Our Truest Self Possible
Happiness comes as we move into truth. Underneath, this freedom may feel somehow "Not Allowed“ Not surprising. Often in childhood, we disconnected from our inner intelligence and began to live below our true capacity. Our ego is comfortable with this underfunctioning, but the price is emotional chaos created when we try to suppress our real Self. It is like trying to suppress the sun. When we allow these dis-owned parts back, we open up to the Creator within. Our vibration rises; we become more peaceful; and our life starts to transform. Some friendships may fall away but inner peace and self-acceptance come. Our soul is our eternal Self but the body is also a good pal. The location of our illness or pain often reflects the spiritual/emotional issue we came to heal. How wonderful that we can actually learn to feel our cells letting go of emotional complexes and filling up with unconditional love and grace instead! Speakers: Bhavani, Dharadevi, Susan Music: Jenna
Transcript
Yeah,
So we're beginning with this grace,
This call for this golden elixir that Bruno Gröning,
Who is a German healer,
Was a German healer,
Many of you know,
Called Haustrum,
And it's this golden elixir that is available for us all the time for us to draw on.
And the more we,
You know,
Focus on the divine,
Entertain positive thoughts,
You know,
Or observe negative ones,
Just observing them,
If you can't do anything else,
That neutralizes them,
But keep steering toward the divine,
Keep kind of crawling out of the pond of muck,
You know.
But sometimes we're just in it when we've got a complex leaving,
You know,
We just have to be with yourself.
But know that this grace is helping you out of this negativity,
It's helping you up in vibration.
I mean,
Amma personifies this,
And when she hugs us,
Our whole bodies get,
And beings,
Psychological beings,
Emotional being,
Intellectual being,
Etheric being,
All get recalibrated to be able to receive more grace.
And when we think of her,
Or if we think of Jesus,
It helps us receive more grace,
You guys.
We're responsible for ourselves,
We're responsible for our states.
We're responsible to allow the healing,
Okay?
That means noticing your states,
Noticing negativity,
And reminding yourself that there is this golden elixir that you are made out of.
And premasutras life is a testament to how this grace just lifts us up.
And I've watched so many of you do this.
Grace lifts you up.
I observe it,
I witness it.
Just as we are with each other in these sad sayings,
And sometimes in person,
But may this golden elixir of this grace be a blessing to you.
May the grace of this hailstorm become more and more palpable to you,
So you feel it more and more,
And trust it more and more.
And so it is.
Before we start the questions,
I just want to say that there comes a moment on the journey where you decide you're okay as you are.
Yeah.
And sure,
With things to learn here,
To be rubbed out,
And complexes to be worked with,
But there's a baseline of that you're welcome here on the earth.
You just kind of make that decision.
You make that shift.
You decide that,
Yeah,
You deserve to be here.
It's your birthright.
And you are a beloved child of God who's learning.
Yeah.
That's so different from what it's like,
You know,
When we feel that we don't even deserve to be here,
And we have to do contortions to fix ourselves.
Yeah.
They're two very different ways.
And,
You know,
In my experience,
The contortions and trying to fix ourselves,
It finally brings us to surrender,
And we go,
Well,
I'm who I am.
I'm not fixable.
And that is good when you get there.
You just start to be.
Yeah.
And you know,
Just be,
You guys,
With this,
Please don't take this.
If you're feeling like you're one of the ones stuck and fix yourself,
Don't take all this as another level of fixing yourself.
Just take it as premisudes welcoming you home,
Welcoming you into her arms,
Welcoming you to life as you are,
That you're a beloved.
You're a beloved of Amma,
Of the Creator,
A beloved of premisudes.
You've just got love coming at you from all directions,
You know?
Anyway.
And may your body resonate with this.
May it open to this.
May you open to grace.
Okay.
That's what I want to say.
So,
Questions,
Comments,
Arguments?
Let it rip.
Yeah,
You can't do anything wrong.
Yeah.
Hi,
Premisuda.
Hi.
Because you know a little bit about what's going on.
And I'm just just kind of the feeling of overwhelm.
Like,
You know,
Even just getting basic things done in a day and it's just like,
Yeah,
Just feeling overwhelmed by everything that's just going on inside and knowing that it's reflected outside.
But you just,
Yeah,
It's there.
It's Yeah.
Yeah.
You know,
It's it's part of the feminine.
The feminine gets overwhelmed.
