A Deep Look At Anger

Some of you have been asking about anger, how to handle it internally and externally so here is a deep look at anger - its origins and how it functions within us.

Dealing with unresolved anger is key to awakening and to just being happier. When we allow it to clear, all that energy that was used to battle life, just goes to flowing with our true energy.

This satsang about anger goes very deep.

Transcript

So we're calling on Nama's grace and all this,

From Masooda Singh,

All this angelic energy.

It's more than angelic.

It's also soul-ish,

From the creator of this star's elistening light being poured into you guys.

And it isn't just into your heads,

I can see it coming into your backs.

You're being surrounded by it.

And you all need it.

I understand this.

And Prama Siddha is holding the space for it to come,

But I'll tell you,

Even if Prama Siddha wasn't holding the space,

It would be coming anyway.

Okay,

Good.

Because we're all equal.

Okay.

And all you need to do is learn how to pray a little more often,

And a little with more fire.

Yeah.

Okay.

And so it is.

Yeah.

You dear souls,

You know,

When people are banging up against me,

I feel a huge compassion You know,

You're so loved,

You have no idea.

Okay,

So today we were going to talk about,

I mentioned talking about anger,

Because that is in a way one of the big difficulties for us,

And indeed a lot,

Well,

For men and women.

I mean,

The men,

The culture,

In our culture,

The males have got kind of more permission to kind of control through anger,

Which is hard for them.

I mean,

It's hard to get over doing that,

In some cases,

Because it's sanctioned by our culture.

Women,

On the other hand,

We're like,

A good girl doesn't feel anger,

Right?

The old patriarchal woman,

You know,

She just put up with everything,

And like anger,

No anger,

Don't do anything to me,

It's okay,

It's okay.

Just like,

You know,

Mother nature,

It's like,

Or chemicals on her and do all kinds of things,

You know.

But we're just getting the tsunamis now.

It takes a while.

But,

So anger is like a big topic,

And once you get a handle on anger,

Your journey gets a lot easier,

Okay?

So as I mentioned last time,

Anger,

When we're unconscious of it,

We walk around in real separations,

You see.

We feel very separate.

And lots of times,

You know,

In that case,

We're really out of touch with our anger,

And we're not even aware of being angry,

And we might say,

Well,

I never get angry at my spouse.

We never fight.

Which maybe some,

You know,

A couple of saints can actually do in a wholesome way,

But for most people,

If there's a couple and they say they never fight,

It's a bit of a flag,

That maybe they're not feeling everything there is to be felt.

Okay.

So,

In adulthood,

You guys,

Anger is unmet expectations.

It is actually kind of why we get mad at our spiritual teachers sometimes,

Because they're not giving us our light,

Because they can't.

Okay,

So it's unmet expectations.

So,

Really think about that,

You know.

We want somebody,

It's their job to take out the garbage on Tuesdays or something,

And then they don't do it,

So we're angry.

It's unmet expectations.

Now,

The root of the anger that really bothers us is the anger that came early on in our childhood,

Because,

You see,

Our child self has biological expectations,

Expectations that are the result of patterns of human behavior that have gone on for thousands of years,

And also their biological needs.

So,

We have this biological need for being picked up,

Held.

Really.

I mean,

In humanity,

You know,

In the great centuries of humanity,

The eons,

Kids would be held on the mother's body until they're about two,

And she did her work.

That's what we're used to,

That level of bonding.

Okay,

We're not getting it.

We're not getting it.

Kids might not get picked up when they cry.

So,

Even though they stop,

Okay,

So,

You know,

They might cry in a kind of hunger and anger that nobody's coming,

And then it would go into kind of hopelessness and despair,

And then they go to sleep.

So,

The really deep anger comes from our really early years,

Zero to six.

You guys are,

Like,

Energetically,

Some of you are checking out because you're scared to even go near this.

Yeah.

You see,

If you can understand anger and get a handle on it,

Your journey will be much shorter.

Most people just circle around in this anger.

Even on the spiritual journey,

They'll circle around clearing fairly low levels of anger,

Even if they get as far as clearing anger at all.

But if you want to get to the heart of your spiritual journey,

It's where you felt that you could not come forward in your true nature this life,

And you got angry about it.

First of all,

You would have,

You know,

Felt sorrow,

You know,

Like,

And fear,

Like,

What kind of family am I in anyway?

I remember I was four,

And it was like,

Am I ever going to surface from this family?

It was a real fear,

And I'm sure some of you have that kind of experience or echoes of that kind of experience,

Because if you're a sensitive,

Sentient being,

You will feel that,

Because you were born with a full knowledge of what your mission is here in your life.

