Please take some time to find a comfortable position.
You may be seated or lying down.
Wherever you can stay present,
Alert,
And relaxed.
I invite you to close your eyes,
To go within,
And to begin by becoming very aware of your physical body,
The connection that the parts of your body have to the surface beneath you,
Feeling the meeting points between the seat or the floor and your body,
Feeling all the specific points of contact,
Feeling the weight of the body,
The spaciousness of your physical being,
And noticing the space around your body,
Space between your body and the walls,
The ceiling,
The floor,
Above,
Below,
And in all directions.
And now return to the physical body and observe the breath,
The natural inflowing and outgoing breath,
And gradually begin to slow your breathing down,
A calm,
Slow,
Steady breath in,
And a calm,
Slow exhalation without any strain or pressure.
And now releasing the focus on the breath and letting yourself know that there is no way that you can mess this process up,
That whatever you receive from your experience today is perfect for you,
And that you are fully capable of your experience,
And that you are safe inside of yourself,
To be present through this practice,
To be present in your body,
And to stay aware throughout your experience.
I invite you to call upon an upset.
This might be something very recent,
This might be something from your past,
And it could be something very subtle,
Like a negative interaction you had with the grocery store clerk,
Or it could be something deeper,
Maybe an ongoing struggle you have with a sibling,
For example.
You decide.
Ideally,
It will be something that has a charge to it,
That has some degree of potency to it.
And often,
Really just the first thing that pops into your mind will be the thing.
So don't judge it.
Don't overthink it.
And know that you can come and rework all sorts of situations inside of this practice at any time that you choose.
So as you bring this upset into your mind,
Allow yourself to be fully involved in it.
Get into the feeling state.
Notice what happens as you think about this experience.
Notice what begins to happen in your physical body.
Is there tension in your shoulders or jaw?
Or does the solar plexus clench a little bit?
Again,
It might be very subtle,
Or it might be something very obvious.
Just observe without judgment.
Notice what occurs.
And as you explore this upset,
And the related sensations in the physical body,
I'm going to ask you,
When was the first time you ever felt this way?
These same sensations in your physical body.
Just allow whatever thought or memory arises to surface.
When did you first feel this way?
How old were you?
And don't judge this.
If a number comes in,
Just trust that follow the age.
Follow your experience.
You are being guided and you are being held.
So whatever age that you were that you first felt this same feeling state,
Sensations,
Emotions.
See yourself at that age with as much clarity as possible.
See what you were wearing,
Your hair,
Expression on your face,
As though you're watching a movie of your life.
And you've rewinded to this moment in time.
And you're seeing your younger self experiencing this pain,
The suffering.
Stay curious.
And perhaps there was a situation around this experience.
Maybe it's very clear and vivid to you,
Or maybe it's vague.
Either way is perfect.
And now is the time that you get to turn to this younger part.
To this part who is struggling.
To this part of you who suffered.
And in your mind's eye and in your heart space,
Say hello to this younger part.
And let this younger aspect of yourself know that you're here for them.
And from your adult consciousness,
Witnessing their suffering,
Offer a loving support without trying to fix or change.
But reassurance that you are here,
Willing to listen.
Not going to abandon.
But loving this part of yourself unconditionally.
And be open to this conversation.
Notice what this younger part says,
How they react to your comments,
To what you're saying.
And allow yourself to converse from a place of love,
From a place of acceptance and deep understanding of this young part who was doing their best in the best way that they knew how at that age.
And I'll give you some time to have a conversation,
To ask any questions or to offer any loving to this part.
To ask this younger version of yourself what they need.
And if you're able to offer that to them and give that to them now,
Do so.
They may just need a hug.
They may just need to hold your hand.
They may need to go out and play and laugh or dance and sing.
Just stay open to the truth of this child.
And now if it feels true for you,
Let this younger version of yourself know that you're sorry,
That you haven't been fully available,
That you haven't known how to listen or support or to accept this younger part.
And that you're willing to develop an intimate relationship,
You are willing to listen,
You are willing to no longer betray this version of yourself.
You're willing to listen to the deep wisdom.
You're willing to honor the fragility,
The rawness,
The vulnerability,
Without judgment.
To bring such love and support to this aspect of yourself that perhaps never received the love in the way that they wanted to,
The support in the way that they felt they needed to.
But now you get to be here for you and tell yourself all of the things that you so desperately wanted to hear as a youngster but didn't have the capacity or ability or maturity or understanding and how to ask because you were just a child.
It wasn't your job to know how to ask.
And sometimes the people around us,
Our parents or caregivers,
The people that were very influential didn't know what we wanted,
Didn't know how to give it to us.
And so often weren't even able to give that to themselves.
It is no reflection of your worthiness or your lovability.
So take a deep breath in and letting that truth come into your cells,
Into your tissues.
That whatever you have experienced in your life,
Whatever people have said to you or not said to you or done to you,
None of this is a reflection of your worthiness.
None of this is a reflection of the love that you are and the love that source has for you.
You were created in divine perfection.
You were created perfectly.
And you were created whole.
And by welcoming this younger part back into your heart,
Allowing their voice to be heard,
Allowing their needs to be voiced as a way to return to your wholeness and know that all of you is welcome,
That there is nothing deficient,
That there's absolutely nothing wrong with who you be.
So take a deep breath in and a slow,
Steady breath out.
And let this younger child part know that you will return,
That you will continue to show up,
To be with them,
To stay curious and to get to know them better.
And if it feels good,
You can give your child part a hug and let them know how much you care and love them.
When you feel ready,
You can slowly go on and open your eyes,
Return to the day.
And I would highly recommend that you take a few minutes to journal about your experience,
To write down anything that you want to remember and retain.
Any feelings,
Clearings,
Anything at all that stood out to you about your experience.
Much love and many blessings.
