Awareness Satsang: The Bliss Of Moving Into Truth

Allow the waves of this beautiful satsang to wash over you energetically and allow the love within Premasudha's words to permeate each fibre of your physical being. The ocean of love is all around you. Everyone has the ability to experience it. You can tap into this blissful beautiful ocean during this satsang. Listen and learn to swim in the beauty of bliss and love. It is inside you!

It is so accelerative to immerse yourself in the warm energetic bath of Premasudha’s words and embrace your own dear self, as she helps seekers release the coldness and trauma from past lives and childhood conditioning. It is a very comforting space to relax, breathe and know that the love is all around us. As Premasudha knows so deeply, the Creator will come running to embrace us if we ask sincerely. Even if we don’t feel it in the moment, the love is there. Image being energetically hugged by angels or embraced by a Universal energy of love and compassion. The Creator is always with you.

Transcript

There's so much love wanting to come in and what's wanting to happen is like an enhancement of your understanding and at the same time this whole issue of us feeling like worms underneath is going to come up to be cleared.

So,

If there's intense worm feelings,

I am a worm feeling in the next week,

Ignore it,

Just go,

This is clearing,

This is the misunderstanding,

Okay,

Please,

Please keep this in mind in your heads,

Please.

And then you won't be stuck having earth incarnations for the next millennium,

Please.

Yeah,

Just maybe may my voice come through saying,

It's baloney,

Don't believe it.

Yeah,

Because it is our innocence that we are most likely to call a worm.

Because our culture is not one of the heart,

So the content of the heart gets dissed.

So,

We think there's something wrong with us.

There isn't.

You're beautiful just the way you are.

It's like any mom with a child,

It's like the three-year-old is just beautiful as a three-year-old.

It's not a four-year-old yet,

But there's no great value in it becoming a four-year-old,

There's no more value in it becoming a four-year-old than it exists as a three-year-old,

You see?

So,

No matter what state you are in,

In illumination or ignorance,

You're just incredibly,

Infinitely valuable,

Just as you are.

And if you present me with this ignorance,

I'll shake you.

It's okay,

I used to be shaken,

It's like,

You know,

Mom's on the warpath,

Oh well,

Just make the shift and continue on.

Right.

And she's never on the warpath.

It's just that any teacher has to be firm with resistance,

Especially this kind of teacher,

Because this work is teaching you to embody your divinity.

Now,

In this very direct kind of practical way.

Now,

This has not been done very often on the earth plane,

Do you see?

Yeah,

It's far easier to just talk than to give discourses.

But this is direct.

It's like direct,

Sacred mothering.

It's like,

Your mothers were flawed,

And,

You know,

This one will have some flaws,

But the truth is that huge,

Divine love is the medium of this work.

And I want to tell you about where this one comes from,

Because this will,

I feel like it will help you.

So,

You know,

The states,

The three states of,

You know,

Awakening,

Being awake,

Sleeping,

And dreamless sleep,

Which is when we go back to our soul during the nighttime.

All the Eastern sages talk about this,

These three states.

Okay.

Now,

There's a fourth state called Turiya,

Which is when,

When,

It's indescribable,

But I'll tell you what it's like.

It is most like what you feel like when you're in Amma's arms.

Okay.

That will give you an idea of what walking around in Turiya feels like.

And you can Google it.

It's T-U-R-I-Y-A.

And it's basically the enlightened state.

So,

It's like constantly being in a hug of Amma's,

Constantly,

Fully,

A hug bigger than you can imagine,

Just an infinite hug.

Okay.

Your reference point is what you feel like in Amma's arms.

And that can be a base point for you.

The more that feeling expands in your life,

The more on track you are.

Right.

Okay.

So,

You know the expression,

Beside ourselves.

I feel beside myself.

Okay.

That is how most of us live.

It's like we are sitting in our ego and right next to us,

Shoulder to shoulder,

Is kind of the outline of our soul.

It's like what we would be,

What we would be and feel like if we were living a human life in truth.

So,

Imagine there's you.

Just think of you as kind of in your ego.

Think of you right next to you is kind of your outline in your soul energy.

And we say,

I feel beside myself because we are beside ourselves.

So,

This work is to help the two views unite.

So,

You are existing.

There's just you.

There's no outline of you next to you.

There's just you in your soul energy feeling like you do having a hug from Amma,

But feeling that way all the time.

And this work is just to help you get your heads around it.

And to kind of shove the two in together more,

You know.

However,

It can be done.

Mm-hmm.

It's not to be forced or pushed.

But when you guys talk to me,

You often talk to me from kind of coming from as if your ego is the boss of things.

And I'm kind of like trying to help you see that that's not true.

That your soul's the boss of things.

Mm-hmm.

Right.

And that's where we will do this.

But it's okay.

It's what Amma did with me.

I just pass on.

It's like my version of my training with Amma,

Because every teacher has a different way.

But it's to bring you into the same spot.

Mm-hmm.

It's like a mom sees who the child could be as an adult.