And you know,
There's a level that in the way of evolution,
We get overwhelmed and then we move through it.
But unless we get overwhelmed,
It's sometimes male and female,
It's hard to evolve.
So it's good.
So sweet one.
Premisuda has deep empathy because this is what I would get like with the boys.
And,
You know,
This,
It's,
You know,
You're faced with becoming clear within and also having to earn some money.
And,
You know,
Yeah,
You've got a lot on your plate all at once.
Right.
Right.
So do you think that Alma can help you through this or that Hailstrom can help you through this?
Yeah.
Sometimes,
You guys,
We have part of our personality that wants to disempower us.
Part of us feels like it's not safe to really take the reins of our lives.
And so we kind of function at a lower level,
We get like in chaos.
But if you just bring Vani,
I want you to listen to me.
So really settle in and listen.
I feel like part of you doesn't want to listen.
Okay.
Okay.
Actually,
Vani,
I feel that.
That a secret part of you doesn't want to listen.
Yeah.
And this is what we bump up against.
It's okay.
It's not bad.
But it's as if this staying kind of under-functioning is a payoff to your ego.
Your ego wants to keep you under-functioning.
Right.
I don't want that anymore.
It's been enough.
It's really not fun.
Yeah.
You've been doing it for a long time.
Yeah.
Okay.
But there's a secret part of you that wants to keep it going.
Yeah.
It's angry.
It's angry.
It's like saying to me,
I've heard this a million times.
I'm like,
Show me the proof.
Show me.
Yeah.
Right.
It's a child.
You know,
You say you had a happy childhood,
But there was something in your childhood where you felt,
You know,
I don't know what it was.
Whether your mom,
Like,
Tends to box herself or something.
There's a boxing going on.
But there was some part where you felt really disallowed.
And you guys,
Everybody is listening to this.
This is very common.
Okay.
Right.
And it got boxed out of the equation.
Like,
Not allowed.
Not allowed.
Not allowed.
So,
Premasuddha knows this part of herself,
Too.
But the part that's being walled off is your genius part.
It's the part that's closest to God.
Right.
Right.
Right.
And this part is allowed in.
Right.
Really,
You guys.
For all of you.
You can allow this part in.
You know,
This is the part that sees the truth.
Yeah.
So,
Bhavani,
It's like,
With all of this,
Just realize there's been a payoff for staying in this chaotic state.
And that you've got to really now grab hold.
And you don't have to do it for Premasuddha or for anybody other than you.
It's just that if you don't do it,
The price of this underfunctioning,
Of this chaotic underfunctioning will get bigger.
You'll feel the bigger price of it.
Right.
You guys,
The answers are deep within us.
We go to teachers or we,
You know,
Go to ashrams and everything because we want to be healed.
But the next step is to really open to the truth of you,
To the deeper,
What's going on more deeply in your unconscious.
Like,
All of you will know what I'm talking about.
You see,
We do know.
We are aware of these denials.
It's just paid off to function in this denial state.
And it's just paid off to function in this state.
It paid off as a kid to sort of cut off our intelligence,
To chunk down.
And when we do that,
It can be scary to allow ourselves to chunk back up,
To receive our full intelligence,
Our full capacities.
So,
Bhavani,
I feel you just need to be very,
Very patient with yourself.
Really,
Really patient.
And at the same time,
Remember that you have the ability to come into clarity.
You do.
Yeah,
You do.
Good.
You're receiving this.
Good.
You're receiving this.
Shame on us.
Shame.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Even a little.
It doesn't matter.
Even a little bit.
Once you get that you can allow the change,
You can paddle your own canoe.
You go,
Oh,
Okay,
I can make these shifts.
Right.
I can shift into more intelligence,
More capacity.
You know,
You guys,
It really helps to be lovingly witnessed,
In my experience.
Yeah.
So,
This isn't a must-do.
It's just Pramasutra's expressing love and remembers what worked for her.
And when I say remembers what worked for me,
It is what works on the journey.
Right.
We allow our higher intelligences.
And when we do that,
We feel more peaceful.
And solutions bubble up.
And,
Bhavani,
You may just have to go through a period where you just accept that you're totally under-functioning.
And it is just this way.
And then,
You know,
There may be like a sign of spring,
A glimmer,
And you go,
Oh,
Okay.
Okay.
That was really what it was like for Pramasutra a lot.
And the need for patience and self-observation and don't let your mind run with negative thoughts.
