Our Inner Buddha Baby

When we are born, our hearts are open, like the Buddha baby.

For thousands of years, babies have been carried on their mothers' bodies, creating bonded relationships. Now we may pay thousands to decorate our nurseries, but still neglect the baby's need for closeness.

When no one comes, the baby feels abandoned and sorrowful. This deep pain becomes unbearable, so when our egos form, we wall it off.

Later in life, feeling vague emotional pain, we might take up spiritual practices. Ideally, these practices would lead us to healing the anguish of the baby. But sometimes we just do practices superficially.

Connecting with our inner baby and feeling its original pain isn’t easy. But if we find the courage to gently pick it up, embrace, & feel its sorrow, the trauma can be released. Gradually, we become more compassionate, wiser, & happier.

Premasudha talks to Bhavani and Dharadevi, & we can see that satsangs help us heal our alienated hearts and weave our true Natures into our bodies.

Transcript

I've asked for Amma's grace to help us,

The Creator's grace.

Yeah,

To bring us closer to ourselves.

And that's what these satsangs are for,

A loving transmission to remind us.

But more than that,

You know,

In my experience it's like an IV,

And we just keep turning up and gradually,

Cellularly,

We become more ourselves open to our divine nature.

The alienation gradually gets sloughed off.

I mean,

Usually satsangs aren't the only thing we do,

But they do help us remember.

It's interesting,

I'm feeling the whole group as if we can remember to ask for guidance more often.

It's,

This is coming from the larger guidance,

Reminding you to ask for guidance more often.

But Masuda used to,

Before I knew Amma,

I would say,

You know,

What,

If I'm faced with a conflict,

I'd say,

Okay,

What is in my highest good?

How should I go through this conflict in the highest good way?

Or people who know and love Amma can say,

No,

What would Amma wish me to do?

I notice lots of us get caught in our emotions and egos,

And we forget to sort of come up for air and ask for guidance,

Ask for help.

Okay,

Now,

Before,

About two hours before the satsang,

I got really strong guidance about what to speak about.

It was unusually clear.

It reminds me of this clear guidance saying,

You know,

Ask for help,

Ask for guidance more often.

But it was to begin with talking what had been a theme from,

You know,

The satsangs and the,

You know,

The talks I've been giving around,

You know,

When we're born.

So,

There's a writer who who once said,

You know,

Stone Age babies are born into 20th century life.

It was 20th century,

Now it's 21st century.

It's,

We're programmed for the Stone Age.

We're programmed for mums to,

You know,

Carry us on their bodies for two years as they did their work.

So,

The baby is always held.

And then,

You know,

When the baby can walk,

The baby can run between the women who are doing all the work that needs to be done.

So,

It was a very bonded upbringing.

So,

What we do is we might have,

Loving parents might spend $10,

000 to outfit a nursery for a child and not pick the child up when he or she cries.

And if a child's left to cry,

Their children sponge everything up,

And they have an overwhelming experience of abandonment and lack of love.

And maybe this happens often because the parents have just read the latest parental manual that saying,

You know,

If you want to sleep,

Then let your child cry.

So,

The child actually gives up,

Finally.

It gives up on the idea that there's anybody there for the child.

We give up on the idea that there's anybody really there for us,

Including God,

Including our parents.

Yeah.

So,

You guys,

This stuff imprints our bodies.

So,

Your perceptions,

I mean,

And if it wasn't,

You know,

Being in the crib alone,

You would have had some kind of experiences of abandonment because we're growing up in an alienated society.

Our society is highly alienated from truth,

From the soul energy,

From the creator.

So,

However it comes that we're imprinted on it.

Okay.

So,

Then we experience,

You know,

We go through life,

We have some degree of,

You know,

Pain,

And maybe we have a spiritual opening.

Okay.

And this is what I really want to talk about because this is what happens.

I've seen this happen to so many people.

So,

They have a spiritual opening,

And they will start spiritual practices,

And these spiritual practices will be almost put on top of the pain in the heart.

