Moms And Grown-Up Children - Finding Freedom

Our earliest most primal bond is with our mothers. Even the cells of our bodies form within our moms, influenced by their thoughts, emotions, and beliefs about life.

If our moms are asleep spiritually, we as very young ones, may give up our connection to our eternal Being, believing this will keep us safe.

(This is no one's fault as our mom also lost her connection to the truth as a small one. This pattern usually just continues down the family line through the generations.)

But as adults we might experience feeling lost and out of touch with our deep hearts and wish to find our way back to truth.

This satsang describes how to do this. The process is gradual and sometimes daunting, but worth it!

Transcript

Blessings,

All of you.

Thank you for coming.

Yeah,

Thank you for coming.

Yeah.

It's lovely to see you.

Yeah.

I'm in a little bit of a soft mood.

It's kind of,

I've just,

Actually,

I just got a correction from Amma.

And it's,

It's throwing me back on myself.

But I'm going to talk about it because it's exactly what I'm teaching.

Okay.

So somebody,

I'm,

You know,

A family member who I'm very fond of,

Is having a difficult time.

And so we spoke,

And I told him that I'd write a letter to Amma on his behalf.

And so I did that.

And I took a photograph of the letter,

You know,

Of the note,

Put it in the box near her door.

And that was good.

I was feeling good.

You know,

I'd had a good talk with him and had written this note and everything.

But in the hours that's passed,

It's like,

I'm getting a correction coming over the ethos from Amma,

Saying that,

That I lost the being energy a bit.

And,

You know,

I did.

And it came from a fear of vulnerability,

On my part,

Because I'm very close to this person,

Who's part of my family,

And I really wanted to help him.

So it was very close to the bone.

And that through the ethos,

I could feel Amma saying that I pushed a little bit too hard,

You know.

And even,

You know,

What I wrote in the note,

And then sending a picture of it.

I,

I was kind of some doing energy,

You know,

I was a little bit trying to fix,

Because my heart was really touched by him and I was a little concerned,

And I really wanted to make him feel better.

So it's so interesting that this is just happened just before this satsang,

That I just felt this over the ethos and got this correction.

Now,

It's,

It's exactly what I teach,

Though.

But it's still uncomfortable.

Like,

You know,

I'm,

You know,

I don't want to make things worse.

I didn't want to,

You know,

Upset him more.

I don't think I particularly did.

But I think I missed the mark.

You know,

If you shoot an arrow,

And you want to hit a bullseye,

I didn't get a bullseye in my communication with him.

And so,

You know,

This is,

It's like,

Reaping what you've sown,

It's like,

I'm reaping what I sowed,

I'm reaping what I did,

And I'm making a correction.

And I will never do that again.

To the degree I did it.

Do you know,

I can feel it.

It's just like a shift into more truth.

It's like,

I'm thinking,

Who am I trying to save?

This person is,

Is part of me.

God,

Amma is running the show.

This person doesn't need me to save him.

He's fine.

Okay.

So it's like God is running the show.

Amma's in charge.

Yeah.

So I'm just bringing this forward,

Because this is just what I teach to do.

And it's,

It's like the purification process.

And this is very subtle compared to in the old days,

Where I would make really big mistakes,

Really big mistakes.

So this is like small.

But still,

It was a mistake.

And I was,

I got Amma's displeasure coming over the ethers.

I mean,

She was like,

Hmm.

You missed the mark.

Yeah.

So,

You know,

This was with my son,

John,

And because of the the bond with the leukemia.

It's,

I think my most intense bond,

Or one of the most that I have to navigate.

So anyway,

Does anybody have any questions or comments just about the journey?

I had the feeling to ask you that,

You know,

If there's anybody wanting to speak,

Because,

You know,

It's really important to,

To speak on these satsangs,

To,

To show yourself and talk about your experience.

And it,

You know,

Last week,

With the questions,

They really helped.

I got emails about how helpful,

You know,

The last bit of the satsang was the with the depth,

And the person was so open.

So anybody don't,

You don't have to,

Obviously.

Everybody's shy.

Okay,

Well,

I'm going to be talking about true personality,

And maybe I have a question.

Please,

Since you talked about your example with your family member of rather being than doing.

Right?

That's what you said,

If I understood you correctly,

Right?

I mean,

The tricky thing,

I guess.

Right?

I should want to help someone.

Yeah.

But the tricky thing is,

You say,

Okay,

God is doing all I think we're all aware,

Intellectually.

But the tricky thing is,

I don't know,

Maybe you go in the satsang in there.

But where do you find the balance in life?

Because we're all so much in doing I'm constantly in doing even I'm trying to be in being right.

So where do you draw the line?

Can you speak?

Or maybe that's your plan to speak in the satsang about it?

Where do you draw this line?

Especially when you have a family member or a close friend,

Which is very dear to you.

We want to help them if they're in a disease,

If they're in big trouble,

Whatever it is.

We're all going into action,

Right?

That's sure.

Sure.

There,

There's sometimes,

You know,

We could have,

Okay,

You just,

You bumble away,

You know,

I mean,

One of the things that,

You know,

Men are predisposed to problem solve.

I mean,

That is part of the masculine that problem solves.

