Living From The Inside Out

Our soul is always communicating with us. The trouble is, our heads are so busy, that our thoughts drown out the voice of our divine guidance. As we proceed on our spiritual journey, our heads become more silent and we experience more inner space.

It helps to rememeber that even the biggest spiritual breakthrough will be followed by a period of darkness. It is just the pendulum swing from happiness to sorrow and back again, that occurs in all human experience.
This process is how we untangle the misunderstandings of this and other lifetimes.

There is room for making mistakes. The judgement we place on ourselves, is the biggest mistake of all!

We hit walls that seem to be in the outside world. They reflect the fears inside of us. When we tire of this, we turn to the Creator, ask for help and humbly open up to learn.

When we discover the infinite Love within, we learn to trust ourselves and sink into our true Being. Exuberance and freedom begin to return to our lives.

Transcript

To embody the soul is the bravest work a human being can do because our egos are challenged and this is so hard for us and we take it so personally but really you know it's so good if we can grow beyond our egos.

I was thinking about how awareness dawns on us.

Okay this is I would say right across the board the biggest misunderstanding.

We go up into our heads and we try to figure things out.

We try to figure our life out.

We go round and round in our heads.

Now what happens is the truth dawns on you.

It's like a child.

Like when a child's growing,

You know,

They're walking around in kind of a magical field,

A magical,

You know,

Everybody loves them,

Everything's okay and then it just dawns on them.

In the case of the child,

It dawns on them that,

You know,

Mother and dad,

Mom and dad,

Are different than me.

The child realizes that it's the child has our own,

You know,

Our own legs and feet and we,

Nobody can save us from life.

This sort of gradually dawns on the child.

You know,

The child gradually realizes that mom and dad don't know everything and that they're going to have to face life and we do it very gradually,

Very gradually.

And understanding grows.

I mean,

That's a little bit depressing when I'm saying about,

You know,

From the point of view of the child that it sort of dawns on them the harsher realities of life,

But it's reversed on the journey.

You guys,

The love dawns on us.

It dawns within us.

The love inside everything dawns within us,

But our head has to be quiet for this to happen.

Right.

And we go,

Well,

How do we have a quiet head?

Well,

This is the rub,

You know,

It's like,

First of all,

What really helps is to realize that your thoughts don't really help much.

I mean,

Just realizing that,

Just realizing that your thoughts are distorted.

I mean,

Really,

You know,

The truth is silence.

And any talk talk or distortion.

But you can have words that are very close to silence.

You can also contemplate the creator with thought.

Sometimes you might get an insight,

But you guys,

I'm really wanting you to get this,

That the understanding dawns on you.

It dawns within you.

It dawns within your body and your mind.

Right.

And remember,

In satsangs,

These are transmissions.

Okay.

Oops.

The transmissions,

There's an energetic transmission.

That is the rechi,

The real power of the satsang.

Right.

And this,

You know,

The practice of meditation,

All these things,

Anything that calms our mind,

Calms our intellect,

So the truth can dawn on you.

Because this is one of the things,

In working with you,

I noticed that Pramakantsuta can say something 500 times,

But it isn't until it dawns within the person that it's useful for them.

It's just like telling a child,

You know.

Really,

Teaching,

Spiritual teaching,

It's a lot like motherhood,

You know.

You say it 500 times,

You know,

But it doesn't have any real power until it dawns within the person,

The truth dawns within the person.

Right.

I really hope is that your value dawns within you.

Yeah,

That it dawns on you how precious you are.

You,

That.

You know,

Sometimes something might dawn on us years after an event happened.

And maybe the meaning of the event dawns on us years later.

Yeah,

What I'm feeling is wishing to happen is for all of you guys to increase your inner space.

Remember,

And I've told you till you're tired,

But you're going to hear it a million times.

Archangel Gabriel said,

Tell them the truth is inside.

Yeah.

I feel some inner space,

Some greater inner space.

Sometimes when we cry in sorrow at our separation from Amma,

The creator,

Krishna,

Our souls,

We feel more inner space.

That's it.