And you'd be really aware of the crap coming on and going like,

Well,

I hope I surface.

This is the stuff that's going on in little kids under their smiles.

But they can't put words to it,

Because there's nobody talking at this level in the family climate,

You know,

It's verboten,

Verboten,

Verboten to know too much,

Verboten to be too aware.

Okay,

That's hitting home,

You can,

Some of you can feel that,

Maybe you can even feel that in yourselves right now,

About where some things are not.

Okay,

Now,

I want to put a big,

Big flag of compassion,

Because when you're,

When you go to clear anger,

It can truly,

Like,

On everybody's feminine side,

Male,

Female,

More feminine side,

It can feel so unsafe to allow the anger to clear.

Because it's often,

You know,

We can feel like our anger's strength.

And in some situations,

You know,

We need our anger,

But it's not a strength,

Because it's coming from fear and sorrow.

But we need a lot of compassion,

Because on the feminine side,

You guys,

You will,

You might feel that you'd be,

You know,

Shipwrecked on the rocks without it.

The underneath,

That's your feeling about life,

That it's rocky,

And you can get shipwrecked,

So you have to be careful.

And it's true in a way,

But for seekers,

You can let the divine in,

And this heals everything,

It solves everything,

It makes everything soft,

And it will also be a pair of embracing arms for your feminine,

For your really sensitive feminine,

Male and female.

Yeah,

Part of you,

It's for some of you,

You're going,

What,

What,

What planet?

But it's true,

It's what Premasutha's done,

So I really know this,

That the divine is there.

Okay.

Yeah,

Just hearing this,

And it's not done all at once,

And some of us,

You know,

Premasutha's putting words to things that maybe you haven't ever considered,

Or haven't noticed in yourself.

So,

It'll take some time to sort of sink down and validate what she's saying,

If you're not feeling it right now.

A lot of the group uses anger for defense,

As,

You know,

They can't imagine being without the anger.

It's interesting.

You know,

Anger is,

Premasutha feels,

It's a big source of our ill health.

Premasutha feels it's the reason for high blood pressure,

For,

You know,

Obviously tension,

But I also feel inflammation,

This epidemic of inflammation is,

Because we're red hot inside,

Truly.

Yeah,

I think somebody who wasn't carrying rage could eat the crappy food,

And their body would not get so inflamed at all,

Totally.

Yeah.

So,

Actually,

The biggest thing you can do for your health is allow the anger to heal.

And,

You know,

When you feel really tense,

That's,

You know,

In a way,

It can be fear,

But it's also anger in there.

It will be anger at your true self,

Anger at the flow of your soul,

On the deepest levels.

It will be trying to go up river,

Up your soul river,

Rather than flowing.

And so,

Every time you feel tension,

If you just embrace it,

Keep embracing it,

Will be a storyline for the tension,

The traffic,

Or whatever.

But if part of you can just imagine Amma's arms around you,

Just embrace it,

Embrace it,

Embrace it.

I'll tell you,

If you do that,

It'll be an energetic IV that will just do you a world of good.

You see,

This is where,

You see,

The teacher can't do it for you.

I can tell you to do that,

But it's catching yourself and doing it,

You know,

Noticing your tense,

And then imagining Amma's arms around you.

That's it.

So,

What happens with,

I've said it before,

Amma says,

When you pass over into self-realization,

Your body becomes as relaxed as somebody who's sleeping.

So,

It is like walking around in the relaxed state that you have when you're asleep,

But you're wide awake.

You're not wasting any energy on tension.

All your energy is going to evolution.

Good.

You guys want that.

I can feel that.

And wanting it is what will give you the energy to notice when you're tense and imagine Amma hugging you,

Which sends your psyche the message that you want to transcend this.

You want to transcend this ego that is making you feel tense.

And if you keep doing it,

You will be brought down to the deep sorrow that's underneath the tension and underneath the fear and underneath the anger.

And the more you get used to feeling the sorrow,

The quicker and easier it gets.

It's shocking at first to feel how separate from the universe you might feel,

But if you keep doing it,

You get practice and you just go,

Okay,

Just move through it.

You just move through it in five minutes even.

Okay,

So I just want to tell you guys the thing that keeps your mind stiff and not fluid enough sometimes to follow what I'm saying is your attachments to material things and people.

Okay,

I want you to hear that.

Attachment to people,

Material things will keep your mind inflexible,

So it will be hard to follow what Pramasutra is saying.

That's why the journey takes time,

You know.

And here we are on earth and always,

You know,

We hold on to other people to stop us from feeling so separate.