If you've got them,
Observe them.
Because the negative thoughts,
Remember,
I told you,
They push your kundalini back down.
If you want your kundalini to come up,
It's like the focus on the Creator,
Focusing on love,
Being kind.
If you get lost in negativity,
It will push your kundalini back down.
But if you can observe your negative thoughts,
That is good enough.
You know,
Sometimes Pramasutra,
When I was clearing a complex,
I would just get lost in negativity.
But at least I could witness it.
Right.
So how do you feel right now,
Bhavani?
Really good.
Really thankful.
Really hopeful.
Yeah.
Right.
Yeah.
Good.
It's like,
You're going to have to do this.
You know,
This is where Pramasutra was brought to.
It's like push came to shove.
I had to do it.
You're going to have to do this.
Yeah.
Thank goodness.
It's time.
Enough is enough.
Well,
You know,
Just to remind yourself how lucky you are to have that little munchkin and that you know Amma.
You know,
You guys just do a lot of that.
You know,
And there's great empathy and love coming from Pramasutra.
Sweet one.
Yeah.
And that question spoke to everybody.
So it's all good.
I'm feeling to say it again to the whole group.
You guys get this higher intelligence is knocking on your door and it is what makes you feel anxious and what you're scared of.
But it's just your soul coming in.
It's just your connection to Amma coming in.
Yeah.
Yeah.
So just keep,
You know,
Imagining the door open.
Let this energy come in.
Yeah.
And you can ask for grace that,
You know,
That you get enough time to integrate it,
Even if you're busy with jobs and kids and everything.
You can ask that you have enough space to be able to integrate it.
And I'll tell you,
Amma will give you the space.
In fact,
Asking for the space is integration of,
Is opening the door to integration of this higher intelligence within you.
Yeah.
It's very good.
Yeah.
Because this is what all fear is.
And Ruth,
We're scared of really embodying our higher intelligence.
And we've got all kinds of storylines about the fear,
But really the bottom line,
We're scared to be in our divine energy.
Yeah.
Okay.
Open the floor for questions.
Om Namah Shivaya.
Prima Sudha.
Oh,
Good.
Sweet.
Hello,
Sweetheart.
Om Namah Shivaya.
You know,
In this moment,
From this process,
From the shift,
Yeah,
With people,
You know,
I have,
My experience is in this moment that I don't go in this,
I change my roads or I don't,
I see my old roads with these people.
And I cannot say that I have conflicts,
But I don't,
I feel super uncomfortable to see in which kind of communication I am with people,
You know,
And I really make some cuts with people where I thought,
No,
I don't like this energy anymore in my life,
You know.
And it comes out from a big clearness.
It's not like I feel angry,
But I feel super surprised because in this moment,
This is with some people,
You know.
But it's not,
I mean,
You know that I live there in this community.
And of course,
There are many people,
But I feel the change also is like I lose some old friends,
You know.
Yeah,
I can see it's not about them.
It's my process.
And I feel comfortable.
I feel only I don't want that in my life,
That they talk like that with me or that I'm in this role to serve,
Serve always the same structure.
And,
But I hope also that people coming in my life who,
Who I like this energy.
I don't know.
I mean,
It's a lot of people in this moment,
You know,
Where I think,
No,
I don't want this energy in my life,
You know.
What,
What do you think?
Well,
You know,
When we're going up in vibration,
That,
That happens.
And we're a little brought out from our old comfort relationships.
You know,
Lots of times,
You know,
In my experience,
The,
My soul wanted me to really kind of walk alone for a while,
Like,
To really focus on my own process more,
And not be so affiliative with other people.
And so,
You know,
We want people to be there.
When we move into this higher vibration,
We want to find people like us.
But,
You know,
The key is actually to make friends with the God in you,
So that you're,
You don't need friends in a way,
The same way.
And this is the function of Satsang,
That it gives a comfortable,
You know,
Group,
You get a little bit of the mammalian need for a group.
Yeah.
You know,
In,
From a student's experience,
I mean,
I,
We go as far as we go in our lives.
We're in this incredibly accelerative period.
You could grow very,
Very much,
Theradevi,
At this time.
If you really take it to heart and go,
I really want to become an enlightened woman.
Right?
And you're a little bit,
Oh,
That sounds a bit lonely.
But it is the truth of you.
You're already enlightened.
Yeah.
You know,
I feel like every serious spiritual seeker has periods where they're really kind of uncomfortable with other people for various reasons.