A sensitive mom will see who the child's meant to be as an adult.

And she does everything to help the child become that.

Right.

And that's where her parenting comes from.

Not just teaching a child to be good,

Teaches a child to be true.

This work will not make sense to your mind.

And that's the power of it.

Because if it makes sense to your mind,

We're just going around in circles.

It's no use at all.

Okay.

This work will make total sense to your heart.

There'll be echoes in your heart of,

Oh,

I kind of get what she's talking about at least a little.

Or I could imagine this at least a little.

Because I want you to realize that this one speaks from a constant,

Infinite hug from Amma.

So I'm like,

Man,

Is it ever simple?

But I remember.

I remember very clearly about all my steps in the journey.

I've always been able to remember like when I was a little kid and what I felt like when I was three and what I was wearing and all that.

I do the same thing with my spiritual journey.

So when you speak to me,

I can feel where you are and what you need help understanding.

That's it.

And really,

You know,

I have said so confidently about how the satsangs are accelerative.

And I just want to restate again that it's,

They're accelerative to the,

To the extent of what you do with them.

So the more you take what you're doing,

And the more you them.

So the more you take what is said to heart,

You know,

The less you dream off during the satsang,

The more open you are,

The more the love will get through to you and strengthen your own soul.

So if you're,

If you're casual about it,

It will be a casual thing that comes back.

It's,

And it's okay.

It's okay to be casual sometimes.

We're casual till we get gripped by the fact that this level of understanding is the truth of things and it's the thing that works and nothing else works.

And anything other than truth,

We will just keep going round and round in the same sad play that we're in.

And then when you see this,

Then you let this energy grab you more in the best way,

Like you let it strengthen your soul.

So your,

So you manifest your own soul in your life.

You live from truth more seamlessly,

Organically,

Just flowing like water.

Okay.

Now,

When you really sort of come out of the beginner phase of the journey,

Your experience will be like being water.

Now think of being water and banging up against the edges of a valley,

You know,

Or of a cavern,

Or,

You know,

The water hitting a mountain and beginning to bore a hole through the mountain to get through,

Right?

You know,

The resistance,

It's like the water hits the resistance and hits the resistance and hits the resistance until builds a pathway.

Okay.

This is what it's like when you really start living from your soul energy.

You will flow along and you will hit resistance in the outside world.

It will seem to come from the outside world,

But the root of it is internal.

So you just sit with it as the water bangs into the resistance,

As the water bangs into the rock,

The love that you are hits the resistance that you're carrying from many,

Many lives.

So what happens is the resistance dissolves.

You make a shift.

You will make a shift.

Often it will happen that you will make a shift into a higher understanding.

Even if just for a moment,

You have a moment where you get that love is all there is.

And that kills resistance within you.

It starts dissolving.

Yeah.

And in your lives,

You will feel more and more like Amma's giving you a hug.

Now,

This takes years.

Okay.

And not only does it take years,

You have to want it.

Or else it doesn't come.

But the only thing that works is to be where you are and just notice if you feel you're being casual or that you don't fully want to want it,

Just be with that and embrace it and let the water dissolve it.

Let the soul energy just solve it over time.

Water does not try to fix things.

It just flows.

It hits resistance and it wears the resistance away till it can flow.

This is what your soul does inside you.

It flows.

When you hit resistance,

It's showing you something that you're believing inside you.

And when that dissolves,

Your outer world alters.

Now,

This sounds so easy.

And it is in a way.

The feeling of the worm thing,

You guys,

Comes from our very complex cultures that are very oriented towards the ego.

It is not your fault.

May this resound through your ears.

Please.

Please.

You know,

The thing that part of what's taken so long for this teacher to surface,

To this true teaching,

Is I actually have been saying this for,

Like,

Decades.

But it felt to me like nobody listened,

So I kept thinking,

Well,

There must be something wrong with what I'm saying.

There must be something wrong with what I'm doing.

And what was wrong with what I was doing was just my habit of thinking that,

You know,

Probably in a situation like that,

I was the one that was wrong.

Indeed,

This would be reflecting the state of my own inner world of distrusting the soul energy.

You see,

It wasn't anything created by the outside.

It was reflected by my inner.

But it was when this one basically turned and went,

This is just truth.

Nothing to be fixed and nothing to be corrected,

And if nobody ever listens to this one,

Oh well.

And of course,

That's when people started to come.

Yeah.

But what you deeply know in your hearts,

What the point of all this is saying,

That what you truly know deep within your hearts is accurate.

It's totally accurate.

Yeah.

It's God in your heart.

Wow.

What you know deep inside is totally,

Totally accurate.

Always has been.

Because it's God and you're God.

And if you don't feel this,

It's just because you're a little bit beside yourself.

You're a little bit removed from your true energy.

Yeah.

You're playing in.

It's safer to please other people than be true to myself.

It won't make us feel beside ourselves.

