Making The Shift Into More Truth Brings Joy

With her signature humor and ability to put words to vague perceptions and feelings, together with her healing touch, Premasudha's work is life-changing. She has a truly great knack for assisting people out of the emotional prison of their ego/intellect into true freedom. This means that sometimes even serious diseases disappear too, as part of the emotional shift into a new more love-based understanding. Premasudha primarily teaches in India, Europe, and North America.

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You know,

There's something about this Zoom.

There's,

I could feel a lot of energy coming in for the last couple of days before it.

And this,

The title,

You know,

Finding joy by shifting into truth,

There's a movement there.

Now,

This movement will tend to happen for you just as a result of having shown up in a way.

It's like getting,

You get caught,

I don't know how to put it in the,

You know,

Whoever is moving fastest in the family,

Everybody will be subtly following,

Even if it seems like the rest of the family's resistant.

In fact,

On some subtle levels,

The person who's moving faster will be followed.

It's kind of like the movement of the person who's moving fastest sets up a vacuum space and people flow in behind it.

And it's the same thing with teachers,

Which is why there can be movement just as a result of a satsang like this.

And,

You know,

We all know Amma's doing everything.

So just gonna feel into what's wanting to come.

Lani,

I'm feeling like there's a blessing for everybody coming,

And in a way it's overdue.

It feels like it's overdue,

As if all of you have put in effort and there's been a little bit of a rub around receiving,

Around receiving grace,

A kind of feeling of,

Well,

It's kind of like not allowed,

But this grace is coming.

Now,

You know,

This feeling of grace being not allowed has to do with our personal conditioned history in our families,

But also the lifetimes beyond this that color the circumstances we were born into.

So if we've done a lot of self-rejection in other lives,

We'll be born into a family where we get rejected.

And this material forms veils.

It's the veil separating us from our true self,

And it forms veils in our bodies.

Our bodies carry these veils.

Now,

This is a difficulty for seekers because you might want to move into more faith,

But you reach a veil in there that maybe has a hundred lives behind it,

And it feels,

You might feel stuck.

You might find it just kind of impossible to feel like God exists,

But it's just a veil that you're going through within your own body,

Within your own selves.

We tend to make everything all out there,

But actually the key to really moving into more power,

Like learning how to let your resistances dissolve and shift into more truth,

It's by being aware of your body.

Okay,

So all of you,

If you just understand intellectually that there's some grace,

You're being surrounded by grace,

And it's overdue,

You've earned it.

It's just to let it in.

And you'll do it.

You'll do it.

You'll do it at exactly the right moment.

That's it.

And when this moment comes,

You may have a real aha moment.

Ah,

I get it.

Or it may be more subtle than that.

You might just notice that your body is a little more flexible than it used to be.

Our bodies will give you data around exactly where you are.

Now,

I'm talking kind of round and round the point,

And there will be a point where the penny drops.

So we'll just,

I will just keep speaking like I do.

My boys,

You know,

When they were growing up,

They used to talk about mom's sonic drill because I would use words,

Words,

Words,

Words,

Words.

But they do,

You know,

To the extent that they're lodged in unconditional love,

They have a power.

They have a power,

Aha.

And the energy has the power to melt our resistances.

So you guys,

You know,

If you feel tense at all,

Just understanding that that tension is coming from fear,

Just getting that,

You know?

So if you're going through your day and you feel tense,

Oh,

It's a bit of fear.

It's like broadening our understanding.

Yeah,

There's a feeling of,

I'm sure all of you are feeling this.

It's like,

There's a feeling of heart development wanting to come.

You're all aware of it,

Kind of.

You're all wanting it.

And that's the shift of this Zoom,

Actually.

You can have your heart development.

You know,

Back,

You know,

50 years ago,

Alan Watts wrote a book about the taboo of knowing who you are,

Which was basically saying this,

That,

You know,

Our cultures discourage,

Actually,

Our movement into truth.

It's taboo,

Or it's been taboo.

But now the cost of it,

Of us staying so much in our egos,

Is becoming so clear that,

Actually,

It's becoming acceptable more to move into truth.

Okay,

Good.

Ah,

You guys.

So I'll tell you how real this is.

I'm gonna use an example of someone who was just speaking to me about,

They'd been at the ashram,

And when they were walking in the ashram,

They walked like a,

Heavily,

Clumsily,

You know,

Walking like a slave,

Basically.

And when they returned,

And,

You know,

Made the shifts that occur after you spend time at the ashram,

This person noticed that they were feeling much lighter.

And when they went for walks,

It was,

You know,

More light and exuberant.

And that's somebody who's made a shift into truth.

That's how simple it is.

It's not really a head-based process.

It's a shift.

It's kind of a physical,

Emotional,

And spiritual shift.

And it happens beyond the head.

So even though this work is,

I'm using words,

What I'm doing is assisting the movement beyond the head.

The power of the words,

The love power in the words is coming to your bodies,

And to the bodies of everybody who listens to the Zoom afterwards.