Some of you might have gone deep enough to experience like a black hole in your heart.

So,

It's all healable.

I just really want to reassure you,

It is all healable.

Please understand this.

But some of you have actually kind of gone into a cellular shock,

Even as I'm talking.

So,

Just notice this.

Notice what your bodies are doing as you hear this because even this can be a healing for you to come out of numbness.

So,

We start to do spiritual practices,

Including yoga,

Including whatever it is,

Chanting,

Meditation,

And we do it on top of this heart pain from the,

And the abandonment the child felt.

Okay.

Now,

Some people just stay numb and keep doing all these practices on top of the pain.

And though they never break through their ego,

They do things mechanistically.

They might feel very proud that they get up for meditation at 4.

30 in the morning every day.

It is possible to do that and still stay numb.

Other people might start these practices and what happens is then the pain that they're in the abandoned child,

Which comes from this life and other lives,

They start feeling it.

Now,

Amma has said the whole purposes of spiritual practices is to hold us,

Give us a container and hold us,

Like have a habit,

Have some safety,

To hold us as,

You know,

We live this tumultuous life.

It can hold us,

The habit can hold us and give us a sense of safety.

But sometimes,

You guys,

You get scared when this deeper pain starts to surface as you're doing these spiritual practices.

So,

Sometimes people might stop doing the practices.

They might turn away from the spiritual journey altogether.

And some people just continue with the practice,

But they might still do the practices mechanically and not realize that the whole point of these processes are to bring you to be able to embrace this level of pain.

Because as soon as you do,

It will start to be healed by your soul.

If you feel intense pain and you pray,

Your soul will start to come into your bodies more.

It will strengthen your souls.

It will weaken the ego.

You will move more into truth.

But,

You know,

In conversations with me,

What you guys run into is when you're coming to me at the head level and trying to avoid the truth of you and trying to avoid feeling this deep pain in your heart.

Premasuda will,

You know,

Tell you that she can't answer the question or it's coming from your head or it's not going to work.

The thing is,

Some of you even might feel the pain in your hearts and think that God doesn't exist,

You see.

You might have been doing spiritual practices for 20 years before you actually start to access the deeper levels of pain.

And then you might go,

Where's God in all this?

The problem is,

You guys,

We're so alienated and women are so silent about the female wisdom which would help the situation.

If feminine wisdom was valued more,

If the feminine polarity was valued more,

We'd have smaller amounts of pain and we'd have a society that was more just accepting and had a lot of ways of healing that really worked.

Like a lot of,

You know,

The presence,

Just the presence of an awakened person is healing.

Just the presence.

They don't even have to talk.

Some of you,

I can feel it right now,

Some of you have got that it's verboten to even feel this level of pain inside.

And so that's also where spiritual practice,

We go so far and we get nowhere because we're running a thing like it's just forbidden to admit this level is forbidden.

So,

I'm spelling all this stuff out to make it safer for you to learn how to totally embrace yourself because,

You know,

If you're not running from pain,

If you turn and just feel and just face your pain and just feel,

It immediately reduces 50%.

It is the running away that makes the pain higher.

Because,

You see,

The pain is always your soul calling.

If you're emotional pain,

Your soul is calling.

And the louder the pain,

The more intense the pain,

The more your soul is calling you.

So,

If you just turn and feel it,

Journal,

Pray,

Go for walks,

Do whatever you can to comfort yourself,

But just face it,

It will lift.

So,

Even here in Germany,

Prama Sutta has been working a lot for a long time,

For a month.

I have been doing a lot of body work.

I reached this point a couple of days ago where I was just flat in my bed and it was really hard for me to move.

I was so tired,

Exhausted.

And part of me was going,

Why do I do this work?

You know,

It was just like,

And I was just feeling how helpless I was with how tired I was.

And I could feel the weight of all the people wanting appointments and I didn't know what to do about it.

But Prama Sutta has learned that,

You know,

I just go through these things.

You know,

I just was with myself,

Feeling this intense fatigue.

And you know what?

