Awareness Satsang: Offering A Direct Spiritual

Inside us all is an infinite capacity to give and receive love. This Satsang is asking this love within to come forward, even opening the door! so the love within you can be felt, validated, and expresses

This satsang speaks to your heart's innate wildness, and asks you to let it free, so you can live in love in all you do.

The true spiritual journey is a freeing up of love, compassion, kindness, and generosity within us.

Transcript

I realized that in the last couple of days,

Amma said to everybody that,

Just about the guys,

This is for the guys.

Now we've all,

We all come in women and guys,

You know,

We take turns,

Sometimes we're men,

Sometimes we're women.

But Amma said this time,

She said it was like a warning for guys.

She said,

And I'm not meaning you guys who are attending,

Because you're not cut from the same cloth.

But she did say that over from the generations,

From the time of,

You know,

The hunting,

The hunting times,

Where the women stayed at home and the guys went out.

Really,

She said this,

She shocks me sometimes.

But she said what's happened is the male ego has gotten bigger ever since then.

And she was giving men a warning that they're getting too lopsided in the ego.

And they have to listen to their,

Well,

She didn't say this about what I'm going to say now,

That they have to listen to their hearts,

They listen to their feminine aspect a little bit more.

Yeah,

She was giving them a big warning and saying,

You know,

Basically,

The pain was going to be immense if they didn't get it.

Now,

This is interesting,

Because this is something I saw like 20 years ago,

Of how,

You know,

When I first woke up,

Or like 40 years ago,

How out of balance we are with the male and the female,

And how unhappy it is making all of us.

And the women are getting resentful and angry.

And the men are feeling more and more isolated.

Now,

It's all healable in divine love.

All you have to do is want to wake up,

And the difficulties will get washed away.

And Amma also said,

When men are starting to wake up,

That women need to be very patient.

And,

You know,

I feel for both sexes,

Because when,

You know,

I know as a female,

When I've understood something,

It's,

Then I'm kind of like,

Okay,

Everybody else should get it,

You know?

So,

We have to be patient with our partners and our,

You know,

With others.

But I just wanted to say that,

Because to you guys,

If you guys pay more attention to the satsang even,

Just by hearing this,

And just let the energy come to your heart more and more.

Like,

Remember what I said,

Just take in the energy and the information,

And let it cook inside you.

And as this warmth and fire builds in your heart,

Your head will get smaller,

It will melt your ego seamlessly.

You know,

As seamless as the journey ever is.

I mean,

It can be rocky at the beginning,

It gets easier.

But I see you guys,

The guys here,

I see your hearts.

Right.

And it takes big courage to come to the satsang,

Even for women,

Let alone guys.

So,

You know,

But there will be a payoff,

Even if it's gradual,

Just like,

You know,

Sweet Maxie was saying how,

You know,

She stopped dreaming about high school,

She entered college.

That is the kind of change that happens as a result of the satsang,

Attending the satsang.

You don't,

It's,

You know,

We're evolved by something beyond us.

It's just the turning up,

Being as open as possible.

Okay,

Now,

There's a key to what I'm wanting to talk about,

And it's the key to,

You know,

The head and the heart.

So,

With beginning students,

Most times,

Anything,

If we're learning something new,

We learn the rules first,

Right?

And then as we get skilled,

We outgrow the wheels,

The rules.

We outgrow the techniques,

And we get to play beyond that.

So,

We use the techniques,

Kind of,

But in a wild way.

We're not limited by just the techniques,

Because we have the bigger understanding.

The same thing happens in the journey.

Early people are often very interested in the rules,

And the rules are important,

But you guys,

The spiritual journey is the freeing of love,

Compassion,

Kindness,

And generosity.

It's that.

It's that.

And if the rules help us get there,

Great,

But it's a travesty to have a big focus on rules and structures and forget the love and compassion and kindness and generosity.

Okay,

Older souls,

The more lifetimes people have had,

The more you will see their generosity shining through,

The more you will see just compassion coming through.

Even if they've got strong egos,

Even the ego can't totally dampen the energy of the soul.

And this is what part of what helps us evolve,

Because the more lifetimes we've had,

The more we know that love wins,

That love is a truth of things,

So the less fooled we get by our conditioning,

You see?

So,

You can have an older soul,

And souls who haven't had so many lifetimes going through the same family,

Maybe very intense conditioning,

But the older soul will be less affected,

And they'll be more resilient because they've had so many lifetimes now.

But it can also happen that an older soul gets totally caught in fear and functions like a much younger soul.

So,

There's a businessman in Vancouver who's a billionaire,

And he is a fifth-level old soul.

He is a really old soul.

He is almost cycling off,

But he is so caught in his conditioning that he's functioning like a younger soul.

Okay,

So we are in this time of a younger soul.

There are more people with fewer lifetimes,

And there are fewer people with many lifetimes.

So,

One of the trademarks of the younger soul world is a belief in the institutions,

Okay?

So,

A belief in the structure of the church as opposed to the bigger understanding of spirituality.

The other one is an intense focus on material things.

It's a sign of a younger soul and a younger…you know,

It's in the world.

And the third thing is judgment.

Younger souls believe in the institutions,

Are motivated by things,

And motivated by making some change in the world,

Some,

You know,

To use the world's resources for that.

And also,

Characterized by judgments.

Okay,

So you guys,

This is what we're outgrowing.

The human race,

We are going up.

It's sort of like leaving twelve years old,

Leaving eight twelve years old,

And bumping up into teenagehood.

It's a very similar thing,

And this is why we're all a little confused,

Because you think of a kid moving from eleven or twelve into puberty.

It's like everything changes.

Okay,

Now the characteristics of this world that we're going into are a great focus on relationships,

Tremendous expansion of knowledge in all directions,

Which we're seeing this,

A kind of a focus more on cooperation rather than just the individual,

And,

You know,

A more diffuse spirituality,

Less attuned to institutions.

Okay,

This is what we're growing into.