And in fact,

If a man gets emotionally aroused,

There's a certain point where biologically,

And psychologically,

He switches off the emotional,

And he has to take action,

He has no choice.

And that's part of the masculine psychology,

You know.

So,

You know,

What I'd say is,

You know,

It's this rub between it's in the situation,

Say,

Somebody's towards the end of life,

The person at the end of life will be with my work with people who are dying,

They just really want to be very honest,

And,

And speak deeply.

And sometimes they were surrounded by like,

Everybody's doing stuff.

There was situations where the person was so relieved to talk to me because they couldn't talk to their family members,

Because the family members were so busy arranging their care.

And also,

The family members didn't want to be as honest as the dying person wanted to be.

Yeah.

You know,

You've just got to surf this one,

Right?

You just got to walk through it and just do your best.

There's no line you can't draw,

Like,

It's just your head that wants to draw a line,

You know,

It's like your,

You know,

Your intuition and your heart will tell you,

Like,

Okay,

This is why you guys I have such empathy,

Because you're all scared of your hearts.

Okay.

But you come to the satsangs,

Because you want to learn how to be braver.

But really,

Most of you are pretty terrified.

Totally.

Really?

It's part of why you don't ask that many questions.

Really?

It's like,

It's easier just to zip it.

Oh,

Danger,

Danger coming into our hearts.

You know?

Yes,

But it's true.

It's just like,

Oh,

My goodness.

Yeah.

But your heart is catching fire more.

Thorsten or Trillo,

Chad or whatever.

But you're,

You're,

You're,

It is,

You are more in your heart than you were.

I can I can see it.

Yeah.

And,

And you,

You're more willing to think that maybe the data of your heart isn't so scary.

In fact,

It will reduce your trouble.

You see,

This is my mistake with my son.

I didn't contemplate before taking action.

I just went writing a letter to Amma's good.

And I'll send him a picture of what I wrote.

This is good.

All these things are good.

But I missed the mark.

You see,

I should have listened.

My son ended up feeling pushed.

Yeah.

So there's no line outside.

But you're,

But the good news is you're getting friendlier with your heart.

You've got a beautiful heart.

Yeah.

Does that help at all?

As a Is there any more info?

Anything more you need from me?

What's your response to what I've said?

Orston?

What do you feel about what I said?

What do you first?

I think you're very right,

That I have the tendency sometimes to push others in ways where I just wanted to help and thought I want to do the best.

Secondly,

Very interesting how your character characterized man how we want to help,

Especially when we shut down the emotions just want to help.

I think that's very true to men I know to myself.

And how to manage that balance for all what you say makes sense.

So to put it into practice to really be there when you have a family member or someone really close.

I still Wow,

Yeah.

I hope it's just by by going deeper and deeper in our heart,

It automatically comes.

That's the only thing I take from it.

There's nothing you can really do,

Just go deeper in your heart.

And then,

And then just see the results,

You know,

And you'll you'll get corrected.

Like when I look back to my mom's death,

You know,

Her decline and death,

You know,

I didn't spend that much time with her.

You know,

I was like after afterwards,

I was quite shocked at actually how I'd handled it.

Yeah.

So,

You know,

It,

We just bumble along,

Everything is useful,

We're not perfect,

You just do your best,

You see the results,

And then you correct for the future.

And,

You know,

In the case of my mom,

She I have the like a fantastic communication with her that she's now she's passed over to see what I mean.

So the fact I didn't spend much time with her in the dying process,

Actually,

It turned into good news,

Because she went to God,

She focused on God,

Because she was,

You know,

Her family weren't by her bed all the time,

You know,

In that gap,

She actually bonded to God,

Whereas actually,

I think if we'd been around her,

She wouldn't have bonded to God so much.

You know,

I feel like your mom is getting,

She's getting an expanded knowledge coming in,

Even if she's not conscious,

I don't know if she's conscious or not,

But she's getting an expanded knowledge.

Yeah.

You know,

Thurston,

When our moms die,

We leave,

We lose that closest bonding,

Right.

But often,

Our bonding with the mom is,

Is,

Is a little corrupt.

So really,

I mean,

I,

You know,

Me,

I'm just so blunt.

Sometimes when our parents die,

It's kind of freeing,

Because we actually can bond more truly to our soul.

You know?

Yeah.

Right.

And,

You know,

You know,

My mom helps me because she sees more when she's passed over.

So,

You know,

You could even,

Maybe you're going to have some clearing dreams to help clear this,

The bonding because really,

I,

You really want to bond to your own soul.

And our moms,

You know,

Usually they're not in truth.

So when we're born,

We,

We go out of truth.

And we fit in with their parameters,

You know,

Where we even made out of their bodies.

So we're,

You know,

Their consciousness influences us so much.

Which is great if they're in truth,

You know,

But if they're not,

It makes it harder.

Yeah.

But,

You know,

I feel like your mom has a beautiful soul.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And our souls,

You know,

Our parents' souls love us very much.

You know,

I used to play there that souls of my parents love me.

Yeah.

Well,

Niyama's grace,

Niyama be Niyama be walking with you through this.

Yeah.

