive we're getting about really important things.

So,

This is what I mean about,

Like,

You have to save yourselves,

You guys.

We all have to save ourselves.

Nobody else can do it.

So,

You listen to yourself about what you need to do to help yourself.

You don't just trust the collective.

Don't trust the culture,

You guys.

Our culture is,

It's this care.

It's control,

Masked as care.

It's happening in our medical systems.

We've lost the healing aspect.

In the old days,

You know,

Doctors worked a lot with intuition.

They had fewer tools.

TLC was a big thing that's kept the human race alive over the centuries,

Because we didn't have much else.

We were sitting with the patient,

Maybe a few herbs.

Now,

We reduce the patient to,

We do so many procedures,

You know,

In the hospital.

You know,

You might get,

Like,

So many operations and things,

And it's so many pills and things to fix you that the whole listening to the body,

Okay.

So,

Guys,

When I had that breast cancer,

And I,

You know,

It started,

First of all,

It shrunk.

It came out of my nodes and healed to half its size before surgery.

So,

Really,

I mean,

I was on my way to healing,

But I just didn't know it.

But I just kind of think there was something,

Oh,

Yeah,

The incision didn't heal well at the beginning part of it on my chest,

About two inches of it.

There was a real problem with the healing.

Like,

It wasn't healing.

And the doctor said that he'd have to do another mini,

I'd have to come and do a little more mini operation to fix it up.

And then he told me that,

You know,

The cancer had come out of my nodes,

And it was only half the size.

And when I came back a week later to have this procedure,

It was all healed,

This two-inch thing that was not healing at all.

And he was shocked.

I mean,

They were all shocked.

And I went,

Oh,

It's because you guys,

You told me that the cancer was healing,

And I felt really upbeat,

Optimistic and hopeful.

So,

The healing happened.

And they looked at me in disbelief,

And I'm going,

I looked at them in disbelief.

I'm not kidding.

I looked at you,

And I'm like,

You what?

You have problems with understanding this?

Like,

I couldn't believe it.

And I went back down,

The nurse,

You know.

So,

After speaking with the doctor,

He sent his nurse to tell me the same thing.

And I said,

Nah,

You guys,

You got to understand,

I was feeling so good.

No,

It's because I was feeling good.

You know,

So I did it very gently and everything,

But I wasn't having it.

I knew it was my hopefulness,

My optimism that healed it.

And it was the same depressive thing,

I mean,

That was making it slow to heal.

I don't know,

I was 65,

And I'm going like,

Here I am,

65,

With breast cancer.

It's like,

What the hell?

What's wrong with my life,

Right?

And that's why it was slow in healing,

And then it reversed.

So,

Guys,

I just want to,

You know,

Your center of gravity is in you.

Like,

You know,

It's in you,

Your life,

And the way your life goes,

It's up to you.

Really,

It's up to you.

And we can get going at any time in our lives,

I was celebrating Michael,

Like,

Last week,

For all the obstacles he went through,

For the breakthrough he's experienced.

Yeah,

I mean,

Things can turn on a dime,

But we're responsible for our lives,

You guys.

We're the one,

We're going to get our deathbeds.

There's nobody else that can do it for us.

So,

The thing that got me when I was,

You know,

I was in this period where I was getting worse as a person,

And I finally came to this watershed moment of,

Okay,

Like,

I knew I couldn't fake it like my mom,

Because I'd,

You know,

Just put a Band-Aid on it,

And just to try to fit in,

Because I knew that the amount of pain coming down our family line was partly because she did that.

So,

All the pain she was carrying wasn't addressed,

So it came down to us.

So,

I really had problems in doing that to my kids.

And also,

I knew,

Like,

She'd married,

You know,

She'd married somebody upwardly mobile and everything.

So,

It seemed to work out for her,

And I knew it wouldn't for me.

I just knew,

I knew it,

Like,

That if I tried to fake it,

It would be a disaster.

Yeah.

So,

I decided to move into truth.

It was an existential decision.

Okay.

I'm going to be the person I was born to be.

Don't have much to lose.

I already know what it's like to be wealthy,

And everybody was unhappy.

And the other thing about with wealth,

I don't know if it's the same now,

But it gets tighter.

The higher you go up in the culture,

The tighter,

The more rules there are,

Really.

No more expectations,

Really.

It's horrible.

You have to shop certain places.

You have to wear certain things.

You have to go to certain schools.

You have to,

You know,

You have to,

Like,

Get six PhDs.

You have to make a million dollars before you're 30.