That's what I want for you guys,

Inner space.

So this is how being occurs as opposed to doing.

You achieve some degree of inner space.

And then the actions you take from that,

You know,

The actions you,

Your actions in life come from this inner space.

And you can be quite busy with actions.

It doesn't mean staying idle at all.

You can be busy and still doing,

Taking actions from this centered,

Spacious being energy.

I feel how many of you want this.

And you know what?

If you want it,

You will get it.

You just keep at it till you get it.

And we get brought to it.

We get brought to it by something beyond us.

Amma lift me,

Whether the creator or,

You could say,

Gently show me,

Gently lift me up and show me how to come from being energy,

Come from being.

Right.

It's from the inside and you do from the inside out.

Motherhood is very good training for this.

If we let ourselves love our kids really deeply,

It helps us move into doing,

I mean,

Being.

The current,

Our current cultural motherhood is doing.

It's a to-do list,

Which is heartbreaking for any loving mom.

Easiest way to change is to be loved into it.

Yeah.

This is my hope that you'll feel it.

Some of you are feeling empty,

Like the emptiness that comes with a bit of feeling the meaninglessness,

That kind of empty.

It can feel kind of a relaxation taking place in the cells of your body as we speak.

You see,

Sometimes just bringing these things up into consciousness catalyzes a shift.

I just want to say,

You know,

In my own life that bringing forward this unconditional love has been challenged every step of the way.

It's been challenged and ridiculed every step of the way,

You guys.

I mean,

Partly it was because Pramasutra was so bold with it,

Like she just jumped into it and said,

Okay,

I'm going to live this way.

I'm going to work with people through massage.

That's how I started.

I just stepped right out of kind of the matrix.

I just stepped right out of it.

There was this sort of mass pressure coming from every single direction of family,

Friends,

You know,

All over.

Plus,

Inwardly,

From Pramasutra's inside,

There was great self-doubt and fear,

Enormous fear.

So,

I just lived my life and just expressed.

And,

You know,

When the results were good,

Everything was flowing,

It was good,

It strengthened me.

And then the pendulum would go the other way.

I'd lose my clients,

You know,

They'd get fed up or I'd feel like my mothering wasn't good or my income.

And I just turned with my whole heart and soul to God,

Okay?

And I didn't even know Amma.

I didn't even know Amma.

I didn't even know Amma.

Right.

And I'm standing,

Speaking to you from this,

From this experience.

And it would look like all was lost.

And then,

You know,

It would dawn within me,

Something would dawn within me about how loved I was by the Creator.

Or it would sort of dawn within me how hard I was being on myself.

Or how lost everybody was,

Not just me.

And I kept going.

And then the pendulum would go light.

And I'd be,

Oh,

I've got it now.

Oh,

I'm good.

I've got it.

Everything's all sewn up.

I'm almost enlightened,

Really.

I wouldn't be like this.

And then the pendulum would go crashing into the dark,

Okay?

It's happened over and over.

And Prama Sutta speaks from this.

Right.

It's the way it works,

You guys.

In the energy of being,

You understand that the pendulum will go right or left,

You know,

Into the light and into the darkness.

That's just part of the understanding.

And you're just with that.

Yeah.

And you guys,

You can do this even if you have jobs.

You know,

It may take a bit of time.

For the understanding,

I started to say inner standing,

Like inside standing.

No,

For the understanding to dawn within you.

But even understanding,

Think it's like the bottom of your feet.

The bottom of your feet.

It's the under your standing.

Understanding.

We worship the Guru's feet,

Amma's feet.

It's like Prama Sutta thinks the image is like her understanding,

The big understanding that she's embodying.

When we bow down to her feet,

We're bowing down to this,

Asking for it too.

You know,

Our egos are bowing to it,

Saying,

Okay,

We surrender.

We surrender.

Yeah.

Good.

I'm hearing bells ringing.

That's so cool.

So cool.

Also,

You know,

I mean,

It's not real bells,

But bells do ring in Germany.

I love it.

They ring,

You know,

Sort of every 15 minutes.