So,

After about 20 hours of this,

Suddenly I made a shift.

I had an understanding and I felt like a million dollars.

Okay.

And I got a whole new way to work with people.

The universe taught me a whole new way to work with people.

It was like the way I was doing it,

I was doing too much work for them,

Taking things off their body and that I didn't have to do this anymore.

And the universe has given me another way to work with people.

So,

I just went through it.

It's like going through a birth canal.

And,

You know,

Even Prama Sutta,

I've gone through this kind of thing a million times.

Like this is so quick.

In the old days,

You know,

It might take me three years to face something.

You know,

Now it was like 24 hours.

You will always be saved if you turn and feel and just be with where you are.

You will always be saved by the universe.

You will always come out of it.

And,

You know,

The baby that you were,

It's how we can really love our inner child.

There's all this talk about the inner child.

I remember when I was in my 40s,

I went to,

I was working with some people and there was sort of this inner child gathering.

And what they did was they poured a whole bunch of toys on the floor and everybody pretended to be deliriously happy playing with toys.

It was so stupid.

I was going,

This is just,

This is just,

Oh my goodness.

Yeah.

You see,

This is how alienated we are.

The inner child work is you just being with your emotions and being with your distress.

Not in a hopeless way,

Although hopelessness can come up,

But in a just,

That's your state.

It's like a child.

When a child's upset,

They'll cry.

And then they get over their upset and they,

You know,

Within 20 minutes,

They're playing happily.

You can do the same thing with yourself.

You can move through all these things very,

Very quickly.

Many of you,

You're scared and you're scared you're going to be stuck being half born.

You know,

That you'll never find a way out.

And that's part of why you,

You don't go deeper,

You know.

And we're getting all these therapies and sure,

You know,

It's good.

It's good.

But if the therapies are done in a level on top of the sad baby,

You know,

Where it's not really helping the sad baby,

Then that's not going to be any good at all.

The only therapy that's going to work is pick up the baby,

Pick up the baby in yourself.

Pick up this sad little munchkin in yourself and don't run from it.

And,

You know,

Pray and let yourself be guided.

You see,

What happens is the reason,

You know,

As I felt all these really dense emotions,

Fear and anger and rage and hatred,

As I felt them and they left my body,

My intelligence went way up.

So I understood not only spiritual books more easily,

But I understood everything more easily.

All this fear and hatred and anger we're carrying,

It lowers our intelligence.

Because so much of your energy is just spent going round and round in this stuff.

Or making stories up about it.

Yeah,

Please,

I really want to invite you to please have your full intelligence.

We're all geniuses inside.

You guys,

We've got immortal souls.

We've got like omniscient souls.

So when you start,

You know,

Really tapping into your true nature,

You know,

You become like,

Everything gets easier.

Everything.

Even cleaning,

You know,

Pramasutha cleans with a light heart.

In the old days,

I didn't.

Cleaning was my worst nightmare.

But Pramasutha can clean with a light heart.

And,

You know,

Any mother knows that when you,

When your love for your children is strong,

Motherhood's very light.

And when we're resisting them,

Or they've upset us,

Or we're,

You know,

Feeling sorry for ourselves,

Motherhood feels like 200 tons.

It's,

You know,

Will you dare feel,

Connect up with this baby and feel?

Yeah,

And feel.

Dare to feel.

Because as long as you're not connecting up with the baby,

You will find,

You know,

When Pramasutha talks about doing things out of being,

As opposed to a to-do list,

You'll find it hard to really get it if you haven't turned and loved your small child self.

Lots of times we want to love our child self.

So for a particular reason,

Almost like manipulation,

But I'm talking about a wild,

Just a wild,

Forgiving,

Compassionate love for the child that you were,

And a big understanding of what happened to you.

Feeling it emotionally,

Embracing it,

Not holding on to the storyline.

Because like I was saying in yesterday's satsang,

There's just so many people who with Pramasutha,

They would hold on to their storylines,

Their wounding,

And hold it in front of me like a badge,

Like some kind of badge,

Or some kind of suit of armor that would,

You know,

Stop me from helping them bond with their true nature.