It goes on and on and on.

And I really,

I think that's why,

You know,

Sometimes the kids just become drug addicts.

You know,

That happened with some of the kids that I grew up with.

I just didn't want to face it,

And I get why.

You know,

The thing about glamour,

We look at people,

They can look very glamorous,

And we go,

Oh,

Their lives are so great.

And you know what we're doing?

We are projecting creator dust onto them.

Like,

When you move into truth,

You,

Your life starts getting enriched in ways that you used to project out on glamorous people.

Do you understand this?

Your life becomes magic.

It gets fairy dust all over it.

Yeah.

And I think our fascination with movie stars and everything is this,

Underneath,

We know that life is really magic.

And instead of learning how to live it,

We project it onto these people,

And we say,

Oh,

Their lives must be so great.

I don't know if you understand that.

Yeah,

Okay,

Nodding.

Okay,

Good.

It's really important to,

I think it's really important to get that,

Because the more in truth you,

You become,

What happens is you get a natural elegance happens,

And your movements become more,

I don't know,

Soft.

I mean,

When I first started studying with Abraham,

There was this,

You know,

Dance,

The flight that you did,

And all these round movements.

And fresh from my journalistic career,

I was all,

I was all awkward,

And like,

A male,

I moved like a male.

I didn't,

I didn't know how to move like a woman at all.

And those hours and hours of this,

Doing this dance over those years,

I learned,

I learned,

My body became,

Started moving fluid.

I started moving into my feminine.

But I had really wanted to be able to have feminine movements for years.

But it wasn't until I,

You know,

Started dealing with myself that I got in.

I had to face my own self.

And then I got these things that I'd always wanted.

Somebody I worked with wanted to,

She'd wanted to work in museums since she was a little kid.

And there were at the time,

I don't think there are many museums in Vancouver,

But this is like about 30 years ago,

And there were about five.

And we did one session,

She shifted into self-acceptance,

And within two weeks,

She'd got a job at the Maritime Museum in Vancouver.

And she'd gone to a party,

And she,

You know,

Started talking,

They mentioned they needed somebody,

And she said she'd wanted to work in a museum,

And she got the job.

Right.

She'd wanted to work in a museum for years.

It wasn't until she made the inward shift.

Yeah,

It's just so seamless.

When we make shifts internally,

Our lives change.

Sometimes we just need the support to make the shift.

We need a little company,

A little wise company,

Sometimes,

Input from somebody who's done it.

But no,

You know,

Permasuda just makes shifts herself.

I mean,

They just happen.

But if you keep praying sincerely,

Observing your experience,

Wishing to,

You know,

Bring more light to this world,

You will shift.

You will shift.

I had a shift today during bhajans.

I could feel every cell accept more love.

Yeah.

And when we do that,

Something nice will happen to us.

You guys,

Every time in your meditation,

If you're heart open in meditation,

If you notice your experience within a day or two,

You will have a lovely,

Heart-opening conversation with somebody.

Yeah,

When you work with your inner,

Your outer changes.

Any comments or questions,

You guys?

Or anything you want me to talk about?

Hi,

Permasuda.

Laura,

How's the religious wars going?

Oh,

I'm trying not to fight.

I'm not fighting,

But there's a religious retreat this Saturday.

Saturday is Amma's birthday,

But it's also my sister's birthday,

And that's going to be her celebration,

So they want me to come.

This tiny,

Tiny voice knows that it would throw me off completely to go,

Because it would be really hard physically and mentally,

And I know Amma will be there,

But I'm having trouble speaking with it.

So,

Yeah.

I'm having trouble having compassion for myself,

Saying,

Oh,

Just dissociate.

You could do it.

I don't want to dissociate anymore.

It's impossible to love yourself when you're not here.

Yeah.

You know,

Laura,

I think for five years we've get to this point,

And it's a place where it's like all you know is to struggle and resist.

And I think that if you found a deeper love in your heart,

That you would just feel it and do whatever you did,

And it would be effortless,

And everybody would accept it.

It wouldn't upset anybody.

And I guess I've been asking you to come into this deeper love for like five years.

Yep.

Yep.

Sometimes we have to go beyond anywhere we've ever gone before.

I mean,

I think the simplest thing is just speak to Amma about what you should do,

And then just do it,

And like,

Yeah,

Let's do it.

But I don't know why,

Like,

Everybody's God,

Sweetie.

They don't have to.

They don't always have to be a fight about something.

Yeah,

And I think you're sick of it yourself,

And I think you're tired of it.

