Facets Of Evolution And The Human Condition

Here comes a deep dive into Awareness with Premasudha who speaks so clearly and often humorously about the journey. In this Satsang, she observes how at a certain level of sincerity, there will be the internal experience of divine nectar. One feels it as the nectar of the soul and Premasudha suggests it changes our physiology. Another byproduct of this nectar is increased elegance. Often people will ask if you have lost weight, perhaps because they intuit the drop in emotional baggage.

Premasudha speaks about how North America was built on force and how this affects our lives and spiritual journeys.

There is much more to this talk as Premasudha's loving heart makes transmissions that can be felt during the satsang and when listening.

Transcript

I'm just so happy to,

That we're here.

Yep,

All seeing your sweet faces.

Yep,

Some of you have been,

You know,

Going through a lot with integration of our sessions.

Sending particular love to anybody who's having any kind of difficulty.

Yeah,

It's just temporary.

The difficulty is temporary.

You're going to feel more expanded,

More in trust and truth after the integration.

It is always like this.

Okay.

So,

You know,

It always happens about an hour or two before I begin,

I get the content of the satsang.

And this one is really focused on acceptance of what is.

And another way to put that into words is to call it surrender.

Yeah.

Acceptance and surrender.

Right.

And that's what this satsang is about.

And,

You know,

As I tell you every time,

Just attending will mean movement.

Yeah.

It's pretty impossible to attend these satsangs without being accelerated.

That's it.

Okay.

And,

You know,

My huge gratefulness to Amma for her patience with me with this one and Abraham and other teachers.

Yeah.

And it's why I'm pretty patient with you guys,

Because somebody was very patient with me.

So,

You know,

I got it so I can give it.

Yeah.

Okay.

Okay,

Good.

I want to talk about cellular renewal,

Because one of the ways that you will know that you're making progress.

That's the wrong way to put it.

If you go right to your true self,

You will access a kind of nectar that will come in to the cells of your body.

And it will give you an elegance.

Yeah.

Somebody can spend a lot of money on clothes,

But they won't give the elegance of somebody who's moving into truth,

Male or female.

It's in the way you stand.

It will be in the way you stand.

It will be in the aura around you.

It will be,

Though,

Also,

You know,

It will be physiological.

At some point,

We will study better what goes on in the bodies of people who are really awake,

Because there will be different physiological processes.

I just know it.

But I want to talk about this kind of elegance,

And people will ask you if you've lost weight.

When you make an emotional shift into more truth,

People will say,

Have you lost weight?

Because they will be picking up,

They will be feeling that you're carrying less garbage,

That you're lighter.

So not only will you feel lighter physically,

But this will be visible to others.

And they will also listen to what you say more.

Now,

This is kind of a nectar that comes with absolute sincerity,

Basically.

If somebody is really,

Really sincere,

They will get this.

Also,

Very,

Very open,

And it can take,

You know,

Some people get this quickly,

Some people get it later.

But if you just keep going,

You will experience it.

And just be very patient and compassionate with yourselves,

Please.

Yeah.

Some of you are feeling that the spiritual journey is a bit futile.

Okay,

So I'm just acknowledging this.

You see,

Part of what brings us into truth is when we're seen really deeply by somebody.

And then we kind of get like,

How could they see us so deeply?

Well,

It must be that God exists,

You know?

The God in them is seeing these things about us.

Yeah.

And there's a couple of you are feeling desperate.

It's okay,

These are all things that come up on the journey.

But they will also alter what I'm going to be saying to you.

It's sort of like picking up on the mood of the children,

You know,

Like a teacher coming into class,

You know.

Or a mom when she's cooking breakfast,

Like she'll pick up on the mood of the kids that day.

Right.

Right.

This nectar is available to all of us.

Sometimes you can sort of see it when you look at,

You know,

Pictures of Aboriginal people who have been not much touched by the Western world and you see pictures of them.

There can be kind of a luminous quality to them and the way they're standing.

You know,

Just say,

You know,

Me too.

Don't be walled off by any of this.

You know,

Some of you are.

See,

The reason I mentioned this is because it's a sign of absolute sincerity when you get this.

It's a sign of absolute sincerity when you get this.