You know,

It took a while for this person who is feeling like,

You know,

Walking heavily at the ashram,

To trust enough to allow this process.

And that would have been determined by early conditioning and the number of lives where this person felt like it was safer to just be like a slave,

That that was life.

You see,

Guys,

The importance of it is,

You know,

If we don't move into more truth,

I mean,

There's a,

You know,

We'll tend to get turned into slaves.

I mean,

You can already see the movement of the cultures.

You know,

So that's the importance,

But it's not on our shoulders.

It's not on your shoulders.

This whole experience is being,

You know,

It's basically the creator just happens,

And whatever happens is the creator's will,

But it's the creator's will that we're doing this satsang,

And it's being,

You know,

You are all interested in learning how to come into your hearts more.

Okay,

Good.

I feel all of you here more.

Yeah,

You're all becoming more present with your bodies.

That's it.

That's all that's needed,

Just you being here and being present in your lives.

Ah,

Good.

You know,

I know how strong self-consciousness can be and how easy it is to criticize yourself or to think that you're not doing it right.

Really,

I remember somebody telling me that I was addicted to feeling bad about myself,

And I didn't even,

I had no clue that there was a different way to live than what I was doing,

Yeah.

But the thing is,

You guys,

When we're so self-critical,

It makes us really self-obsessed.

And so we're always trying to fix ourselves and everything,

And it takes us away from the moment.

So we end up not having the energy to give somebody a kind word or send love to a stressed out mom walking down the street.

See what I mean?

It takes us out of being present.

It just,

It wastes our time.

And the thing is,

You're all gods.

And you know,

Who can do it right?

You think of a child hitting puberty and how weird they feel and how everything changes.

It's kind of what's happening in the world right now.

The human race,

We're morphing.

We're rising in development.

It's like we're hitting puberty.

It's like,

Wow,

Everything's going weird,

You know?

It's not our fault.

It's just our state.

It's just where we are.

You know,

The great thing about these satsangs,

These Zoom satsangs,

Is they,

It's kind of like coming home,

Coming and getting a hug from a loving mother,

Like just getting held in love and respect so that you can listen,

So that you can listen and feel more.

Yeah,

Because lots of times our defenses,

These veils we have in our bodies,

They're numbing us out.

It makes it hard to hear the still small voice.

And it makes it,

We can't even conceive of being happy or being fulfilled.

But when you tap into the love,

Even for just an hour or two,

It's like,

You know,

Plugging into an electrical source,

It enhances you so you can just be in the moment where you are,

That you're just in the moment feeling your body,

Just like a child who's just still for a moment.

There's nothing to do.

There's nowhere to go.

Just be.

Yeah,

Good,

Good,

Good,

Good.

So some of you,

You may find that you're,

You might be noticing some energy flows in your body or some tensions,

Or you might feel really subtle heart opening or opening in your crown chakra,

Or you might be feeling like really walled off.

And if that's the case,

You're just,

Your defenses are just coming up to be cleared.

So it's not a bad thing.

It's all good.

Let's just be.

Yeah,

That's it,

You have permission to be.

It's always when we have a shift into more truth is when we've come to that we can just be.

Yeah,

And just notice if there are any sounds around you.

That's it,

What your body feels like.

You know,

Really we change and we shift into more truth when we see the point of it.

And,

You know,

Nothing will happen till we see the point of it.

And then we'll do it.

Or we don't,

It isn't even then we'll do it.

What happens is we see the point of it and it just happens then organically.

That's why it's no good trying to fix yourself or trying to use your will to improve yourself because it doesn't work like that.

See,

We're gods,

Really,

You're a god.

So your decisions have infinite power.

So when you see that it doesn't work to continue going in a certain way,

That is God seeing this.

This is actually God choosing a different way.

It's your God self getting through to you,

Really.

And you just start living in a subtly different way where you're more aligned with your truth.

That's it,

That's it.

And it's not,

You know,

There are no bells and whistles in this,

When really we're evolving,

There are no bells and whistles.

It's just sort of like a child waking up to a beautiful sunny day and we just realize we shifted.

That's it,

Right.

We realize we've gone beyond our heads.

That's what's facing some of you here is letting yourself go beyond your head.

It's like stepping into more the promised land,

Stepping into this new understanding.

You know,

When I put up this recent video about when the dark thoughts come and that you swim through them,

Swim through them to the promised land.

Like I used to feel that I was swimming through the sewage to kind of define some new land emerging out of the ocean of my own unconscious.

But I knew it wasn't just my own unconscious.

It was the shift we're in.

We're making this bigger shift into a more profound understanding.

You know,

Einstein said,

Problems could not be solved at the level,

At the vibration that they're created.

You either go up or down.

That's why we either have a dark age or a Renaissance.

But often what will happen in this world of duality will go down into a dark age and come into a Renaissance.

And we do this individually too,

The same cycle.

So if you really,

You know,

Get really,

Really sincere about finding a better way,

The ego will drown you in negative thoughts and fears.