Okay,

Guys,

Do you have any other questions at all?

Laura,

Please.

Yeah,

Laura.

Thank you.

Hi,

Everybody.

Thank you for Masuka.

I had a similar thing last night,

I knew I was supposed to do something to follow through.

And I did,

But I made a big production out of it.

And I was listening to a satsang last night.

And I got that correction that you took it a little too far,

You crossed the equal line.

And I was more interested,

I was invested in the results and how it would be received.

And that's not my job.

My job is just to do the action.

And then pray and ask,

How am I supposed to do that?

But it's getting easier to stand back and just watch and see that happening.

Good.

Good.

That's all.

Good.

Good.

You guys,

It's,

This is a funny setting.

I mean,

I'm I'm wanting to actually go to the heart of things.

But I feel like in a way,

I want to talk.

It's going to make you uncomfortable.

If I,

If I really speak what I want to say,

So you know me,

I'm just going to do it.

So this,

You know,

True personality versus false personality,

We get our false personality develops from all the lifetimes that we've led.

And the patterns or vasanas that we come in with,

That distort our perceptions and the vasana is a Sanskrit word,

Meaning in Sanskrit,

It actually means bad smell.

So it's like our egos are smelly.

And even physically,

You know,

It's like a spiritual master gets sweeter and sweeter smelling.

It's it's,

It gets back to you know,

Baby's breath and how sweet babies smell.

And little clients when they're so close to heaven,

You know,

They bring those clouds of glory with them.

And then we,

You know,

We get loaded a week,

Our vasanas show and we're,

Our bodies are full of odors.

And then as we purify,

We actually do get you get sweeter smelling,

You just do.

If you're really doing the work,

You will.

Yeah.

Okay.

I promise you that.

Julie.

Yeah.

Hi.

I feel so connected right now.

I am.

I'm in California had to fly down I lost my mom on Tuesday.

Suddenly,

My mom passed.

Your mom passed.

Oh,

It was Yeah,

It was sudden.

But I just you were talking about your mom and her being on the other side.

And you feel like maybe your connection is still with her.

I don't know.

I'm struggling really,

Really a lot right now.

My heart is just broken.

You're missing her.

Yeah.

Yeah,

Well,

It was just so sudden to I haven't had time to process it.

We had to fly down from Oregon.

She's been she's been no,

No,

No.

She just had a blood clot.

And it happened quickly.

I got the call that she was already gone.

So and then as soon as I got here,

We had to,

We had to start taking care of the arrangements right away.

And today is the first day that I've even been able to sit and process it.

And then as soon as I got on the sat thing,

And you started talking about your mother,

And the bond between a mother and a child.

It is.

There's nothing like it.

And I'm just not sure how it's going to be now without having my mom.

I just don't know.

Right?

Were you were you close to her?

Very,

Very.

Yeah.

Did she live near you or in a different town in California,

And I live in Oregon.

So it's about seven hours.

But we we don't see each other a lot.

Yeah.

But I just was just gonna see if everybody could send me some love and some good vibrations right now.

Yes,

Sweetie.

You know,

Afterwards,

Will you email her full name because,

You know,

In the first three days that somebody passes you in the east,

They believe that you can help them drop masses amount of conditioning and,

And help,

You know,

So that they can have a much better life next time.

Do you see what I mean?

Yeah,

So I will do those prayers for her.

If you send me her email.

Okay.

Yeah,

It was on Tuesday.

So it's been for today,

I guess,

Or,

Well,

I'll do it anyway.

I'll do it anyway.

I would appreciate that.

Thank you.

Yeah,

Because I've done this and I could feel people really dropping a lot of material.

Yeah.

Oh,

It's Wow.

Yeah.

Nice.

Yeah,

I guess it's mom and child.

I guess that's what the sad thing is about.

I know.

I was shocked when you just immediately started talking about that.

That's amazing.

Yeah,

You know,

In the Jewish culture,

I've just read a little bit.

What I liked about it was when somebody dies,

The the people who are very close in,

They,

They,

They don't bathe,

They don't do anything,

They don't bathe,

They don't,

They just let themselves fall apart.

And they're basically just taken care of.

And I think we should do that.

Like,

Have a period where you can just fall apart into the grease and not have to cope and do stuff.

Oh,

You know?

Yeah,

We definitely did.

My sister and I,

I just lost my sister a year ago this month.

And yes,

We and then with my mom,

We just didn't.

We were just we hit the ground running as soon as our flight landed,

We had to start making preparations.

And there was a lot of drama involved with that,

Of course.

But today is the first day that I actually get to process and just,

Just be with it,

You know?

Yeah.

Well,

Yeah,

What can I say?

I'm,

I'm,

You know,

It's these things,

They happen.

And it's so sad,

But I keep coming to the opportunity for growth.

We can absolutely ourselves because actually,

The mom child bond can be the most in a way obstructive just because it's so close.

Just because it's so close.

You know?

No,

All I'm gonna say is when people die,

It's,

It's time out of mind.

Like you.

You come out of illusion,

Kind of you get a bit dissociated from the your usual state of mind and your usual illusion.