So it is,

It's a real marker on the journey.

It's something you could look for and when it comes,

You can feel validated.

You know,

We Westerners,

We were so used to,

You know,

We try,

Try,

Try,

Effort,

Effort,

Effort.

And this nectar,

It doesn't really come through effort.

It comes from a deep desire to know the creator and to feel the creator within you.

Yeah.

Please,

Not effort.

No,

A really sincere desire to bond with the creator within you.

And this actually is something like get lost on the journey a lot.

Because,

You know,

I was speaking with somebody recently and it was kind of sad,

Except that it's,

I see this quite a lot.

It was a young person and he had a job working with people and he was a dad.

He's a dad of young kids.

And he's so preoccupied with the spiritual journey on a head level,

Going round and round in his ego,

That he's not present with the people that he's working with and he's not present with the kids.

And what I saw when I looked at him was a big blob of darkness right on his heart.

You know,

It looked like a black heart,

But I could tell it was like a blob.

It was just a misunderstanding.

So I spoke about this,

You know,

The way I do,

And it lifted and his heart expanded.

But this is absolutely heartbreaking to see how many of us like spend years going round,

Round,

Round in our head and we miss,

We miss.

We miss the Creator,

We miss this nectar.

And,

You know,

It's,

We're not bad for doing this.

It's just,

It's just an error.

It's just,

You know,

If you see you're doing that,

Like just give it over to Allah,

To the Creator.

Have a sleepless night over it.

You guys,

I've had countless sleepless nights over stuff like this.

Yeah,

No wonder this topic was surrender,

You know,

I can,

I can feel this.

It's kind of a rock like intransigence.

It's sort of like a rock.

It's like concrete thinking.

Okay.

It's our concrete thinking.

And that's why we go round in our head and we don't get the nectar.

You're not,

You're not bad and you're not,

You're not really making a mistake.

I mean,

This is part of the journey.

It's just the universe.

I'll tell you,

This satsang is to hoping that the guidance coming through me,

The Creator,

It's like I'd say Allah,

The Creator is wanting this rock to melt though.

This rock hard concrete thinking where you think,

You know,

It's kind of thinking like,

Okay,

I've got the rent.

I have to pay the rent.

There's no way round that.

So on one level,

That's true.

But you build a relationship with a Creator and that no longer operates in your life with the same.

Yeah,

It doesn't.

It's like actually listening and responding to the Creator pays your bills.

It is the Creator that pays your bills.

You might think you do it,

But it's the Creator who does it.

And if you want your bills paid without you having to sacrifice your integrity,

Then that will happen.

You might have to downsize.

You might have to downsize.

Maybe not.

Maybe not.

It's sort of like the more devoted you get to the Creator,

The more you just don't care.

And also the more you can feel how the bills are paid by the Creator.

It becomes more and more effortless.

You know,

Please,

I do not underestimate how terrifying it can be to make shifts in vibration and move from lack of trust into trust.

You know,

As I said,

I had very little.

.

.

I didn't meet Amma until I was 51.

I had a lot of years where I experienced this kind of thing.

Right.

Right.

You know,

It is almost like an absurd theater,

Theater of the absurd,

That we're here.

And I'm telling you that,

You know,

Trust the Creator because you are the Creator.

Because you are the Creator.

You are God.

You're a fragment of God in human form.

Everything you see is.

.

.

Comes from your soul.

Comes from your soul.

Just hearing this over and over and over will help.

I can feel it's hard for you,

You know.

You know.

.

.

You know,

The bottom line is we Westerners,

We're really,

Really alienated.

We're really,

Really alienated from the Creator within.

Yeah.

So we're sort of starting like disadvantaged children in a way compared to.

.

.

Cultures where maybe.

.

.

There's a greater love flowing.

There's like,

You know.

.

.

India is basically been founded on patience and been founded on the rishis and the knowledge of the rishis,

The very,

Very,

Very early wise men.

And that's basically the foundation of the Western culture.

You know,

Us in North America particularly,

You guys,

North America was founded on force.

Okay.

We forced our way over.

Then,

You know,

In the US they had a revolution.

It was all force,

Force,

Force.

Yeah.