You just swim through them to a new perspective.

It's very safe process.

It's way safer than staying in our egos because the ego is gonna be dethroned by life,

You know?

I mean,

We get our traumas coming.

Our early traumas from childhood will be replayed during our life several times.

It's just inevitable because the universe is asking us to wake up.

So to be proactive,

You can go,

Okay,

I wanna move through this conditioning.

And you can't force this or push this.

Please don't,

Don't,

Don't.

It happens when it happens.

But maybe for some of you,

You can remember these words that can bubble up.

So if you're feeling besieged by negative thoughts,

You can just remember my voice saying,

Aha,

You know,

You're just swimming through the sewage.

It's okay,

You're gonna find.

You're gonna find this new perspective.

That's good.

There's also a sign of spring you will feel is you'll get some threads of youthfulness,

Some feelings of youthfulness,

Like the way you used to feel as a child.

You'll start feeling that instead of the heaviness of the thoughts.

You know,

Amma and really the sages say it's already happened.

So,

I mean,

That our lives have already happened and we're just sort of finding out what our souls have chosen.

So if you look at it like that,

The weight could come off your shoulders because it's,

You know,

It's not your gig.

You're just like a little kid,

You know,

Just bobbing alone.

It's okay to be,

Just to be,

Without having to defend yourself or protect yourself or explain yourself.

Yeah,

Somehow that's very important for you to understand you don't have to explain yourself.

You know,

In a way,

Only God really gets us.

Other people are always,

You know,

They see through their eyes.

I mean,

Sure,

A spiritual master get us,

But nobody can really know what our lives are like to experiences as the person inside the life.

Nobody else,

Just the creator and you,

Creator and me.

Yeah,

Okay,

There's so much to communicate,

But there's something coming up that I'm feeling everybody here needs to understand this maybe more clearly.

When you speak to somebody and you're thinking,

You're always speaking to your own soul and to your subconscious.

So supposing there's a woman and she's in a relationship and it's not a good one.

And so she stands up and says to this gentleman,

Or a gentleman could do it to the woman too.

It goes both ways.

I'm breaking up with you.

I'm not spending any more time with you.

They're letting their soul know that they're willing to move into more self-esteem and truth,

And they're letting their subconscious know this.

And it's not really about the other person involved.

We're the point of power.

We're always speaking to the creator and our subconscious about what we want and what we're willing to see,

How much we're willing to grow.

It's not about the other people at all.

They're just showing us our concepts.

That's it.

They're basically thought forms showing us our concepts.

That's why it's so important to be present,

Notice what's going on in your body because our center of power is in us and our connection to the creator.

Other people have actually no power over us at all.

Other people are always showing us our concepts about ourselves and others and life.

See,

It's the enormity really of the responsibility of ourselves that we're hesitant to accept,

You see.

That's really the rub in the spiritual journey is once you realize that,

You know,

There in a way there is no other person in the world,

That this whole thing is an illusion and you're the point of consciousness for your soul.

There are no more excuses there.

You see,

We can't run from it.

There are no excuses.

How you live is the job you're doing,

Your choices in your life,

What you say to other people,

How you treat them,

How you treat yourself.

We're all accountable for this.

When we pass over,

There's our record.

What we did and how we lived our lives because in the highest understanding,

We're just dream figures,

You know.

But we're a dream figure with our point of consciousness in our universe.

So,

It's feeling like there's a misunderstanding that is carried by the group that it's as if the creator,

Amma's wanting some light to be shone on it.

And it's like this misunderstanding touches everybody in different degrees,

But I'm seeing it like a canvas tent,

Kind of,

Sort of a grubby canvas tent covering,

Stopping a lot of light from coming to you.

It's a misunderstanding.

It's a veil in yourselves.

So,

It's an intellectual misunderstanding and it's a veil in yourselves.

So,

It affects your physiological processes,

Which is why really enlightened people,

Their body gives them the nutrients they need really,

Regardless of what they eat.

Yeah,

It's connected to,

It's a lack of faith,

But it's understandable.

It's not a fault.

It's like,

We live in this world.

Lack of faith is so understandable,

But it's around that.

It's a lack of faith in something.

And you're all wanting it to lift,

Or you're all open to it lifting,

Let's put that.

And that's all that's needed,

Just being open to it lifting.

It stops you from seeing your own beauty.

This is the sorrow of it,

Stops you from seeing your own beauty.

No,

It's okay,

We'll just be with all this.

There's nothing to fix.

It's just watching a seed sprout or a baby being born.

Kind of messy,

Kind of discombobulating,

But there's a good result.

This veil is connected to feeling,

It kind of takes your fun out of your life.

Like it's like,

As it comes off,

You're gonna have more fun.

You just let yourself have more fun.

It's like not taking it so seriously.

Yeah,

I didn't laugh for 10 years,

Really.

At the height of my religiosity,

For 10 years,

I did not laugh.

Everything was so serious.