But the separation is coming from our own anger at ourselves,

So what happens is our relationships are imperfect because we're holding on to a person to avoid facing our deeper material and the deeper,

You know,

Our deeper levels of anger.

This session is about anger,

So I'm really bringing it up.

So,

We might have fights with our mate or our friends rather than feel the anger inside and allow it to heal.

Don't,

You know,

Don't go,

Okay,

I want to go after this anger.

Don't.

Please don't do that.

It's like,

It's like the,

You know,

Shadow work where people try to heal by focusing on the shadow.

It's,

It makes the darkness bigger.

Okay,

So don't focus on your anger.

You can tell Amma that you want to clear anger and just leave it to her for,

Or the creator for,

For how to do it.

But if you focus on,

You know,

Really bringing love into your life and,

You know,

Helping other people,

Being compassionate,

Serving the creator in your life,

This will bring up your anger as a byproduct.

It will start clearing your anger because it will start clearing the blocks to allowing the creator.

The deeper the love being blocked,

The more primal the anger.

Okay,

So anger is not bad,

You guys.

You just,

It's just like living with some,

You know,

TNT and you have to be careful.

You have to be careful about it.

The worst thing you can do is try to separate yourself from your anger in any way at all.

Like to repress it,

To,

To try to manipulate yourself out of anger,

Anything like that.

The healthy way to get through anger is to be like a child.

And a child feels all their emotions.

Never,

Ever repress or try to control anything.

Just be fully with it.

So,

Abraham would say,

Use everything.

So,

He would say,

Like,

Use anger.

If anger comes up,

Use it constructively.

It's really important,

You guys.

You don't step,

Try to sidestep it.

Because it will,

What will happen is it will,

It will actually,

It will,

It will lead to a psychological distress if you do that.

If you really keep doing that,

You,

You will really set yourself up for psychological distress.

Because you are a united unit with a human being,

A divine being,

And,

And your human self,

You have your emotions,

You have your,

Your body,

You,

You can't,

You can't just cut off your arm.

You've got two arms.

It's like you'll have all your emotions.

Don't try to cut them off.

Don't try to make them smaller.

The,

You know what,

A really powerful person,

Like,

If you think of,

Like,

Say,

Excluding,

We're not going with Amma,

But if you think of a spiritual leader,

A really powerful one,

What they've done is they have felt and embraced all their emotions till really all the emotions finally disappear.

You get very muted emotional emotions afterwards.

But if you face,

If you embrace all your emotions that come up,

And you embrace them like in acceptance,

You can start bringing the light very,

Very powerfully.

The,

The healer who can heal,

Like,

Say,

Bruno Gröning,

Who,

Who,

Who he stood and he,

You know,

Used an energetic wave to heal hundreds of people at one spot.

Premasuddha says that he would have faced levels of anger in himself that would be like drop an atom bomb on the universe.

And if he faced,

I would say,

Facing that,

I can't,

You know,

He's not here to ask,

But it's just an example.

I'm trying to give you an example of the power that comes from it.

You face and embrace and allow to heal level of anger of dropping an atom bomb on the universe.

The gift you will give the human race is off the charts like what he did.

I want you to get that for yourselves and not berate yourselves for anger.

You know,

As we clear,

We might see we got angry,

We're too harsh with somebody,

We can,

We can make amends,

We can apologize.

It's not the end of the world.

The thing is,

Anger is a false strength,

And we women can hold on to it and get angry about sometimes really stupid little things.

It's the other side of our,

You know,

When you take care of a child,

You have to be there like 100% for the child.

So,

The feminine energy knows how to get into every nook and cranny and to really be there for the child.

But the other side of it is,

It can,

You know,

Turn into micromanaging in the negative.

And we can hold on to our anger because we're so scared of being shipwrecked in this patriarchal society,

Which is pretty hostile to the feminine energy in all of us.

And if we wasn't hostile,

Mother Nature would not be so showing that it's just not working for her.

You see,

You guys,

Don't deny what I'm saying,

Because it's,

It's there in our mental illness epidemic,

It's there in our chronic illnesses,

It's there in how Mother Nature is with us.

Right,

Right.

All of us have been taught to not really admit the writing on the wall.

And just to get what we want,

Okay,

You guys,

We won't read the writing on the wall,

We look away,

And we just go,

Okay,

I want this,

I want this,

I want this.

Like a bunch of crazy monkeys.

When I come back to your very beautiful,

You're losing your sense of beauty,

I'm probably taking what I'm saying too seriously or too personally.

It's like,

That's our culture,

You know,

This is what we came to transcend,

To see beyond.

And if you're here at the satsang or listening to it,

You know,

You're more awake than 99% of the people.