You know,
Especially when we're morphing,
When we're changing vibration.
I,
What I feel it's the increased focus on,
Oh,
I know,
It's to allow yourself to be encouraged.
It's feeling,
It feels that there's sort of this encouragement in your heart,
Wanting,
It wants to come through and encourage you more,
To just keep going.
Even if you're uncomfortable with other people,
And maybe there are no friends right now,
Or not so many,
It's okay.
It's okay.
Just permiss you to have that in spades.
You just keep going and let this,
Oh,
I can feel it,
This warmth in your heart,
Ah,
Encompass you.
Okay.
It's beautiful.
I'm feeling this,
That you're allowing this deeper level of self-love to come in.
Yeah.
It's like an energetic embrace from your own heart.
This is what helps you guys when we do this.
We bang our heads against the wall,
I don't have friends,
Whatever it is,
I'm not earning money,
Or whatever it is.
And it's like,
Yeah,
When we just pull back and this,
Right,
You deserve this love.
There's a little bit of wobbliness on whether you feel you deserve this love or not,
But you do.
I see it so strongly,
How much you deserve it.
Yeah,
Truly.
Truly.
That work you did when I was in Germany was stunning.
It was a huge step that many don't make,
Or haven't made yet.
Right.
And your experience would have been quite dense after that.
It would have been quite difficult.
But you're coming through beautifully,
And you just need a little bit of encouragement.
Right.
And keep referring to your heart.
And the other thing is,
You guys,
You know,
You can contact me on WhatsApp and even leave an audio message,
You know,
And I'll respond.
Yeah,
Please.
I'm behind you.
Yeah,
Or a call,
Whatever.
But sometimes,
You know,
Just an audio message is kind of what we need the most,
And then Kramasutra's response.
Whatever helps you guys,
Kramasutra wants to do.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Because this is good.
Because this is the process that brings peace to the world.
Right.
That's it.
Right.
Well,
How do you feel right now,
Vera Devi?
Yeah,
I feel super relaxed now,
And positive,
Very positive for this process also.
Yeah.
Thank you for these words and this offering.
Yeah,
I will do it.
Yeah.
I feel I'm in a very good process also with this.
You are.
Yes.
I feel I'm in a good way since we have this treatment in Germany,
Really.
I feel very good.
But many things change,
You know.
But now I feel very good.
Very good.
Thank you.
Good.
You know,
You guys,
This is a process.
When you really live the spiritual journey,
This is the process of individuation that Carl Jung talks about.
It's uncomfortable.
Yeah.
Yes.
I also watch a lot,
Because you told that about Carl Jung.
Yeah.
Carl Jung.
Yeah,
Yeah,
Yeah.
That's about this working with the shadow.
I think it's super interesting what he says.
I really study this in this moment,
You know.
It's very helpful,
His teachings.
Okay.
So remember,
Though,
You are a divine being in human form,
And you're serving love.
And so your shadow comes up to be cleared as a result of that.
Some people make the mistake of really focusing on the shadow.
And you guys,
Whatever you focus on gets bigger.
So if you go looking for your shadow,
It will get bigger.
Look for love.
Serve kindness,
Love.
Get closer to Amma,
And your shadow will come up and be cleared as a byproduct.
Yes,
Yes.
I always see the light.
I'm a very positive person.
And then comes the shadow,
Only a little bit.
And then I think,
Okay,
What's that?
Aha,
Okay.
Then I only integrate in the moment.
It's a very quick process,
This work.
It's good.
With people,
Then I realize also,
Now it's a little bit complicated,
But I don't focus in the shadow.
Good,
Good.
I focus in the light and love.
There have been several people who have done that.
Yes,
Yes,
Yes.
No,
No.
Okay,
Okay.
So,
You know,
Just as we clear our connection to Amma and to our hearts,
What happens is our hearts,
The love in our hearts,
Will observe,
We witness ourselves this way.
So,
The love in our hearts will shine a light on our negativity or shadow.
And then we don't,
It's like you don't want to lose your best friend.
You want to be true to your,
Or you want to be true to your beloved.
So,
You allow your shadow to melt away.
Yeah.
It's a relationship,
You guys,
With your divinity.
It's not a fixing or a pass or fail.
It's this relationship with the beloved within you,
The Amma within you,
Your divinity within you.
And you allow all that is not your divinity to gradually melt away over time.