It's,

It's,

It's time out of mind,

You,

You actually can feel a little bit about what it will feel like,

When your mind dissolves,

You see,

You're,

You,

Do you know what I'm talking about?

Julie?

You're just it's like you're in a whole different space,

Different space now,

Right?

It's now for something completely Yeah,

Absolutely.

You're actually out of,

Out of free of your usual mind.

Do you know?

You're?

Yeah.

Yeah.

It's a little bit what an awakened person walks around in.

Mm hmm.

Yeah.

Okay,

So I want to go to the heart of this,

Which is the movement from false personality to true personality.

Now,

It is a gradual process.

It's like moving from a dark house with,

You know,

Dark windows,

To moving to a house that's full of light,

All the windows are lit.

It's a picture of the usual ego.

And then our true personality.

Okay,

So how do we do it?

Okay,

This is the question.

You're all like,

How do we do it?

How do we really do it?

Well,

There's an example,

I got an email from a woman who was doing it.

And she didn't realize that she was doing it.

So I got to got to point it out.

And,

Okay,

So when we're moving from the false personality to true personality,

The wounding of the child will come up,

You will feel helpless,

Hopeless,

Weak,

Confused.

All the feelings that used to feel as a little kid will come up.

Okay.

But if you're moving from false personality,

True personality,

Rather than trying to fix them,

Do something about it.

You just embrace them,

You just feel it all.

You just feel it all.

Maybe a mantra.

Right in your journal.

Okay.

So if you dare feel all this material,

You will just get bigger.

Your injured child will heal.

And I'll tell you example of what somebody did.

They had a meeting with their ex about a property.

And there had to be a discussion about this what to do about the property.

Now this woman is a mom.

And she feels very vulnerable about about this whole thing,

For many,

Many reasons.

And the ex was being was suggesting that he'd already kind of made up his mind about what to do.

So she had a week or,

You know,

The forerunning to this feeling,

You know,

Helpless,

Confused and everything.

And then,

But when she spoke to her ex,

Having felt all those feelings without trying to fix herself,

She brought more presence and more clarity.

You understand,

This was part of why,

You know,

The fear came up.

In in the run up to this,

The fear as well as these feelings of helplessness and weakness and everything.

She just embraced them,

She brought them to the she spoke with more presence,

More honesty,

More clarity,

More power.

And the meeting went very different with her ex than it had looked like it was going to go.

Okay,

She was more in truth.

Now,

This woman is sincere on the spiritual journey.

So if you're really sincere about the spiritual journey,

What happens is you you just get more real,

You just get more real.

I'm not talking about that.

She really wants to embody her soul,

This life.

Okay.

So,

This experience,

This challenge,

Gave her an opportunity to shift into more true power,

And more healing of her inner child.

And she stood,

You know,

And she's taking responsibility for her life and for the life of her kids.

She wasn't.

And she was herself.

You see,

She just was herself and spoke from that.

Now,

That is exactly what I did over and over and over to get as far as I've gotten.

Exactly that.

And there would be very,

Very uncomfortable moments of helplessness.

And you know,

These challenges that would would come up that I'd have to face,

But I got bigger and bigger and bigger.

And a mother dying or being ill,

Or being sick,

Is a beautiful opportunity to embrace all the feelings of the injured child.

Everything you're feeling confusion,

Fear,

Wanting to fix all of it.

Embrace it all and just bring it.

Bring all of that to the sequence of events that you're in.

It's that it is becoming it is steering in the right direction.

It's being very aware of your feelings.

And what's going on with you without wanting to without trying to fix.

Now,

Does that make any sense to you?

Yes,

Absolutely.

Good.

Very helpful.

Yes.

Good,

Good.

So good.

So that's the way to handle it.

And Bavani,

Did you want to say something?

Were you?

Yeah,

Actually.

I was just giving a thumbs up to what you said.

Can you hear me?

Yeah.

You're just giving a thumbs up.

Okay,

Good.

Yeah,

I can hear you.

Yeah,

Yeah.

No,

I did.

I think it fits.

Now.

I did feel called to speak.

But I wanted it to be in a respectful way.

Because we had those couple of sessions since since we've been in.

We can't hear you too well.

Have you got?

Can you do something about the audio?

You turn it up?

Can you hear me now?

Can you hear me better?

Yeah.

Okay.

Let's try.

I can hear you.

Okay.

Yeah.

So what were you saying?

The sessions that you and I had,

Since you've been in Amrita Puri,

Those two.

And yeah,

Reminded me also by by email,

The Empress and I have been I have been doing that I will be walking around and I will say the Empress is getting her child the Empress is walking to budget.

My chin lifts and the shoulders go back.

Because the other option was wet dish rag.

Right?

And yeah,

Okay,

That's good.

Can I can I tell the group about this?

Yes,

Please.

Yeah.

Okay.

Yes.

Because,

Okay,

Because you guys,

This is like it is such a quick way to evolve.

So when Bhavani Bhavani came,

She very clearly the round her shoulders,

She was carrying the weight of the world.

And what came to me was,

I,

You know,

Me,

I'm so awful.

So I told her that,

Like,

She's got two ways of being one is like,

The royal dish rag,

And one is the Empress.

Okay.

And you know,

The dish rag is like any mom knows what I'm talking about.