I shouldn't really put it like that.

It's better to say,

You know,

You're,

You're more awake than,

You know,

You're transcending the,

The patterns of normality that are in our culture.

I mean,

Anybody can be really asleep,

And over two years really wake up.

So,

Even the people who look the most asleep,

Who knows,

You know,

In two years,

It may be very different.

We're all bumbling idiots,

You know,

For the video included,

Though.

All right.

What else did I want to say?

You know,

Anger can give us,

It's a very important thing to stand up for ourselves.

Sometimes,

At some points in the journey,

It is more important to stand up for yourself,

To maybe experience anger and stand up for yourself,

Than it is to do anything else.

Okay,

You guys,

Please,

Please get that.

You could try to be spiritual and keep trying to handle the anger thing right,

And just miss two decades of life.

And,

You know,

If somebody steps on your foot,

You heart,

You're shocked,

It hurts,

Then you're angry,

And you might go,

Watch it.

Okay,

That is healthier to do that,

Than to,

Like,

Step back and,

Like,

Question whether you're allowed to say,

Stop it.

That's what I'm worried about.

You guys,

Women,

We step back into our heads,

And we question whether we're allowed to say something.

So,

When I was 12,

I,

Was I 12?

Yeah,

12,

11,

Maybe.

I was in a movie theater,

And I was wearing shorts.

It was in a small little town where we summered,

Follicombe,

And this gentleman started rubbing my thigh.

And I sat there,

And I was like,

My first thought was,

I don't like this,

But then I got scared of hurting his feelings.

So,

I kept sitting there.

Oh,

My goodness,

This poor little munchkin I was.

So,

Finally,

I got up and left,

But I never even mentioned it to anybody.

I remember when Peter left.

I remember everybody saying,

Are you angry?

Are you angry?

And I'm going,

Like,

No.

I'm going,

Oh,

He needs space.

It's like,

Oh,

What do you do with such a woman?

Because it was so,

I was so out of touch with how angry I was.

It had not been allowed in my family.

Feminine anger was not allowed in my family.

Now,

What's happening is,

In the feminist movement,

We can bounce back from that kind of experience in the patriarchy,

And then we just become these angry mouthpieces,

And that's useless.

That's not what I'm talking about.

That is actually one of my concerns for when women actually face themselves.

It's really important how they handle their anger.

You know,

It is possible to feel angry and keep your awareness.

So,

The dear one was telling me that they were in Starbucks,

And the server,

The checkout guy,

Served the guy behind her before her,

And she expressed anger about this.

This was a step forward,

Because this dear one had lived kind of splitting off her anger,

So she actually handled it in a united way.

It was fantastic.

But sometimes,

You know,

Once we're united with all our emotions,

And we trust ourselves,

We can experience our anger,

And we're just with it,

And then you might decide how to handle it.

Whether it's useful to speak to the person,

Or how you can speak to the person,

It would be a useful thing.

And if you don't do it in the moment,

You can come back later and adjust it,

Speak to them again.

So,

If I feel anger,

It never takes over me.

I'm always like,

Then,

Okay,

What's my choice in this situation?

Sometimes we might feel anger,

And I'm thinking in a relationship or in a family,

And you know,

You might take it and be with it,

And just be with it,

And kind of unravel the deeper message or meaning of it all.

Just contain it,

Put it in a container,

But be like you're the container,

You're with your anger,

You're just with it.

You go through your life,

You're doing your things,

You feel the anger,

You're still going with it,

Until there's some kind of resolution coming from inside.

So,

You get a clear picture,

Maybe,

Of the need to speak to the person directly,

Or you might get a feeling of doing something else,

Something a little more indirect.

I don't know.

But just because you're angry,

You still have choices with what to do with it.

There's a pretty high level if you can just be with your anger without taking any action.

Sometimes the action is just to give it over.

Like,

Sometimes I've been on the phone with a mobile company and waiting,

I don't know,

Like,

You know,

The whole thing,

Two hours,

And I start,

Like,

Giving it over to Amma,

My impatience.

I start just giving it over.

Help me,

Please.

So,

Some of you really think,

Especially the women,

We think that anger is strength,

And some of you really hold on to that.

It isn't.

It's actually weakness.

It's fear and grief in there.

Underneath anger,

You know,

We're angry at our true nature.

I want you to get that.

What we learned to do as a kid,

Like,

Turn away,

Get angry.

I know it's hard to believe,

You guys,

But it's like,

Imagine,

This little god self is born into a family,

And the whole climate is alienated.

So,

The child has to kind of actively push away their true nature to fit in.