Oh,
This is very beautiful,
You guys.
Wow,
You're really getting this.
You're really getting this.
I'm so happy about this.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Premasidha saw terrible things in myself,
You know,
Really.
Yeah,
They all,
They melted away.
Hopefully most of them,
All of them,
Hopefully.
Right.
Very good.
Wow.
Wow.
Wow.
You know,
These clearings can actually alter,
If we go deep enough,
It alters our genetics.
It does.
It alters the genetics of the family line.
So,
Just keep going.
And we do it through love.
Or,
It's not we do it through love.
Love does it.
Amma does it.
But when we get this,
When we make this connection to the love inside us,
The Amma inside us,
That's what does it.
It's very beautiful.
Thank you.
Yeah.
Listen to your hearts,
You guys.
Follow any prods.
If you've got a prod to speak,
Follow it.
You know,
No suppressing,
Come on.
I have a compression fracture of T11 in the middle of my back,
And I've been out of the brace for about two months.
And I can do some things,
But not others.
And so I've had to stop myself from being in my usual routine many times because I just feel like,
Well,
I can do that now.
And then I can't.
And it hurts me several days so I'm still in physical therapy.
But what I've noticed is that time is going slower,
And I'm able to stop and smell the flowers,
So to speak.
I do have flowers on my table right now,
And most of them are wilted.
So I've come to appreciate the time span and the life of a cut flower,
The color change,
The shape change,
The falling onto the table.
Things where before I would have said,
Well,
That's not a fresh flower and swept it off.
And when I take a walk around the block,
It's like I'm not going anywhere,
I'm enjoying this walk.
And if I come upon someone else with or without a dog and someone who wants to have a conversation about the weather or the sound the neighbors are making with their home improvement,
Then I stop for a few minutes and we share smiles.
And I just,
I'm surprised.
I know that I have two years to be patient,
And I have people coming in to help with cleaning the house.
And I've always had someone mow the lawn,
But even the other things that have to do with inside and outside.
It's hard for me to let go of being self-sufficient,
But I know,
I don't know,
I hope that I get it back.
The times when I break down and just don't have the next step forward are the times when I think,
Well,
There's no guarantee that the medicine I'm taking is going to work.
And then I'm going to be able to swim laps again,
Which I've been swimming for 50 years,
And now I'm not supposed to twist.
So I need to be in the moment.
I am not forced to be in the moment,
But I've chosen the way that makes my heart happier.
That my smile hopefully makes other people happier,
So that I can grow.
Okay,
Good.
During this time frame.
Good,
Good,
Good.
I heard that.
Good.
It's really real what you said there.
I mean,
The whole thing was real,
But that was really,
That you have decided to grow.
And yeah,
I mean,
This slower pace,
I mean,
It's a joy,
Really.
So just the compression fracture,
It's behind your heart and your back?
Your heart area?
Just below and behind.
Below your heart area and behind.
Okay.
So I'm actually a shorter human being than I used to be.
Okay,
So,
And there's medicine that you take for this?
There's a physical medicine?
Daily injections for 24 months.
Oh.
They're hard.
They're hard.
Yeah.
I'm supposed to take them at dinner time,
And then two in the morning they're working.
Like,
Oh,
Okay.
What could I have done differently so I could sleep through this night?
Yeah.
I guess I am lucky that I can work to solve the problem.
Can you just explain,
For Pramasutha's mind,
How the medication helps a compression fracture?
How does it help?
It's a medication that's been out for six or seven years,
And there are two kinds of cells that work on the bone.
The bone is dynamic.
It's never static.
We're always taking it apart,
Putting it back together,
Taking it apart,
Putting it back together.
Every 10 years,
We have a whole new skeleton.
Yeah.
And I made the mistake of not feeding my skeleton very well over the last 10 years.
Oh,
I see.
I also didn't exercise because I lost my dog,
But now I have the dog back.
Okay.
And I lost weight,
And it's the weight pounding against the sidewalk that helps keeps your bones strong.
So I was supposed to do all of these things.
Plus,
Post-menopause,
The estrogen's gone.
But the medication,
There are two kinds of cells.
One is a builder,
That set of cells that builds.
And the other,
Not cracks or crashes,
But I remember it because it's osteoblast build and osteoclast pull apart or crash.
And this medication makes the builders dominant.
So for 24 months,
I have the opportunity to do all those things I didn't do,
To eat right,
Gain weight back,
Walk a mile and a half every day,
Which I guess is two kilometers.