So,

What's happening is the big,

This big clearing is like clearing out all the crap at the bottom of the barrel,

If you're thinking,

And all the black stuff at the bottom of the barrel,

So we have this intense focus on things,

An intense kind of judgment,

An intense standing on the wall of alienation,

Rather than making this bonding to our beings.

Yeah.

So,

This is what we're in,

And this is why it's challenging,

And even if we're on the spiritual journey,

There are teachers and others who would tense focus on rules and the structures of the,

Of the,

You know,

It's like doing seva with religiosity rather than love,

Or meditating with religiosity rather than love.

This is what I'm talking about.

All those things are so important,

Seva,

Meditation,

Everything,

But it's like doing them with love rather than,

I'm doing it right,

I'm higher than everyone because I do seva 18 hours a day,

And I meditate,

And I never forget my meditation.

Okay,

This is,

This is where it can get skewed.

So,

I'm just wanting to go to this more expanded knowledge.

Now,

I'm going to give you two examples of where it's really important.

There was a couple in Canada years ago,

Years and years ago,

And they wanted a baby,

And they did the,

You know,

The,

Whatever,

The scientific help to have a baby,

And they,

As along the way,

They had certain dates where they had to,

You know,

Get together and couple,

You know,

And have sex to have the baby.

And so,

They followed it religiously,

Followed it for years,

And nothing ever happened,

And they both got older and then never had children,

But it turned out,

It turned out that she ovulated later,

Unusually later in the cycle.

So,

The days that the science had said,

You know,

That the medical format had said to get together and couple,

She wasn't ovulating.

Okay,

So,

They followed the rules,

Totally,

Okay,

And no baby,

Okay.

Now,

This is my point.

It's like,

Stay a little loose with all these things.

It's like,

If they had followed their inner guidance,

Do you know,

If they had just followed their hearts with each other more,

They might have noticed that they felt unusually close maybe three days after the middle cycle.

And if they'd coupled up,

They would have had a baby,

But they didn't follow it.

They followed the rules.

Okay,

It's this that is killing us,

You guys.

This,

We're turning away from our hearts and this kind of more diffuse,

Expanded understanding or intuition,

Like the intuition that says,

You know,

Get together.

And if the rules are too strong,

I mean,

Maybe they felt this inside,

But it was sort of like it was not officially the time to come together,

So they didn't do it.

Okay,

You guys,

This is,

I find this epidemic in how people live their lives.

Yeah.

So,

Just hearing this,

Just hearing this,

Make things a little looser and make you a little braver,

Because there will always be a chorus of people squirting out to do the thing that's the unusual thing or the thing that's not following the rules particularly.

Right.

You see,

This is how God shows itself.

It will be a little bit coloring outside the margins,

Outside the,

You know,

As I said to you many times,

Look at Amma's example.

I mean,

She was totally focused.

I mean,

She was totally focused on God.

That is the main thing.

But her,

She followed the love and the generosity.

She just followed this.

She got so scorned.

Yeah.

It's like God can't be really put in a box.

If you try to put God in a box,

You kill it.

If you're too boxed in your views,

You will douse your connection to your truth.

Yeah.

I'll give you another example.

When I was studying with Abraham,

There was a rule that you were not supposed to put rocks along paths.

And I guess,

You know,

In the sand,

Because we were living on the land.

I didn't know this rule.

And I guess it makes sense,

Because people will trip or stub their feet or whatever.

And I guess,

You know,

People will trip or stub their feet or whatever.

And I was just,

I just got the feeling to build a path.

And I put rocks along it.

And somebody said,

Oh,

You can't do that.

And I was just standing there,

Like,

You know,

Doused,

Helpless,

Disappointed.

And Abraham came along and said,

It's okay.

It's okay.

It was done in the right spirit,

Meaning he knew that my heart and my God self had drawn me to do it.

And that was the most important thing all that crumpled any kind of rules.

Okay.

You guys,

This is kind of the magic of what I'm trying to transmit,

Because this is the magic of what I've lived.

And anybody who's attracted to this one's work,

It's it's part of what you need to get.

Otherwise,

You wouldn't be interested.

Right?

And just,

You'll get it on your timetable.

It's nothing to be forced.

I'm just wanting to make it a little looser,

To loosen up your heads a little bit.

Because as your ego dies,

You will feel more and more spaciousness,

More and more room for maneuver.

I mean,

Lots of times our egos are this is what our egos are like,

You think of a house of a hoarder.

There's a narrow path to the kitchen from the bedroom.

Okay.

This is how some of us are living internally.

We have so many rules and stuff that is not okay.

We've just have little paths that we can walk.

Yeah.

You know,

In my experience,

You know,

The higher you go in the wealth thing,

If you're,

You know,

The higher you go socially,

In a funny way,

It gets tighter and tighter and tighter about what is allowed.

So,

We think,

Oh,

You know,

Having money would be great.

No.

No.

Because if you have money,

There's longer to fall.

You know,

I just read this thing about this couple.

They're both basically billionaires,

You know,

The offspring of billionaires.

And they were trying to invest in money in art.

And they were so phobic about buying the wrong kind of art,

Or doing it wrong.

Like buying the wrong kind of art that doesn't,

You know,

Accelerate in value,

Or just doing something that was sort of hokey,

Or not okay,

Not sophisticated.

Reading this thing,

Which was just sort of a snippet,

Was just like an experience of hell.

It was just hell.

It's like so many rules and regulations.

No heart.

No heart.

Choose the art you want on the wall,

The art that you want to live with.

Yeah.

You guys,

It's like,

This is why I talk about going back to just being like an aboriginal.

It's just,

Just be simple.

You know?

Just follow your,

Follow what kind of makes you feel happy and expansive.

That's it,

You guys.

Follow what makes you feel happy and expansive.

And don't do what makes you feel really contracted and rigid.

And supposing you're a mom,

And you've got certain duties to do,

And they make you feel contracted and rigid,

Give it over.