So,

What they do is they get angry at it for,

You know,

Not fitting in,

But for being connected to truth.

Really,

This is what you did to your souls,

You guys.

On the deeper level,

Please,

It is the human thing that goes on.

We just don't talk about it,

And our psychology is kind of focused more on managing the ego.

We don't have a spiritual psychology,

A psychology for how to free the soul.

I mean,

That's what Pramasutha is really interested in,

Is if you can understand your psychology that way.

If we had psychology that was oriented that way,

It would help us find freedom.

We wouldn't be just seeking a band-aid,

Going to a therapist for a band-aid that doesn't last,

Because underneath there are deeper levels of anger and resistance to the true nature.

You know,

Pramasutha feels the best cure is this compassion for the little munchkin that you were.

Truly,

Really,

I say,

You know,

Pick up the baby.

Pick up the baby that you were and just hug her,

Love her.

Put her in Amma's arms.

Put you and the baby in Amma's arms,

Really.

Yeah,

Pick up the baby.

Yeah.

Right when she was learning all this to turn away from his or her true nature.

Yeah.

You guys,

This anger is why we,

This anger at our true nature is why we get mad at ourselves and each other when we're not coping in the structure.

You know,

Like,

I don't know,

We're in any kind of structure,

School or work or whatever.

And if we're finding it hard to cope,

It's scary for us and scary for others.

Because,

You see,

We feel safer fitting into any structure rather than being ourselves.

Okay,

This is what,

This is the biggest obstacle when I'm working with you guys.

All of you,

Almost all of you feel safer in the societal structures than you do with your own true nature.

Really think about it.

And the reason is because there's anger at the true nature.

You learn that.

This is why I think,

You know,

Our culture is falling because if we're angry at our true nature,

We're angry at Mother Nature herself.

And we are.

We just exploit her.

And it's inconvenient that she's causing us all this trouble.

We need a lot of compassion for ourselves with the anger,

You guys.

It will melt.

Your anger will melt in self-compassion.

Funny,

I'm just getting this bulletin to announce to you,

To you,

The group,

You are not the boss of your life.

It's so funny.

You're not the boss of your life.

Yeah.

So it's probably,

You know,

We're probably trying too hard to figure out our anger.

It's like,

You know,

Amma will figure it out.

The Creator will figure it out,

Will help you figure it out.

You'll be brought to it.

If you're interested,

I mean,

Just understanding a little bit of what Pramasutra is saying will help reduce your slavery to anger.

Anger makes us feel big.

And lots of times it's the only time we feel big.

Okay,

Please hear that again.

Lots of times it's the only time we feel big and powerful is when we're angry.

But when we learn to tap into our divine energy,

That makes us feel so much more fulfilled and powerful that the anger just looks like a very poor substitute.

I mean,

Once you tap into the nectar of the divine,

You lose interest in anger entirely.

As a prop for you,

For your personality.

And you become way more powerful than the very limited power that anger got you.

Because anger,

You know,

Okay,

So you stand up to difficult circumstance,

You take an action,

You might express anger about something.

But if you're,

The more you're flowing with the divine,

The less these situations even manifest.

You get,

You get grace,

You guys.

You live in grace.

So there becomes very little to become angry about.

This is what happens.

The thing that blocks you from grace is anger,

Really.

And the fear and the separation underneath anger.

Yeah.

It's just a slow clearing,

Guys.

You know,

Don't make anger bad.

And don't try to clear too much overnight.

It really helps to see how futile anger is.

Sometimes we see like,

I don't know,

Getting angry and yelling or something,

And for the same thing 500 times,

And finally you go like,

Well,

Maybe there's another way to deal with this.

And,

You know,

Maybe if somebody makes you angry a lot,

Like,

Then maybe you don't have to spend every day with them.

The most important thing is notice the anger,

Because if anger is coming up,

It's your ego,

It's an opportunity to clear your ego.

Your ego is showing itself in the anger.

Because,

You guys,

What's really going on in this world is just this river of unconditional love that's just flowing along.

One of the things that really helped from a Sutta was the acceptance,

Kind of,

You know,

I'd feel anger,

Feel stuff.

And what happened over time is I began to see more clearly the culture that I was in,

Like it added to my wisdom.

So I stopped getting angry about things.

I just saw it as the diluted way in which we're living our lives.

So I remember,

Whatever,

30 years ago,

I heard,

You guys have heard this from me,

This single mom's magazine was government funded to help them find babysitters before phones or internet.

And it was,

They had a budget of 60,

000.

And there was a cost-cutting thing in British Columbia,

And they cut this magazine.

It's just unbelievable,

You know.