You know,

Sometimes when I'm speaking to students,

I will feel that somebody hasn't even put their,

It's like I'm describing the ocean to someone who hasn't put their foot in the ocean yet.

And really,

As soon as you put your foot in the ocean and feel it,

Then you know what the ocean is.

You know what the ocean feels like,

Even if it's just a tiny bit of your body that's in it.

And once you know what the ocean feels like,

You can swim.

You can just step out farther and then learn to swim.

Our usual logical perspective based in the head,

Because I talk about how this work is very logical,

But it's more of a heart logic.

But I'm talking about the usual,

What we're trained in,

That logic of the head that has never touched the ocean.

That is the perspective of a person who has no idea about this ocean of love that we're all in.

And it's our normal.

And it says any other perspective is crazy.

And this is particularly hard on women,

As I've said to you before,

Because the feminine polarity,

It's the dreams and the imaginations and the whisperings of guidance.

That's the realm of the feminine.

So,

Alma would say during pregnancy,

Women should have reduced responsibility and have time just to dream.

Dream and get to know their child.

Connect up with the child,

Bond with the child energetically before birth.

That's it.

So,

This is what this work reweaves in you guys.

So,

Think of it like it's a re-mothering.

So,

It's as if you have a mother now who is in the pregnancy,

Is dreaming about you,

Thinking about you,

Who's related to you in this deeper way.

It's not like the opposite of you are an object.

It's like the opposite.

It's like you are God in her belly.

And then you're born,

And then this mother and how she is with you.

This is,

I'm trying to re-mother you this way.

Okay.

Actually,

This is a re-mothering of you.

It's just whether you get it or not.

It is what I'm doing with you.

It's not trying to do.

It's it.

And it is completely beyond our logic or our normal head-based logic,

Which is why it scares people,

Which is like sad.

But,

You know,

This,

You know,

The spiritual journey,

There's always been fewer people really walking it,

You know,

Than talking it.

I mean,

That's kind of,

That's kind of it.

And also,

You know,

There are other different ways.

It's okay.

It's not like everybody who doesn't see prematurity is deluded.

That's not true at all.

Lots of people are right on track.

It's all good.

I just raise it because it's so feminine and it's so what we need.

Yeah,

It's feminine energy and this re-mothering.

It's,

Do you know what Amma did for me?

She re-mothered me.

Yeah.

And then I just became this as far as I've gone.

You guys,

When your fear comes up,

You want to fight with me and it's okay.

It's okay.

It's just like having a fight with mom.

It's okay.

It's just like having a fight with mom.

It's okay.

Right.

Good.

Good.

Funny,

There's a penny wanting to drop.

It's not quite dropped,

But it's beginning to drop.

And it probably has something to do with how deep is the love?

How deep is the comprehension that's coming to you?

You get that it's infinite.

Yeah.

It's like a suburban single mother couldn't reach infinity because she wanted it more than anything else in the world.

It's one of the great things about being on the wrong side of society,

Where your position is more disrespected,

Especially 40 years ago,

Because there's nothing to lose then.

There's no,

You know,

Being president,

There's nothing to lose.

You might as well wake up.

Life's pretty hellish,

So one might as well wake up.

And there's no fortune to,

You know,

There's not much money anyway,

So just being on the spiritual path,

It's just more of the same.

It's all good.

Mm.

There's a crustiness I can feel that's,

And you know,

You guys,

We all go forward together.

I mean,

The reason I do this work is,

You know,

My heart breaks for people who don't know how much they're loved by the Creator,

By Alma.

But also,

This accelerates me.

I tap into,

I mean,

It turns my life into an ongoing wonder of development.

Yeah.

Yeah,

And bliss.

I feel like I want to shake you,

Guys.

I can feel some of you are caught in your minds.

I want to give you a shake,

But this is just kind of the worm thing that I was talking about.

You're caught in your minds because underneath you feel like a worm,

And you're not entitled to be here.

Really?

That's it.

And that's why people,

Like,

Constitute themselves in their life.

They'll just do whatever it is to get social approval,

Because underneath they feel they're not entitled to be here.

And I'm putting words to something here that's operating underneath.

See,

We're trashing Mother Nature.

We're filling ourselves with chemicals and pesticides and everything.

We would not behave like this if we believed we were of value.

Yeah.

If we believed we were of value,

Mother Nature would be beginning to recover.

But she's not,

Even with our green ways.

Because our green ways,

The ways of being green and everything,

Are just based in trying to fix and are often deluded,

You know,

And don't help.

And things are distorted by lobbyists.

It's sort of like there's all this talk about methane gas coming from cows.

Cow farts,

Right?

What about human farts?

Hello?

We've got seven,

Eight billion.

Like,

This is where our thinking is just cuckoo.

And if we're so keen on plant-based things,

Well,

If we're filling things with pesticides,

Plant-based foods are going to be rich with pesticides,

Which is the trouble with the protein powders.

You know,

They've got lead and the heavy metals in them because our soil's contaminated.

You guys,

It's so global,

Like the confusion and misunderstanding.