And that's,

You know,

Unfortunately,

That's kind of what we understand.

And in the West,

That's what we do to ourselves on the journey.

We try to force ourselves.

We force it down our throats.

We force it down our throats.

We try to structure ourselves.

We force ourselves to do some kind of spiritual practice.

You know,

If you're really interested in the divine,

You will do spiritual practices just because you want to.

Because it's the only time you feel really fulfilled.

Yeah.

I'm feeling like this satsang doesn't really compute with you guys right now.

But I'm hoping that kind of a penny will drop for us all.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And,

You know,

Part of the penny dropping is realizing that you're good enough just as you are.

Okay.

I'm not talking about improvement.

Improvement.

Or forced change.

Yeah.

Yeah.

This is quite something.

This is an interesting satsang.

You know what it feels like to me?

It feels like you're all deaf.

So,

Really,

That I'm talking to a deaf people.

But,

You know,

I mean,

It's all me too.

You know,

Hello,

Pramasutra.

Open the ears.

Yeah.

So,

Maybe there needs to be more love coming through my voice.

And that will help you hear.

Yeah.

Right,

Maybe you'll be able to hear this.

It's like how much your soul longs for you.

How much your soul adores you,

Understands you,

Waits for you.

Waits for you.

Carefully sets up situations that are tailor made to help you make a shift.

Not only difficult ones,

But ones that will attract you and entice you.

Some of you are getting restless and I'm feeling sad.

I'm feeling sad because I'm.

.

.

Yeah,

It's kind of like I feel like I'm.

.

.

That there's more space being made for you right now,

Okay?

Yeah,

I'm feeling this more loving energy flowing in.

And it's saying that there's more space being made for you right now.

Yeah.

More space in my heart,

More space in your hearts.

There's more space being made in your hearts for you.

Okay,

This is the key.

Yeah,

More space in your heart for you.

Right,

For you,

Just how you are.

Right,

Okay,

Good.

This is the secret.

Yeah.

That's it.

The space is coming in.

That's it.

That's it.

Some of you are feeling a little afraid of the space.

Just observe it.

I mean,

This is what we're like.

But it's just love.

It's just your soul loving you.

It's almost grace.

That's it.

That's it.

That's it.

And with this,

You have permission to feel more deeply.

Okay?

There's permission to feel more deeply coming in.

Right.

Yeah,

I can feel some of you have been afraid of this for lifetimes.

And,

You know,

This is what we're like.

What's to be frightened of with this soft,

Gentle spaciousness?

Some of you are getting restless,

Okay?

So,

Just come.

Come to presence.

Come to soft,

Gentle space.

Let it in.

Let it in.

Let it in.

The Vani,

Let it in.

The soft,

Gentle space.

Yeah.

I watch you guys.

I watch you like a hawk.

Soft,

Gentle space.

Yeah.

And a forgiveness.

A forgiveness.

Yeah,

Self-forgiveness.

That's it.

Right.

Right.

Mama says the earth plane is very challenging.

Like an Ivy League college.

I'm sure some of the people who go to Harvard and everything with the,

You know,

Sometime in first year,

They go,

Oh my goodness,

What have I done?

Yeah.

Okay,

Soft gentleness.

Soft gentleness coming to you.

Soft,

Gentle forgiveness.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Right.

More spaciousness.

More spaciousness.

Yeah.

Good.

Good.

Good.

Good.

Does anybody have any questions or comments or anything pressing?

Or maybe you just want to bathe in this grace.

You know,

There's some of you who felt very alone.

You know,

You can take a lot of courage to come out from this.

Yeah.

Okay,

Good.

You know,

There's somebody,

And I can feel that when love comes to them in their life,

They kind of duck and run for cover.

Or like,

It's sort of like playing a child's game where you're trying to avoid a ball being thrown at you.

And if the ball touches you,

You're it.

So it's like they're sort of ducking cover to not let the ball touch them.

But it's love coming to you.

It's love coming to you.

It's why some of you get really restless when I'm talking.

It's okay.

But if you can just observe it,

Observe it,

Take some deep breaths.

I think I always say this about now,

Sort of like what a funny set saying it's turning out to be.

Whoo!

Yeah.

