That you really speak to the Creator and ask to feel.
Okay?
Do it with your whole heart.
Ask to feel.
Because,
You see,
We were talking yesterday about that numb alienation within.
That we've all been trained into.
It's sort of like a layer of cement.
It's like a layer of concrete reality.
Now,
Some of you have gone through it,
And you've cleared it.
But many of you are,
This is what you're struggling with,
And this alienation that's carried by yourselves,
That's coming from this life and other lives,
It keeps you heady and attached to concrete reality and to things and people.
And it walls you off from the Divine,
From feeling God.
You see,
And if you haven't really felt God,
You can listen to sad sayings till the cows come home,
And you don't have a reference point.
Now,
The hard thing is,
With our egos,
Our egos don't want us to have a reference point.
They don't want us to know about God at all.
They don't want us to know the truth of us.
And it's just because the ego thinks there is no God.
Do you understand this?
Please understand this,
That your ego was formed in your sorrow and anger as a little kid,
It's formed on you feeling that there is no God.
So,
This is the trouble when we're making that step to bond to our true nature.
There is this ego that's going,
You know,
Red alert,
Red alert,
Don't do it,
Don't do it,
You're going to die.
But really,
It's the ego who dies.
Now,
Some of you know this territory,
And you've gone through ego deaths,
And so you're braver.
There's more of you that's lodged past this wall of alienation.
There's more of you that you've had more experience with feeling God,
Like feeling it in your body,
Feeling the peace beyond any understanding.
But some of you haven't,
And that's why you doubt.
And,
You know,
I said,
Like,
It is possible to sit in front of any teacher,
And even to spend time with Amma and not get it.
And this is making me incredibly sad today,
That it's like this for us.
And,
You know,
Time's passing,
The days go by.
So,
That's why I'm asking you to ask to feel more this week.
Really,
Really put your heart into it,
To feel more.
Anything,
Anything,
Whatever comes up.
You know,
Happiness,
Sorrow,
Rage,
Whatever.
Just be willing to feel more.
Because if you can allow yourself to feel more,
You can get past this wall of alienation.
Because this wall of alienation doesn't want you to feel.
