Hi,
My name is Nini Li,
And in today's talk I will be sharing with you about taking responsibility for your reality.
The shift that we long for doesn't arrive from the outside,
It's born from within.
So let's stop postponing our becoming and our dreams.
The universe is a benevolent force,
An eternal current of love that holds us,
Guides us and cherishes us deeply.
And love,
True unyielding love,
Has a power to stir us,
To awaken us,
To call us home to our own divine essence and radiant power.
For awakening is not always gentle,
Sometimes it comes as a tremor or a scream,
A mirror held up by the people in our life and life itself,
Revealing where we have forgotten who we are and how we keep betraying ourselves.
After many years of coaching,
Mentoring and guiding others,
I have noticed a common thread,
Especially amongst women.
Yes,
I see this in men too.
Feeling stuck,
Stagnant and disempowered,
Repeating the same stories,
Habits and behaviours despite knowing it is unhealthy,
Not knowing how to get to a point of clarity,
Refusing to listen to the intuition or higher self,
Self-sabotaging,
Feeling unworthy and incapable of having their desires met,
People pleasing to keep the peace and safety,
Distraction after distraction to avoid doing the deep inner work that they know will set them free.
Low self-worth,
Self-love,
Self-honour and self-respect,
Don't know how to ask for what they want,
To have their needs met and just keep settling because comfort creates security and safety,
And feeling very uncomfortable with silence,
Spaciousness and uncertainty.
There comes a time in one's path when the inner voice gets louder and louder,
To the point it becomes unbearable.
Maybe it's your higher self,
Or maybe it's your spirit guides trying to save you from the ongoing silent suffering.
I've been there,
Many many times.
My life journey has been a constant spiral of deep initiations,
A lot of darkness which had all eventually transmuted into light.
I've cried myself to sleep,
I've cradled myself the way I wish my mother did,
I've purged,
Physically,
Lifetimes of pain and trauma.
I've held my own head inside a bucket of vomit and have looked deeply into what I have carried inside of me for so so long.
Slowly,
Slowly,
I have set myself more free.
In my eyes,
Becoming an integrated being is a new flex,
And a truly integrated being is not one who escapes the dark,
But one who learns to dance gracefully,
Courageously and truthfully with both shadow and light.
They do not blame the outside or run away from the ache or pain,
Nor cling on solely to the light,
The butterflies and the rainbows.
They understand that both are wise teachers,
And that both are threads in the sacred weaving of their becoming and reclamation.
This is the blessing,
To no longer exile parts of ourselves,
But to gather them,
Honour them and let them speak and heal.
This,
To me,
Is the path of the awakened heart,
To embrace it all,
The beauty and the mess,
The longing and the resistance,
To show up fully and bravely,
And to take responsibility not only for what we do,
But also for what we delay,
Deny or avoid.
Not someday,
Not when the circumstances feel more favourable,
But now,
Where life is already waiting for us to rise.
A client recently shared,
Maybe I'll wait until I move,
Then I'll have the energy,
The motivation,
Then things will change.
And with love,
I offer this reflection.
Until you choose to change now,
Until you claim your power in this moment,
The outer world will continue to echo your hesitation,
Challenges,
Shadow and trauma.
Because the shift we long for doesn't arrive from the outside,
It's born from within.
From the decision to no longer postpone your becoming and your dreams,
From the courage to say yes to yourself,
Yes to your life,
Yes to the present moment,
Right here,
Right now.
The question is,
When and how will you start taking responsibility for your reality and for your life?
It pains me truly to witness so many beautiful souls postponing their happiness,
Their aliveness and their sacred gifts,
Waiting for the right time,
The perfect energy,
The external sign to finally choose themselves.
I know this ache,
Because I too was once that person,
Caught in the cycle of delay,
Believing fulfillment was somewhere out there,
In some relationship,
In financial security or in a job.
Until one day,
My soul screamed,
No more,
No more waiting to feel whole,
No more betraying my own joy and happiness,
No more shrinking from the life I came here to live.
And so step by step,
I began to reclaim myself.
With each act of courage,
I grew stronger and trusted myself more.
With more self-love,
I softened and expanded and attracted the love of my life,
Dream clients,
Wonderful people,
Opportunities,
My wildest dreams.
With each decision rooted in my own truth,
I called my power home.
And from this place,
I began to rebuild slowly,
Not just a life that looked good,
But a life that felt good,
Nourishing,
Safe,
Alive and soul enriching,
A life that is in alignment with my values.
I want to remind you that you don't have to wait,
You can and are allowed to begin now.
The question is,
If not now,
Then when?
You