You walk around with exhaustion,

There's always more house cleaning to do,

You lose track of your appearance,

You just like you get like a worn out dish rag.

And and no matter how hard you work,

Hardly anybody praises you,

You know,

That kind of stuff.

Okay,

As opposed to the Empress of the feminine,

The Empress,

Who may be just in the same situation.

But she experiences differently.

So you can get from A to B through your posture.

Because when I,

Bhavani was kind of like this,

It was sort of like here,

I'll show you it was kind of like,

Her shoulders were all super tight,

Like this,

The dish rag.

And then I said,

Empress,

And she straightened and broadened,

And her face even changed.

And she had peace around her.

So I sent her an email saying,

You know,

Practice the Empress.

Okay,

You guys that could see a few years of meditation,

You're walking it,

You're like the peaceful warrior,

You're walking it,

Any of us can stand straighter,

Hold your head high,

You know,

But that was so dramatic.

Bhavani,

It was just,

And I'm so glad that you're running with it.

That you're keeping it in mind,

Because it will just save you so much time.

This is you see,

When we're so heady,

We don't have but you don't,

Don't don't use your head,

You just use your body like this,

You steer,

It's like taking your power,

You're steering your direction.

And you do it through posture.

Yeah.

Yeah,

Good.

It was very strong in her case,

That she needed to do that.

Yeah.

And I'm so glad that you're so open to it.

And Bhavani didn't even get upset when I was calling her a dish rag.

And that's I just love it when I can be so honest with people's like straight to the truth of things.

You know,

We might as well.

We don't want to waste any time.

And I can't help but say it anyway.

So I'm really pleased this this whole satsang is going like a totally different direction than I thought it was going to.

But um,

Yeah.

Okay.

So anybody else?

Yeah.

Bhavani are you?

Yeah.

Maxi?

Are you Maxi?

You want?

Yeah.

Hey,

Pramod.

Hey.

Hi.

Hi.

I'm just I mean,

I feel so good.

I really have to give the feedback to the group.

Because you just talked about my case with the yeah,

Talking to the ex husband.

And what I feel since this talk is really there's more of feeling free,

More of feeling more lively.

And it's kind of amazing to feel this just how I I don't know,

Just going into this talk.

And after that,

It's Yeah,

It's so much more freedom.

So yeah,

It's who when you just told me,

I was like,

Okay,

That is how it feels like.

And I'm like,

Okay,

It's really horrible.

But after that,

There's Yeah,

It's so much better.

This is it.

This is how good and this is how you come into your heart.

And you're it was really horrible for the run up,

Right?

Your head was,

You know,

Going berserk.

I was going crazy.

Oh,

My God.

Yeah.

Right.

You just embraced it.

I mean,

I think you emailed me maybe did you email maybe not?

Me and you it helped me so much.

When you said,

Okay,

You just go through it.

You just feel it.

And it helped me so much.

Like I wrote in that email,

You're like my compass.

Like I'm feeling something and I'm asking you about it.

And you're like,

Okay,

Yeah,

It's like this.

And it's like,

Okay,

I know.

It's like this.

I can stand it.

Yeah.

That's amazing.

So it's just like teaching.

Like,

You're just learning to walk this.

And what will happen is you'll get more and more skilled.

You won't need my help so much,

You know,

You'll get it.

But always,

You know,

I've got all this light coming.

Look at this all this light coming in my face.

That's a riot.

Hilarious.

Anyway.

No,

No,

It's so forced.

And this is this is good.

Good information for you,

Man.

This is how you do it.

So you get beyond the head.

You just put your arms around.

Walk through.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Good.

Good.

That's it.

I'm I know it's like the big secret,

Right?

It's like all the therapists will be put out of business.

I'm,

I'm joking.

We need therapists,

But you know what I mean?

Yeah.

This is kind of beyond therapy.

Yeah.

Yeah.

So when you're moving from false personality to true personality,

It can be unsettling because you you you might wake up to that you're in a situation that's not not the best,

You might wake up that your jobs not suiting you anymore.

Or,

You know,

You want to go live in a different country.

Yeah.

So it can be difficult.

But,

You know,

If you just keep praying,

Basically,

And asking for guidance,

You can't go wrong.

But you know,

The main thing is this,

This,

This learning how to put your arms around all the chaos and everything,

And just don't panic,

Feel it all.

Because it's the injured child.

And in the case of women,

Particularly,

It's,

It's,

It's the disowned feminine coming up.

And that's why the women have a tendency to think they're doing it wrong.

And that they're doing something really taboo.

Because this level of female truth,

Like coming from more of the feminine face of God has been taboo.

And,

You know,

Ama talks about we women,

We get trapped by our minds.

And,

You know,

You don't the way things are going with all the plastic surgery,

And the men are getting increasingly appearance oriented.

And you know what I think?

I think women,

With all the patriarchal training,

They think they have to be beautiful,

Right?

But they don't really men just want the real.

They want the authentic energy,

Men just are so wanting authentic female energy.

You know,

I think men get really lost when the women get lost,

Then everybody gets lost.

