Inner Affirmations Part 2: How To Save Yourself

In "How to Save Yourself," listeners can expect a raw and empowering exploration of personal healing from the depths of an abusive relationship. Katharine shares her journey of rediscovering inner wisdom and the power of journaling through the "Inner Affirmations" method. As she confronts the darkness of her past while navigating the complexities of recovery, the track offers insights into the non-linear nature of healing, the importance of self-forgiveness, and the role of meditation in finding peace. This track serves as a beacon of hope, encouraging listeners to tap into their own inner strength and embark on their paths to recovery.

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How to Save Yourself,

Inner Affirmations Even when I was tense and full of fear in my abusive relationship,

The gift of my inner wisdom was still real to me.

I had discovered how to access my wisdom without doubts or second-guessing.

And although I had stopped journaling regularly,

I could still connect with that source of self-empowered wisdom when I felt strong enough to listen.

Eventually,

The abuse in the relationship started to take its toll.

The lows got incredibly low and dark,

To the point of devastation.

So when I woke up in the psychiatric unit that day in 2017,

I realized I needed to address the hurt I'd been going through.

This was my wake-up call.

The first thing I did when I started the process of recovery,

And now separation from my now ex,

Was to pull out my trusty AbetDusty journal.

This is when I started the work of saving my own life.

I was exhausted,

Though.

It felt like a physical struggle,

As if I'd actually been swimming in mud.

On very rare occasions,

Several years later,

I still feel like that.

But my healing started when I pulled out my journal.

I began using my inner affirmations method again.

I made a ritual out of it,

Which you will read more about in the coming chapters.

Six months into my healing,

I came across Melanie Tonya Evans and the Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Program,

NARP.

NARP gave me the guidance and structure,

Which my logical and pragmatic side adored,

To start working through and releasing my experience of trauma.

I also started meditating during this period of healing.

I had never been able to quiet or calm my mind successfully in the past.

Then I found Insight Timer,

Which hosts the largest collection of free meditations online.

Here,

I discovered the concept of guided meditation.

It was exactly what I needed to slow down and feel grateful for all my experience.

I exhausted the abscessions geared towards narcissistic abuse recovery.

Eventually,

I decided to make my own and now have an extensive library of guided meditations on many topics.

As I healed,

I noticed my inner affirmations journaling starting to shift.

My ability to forgive myself progressed in stages.

The healing process was not linear.

I would regularly move forward three steps only to fall back two.

Eventually,

I came to a place of forgiveness and compassion for my former abuser as well as my contribution in the experience.

I had tucked the idea of inner affirmations away,

Knowing it was something that I would share someday.

Even if only one person found relief by accessing their inner wisdom,

I knew I had to put it out there as an example.

This is just one way to heal,

But it's what has worked for me.