I'm sure I was incredibly pompous.

Anyway,

It's part of why I laugh so much.

It's sort of like,

Wow,

After 10 years of not laughing,

I laugh at everything now.

That's it.

It's related to this.

It is like a religiosity.

It's kind of what I'm feeling.

And a kind of a feeling of too much,

Not too much,

Being a little blinded by the self-attention.

Like self-attention,

Not in a good way.

So self-consciousness.

So like a self-consciousness and a focus on yourself that actually takes you out of the moment.

It's actually where you get caught in your head.

So I'm seeing this veil.

I mean,

I'm just working with this veil that's shrinking a little.

It's sort of,

It's just wanting to happen in this satsang.

It's why you're here.

It's wanting to happen.

Okay,

Okay,

That's it.

Okay.

So there's just this feeling of the great possibility of living more unencumbered by this veil and other veils.

It's sort of like all of you are opening to,

Oh,

Well,

Maybe this really is happening.

Maybe there's a veil that I'm stepping out of or I'm letting go of,

Or that's wanting,

That the creator is wanting to lift,

That my soul is fed up with.

It's like that.

It's like your souls are like,

We just moved past this.

Uh-huh,

That's it.

That's it.

You know,

The more we awaken,

The more subtle our awareness gets,

The more we perceive what is unseen by others or unfelt by others.

So I don't know how this sounds to you guys,

But you're all doing it.

You're all doing it.

It's like this veil's being dislodged.

And,

You know,

After a satsang like this,

Like remember it and try and,

You know,

In the days afterwards,

Just keep your mind really open for what I've been talking about,

Because,

You know,

This focus on this veil is so strong.

I'm getting so much energy from the creator around it that all of you,

This is being loosened,

At least loosened.

So you won't believe it as much,

Which is the start of actually really letting it go.

And this veil stops you from connecting up with the creator.

It stops you from actually feeling the creator inside you.

So,

You know,

This has to be integrated in your individual lives.

And I'm not there to do body work with you.

So it just takes time.

And it needs to be gradual for stability when we let go of these veils.

I'll tell you,

All of you really want to feel the creator's love,

All of you.

That's why you're here.

It's so strong in all of you.

It's what you want the most.

Yeah,

So be it,

So be it.

And may this occur at the highest good pace in just the right way.

That's it.

In a way that is doable,

And not too disruptive in your lives,

That is just doable,

That it comes in gently and organically.

This is the great gift of the feminine face of God energy,

Is it's gentle and gradual.

Yeah.

And soft.

Yeah.

Good.

And very forgiving.

It's forgiving.

We can't know,

A three-year-old can't know what they know at four.

There is no judgment for wherever you are.

It's where,

It's wonderful.

Aha,

That's it.

That's it.

There is no one who's not doing it right.

You're all doing it in just the right way.

That's it.

Yeah,

Good.

You know,

These veils even affect the way our physiological processes occur.

You know,

I worked with a woman once who had so many defenses that she wasn't digesting her food properly.

So we worked through some of those defenses.

She started digesting her food better.

Her health went up.

That's how real it is.

This is the thing we ignore.

You know,

Our culture just ignores it.

Do you know,

I read a thing,

This will sound off the wall maybe,

But I saw a thing on,

I don't know,

I was on my phone and it was all these women who were talking about when they went to their boyfriend's house,

Their hair got greasy overnight.

Yeah,

And it's like these physiological processes are telling you something,

You know?

They were saying they felt their hair got greasy and kind of grubby overnight.

And it's like these processes,

Our bodies give us signals all the time about what's going on and the truth of what's going on.

I mean,

This will sound,

You know,

Actually,

Kind of the tragedy,

It is kind of the tragedy of trying to communicate this material to you,

Because it is the subtle feminine face of God.

And to our culture,

It would be considered psychotic.

And it's just the saddest thing because we miss the huge truth in things that is staring us in the face,

Which is,

You know,

If a woman physically is,

That's happening,

There's something wrong in their relationships.

Maybe she's with the wrong guy.

You know,

My son used to say to me,

Mom,

I feel dirty.

And I couldn't get the words out to him at that point because I wasn't sure enough of myself.

But it was like,

If you feel dirty,

You've done something that is not in truth.

It's your soul communication telling you,

We tend to just ignore these things.

But the work that I,

This is the stuff I just didn't ignore.

I kind of like got really interested in decoding it because we all experience these things.

And I've often felt like,

You know,

The guy,

The scientist who pays attention to the data that all the other scientists are ignoring and then comes up with the breakthrough.

If you're with somebody and you think you love them and you're feeling tense every time you get into their company,

It's either that your defenses are coming up to,

You know,

Release so that you're moving into more connection with your heart through the love of that person,

That they give you enough safety that you can allow these defenses to dissolve,

Or there's something going on there that you don't feel safe in their company.

You're the vehicle,

All that your soul's giving you so much information all the time about the truth of things.