But you know,

This process of embracing all your emotions and everything and just turning up and then facing the challenge is what gets you out of your mind and it will bring you back to your true feminine energy and you you become like,

Like an empress or goddess and you help here.

Because,

You know,

Almost says this is the biggest need for women to wake up.

Because we're all going wonky,

The women think they have to do all this stuff,

Distort their appearance to be attractive to the males.

And then the males are following the female lead by getting into appearance to like,

It's just like,

Oh my god.

Like extreme appearance focus,

You know,

Not talking healthy,

Comb your hair in the morning,

I'm talking about everybody's getting plastic surgery,

You know,

It's like,

Oh,

Yeah.

You know,

It's kind of like,

You know,

It's almost like,

You know,

When somebody dies,

And they and they get all their body like fill of chemicals,

And their face looks all made up and beautiful,

But they're dead.

And it's almost like,

We're,

We're trying to be dead,

We're trying to take away all wrinkles,

All sign of personality,

All just everybody look the same and beautiful.

And it's like,

Just be kind of dead to yourself.

You know,

It's just the wrong way,

I think.

But anyway,

Where do I go from here?

Okay,

So,

You guys,

Now,

I'll be your best friend,

If you get in disturbance,

I will,

You can always email if you if you're feeling really crummy.

But,

You know,

It is the experience of separation.

Like,

Say how Maxie felt.

And how we might feel after our mom dies,

Too.

We experienced separation,

A feeling of being separate from everything we lost our main,

You know,

The the early bonding,

The our first almost says the mom is the first guru.

But our first safe bonding,

We lose our safety,

The little child,

When even as an adult,

You know,

When we lose our moms,

The little child in us loses our safety.

So just feel it all.

Maybe you feel separate.

And maybe you feel hopeless and cut off and feel it journal.

You know,

Creative,

I don't know.

Talk,

Just be with it.

And I'll tell you,

That separation will turn into a deeper connection to God to truth to your heart.

I walked through it over and over again.

Sometimes extreme separation,

I remember once feeling like,

And I'm sure some of you have felt like this,

That you,

You were just at the farthest point of the universe,

Like as if I was at the most extreme edge of the universe,

Although there's no edge,

But as if that was where I was living my life from.

And it was so scary and so uncomfortable.

But I afterwards,

I connected up with my truth.

You see,

We're so alienated from our truth that we're tanking as a society and as a world.

You see,

So the thing is,

People may have to go through extreme horrors to connect up before they actually connect up.

But you can save yourself from having to experience extreme horrors coming from the world by just going through it internally.

Because when you're connected up,

You get a kind of golden walk,

The universe takes very good care of you,

Because you're bonded to the universe.

So you,

You can hear the intuitions about,

You know,

Maybe avoiding something,

You know,

You avoid getting on the plane that's going to crash,

Because you're,

The universe wants to keep you alive,

Because you're bonded to truth,

And you're helping here.

Do you understand?

It's the safest thing you can do.

All you have to do is get a little braver about feeling emotional distress and realize that you're just,

It's like clearing.

But there's no rush,

And I don't want to push you.

It's,

You know,

Maxie and I like she had five phone calls.

And I,

I said to her at one point,

Okay,

Maxie,

I can't talk to you for a while.

You're not getting it.

You remember that,

Maxie?

Yeah.

And,

You know,

You know what I'm like,

But it's like,

You know,

And I said,

Oh,

Go talk,

You talk to Anna till you're ready to talk to me,

You know,

But you've done it.

That's it.

It's all good.

So it can be a little bit of a roundabout path.

You know,

It's a little bit.

But you got there.

So this is what I wanted for you.

Yeah.

Yes.

Thank you so much.

Well,

Thank you.

Thank you for doing it.

Like poster child.

For the March 2,

That's a maxi.

Oh,

Yeah.

Yeah.

And any of us can do it.

It's the empowering of women,

But of men too.

It's like bringing in the this,

The feminine side within you to what makes men stronger.

Makes men stronger,

As well as wiser.

I remember Abraham,

The Hawaiian kahuna,

Who was in his heart,

He could be tougher than any person I had ever met.

And at the other extreme,

If a woman was falling apart,

He could be as deeply sensitive with her as she needed him to be.

He had the whole spectrum of great power and great sensitivity.

And most,

Most of guys in this world,

That they're both edges of the great sensitivity and the power cut off and they're just in the numb middle.

Yeah.

And now the women are bossing them around.

Oh,

My goodness.

I don't know what's going to happen.

But I'm as in charge,

So it will all end well.

Yeah,

I can feel that a lot of what I've talked about makes a lot of sense to you guys.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Prima Sita,

Can I say something?

Yeah,

Alex,

Please,

Please do.

Yeah.

Just on the subject of losing your mom.

Yeah.

And I can attest so much to what you're saying about it being an opportunity for growth.

Like,

Everything you're saying,

It just rings so true to my experience.

So I just wanted to share that.

And I wanted to share that.

Yeah,

It's just a,

An affirmation of that.

I mean,

We were very close.

And it was such a huge loss.

And the grief was just gut wrenching.

And yet,

It,

It was this transformative experience.

And it's like there was my life before and my life after she died.

And that's,

You know,

Going on eight years now,

But I wouldn't know,

I wouldn't be where.