Some of you,

Like,

There's this movement into spaciousness that I'm really happy to see.

It's like more room for yourselves as you are.

Not as you would wish to be,

But just as you are.

Right.

You know,

There's really no perfection.

I mean,

Even the most perfect person on the planet will be deepening.

We can always deepen more.

Right.

Right.

And feeling a deep forgiveness,

Like as if there's a whole feeling as if there's a big,

Deep self-forgiveness coming.

That,

You know,

So many of you are feeling that it feels like it's.

.

.

It's like a thick,

Thick energy of self-forgiveness.

It feels like it's just touching you all.

Okay?

So you can't do anything wrong.

It's just coming to you because you're part of the creator.

And you just forgot.

But now you're remembering.

Mm-hmm.

Remembering.

Remembering.

Remembering your creator energy while you're in human form.

And that is as perfect as a human being gets.

And you're doing it.

You're all doing it.

Yeah,

You're all doing it.

Right.

Good.

Yeah.

There's nobody being left behind,

No matter what you feel like.

If you're feeling that it's not touching you,

Don't worry about it.

It's like it's just your head saying that.

You're actually in this energy.

You're in this love.

You're in the substratum,

And the substratum is unconditional love.

I want to talk again about the confusion I'm seeing with where people are grabbing the spiritual journey with their heads.

We all start doing this.

We all start out in the journey doing this.

And the way you'll know that you're doing it is that you're in pain.

And as you just go forward with this yearning for the creator,

Steering towards embodying this love,

You will get more and more discerning about what your ego is or what's coming from your ego.

And what's coming from your true nature.

And you'll know because what's coming from your ego will make you feel physically worse,

Physically heavier,

Conflicted,

Troubled.

And what's coming from your soul energy will make you feel light and expanded and happy.

As you love yourself more,

As you do what you guys were doing with this accepting,

Moving into more spaciousness,

Self-forgiveness,

It will become clearer and clearer what's your ego talking and what is your true nature.

Now,

I have worked intensively with people for five years,

And maybe after five years,

They can really do this.

So sometimes people can do it sooner.

But again,

I want,

Please be spacious.

Like,

I really hope you don't leave this satsang with kind of,

Oh,

Now I have to figure out how to come out of my head and come up,

How to move into truth.

It's not going to work.

It's just the ego grabbing it again.

If after this satsang,

You feel a little more peaceful,

A little more spacious,

A little more peaceful,

Spacious,

A feeling of that you're okay as you are,

Then I am a happy camper.

And that will help you be able,

Over time,

Be able to tell what's the ego and what's your soul.

Yeah.

Right.

And often,

The ego will be,

What's coming from your ego may be very practical.

You know,

It's one of the places the ego hides.

It's practical.

It's a practical action.

Yes,

But it's like,

What is your highest good?

I mean,

If you can ask yourself every day,

Everything,

Okay,

What's my highest good to do?

You know,

If you've got a choice,

What's my highest good?

And then do your best guess.

And then see the results.

And learn.

You know,

Correct if you need to,

Or,

You know,

If you feel like it was a big,

Tremendous,

You know,

Breakthrough,

Just a wonderful thing,

You've got that.

I mean,

I did that for years.

What's my highest good?

Is my highest good to go to Peru for a month and leave the boys on their own?

Or is it my highest good to stay?

You know,

And was my highest good to go to Peru and leave the boys,

You know,

On their own for a month?

And,

You know,

My boys,

They learned how to deal.

So,

They were 14 and 16,

And I just left.

You know what?

And there was no parties.

There was no trouble.

And they grew.

They found out that they could manage everything.

You know,

And I,

You know,

At the time I felt like,

Oh,

Somebody's going to arrest me for doing this.

This isn't allowed.

You know?

But it was the making of me to do that.

And I went down to South America,

And I was very scared to.

I just took the plane.

I was scared to,

You know?

But I came back more clear in my truth,

Less conflicted.

And the boys had managed very well.

It's like that.

But maybe it wouldn't be so dramatic,

You know?

Maybe it'd just be a subtler thing.

But if you ask questions like that,

What's in my highest good?

You're giving Amma,

The Creator,

Room to maneuver,

Room to help you.