Or ask for grace.

You know,

If you feel you can't leave the situation,

Just ask for grace.

Ask for help.

Ask for different ways of seeing it or feeling it.

That's it.

You can give yourself a lot of maneuvering room in your head just by asking for grace a lot.

Right.

You guys get this.

You get a lot of maneuvering room in your life,

In your head,

By asking for grace.

Right.

There's a lot of grace coming from me to you all the time.

You have Amma.

Many of you know Amma.

So really,

It's all the same grace,

You know?

Because actually,

We're all one soul.

Amma's inside you.

I'm inside you.

You're inside me.

Right.

That's why I understand you.

Yeah.

Okay,

Good.

It's true,

Though.

Yeah.

So you're really getting that.

Good.

Some of you are trying too hard a little bit during the satsang.

It's okay.

It's okay.

So remember how I was talking about how we're wildflowers and that all we need is love and warmth and good soil.

It's the same.

Okay.

Thinking of yourself this way,

Rather than a project to be fixed.

You know,

In the world of wealth production,

Wealth,

Becoming wealthy,

There's a guy,

Dave Ramsey,

Who's a very kind of salt-of-the-earth guy.

Some of you will know him.

He helps people become millionaires,

But he's way better-hearted and and salt-of-the-earth than most.

And what he says is,

Become debt-free and then start building wealth.

Like,

Build wealth from being debt-free.

Don't try to do it from being heavily in debt,

Like,

You know,

I guess setting up a whole bunch of mortgages and having a whole bunch of mortgages.

Houses that you rent or something.

Just doing it from being debt-free.

Start there.

Okay.

It is the same principle as realizing that you are of great value as you are.

You are entitled to be here.

You're a wildflower.

You're part of the earth.

You don't have to pay rent.

Do you see?

You're not paying rent to be here.

You're entitled to be here.

It's your birthright.

And from there,

Move into enlightenment.

Do you see?

So,

On the journey,

When we start,

Most of us are starting from,

You know,

We're in our minds.

And as long as we're really caught in our minds,

We'll be like people renting a property.

We'll be thinking we have to fix ourselves somehow.

We have to do something to ourselves.

There's a part where you come,

There's a point on the journey where you come out of your head enough to realize that you're a wildflower.

You deserve to be here.

That you're okay as yourself.

And you can move forward into this expressing your true nature.

And maybe,

You know,

You'll correct as you go along.

You'll say,

Hey,

I was caught in my ego here.

I give this over.

I'll feel a few dense emotions,

Whatever I have to do to get past it.

And you just get clearer and clearer over time.

So,

Amma talks about pouring clear water into a glass of salt water.

Finally,

You end up with clear water.

You see,

If the salt water,

Glass of salt water goes,

I have to fix myself,

It's never going to be able to fix the salt.

The only thing that fixes the salt is if clear water is poured in.

So,

We just bring more and more love and acceptance to ourselves.

More and more love and acceptance to our outer world.

Yeah.

This thing about,

You know,

Dave Ramsey saying,

Start wealth building from being debt free.

It is the same principle spiritually.

Realize you do not have to be fixed.

You may have some frailties.

You may have some blind spots.

But you are intended to be here.

You are of the earth,

Earthly.

You are of the divine,

Divine.

You are a divine being who is just perfect,

And you're here on the earth,

And you've joined the actor's equity,

And you're playing a part of who you think you,

Of who you've been conditioned to be.

You're this actor.

And when the actor starts waking up,

He no longer has to belong to the actor union.

He realizes he doesn't have to do this anymore.

Really?

Really,

This is it?

You're playing a part,

And it's like there's a moment where you go,

Like,

I don't have to be a member of the actor's equity anymore,

The actor's union.

I don't have to do this anymore.

It's that.

And from that,

You build,

You start really moving into truth.

But you see,

Most of the actors on the stage,

What we're doing is,

Whatever part we're playing,

Oh,

I've got to fix this part.

I've got to fix it and become a perfect part.

It's got to turn into a perfect part.

It's not possible.

You can't play this part perfectly.

You're always going to make a mess.

If you stay in your ego,

You're always going to make a mess.

It's never going to be okay.

It doesn't matter what you do.

If you,

All your dreams come true,

You become a billionaire,

Then you find in your last years how much unhappiness wealth produces.

All you have to do is have a few gray hairs and read about these wealthy people,

What happens to them over decades.

It's just always a tragedy.

It's always disappointment.

Yeah,

We see these stories all the time.

So,

Today,

As a member of the Actors' Union,

You're awakening.

You don't have to do this anymore.

And sometimes our part is,

We're a perfect spiritual seeker.

Or,

I'm following Amma.

But we're still doing it in the Actors' Equity.

We haven't woken up yet to,

I don't have to do this anymore.

I'm a divine being.

Even Amma's a divine being.

Amma's here to remind me that I'm a divine being.

I actually dreamed Amma into existence,

This life to come to awaken me.

This is the truth,

You guys,

At the highest levels.

I mean,

Really,

This is the truth.

Individually,

We would have all dreamed,

For all the people who know Amma,

We would have all dreamed from other lifetimes.

Our desire to awaken was so strong that we manifested a figure like Amma in this life for us to meet,

To awaken us.

And the thing is,

You know,

The real joke is that our lives change when our mind changes.

Okay,

Really get this.

It's like,

I've said this many times,

A woman gives birth,

Suddenly she's a mother.

She's a completely different person.

What happens in the journey is we change our mind about things.

And so our lives change.

So for many years,

I was wanting to be really enlightened,

But I felt really like how impossible that was.

How flawed and what a mess I was.

And so this is what I manifested along the way.

And even as more and more light gradually came in,

And even my circumstances got better.

When you change your mind about yourself and everybody else,

Your life will change.

And it can happen almost overnight.

And just think that you're on stage,

And I'm calling from the audience going,

Hey,

This is all make believe.

It's not true.