And the more we pay attention to it,

Then the more our soul,

Like,

Gives us more and more information as we,

You know,

Take care of it,

Take care,

Honor the information coming to us.

You know,

When I was in my 20s,

I used to walk around with a feeling of a broken leg on an energetic level,

And I never knew what it meant,

But it was like trauma was stopping me from walking fully.

You know,

That one of my legs,

I can't remember whether it was right or left,

That there was a wounding there that my soul was asking me to address with just this feeling of this broken leg,

You know?

There's huge amounts of energy and information coming to you right now,

Letting you know the truth of things.

And it's just for us to honor ourselves and pay attention to this data,

Just like a child does.

Yeah,

No,

Sweeties.

Yeah,

Sweeties.

You guys,

All of you are just too brutal with yourselves.

I'm sorry,

I'm just getting this loudly.

Too brutal,

Too brutal.

Please don't do this.

Don't,

Please don't do it.

Yeah,

Please don't do it.

Please,

If you catch it in yourself,

Give it over,

Please.

Please,

It's terrible what we can do to ourselves.

It's the saddest thing,

What we do in the course of our lives to ourselves,

Please.

And this brutality is not your fault,

Okay?

It's not your fault.

It's not your fault.

It's not your fault,

Please.

Our cultures are brutal.

We're in patriarchy,

And the feminine is pushed way down.

So we end up with brutality,

And we do it to ourselves.

And lots of times at the first step into more truth.

Now,

Please be prepared for this.

At the first step into more truth,

The ego will mobilize and try to discourage us from even daring to even think about having freedom.

And that's where you have to learn to swim through this stuff to the promised land.

You just swim through this crap to a new understanding.

Yeah,

And gateway.

And something in you gives you the strength to keep going and to dare to want your freedom this life.

And it's the person who dares that gets it,

You know?

You know,

I got so much flack along my way.

I still do,

But well,

Truly.

And what I realize is that,

You know,

If you stand for the feminine consciousness,

Like a woman turns and stands in her deepest feminine,

That,

You know,

You can encounter,

You know,

The shadow,

The collective shadow going,

No,

You can't do that.

But on the other hand,

There's this,

Even as there's this collective,

Oh,

You can't do that,

There's this,

Wow,

This is amazing.

We so need this.

This is what I want too,

Underneath the resistance that maybe comes from outside.

Is we all want this underneath,

You know,

We all want this light and to be able to live our soul dreams here on earth.

You know,

And if you're feeling bad,

It's like,

You know,

When the veils are lifting,

That's when we feel the worst.

But it's just when we're right on the verge of getting a revelation or a big breakthrough.

You know,

It's amazing what human beings can get through,

You know,

We can get through anything.

You know,

I go to like,

Look at North America and all those people that just came over and settled here with no insurance policies and,

You know,

No guarantees.

And,

You know,

Even growing crops,

The weather can be so fickle.

So if you should have gone to all the trouble to build a farm,

Build a building,

And there's no birth control,

Maybe you've got six kids and,

You know,

Then you get a bad harvest.

Wow,

People did this.

We can get through anything.

If you realize that the kind of pain that you guys feel sometimes is that I felt my version of it.

It's all the same kind of pain and all the same kind of storyline,

But we think it's just us.

It's not,

It's all of us get stuck in these states sometimes.

This is why I started this work was because it was my way of helping me feel better.

When I helped other people,

I could see,

Hey,

They're struggling with the same stuff that I've struggled with.

And by helping them,

What would happen is I would get more cleansed,

You know,

I would grow faster.

You know,

This video I put up just yesterday after I spoke with the grandfather who wasn't treating his kids well.

Like when I,

You know,

Gently intervened there,

I felt like how much are these kids who are just gonna be a big,

A future problem for themselves and for the culture.

And so my fear of what's gonna happen with this culture was way bigger than any kind of discomfort I had about speaking gently to this grandfather.

Do you understand?

Like,

That's what happens.

You start seeing with more your soul eyes,

Not your eyes of your ego.

And so the things you're scared of change.

I was far,

I mean,

I didn't have any fear about speaking to the grandfather.

I'm more fear about what's gonna happen in our culture if we don't start spreading love and compassion in every step we take.

And again,

It's our self-consciousness,

Our focus on ourselves that would make us,

You know,

Focus on our nervousness about speaking to somebody rather than just wanting to just reach out and help some kids,

You know,

Be reminded of their beauty rather than being brutalized.

Far more scary for me not to say anything and to gently remind the grandfather about what beautiful children he's taking care of.

And of course he grinned and softened.

He had the experience of compassion,

Probably never ever has had any experience of compassion at all.

So it's sort of said,

Is it scarier to keep living kind of a smaller life?

It's like when that gets scarier than opening up,

We open up,

It's just done in the moment.

We just start telling the truth more.

We just give ourselves the benefit of the doubt a little bit more like,

Guys,

The other thing,

One of the most powerful things you can do is just pray for grace,

Ask for grace,

Yearn for the gentle kind of soft flow of grace that just solves everything.

