This talk is not a substitute for individual therapy.
Hello,
This recording is about unconditional worthiness as an important factor if you want to step into your abundance,
If you want to step into unshakable self-assurance.
I will share about my personal journey so you can understand how to get there.
Worthiness is a concept that is somewhat easy to understand if we stay at the mind level.
It's very easy to find definitions about what is worthiness,
What is self-worth.
Though the journey from feeling unworthy to feeling worthy is something that I actually have not found anywhere except in myself,
Which is why with this recording I want to be absolutely honest and I will share with you how I've discovered my own unconditional worthiness.
In my experience of being a spiritual healer and from my own life experience,
The concept of worthiness only comes to mind if we are aware.
It is only when we have started a journey,
A self-discovery,
A constant inquiry about who we are,
What is the purpose of life,
What are we here for,
When we have started that journey,
Then at some point we might come across that concept of worthiness.
In my experience,
It never came to my mind 10 years ago because basically there was no point,
It was not relevant.
It is actually when I faced rejection,
Self-doubt,
Feeling disempowered,
Questioning myself,
What's wrong with me?
Why am I struggling so much?
How come life is not offering me what I desire the most?
It is when I reached that very heavy discomfort,
So heavy and so annoying,
That I started to ask myself what is going on with my belief system?
What is going on with my mind?
What happens is we do experience emotions.
So these emotions,
Aware or not,
They will happen at a body level and depending on your willingness to embrace it,
You might take the time for self-inquiry or you might actually escape yourself.
If you have been taking that time to inquire,
Then you probably have noticed emotions are linked to thoughts,
Emotions are linked to beliefs about the world,
About yourself.
Now here we are with the most valuable point of this talk,
I would say.
If you are here,
It's because you know you are physical,
You are a physical being.
You also know or perhaps you are still questioning yourself about your spiritual,
The spirit in you,
The vibrational aspect,
The energetic,
The vibrational aspect of yourself.
In my experience,
To feel worthy without condition,
No matter what happened and no matter what happens and no matter will happen,
I had to remember that I am spirit as well.
It's not about neglecting your physicality.
What I've done was on my journey of loving myself,
Loving myself for any emotion,
Any thoughts,
Any actions,
In sitting with the process that I used as a practitioner,
In sitting with it,
I have uncovered beliefs,
Very strong beliefs and because I'm committed to awareness,
I could step above and see how bad I was thinking about myself.
And so literally what I've done is making a list of all these horrible,
Awful,
Negative beliefs about myself and about my life.
I was radically honest,
Absolutely honest with the way I was thinking about myself.
While I was doing that,
Yes I did have heavy emotions,
It was very painful.
I allowed this to happen,
I allowed myself to release,
I allowed myself to cry,
I allowed myself to scream,
I allowed myself to be sad and angry and upset and frustrated.
I knew,
I knew that those emotions were a message for me.
With each emotion I had a belief associated to it,
A very negative belief about myself.
And in making that list,
It took a while,
It's not a matter of one hour or two hours or one day,
Probably a couple months,
I unraveled,
I untangled like a thread,
A big knot.
And what came for me,
What came out of this journey of embracing a list,
A massive amount,
A huge list of negative beliefs,
I asked myself,
Is my existence valuable?
I exist and is this important?
Even if I experience this,
Even if I did this,
Even if I think this,
Even if I project,
And even if I'm limited,
How about my existence,
My beingness,
How valuable is that?
And I asked myself that question over and over,
And it's like I was peeling layers,
Releasing emotions,
And really seeing that massive list of negative beliefs about myself.
Examples,
I'm a struggle,
I will struggle forever,
I don't see how to make a change,
How can I get out of this situation,
What's wrong with me?
And so I kept asking,
My existence,
My existence,
My spirit,
Is it important?
Is it valuable?
And without really planning,
I had a realization that no matter what I've been doing,
Thinking,
Acting,
The rejections I've been experiencing,
At the end,
What's left?
When there is nothing,
When there is nothing about my humanness,
There is still my spirit,
And this,
This is worthiness,
This is light,
And I realized my humanness is there,
And it is my choice,
It is my own choice to actually change my thoughts,
Make a decision to not feed the negative system,
Negative belief system,
It is my choice to see the bright light that I am,
It is my choice to step up for my existence,
To honor my life,
Because I'm a physical being,
And I'm a spiritual being,
And the two together,
They're very valuable,
It doesn't matter what I've done,
I can forgive myself,
I can make a fresh start,
I can judge myself in a very different way,
I always have that opportunity now to make a change,
And so the release of my heavy emotions,
The knowing and awareness of my negative belief system led me to really see clearly the spirit in me,
And I'm worthy of existing,
I'm worthy of being,
I'm worthy of standing for myself,
You are worthy of standing for yourself,
But it's not because I tell you that you will feel it,
Everything will start with your choice to love yourself unconditionally,
To love your experience,
To love your emotions,
Every single emotion,
To not say joy is better than anger,
Frustration is bad,
Even your resistance to feel is welcome,
Something I want to add to this talk,
Feeling unworthy,
It's not an emotion,
If you do feel unworthy,
You actually think you are unworthy,
Very important point,
Take a moment for this,
You think you are unworthy,
And so perhaps now,
My invitation for you,
If your life has been shaky,
Something's not right,
You have patterns that are showing up for you all the time,
A kind of struggle,
An addiction,
Something that is really bothering you,
And you are like I don't know how to get out of this,
Start with breathing into those sensations in your body,
And just be with it,
Be with the numbness at the start,
The resistance,
And trust the now,
There is nothing to change in the now,
When you do this process of unconditionally loving yourself,
There is nothing that needs to be changed,
Because you want to see,
You want to know what is the belief that is actually triggering that emotion,
Once you have made that list of beliefs,
Keep trusting that you are spirit,
Keep trusting that you are spirit,
And that your existence,
As a blend of physical and spiritual,
Is so beautiful,
And so important,
It will be the outcome,
Thanks for listening to this talk,
And as a spiritual healer,
Holding space for myself and for clients,
I really trust that it is possible to feel worthy,
Unconditionally worthy,
Feeling worthy no matter what,
Not because you have done this,
Not done that,
Thought that,
You are worthy anyway,
And it's possible for you to get there,
Sending you so much love,
And I trust that you can do this.