Yeah,

Yeah,

Eight years this summer.

And I wouldn't be where I met,

I wouldn't be on this journey in the same way.

If she were still alive,

And it's not a rational,

Linear thing.

It's like,

Of course,

If I could choose to have her here with me,

I would.

And yet,

At the same time,

I know that it all worked out perfectly,

Like it all had to be.

And there's these huge benefits to her having left,

Which sounds so crazy to say,

But it's,

It's really true.

And I feel her health now.

Yeah,

In different ways.

Yeah.

Yeah,

And and you know,

She will be directly benefiting from the movement in the truth you're making.

They can grow with us.

Guys.

Yeah.

Alex,

Thanks for being so honest,

Because I know you had a really close thing with your mom.

And you had like months of really intense grief.

Yeah,

I get when grief went on.

Yeah,

Years,

I would say.

Yeah,

You see?

Yeah,

This is why the East they talk about,

We have to get over attachment.

You see,

This is exactly exactly it.

When we're attached,

We get bound,

We lose our freedom,

And we lose our truth.

But if you can,

Like when our mamas die,

If we can move into truth more,

Then we get everything.

We get them helping us from heaven,

And we're helping them.

We we can feel them.

You don't,

You know,

This little baby,

You know,

Little babies,

We give up parts of ourselves,

We give up our souls really to bond with our mamas is really what we do.

Because they're,

They're not in truth.

So as babies,

We we get we get with the program,

We just,

Okay,

We just,

You know,

And also,

It will be reflecting the patterns coming down our from our lives.

It's not anything our moms are doing to us.

But I'll tell you,

You know,

In the East,

They say the feminine is,

She,

She is the way into Maya,

And she is the way into truth.

The female,

And and you know,

There are all kinds of females around.

And you can see females that lead men into Maya.

And you can see females who lead particularly men into truth.

Yeah.

Right.

So there's an inner female in us all who's connected to our own true soul energy,

Who speaks through our intuition,

And through our feeling.

Yeah.

And she will steer us more into truth.

And you know,

With,

You know,

Really,

In my,

In my most cynical moods,

This is,

You know,

I used to flip my parents dying,

You know,

There was a level like it was almost like losing a level of government,

Terrible.

It was just like,

I had more freedom.

I wasn't like under government of like trying to please them or whatever was running,

You know.

And,

You know,

I think sometimes like if we,

If we were encouraged to be more gently honest in our culture,

We,

We,

We could be more in truth and still be close to our,

Our parents,

You know,

We wouldn't have to give up so much of ourselves.

And you guys are divine beings you have had,

What I was saying,

You've got you've had countless lives.

And all those lives are in your the cells of your body.

Now,

Each person you've been with all the different mothers you've had,

Maybe you being a mother.

And there's tremendous intelligence in your bodies,

Coming from your soul.

And also,

All the things that you've gone through all your experiences with losing people you love and your own births and deaths,

Many of them,

Many of them,

Many of them.

Aha.

That's it.

That's it.

You see,

We're so big in ourselves,

We don't have to hold on to too many things.

We don't have to hold on so tightly to people or jobs or things.

We're,

We're really enormous.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And you're the point of these satsangs,

As I've talked about is to strengthen your soul.

That's it,

Strengthening your souls,

Strengthening your connection to your souls.

It's kind of a relief just to get real,

You guys,

Isn't it?

Real.

I mean,

Maybe,

You know,

Even if the satsang is the only place where you could be like,

Just totally honest and shoot from the hip.

But if you've got one place,

If you can do it with me,

You will be able to learn how to just be this way with the rest of the world.

Yeah,

It's,

It's like,

If you can practice it with,

With me,

What will happen is,

It can generalize to the rest of your experience,

You'll you'll realize that you're not going to be put in front of a firing squad for just speaking the truth.

Or getting in touch with more feeling or being honest about your feelings.

Yeah.

Okay,

I'm feeling that there could be a shift into more depth.

You don't have to make it but I can feel that part of you part of you are it's funny,

This is a theme,

It's kind of part of you,

Part of you,

I can feel it is is wanting to keep this shallow,

In a way,

This understanding is shallow.

And it's just your ego trying to keep the status quo.

It's okay.

This is a theme this week.

Okay,

Good.

So I'm speaking it so you're,

It's shifting.

It's like you're Yeah,

You're just relaxing into it.

That's it.

Yeah.

Yeah,

And gentle with yourselves,

Because this is,

You know,

This is not the normal way of living.

And it takes practice and takes time.

I'll tell you what,

If you really want to move into truth,

What happens is your whole subconscious starts steering that way.

And it will bring you information and it will create circumstances for you to give you the opportunity to move into more truth.

Yeah,

I mean,

We're God,

We're God in human form.

So what we really want has a lot of power.

Most of us are so conflicted about what we want,

That,

You know,

We go two steps forward,

Two steps back.

But once you realize that you can actually take the freedom to become who you're born to be,

Then you can flow with it.

And it's,

I'll tell you,

It's a lot less scary than watching the years go by,

And being unhappy and feeling like,

You know,

Your life isn't going anywhere.

Yeah.