You know,

The baby self is the Buddha self.

You see,

I've spent a lot of time encouraging people on the journey,

And now what I'm doing is like spelling it out so you can make a choice.

You know,

It's like if you keep doing spiritual practices on top of the baby,

Like kind of walling off that level,

There's not much that's going to change in your life.

And when you get it,

You might dare to feel.

So sometimes like,

You know,

Bless your hearts,

You know,

Some of you like,

You know,

Argue with Pramasutha rather than feeling this pain in your hearts.

Right?

That's where the argument is coming from.

It's coming from running from the pain in your hearts.

And,

You know,

Physics with the black hole,

If you go into a black hole,

You come out in a whole new place.

And if you allow this black hole in your heart to heal,

You will come into a whole new perspective.

Physics is a metaphor for what we do emotionally.

In this case with the black holes.

That's it.

And you might feel,

If you turn and face this,

You know,

Level pain,

You might feel really heavy for a couple of days,

But,

Or even longer,

But then something will lift,

Something will happen,

And you'll make a shift out of it.

You won't be stuck there.

I promise you.

You know,

We each have our own journey,

And it's very idiosyncratic in a way.

And it is idiosyncratic because we all have different minds with very different lives.

So we can't really compare ourselves.

But,

You know,

If you dare do this,

Like,

Put your arms around that small child,

And realize that that small child,

That you still are that small child,

And you put your arms around and you open up to the Creator for a true healing,

You will feel closer to all people,

All life,

Animals.

You'll feel closer to your dining room table.

I'm not kidding.

You'll feel closer to the stars in the sky.

They'll seem friendlier to you.

It,

You know,

It needs to be done gradually.

But the reason I'm speaking,

Because so many,

Like,

So many of you really are just doing spiritual practices on top of this pain.

So that's why I'm drawing attention.

Rather than really putting your arms around your true self,

And around your experience as a child,

Because,

You know,

It's like I said,

The injured child,

You think that the injured child,

What we do is we turn our injured child into an object,

And then we try to fix it.

And we miss entirely that we are still walking around in that injured child,

And our thoughts belong to that injured child.

They're not adult thoughts.

The thoughts are the level we're perceiving life is the level of our injured child.

Please understand this.

So,

If you want change,

You have to open up and let the divine heal you.

You have to let love into your bodies,

And into your minds.

And then you become like a walking advertisement for the spiritual journey.

Because you did it.

It doesn't matter how long it takes,

You guys.

Again,

It's like just how many,

You know,

How much stuff we have to clear,

What our plan for this life is.

You know,

The alienation,

I was talking yesterday at a talk I was giving,

And there was,

I'd walked,

You know,

Their scarves are,

Scarves are big in Europe,

You know,

In Germany,

And I love them,

And I usually buy one every time I come.

And so,

I saw some scarves outside this makeup shop,

And I walk in,

And,

You know,

Really,

The woman,

I really bless her dear heart.

Her face was horrifying to me,

And her energy was horrifying to me,

Because she was wearing like an inch of makeup,

And she had,

She'd had some kind of plastic surgery,

And she was not a happy woman,

And she didn't like me on sight.

And I don't know whether it was because she looked at my face and went,

This woman's not buying any makeup or what,

But,

And I thought,

I looked at her and,

Bless her heart,

Like my heart broke for her.

And at the same time,

She was horrifying to me,

You know,

That this was,

That we're doing this to ourselves,

Rather than putting our arms around the child that we were,

Especially these babies,

Because your baby self was Buddha,

You know.

So,

When the baby,

When you go deep enough to heal the baby,

God comes streaming into you.

This is my experience.

So,

You know,

Support is necessary.

I'm not,

You know,

It's a,

It can be very,

Very intense,

And,

You know,

If you're going to,

If you want to clear this level,

Your prayer should be that you,

It's situations where it's gentle,

You get all the support you need,

And,

And,

And,

Yeah.

