The Illumination Game Ep.3: Wholeness

This podcast is on "wholeness." You cannot love yourself unless you love all the experiences that shaped you. You (light creator incarnate) are here to take charge and work with every expereince and it's energy manifestation, to fully integrate and unite into the fullness of your love. The light that is you is fearless. Enjoy.

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Focused.

Hello,

Hello,

Hello.

How are you?

Welcome,

Welcome to the Illumination Game.

My name is Britta,

Britta Dubeltz,

And I am your host.

And today's episode is 33.

And the title this week is Wholeness.

And wholeness is really a very interesting and very deeply layered concept.

And all of us are subconsciously searching,

Subconsciously looking for completion,

For wholeness,

For this sense of home of fitting in.

And,

You know,

Most of us subconsciously are driven into relationships because of this reason because of this subconscious,

Deeply embedded need for this wholeness for this feeling of home and belonging.

And this week was inspired by numerous people mentioning how they're struggling with their loneliness.

A lot of people are afraid to be alone.

A lot of people occupy their space and their time,

Because they rather just be with people and and feel okay,

Then to delve into themselves then to be by themselves,

You know,

It causes them anxiety,

It makes them feel disempowered because the brain takes over.

And so,

This is why wholeness is something very meaningful and important for you all to consider and resonate with and sit with,

Right?

That's what this podcast,

The illumination game is about.

This is supposed to get you to think more deeply to yield inward into yourself.

Because if you are driven,

Right,

Subconsciously for this wholeness into that wholeness,

It's not even something that you are aware of.

You're not realizing,

Oh,

I'm looking for wholeness,

Right?

But if that is still the case,

If that is still happening,

Then that drive,

Looking for the wholeness,

Looking for that completion on the outside,

That is always driven by lack.

Lack,

Lack of love,

Lack of self,

Sense of self support of self love for self nurture of self communication with self,

Right?

So that's really that big underlying tone that you must realize nothing on the outside can complete you.

And if that is the case for you,

You have to recognize for yourself that there is still old energy within you.

There is still old,

Um,

Wounding,

Lack patterning within you that is wanting to look to fill it with somebody or something on the outside.

When in truth wholeness is who you already are,

You already are whole,

You already are everything infinite,

Glorious,

Divine being so vast,

So magnificent.

And yes,

That is who you are in your essence.

And that is what you will always be,

Always have been.

But while you are playing human,

Remember that you have come here to heal yourself.

You have come here to evolve your soul.

And so therefore,

Then what is it that's missing?

What is it that we're looking to bring into wholeness?

Everything,

All parts of you.

So of course,

For wholeness,

In order for you to really feel whole within yourself,

You must have to be present to your light,

You have to know your divinity,

Because without your divinity,

Without your light,

Without this inner relationship,

Without this inner identity,

The old energies,

The old wounding,

The old patterns will always continue to have you look on the outside,

Look to fill something,

What you are feeling that you're missing.

Right?

So that's that outward illusion that that manipulation,

That distraction that really isn't the truth.

So this beautiful part of you,

Infinite,

Brilliant,

So light,

So clear,

So joyous,

So strong,

This is a part of your wholeness,

Without this true self of you,

This true identity of you,

You cannot experience wholeness while in human form.

Right?

Because,

Again,

If this is not a part of the equation for you,

Then the human part is the only reality,

Then what you see,

And what you can touch,

That's what you believe in,

And that's it.

And so therefore,

Your entire existence and your entire identity would be the illusion would be your job,

Your family,

Your friends,

Your money,

Your status,

Your sense of power,

Right?

So as you can see,

And as you surely realize,

Many people live their lives here on earth in that way still,

But slowly,

But surely,

We're awakening,

We're realizing,

Oh,

Okay,

Well,

What am I missing?

What am I feeling?

What am I hearing?

What is this shivering these goosebumps about what just happened?

The deep knowing that what people maybe call intuition,

What is it within me that is awakening.