And Premasood is very angry about that.

And,

You know,

I just continued on.

And now there's like an acceptance of this is our culture.

It is,

There's lip service to vulnerable,

Taking care of vulnerability,

But actually underneath,

It's not so pretty,

What's going on,

Certainly in Canada.

See,

If that energy that would be used in anger,

It turns into wisdom.

And the wisdom is wonderful to live with,

You guys.

It's so much happier than living with anger.

But you have to be willing to go up,

To allow your vibration to rise.

And some of you are scared to do that.

You're scared to sort of leave the earth plane.

But actually,

When you let your vibration rise,

You get more solid on the earth plane.

And your life will be easier on the earth plane.

But you'll be,

Your perceptions will be at a higher vibration.

And at a higher vibration,

Our perceptions become bigger.

They're more loving,

You have peace.

You know,

Sometimes if we've got a dictator taking over a country,

I mean,

It would be really good if people felt their anger and got out there and protested,

You see.

You know,

If you got too many people trying to manipulate themselves out of the anger,

Like,

Then there's nothing to stop this dictator from doing this,

You see.

Sometimes anger is a really healthy thing.

The thing I think you'll find in your investigations,

That in your feminine,

You're scared of being shipwrecked if you don't have anger.

But the thing that will stop you from being shipwrecked is connecting up with the creator,

Energetically,

Focusing on the creator.

The more you do that,

The safer you become.

Our egos that are fueled by fear and anger try to,

We spend so much energy trying to figure things out.

We just need to,

You know,

Cut it,

Give it over to the creator,

Keep talking to the creator.

It's that book,

The Way of the Pilgrim,

You know,

Constant prayer.

Lord Jesus Christ,

Have mercy upon me.

Blessed Amma,

Help me,

Amma.

Whatever comes to mind is good.

Personally,

I have tremendous faith in the power of imagination.

A lot of where Pramasutta,

My walk,

Is I imagined it.

So,

The imagining being hugged by Amma during the day,

I think that's absolutely priceless to do that.

I think that will speed your healing of anger in you,

Fear in you,

Will do so much for you,

Doing that.

And even if you're feeling separate,

Just comforting yourself with that.

The more you comfort yourself,

That's it.

That's what I do.

I comforted myself by going to the creator,

You guys.

Please.

So,

You know the expression,

Take refuge in the Buddha.

Yeah,

You take refuge in the creator for everything.

And with Amma,

You know,

She'll feel it.

She'll feel you doing that.

You might find that unbelievable,

But it's true.

When,

You know,

I don't know how many of you listened to that video that I sent,

The five minute,

Probably hardly any of you,

But it was really,

Really a priceless little video about,

You know,

The feminine energy and her finding her strength.

And I'll tell you guys,

You know,

It's just,

You know how the inventors or the scientists who make a breakthrough,

They look at data that everybody else throws out,

That ignores.

And I used to feel so overwhelmingly like the scientist who was looking at the material that other people were just ignoring or throwing out.

And that's where this work came from.

I looked at all the stuff that the whole culture was running from.

So,

That's why,

You know,

When I'm sending,

Send you guys a video,

Like,

And you're inside saying,

Listen,

Don't do the throwing out the important material,

Not looking.

Yeah.

I mean,

To get higher up the mountain,

We have to value and turn and look at material that part of us wants to run from,

Or that we're too busy to listen to.

That's it.

Okay.

There's some love power coming.

This is very good.

Love power coming to you all.

And please understand,

You know,

Teachers register stuff like,

You know,

Because teachers will hear,

Everybody says,

Oh,

I'm so keen and so keen.

And the teacher registers how deep the keenness is and how keen the person really is.

And it's not any criticism.

It's just part of the teacher's wisdom just lets them know,

Because then that informs the teacher about what they need,

How to give them what they need,

How to meet them where they are,

As opposed to where they say they are.

Right.

Okay.

There's a really strong love blast coming to all of you guys.

Right.

You know,

The deeper the journey,

The more powerful the light.

And the deeper journey is unsettling,

But we can't get anywhere by avoiding our depth,

But we can ask that it comes at a pace we can handle.

There's a feeling that some of you are getting more sure of yourselves.

I'm seeing mountain goats,

You know,

Getting more sure.

Have you seen videos where they jump across like abysses?

It's just wow.

Yeah.

I'm seeing mountain goats.

Yeah.

I remember this is slow.

It's a slow,

Slow,

Slow journey.

Yeah.

And the growth is imperceptible sometimes.

You know,

It's like it's like,

You know,

When you have a child and you just look at the child every day and they just seem the same,

But then you look at pictures from a year ago and they're completely different and you kind of didn't register.