Like,

Your body's tired of it.

It makes you tired.

Right.

And,

You know,

You're not a bad girl.

Like,

You know,

Well,

I don't know if you,

You know,

If you feel helped,

Or maybe you feel chastised,

Or what are you feeling?

No,

I don't feel that at all.

You always point out the next step,

Like you said.

So,

Thank you.

You guys,

I want to speak to you,

Laura,

And then the whole group.

In the,

In my 50s,

I,

When I sat down to meditate,

I always felt this kind of feeling of gravel,

And a feeling of that under the meditation,

There was this gravel,

Like little rocks,

Kind of.

I don't know how to explain it,

But just,

Just that.

And you know what I never did?

I never went,

What,

What is this gravel feeling?

What is this?

Like,

Getting curious about it,

And exploring it.

You know,

Like,

Realizing that it could be cleared.

I just sort of accepted this limitation of this gravel feeling.

And you know what happened,

Is finally,

The universe,

My soul,

Gave me a big push.

And I was,

I had to face this material really drastically.

Like,

It was like,

It was horrible.

But it cleared.

It cleared.

But I realized afterwards,

I could have asked that it cleared.

You know,

I could have asked to face it,

And get curious about it.

So,

I think,

Laura,

You could too.

I mean,

You could say like,

Okay,

I want to face whatever it is that,

That makes me fight all the time.

Why do I do this?

Where is it coming from?

Right.

And personally,

From a Sudha feels,

Amma would like,

Jump up and down in happiness.

The getting curious about ourselves,

You guys,

Not forcing,

And,

And just doing it at a pace that you can handle.

Because whatever we get curious about,

Will start to unravel.

You know,

What,

Okay,

Laura,

Whatever we fight,

Gets bigger.

Whatever we embrace,

You know,

Embrace and get curious about.

And,

You know,

Yeah.

You know,

As the journey proceeds,

We get,

We get,

We get harmless.

We get like herbivores.

We become a herbivore.

It's true.

We just kind of chew our grass.

Right,

Amma?

We don't fight with people so much.

We don't fuss so much.

We don't care what they think.

We're nicer to people.

You know,

Christ said,

The meek shall inherit the earth.

And it's not meek as in like,

Fear-based.

But meek as in just harmless.

You know,

Harmless,

Like just live and let live.

And,

You know,

We,

We think that we have to build armors and fight to protect ourselves,

You know.

But we don't.

Just turn,

Hold on to the Creator,

Hold on to Amma's feed.

That,

That is,

That's,

That's what brought Pramasuta through everything.

That's the difference.

I didn't have Amma's feed growing up to hold on to.

I do now.

I mean,

She was there.

She must have been,

But I didn't have it before.

Well,

We all come in with,

To get wounded,

And we all get wounded.

And then the gig is to open our hearts to ourselves.

And to bring in Amma.

Yeah.

And then if you really do it,

You become,

You know,

Peaceful and,

And a herbivore,

In my experience.

Harmless.

It's like the deer that live behind us.

I see them all the time.

And all they do is eat grass.

Well,

Think of it like they're meditating.

The thing is,

Sweetie,

It's like really five years of the same story,

Really.

Yeah.

We have to get curious about what we get out of it,

You know.

Sometimes we're just getting suffering out of it.

Sometimes we're just getting that,

You know,

Our egos are happy because we're staying in the same conditioned upset that we grew up in,

So our egos are happy.

Everybody's,

Okay,

Everybody's got a broken heart,

You guys.

All your family members have broken hearts,

Laura.

Like yours.

Yeah.

Everybody's doing their best.

And,

You know,

Amma will show you how to handle things.

Thank you.

Yeah.

It's not easy,

Sweetie.

It's really not easy.

Like,

We all know that,

You guys.

It's not easy.

Yep.

And the more intense it gets,

The more the other side of it will be a relief,

You know,

A lighter.

Like,

For instance,

You know,

Today I had this,

Like,

I don't know what's going on with the world,

The collective,

But man,

Did I ever have a feeling of intense,

It was like intense energy not being allowed to move.

And I was sitting with it going,

Wow,

This is,

This is not very comfortable.

And Pramasutra worked really hard with Amma.

Help,

Amma,

Bring me some grace.

What is this?

Really,

It was sort of like,

It just felt like the whole Soviet bloc in Pramasutra's body,

Really,

It was kind of really,

Kind of felt like that.

And,

Like,

Led.

And,

Yeah.