And so more and more people that are coming to me lately are really these people that are realizing that they want to and need to,

For their own happiness,

For their own sense of self,

For their own empowerment,

For them totally and completely self realizing in this lifetime,

They need to get into their light,

They need to get inward,

Yielding in order for this to truly become reality.

Right?

And so that's really what wholeness is about.

It's about a relationship.

Everything here on earth is about relationship,

How we relate,

How we relate to ourselves,

How we relate to others,

How we relate to things,

How we relate,

Right,

It's all an energetic setup.

And so we can relate in empowering ways,

Or we can relate in disempowering ways.

And when we relate in disempowering ways,

We are still attached and dependent on the illusion to make us feel whole versus feeling whole in self feeling in self in relationship with our own with your own glory and grace.

And so when you're operating from that place of yourself,

Then you're choosing empowering relationships,

You're choosing empowering thoughts,

Words,

Actions,

Choices,

You are aware of what would disempower you and what would empower you.

That's the big difference here.

And it's the difference between having to go around many more times or ascending while you are in human form into all that amazing,

Infinite possibility that is just waiting for you,

Waiting for you to recognize that waiting for you to use it,

You are it.

And so this beautiful place of wholeness of your inner wholeness is an incredibly crazy place of freedom,

Sense of freedom.

And that's really the truth,

You know,

Because you don't need anybody or anything.

And I'm saying this from a place of total love,

And deep commitment,

Deep commitment to humanity,

Deep commitment to purpose,

And the work and everything that matters.

But you don't depend on anybody or anything for that to happen.

Because you are playing on the much bigger scale on the much bigger level of infinite possibility of co-creation with light.

And so when you're in this place of inner freedom,

Things manifest very quickly,

Because you're not dependent on any one person or any one situation or any one circumstance,

And you're hanging on to that.

And you've got all that energy attached to this outcome,

Which is disempowering,

Right?

Versus you being in your freedom,

And you're flowing and you're full with yourself,

Your light,

Your clarity,

Your guidance.

And so from here,

You're just trusting,

You're just flowing.

It's easy.

It's easy and new opportunities and new ideas and new situations keep popping up and,

Oh wow,

All of a sudden so much more is possible and even more and more and more is unfolding right in front of you.

And so,

Um,

Yes,

Wholeness is all about this relationship with yourself.

And so yes,

The relationship with yourself as light as divinity,

As infinite eternal creator,

And also relationship with yourself and to yourself on the human level,

Right?

You have to address your patterning,

Your wounding.

You have to address the old energies from that place of love and acceptance,

Which is your light,

Right?

Always remember your light is already unconditional love and acceptance.

And so when you are observing yourself,

When you are listening to yourself,

When you are paying attention to your choices,

To your behaviors,

To your knee jerk reactions,

To your triggers,

When you are paying attention from a place of love,

You can shift and change and adjust yourself so quickly,

So quickly,

And you will realize how empowering this in itself is because you are choosing your wholeness and you are choosing to adjust yourself.

And that's really what this entire process is about.

It's about you doing it.

There is no magic wand out there.

There is no person that can do it for you.

Of course,

We're all here to help each other.

We're all here to support each other.

And we're all here to assist one another into our wholeness,

Into our happy,

Evolved conscious self so that we can live here on earth peacefully,

Respectfully,

With all cultures,

With all beings.

But this requires for you to do it because in order for you to own it,

You have to be the one doing it.

You have to be the one being in that self observation from a place of love,

From a place of acceptance,

From a place of really wanting to clear all those things,

The,

The,

The patterns,

The reactions,

The triggers,

The choices that are disempowering that are of old energy that are not serving your light anymore and therefore your wholeness.

Right.

And so,

Um,

If you really think about it,

Um,

You already being whole,

Right?

Because from the light perspective,

You already are whole.

The only thing that is still giving you a sense of lack,

Low self esteem,

Low confidence,

Um,

You know,

Lacking in self-love,

Et cetera.

You know,

The only things that are still keeping that lack,

Um,

Alive,

You know,

That's really the emotional shutdown.