You're just playing a part.

And I'm calling from the audience,

And I'm shocking everybody.

Right.

You don't have to do this anymore.

Uh-huh.

You're beautiful the way you are.

Okay.

Absolutely beautiful the way you are.

Sure.

You've got,

There's things you can grow into.

There's misunderstandings you can drop.

There's,

Sure.

But you're still beautiful the way you are.

Right now.

Uh-huh.

Yeah.

And when you get this,

You start your journey from building wealth from the debt-free place.

Now,

Please understand this is really a spot on the journey where you realize that you're okay the way you are.

So,

Just keep playing with it.

Keep playing with the idea if you can't feel it yet.

Don't try to force it or manufacture it,

Or don't try to play that on the theater.

Oh,

I'm woken up now.

I know I'm a wildflower,

But still playing a part.

You don't want to do that.

No.

No.

Real.

Real.

Just as yourself.

Real.

You're okay the way you are.

And remember,

For me as a teacher,

Really,

This is,

For anybody who comes close to me,

This will be for any teacher,

But boy,

I've really been feeling it.

You know,

Everybody wants to bond with the teacher,

Of course.

Of course,

We all need mamas,

And we're all lonesome,

And we all want to be validated,

And all the teacher wants to do is to share,

And validate,

And bond,

And help you into more truth.

But remember,

The first thing seekers will do is they'll try to chain the teacher up to fit their egos.

Really?

Really?

It's so strong sometimes.

Okay,

And the teacher is never going to go along with that.

The teacher will either uh,

Remonstrate,

Like Achi say,

Or they may just make space to give the person time to develop.

It's like the wildflower.

It's space to be a wildflower,

And understand more,

And then maybe approach the teacher with more humility,

And with a more open heart,

More openness to learn.

Yeah,

And the stronger personalities,

The stronger this demand to suit the ego is.

It's all good.

I did the same thing.

This is what we're like.

It's very understandable.

It's not wrong,

But you will get a kind of hardness from me when you do it.

Yeah,

It's like Amma says,

You know,

We have to be soft as a flower sometimes,

Soft as a petal,

Or hard as a diamond.

And a teacher will get really hard as a diamond when the student is wanting the teacher to bend the student's ego.

Okay,

So I really want to spell that out.

And it's not personal,

And I'm not trying to hurt any feelings,

But this work is helping people out of their egos.

Right.

And nobody's doing anything wrong,

Or making a mistake,

Or it's all good.

But I want to spell it out so that you come to me with more wisdom,

More awareness.

Because all I really want to do is,

Not really want to do is,

To help you out of your ego is orgasmic for me,

Truly.

It is just unbelievable.

But I have to be allowed to do it.

Okay,

Good.

Good.

Good.

Good.

You know,

With Abraham,

It's like,

You know,

I was,

I look back,

And I was just absolutely deluded.

And there was a way that I thought that I was a top student.

And you know,

In a way,

This feeling of me being the top student,

Part of it came from my intuition,

That there was a big understanding within this one.

Do you see what I mean?

And this one has had so many lives.

So there was a level that I could see through things more than many of the students around Abraham.

But what I didn't see was how deluded by my ego I was.

But at the same time,

My feeling of being the top student was actually kind of a little bit of a foreshadowing of somebody who was going to really take it,

The journey,

A long way.

Do you see what I mean?

You see,

So nothing's bad.

Even the delusions of our ego will sometimes have glimmers of truth in them.

Yeah,

I'm wanting you to get so soft with yourselves.

So,

Like,

See your own darkness,

But be so soft with it.

Please.

Yeah,

Please be soft with it.

Soft with yourselves.

You're wildflowers.

You're not like a misshapen machine of some kind,

You know,

Or a faulty machine.

It's like you're a wildflower.

Yeah.

You know,

This spiritual understanding,

This real understanding of love is like being a wildflower.

It is just right beyond any kind of cultivation.

It's just wild.

And you see,

It's this in the women that so needs to be freed and why women could get really angry at men and blame the men and forget that we've incarnated as men too.

And it would be much better if we,

If the women,

If we just come back and validate this wild,

Feminine,

Divine face of God.

And you know,

One of the securities to if female rage gets too high,

Women have men,

Boy children.

Okay.

So,

What does a woman do with this?

Well,

She has to love and forgive the masculine because look,

She has right in front of her innocent masculinity.

It's what I said helped me with seeing my boy's innocent masculinity.

Right.

And,

And women have the same male thing going on inside them in their unconscious,

Do you see?

Because we've all been in culture,

In conditioned in this era.

So,

We've all got the same stuff.

Like I had so much stuff I had to clear in my inner masculine.

Do you know,

I used to get,

You know,

I took rescue dogs.

And interesting,

You know what?

Twice these rescue dogs bit people.

And,

You know,

At the time,

I was really aware that it was my inner masculinity.

I didn't say anything.

I didn't plan to blab this about,

But I really knew it had to do with that.

You know,

Being over defensive in my masculine and aggressive,

Like,

Yeah.

I love you so much,

You guys.

This feeling this overwhelm of just this love and compassion for you and so great that you're here.

Yeah,

And that we come together like this.

And please,

We just assume that the power of turning up for the satsang is doing so much of the work for you,

That all you have to do is kind of gently observe really,

You know,

Do your practices,

Whatever feels good.

But know that,

You know,

We're evolved by something beyond us.

And when we relax a little,

We can hear the still small voice within better.

Right.

And,

You know,

Even at our worst,

Well,

Even if we're so stuck in our egos,

There will be some glimmers of truth in the crap.

Like me feeling like the best student,

But really it was just that I knew I was going to take this a long way.

Yeah,

You're very beautiful again.

I'm getting your absolute beauty.

Yeah.

All of you.

All of you.

Yeah,

Please,

All of you.

All of you.

Hmm.

You know,

I was working with somebody,

And we got to a spot where,

And I said,

Oh,

It's like you're trapped in a,

In a room with bricks,

You don't,

There's no door,

Small room with bricks.