It's just like the only solution is the spark within your heart.

Your own heart.

That spark.

That spark of God.

That's it.

That's what's going to lead us out of the wilderness.

That's what's going to create a new earth.

Your communion with your spark within you.

Yep.

Right.

Right.

And when even talking like this,

Trauma makes us colder.

So,

Yeah,

Like get blankets and cover up because,

Yeah.

And this is trauma healing just in the process of the satsang because of the level of truth,

Right?

So,

You guys know that.

I'm just spelling it out because I've learned that it's better for me to spell it out and make sure people understand.

It's sort of like the mom giving directions over and over.

Right.

The spark's in you.

And this work will strengthen it to the proportion that you're really focused on what's being said and transmitted because we know that this is an energetic transmission as well.

That's it.

And it is invincible.

It's invincible.

It's like the transmission.

It's like it's God.

Yeah.

It's like God strengthening God.

It's just like Amma's hug strengthens God.

You know,

I would say like,

You know,

Again,

I used to go like I can't speak for Amma,

But it just seems to me if you look at the empirical evidence,

It's obvious that every hug she gives,

She embodies more truth.

She gets more and more love powerful.

It's how it works.

When I'm working with you guys,

It's our souls meet.

And that is what shifts us,

Especially if I'm in person.

If we're in person,

Our souls meet,

And that's why people have trouble remembering what I talked about during the session.

Because the souls meet and the vibration bumps up.

It's like it just burns away.

It burns the content of the session away and you have just bumped up.

And sometimes we're so out of touch with ourselves,

We can't even validate that.

But it's okay.

It's like we all start somewhere.

I'm just telling you the truth.

It's all I ever do.

Right.

It's good.

I'm seeing you guys putting on the blankets and everything's good.

It's like trauma healing,

The shift into truth.

The little child,

When you're clearing trauma,

You feel how cold the little child felt emotionally.

Right.

And when you put the blanket on and just.

.

.

You can keep it in mind,

But I'm telling you that the healing is taking place in the cells of your body just as we're speaking.

I mean,

This is how seamless it is.

You know,

With any teacher,

Anything they point out or correct,

Their soul energy is correcting for you.

It's like,

And also your soul will be in there too.

It's like your soul actually is their soul,

But it's like your soul energy will be correcting,

But the teacher's soul energy corrects it too.

It's like Ama takes us into trouble,

She brings us out.

That's it.

That's it.

Okay.

You're getting that.

That's it.

It's the way of Patau.

Then when you realize that what's that,

Which is taking you into difficulty,

Is going to take you out,

You just feel like you're in Ama's arms getting a hug.

That's it.

But again,

Sure,

What takes you into difficulty is going to bring you out,

But it depends.

The speed of it depends on what your tension is,

Your thoughts,

How much your focus on devotion is.

Do you know how much you're paddling your canoe in the right way,

Basically?

And yesterday at question and answer,

It really became clear to me that many of us,

We spend a lot of time thinking thoughts that are just connected to the ego that aren't the souls at all.

And I'll tell you something that happened to me.

If you understand how humble this one has gotten on her way,

Is I went through,

In my 50s,

I had a really,

Really terrible,

Terrible year.

And I was really depressed the whole year for a hug.

And Ama started telling me that I hadn't had one thought from her the whole year.

And she did this thing as if she was looking at a book,

And I guess it was Akashic Records,

And she did this.

She licked her finger and then flipped a page to the next page,

All the thoughts I'd had this year.

Yeah.

And none of them had been about Ama.

And I'm like,

Oh God,

My life.

Here I am in my 50s on the spiritual journey,

And I haven't had one thought from Ama.

I am a worm,

Okay?

That's what I do.

I'm a worm,

Okay?

And then I got myself off to see her again about three months later.

And she said to me,

You know,

Don't take it so hard.

Like,

Don't take it so hard.

That's so serious.

That's so serious not to have a thought for a year.

And then I went,

Yeah.

It's like,

I'm not going to take it too hard,

Say it hard.

She told me not to take it so hard.

So,

I'll do my best not to take it so hard.

Okay.

You guys,

This is what the journey's like.

Some of you just want to go and turn your computers off and say bye.

But the thing is,

Life will do this to us anyway.

Do you see what I mean?

We might have a year where we're just depressed.

And if we're not on the spiritual journey,

There's no hope of any meaning of getting out of it.

Just more of the same.

At least this,

You've got the real possibility of transcendence.

And you're,

Okay,

You're already transcended.

You guys,

You're already self-realized.

You're just wearing the suit of like,

I'm a worm.

There's something wrong with me.

And it's like,

Unzip this suit.

And you know,

You know how the East,

They talk about the,

What are they called?

The veils,

Like the,

Oh,

It's a word.

Sheaths,

The five sheaths that the normal human being wears.

It's just one of the sheaths.

You just unzip this,

I am a worm.

And you're all of a sudden in coming in at a much higher level because you have transcended one of those sheaths.