But you see,

You could even have a dream,

You could hear this sad saying,

And have a dream tonight,

Or this week,

That would help begin to weave the Creator into your bodies more.

It could happen like that.

Yeah,

May,

May,

May you find the easiest way possible,

If that's in your highest good.

It doesn't have to be harsh at all.

Or you could write a song,

Write a story.

I used to write stories,

And if I wanted a new state,

Or a new understanding,

I would write a little story about,

About that.

And it would,

It would help make it happen for me.

It's like,

If I would,

If I wanted to change my life,

I,

I wrote stories.

And what would happen is my life would follow the story.

Yeah.

So,

We all have our own ways of growing,

You guys,

Of dealing with ourselves.

And I'm hammering just a bit,

Because the,

The guidance came in and hammered me to do this.

Do you know,

It came in very in,

With a lot of,

Like,

Speak like this,

Tell them straight.

Straight from the hip.

And this is Prema Sudha's work to help people through this kind of material,

So.

Remember to keep asking for grace,

You guys.

Ask for grace.

This is the bravest work a human being can do.

But again,

I was talking yesterday,

In this period,

It is the easiest time to let go of stuff.

It has been harder in the past,

And very likely it will get harder in the future,

As things finally stabilize.

We're in this hundred year acceleration,

Where human beings are given,

We have a choice.

We either go extinct,

Or we shift into a higher comprehension.

So,

Amma says,

The plan,

I heard her say this,

The plan is for us to develop an extra load in our head,

In our brain,

And another chamber in our heart.

And interestingly,

I was just reading that in Australia,

They have found that they've got extra veins in arms.

They're finding more veins in arms.

So,

That made me think,

Maybe that's preparation for more blood coming to a more complex heart,

You know?

I feel like I've harangued you a bit,

But I've been hearing,

You know,

I've been working with a lot of people,

And one of the things that happens to Prema Sudha,

If I get tired at all,

I tend to get a little tougher.

It's sort of like mum goes like,

Okay,

You know,

Tired,

You know,

You have to clean up your own rooms.

Yeah.

So,

That's part of what I'm speaking from.

That's it.

That's it.

Nobody's been bad,

Or there's no error.

You know,

In the,

In the West,

We have to,

We've been going outside for centuries.

So,

It is really quite painful to turn and reverse and start going inside.

That's kind of the worst.

Once you learn how to go inside,

It's much easier.

It's just,

What's hard is that moment where you realize that you've been going the wrong way,

Your whole life,

Looking outward,

And that you are going to have to turn inward.

That's the loneliest,

Hardest time.

Then,

Once you turn inward,

And you learn how to listen and follow guidance,

And let yourself be illuminated,

Because you're already enlightened,

You guys.

You've just walled it off.

Do you get that?

You've just walled it off.

Like these babies that just gave up any hope of being met.

They felt abandoned and despairing.

So,

They walled off their deep sensitivity,

Their connection to the divine,

And went like,

This is just too hard to stay so sensitive.

The baby goes,

I'm numbing out.

Right.

So,

In our adulthood,

You know,

Life loses its meaning,

And we don't enjoy doing things so much.

Like,

I remember skiing,

You know.

I used to love skiing,

And as I got older,

It was like,

Eh,

It's not so much fun.

So,

I've been,

You know,

Saying to people,

Like I would say,

You know,

Learn how to pick up the baby within you,

You know.

Pick her up.

Don't ask anything,

Or him up.

Don't ask anything of her or him.

Pick him up.

Know that you're there.

Right.

This brings out intelligence that is hidden from you.

It's like hidden from you by your ego,

By your numbing.

That's it.

I want to talk about something that a seeker did.

She's a mom,

And I was speaking to a group about the cost of when moms don't face their fears,

The fears go on top of the heads of their children.

Carl Young says,

You know,

The unlived life of the parent gives us our greatest pain.

So,

It's like if a mom or a dad,

But I'm talking about moms right now,

Don't face their fears.