This is what happens to us on the journey.

Your growth,

You cannot quantify it.

It just is happening.

But if you can,

After this,

You know,

Just be more aware of anger,

Of just even feeling it.

And if we're angry at somebody,

On deeper levels,

We're actually angry at ourselves.

So,

Yeah.

That's why,

You know,

We just,

As the anger clears,

We just stop blaming everybody.

We stop blaming ourselves and we stop blaming others.

Yeah.

Good.

Good.

When we're not blaming,

We can love.

But if you're blaming,

You just let Amma hug you.

And remember,

Anger in adulthood is unmet expectations.

So,

If you work with your own expectations,

That will reduce anger.

You know,

Any spiritual teacher has to work with becoming,

Realizing growth is slow.

A mom might be pregnant with the baby at four months and want it born,

But it's going to be five more months no matter what she does.

You know,

My mom hardly ever showed any anger at all.

And I remember,

I thought,

You know,

This is life from a Suda land.

When I was 21,

I got our family off to a family therapist.

I was,

You know,

I was vigilant even back then to,

You know,

See if something could be done.

And,

You know,

It was so interesting because I heard the therapist talking among themselves.

There were two at one point.

And they both said,

My mother was such an angry woman.

But it didn't show at all.

Yeah.

Yeah,

That was hair raising for me.

Wow.

And,

You know,

Her dad had beaten her.

So,

She was entitled to feel anger,

But she never could face it.

She never could face her anger and allow it to clear,

You know,

And allow the wisdom to come.

Yeah,

So that's what our emotional prison is,

You guys.

It's our separation from our divinity.

The feelings of being separate from all that is fear and anger.

Those are the foundations and the bricks and the roof of our emotional prison.

And even realizing that you,

This,

That what you live with inside right now,

You guys,

All of you,

Your idea of reality,

There's a prison to it.

And as you do this deeper work,

I mean,

Just even admitting this,

That you're in a prison,

Is actually coming out of the prison at least a little bit.

And,

You know,

Just no matter what your feeling state,

Just,

You know,

It's,

I find it's much better to just imagine Amma hugging you rather than trying to fix your state.

You know,

Just Amma hugging you.

If you're feeling blue,

Cross,

Imagine yourself in her arms,

Walk around like that.

The other thing is anger makes us very intolerant.

And,

You know,

That's uncomfortable to live with because we spend so much time judging that it's unpleasant even for us.

And the thing is underneath,

We're judging ourselves like that.

I'm going to ask Amma to come in and ask the creator,

Amma,

Angels,

To come in and help everybody in the satsang and everybody listening.

It's just a huge amount of help.

And reassurance.

You can learn to lodge in this connection to the divine and it gives you the security to make these steps.

And when we're letting go of anger or fear,

Or this grief underneath anger,

Life feels really insecure,

You guys.

It will feel really,

Really insecure.

Like,

You know,

Climbing a ladder,

You've got one foot off and it's a long way down.

It can feel like that.

Just keep talking to Amma,

Remind yourself that you're on the journey,

That it's,

You know,

You're walking your talk,

You're facing a challenge,

You're growing.

And the spiritual master has just gone through that five million times,

That exact same thing.

Same feelings.

And if you're not very motivated to do anything about this,

Just imagine Amma hugging you for that too.

Please.

This is Pramasut's way.

It's like unlimited self-compassion.

You checkmate yourself with self-compassion,

Truly.

Whatever escape hatch you're thinking,

You just give yourself compassion for that.

That's good.

That's good.

You guys are getting that.

That's good.

That is a big key to this journey that Pramasut,

I just forgave myself for everything.

Compassion for everything.

I remember a spiritual teacher said to me,

You think too much.

And I went,

Yeah,

I know.

And they were shocked.

They were shocked that I said,

Yeah,

I know,

Rather than,

Oh,

I don't do that or whatever.

I went,

Yeah,

I do.

I'm working on it.

And Pramasut could do that because of her self-compassion.

It's like,

I'm this bumbling idiot who's doing her best.

Right.

That is,

You know,

If you do do this self-compassion,

You don't need the defenses because you're taking such good care of yourself.

You don't have to bend yourself against this world.

Okay.

That's a big key,

You guys.

I gave it to myself with this focus on self-compassion.

So,

I didn't expect people to,

I didn't have a lot of expectations from the outside world because I just focused on,

I didn't expect people to be nice or fair to me particularly.

But it's like,

Whatever.

It's like I had my self-compassion.

It's like,

Meh,

You know.

I didn't need so much from the outside world.

