Start by sitting quietly and become aware of your surroundings.
Locate yourself in a space and time.
Feel your back and button touching the chair you are sitting in.
Feel your claws on your body and feel the air in the room.
Just for now there is no place you have to go and nothing you have to do.
Just be here and now.
Close your eyes if you have not already done so.
Be aware of your breathing.
Feel the air as it comes in and as it goes out.
Be aware how it feels in your nostrils as you breathe in and as you breathe out.
If you have interrupting thoughts,
That's ok.
You can just notice them as if they were sentences going across your TV screen.
The important thing is just to notice them,
Just allow them to pass by.
As you continue your breathing you can hold on to your consciousness as much as you want.
Or you can let go in ways that you know which allow you to relax.
You learn to hold on and let go as a child and you really know just exactly how much to hold on and how much to let go.
You learn the perfect balance as you learn to breathe as an infant.
You learn to breathe in and hold on long enough to oxygenate all your blood cells and you learn to let go and feel the air go out.
As an infant you learn how to suck your mother's nipple,
You learn to suck your bottle and to let go as you tasted the warm milk.
You soon learn to hold on to your own bottle and to let go when you were finished and you learn to hold on to the side of your crib and to let go when you were ready to lay back down.
So you really know exactly how much to hold on and how much to let go.
And you can trust yourself to find just exactly what you need for you.
Now you may be feeling a kind of heaviness in your eyelids,
You can just let them close tightly.
You may feel the heaviness in your jaw,
In your arms and hands,
You may feel like you cannot move your hands and you may feel like there is a heaviness in your legs,
Like you cannot move your legs.
Or you may just feel the opposite,
Like your whole body is floating,
Like your hands and arms are like feathers.
You really know what you feel,
Heaviness or lightness and whatever it is,
It is exactly right for you.
And now you can begin experiencing some childhood memories.
You can remember your first school days and your best friend in those days.
You can remember a kind teacher or neighbor.
And you can remember a house you lived in before you went to school.
What colour was the house?
Did you live in the city?
In the country?
Now you can see some of the rooms in the house.
Where did you spend your time in that house?
Did you have a special room?
Where was the dinner table?
See who is at the dinner table.
What did it feel like to be at that table?
What did it feel like to live in that house?
Now imagine you could walk outside of that house and that you could see a little toddler playing in a sandbox.
Really look at him and get a feeling sense of this child.
What colour are his eyes?
What colour is his hair?
What is he wearing?
Talk to this child.
Say whatever you feel like saying.
Now let yourself float into the sandbox and be the little child.
What does it feel like to be this small child?
Look up at the grown up you.
You are this grown up person as a wise and gentle wizard.
Slowly tell you the following affirmations.
Sit in a wizard's lap if it feels safe for you.
My dear one,
It's ok to be curious.
To want,
To look,
To touch and taste things.
I will make it safe for you to explore.
I love you just the way you are.
I am here to take care of your needs and you don't have to take care of mine.
It's ok for you to be taken care of.
It's ok to say no.
I am glad you want to be you.
It's ok for both of us to be met.
We will work our problems out.
It's ok to feel scared when you do things your way.
It's ok to feel sad when things don't work out for you.
I will not leave you no matter what.
You can be you and still count on me being there for you.
I love watching you learn to walk and talk.
I love watching you separate and start to grow up.
I love you and value my little sweetheart.
If you feel like hugging the grown up you,
Please do so.
As you hug the grown up you,
Feel yourself become the grown up you again.
Hold your little toddler self.
Make a commitment to love this carefree,
Exploring,
Curious part of yourself.
And tell the child I will never leave you.
I will always be here for you.
Now be aware that you have just reclaimed your toddler self.
And really feel the sense of that homecoming.
Your little toddler is wanted,
Loved and will never be left alone again.
Now walk away from that place.
Fall forward up memory lane.
Walk past your early schoolyard.
Look at the playground in the swing.
Walk past your favorite old hangout as a young teenager.
Walk past a memory from two years ago.
Feel yourself in the space you are in right now.
Feel your toes and wiggle them.
Feel the energy come up through your legs.
Feel the energy in your chest as you take a deep breath and make a noise as you exhale.
Feel the energy in your arms and fingers.
Wiggle your fingers.
Feel the energy in your shoulders,
Neck and jaw.
Stretch your arms.
Feel your face and be fully present.
Restart to your normal waking consciousness.
And now you can open your eyes.
And now you can open your eyes.
