Concrete

Premasudha often reminds her students that, "It's done by something beyond you." However, our concept of concrete reality can weigh heavily on our minds, bodies & hearts making it difficult to feel the effulgence that is Truth which is to say Universal Love. In this clip, a student describes what it feels like in the body when the ego takes hold. Premasudha helps us understand why even that experience, as painful as it is, is a loving one, orchestrated by the Soul, by the Creator, in order to move us beyond our sense of concrete reality and into the Truth of who we really are.

Transcript

My ego took hold of me for one and a half days.

I felt so terrible.

I was so hardened.

I felt so,

You know,

Separated from everything.

I felt I will never ever be able to do anything right on a spiritual journey.

The only thing I could imagine was a crawl into Amma.

But I felt so bad in my body.

I had like concrete in my heart and my upper abdomen.

But then I remember you always saying to us and to me,

You're brought into it.

And then after a time you're brought out of it.

I thought,

Okay,

I'll wait for that.

And it happened.

Yeah,

But you did that beautiful taking care of yourself by imagining yourself in Amma.

Like that was the genuflection.

That was the self-love.

You went there.

Yes,

I went there.

Yeah,

Yes.

But in this,

You know,

The minute I did it,

I wouldn't even believe in it.

But I did it anyway.

Doesn't matter if you do.

I know.

We don't.

You won't.

You felt concrete in your heart and abdomen.

Okay.

I would feel that too.

And that was my signal that I was in concrete reality,

That I was beginning to outgrow concrete reality,

That it was my idea of concrete reality that was making me unhappy and I needed to change and to allow a transcendence.

And that's what you've done.

This is a transcendence of the concrete reality.

You transcend your understanding.

So you start realizing,

Ah,

This is all God.

I'm part of God.

Everything I see is part of God.

And it's all just a big leela.

This shift from the concrete to this transcendent is right where humanity is struggling.

And actually,

We're failing to make the shift consciously.

This is where we are,

This shift from a concrete understanding to a more transcendent understanding that God is running the show.