This is what happens when you clear enough anchors,

Start building bridges to your divine nature and opening the channels so your divine nature can flow in.

And I'm feeling it flowing in,

In a couple of you.

My goodness.

Some of you have been doing really good work.

Right.

And if you're not feeling it,

You're still adorable and you'll feel it next week.

You know what I like?

Like a satsang full of like,

If you guys are all like,

Be like kindergarten kids.

Like,

You know you don't know,

But you're up for the game and you'll put your whole heart into it.

You know,

Just like kindergarten kids,

They,

Whatever game you,

They put their whole hearts into it.

That's what,

Just do your best.

You know,

Your whole heart,

You know,

We're bumbling idiots.

And you know,

Alma evolves us,

The creator evolves us.

We just make progress.

Right.

And I saw a whole bunch of mountain goats,

Which feels very auspicious to me for learning how to climb the mountain.

Yeah.

And if you missed listening to that video,

Go back please and listen with your whole hearts,

Like a kindergarten.

Yeah.

Not like a grade 12 or getting homework from the cranky math teacher or something.

Yeah.

Listen,

Because it's a gift in that video because I'm really,

I'm talking about how rare it is for a woman to really make friends with her true emotional nature.

It's rare as hen's teeth,

You guys.

Hardly any woman is doing it.

And we don't have a huge surfeit of true spiritual female teachers either,

Because it's so hard to do it.

It's so hard.

It can feel so hard to value yourself,

To,

You know,

To sort of embrace your emotions in a culture that's,

You know,

With quite distressed emotions.

But I remember a therapist I went to and he said,

When he was doing his training,

There was a woman who would just suddenly burst into tears every so often.

And he,

He used to get so cross with her.

He'd go,

Oh,

She's so emotional and everything.

And then he said that he realized that if she was upset at all,

There was something wrong in the group.

Like in the training,

There was something that they were missing.

She was like the canary in the coal mine,

You know,

Where the canary would die when the canary died,

The guys would go up because the air wasn't,

The air had gas in it.

Okay.

This is a sensitive,

Feminine nature.

We'll pick up on the really subtle stuff.

Right.

And this is where you guys,

The women,

Their connection to the creator comes in.

So you have to treat it well.

You have to learn to treat it well,

If you want it.

If you trash the subtle subtleties,

You won't get the creator energy in a powerful way.

Yeah.

Abraham used to say that real spiritual power was just mass subtlety,

A whole bunch of subtleties that had been harnessed by the teacher.

Yeah.

Okay.

Has anybody got any questions or,

Or comments or?

You guys make some good shifts.

Yeah,

Truly.

You,

You,

You don't know how good you are,

You know.

I remember Amma talking about that in a,

In a talk,

And she was,

She just said,

You know,

Some of you,

You don't know how good you are.

And it was like the best students are,

Are often the hardest on themselves.

They go,

I don't know.

I don't get it.

I'm going to fail.

And to be a good student,

You guys,

It's just to be yourselves.

Just,

Just yourselves.

Like Pramasutra is just being herself.

Getting here,

I was just myself.

You know,

Let Amma,

Let the creator take your hand,

Walk with you.

Yeah.

I remember when we're clearing,

We might feel separate.

Yeah.

Feel for all of you guys.

I know what it's like.

Yeah.

But it's all got a happy ending.

This is it.

It's all love underneath.

And if you don't find it before you die,

You'll find it when you pass over.

And hopefully before that,

It's why you come to Satsangs.

But listen to the video I sent.

Okay.

Okay.

You guys,

Blessings,

Unlimited,

Unlimited,

Infinite blessings.

And you're all adorable.

And thank you for coming.

And we're,

You know,

You're,

You're following through,

Through on your agreement.

We're doing it.

We're doing what we came to do.

It's all good.

It's all good.

It's just a tall order.

Okay.

Bye.

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Imaging everyone’s hand being held! Thank you for the reminder. We never walk alone. The hand of Amma/the creator is there for me! My true power. Blessings and love to you and all beings everywhere. 🤗🤗🤗

The topic of anger struck a chord for me. Last year I went through many changes in my life. Some were not so good and some led to many eye opening experiences. The realization of how much anger I had bottled up inside of me shocked me. I was tired of being told “to be nice” while others were not, tired of being in the role of family mediator. Also discovered how much I overthink things which I believe directed me to finding what I call my heart song. It was such a joyous moment I felt it radiating within and out. My spiritual journey was now on a new path. I have set up boundaries for myself and am in the process of facing my fears. Not an easy journey through this midlife growth but I see it through a different set of eyes. Mountain goat in training. 😊🙏🏻🦋🌱