Okay.

So you guys,

This is actually what is at the bottom of our ego.

Okay.

A little small maneuvering room.

And it's bricks and mortar,

And it's our concrete understanding.

It's our feeling that all there is,

Is just bricks and mortar is just concrete.

There's no other power.

It's just what you can see,

Touch,

And that we're hostage to a bricks and mortar understanding.

So people will say,

Well,

The reality is,

And what they'll be saying is this little room with bricks and mortar is is how it is.

There's no way out.

The reality is,

Okay,

Well,

The reality is,

This whole thing is just a dream.

And this is all love.

Okay.

So what I want to say to you is,

It is safe to be in this room of bricks and mortar of the limited freedom you have and feel the sorrow of it.

You know,

Feel how stuck you feel sometimes or imprisoned into,

Feel the feelings associated with this,

Feel the sorrow of it.

And that will make a door.

Now,

This is for experienced students,

You know,

But I'm just hearing it will help.

But to do it,

Take some level of spiritual experience.

A teacher could help you open the door immeasurably,

Make it much softer.

But you have to open up and let the teacher help you.

You have to want to do that.

And you will have to be vulnerable to the teacher.

Mama can do it in a hug,

If you're ready,

Or it could take place.

And there's another way of putting it is there's this story of a person who was in a prison cell,

And they found a way to scramble up the wall to the little window with bars and to look outside at the world.

And they would,

You know,

Because they've had all this time in the prison,

They figured out this way to like,

They could scramble up this wall.

And they would hold for as long as they could looking out and then just fall back down to the ground again,

And scramble again to get another look.

And this is what I'm saying about how in that satsang I was talking about,

We're all labyrinths.

Sometimes we'll get a window where we can see a bigger story.

Okay.

The joke was,

You know,

When the person let go and fell back down to the ground,

The joke was behind them,

The door was open.

You guys,

The door is always open.

It's just our thinking that gets us like little mice going around in the cage.

The door is always open to come out of it.

In fact,

This satsang for some of you could be the door opening right out of this little bricks and mortar thing.

And even if,

You know,

You don't,

Nothing happens immediately,

You may like have some experience where you feel really trapped and you go like,

Oh,

This is Pramasutra talking about the room,

The brick room.

Oh,

This isn't real.

This doesn't have to have any power.

This is the power of satsangs,

You see.

It'll be opening your heart and your head.

You're very,

Very beautiful.

And some of you are feeling like pretty bad.

And I just want to say,

You know,

Just keep asking for grace and know that you are being helped.

And really,

There's no reason to feel bad,

You know.

You don't have to feel too bad.

I mean,

You might feel bad to make,

As you're making a shift into a bigger surrender,

Then,

You know,

Come out of it.

Yeah.

Yeah.

We've all been taught to use our heads too much,

You guys.

It's not your fault.

You know,

With you guys,

It's a little bit,

I remember working with anorexic girls when I was in university.

I was doing volunteer work.

I remember standing in front of a mirror with two of them.

And they were all saying,

Oh,

Janet,

You're so skinny and we're so fat.

And it's like,

I was not skinny.

I was just a healthy weight.

And they were like bean poles.

But they were hallucinating,

Truly,

And thinking they were fat.

Okay,

This is what you guys do on the journey when you think there's something wrong with you or that you're doing it wrong.

Please,

Whatever you're going through is scheduled ahead of time by your soul.

You're right in the right spot.

Everything you've done,

It had to be this way.

There is no mistake.

You came here to sprout and grow.

The acorn looks like a mess.

Acorn wonders what the hell happened to their lives,

Right?

And they have to dig down and put the roots down into the water to find the nutrients.

So this is what we have to do.

We have to sprout into this bigger understanding.

And then it's scary.

And we have to dig down into ourselves and connect up with our divine self,

With God.

Right.

But just remember,

You're in this special kind of hothouse,

Okay,

Of the satsangs.

I mean,

Beyond that.

But you're in this satsang hothouse so that you can sprout safely and get everything you need.

Yeah,

Truly.

Think like that.

Right.

Right.

I mean it.

Just keep turning up.

And we're going to,

When I get back,

So I start heading back August 12th or so,

We're going to have four weeks of,

And Anne has thankfully volunteered to do this,

Four weeks of Saturday questions and Sunday satsang.

Same time.

And,

You know,

It depends what the demand is.

I mean,

How much you need.

I can,

We could keep it going if you need.

Because it's exposure that helps.

Yeah.

You see,

Mold grows in dark places.

You don't want to do that.

You want to expose.

I mean,

When it feels safe enough,

Expose.

And then it can be healed up.

Right.

And,

You know,

Sometimes people are shocked by the amount of,

You know,

I might kind of imply that maybe there's a lot of work to do,

But it,

You know,

It's a bit hard on the ego.

But in a way,

It's like,

Once you realize there's a lot of work to do,

You can get on it and do it.

It's not,

It's just like,

There were times in my life I had a lot of work to do.

Thank God.

It's different now,

But it's,

You know,

This is like a,

Think of it like a,

Like a hothouse,

Being a hothouse flower.

You're being taken care of and that,

And protected even,

Truly,

Because there's a level,

I'll tell you,

There is a level of divine protection that just comes through doing this.

This is even,

You know,

Obviously,

But even just through this one,

There's,

You guys,

There's a level of divine protection as you proceed,

Truly.

Yeah.

Which is how loving it is.

Yeah.

Okay.

So we've got questions.

The place where I'm staying,

They kindly let me stay later to be able to do the Satsang because it's 1132.

So I just have till,

Well,

One o'clock here,

Whatever,

10 o'clock.

But it's not sweet.

They let me just stay here longer,

No charge or anything.

This is,

You know,

This is it.

So questions or comments or tantrums,

Even.

Have a tantrum and it will go on YouTube.

I'm teasing you guys,

But be yourselves,

You know,

Come forward.