And I know that I have addressed emotional shutdown in many different ways and from many different angles,

But,

Um,

It really truly is the one thing that stands in your way.

These walls of,

Um,

Protection,

These layers of energy that were placed there because of trauma,

Because of fear,

Because of hurt,

Because of pain,

Right?

It's that emotional shutdown that is still keeping you from the feeling,

From the authentic experience of your wholeness.

Good.

So from here,

Let's go ahead and let's take a look at you being in your wholeness.

So what do you look like?

What do you feel like when you are in your wholeness?

And so perhaps this may seem a little bit of like a guessing game for you,

Um,

Playing make believe,

But remember playing make believe is what you want to learn to work with,

Right?

Visualizing,

Imagining,

Playing make believe.

This is all powerful,

Powerful activation because a,

It is all activating the same part of your brain.

And so your brain does not know the difference between something happening right now,

Or you remembering something that has happened in the past,

Or you visualizing,

Imagining something or playing make believe.

It all lights up the exact same part of the brain,

Which makes it easy for you to get yourself into the place of wholeness,

Of what you want,

Of how you want to feel,

Of how you want to show up,

Of how you want to choose for yourself in empowered ways.

And so,

Um,

You know,

Of course,

Um,

This will then with time,

It will bring up to your attention,

The patterns that do not serve you anymore,

Right?

So from the inside out,

As you are summoning your light and you're summoning your wholeness,

Because we're going to remember,

It's already who you are.

And that's what that does.

The visualizing,

The imagining,

The make believe play,

Right?

It's summoning your essence.

And the more you're summoning it,

The more you will also at the same time become aware of the patterns,

The energies,

The emotional shutdown,

The layers,

The walls,

All of that,

All of that,

All of that,

The walls,

All of that,

Which is in the way.

And so whenever you become aware of yourself being triggered or,

Um,

Pulled into fear or going into that downward spiral or acting in ways that you have already not liked for a while,

Right?

So,

You know,

Your stuff,

You know,

So when it is being brought up,

When it is being triggered,

When it is being brought to your attention by life,

By a person,

By a situation,

This is the moment when you must pay attention,

When you must recognize it because you're touching it.

You're in a moment of opportunity.

This is not a bad thing.

Take the judgment away from it.

Please,

Please,

Please do yourself this favor.

Do not judge when these things happen.

When you see yourself in old behavior or pattern or reaction,

This is opportunity because you're touching it because it's in the way of the light that you are summoning,

That you are growing from within yourself.

And so,

Um,

Yeah,

It has to be touched.

It has to be brought to your attention so you can deal with it.

You can,

And you are in charge to do so.

Right.

Okay,

Good.

So from here,

Let's come back.

Let's come back to yourself in your wholeness.

And so from here you could,

Um,

You know,

First of all,

Draw from the past.

When in your life were you really happy?

Remember a time in your life when you were feeling very empowered and very strong or very creatively open and flowing or very trusting,

Very trusting in yourself,

Very trusting in life,

Right?

Very trusting in the universe,

Working with you and for you.

So go ahead and find moments and time and maybe even make yourself a list,

A list of the attributes that really worked for you,

Um,

That you feel like are a part of wholeness and your happy wholeness,

Your light wholeness,

Your empowered wholeness,

Your healthy relationship with yourself.

Right.

And so this also of course includes you remembering a time when you were super supportive of yourself and you believed in yourself and you really felt loving toward toward yourself.

And so go ahead and take a little time with this.

It's okay to sit with this and come back to it and keep a list going.

Ask into yourself,

Ask into your subconscious to bring up the memories of when you were authentically happy,

When you felt authentically centered and inspired and open and trusting and loving life.

Right.

Good.

And so from here,

Addressing the ones that maybe have not yet had those experiences all that much and maybe,

Um,

Are still looking to find those experiences,

To find this within yourself.

And so that is also possible.

And that is also to your doing,

To your choice,

Right?

At the tip of your fingertips.

That's how accessible this is to you.

That's how ready this world is to support you in your wholeness,

Because that's what this entire transformation of the self-worth is.