The child's own connection to their truth gets doused,

Because the modeling is run away from your true nature,

You know.

Deny,

Deny,

Deny.

But anyway,

This mom,

Her child wanted,

They go swimming,

And the oldest brother,

You know,

Usually goes too.

They're little guys,

They're young.

And so,

They got all the way,

But the eldest son was sick,

And the younger son,

They got all the way to the swimming place,

And the child suddenly decided that he doesn't want to go on his own.

So,

The mom said,

Usually,

She would go along with that and just take the child home.

But this time,

Now,

This is the important thing.

She decided to make an experiment.

Remember,

I talked about the spiritual journey.

You look at the data,

You do experiments and look at the data.

So,

What she did,

She just consciously decided to do experiments.

She felt that the best thing to do would be if the child did do the swimming on his own.

So,

Following her guidance,

Doing an experiment,

She said to him,

You know,

If you don't go to this,

You know,

Swimming lessons will stop,

Basically.

I mean,

These are your set of lessons,

And you want to swim,

So do them or else we'll just cancel the thing.

But she said it lightly,

Not in a heavy way.

And as she spoke it,

She was just being clear.

She spoke it,

She got a tingle feeling in her throat and a light feeling.

And the son,

You know,

Went swimming.

And when the child came out,

He was so pleased.

He'd had a wonderful time.

He'd faced his fears.

He swam on his own without his older brother.

And this dear,

Dear seeker felt safer about just following her guidance.

And she made a shift into being able to speak more fully.

Lots of us have closed off throats.

So,

With the tingles,

It was opening so that she would just be able to speak,

Matter of factly,

Truth more without hiding.

So,

That's it,

You guys.

I mean,

That's not so scary.

But this is the kind of thing that heals the injured child.

Because the child learns that we can't be in our true energy and survive.

And the spiritual journey is a recovery of your true energy.

And you find that it really works.

I still feel I've hammered you a little bit,

But it was really important to be really blunt about everything.

And,

You know,

You can feel lost because you're running from feeling how the injured child felt,

Or you can feel lost when you do feel how he or she felt.

Because he or she felt at sea and lost and abandoned lots.

But you'll get guidance about how to handle it and what to do to help yourself.

But the thing is,

You see,

If you just follow spiritual,

Like,

Religious rules,

It's not going to get you anywhere.

You have to dare to love this child,

You guys.

Yeah.

Yeah.

When Premasudha would start to write about how,

You know,

About my feelings earlier on,

I would get this impulse to just scribble over top of it with crayons like a child,

Scribbling over,

Not loud,

Not loud.

Yeah.

So I just kept writing about my feelings.

Yeah.

Ad nauseum.

You are okay the way you are.

If you never make another spiritual step in your whole lives,

You're still incredibly precious,

Just as you are.

You don't have to do anything at all.

Yeah.

Truly.

Just listening to this.

Wow.

You know,

What you'll come to finally is that your little child was just adorable from the very beginning and that your little child knew everything and was just a wonder.

That's what you come to.

Yeah.

So many people come and they talk to me like,

Oh,

They feel they have to be perfect and everything,

And it's sure,

Premasudha knows that stuff herself,

But don't just stay there.

You know,

Remind yourself that it's just fear that once that says you have to be perfect.

Really,

Your only homework is to just keep breathing.

That's Premasudha's homework.

Just keep breathing,

You guys.

Yeah,

Really.

It's kind of like,

That's good enough.

That's good enough.

Yeah.

And just listening to this.

You know,

So that it gets straight in your head that there's no running from what you're feeling.

And,

You know,

We can blame other people to the cows come home and,

You know,

Like I say,

Blame is lame,

You know,

It's lame with a B in front of it.

But even if you're blaming others,

It's like,

You're still adorable.

Really,

That's how I feel about you.

It's like,

You're still adorable.

It's like,

You know,

It's just not gonna work.

That's all.

Didn't work for Premasudha either.

Yeah,

I think,

You know,

If you can feel the love coming over the ethers,

You know,

Because it's coming.

