Come back from all your adventures and rest here with your eyes closed.
There is nothing more interesting,
There is nothing more happening than here.
Assert your disinterest by closing your eyes instead of going somewhere to your thoughts,
To your perceptions,
To your sensations.
Find yourself deeply rooted here and let everything come to you.
Let the sound of my voice come to you.
Let other sounds in your environment come to you.
Don't go along with your thoughts,
Let your thoughts come to you and dissolve in you.
Familiarize the experience of you being here without losing yourself in any modality of your experience.
Once our eyes are closed and once we are disinterested in our thoughts,
Our experience is more or less comprised of bodily sensations.
Once in a while some thoughts will come through and that's okay.
Intermittently my sound,
My voice will come through and that's okay.
But notice that in the gaps your bodily sensations are emphasized and as your attention moves from your face to your belly to your feet in no particular order those sensations come to life in your experience.
If you have the habit of visualizing,
Pause it for a little while,
Let your sensations roam around freely.
Do not restrict them in a cage of the memory of what your body should look like.
These sensations are your anchor in this moment.
As we are lost in our thoughts about the past or about the future,
There is nothing to bring us back to reality.
These sensations are rooted in reality.
When we are lost,
Deeply lost in the memories,
In the past hurts or in the la-la land of the future or terrified,
Mortified of what is going to happen,
What might happen,
We have lost complete touch with reality and this light and sound show that is the thoughts and feelings show is so colorful,
Is so realistic that we can be lost for a while without even knowing that we are lost.
Let me introduce you to this sliver,
Eternal sliver of now,
Which is the only real experience that we can ever have.
Find yourself in this now,
Unhooked from all thoughts,
All adventures and consciously try to leave this now and go to the past,
I am serious,
Try going back in time or try going one moment forward.
This backward and forward are merely concepts in our mind.
When we find ourselves deeply rooted in the now,
When we find ourselves surrounded with these sensations,
You get a glimpse,
There is nothing but now,
The idea of the past,
The idea of the future has hypnotized us so much that we live in ideas but our body suffers in reality,
In our adventures of our mind where we are reliving the past,
Recreating the past in our mind,
Building castles in the future,
The fear of the past or the future,
The regret of the past,
The anxiety,
All that is suffered here,
In your body.
That's why it's important to do the thought experiment of leaving this now,
Actually leaving and going in the past or going in the future.
I'm sure your mind is dumbfounded on which direction to take,
What does this instruction even mean?
Should I go left,
Should I go right?
Because this instruction is not for the mind,
It's for your heart to wake up to the truth that only now exists.
These adventures of the past,
These excursions to the future are purely imaginary and in the process we create a havoc on our body.
Because it's not a real place,
We can't take our body with us,
So every time we find ourselves suffering,
We are suffering in our body,
These sensations are trying to tell us something.
Just like when we sprain our ankle,
We bruise ourselves,
We cut ourselves,
That pain which is also intense bodily sensations,
They are trying to tell us something,
To do something.
Just like that,
These sensations,
Excited,
Sad,
Anxious,
Angry,
It's a call to find ourselves rooted back in the now.
I challenge you to suffer psychologically in this now.
Right now we are in different parts of the world,
Different time zones,
Yet this now is cutting across all space and all time and we are meeting in this now,
Together.
That's how vast and immense this now is,
This is beyond clock time and we can't even think of leaving it,
Consciously,
Yet we have been trying so hard every moment of our life to leave this now,
To wander in the past,
To imagine some place and go there,
In the beginning it seems cool and harmless,
Until this suffering becomes so immense that we can't handle it,
Without visualizing,
Without commenting,
Without narrating,
Silently sit in this now.
Let these sensations shower you,
Cleanse you,
In the Indian tradition,
Fire is how any new project is started,
It's called a yajna,
A sacred fire,
Let all your thoughts offer them in this fire of your sensations,
This sacred fire of sensations that is burning around you,
Kindle it and then offer all false ideas of the past and the future,
All chatter,
These sensations are like the flames and you are like the space in which these flames are burning,
See it,
Feel it for yourself,
For some of us we have ignored these sensations for so long that they are dormant,
Let my words be the kindling to bring them back,
Let your awareness be the fuel to bring them back,
Offer the false notions of escaping this inescapable place,
Into this fire,
Stop torturing this body by losing yourself in these thoughts of past and future,
Although I make it sound like an inescapable prison but this is,
This is the most beautiful place,
Life can be experienced only in this place,
Love,
Beauty,
Friendship,
Aliveness,
Awareness,
Everything can be accessed only here,
Memory is a mere illusion,
Imagination is a mere illusion,
You know we can never think about the now,
When we start thinking by definition we are thinking of the past or the future,
For you to think about the now,
The now,
The unfolding of the now and the thinking should happen simultaneously,
It's impossible for us to experience that way,
For you to think about a word that I'm uttering,
I should have uttered that word first for you to start thinking about it and at that point that word has become the past that's why the ancient sages recommended silence to experience the truth,
The reality and for our thinking addicted mind this might sound like an impossibility at first but it's not an impossibility because you are in it right now,
You have just been dipped in the waters of the now,
Washed clean so that you get a taste of this now,
So let go of your ideas let go of your adventures and come home and stay home this is where happiness is and this is where peace is this is where reality and truth is everywhere else is merely a promise a heartbreak we have perfected this habit,
This addiction of ours the way out of it is one step at a time but before we take that step on our own we have to see this with our eyes,
Deeply penetrate this truth that my words are pointing to so that in your heart you are convinced that any place that I want to go to is the wrong place the only real place is here and the only real place will be here we have been at it for almost 40 minutes have you left this now?
Have you gone from one now to another now?
Or is this now just unfolding within itself in a mind-boggling way,
Un-understandable to the mind that we never leave this now everything yet happens in this now the 40 minutes have happened in this now you have not experienced any moment of it because you were deeply in this now yes,
Everything yet happens in this now everything around you has changed,
Your sensations have changed,
My sounds have changed but have you changed?
Has the now changed?
This is not a trivial insight that this now and you are so one in this moment,
In this now,
Inseparable that all your experience is changing but you or this now isn't changing you can't bring a clock in this now the clock time does not apply to this reality it applies to the changing reality if you can call it reality to the changing aspect of life notice how your thoughts have dissolved burnt off in this fire the fire is still going and you are still not burning you are the portal,
You are the access to this now inseparable from it once we disentangle ourselves from these sensations from the straight jacket of what our body looks like and we find ourselves here we recognize that there is nowhere else to go and here was always here we were here in plain sight perfectly camouflaged all our ideas,
All our concepts had blinded us to this very familiar obvious place placeless place come home and stay home