And it comes to us when we're,

Especially when we're trying,

You know,

We're trying.

It's like a parent with a little kid.

You know,

If the little kid's trying,

You're gonna be like more patient and gentle than if the child's like not trying.

So when we're trying,

You know,

It's a lot of grace.

And there's so much grace at this time for people who are wishing to move into more truth because just because of where we are,

It's just so crucial.

So the universe is giving major brownie points for actions that in an age of truth would just be the normal.

You know,

In Kali Yuga,

You can make enormous progress.

You know,

If you got the balls really to go against the alienation of the culture and wake up,

You get rewarded.

Whereas in the age of truth,

You know,

There'll be everybody's running after the masters and everybody,

So you have to like sweet floors for 20 years before they even speak to you.

So we're so lucky to be in this dark age right now because growth can happen.

So much growth can happen.

You can solve lifetimes now if you just turn this way.

You just turn to the light.

Your karma,

I mean,

That's really,

I think that's why I,

For me,

Because I,

You know,

When in my early days,

All these teachers and channels just said,

Wow,

You've got so much garbage.

Wow,

It doesn't look like you're ever gonna surface.

Like,

Thanks,

You know,

I'm paying you to.

This doesn't really help to hear this.

And that's part of why I say to people,

When you get through it,

Not if,

When.

Doesn't matter how old you are.

Yeah,

There's a lot of light here coming.

You know,

With this work,

With the veils that we've been doing,

You will have to go through your life and integrate it.

So it's gonna,

You will,

You know,

After the satsang,

You'll notice the veil.

But because we've already done some movement into more truth,

And some of you are really allowing the light to come in.

But it's sort of like we've worked with the blueprint,

And now you will just experience this veil lifting or loosening,

Loosening,

Lifting in the weeks to come,

Because we get what we want,

You know,

And if you want light,

You will get light.

It's inevitable.

We're God,

So if we really turn and seek the light,

We get it.

It's really impossible not to get the light.

It'll be there,

It will come.

What happens is sometimes we're so used to feeling bad about ourselves that we,

You know,

We keep that going,

Even when the light's knocking at our door,

But still the light will get strong enough so we won't be able to do it.

I mean,

The light brought you to the satsang.

You know,

There's a level in this work,

It's a little bit like scalpel work.

It's like the scalpel,

I've been working with you,

The veil,

Really with a energetic,

Very gentle,

Energetic scalpel.

Aha,

To dislodge it,

That's it.

So think about how much you want the light,

You know,

How much you're yearning for it.

Because,

You know,

This is the thing,

I mean,

Teachers can create a circumstance and make it most auspicious circumstance,

But they can't do it for you.

So some of you with this veil,

You're kind of being a little half-hearted about really getting to the light.

And it's okay if you're doing that,

You know,

It's just your head's just confusing you,

It's persuading you.

But a couple of people are really letting the light in.

It's okay,

Just be with where you are.

You know,

There's the expression,

The honest no is better than a false yes.

A false yes is like a fake flower planted in stones.

It just stays the same,

Nothing happens.

But a no,

A true no can turn into a true yes,

Okay?

So it's just better to stay with the truth of where you are than to do anything fake or try to fix or anything,

Because then it turns into a false yes,

And it can't change,

It just,

You're all entitled to this light.

It's your birthright,

That's it.

Okay,

That's it,

That's it.

It's all,

All of you are allowing it.

Some of you are allowing it in an unconscious level,

But that doesn't matter because it's going to come in consciously.

It will surface in you.

The people that are letting it come in unconsciously are the people who really need it to be organic.

You really need it to be a gradual organic change.

You see,

So there's nothing wrong.

It's all good,

That's it.

You cannot fail.

However you're doing it,

It's beautifully.

It's like a little kid.

A three-year-old is just going to be a three-year-old.

You don't criticize the three-year-old for being a three-year-old.

You go,

Oh,

What a wonderful child.

How incredible,

What a delight.

The fat little legs and,

You know,

They're a delight.

It's like all of you guys,

You're just a delight the way you are.

It's just all good.

You cannot do it wrong.

That's it.

And that's a bit steep for you to get,

But like,

Please get it because your growth will speed up,

You know,

When you get that,

Like you cannot do it wrong.

I mean,

Some things you're going to find that some things work and some things don't work.

It's just like a child.

You know,

Like the child finds out it doesn't work to tell the parent that they want chocolate for dinner.

You know,

That will not work.

Oh,

Well,

But it works to ask for chocolate,

Like,

You know,

In the afternoon or something.

It's okay,

It's just we find out what works.

You're very safe in life.

Your heads are really not in control,

Even though they think they are.

That's really the problem you see.

We think our heads are in control.

It's like our heads are clueless.

No,

Just clueless.

Yeah,

Yeah.

And the other thing is,

Please remember that,

You know,

North America is built on force,

You know,

If you think it was,

The whole thing is forced.

It was,

You know,

Taking the land away from the natives and then,

You know,

The force of the revolution and everything.