Yeah.

Stephanie,

You got a,

You got something?

I just saw Bhavani and thought she was going to speak and I was just excited to see her on the screen.

That's all.

Okay.

Okay.

Bhavani,

Did you want to say something?

I did have something to say.

Can you hear me?

Okay.

Just,

Can you turn it up?

That's the best it's gonna go.

Maybe I'll just talk.

Okay.

Well then,

Okay.

If it's the best,

Then go for it.

Yeah.

Okay.

So I wanted to share a dream that I had.

I think it was just a couple of nights ago because we've been on tour now for a month.

And I basically haven't remembered any dreams.

And I remembered that this one I woke up and it just seemed very fitting,

But I'm not sure I really have what it's all about.

So it was this beautiful river,

More like a creek.

And it was a beautiful,

Clear water.

And there were these nice,

You know,

Round alluvial stones.

And it kind of had this,

It was more like a ditch.

It had kind of like raised sides.

And there were a bunch of us in the creek.

And the water was at a certain level,

Not too high,

But not too low.

And then all of a sudden,

And it was kind of a comfortable,

I mean,

It wasn't like scary feeling.

All of a sudden,

The water level rose like maybe a foot or two,

Just within a few minutes.

And I said to everybody,

There's going to be a flood really soon.

We all have to get out.

And that was it.

I woke up,

But I knew that there was rain off in the distance that was creating an accumulation of a lot of water.

And I needed to tell everybody we needed to get out immediately.

And that was my dream.

There's an expression up the creek,

You know,

Somebody's up the creek.

I'll tell you what I feel about that is it's actually about you,

Sweet one.

You know,

Our heads are small.

Our thought structures are small.

And sometimes,

If we don't know how to allow the expansion,

The unconscious will flood us a bit.

We'll get flooded with all the stuff that we're kind of pushing down without realizing it.

Okay,

But there's more.

There's actually a feeling to,

You know,

In British Columbia,

There's been a landslide and one of our big rivers has been blocked and a whole new lake is being created.

And then what's happening is the pressure is building and will at some point rise.

So it's quite a catastrophic thing happening in BC.

But I want to come back to this thing on the creek.

I can feel there's a kind of a,

There's a little bit of,

And maybe this is deserved,

Sweet one,

But I feel like there's a kind of a lack of trust in even in all of this Yeah,

It's a lack of trust underneath.

It's a lack of trust in the journey.

It's a lack of trust in trusting that you could be vulnerable with people and open and that it's okay.

Vulnerable and open even with a teacher.

It's okay.

Yeah,

It's lack of trust.

And it's like,

It's like even in the dream,

You had to be the one to call it.

Like,

You have to stay wary.

You have to stay on it.

You have to be wary because there's nobody really taking care of.

And you know,

You got to be,

You better be on it or else everybody's going to get flooded.

Yeah.

Right.

And there are things in our,

I have been through like,

And it's nothing to be scared of.

It's not like losing stability or something,

But I have experienced like a kind of a psychic flood of unresolved or repressed material that just flooded my psyche.

But it was okay.

I just kept living and it subsided.

I knew more,

But this has to do with some lack of trust that you have to be on it.

You have to be wary because right.

Okay.

You,

You,

You got hurt.

Okay.

So the great thing is this has been heard and reflected back and it's accurate.

So you can trust more,

Right?

Like that's the great.

Yeah.

Good.

Happy,

Happy.

And also you guys,

When,

When you raise something,

If,

If it doesn't feel completely accurate,

Speak to me.

Okay.

Because you may need a deeper answer than the one I'm giving you.

So just be honest and open and there's,

You know,

You,

You,

You're not going to be put in front of a firing squad.

So really that was what I always came to.

Oh,

I might as well do this because I'm not,

Even if I fail,

I'm not going to go in front of a firing squad.

Yeah.

Okay.

Anybody else?

Maxi,

How's the university going?

Oh,

Going on,

I guess.

Hey everybody.

Um,

I'm so happy you talked about,

Um,

Ruth today because,

Um,

I just made the experience.

I'm on a silent retreat.

There's so many rules.

You cannot talk,

You cannot look at anybody and that's no problem for me.

But I was thinking,

Can I go to this,

Um,

To our satsang?

So I was asking myself,

I was asking Amma and I decided,

Yes,

I wanted to go.

So I went to the lady who leads the house and ask her for the wifi passport.

And she reminded me that I'm not allowed and I did it anyways.

I can't speak that loud,

But during your words,

I felt such a release and so much happiness today and emotions coming up.

So I guess it was the right decision.

So I just wanted to share that.

And also that before the satsang started today,

I could really feel the brick brick house wall,

Like when I was here right now here in the retreat.

So I'm very happy you,

Um,

Pointed this out because yeah.

Okay.

Talk louder.

You could feel the brick wall.

Yeah.

Like the,

Like being in this brick wall house because now I'm on a wonderful place.

I have time for myself.

I'm in silence and I must be enjoying it,

But I was just kind of like,

I didn't feel the joy.

So yeah.

And yeah.

Good.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

So this is my experience.

There's a level that if you had,

Okay,

How do I put this?

You know,

See,

I did this too,

Maxie.

I would do what you're doing.

Like I would speak up even though like it was a silent retreat and I would follow my heart like that.

And so I feel this was the best thing for you.

Okay.

To do this.

Okay.

Really?

I mean that,

And that is really okay.

Yeah.

Really what you need to do.

No.

And there's a level that sort of like letting these rules be broken is kind of like the energy of motherhood with a little kid.

Who's it's just what she needs at this time.

Do you see what I mean?

So it might be against the rules,

But it's what she needs at this time.

So it's okay to understand.

So that is,

That is really important,

But there's another level,

Which is there's a point in the journey where sometimes it is better than to just follow the rules.

Absolutely.

Okay.

And to stay silent and to move through that stuff.

Absolutely with.

Okay.