Transformation of this planet is about.

You are more supportive than you have ever been in your life.

So trust this support,

Trust this beautiful transformation that we're all going through right now.

And so in yourself,

In yourself,

Look for that place of love of trust deep down within your being deep down within your heart.

And you know who you are.

You know,

You are eternal infinite being just here for the blink of an eye moment in time playing this human character,

But you really are infinite possibility incarnated.

And so go ahead and find this belief within your heart.

Find this knowing this trust in your light within yourself,

Knowing that yes,

This is the truth of your essence.

This is the true identity.

And from the inside out,

Breathe into this part of you,

Breathe into this truth of you,

And then imagine visualize play,

Make,

Believe how you would be acting,

How you would be speaking,

How you would be choosing from this true place of you from this divinity that is you,

Right?

What would you do differently?

How would you take on life?

And so one thing that I can say off the bat is fearless.

You are fearless.

You are fearless from this place of wholeness.

You are fearless from your light.

You are fearless because there is nothing to fear.

There is literally nothing to fear.

So whatever,

What ifs and shoulda coulda woulda and worry and doubt thoughts and patterns you have been engaging,

They already are right there.

Not your friend.

Boom.

Just label them as red flag them as no no's big fat ugly no no's.

They're not your true self.

They're not your fearless infinite.

Beautiful potential.

Those are just patterns that you were conditioned to believe in.

So get very clear on what's not the true you.

Get very clear on what's not supporting you.

Get very clear on what's not loving you within yourself.

What are you still allowing?

What are you still indulging?

What are you still engaging within yourself that you might want to think about replacing?

You might want to think about restructuring.

You might want to think about re patterning.

Right?

And so from here,

Then go ahead and come back to breathing and feeling into your rightness,

Breathing and feeling into you,

Bringing your attention into yourself.

And from that place of love,

And from that place of acceptance,

Yielding inward,

Because that is the only way to get into your wholeness.

Remember,

So whenever you want to get dragged back into the outward view,

Right into the relationship with the illusion,

No,

No,

No,

First things first,

Keep coming back to you keep coming back to yourself,

Keep yielding back into yourself.

Because whatever is not working on the outside is something that you still need to address with in yourself.

Okay,

I know,

People don't really like to hear that.

But it's the truth.

It is the truth,

Whatever is not working on the outside,

And you've tried in many different ways in many different shapes and sizes,

Because believe me,

I've been there,

And I see it every day.

So turn your attention inward into yourself.

And so this is how you establish this beautiful relationship with yourself.

And this is how you nurture and you grow your wholeness.

Because you know what,

Patience,

Patience,

Patience is a virtue.

There is no button,

There is no on and off switch that you can expect for that to be happening just because you want to just because you're committing yourself to your light.

I'm it's work.

It's your work.

Because remember,

You have to do it,

You have to choose it,

You have to shift yourself.

And that's what will result in your empowerment.

That's what will result in your true ownership.

You have earned it.

Right.

And so this is why it is so important for you to realize that anybody out there who's assisting you on your journey,

That's wonderful.

And believe me,

That's what I do.

Right.

So yes,

I'm a big fan of that.

Get help,

Ask for help,

Commit yourself to the help.

Yes.

But the help doesn't do it for you.

It opens you and encourages you to be able to do it yourself.

Because somebody else doing it for you,

That's not gonna last.

Somebody else doing it for you.

It is like,

You know,

Telling your teenager,

Make good choices,

Right?

They don't hear that.

They need to experience it for themselves.

So they understand.

So they actually authentically get the lesson through the experience.

And so,

Us adults,

We're no different.

You can read the truth,

The essence of universal guidance in books,

Yes.

But in essence,

You have to do it.

You have to go through the experience and live it.

And you have to do it.

And you have to live it and choose it and make it so and then you are in it and then boom,

You own it.

And then you're like,

Oh,

Right.

Now I get what she was saying.

Now I actually feel authentic in this expansion in this growth in this new sense of self as you are evolving,

Right.

And so remember,

You're growing into your wholeness.