And then,

You know,

Then suddenly it was that feeling of every cell opened up to the light.

And Pramasutra went,

Yay,

Amma,

You go,

Yay.

We're not in charge here on the journey.

It's way bigger than we are.

We have a tendency to think,

Okay,

If I do this and this and this,

And I do all my practices,

Or I'm in the right religion,

Or whatever,

Or if I try really hard,

That,

You know,

We'll be able to manage our journey,

And we can't.

We genuflect to the mystery.

You genuflect,

You just bow down.

You just bow down.

You can't control it.

Bow down,

And you'll have your best chance of controlling it by bowing down.

Because if you bow down and surrender,

You actually get a measure of control.

But there is something so much beyond us running this show.

I mean,

We see Amma's body,

But we don't see,

We attach to her body,

But she is the mystery.

She's the mystery with a capital M,

Behind her body,

Bow down to the mystery.

I think it's a good thing to remind ourselves,

You know,

That it's not just the physical Amma.

It's,

She's the mystery.

Genuflect to the mystery.

That has saved Pramasutha.

Genuflecting to the mystery.

Truly.

And also having an optimistic attitude.

So,

You know,

When I was like,

In my worst,

Like,

You know,

Like really in the hardest possible times,

I still had this,

Oh,

It'll get better somehow.

It was just,

Oh,

It'll sort itself out.

Even if it was like 2% of Pramasutha's thought processes.

You know,

And the old act as if,

Act as if it's just aphasia going through and everything's going to be fine in the long run.

That's another one.

Make it till you make it.

Act as if.

Act as if you're already who you want to become.

That's,

That's,

That's it,

You guys.

Act as if you're already that.

Pramasutha did that a lot.

You know,

The boundaries with compassion,

Like,

Get clear on what you can do.

Like,

The demands that people make,

Get clear about what you can do and what you can't.

And what you can't do,

Just tell them you can't.

Don't fight with them.

You just tell them.

Because if you're really congruent about it,

If you've really accepted that you cannot do this,

There won't be any fight.

I promise you,

There'll be no fight.

The people will go,

Okay.

Yeah.

That's the way it works,

You guys.

It's when we're conflicted inside and upset inside,

Then people will get upset with us.

It's like,

I told you,

My dad,

You know,

He would get me out of bed every weekend to make his coffee at 7.

30 in the morning.

It takes me till I'm 19.

I finally stand up and I say,

Dad,

You need to get yourself one of those percolators that's got a timer.

I'm not going to do it anymore.

I'm not getting you coffee.

And he went,

Okay.

And it's like,

This guy,

I've been scared that,

I've been so scared to stand up to him.

It's like,

I thought I'd be murdered.

But I was congruent when I did it.

I was fully clear that I was not going to make his coffee.

So I just told him and he went,

Okay.

But if I'd approached him with,

If I was nervous about telling him,

I wasn't sure that it was going to be okay if I had baggage going,

Oh,

Dad,

I'm not going to get your coffee.

I've just had it up to here.

I'm not going to.

We would have had a fight.

Yeah,

Come on,

You guys.

This is common sense.

Everybody knows this stuff.

You know,

Really,

It's common sense.

This is sort of like introducing common sense in our world.

Has anybody got questions?

Comments?

You know,

Shoot from the hip.

Anything goes.

We all have nothing to lose and a great deal to gain.

Hi,

Pramasutha.

It's Jenna.

Jenna.

What's up?

Well,

So I've been thinking about being plugged in to Amma on the inside.

Because I think what,

To speak to what you just said,

I think for me,

Like the incongruousness stems from there not feeling plugged in.

And I was in the woods this morning and thinking about the visuals that you gave me and imagining that I'm inside of Amma and that all this is Amma,

Which felt powerful and good.

And I'm noticing the last few days a metallic taste in my mouth.

And that's what I wanted to ask you about.

Oh,

Yeah,

A shadow.

When we're clearing a shadow,

It will taste metallic.

Yeah.

Well,

It's either you're getting caught in your shadow,

Or you're clearing it.

Do you know what I mean?

Yeah.

So you just decide that you're clearing it.

And this makes sense to me,

Because if you actually like,

I'm going to say,

I told Jenna that she has a bit of fog around her in her head,

Like around her third eye.

She often says,

You've talked about the fog a lot.

And it's there to stop you seeing the light.

And that is your shadow side running that.

Yeah.

Okay,

So if you're feeling this metallic,

That sounds like good preparation for the talk we're going to have and the clearing.

Right?

Yeah.