It's just lovely.

You know,

If you're kind of thinking about the Creator,

It's like every 15 minutes you get a reminder.

It's stunning.

You're wonderful the way you are.

Like,

You know,

You're already perfect,

You see.

You're already the Creator.

You're already perfect.

You're perfect in your imperfections.

You're perfect.

You're like studying for your PhD.

Somebody studying for a PhD,

You know,

They almost got their doctorate.

They're almost there.

Seeking the Creator in the life is the big thing.

If you do that,

Your life is not wasted.

So just be very expansive with your faults,

Please.

You see,

I'm always talking to beautiful,

Beautiful souls who are talking from their heads.

And,

You know,

Sometimes I'm listening,

And sometimes it's like listening to a three-year-old speak with authority about life.

It's like,

It's all twisted and just,

But it's wrong.

But the head's telling them that it's right.

But,

You know,

It will be about all the lives.

It's not a mistake.

It's what it's helping us unravel the knots coming from other lives.

The knots and misunderstandings of other lives.

Now,

Part of you want to lose,

Some of you want to lose your attention there.

You want to get distracted away from that.

You know,

Whatever you're facing,

You're facing all of your lives woven into this one,

Okay?

All of your lives are in it,

Woven into this life.

And if it's true that it's all going on at the same time,

It's all happening now.

Some of you are ashamed at the way you distract yourselves.

So be patient with this,

Okay?

Be patient.

Just keep turning to God.

Abba says,

You know,

If you're going to smoke or drink,

Bless it first.

Abraham used to say he smoked.

He smoked like a chimney since he was in the U.

S.

Army during the battle with Korea.

And he came back with a two-pack-a-day habit.

And he smoked for years.

He finally died about 62.

He had no signs of smoking.

You know,

He didn't have a cough or any of that.

And he used to say when people criticized his smoking,

He'd say,

The thought,

The judgment is far worse than his act of smoking.

That it was the judgments about cigarettes that was harder on our health than cigarettes.

Although,

You know,

Cigarettes,

Really,

You know,

They're full of arsenic and everything.

It's not the right thing.

But he said the judgment was worse for our health.

I'm feeling,

It's interesting,

That helped some of you.

That released,

It's helping to allow more of a flow.

Yeah,

I just want to say something.

The man who wrote A Hero with a Thesis,

And I just can't remember his name right now,

But he was very famous about 40 or 50 years ago.

And he said that cultures that are declined will emphasize no all over the place.

So,

They'll start being riddled with rules and regulation,

A whole bunch of no's.

And cultures that are on the upswing,

That are rising,

They do that.

They have far more open doors.

They will keep doors open.

There's a flexibility to them.

It's,

You know,

Think of the US in the 50s and 60s.

It's like this rising,

It's like big burgeoning energy.

And it was all allowed.

And then we,

You know,

We're got more and more no's now.

So,

What I want to say to you guys is this can affect us internally too.

So,

We can get more and more restrictive and judgmental with ourselves.

So,

Please keep this in mind,

That maybe we're being influenced by our cultures that are really full of no's.

And you can,

There's more room for you to be yourself than you think,

Really.

Yeah,

There's more room.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Please,

You know.

The other thing about was freedom has to be taken.

A person can't give it away.

You have to take it.

You have to see it and grab it.

And to grab it,

You will have to have some degree of self-confidence or some degree of self-esteem in order to feel able to grab it,

In order to feel worthy enough for it.

Please,

Prama Sutta,

I feel that I hold the hand out so much and often it's the person's unworthiness,

Feelings of unworthiness that gets in the way.

Now,

Life will you keep,

Even if you're feeling unworthy,

If you keep praying,

Keep,

You know,

Doing meditation,

Thinking about the Creator,

Amma's hugs are the best.

This feeling of unworthiness will gradually lift.

I've watched it with some of you who've,

We've walked together for some time,

And I'm gobsmacked actually by what you're doing and how far you've come.

From where you started.

You know,

You've got room to bumble and make mistakes,

Okay?

Yeah,

You see,

You guys.