It's a journey.

And there is always more.

So start with the inward yielding to want to quiet your mind to follow your breath.

Let the thoughts float by like clouds in the sky,

You are not your thoughts.

You must create space between you yourself,

Your breath,

Your light and the thoughts.

You've got to distance yourself so that you can actually hear yourself and feel your rightness in here that inner voice so that you can support it and feel and hear what it is that you need and what it is you want and what it is you're longing for.

Right?

Because your brain is just repeating old tapes,

Old patterns,

Old thought creations that are programmed.

So when your brain is telling you to do something,

Because that's what you should do.

And that's what you now need to do,

Because your brain says so because of old experience.

You got to recognize that for Okay,

So but that's not my identity.

That's not my true self.

That's not my infinite creator,

My eternal light being.

Your thoughts are human conditioning,

Far,

Far from your eternal light.

Okay,

Okay.

Okay,

Good.

So now from here back into the breath back into inward yielding back into nurturing your relationship with yourself.

Listening to your self,

Feeling yourself,

Feeling your rightness,

Feeling what feels right and wrong and good and bad.

And so really getting into the habit of creating this relationship with yourself first,

Right?

And so the stronger you are nurturing this relationship with yourself of listening to yourself and feeling yourself and honoring what it is that you're hearing,

And honoring what it is you're feeling and trusting that and supporting that you already feel stronger,

You already feel more empowered,

Because you're letting that energy be within yourself,

You're percolating now within yourself,

You're opening to your light,

You're opening to your divinity.

Then from here,

As we've said before,

You know,

You're growing now from the inside out,

You're summoning your light,

Because you're listening,

You're feeling and that's what activates your light.

So as you're now beginning to fill in,

And as you're now beginning to grow from the inside out,

You must pay attention to whenever you feel a need,

A dependency,

An urgency,

Right?

This this anxiety,

Coming up from within you that you need you need you have to you have to anxiously needing to fill a void or attach as a solution to somebody or something on the outside.

So from here,

Pay attention to when that happens,

Pay attention to when that occurs.

And again,

No judgment.

Breath,

Breath,

Come into your breath.

And just notice it,

Our breath is it,

Observe it.

And then go ahead and lean into it.

Go ahead and touch it.

Go ahead and feel into it.

What is this need?

What is this anxiety wanting?

What is this dependency,

This seeming solution to be given to me from somebody or something on the outside?

How come I'm putting all of my energy and dependency on to this person or situation?

And so just work with it slowly,

Slow down,

No rushing this at all.

Massage it,

Get to know it,

Feel it,

Let it take you into its origin,

Let it take you into its onset.

Where is this need coming from?

When did I ever learn to place all of my power onto the outside?

Depending on a person or situation?

When did I learn that?

How did I learn that?

Did somebody teach that to me?

Or was that my own conclusion?

Because of a drama or trauma?

Right?

So spend a little time with it,

Resonate with it.

Let it unfold.

Sometimes the answers don't come right away.

Sometimes you will have a moment of,

Wow,

Aha,

A flash,

A memory,

A Oh,

Wow,

There it is.

And so the more space you have created between you and your thoughts,

The easier it will be for you to find the onset for you to find and uncover and dig up when that happened and how it happened and why it happened.

And so this acknowledgement,

This realization,

This tending to this old energy and then realizing that,

Okay,

Well,

Now that I know how this happened,

Let's go ahead and let's forgive that.

And let's go ahead and let's tell myself that,

So this is how this happened.

Yes.

And that was appropriate at the time.

Yes.

And so from here,

Come here,

Let me love you.

Let me tell you that.

Let's do it this way.

Let's shift it.

Let's change it because there is not just one person or one situation or ever one solitary experience on the outside for you to ever be depending on.

That's the beauty of infinite possibilities.

The more you connect with yourself as infinite possibility on the infinite possibility on the inside,

The more this truth reveals and unfolds right in front of your eyes on the outside within the illusion,

Because guess what?

This is a huge world and this is a magnificent and generous universe.