And you know,

Jenna,

You'd admit this to you,

You've had quite a lot of drama about this fog,

Really,

And you're just going to find out it's just seamless to clear.

It's when we're ready to clear,

It just clears without trouble.

And Premasutha got to the point with Jenna,

I was like,

Okay,

I'm finished.

I'm not going along with any drama at all anymore.

Right.

So we finally get there.

This is how silly it is.

I mean,

It's so adorable.

But it's like,

It's so fluid.

It's so fixable.

We just have to like,

Get off our high horses,

Get humble and learn and open to learn,

Right?

Yeah.

And we all want to talk about the journey.

We all,

You know,

It's so much easier to talk about healing,

But doing it is scarier,

But it's the fun part.

I mean,

Jen is going to find out what it's like to have a functioning third eye.

You know,

You know what happens?

The ghosts disappear when your third eye is functioning.

Really?

Yeah.

Yeah.

You see more light.

The whole thing is so funny.

So this is also why Premasutha is getting more like,

You know,

Not putting up with so much.

And it's good.

Yeah.

You see,

I could see it through all your,

You guys,

Because I ran all this stuff myself.

You see,

That's why I could see it.

It's not like you're bad or anything.

I did it too.

And you know,

When I,

That time when I was,

The second time I went to the loony bin,

I told you that in that period in my 30s,

Very limited period in my 30s,

But I was bent over.

I could not stand up.

Really.

I could not stand up.

And I was getting a physical experience of the fact that I was not standing up in my life.

Do you get it?

That I was feeling so burdened and crushed that I was like bent over.

But if there'd been a shaman right at the doorway to the psych ward who could have said to me,

Woman,

Let me give you a hug and we'll just embrace all this.

And if he'd said,

Look,

I really know what you're doing,

But you're fine.

You can stand up anytime.

Let me just give you a hug.

Or,

You know,

Ama.

I mean,

Obviously ama,

But even a non-ama person,

Like just a shaman could do that.

Any loving person could do that.

I would have stood up.

I would have stood up and I would have avoided the whole two week virago in the psych ward.

This is why I don't believe in,

I mean,

I hear about the symptoms you have and everything,

You guys,

But it's just,

It's just smoke and mirrors.

I just want to embrace you.

So,

You know,

You're,

You realize that you don't have to be anxious and you can realize that you can grab ama's feet and that you,

You have ama's heart in you already.

You guys,

Like you're,

You,

You are her,

Her inner ama.

You're on your inside.

You are her.

You are the mystery in your true nature.

Yeah.

So,

What is there to fight about?

If we're the mystery,

Why would we have fights with people?

Why don't we just like eat our grass,

Meditate,

Smile at children?

Yeah,

I know you guys,

You know,

I'll tell you the whole group and Laura,

Like,

Please be of good cheer with this because the whole group,

You guys are all shifting into trust,

More trust.

I can feel it.

It was very dramatic yesterday with what happened in the question and answer.

So,

Laura,

Your problem is you're identified with fassing instead of identified with ama.

I know it sounds so easy,

But,

You know,

That today I was,

I was sitting there really feeling like I had this big kind of bunker in my body.

It's like,

Uh,

Really,

I was feeling this lead and wow,

What is this?

And I'm going,

It just felt like the Ukraine kind of,

You know,

Really,

It kind of felt like that.

And then all this love came in and,

You know,

So we're all in this together.

Really,

We're all here doing it together.

Yeah,

You guys aren't separate.

You might feel separate,

But you're not.

Don't even fight with the being feeling separate.

Just you can feel separate and yet know that you're not separate,

That you're one with everything.

Right.

At least theoretically,

If you get that.

And as we all know,

How many years has Pramasutha had on the journey?

Everybody together?

40!

The big 40!

So please,

Patience,

You guys.

And may your journey be like a quarter.

I mean,

May you do it in 10 years,

You know.

Who knows?

Who knows what's going to happen?

Maybe there's really good news right around the corner.

Who knows?

Anyway,

You know,

The worst things yet in the world,

That's why we're able to do this kind of work.

Really,

It's everything's the bell curve,

You know.

So,

To the extent,

You know,

That's why it's a big mistake,

Like for any like fascist regime to try to get rid of the,

Say,

If you try to wipe out the or go after the people with the lower intelligence,

Because then you will also lose the people with the higher intelligence.

It's,

We get the light and the dark.

We get,

You can't,

You can't mess with it.

It's like a bell curve always.

It's just where you want to play.

So,

We're playing in a very rarefied energy and we can do that because this is such a dark time.