Because,

You see,

One of the things when our ego grabs it,

I have felt this so often,

Listening to somebody,

Their head is so busy,

And it's all on their shoulders,

And they're forgetting that the Creator is running everything,

And to give the whole problem over to the Creator.

We don't even realize that we're not doing this.

We might think we're doing this,

But if we actually look at our thought processes on some issues,

We're not letting the Creator in at all.

Right.

Some of you are getting restless.

It's like,

Yeah,

That's it.

It's like,

You know,

When it hits home,

Because your ego doesn't want you to hear this.

It wants to get your mind somewhere else so you don't hear it.

Yeah.

Okay,

Good.

Good.

There was somebody I was talking to who is having real trouble economically,

And they have for a while,

And they were talking and talking about it,

And it's like,

Said like,

I just don't feel you're giving this over to the Creator at all.

Like,

Not even 1%.

And this person is a devotee.

Yeah.

I mean,

This is what we're like.

So if this satsang lets the Creator in more,

I'm happy.

Yeah.

Yeah.

May it.

You know,

It's kind of so often our thoughts go around,

And we don't realize that we've got all these kind of black boxes in our head.

There was somebody,

A beautiful woman,

A beautiful,

Really good-hearted woman.

And 20 years ago,

Somebody had told her that she was codependent,

That she had a codependent personality.

So do you know what they did on this person's spiritual journey?

It's like when she wanted to give to somebody or support somebody on the spiritual journey,

She'd think,

Oh,

No,

I can't do that,

Because I'll just get codependent with them.

It's like,

Oh,

My goodness.

It was 20 years ago this person said that.

And,

You know,

20 years ago,

Codependence was like bandied around like it was like a trendy word.

Like,

Why is she allowing herself to imprison her heart with some word from 20 years ago by some person who was not enlightened?

This is what we're like.

She didn't even realize that she was in prison.

But her ego was stopping her from really meeting others with her heart.

And,

You know,

She's an older person,

And there are a lot of young women who are just desperate for some kind of guidance.

So it just seems like so sad to me,

And I feel like she'll,

You know,

She's seen this now,

She'll grow beyond it.

But it is what we do to ourselves.

Like,

What are we laboring under?

What things that people said to us that we think is true?

Yeah,

And I'll tell you,

Her whole body got just expanded into this unconditional love energy when she threw this off the top of her head.

And really,

It was actually the source of why she held on to this kind of.

.

.

I want to say it's a bit of a hex,

You know.

It functioned like being branded or kind of a hex.

It was a block in her crown chakra.

So it was some block from another life where she had learned not to trust God.

So because this hadn't been released,

This block was functioning in her mental processes and keeping her in one place.

So really think about what you're saying to yourself.

You know,

I remember a boyfriend of mine said to me,

This guy,

He said he really loved me,

You know,

But I always had the feeling that he didn't love the real me.

And it's interesting because 30 years later we met and guess who recognized who?

I recognized him.

He didn't recognize me.

And really,

If he'd really loved my true energy,

He would have been able to see it through the years.

I haven't changed that much.

So he said to me,

You know,

Janet,

If I really took you seriously,

I don't know what I'd do.

Meaning he was discounting everything I was saying,

You know,

And really if he listened to what I said and took it seriously,

He wouldn't be able to be in relationship with me.

That's what he was saying.

So,

You know,

If I'd taken that on,

That what I had to say wasn't worthy,

I wouldn't be here.

The same,

You know,

My dad used to say,

You know,

He's a businessman.

So I remember I would always,

Well,

He felt you could pollute the ocean.

You know,

This is 60 years ago.

You could pollute the ocean without it ever,

Without corrupting the ocean.

And I remember arguing with him and he just kept on saying nonsense,

Janet.

Nonsense,

And you guys know this.

I've said this before.

If I believe the nonsense stuff,

I wouldn't be here.

Yeah.

So just don't believe anything that makes you feel lesser than the creator.

Okay?

And if you get inflated,

The universe will bring you back down to earth.

So don't worry.

One of the ways the ego gets in there,

It says it gets scared of inflation.

So don't,

Don't,

Don't honor yourself.

Don't,

Don't see your value.

Don't,

Don't respect yourself.