And it's uncomfortable to transcend.

But when we do,

We're like,

Wow,

Wow.

Right.

And that is the reality of the Eastern spiritual journey.

We really do have these sheaths.

So,

It depends how many sheaths we've unzipped.

Yeah,

That's it.

Good.

This process can't be rushed.

It's not particularly safe to unzip one of these sheaths if you're not in a very supported spot.

But just to know that that's the journey and that's you unzipping your sheath of feeling like there's something wrong with you or that you're a worm and that you've done it wrong.

That's it.

It's just really easy to talk about now.

But going through it,

I was like,

What the hell?

What the hell?

I'm like,

What the hell?

What the hell's going on?

But inside myself,

My peace got stronger and stronger.

And I deeply knew I was on the right track,

And I deeply knew I could not do anything else other than follow my heart no matter where it led.

It's sort of like being in this incredible love affair where you just love this person so much,

You'll just do anything.

There's incredible love in what I've said,

And there's such understanding,

You guys.

It's like the understanding of a really loving mom who's sending their child off to school the first day and going,

Oh,

God.

Really,

That's what it's like with you guys and the challenges you face.

You know what the challenges you'll face,

But you're well-placed.

You've got a lot of support.

People through the ages haven't had the kind of support that's possible now through access to teachers through the internet,

You know.

The will of God just gets done,

You guys.

That's what happens.

And as we go along,

We're less likely to kick and scream about it.

We're just more likely to flow along.

And for backup for this work that you're doing,

You'll find it in Zen teachers or Sufi teachers.

They're coming from this way.

Yeah.

It's like with the emphasis is not on rituals,

Practices.

It's on,

Which are really important,

But it's more like this mothering.

Mothering.

Very close to the heart,

Mothering.

All the stuff that we want to ignore in ourselves or that we find inconvenient is the secret to truth in a way.

Yeah.

So,

Kabir,

Listening to Kabir,

The way of the Tao,

You know,

Zen masters to some extent,

But they will provide the backup to this kind of way.

And it's like Amma,

Like the hugs,

It's the ultimate.

He has all the ways in one,

You know,

With all the practices and rituals.

But when she hugs us,

That is like the Zen part.

That's the Sufi part.

That's the great focus on the individual and the heart of the individual and the secrets of God lie in your heart.

Wherever you are in the journey,

And some people go,

You know,

They step from like being at the bottom of the mountain to like three quarters of the way up sometimes just in one leap.

That can be done.

And there's no rush.

Remember I was talking last week about how there were these angels being released to work with you and help you.

I think it was last week,

Maybe the week before.

With all of us.

It was very interesting because I was working with you guys and I just got surrounded by them.

They just surrounded me.

Yeah,

Afterwards,

It was off the charts.

It's like,

Oh,

That's it.

That's it.

And they will be surrounding you.

And if you're feeling wobbly,

They will really be surrounding you.

I saw them come in directly to help the Satsang members.

And it will be,

I'm sure,

For all the people who are listening to the Satsang elsewhere.

And really,

These angels would be available to anybody in the world who said,

I want the help of these angels.

I'll tell you,

They would come.

That is how simple it is.

That is how loving it is.

The very logical,

Linear mind in our head just has to be like persuaded.

It just has to be re-educated.

That's what this work is,

Really.

It's re-education,

Re-mothering.

Okay,

So it just gets stronger and stronger to me,

The love coming through.

Anyway,

Has anybody got any questions or comments?

Franca,

Dear one,

I'm going to disturb you a little bit.

I just wondered how you've been doing with the integration around the dream and how you've been this week with it.

Yeah,

Thanks for asking.

Hi,

Everyone.

I didn't really have time for integration,

Actually.

There was a lot going on with my kids and having time and taking care of them.

So yeah,

There was not much integration going on.

Did you think of what I said?

Franca had a dream about anger,

And I asked her to go back to the dream and imagine the anger reducing and the love coming in more.

Did you do that?

Yes,

And when I had this feeling of the rage coming back,

I tried to see myself next to Amar and hug her or be in her lap.

Yeah,

But it didn't work that well.

It was okay,

But yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Right.

Just let me be with this for a minute.

You know,

It's not for it to work.

It's just to see that.

Just to see,

Sweet one,

And I say this with huge love,

Which way do you want to go?

It's not about whether it's working or not.

I can feel you're going,

It's like underneath,

I can feel it's like it's too hard.

I'm getting,

It's too hard.

Don't ask me to do this.

Yeah,

I'm getting,

Don't present me with this.

Yeah,

Sweet one.

Okay.

It's a very,

You know,

You're not doing,

It's not like anything wrong,

But you know,

To,

You know,

The thing about not having,

Being too busy,

You know,

The thing about not having,

Being too busy,

Yeah,

Boy,

I'm getting a really strong,

Don't,

Sweetie pie,

I'm getting like,

Don't go farther,

Pramasutra,

Because I'm not gonna listen.

Okay.

Okay.