But,

You know,

Often in order to do that,

Well,

We have to have had some more spiritual experience.

Do you understand?

Yeah.

Yeah.

So someone like me,

I could do it.

I could be silent for 30 days.

It's fine.

Okay.

Okay.

So what I like about what you did is you followed your own guidance.

And this feels the best thing for where you are on the journey right now.

Right?

Okay.

There's,

There's something more in here.

There's something more you need for me something more.

Okay.

That's funny.

Okay.

So I kind of put my arms around you.

And what happened is this big spider left your heart.

The spider in Carl Jung's symbolism is a symbol of the mother.

Something about the connection with the mother.

Okay.

And this left your heart and this is going to leave you freer.

Right.

And it's actually the words you needed to hear.

So this is a little bit like a surgery,

You see,

Go deep inside.

These are the words you needed to hear.

And these are the words.

This is why you really wanted to come and speak at the satsang,

Even though it broke the rules,

Because you really wanted this released.

This is what I'm feeling.

Yeah.

Right.

Right.

Okay.

Okay.

I'm just being Yes,

Thank you.

I'm just being very careful about the rules.

Because you see,

If we just go randomly breaking rules,

This also leads to absolute chaos.

But I'll tell you,

In this world,

We're so rule obsessed,

And we're losing our humanity.

And especially for female spirituality,

You guys,

There is a looseness required.

And also a being okay with just being at the human level.

Just being a,

It's like Abraham,

Okay,

Me with the rocks.

He was a little loose with me,

We really need this little bit loose,

But also honoring rules,

You know,

Like,

You know,

Because really,

Yeah.

But Maxie,

It's really good you came.

And sometimes we're people that we need some experience with breaking these rules a bit.

I did.

So just keep trusting your,

Your hearts.

I hope this isn't confusing some of you more.

But it's,

It's just the same principles,

Abraham,

Okay,

The rocks on the path,

Just because you knew it was coming from a deep place.

And this you speaking came from a deep place,

And you really needed it validated for you to move into more trust.

Right?

Yeah.

You see,

Love and truth,

They trump everything.

It's just,

It goes beyond rules.

But on the other hand,

You know,

You got like,

Right now,

We've got people on the internet talking about how we're all God,

So we don't have to do anything.

We're just God,

So we can just keep being our ego selves.

And it's all okay.

I mean,

The level of confusion that could come if we if we dump sort of too many spiritual practices out the window is,

Or,

You know,

Too.

Yeah.

So anyway,

I think you guys get the point of what I'm saying.

You're more important than anything.

Like,

The God in you is,

Is unassailable.

It cannot be second to anything.

It's God,

God in you,

The God in me.

And the more we listen,

The more we follow the guidance like Maxie did,

And then we get more and more proof that it's okay for us to be human beings and follow the journey as best we can.

Yeah.

Yeah.

You know,

I broke so many rules,

And it's just later in the journey that I'm seeing the importance of them.

It's a big joke.

It just shows that,

You know,

We get what we need at the right time,

You know?

Yeah.

Yeah.

Trilla Chan,

How are you?

Year one.

I'd like to hear from you,

Matt.

How am I?

Good question.

How to make it short.

Very beautiful days.

On the one hand,

I have two and a half,

Three days of quite a good number of people here.

We're having a wedding.

The lady,

The landlord,

The old lady I'm living with,

Kind of,

Her son's wedding is,

So it's very beautiful and joyful.

Okay.

On the other hand,

The old lady,

Which became a very good and dear friend,

Is in her last days and weeks,

She's dying soon out of cancer.

Oh,

Another one.

Another one.

It's actually,

I don't know if you're aware,

My brother-in-law also died recently,

Four or five weeks ago.

Oh,

I didn't.

Oh,

No.

So I had my mother four months ago,

My brother-in-law,

Out of the blue,

Out of a sudden,

He was not sick.

And now this old lady,

Which is very dear to me,

And still the process currently is very beautiful because everyone accepted she will die.

We're not doing any major treatments or something.

It's only pain relief.

She's getting strong medicine currently.

Okay.

So,

Yeah,

That's all what I can say at the moment.

Yeah,

That's how life is at the moment.

It was very joyful,

Not accepting it.

Good.

Yeah.

Intensive year.

Very intensive year.

But a lot of beautiful things happening as well.

So.

Yeah,

It's very beautiful.

I'm feeling this.

And you guys,

Sometimes when we're watching our own ego die,

It is very similar.

It's a very similar feeling.

Yeah.

We see what we're outgrowing,

And we're just outgrowing it.

This is good.

Good is very,

I just got reminded,

Very sweet.

This old lady is still very,

How do you say,

Very strong intellectually.

And in her mind,

She's still capable.

I mean,

It's just the body who's dying currently.

Right.

And yesterday,

It was very beautiful.

I mean,

She said something.

It's she feels me out of the blue.

She came up.

She feels I'm so much more grounded.

She sees my eyes so pure,

Pure,

Pure.

She didn't use that.

The word I came up,

But she sees myself more grounded and knowing what life is about what to do with my life than ever.

So what's happening here out of the blue NFL and whoo.

So it was and she's not spiritual,

But still she has a very I don't know how to describe her anyway,

So was beautiful.

She's speaking from being close to death.

And that's,

You know,

Pretty 100% accuracy.

Yeah.

Wow.

Hey,

Trilla Chan,

That's a vote of confidence coming from the universe.

Yeah,

You go guy.

Really?

That's still some way to go on my topics,

As you know,

But yeah,

But still,

Yeah,

It's getting better and better.

Yeah,

I'm confident.

It's fantastic.

I hear it even in the sound of your voice,

You know,

It's rounder.

It's like your voice,

The sound of your voice feels rounder to me.

Yeah.

And more,

More from your heart.

It's interesting.

So,

Well,

Congratulations.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Okay,

Good.

This is it.

Well done,

You know,

And sometimes,

I mean,

It's interesting the universe arranged for this validation to come to you from her,

Because sometimes,

You know,

There isn't any validation.