And that just keeps you in a worm for your whole life.

And then you argue with your teachers who try to like help you remember your true nature.

Yeah.

You guys.

Children have true self-esteem.

Children.

They know they're valuable.

They know they have a lot to learn,

But they really know they're valuable.

Okay.

And your young child is in you.

Okay?

That young child's in you.

Yeah.

Please see your own value.

Please see your own value.

You know,

You guys probably know that he provoked me by telling me I was a terrible mother because he wanted to provoke me out of my numbness.

So I did explode about this.

And,

You know,

Afterwards,

You know,

He said that he would say things like this to see what people did with it,

To see what they were made out of,

Whether they'd stand for themselves or not.

You know,

And it's a very kind of maybe male Aboriginal culture way to do things.

It's not particularly,

You know,

I don't know if it wouldn't really work that well for really shy,

Sensitive people.

Maybe.

But I really want to ask you this.

Like,

What are you made out of?

Are you willing to stand for yourself?

Value yourself.

Honour yourself.

And sure,

Self-purify.

Okay,

It's really important to,

You know,

See your dark side,

See your mistakes,

See where your ego's operating.

But get a sense of your soul first.

Please.

You know,

Get a sense of your soul first.

Please.

Let your soul in first,

And then,

Then your soul will show you how to purify the ego.

Do you know?

But so many of the spiritual seekers I see,

They're not letting their soul in.

The ego has grabbed the journey and is instructing the person to death.

And it's all coming from a corrupt master.

Yeah.

Please,

Let this fall from your head.

Don't do this anymore.

It's so common.

Okay,

I'm relieved you got that.

Yeah,

I'm relieved.

You know,

This,

The head-grabbing,

The journey,

It's why the Eastern sages put so much emphasis on the mantra.

Because if you can find the energy to say your mantra,

That activates your soul.

And it deactivates,

It,

It,

It draws energy out of your head.

It strengthens your ego.

It weakens your ego.

The trouble is,

The ego will say,

Eh,

It's boring.

You don't have the energy.

Don't bother.

It doesn't work.

But it is a really big thing you can do.

Yeah.

But,

You know,

Some people,

You know,

They,

Going,

Walking in nature,

It's for them.

You know,

If you,

If you can't do the mantra,

I don't want you to feel bad about it.

It's like,

Oh well,

Try something else.

Go walk in nature.

I used to have baths,

And imagine the bath water taking out,

Taking away my misunderstandings.

There's,

Some of you are getting OD'd.

You've kind of had enough.

You know,

This isn't done in one set,

Saying it's not done overnight.

It's just week after week,

Week after week,

Day after day,

Prayers,

Steering towards truth,

Gentleness with ourselves.

It just adds up.

Every tear,

Amma says every tear for,

For God,

Every moment of meditation,

They just add up.

Yeah.

Yeah,

It's interesting.

So I'm feeling some sorrow in you guys.

You know,

Sorrow,

It's,

The sorrow will be under this concrete thinking.

You know?

Where you really believe in the reality,

The concrete reality,

And if you're putting that first,

Rather than the creator,

Right underneath that is sorrow.

Yeah.

So if you feel the sorrow,

The concrete thinking will dissolve.

It's not so scary to feel the sorrow.

You'll feel it five or ten minutes,

Very strongly.

And then you'll stabilize.

Yeah.

Some of you are getting restless.

You know,

No good thing comes without effort,

Struggle.

We don't get our babies born without effort and struggle.

Marriages take effort and struggle.

Growing food takes effort and struggle.

Everything does.

But if we're serving the creator,

If we're steering to the creator,

Everything can be lighter,

Lighter for us,

Done more easily.

The creator really wants us to,

Like,

Win this,

You know?

Your soul,

Well,

It's not like it wants it.

You know,

Did I talk about this last time?

Migraines are a board-trapped essence.

Our souls get bored,

You know?

They kind of go,

Okay,

This is life 999.

Could you get it now?

So we can graduate,

Graduate magna cum laude from Harvard.

I actually wonder,

Though,

You know,

It's not really in our control.

I wonder if it is,

In fact,

When our souls have had enough,

That our souls will steer us into a life where we really wake up and cycle off.