You know why Premasudha laughs so much?

Because really,

It's really like the clown.

It's like Premasudha used to be so sad.

And then when I realized how loving it really is,

I started laughing and I haven't stopped.

It's true.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And something that you stubbornly hold on to,

You know,

Just some of your tricks,

Even though Premasudha has pointed them out 500 times.

And you still do them.

But like,

You know,

I remember going to when I was,

I think,

In my late 30s,

Early 40s.

And I had a friend who was about 25 years older.

And I just told her my childhood 500 times,

As well as I was writing it out.

But it was my topic of conversation.

And she patiently listened to me.

I'm like,

Oh,

My goodness,

He was like an angel.

And then one day,

I didn't have to talk about it anymore.

It was over.

It was complete.

I had talked it out.

It was done.

So sometimes you guys,

We have to wait for ourselves.

Nobody gets enlightened,

Like on their timetable,

Let me tell you.

If you can,

You know,

Be more compassionate with yourself and others,

As a result of knowing Premasudha,

Then Premasudha is just over the moon.

That's true.

It's like a small bar,

Really,

It's a low bar,

Just be compassionate with yourselves and others a little more,

A tiny bit more.

So that if there's a driver who's driving you mad in front,

You know,

He's going like,

I don't know,

Slow or making some mistake.

You just think to yourself,

Maybe he's having a hard day.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Remember empathy,

You know,

Put a foot in other person's shoes.

Keep training yourself to do that,

Not in a phony way,

But in a deep way.

You know,

You know,

I remember,

Like Tuesday was my mom's shopping day.

And so I come home from school,

And she would always get like a couple of box of cookies,

And I would basically eat a full box of cookies.

And as I was doing this,

I would be thinking,

I can't really imagine anybody being hungrier than me.

So that was why I would eat almost a full box of cookies.

But I was 14.

Okay.

I was just 14.

But sometimes people do that kind of thinking when they're grown up.

So remember,

Other people feel just like you.

Just like you.

Yeah.

Right.

That's it.

Good.

You got that.

Good.

Are there any questions or comments,

You guys?

This hour is going too quickly.

I don't want you to go.

So keep me busy with comments,

Questions.

I'll say something.

Good,

Basani,

Sweet one.

How are you?

Well,

Now,

Really good.

This has been an absolutely amazing satsang.

Really so happy to hear it presented like this,

Going straight in,

Looking forward to listening to it again.

It's,

Yeah,

Thank you so much.

This is a balm on my soul at this moment right now.

Music to my ears,

Angels music.

That's so cool.

Yeah,

I could feel you,

Sweet one.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I sent you an email.

Yeah.

Yeah.

It's time.

It was such strong guidance to do this.

It was just set it out clearly,

Just like,

Yeah,

I'm so happy you got it,

Basani.

Like,

I can feel that you're really ready to get this.

And it's fantastic.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Let's all give thanks to Amma.

Yay!

Bless your heart.

We get it when we get it,

Right?

Yeah.

Nobody happier than me.

Yeah.

I know.

I know.

Somebody had a big breakthrough.

Oh,

My goodness.

I've worked with so many people,

But oh,

Yeah.

I remember.

It's breakthrough time,

You guys.

So,

Basani,

That's what you got.

You got breakthrough time.

And you deserve this because the level of the pain that you felt while,

You know,

We were around your empathy for the clients and how sad you were that their needs weren't met.

I knew that you would get this now because of your empathy for them.

Do you understand?

Yeah.

You cracked through this stuff then,

Really.

Yeah.

In your empathy.

So,

I was very touched by that.

Doesn't matter how it happens.

Sometimes,

You guys,

It's easier to take care of other people than ourselves.

Yeah.

You talk about being a mom.

That has been for me,

These five years of being a mom has been and being with Amma on the spiritual path and being in the Amrita Puri ashram for some of that time.

That has been a catapult for me,

Too.

It's changed so much.

I'm still me and yet I've changed so much.

Oh,

You would.