We don't know that really we just,

You know,

So it's just great when it comes.

And I'm really seconding it.

I hear it.

So,

Yeah,

Awesome.

Because,

You know,

Men who are more of the heart are more priceless right now than ever.

You're so needed for other men and also the women like they help us women so much in encountering a man who's in his heart.

It's just they save women,

Like they help women come out of their heads in such a powerful way.

Just the experience.

It's like emotionally,

Psychologically that,

You know,

And I felt this from Abraham,

It's like,

And from the men who've really affected me,

It's almost like there's an invisible sperm they give us.

They give something to women.

It comes in like sperm.

It impregnates them.

It allows for their next level of learning.

It's sort of for their next child of development inside themselves.

Yeah.

So,

Okay,

Good.

Yeah.

This is so cool.

Anna,

Did you?

Yeah.

Anna's got a question?

Yeah.

Anne would like to share a dream and she wonders about it.

She had last night.

Okay,

Good.

I'll translate it then.

Okay.

Yes.

So she was swimming in the ocean and she was full of joy and she made a flip forward into the water and she was full of joy.

She kept on swimming away from the shore and she could see at the horizon,

Dark clouds coming and storm and big waves were approaching.

And she saw a group of young people swimming towards her and they were towing sort of a dead body of a friend beneath them.

And they told her,

You better go back,

Go back to the shore.

And then they swam back together and the people,

They put the dead body on the beach.

And there were a lot of empty,

Rusty cans of beer,

Beer cans they were laying around.

So people put them in a box,

They cleared them,

They cleared the beach of these old cans.

And there was a lot of heaviness and sadness and yeah.

With the person's dead body,

You mean?

Their sadness about her dying or his dying?

There was this big gap,

This difference between the joy she felt at the beginning of the dream and then switching to this sad story about the dead friend of the people.

Sweetie,

I think this is actually kind of one of your beliefs about life that we're not allowed to have joy or anything.

It's like it doesn't last,

It doesn't stay.

The truth is grim and sad.

Oh no,

It's your belief about life that we can't have joy,

That joy doesn't stay and we get sad.

Okay.

Yeah,

Just don't take this with your head.

Okay,

You're taking it with your head,

Don't do that.

That's your trouble.

It's just,

It's just,

It's,

It's,

Sweetie,

This is how sensitive you are.

It's sort of like me just trying to help you out of this stuff.

It's like for you,

It's like an assault.

It's like,

Oh,

I have to protect myself against what Premasud is saying and I'm just wanting to free you.

Okay,

We're getting somewhere.

It's like,

Sweetie,

When you were a little kid,

It's about when you were about two or three,

You decided you were too sensitive for life.

Yeah.

So what do you feel when I say this?

Even if it's a blank,

That's okay.

Just be very truthful.

She's touched by it.

It touches her heart what you're saying.

Like,

As if,

Oh,

You mean like,

It's true and that somebody could know this?

Yeah,

It's true.

Okay,

Good.

Okay.

So,

And this is for everybody.

Anna,

It's our hearts know truth when we hear it.

Right.

Right.

Okay.

I actually feel this is a very auspicious dream.

It's like you're deciding not to die,

Basically.

It's true.

It's true.

And it's,

You know,

It's even the group of people coming out in the water with you.

It could be us.

And what I think the dead body is,

Is you really,

I mean,

Sweetie,

Bottom line is you are either going to die physically or you're going to experience a real ego death.

It is your choice.

Yeah.

And this,

You know,

The dead body is,

You know,

It could be,

I mean,

It's,

You don't have to die physically,

But you have to outgrow your ego.

Has to die.

Yeah.

And,

You know,

Even the beer and the rusty containers,

It's sort of like,

You know,

People drink to like,

So they don't have to deal with life.

Right.

And it's,

It's sort of like you,

You have avoided dealing with the spiritual journey in a way with this intense focus on your health.

Yeah.

It's an old rusty coming from other lives.

Rust is always patterns from other lives for me.

And the beer is a distraction.

And it's like,

You now are going to be asked to put your arms around the journey and,

And sort of understand how to go through an ego death in a really positive way.

Yeah.

To outgrow this,

This stuckness.

You guys,

There is a speed that any car,

If you drive it at this speed,

The car will start to fall apart.

Okay.

And this is what Anne has been stuck in this particular speed viewpoint,

Where everything falls apart.

You either have to slow down or go right,

Go higher.

Yeah.

Now,

Anne,

Take everything I've said to your heart,

Not to your head.

Please,

You're giving me white hairs.

Okay.

And you are a loved child of God.

Right.

My arms are around you right now.

Right.

Now,

Remember,

There's nothing you have to do about this,

Just hearing it.

And I actually feel like I,

I muddied,

I'm feeling like your,

How do I put this,

Your,

Your sensitivity is so high.

Yeah.

And to just keep honoring it,

Honor it.

But you're not too sensitive.

Okay.

So your,

Your sensitivity is like the 99th percentile.

It's fantastic.

But you're resilient enough.

You're,

You're not too sensitive to really get my message.

Yeah.

Right.

Okay,

Good.

You got that,

Didn't you?

Yeah.

Yeah.

You're not too sensitive.

It's okay.

Yeah.

I want to go back to this.

You felt too sensitive for life.

It's that expression of only the good die young,

You know,

This is a cultural thing.

Yeah.

But you're not too sensitive.

Keep,

Please remind you,

Remind yourself.

You see,

And I,

And I see this with huge gentleness and understanding.

I want to say,

You don't fool me.

And I,

I see who you are.

Yeah.

Okay.

Okay.

Good.

That's why this works.

You guys,

I have to go really,

Really quickly now because it's 11 o'clock here.

It's one o'clock here.

So very quick wave and Anna,

You can,

You know,

Yeah,

We can finish.

Bless your dear hearts,

You guys.

Blessings,

Blessings.