Please,

You know,

If you do that,

Like witness the shame and understand that it's ego,

Witness it and know that it's not true.

This is the biggest thing holding,

In my experience,

Women back.

All of us,

But women particularly can feel like shame about coming forward with their true nature.

I know something beyond us all has brought us together.

You're good.

You know,

Pramasutra feels that something has brought us together to strengthen our souls,

To strengthen our connection to our souls,

To our true nature,

To the Amma inside us.

Right.

Good.

I was talking in a satsang about how we keep walking into walls,

Okay?

In our lives,

We say,

Okay,

I want this,

Whatever it is.

I want spiritual knowledge,

I want money,

Whatever it is,

And we'll take steps towards it,

Or I want a happier relationships.

We take steps for it,

And we'll hit a wall,

And it will be a wall that we've hit a million times.

And we think,

What's,

You know,

We do different things.

We go,

What's wrong with me?

Or we go,

What's wrong with them?

Why are they being so mean to us?

Why is the world so crushingly harsh?

And you guys,

The thing is,

The wall is inside you,

Okay?

It's a thought.

It's coming from a thought.

It's coming,

You know,

The non-dualists would say,

It's coming from the I-thought,

And that's true.

It is.

It's coming from the I-thought of you being separate from life.

That is where all our pain is.

It's from this I-thought,

That I'm something separate from everything I see.

Now,

When we hit one of these walls,

We get thrown back on ourselves.

Okay,

And it's important what we do with this.

So,

We get thrown back on ourselves.

So,

We might feel part of us is running the heavy thoughts,

The sorrow,

The rage,

The fear,

All of it.

And at the same time,

We're aware that this wall that we have banged into a million times is not outside us.

So,

We start talking to the Creator.

There is a woman I know who has made tremendous progress in her life,

Basically,

Because she talks to the Creator all the time.

She doesn't really do the usual spiritual journey,

She just talks to the Creator.

And that's it.

That's it.

And you keep talking to the Creator and being open,

Open yourself to data,

Open yourself to learn.

Go,

I'm really tired of hitting this wall.

I really want to learn.

I open up to learn.

And then you let yourself be instructed.

You get let yourself get instructed.

I'm often hitting people over the head saying,

You know,

Make room,

Make room to hear the guidance.

Make room for the new information.

Make room for the new way of learning,

A new way of living.

Right?

You got that.

You guys got that.

Good.

Because if we try to process everything by our linear mind,

We're not going to get anywhere.

You have to like,

Sit there,

The bottom of the wall,

You cry,

You rant,

You rage,

You know this doesn't work,

You pray for guidance,

And you open up.

And you open up,

And you open up,

And you talk to the Creator,

And the wall will dissolve.

If you do this process deeply enough,

The wall will dissolve inside your psyche and your body.

And when that happens,

You don't find it in the world anymore.

The world will open up.

You could put your hands on your hearts and your bellies if you wish at this time.

And ask for the energy of your heart,

The energy of the Creator.

Open to it.

Open to it.

You might notice in your belly,

You might feel warmth,

You might feel tightness,

You might feel,

You know,

You might even feel,

You might feel expanded,

Might feel relaxed,

You might feel that you don't have to hold on anymore to anything really.

But know as we're speaking that the energy of the wall,

The energy of the veil that maybe your psyche,

Your cells are carrying,

Is thinning.

It's loose.

It's dissolving.

It's dissolving in this embrace of your heart.

This embrace of yourself from the heart.

Yeah,

An embrace of the love within you that is bigger than any veil.

It's bigger than the world.

It's bigger than any other person.

It's bigger than any problem.

It's bigger than the stars and the sky and the universe.

And you can have your freedom this life.

And just be with it.

And it would have come from other lives,

And maybe when you were three or four,

Maybe people said no to you a lot.

So you put a wall there so that you behave well.

You know,

The sacral is the flow.

It's the flow.

Maybe somebody said you were a bad boy or girl.

So you clamp down on yourself and thought,

Oh,

I've got to control myself.

I'm not good.