It's like coming because our souls are fed up with it.

Yeah.

I actually think this.

You know,

Nothing's in our control.

So this is the theater of the absurd.

I'm talking to you about the spiritual journey.

And on another level,

It's already happened,

And it's being done by something beyond you.

So,

You know,

Sometimes I don't even know why we talk,

But it's like,

I know this helps.

And my heart wants to do it.

I mean,

This is the absurd play,

The absurd theater of it all.

Yeah.

That's it.

Yeah.

Okay,

Good.

It is such a big joke.

And,

You know,

You'll find that even if the worst thing happens,

It's not so bad.

You know,

We can actually live through anything,

And we can,

Like,

Get used to anything,

Really.

It's not so bad.

And if you think about the creator all the time and just think that whatever is happening is happening because the creator wants it to,

To teach you,

Then,

You know,

We stop arguing with it,

And it's not so bad.

Mm-hmm.

You might find a solution to the difficulties more and more easily that way.

Yeah.

And it can all turn on a dime,

You know?

It's like I went from,

You know,

I've told many of you I got evicted from this little cabin I'd been living in for 10 years,

And I thought to myself,

Well,

I'm going to be one of these old people living in my track,

You know?

And I thought to myself,

I'll have good meditations.

So,

You see,

When I look back,

I was actually surrendered.

And so,

A whole circumstance changed,

And I am now in,

Without any effort on my part,

I'm in a very,

Very comfortable apartment with,

It's,

Like,

Subsidized privately,

So it's not a government thing,

And it's got,

Like,

This beautiful kitchen and a huge balcony.

I haven't had such great premises for,

Like,

Years.

I didn't do anything,

Except I've been thinking about God a lot for a long time and wanting to share it and sharing it as best I can.

Yeah.

Yeah.

You're all very,

Very beautiful.

Yeah.

Yeah,

There's some of you,

I feel like I want to bring love to your bodies right now.

Some of you,

It's like your capillaries are tight with tension.

I'm not saying high blood pressure particularly,

Although that's probably what gives you high blood pressure,

But it's a feeling as if there's a squeeze.

There's a squeeze on,

And it's like,

Relax.

Relax and receive.

Relax and receive.

Yeah.

Just relax and receive this unconditional love that's coming.

That's it.

You deserve it.

You were born to receive it.

Yeah.

Right.

Right.

Your bodies are made out of it.

That's it.

And don't,

You know,

If you're trying really hard to receive it,

Just watch yourself trying really hard.

It's also in the air you breathe.

It's in the sound of my voice.

It's in the sound of your voice.

It's in the birds singing,

The birds singing.

Okay,

Good.

Good.

Good.

So I'm going around to each one of your pictures,

And I'm asking Amma to work with you particularly on whatever is bothering you,

Give you grace,

The feeling of grace.

Some of you really need it,

And I'm giving it to you double.

I don't know how you double Amma's grace.

I think it's like just,

You know,

It's infinity,

But we'll just go double infinity.

Yeah,

All of you,

All of you,

Each one of you,

Each one of you.

And I'm going to say your names.

Anna,

Maxie,

Eva,

Joanne,

Peter,

Saskia,

Thorsten,

Trilojan,

Alex,

Linda,

Franka,

Michael,

Gundy,

Phyllis,

Megan,

Agnes,

Virajan,

Vani,

Sandra,

David,

Julie,

Alexa,

Leisha,

Louisa,

Yeah,

Just unconditional love and grace for you all.

And may you all over the next while feel more and more that you're worthy and you feel honored and you receive this love.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Can you,

It's almost like getting in the habit of receiving love like a very loved child who's just adored.

Yeah.

We can relearn this if we didn't have it.

Yeah.

I know this.

This is what is transmitted through these.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Okay,

You guys.

Well,

Blessings.

Blessings.

Yeah.

Really good work.

Yeah.

And remember next Saturday,

Not Sunday.

Is that Benjamin?

It's not Benjamin.

Anyway,

Blessings,

You guys.

All my love.

Love.

And you know,

During the week,

I think of you and send blessings.

Do you have Amma,

The creator?

It's so good.

Okay.

Bye.

Bye.