I mean,

Oh,

You would.

I mean,

It's like signing up for the world's biggest roller coaster.

The world's most tumultuous roller coaster doing that.

All those three things.

Yeah.

Didn't you say look for the data and you've met my child.

Oh,

My goodness.

This is the angel that I've been given to.

Right.

Right.

Okay.

But I'm just getting warning,

Warning because moms will like,

They'll talk,

They go to their child rather than watching themselves.

So,

Yes.

And be careful.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Does anybody else got?

Hi,

Sweetie.

Hi.

Thank you.

Good to meet you.

Yeah.

I work.

I only want to share something.

I work a lot with this little babies.

We meet us three weeks ago and signs that I really go really deep to this babies.

And yeah,

Then I watched this baby and I don't know what to do.

And then I take this baby and go to Amr.

Okay.

First to Amr.

This baby.

Yes.

And yeah.

And then it's really,

It's,

It's imagined.

Then I am,

I am,

I am in this,

I am this baby.

You are this baby.

This chocolate,

You know,

This is super,

This is really real for me,

You know.

Yes.

Yes.

This happened.

And I feel a lot.

Yeah.

I feel a lot.

And this changed also a lot,

You know.

Yeah.

Then I take this baby.

I mean,

I am this baby.

I take this baby.

Amr is there.

I don't know.

And yeah,

Then this is really Darshan,

You know.

And yeah,

I feel many things happen inside.

I,

I have no words.

I cannot say this and this happened now or I feel something there is in the horizon.

There is a light,

Something like that.

I can say for me,

It's,

I have no vision,

But I feel something very nice coming,

You know.

Yes.

Or it's there.

And then now I go there,

You know,

I feel much more free and,

But I have a big process,

You know,

Really.

Yeah.

Well,

It was a really huge step.

Uh,

Yeah,

It was a huge subconscious clearing behind your heart.

So clearing unconscious blocks to heart.

It was stunning.

And yeah,

You're uniting with your baby self and yeah,

You're going to be born into a higher understanding,

A higher united understanding and you,

You're doing it,

Sweetie.

Like J Ma,

You know,

Yeah.

Right.

It's like,

And,

And,

And we,

We can do it.

Yeah.

And,

But we,

You,

You know,

Their levels of pain associated with it,

Like extreme levels of pain,

But they don't have to last if you embrace the process,

Right.

Just you're feeling signs of spring coming,

Right.

Like you're getting a handle on it.

I am so happy.

And I'm so happy that you came to the Satsang and that you're telling everybody this,

And it was brave work you did and you're doing it.

Oh yeah.

The birth canal.

Yeah.

J Ma.

J Ma.

Yeah.

And we Westerners,

You guys were brave,

You know,

We are,

We're brave and very resilient,

You know,

Really resilient,

Way more than we think.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Oh,

This is how we come to God,

You guys.

Yeah.

Dara Devi,

Thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you,

Sweetie.

Bless your dear heart.

Thank you.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Coming to God,

Coming to Amma.

It's like,

You know,

Dara Devi,

I just feel like the whole Satsang got blessed through you right then by you and the level you were speaking from and the level that you've just been facing.

Yeah.

Oh my goodness.

This would stop atomic bombs from dropping,

Really,

You guys.

This kind of connection to our true nature will bring peace.

Yeah.

Oh,

This is so exciting.

Yeah.

Oh my goodness.

Last call,

You guys,

For questions or comments.

Anything goes.

Your Premasuddhas,

Beloveds.

Truly.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

You guys,

You know,

We're where we're supposed to be.

We're doing our dharma.

We're on track.

We're doing it.

You know,

You can rest in that.

You're on the right track.

Only really sincere people come to Premasuddha.

It's true.

It's really true.

Yeah.

Okay.

Well,

Many,

Many blessings,

And I'm back on June the 6th,

And the regular Satsangs will start after that.

And thank you to Germany,

All the dear people here in Germany.

They've just,

Yeah,

Yeah,

So open.

Bye,

You guys.

Bye.