So certainly in North America,

Scratch the surface,

And we believe in force.

And I don't know about Germany.

I would think Germany and other countries is similar.

I think India has got scratch the surface.

It's very patient.

It's a very patient country.

But this force and kind of brutality comes up in us.

It's part of our cultures.

So please,

I mean,

Notice it,

Gag on it.

Don't do it to yourself ever,

Please.

You know,

Observe it.

If it comes up,

Observe it.

You know,

When I was raising the kids and,

You know,

Some of you know,

Like their dad was just around two weeks of the year,

And I was trying to evolve and raise these kids.

And what happened was sometimes this brutality would rise up in me.

Like,

You know,

I had one kid who like,

You know,

Anyway,

They're both adorable,

But there was one who did not take direction well.

And this brutality would rise up in me,

And I would be gagging on this brutality.

It would stop me from actually being able to parent because I wouldn't want to take the brutality out on the child.

But I just was,

I would just kind of disconnect when I felt it because I didn't know what to do with it.

And back in those days,

I didn't know enough to just like give it over.

Go,

God,

Help me with this brutality.

I was going into,

I would go into,

Oh,

I'm so bad.

I'm such a bad person for feeling this.

And also,

You know,

It disturbed my mothering because I couldn't act in a brutal way,

But it just made me like,

I just didn't know what to do with myself.

See,

This is the kind of thing I'm talking about.

I could give the brutality over and ask for help.

We just constantly ask for help and grace.

Everything you've ever experienced in yourself,

I've experienced in me,

We're all the same,

You know.

That's it.

It's funny,

Just that has helped you let more of this light in.

Just what I was talking about,

That's it.

And what happens is the more peaceable we get about ourselves,

The more our egos just shrink.

They just shrink because we realize we no longer need to defend ourselves like our ego taught us to.

That this world is gentler and more loving than we realized and that we're safer.

You guys,

One of the things that comes up in the journey,

We can experience like fear.

Our fear comes up.

We might have a fear of lack.

Not enough,

Even though we might have like lots,

But we have a feeling like it could go any moment and that we're so insecure we could starve to death.

You know,

Just witness these things.

Just observe.

Just observe those feelings.

Like take a photograph of it.

Witness it.

The more you can witness it,

The more your fear can shrink.

I used to go through these periods where I would see the great cost that my stubbornness,

Fear of change had cost me.

And I'd feel deep sorrow being caught in being so caught,

Being so deluded.

And then what happened was the stubbornness shrank.

The cure for fear is just feeling the deep sorrow at the way it distorts our perceptions and keeps us slaves.

I think you all deserve medals of honor,

Really,

For even thinking about waking up.

Because it's actually the scariest process a human being can do.

But it's just like waking up from a nightmare,

You know?

You might get scared.

But then you wake up from the nightmare and you go,

Oh,

That was such a baloney.

I was so scared.

And it was so unnecessary.

Everything's OK.

I'll tell you,

If you're a sincere seeker,

Everything will always be OK,

No matter what.

It's just like true seekers don't starve to death.

The universe will catch you,

I promise.

And this seemed so impossible to me in my earlier years.

And now it just seems like one and one equals two.

Because we're made out of this energy.

This energy is God.

Of course,

We'll be taken care of.

If you're worried about not doing the journey right,

What's happening is you're moving away from love of yourself,

Because you are a dear,

Dear child of the creator.

And when you're worried about not doing the journey right,

You're very far from feeling that you're the beloved child of the creator.

And that's where this work is returning you to.

It's the point of the journey,

Is for us to feel the beloved child of the creator,

Do you see?

So please,

This thing about not doing the journey right,

It's sort of like,

What do you do with a kid who thinks that they're doing everything wrong when you're looking at them and they're so adorable to you?

You just want to pick them up and hug them and kiss them.

And they're not doing anything wrong at all.

Please,

You deserve better.

Just come back to your heart area.

You're valuable just no matter what you're doing.

You could run from your heart your whole life and still be just so,

So valuable and loved.

This is what you can't escape,

You guys,

Is how loved you are.

This is what you can't escape,

Really.

You're just loved more than you could ever,

Ever imagine.

And that's what your ego is so scared of.

So it makes you feel like you're not doing it right and you're too slow and whatever.

You're running.

It's just baloney.

So just swim through this craft to the promised land of understanding that you are just a child of God.

You are just infinitely loved and valuable.

Like,

That's a joke.

It's a joke.

It's like we're in one of those circuses and you go into the haunted house.

It's like you guys,

We get caught in the haunted house.

We could just come out of the haunted house,

Really.

Our egos are haunted houses,

Really.

But we can come out.

Come out of the labyrinth.

Come out.

It's like,

I mean,

Really,

My biggest hope is that through knowing me,

You get somewhat of a direct,

Like,

People who know Ama don't need it.

But for those who haven't met someone like Ama,

That you get a direct experience of how loved you are.

Please.