I've got to,

I've got to,

I can't trust myself.

I'm a bad boy.

I'm a bad girl.

I can't trust myself.

So I have to control and suppress,

Right?

We can outgrow these things.

We stop believing.

It's like when you let love in,

It heals it all.

And when you put your hands on your heart,

You guys,

That is the creator inside you.

It is the creator that's beating your heart.

You know,

The Eastern sages say the whole universe comes out of the right side of our bodies at the heart area,

Like sort of on the masculine heart.

It's like the left is where the heart is.

That's where the,

You know,

That's where the earth plane is,

Maya,

The illusion,

The,

You know,

The creation.

And the other side is,

It's like,

That's where all was dreamed up from your own heart.

This is what the sages say.

So the sun and the moon,

It's created by you out of you.

Right.

So let this big love heal any little misunderstanding,

Any distrust,

Self-distrust you've got.

Let it heal your self-distrust,

You guys.

Let it,

You know,

Because when our sacral energy is flowing,

There's a joy in life.

It's kind of,

I can do that.

I can achieve that.

I can do that.

It's a really exuberant.

Yeah.

And you could all stand for a little bit more exuberance.

Premasutra feels,

You could all stand to like make room for a little more exuberance,

A little more freedom to flow along,

You guys.

Yeah.

Blessings.

Blessings.

Joseph,

I see you.

Yeah.

I got you.

Yeah.

Yeah.

So,

Yeah,

Please let the exuberance,

You know,

You know,

What happened to us,

You know,

We don't have to live all boxed up.

Right.

Right.

You know,

Premasutra,

Okay,

I'll tell you my dream,

Is that the words coming through this one,

And the energy melts your defenses at a pace that you wish.

Now,

You know,

It's not,

It's the Creator doing it,

And the Creator's in you,

I'm in you,

It's Alma doing it.

But let's play with this,

Okay?

I mean,

This is kind of my dream to find love within me and then share it.

And how big can it get?

Right?

How big can you let the love in you become?

Yeah.

Yeah.

It's like,

You know,

I feel like sometimes that I'm,

You know,

How when playing a game,

The coach gives like,

Inspires the players before they go out to battle.

I feel like,

It's like,

I want to,

Premasutra wants to inspire you to be yourselves.

Let yourselves be.

I see,

I see your beauty,

You guys.

I do.

You know,

Even with some of you,

And I'm being tough with you,

But I have to be,

Because otherwise your egos would run the show,

So I have to be.

But it breaks my heart,

Too.

You know,

I used to feel sometimes that my blood was running more freely,

Even in my veins,

When I made a shift.

I could feel my body taking in oxygen and using it better,

With a shift into love.

And,

You know,

Sometimes our minds get very small,

And we go round in tiny little circles.

Okay,

Really small-minded.

I think many of us know what that feels like.

Our minds get smaller and smaller and darker and darker,

And that is exactly when your soul's on the move,

And your ego's trying to hold on for dear life.

It's not real.

The tiny little circles aren't real,

And you just need to take very good care of yourselves in periods like that.

Go for walks,

Eat well.

Abraham used to say,

Take vitamin B to calm the system.

Amma will keep bringing you into light.

I promise you.

I promise you.

The Creator,

Amma,

Your soul,

Will keep bringing you into light.

Does anybody have any questions or comments or anything?

I mean,

Does any of this make sense?

You're all in different places in your journey.

Hi,

Sister Dave,

It's Laura.

Laura,

Sweet one,

How are you?

I'm so happy to see you.

Thank you.

I'm so happy to see you too.

You guys,

Thank you.

Yeah,

My ego is holding on for dear life because I feel like I'm dying.

And I'm going,

You said,

Take your freedom.

Someone told me last week to steal the key from my mother.

I don't know where I can stand in my truth and where I can do whatever she wants.

Are you home with your family now,

Sweetie?

Are you home with them now?

You've been there two weeks?

Yeah.

I need some guidance.

Okay,

So you're already at your family's home.

I'll be there May 31st.

Yeah,

No,

Because I mean,

It's just a head question,

Sweetie.