You see,

It's all good.

But we can't,

You know,

Improve humanity by doing genetic modifications.

It won't work at all.

The only thing,

Okay,

What will help humanity is Amma.

She is,

You know,

She has these children who they play drums every night.

They're beautiful and they're like three,

Four,

Five,

Six,

About really.

These play these drums.

They sit for hours from the program,

Play these drums,

Even do solos.

But beyond that,

You guys,

These kids give satsangs.

A three-year-old,

Yeah,

I'm not kidding,

Three,

Four,

Five,

And they give very highly intelligent,

I'm not kidding,

Satsangs about the spiritual knowledge of the traditions of,

In India.

I'm not,

I'm not joking.

It's right.

It is,

It is impossible,

But we,

It happens daily with Amma.

Like,

This is,

This is normal.

And this shows the possibility of humanity,

Of our capacities,

Of our genius.

Really,

These kids,

Right,

We have way more capacities and they become free as we open our hearts.

As we open our hearts,

Your capacities will show.

But if kids were raised with,

Like,

Warm,

Warm loving and not being asked to shut down,

Their capacities would,

Would show way more.

These kids,

I mean,

They give adult satsangs,

Adult level.

It's,

It's just,

It's just weird seeing this little three-year-old speaking like this,

You know?

Yeah.

So,

In you,

You have tremendous capacities that can be brought out any time,

Just through opening your heart,

Basically.

You know,

Pramasutta,

I developed a lot of talents that I didn't even know I had,

Just through opening my heart.

I mean,

I kept falling over another talent.

Now,

This is not just Pramasutta.

You guys,

You do it.

If you live this way,

You,

This is what will happen.

You just become like this expanding flower.

You open and you open and you open and you,

It,

It,

You just get more and more sort of talented,

Intelligent and,

And you,

You do things in the fastest possible way,

Kind of.

You go right to the heart of something.

You don't waste time.

You know,

It's not so much like taking a course.

You can take a course and develop,

But sometimes just working with something around your home and you'll just see that you've done something very beautiful.

Yeah.

Maybe even arranging furniture,

You know.

I'll tell you what,

Pramasutta's specialty was shopping from Walmart and making very beautiful interiors from Walmart.

I'm not kidding you.

I'm not kidding you.

It was like,

It was a special talent.

That and second-hand shops.

Yeah.

So,

You'll just be amazed.

You'll just be amazed at what you,

At your genius inside.

Just play with it,

You know.

Don't squeeze yourself.

Just keep holding on to Amma's feet.

Keep praying for,

Yeah,

Expansion.

And then be prepared to go through emotional contractions without complaining.

Just go through them and you'll get your expansion.

Yeah,

I know it sounds so simple.

Even Pramasutta was a bit fed up today with feeling like the whole Ukraine was inside her or whatever.

I was like,

Why do I do this work?

Really?

So,

You know,

It's just human.

But then I had the breakthrough for the cells and I know that there's a good reason for it.

A lot of people around the ashram have been talking to me about how intense it is.

So,

I don't know if it's really intense around the ashram or if it's just globally really intense for everybody.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Probably globally.

Yeah.

I hope you're happier than when you started,

You guys.

Yeah.

It's kind of like,

You know,

Getting a hug from your mama.

You know,

It's the upbeat.

Keep,

You know,

Keep your spirits up.

Come on,

You can do it.

You can do it.

Yeah.

Okay.

So,

Is there any questions or comments?

Anybody else?

Anything?

Pressing?

Can't wait.

Okay.

Well,

I think we're on for two satsangs next week.

I think that they can go.

There's no problem with them.

So,

We'll plan on that.

And Saskia's back in Vancouver.

Thank goodness.

So,

We'll get back to normal malady about the satsangs being posted on YouTube and everything.

And things,

The notification will get sent out on time.

And Brahma Sudha,

I go,

Oh no,

It's Friday.

Oh,

I've got to get it out.

Yep.

Okay,

You guys.

Well,

Many,

Many blessings.

Thank you.

It's so lovely to see your faces.

Yeah.

And more than seeing your faces,

I feel your presence.

It's so lovely to feel your presence.

And remember,

The love is coming to you.

I mean,

You have Amma.

You don't even need Brahma Sudha,

But Brahma Sudha,

It's coming.

It comes all the time to you.

And I'm really,

I'm really moved by the growth.

Yeah.

And the openness.

Yeah.

Okay.

Many blessings,

You guys.

Bye.

Bye.