That must be sort of a sad and lonely place,

Sweet one.

You know,

It's very understandable,

And there's no criticism.

You know,

The reason I came in with,

Okay,

Look at where the dream is saying,

Wanting to take your psyche and think of where you want to go.

So,

Without fighting it,

Just bring in,

I'm wanting to steer to love.

Sweetie,

Do you understand this has just come from me having dreams like that,

And the way my life went afterwards,

And me wanting to,

You know,

See,

You don't have to go through that.

You can steer your psyche.

Breathe,

Take some deep breaths.

Sweet one,

Take some deep breaths.

This is going to be uncomfortable,

You guys,

But it's really key to the journey.

And Franka has a heart of gold,

And she has the energy of steel inside her,

In the best way,

You know,

I don't mean like in a terrible way.

It's just sometimes in our lives,

We're coming up against patterns where we have over and over discovered that life is brutal,

And so there's nothing much we can do about it.

So,

We don't have time.

And then what the teacher suggested didn't work,

Because it's all hopeless anyway,

Because we've had all these lives,

And they've told us that love does not exist.

That is where you are.

Yeah.

Right.

Right.

Good.

Yes.

I have enormous faith in you,

Sweet one.

Now,

I thought probably that it didn't feel good,

What I suggested.

And I kind of felt like having the impulse to reach out to you,

But then it was not the right thing either.

And,

You know,

Franka,

If you really want to get what I'm teaching,

Which I really hope you do,

Like reach out to me.

Okay,

Premasuti,

You said this,

But I've been really busy with the kids,

And when I think about Amma and me,

I don't feel the love.

Then you would be opening to receive help.

Okay.

Now,

This is the scariest thing for you,

Because you want to receive help,

But you don't really think that it's going to work anyway,

Because of these brutal lives.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And there's nothing wrong with this.

It's not bad.

It's not anything.

It's so understandable.

It's like if you get a child who's been beaten up in a home,

She's put in a new home,

But she's like,

She's,

You know,

She thinks she's going to get beaten up there.

It might take her six months to relax.

See,

Anger is gripping the world.

Amma said in 2015 that she saw clouds of,

Dark clouds of basically hate and rage,

She was saying.

I don't think she said hate and rage,

But it's what the dark clouds were being,

And she was really alarmed at the time.

I mean,

She made a point of saying it,

And I guess she saw that 12 years later we'd be like we are.

You know,

Sweet One,

What I did was,

You know,

I couldn't really bridge to a teacher.

I couldn't find them,

And Abraham was male and everything.

So,

I bridged to this just wild compassion for this fragment of the Creator that was Janet Hobbs,

Who felt so alone and helpless and unfixable.

That is what worked.

That is what I built on.

I don't even think I could have let another person in close.

Do you understand?

I was so defended.

I don't think there was any teacher that could have got through to me,

And even meeting Amma in my 50s,

It was when I was ready.

I think probably if I'd met her before,

It would not have worked.

So,

I really understand you need to be able to understand you not even trusting this one.

Like,

Believe me,

I get it.

Like,

Let alone trusting love.

Yeah,

And it's not for it to be fixed,

And it's not.

It's sort of like same with Trilochan.

It's like,

You know,

When Trilochan gods that there's nothing to be scared of because everything's love,

That's the solution,

Just that one moment.

And it's really the same for you.

It's like,

As you get even a crack in the clouds and a bit of get even a crack in the clouds and a bit of sun coming through,

Like some moment of heightened understanding where you make sort of a leap up the mountain,

Not to stay there,

But just for a second,

You get near the top for just a minute,

And then it falls back down again.

That's it.

And that was all I was trying to help make a lay the foundations for with this work that I suggested in face of this dream,

You see,

Just.

And I actually think just ignore the directions now.

I wouldn't even go there anymore.

But if you can do something for yourself,

You know,

Just imagine yourself full of light,

You know,

Something that you can do to realize that you want to steer towards this transcendent understanding.

So,

You see,

He said difficult.

It's a very difficult challenge.

Especially in this brutal time,

Because coming out of this experience of brutality in this brutal time,

But it can be done.

It can be done.

It's just like,

You know,

Achieving self-realization in the time of Kali Yuga is an achievement,

But it's so dark that one gets motivated because life gets so uncomfortable.

So,

You know,

Our experience of life can motivate us to keep doing something,

To keep opening the door to light.

And even if you feel like it's not working and everything,

I mean,

But let it come from you.

You do it.

You know,

Yeah,

If you feel to,

But just remember that you are steering your future with this.

It really matters.

Yeah,

The more you make room for the light,

The more light's going to come from through and the less you do,

The more you think it's hopeless.

Well,

That's what you'll get.

This is what I really want to get through to you guys.

Do you get it?

You're the point of power.

It's what you think,

What you do with your consciousness that matters.

And as I'm talking,

I am feeling this huge energy coming through my hands just as I'm saying this to you.

So,

Even doing things like having,

You know,

A YouTube,

Playing YouTube by that woman.