Sorry,

I can't.

It's in the future.

There's no package to,

You know,

Yeah,

It's not,

It's not gonna work.

You can,

Yeah,

You can,

You know,

You're,

You know,

That we've talked about this,

That and you've,

You've done it,

You,

You have,

You,

You have breakthroughs every so often,

And you realize that it's just all love,

Right?

It's all Amma,

Right?

Yeah,

So you're in the pendulum where the pendulum is going into the dark.

So just keep praying to Amma,

To the Creator,

And then the pendulum will swing to the light,

And she'll be able to get through to you.

Okay?

Everyone would be scared where you are,

Like before you move back to your family,

Everybody would be nervous,

I'm sure.

I would be.

So it's very,

Yeah,

Look,

Bhavani's hearts and everything,

Everybody,

Yeah.

And,

You know,

You're not feeling well,

It's a difficult,

Yeah,

We've all got,

You're all moving back,

Everybody,

Yeah,

Who wouldn't be scared,

A bit nervous?

Yeah,

So maybe we can talk once you get there,

And just keep saying your mantra.

Something really neat,

I was outside praying,

Sheba,

Have mercy on me.

Good.

A raven flew right over my head,

So close that I could hear the wings.

Wow,

Wow.

I was blown away.

Totally,

Wow,

There you go,

There you go,

Yeah,

There,

He came when you called.

Oh,

Sweetie,

Thank you,

Thank you,

Many blessings.

Yeah,

Path of love,

It's sort of,

You know,

The hardest path,

But it's,

It's the fullest.

Yeah,

It's what all the great poets and musicians have been talking about,

You know,

Path is roomy,

You know.

Just the last,

For,

You know,

Before,

Susan,

Yeah,

Blessings.

Before I go,

You know,

I don't know whether it was Hamlet,

I think it was Hamlet,

Macbeth or something.

And there's a line saying,

Stand and unfold yourselves.

Yeah,

Unfold yourselves into the fullness of who you are.

Let yourself unfold,

We get folded up upon ourselves.

You know,

I'm always working with people,

I put my hands behind their necks,

And they'll start standing straighter.

And do you know the neck,

Behind the neck,

It's self-esteem issues,

You know,

Hang your head in shame,

Hold your head high.

So hold your heads high,

You guys.

Stand and unfold yourself,

Stand in your full emperor,

Empress posture.

Yeah.

Yeah,

Please.

Yeah.

Yeah.

This is just the Leela,

Your true nature.

Your true nature is eternal.

Right.

And remember that.

And share that.

You know,

Because,

You know,

Premasuddha,

You know,

As I said,

Premasuddha offers love a lot,

And it always isn't always well received.

So Premasuddha like really focuses on letting it purify her.

Might as well.

Makes me more and more non-attached.

Yep.

It's all good.

It's not always easy,

These situations.

But they grow us.

They grow us,

Eh?

Like,

What else grows us?

You know.

Okay,

You guys,

I am sending you so many blessings,

Okay?

It's like,

My heart's just kind of exploding in love for you,

And I missed you all.

You know,

Seeing a couple of new faces and lovely,

Lovely.

Yeah.

And blessings.

And if there's another chance for another satsang before Premasuddha comes home,

We'll do it.

And just remember,

Premasuddha's always thinking of you.

And,

You know,

On the prayer page,

With Premasuddha,

Does it with great devotion.

Remember you're in my heart,

And we're all in Amma's heart.

I mean,

You know,

We're all things I've got to worry about.

But still,

This reminds us,

Right?

Okay.

Okay.

Blessings,

You guys.

Blessings.

I love you with all my heart.

Blessing.

Okay.

Bye.

Reviews

Premasutha you are Love and Beauty. Thank you for all of this transmission and talk. "Tell them the truth is inside". I'm curious when you became aware of your ability to see and transmit. Was that when you started practicing massage therapy or after you found Amma? I want you to know I love you very much and I look forward to talking with you whenever that happens. I have phase 2 of breast reconstruction on 6/3. 🫶🏼