And some of you know,

Like,

I'll yell and scream at you guys sometimes when I'm trying to help you out of your ego.

And sometimes you look at me like you're shocked.

Like,

Oh,

She's being so mean to me.

And I'm like,

Woman,

Just come out of this ego.

But over and over again,

It's so obvious to me,

But we can't be rushed.

I couldn't be rushed.

Like,

Some of my teachers used to roll their eyes at my resistances.

You're really,

Really loved.

That's it.

The whole universe is inside you.

It's really just how many lives we want here.

Actually,

It's just that,

You see,

It's not a matter of doing anything wrong or anything.

It's just how many times we want to come back.

I once went to Ama to ask her that if I was qualified,

Could I be reborn as an avatar if I was qualified?

And you know what Ama said verbally?

Your soul doesn't want to do that.

My soul was fed up with the earth.

But just recently,

I got this message from my soul saying,

You can do that if you want.

If you really want that,

You can do that.

So yeah,

It was funny hearing that from Ama.

It was like,

Your soul does not want to do that.

So one of the things that knowing Ama does,

She's a point right out of the usual reality.

So she helps,

Knowing her helps your mind get around that you're a vehicle of God,

That you're loved,

And you're an infinite being.

And really,

All I want is for Ama to come through me and transmit this to you.

Yeah,

And if you're a little lighter with yourselves,

And you can smile a little more loving yourselves,

And then share that with others,

Being a little gentler and patient.

You know,

There's a couple of you that are in circumstances where you're not being able to live your normal lives,

And you're getting a tough lesson from the universe.

There's great compassion for you,

Just great compassion.

There'll be so much support.

But you might be just feeling all these thick veils and resistances of the ego.

But if you're getting an experience like that,

Understand that this is what makes the concrete walls get thinner.

It's experiencing how thick and stuck you are.

That is how the walls get thinner.

It's just not very much fun,

But it doesn't last forever.

I'm wanting to communicate more heart to you,

More like,

You know,

With spiritual talk,

We can,

There's our spiritual selves,

But we're so human.

So it's,

All of it is OK.

Like,

There's,

Humanity is OK.

It's beautiful.

Like,

Sort of this feeling of,

I'm wanting to transmit more heart acceptance of your humanity,

Because you can't get to God without accepting your humanity.

We're mammals,

Mammals.

We,

We,

We,

Part of us needs the herd,

Part of us needs a cave.

You know,

So,

But our spiritual self doesn't need those things.

So there's always a tension between the two.

And we tend to disrespect the human part,

But that's,

We're human.

We're going to feel antsy if we lose our cave,

Or if we don't,

We can't afford to eat,

Or we lose our herd.

You know,

With the spiritual journey,

You can lose your herd.

And it,

All of a sudden,

You know,

Your family,

They don't understand you.

And maybe your friends don't even understand you.

And there's compassion for what that's like,

Because the mammal part of you really wants that.

We're mammals.

It's OK to be mammal.

All of you guys have received this light.

It's interesting.

Some of you,

As I said,

It's,

It's coming in through the unconscious.

Some of you are,

Are,

Are kind of feeling it more conscious,

But you're all getting it.

And I'll tell you that,

You know,

The,

What this feels like for me is just an incredible blessing,

Just like the most beautiful feeling in the world.

Yeah,

That's it.

It's just,

For me,

It's just such a beautiful feeling to be able to offer just this love and to feel the effects of it that it's helping.

That's it.

And we've all had different lifetimes.

We,

We can't compare ourselves to each other.

We've all had different lifetimes,

Different upbringings,

But really different lifetimes.

So we're all offering our gift in a very individual way that nobody else can do it.

Nobody else can do it like us.

We're the only ones.

And if we don't offer our gift,

Then it just doesn't come to the Earth.

See,

We didn't know we were so important.

That's how important you,

If,

If you don't do it,

The Earth just doesn't get it.

And then I used to think,

Well,

If my teachers hadn't offered their gift,

Where would I be?

Because I couldn't have done it by myself.

And the thing for me is,

It was a kind of a moral question.

I felt,

This was in my 30s,

I felt like if I didn't take steps to help warm up this world,

I was going to have to witness a colder world.

And in that would be my understanding that I personally did not step forward to help.

And I decided that would be the hardest hell to live in by far.

Even if my life didn't work out,

Even if I fell on the rocks,

I had to take the steps to give my gift to help warm up this world.

And I was really clueless with huge ego.

And the universe just kept catching me,

Straightening me up,

And putting me on the right path again.

All of you guys are coming up to feeling like full,

Full,

Of your cups full.

Is there any questions or observations at all?

Not that there have to be,

Just ask what's coming up or not.

I would think,

Where do you even start to reply?

Well,

If there are no questions,

Then again,

You're full.

Like I can't pour anything more in.

And please,

You're so beautiful.

Please take this away,

How loved you are,

How beautiful you are,

And how honorable you are that you showed up.

Yeah.

OK.

OK.

Blessing.

Thanks.