I can never remember her.

What's the name of that woman?

Samari J something.

I've sent you guys that.

Yeah.

Having that in the background.

I mean,

Sweet one,

Franca,

Anything you can do to support yourself.

Yeah,

Because you are a beautiful,

Beautiful heart.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And you just need time to kind of think about this and percolate this,

But I'm so open to you,

Sweetie.

So,

Contact me if you need to.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And I can feel the great sensitivity.

I can feel your lotus nature and how sensitive you are.

Yeah.

And that sensitivity is invincible.

That's what you need to understand.

That sensitivity of this lotus within you,

Of your lotus heart is invincible.

You think it's not.

You think it's going to,

You know,

It's like touching an orchid and it bruises.

Like you think,

Yeah,

No,

Nothing can stop it.

Nothing can stop your heart.

Nothing can stop the love of your heart.

And it doesn't matter what happens to us in the outer world.

Nothing will stop your heart.

I'm feeling this.

You see,

This was a great gift to the satsang that we've talked about this,

Because everybody knows their version of what you're experiencing.

We all know this.

Yeah.

Right.

Yeah.

And the thing is,

You guys,

The only thing that will make you feel good about yourself is taking action along the journey,

Taking action,

Expressing,

Supporting,

And expressing who you are deep inside.

It will make you stand tall.

It'll give you a kind of self-confidence.

Remember,

I told you this guy,

Like,

He had a big crush on me when I was 60,

And he said,

It was the way how I helped myself that that touched him so deeply.

Imagine that,

Just how I helped myself,

Because in that was,

In how I held myself was how I held God in me,

How I treated the God in me.

It showed in my posture and touched his heart.

And I'm going like,

This guy's like,

This good-looking 40-year-old.

He's like,

Falling over me,

And I'm 60,

And I'm like,

Oh,

I so needed this to happen.

It's true.

And it was the way I helped myself that,

Like,

It was like,

I didn't have to do anything for him.

I didn't,

I'm not to do anything.

I could just,

How I held myself.

It's like that,

Franka.

And you know,

When we're living like that,

Then the miracles happen.

We get out of jail free cards.

But it takes incredible will,

In a way,

Like,

To keep going.

That will comes from God,

You know.

There's something inside us that will pick us up and carry us through anything.

What I'm seeing is,

It's like a barbed wire fence of your egos,

And I'm cutting the fence.

I'm just cutting through this barbed wire.

Because,

Yeah,

See,

It's how our egos function.

They're like barbed wire.

It hurts when we go near freedom.

We try to,

Like,

Head to freedom,

We'll get scratched and cut.

So,

Your teacher is just cutting,

Your soul right now is just cutting a barbed wire.

Yeah,

That's it.

That's it.

Yeah,

You don't need it anymore.

You never needed it.

It was just delusion.

It just keeps you,

It just kept you trapped in a kind of a brutal worldview.

Because,

Franka,

It's not just,

You know,

Many of us,

Like,

The brutality,

I mean,

It's so strong in the earth.

This is why they're big medals for coming to the earth plane,

Alma says,

You know,

It's like Harvard,

Ivy League College.

Only the brave souls do it.

Yeah.

May it be easier for you to feel the flow of your true energy and just,

With any worm thing that comes up,

Just go like,

You know,

F-O.

Don't fight it,

Just meh.

So,

It's just da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da.

It has no meaning.

It's just trying to keep you small.

It's the act of not listening to it that is one of the most powerful things we can do.

Yeah.

Remember,

You guys have a constant IV coming from this,

From participation in the satsangs.

Totally.

An IV coming to you all the time.

You know,

Bless your hearts,

I can feel how hard,

Yeah,

I know how much it hurts sometimes,

And I know how confusing it gets,

And I,

It's walking around,

What's it all about?

All the stuff,

Or feeling really beside yourselves,

Like,

I get that,

I know that.

But I'll tell you,

When you unite with yourself,

It all becomes so simple,

And it's also worthwhile.

And at this time,

It is possible to take giant steps that in the normal time would be much more difficult.

So,

We've got like 10 minutes.

Is there anybody,

Is there anything else?

Amina,

I'm seeing,

You know,

I'm seeing you,

And I'm seeing,

You know what,

Your true self,

It's like,

Part of you is like hiding behind you,

Scared.

So,

There's you,

And I'm seeing the really kind of the child self hiding behind you,

And she's scared,

And she,

It's like,

She's hiding behind your facade of being a grown-up,

And I'm just saying to the child,

I see you,

I see you,

You're adorable,

You're adorable,

You can come into Amina,

Just come into her,

Just come in,

And Amina,

You open up,

Just open up and let your child self come in,

Just open your heart to yourself.