And so the more you are.

Shining your light,

Your love,

Your unconditional acceptance into all the defenses and all the walls into all of the shutdown into all of the fear patterns,

The dependency onto the outside,

The need,

The mistrust,

The more you shine your light into these patterns that you have put there.

The more open and whole you become and the more you do,

The more you will see and feel and know authentically the experience of yes,

Your work is paying off and all that brilliance and all that glorious infinite possibility you is now reflecting and attracting itself on the outside.

But you've got to do the work.

See these old walls,

These old energies,

These old patterns.

Um,

You know,

If you don't address them,

They don't just go away.

They don't just disappear.

You know?

Um,

So focusing onto your wholeness and summoning from within you,

Your true self,

Your true identity,

That beautiful,

Infinite,

Eternal being that you really are is one aspect,

One part to the work,

But then recognizing where old automatic pilot disempowering patterns show up in relationship to the illusion.

That's the other part to the work.

That's where you then get to be your light,

Your eternal,

Infinite creator self.

And you get to say,

Oh,

Okay.

Now I see it so much more clearly.

This is disempowering me.

This is not serving me anymore.

Let's heal it.

Let's love it.

Let's shift it.

Let's give it all the attention,

All the little thing,

All the love,

All the forgiveness that it needs for it to be calm,

To join your wholeness.

Cause that's really what wholeness is.

It is you integrating all parts of you.

It is you bringing all parts of you into the oneness that you are.

It is you that is the oneness that you are.

It is you opening your arms to all of yourself,

Even the parts of you that you're ashamed of,

Even the parts of you that you didn't like and buried deep,

Deep in the past,

Ever to be revealed ever to anybody again,

Those parts of you are there waiting in silence,

In darkness.

And those parts of you are all there to be healed by you,

To be loved by you,

To be reunited with you and shifted and illuminated.

Rejoining your beautiful light.

And that is how you create your wholeness.

That is how you manifest your wholeness.

Right?

And so again,

It's not about what happened in the past with other people and what they did or didn't do.

It's about you taking responsibility.

It's about you being that eternal,

Infinite possibility,

Loving self with yourself,

With these other parts of you that still are longing for nurture,

That still are longing for attention,

That still are longing for love.

And you and only you can heal those parts of you.

Only you can bring them into your heart and forgive whatever the perception,

Whatever the misperception,

Whatever the wall,

Whatever the coping mechanism,

Whatever it was,

Whatever the wounding.

It is up to you to love it healed,

To reunite it with yourself,

With your beautiful,

Loving,

Forgiving,

Accepting,

Eternal creator self.

Integrating all parts of you,

All energies that are within you,

That you need to want to address so that you can bring them into wholeness.

So,

Um,

Yes.

Wow.

Okay.

Let me just see.

Okay.

So this oneness,

Of course,

Quickly,

As we're already time flies.

Um,

So one more,

One more thing here.

So this wholeness within,

Right,

Of course,

Is also what we could consider oneness.

And so this wholeness within yourself,

The more you focus on it within yourself,

And the more you yield inwardly,

And the more you summon your light,

And the more you address your feeling and listening and hearing of yourself inside,

The more you will be able to do that for others.

And your relationships will become much more powerful and much more meaningful and deep.

And you will want to be in,

You will attract people to you new relationships that are of so much more depth,

Right?

Because as you grow in your wholeness,

You deepen,

You become much deeper and you are then going to again,

What you are within.

That's what you will bring to you on the outside.

And so you will have rich and fulfilling relationships and that old sense of need.

And,

Um,

You know,

Fear of loneliness,

All of that is just really kind of like,

Um,

Become a memory of the past,

But you will still be able to remember it enough so that you can relate.

You can relate to people.

And so you will have a sense of need for people that are still suffering from this insatiable lack,

Looking to fill itself with the illusion.

Good.

So from here,

I am going to leave it at that.

And,

Um,

I want to give big,

Big,

Love and big hugs out to you.

And,

Um,

Yeah,

Thank you.

Thank you for joining me.

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