And if I do that,
Then I have the chance of being near to myself again.
So is it like osteoporosis related thing?
Oh,
Definitely.
Okay.
Okay.
That's what I want to get to.
Okay.
Okay.
So.
Okay.
And I mean,
This is fantastic what you're doing.
And I'm from as soon as so knows what it's like to go through health challenges and you don't know the outcome.
I didn't know the outcome of mine.
Okay,
But I really want to.
It's like I want to move and stand really close to you.
Thank you.
Yeah,
As I saying this is transmitting so that there's a thing in the Bible about saying basically that with children,
And I'll have to look it up.
I've thought of it so many times that when the children can get crushed.
And when children get crushed,
Their bones get crushed.
It was sort of like saying that the made me think I knew several people with osteoporosis.
It made me think of,
You know,
Being trained to sort of stand beside yourself rather than to be in yourself to have your true spirit getting crushed on a level.
Right.
That you and the bone start that the spirit that the soul is not allowed into the body,
Or the experience enough to keep the body solid.
Yeah,
I can feel you don't quite get what I'm saying.
And maybe nobody else does either.
I don't know.
It's like there's a spirit in a child.
And if that spirit gets crushed,
It's like the child,
You know,
Some children actually do die.
They get heart failure.
There was a kid who's grade four,
Got heart failure,
Stepping off a bus and died.
Right.
I just want to,
It's like,
I'm feeling like as you get a hold of this,
There is a big forgiveness that's going to be required.
Yeah.
You see,
In our,
With our medical things,
We do all this stuff,
But sometimes we're not,
We don't know how to acknowledge where it came from emotionally.
You know,
Where the origins of the disease are in our emotional,
Spiritual self.
So sometimes we can do all the right things,
But if we don't,
If that,
If the penny doesn't drop about the bigger meaning,
It's sometimes harder for there to be a full cure.
Right.
So it's in our best interest,
Actually,
To open up and get the spiritual shift,
Make the spiritual shift,
Make the emotional shift to get interested in this level that Premasid is talking about.
And it's,
You know,
Now for something completely different.
It was something that was never allowed in this lifetime and perhaps in all of them,
Maybe.
That one never felt fully allowed to come forward with one's true self.
Yeah.
I know this is hard for you.
It's like there's a level it doesn't compute,
But.
I'm seeing it,
Though.
Up until about two years ago,
Unless I knew someone was already following Amma,
I wouldn't mention anything about it.
And now just in regular conversation,
If I have something to say that relates to the Bhagavad Gita or Upanishads or Tattva Bodha,
The class that we just finished in Amrita Virtual Academy,
Then I bring that in as part of the conversation.
I've started having my students,
I don't use the word meditate,
But I've started having them calm down and picture certain things before I hand out a quiz.
I have them do assignments that help other people and then write down how they helped people.
So I'm bringing it forward instead of having it be just for me.
And I didn't realize I was so totally hiding my true self from the world.
And now I have less fear.
Okay.
And Prema Sutta says that there's a whole new level of it beyond that.
Okay.
Right.
Right.
Right.
And the level I'm talking about is beyond any action,
Although,
You know,
There are shifts in you that caused you to change the way you are.
But this I'm talking about is much more of a global understanding.
And you see,
I think it's like,
You know,
Coming back to the body,
Transcendent body approach.
It's in your back.
So it's an unconscious block.
And it's below your heart.
So it will be at the solar plexus level.
So it is unconscious control that is a problem.
Right.
Right.
And you learned it.
It's not a full thing.
And it will be,
When the energy comes up to reach your heart,
It will have a cut off.
So that is the site of the emotional wounding.
Which I think happened in my just previous life.
Sure.
Sure.
It would have,
You know,
Actually,
All our lives are in our current one.
All of them,
You guys.
They're all reflected.
Yeah.
Part of you wants to squirm out of Premasuddha's embrace.
You want to squirm away because it's almost like I'm saying it too harshly.
You know?
No,
Too clearly.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Okay,
Good.
Good.
Right.
Good.
Good.
Good.
There you go.
There's an opening there.
That's good.
That's good.
It's everything Premasuddha is saying is nothing to load yourself up on.
Please don't load yourself.
Don't put it on top of your head.
Please understand that Premasuddha is opening some doors energetically within you to help you transcend this.