Yeah,

You're okay the way you are,

You don't have to wall yourself off,

You can have your whole self,

Right,

Yeah,

You can have your whole self,

Yeah,

Child self,

Grown-up self,

All of it,

Yeah,

Right,

Right,

Your God self,

All of it,

Just within you,

Right,

You don't have to wall it off,

And Inga,

You too,

You too,

Same,

It's like,

I feel like you're scared of your child self,

Please,

Sweet one,

Sweet one,

Your child self doesn't need that,

He needs your love,

Just love her,

Yeah,

I mean,

She's the closest thing you've got to your true self,

So,

Yeah,

I mean,

She's the you,

She's more you than you,

Yeah,

Your child self is more you than you,

Love her,

Love her,

Love her,

That's it,

Yeah,

That's the secret,

That's it,

She's so close to you,

She's you,

She's like,

Or he,

This is you,

Why are we running from these children,

Ah,

These divine children,

Who got shattered as little ones,

But you can love them,

You can love them,

Right,

Right,

I'm gonna say,

I'm gonna say this with a little bit of an edge,

What kind of mother are you,

If you don't love your own child self,

Come on,

Or what kind of dad are you,

If you don't love your own child self,

It's like,

How could you really mother or father your children,

If you don't love your own inner child self,

Really,

You will,

You will be off,

Yeah,

You won't see them clearly,

You can only see them clearly and see their God self,

If you love your own child self,

Ah,

Oh,

And I'm getting that she's brighter than bright,

Like he's brighter than bright,

He's your genius,

You guys,

He's your genius qualities,

Ladies,

She's your genius quality,

That's,

You know,

If there's any kind of,

You know,

Where this one hits a higher intelligence,

It's this child self,

Loving this child self that brought it,

Like you turn into a genius just because you're tapping into your soul energy,

You start tapping into a universal mind,

Just by loving your child,

You will get there,

You have to love your child though,

Even when it's inconvenient,

I used to,

You know,

Amma told me to write,

And anyway,

I always wrote,

And sometimes when I sat down to write,

I would feel this little child wanting to just cover up the truth with crayons,

Like,

Not allowed,

Can't go near it,

Cover it with crayons,

No,

No,

No,

No,

No,

No,

No,

I would feel that,

You know,

And I'd have to just keep loving her,

Loving myself,

Oh God,

Loving myself,

Until then,

You know,

The truth just flowed,

Yeah,

You guys know how hard it is,

You know,

I figured that,

Okay,

This is all my thoughts about Amma,

Like,

But the reason she's,

You know,

Like,

She's so devoted to us,

Like,

She just dies every day for us,

And I feel like maybe it's related to the extent of her pain growing up,

Where an avatar is growing up in a situation of total ignorance,

And the pain was so off the threshold,

So beyond anything we can imagine,

That it just left her so infinitely loving and patient with us,

And the reason I think this is because it is the levels of pain that I experienced in me that make me so devoted and dogged with you guys,

Really,

Because,

Yeah,

I cannot not do this,

And it's like the patience and the,

All of it comes from the levels of pain that I went through,

And if I think of you guys experiencing that level of pain,

I would walk through fire to get you.

I don't want any other person on the whole world to experience the levels of pain that this one did,

And I think that's times a million,

A billion in Amma,

And that's why she is the way she is,

You know,

That's the human component of why she is as she is,

That that's what a loving mother does,

Is the loving mother does everything so the child doesn't have to go through what she went through,

Yeah,

Because believe me,

I know those levels of pain,

Yeah,

And some of you have no idea of those levels of pain or the levels of pain that you'll go through if you keep heading in the wrong direction,

And that's part of why I yell at you.

Don't do this.

Avoid learning the lessons harshly like I did.

I learned them really,

Really harshly,

And you know,

Every time I was just brought up by something that was beyond me that was invincible,

Yeah,

And that's in you.

There's something in you that is absolutely invincible,

And as you allow it,

You will feel it,

And you'll experience it,

And it starts with like loving that child because I'll tell you,

Our children are in huge pain behind their smiles,

And your child self behind her smile,

She was in great pain,

And you can hug her and love her and be true to her,

And you will come out of pain into bliss.

I feel like this shook the world.

I do.

I just got like the world got shaken,

You know,

Which I don't mean that in an inflated way.

I just mean that in a very subtle,

Subtle,

Subtle way,

But it all helps,

And the subtlest thing has the most power.

Right.

Right.

That's why women make very powerful shamans because they know about subtle.

And a woken up man knows about subtlety,

Too.

It's interesting.

I'm feeling some of you are burning your bridges in the best possible way.

Really,

I saw some of you burning your bridges to the past just beautifully.

Yeah.

Okay,

Dear ones.

Well,

I guess I'm just,

I feel like I'm just going to go and go levitate for a while.

That's what I feel like.

Wow.

It's just all the love,

You know.

Thank you.

Thank you for coming.

You're the blessing of my life.

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As always, Thank you🙏 This was especially poignant regarding the "Re-mothering." My mother passed on May 26th.
I also appreciate you always responding to my review messages, and inviting me to the Satsangs. I went on your website link and saw that you also offer individual sessions and I am wondering how to go about doing so.
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