Yeah,

And any of us can do it,

Just move into truth.

And I'll tell you,

You,

You will get charismatic.

People really,

You will get more charismatic.

When people are in truth,

And they've got that bounce and everything,

They become fascinating.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Because every we're all in these thick,

Thick prisons,

And everybody wants their freedom.

So they see somebody who's living in truth.

And that prison is so attractive.

Oh,

I can do this,

Too.

Let's do it.

Yeah.

I know.

And there's no firing squad,

You know.

And they're not burning witches at this time.

You know,

Who knows,

You know,

Grab this time of freedom while we've got it,

Because who knows what's gonna happen.

You know,

The human race being what it,

What it is,

And what we're like.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Has anybody got should move into close?

Has anybody got any questions or comments before we go?

There's another thing coming for me to tell you.

You're not little people.

None of you are little people.

You're all big people.

Big people.

Mm hmm.

Mm hmm.

It's kind of like,

I want that to ring in your ears a bit.

Doesn't matter how rich you are.

Doesn't matter anything.

It's like you can be a big person.

You could be a big person.

There are lots of big people in,

In India,

Particularly,

Who beg for a living.

They're wiser than wise.

You can be a big person.

Aha.

It's safer to move in the truth than to,

To avoid it.

I was going to say this one thing that was kind of from my experience growing up was,

You know,

My family,

It was really fear based.

And my dad's success was totally fear based.

And you know,

You know,

And this is what happens when people in their egos are in their egos,

And they're fear based.

And but it's not nobody talks about it's not publicized,

Like nobody would have known this about my dad is he when he became president of this multinational,

He got addicted to sleeping pills,

Because he stopped being able to sleep,

Because the head office moved their office into his city.

And so they're breathing down his neck,

And he got addicted to sleeping pills.

And then the next thing that happened was,

Just at the point of his retirement,

Where,

So he'd had,

You know,

He made some millions,

And he,

He,

He had been a totally blue chip guy.

And blue chip stock,

And he got involved in a plan to bottle Coca Cola,

Which for him,

Was,

He was having fun,

Right after all this blue chip stuff.

And he got involved with a guy called thou th OU.

And he did all kinds of checks on him.

And they all came back fine.

But this guy ran off with all the money.

And my dad had encouraged many people,

Including members of his family,

And others to invest because it was a sure moneymaker.

So what he did do his credit was he lost half his money,

And at least half and he paid off.

He reimbursed all the people that he had told to invest,

Particularly his family members.

So the whole thing basically reduced,

You know,

So there he was at 65 with 20% of his fortune.

Okay,

That kind of stuff is what happens when people are running in fear,

Like if they're bad,

Bad stuff happens.

It's like,

But nobody would know this if I you know,

Like there was no you know,

The whole thing just looks like a success story.

Nobody knew he was addicted to sleeping pills.

Nobody knew that he lost this money.

I guess some people did.

But it's like,

You know,

There's a worm in the apple is what I'm saying.

There's a worm in the apple.

My best friend's dad,

Who is also a highly successful guy,

He when he retired,

He just became a roaring alcoholic out of control.

It's like he had been the work had kept him disciplined.

And at 65,

It all went out the window and he just became this roaring alcoholic and it's like,

You know,

Why are we scared of moving into truth?

It's scarier not to be in truth,

Because it doesn't work out.

If you're not in truth,

It will not work.

Well,

There will be a worm in the apple,

Whether it shows or not.

Yeah.

So why are we scared of moving into truth?

Yeah.

Yeah.

I saw so many things,

You know,

With this,

You know,

Affluent thing I grew up in where everybody was so like,

Oh,

It's great and everything.

And there are all these sad,

Sick stories of that were going on in this mountain view,

You know,

That was sad.

You know,

It wasn't like it worked for people.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Anyway,

I just,

This stuff doesn't get publicized.

It just looks,

You know,

Glamorous.

Yeah.

And the thing is,

You know,

You can,

You know,

If you're you poor and not in truth,

Like things won't work either.

It's like the safest thing is to just move into truth because we even don't even you don't even measure yourself with possessions.

But the more you the more you come into truth,

The more the universe just make sure you're supported.

Yeah.

I just want to spell that out.

Yeah.

It's like,

Yeah.

It's,

It's like our culture is so biased towards accumulation of things.

We're just,

We refuse to actually look at the data of what it's doing to us with our mental health and everything and the sad stories of what happens to people.

You know,

When they chase things their whole life,

You know,

Doesn't work.

Yeah.

Okay.

Well,

On that note,

Last call for any comment or anything.

No,

I want to thank you for coming.

Yeah,

Thank you for turning up so faithfully.

And,

And next week,

We'll be in Germany with Anna.

And so we'll,

We'll go from there will be on a Sunday,

Or is it Sunday next week,

Anna,

Or Saturday?

Sunday?

Yeah.

Okay.

Yeah.

Okay,

Well,

Bless your hearts and huge blessings for Forreston and Julie with your moms.

Yeah.

Stay in touch,

You guys.

My love and blessings are always coming to you.

Yeah.

And Benjamin.

Yeah.

Blessings.

Okay.

You want to say something?

Yeah.