Yeah,
Part of you goes,
Like,
Part of you is going,
It's not allowed.
And kind of there's part of you going,
I don't know that I want to do that.
It's okay.
It's okay.
This is what we're like,
You guys.
Like,
Please.
We're just shining a light on the whole bundle.
That's it.
That's it.
You have a tremendous sensitivity.
And you've been ambivalent about it from the get-go,
About this incredible sensitivity.
But it is coming from your divine nature.
And,
You know,
Women,
We have a very high capacity for sensitivity,
Many of us.
And it's very strong in you.
And you are uncomfortable with it.
It's like you,
It never fit.
You don't know what to do with it.
It's like easier to turn away from it.
Yeah.
That's the thing.
It's easier to turn away.
Now,
This work is involved with turning toward.
Because you look where our turning away has got us personally and in the world.
It's like,
Hello.
Right.
You have this incredible sensitivity that is beautiful.
It's beautiful,
Beautiful,
Beautiful.
And you can have it.
You can live with it.
You can have space for it.
You just are having to learn how.
And you're already starting with your slowing down.
But it's even more,
It's like you don't have to produce at all.
Oh,
Yeah.
Okay.
Bulletin.
Red flag.
Red flag.
You don't have to produce at all.
At all.
Yeah.
I mean,
This is like,
This is live-like premises.
Oh.
Right.
Right.
This is beautiful work you're doing.
And we can talk about this again.
Yeah.
And it's,
You know,
It's gradual.
It's gradual.
But once you get onto it,
It becomes very captivating.
Right.
And it's very good for our health.
And that's Premasutha's experience with her own health problems.
It's like that breast tumor shrunk by 50% when I finally got deep enough to allow a healing.
But I almost shouldn't have said that.
You know,
The reason I said it was because I want you to,
This has been lived,
This knowledge has been lived through being in fires,
Which is why it's got any oomph at all.
And I was just telling you where this came from,
About where I'm saying opening the door to this higher,
To this part of you,
This very sensitive,
Intuitive part of you that's very close to God will help your health.
Because it did mine.
Yeah,
I can feel you.
It's okay.
This is radical knowledge,
Because this work,
It asks you to integrate it as we go along,
As opposed to just being able to sit and listen passively.
But actually,
This work actually invites you to join in the change,
To actually embody your true nature,
Your Ama energy,
In a way that would heal you,
If that is your dharma,
This life.
Like Ama would say,
It's already happened.
So you will just find out.
Okay,
Look at it this way.
You will just find out whether this heals or not.
Truly.
It's like,
That's what happened to me.
You just find out.
And really,
It doesn't even matter in a bigger way about whether it heals or not.
The important thing is that your understanding grows.
Right.
Right.
Right.
That is the most important thing.
Because if your understanding grows,
You can put up with any circumstances.
We can get used to anything.
And if we've got the door open to rise up in our understanding,
We're happy,
You guys.
We'll be happy.
Right.
Okay,
Good.
You want to be happy.
And share it.
That's it.
That strengthens.
That brings happiness.
Yeah,
And share it as you go along,
Just like what you're doing.
Notice the changes.
You know,
This is what Prama Sutta does.
I share and I notice the changes in Prama Sutta that happen as we go along.
That's it.
It's beautiful.
There's seeds of a bigger comprehension in the whole group.
Seeds of being able to receive grace more.
Because we're healed by grace.
That's it.
It's very beautiful,
You guys.
What a joy.
Truly.
What a joy.
Just an unbelievable joy to get together with you and do this.
I'm just seeing you,
All of you,
Are being covered in grace,
Like.
Yeah.
Don't worry if you don't feel it.
You may not feel it.
Don't worry,
It's there.
Just be with not feeling it.
And knowing it's there.
You can do things right in the moment.
You can do things like imagine doors on yourselves opening to the light.
Any gap you feel can be healed by imagination.
You imagine the doors opening.
You imagine receiving it.
Yeah.
And that will bring you to receive it at just the right time.
But it signals your soul.
When you use your imagination like this,
It signals your soul that you're willing.
Yeah.
Really,
Premises.
I imagined my way out of trauma,
Truly,
With this kind of thing.
Yeah.
Bhavani,
That's what you could do.
Use your imagination more for forward motion.
Sit.
Okay.
You guys,
You know,
All my blessings.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Hopefully see some of you tomorrow.
But thank you,
Thank you,
Thank you.
Bye.
