Strengthening Our Inner Masculine For Perfect Balance

It is our feminine that is rising these days - the ability to listen, to trust, to allow chaos, and embrace the unknown. To do this, we need an equally strong inner masculine. We need to trust ourselves, create structure, strength and protection that allow us to truly expand into our true selves. This was originally a live talk here on Insight Timer.

Transcript

All right,

So today what we're gonna do is we're gonna do our talk about Strengthening the inner masculine and then I'd like to do a short meditation at the end to bring that together to really connect our inner masculine with our inner feminine and And that's the plan that's our masculine structure for our talk today All right So I've talked a lot about the masculine and feminine here on insight timer and But just in case you're new to what I mean by this I don't mean masculine male Feminine female this isn't about gender This is about the yin-yang balance within and it's even more than that because sometimes the yin and yang symbol can feel static it can feel like ah yes,

The Sun part of me is the yang and the moon part of me is the yin and this is my perfect balance and it's sort of this the balance in all things and As as challenging as the words masculine and feminine are because they're so gender oriented and because our world has had such a Dysfunctional Patriarchal system and again not about men a A Patriarchy in this sense like a dysfunctional patriarchy Isn't about who's in charge?

It's not a question of our men in charge,

Or is it a matriarchy that women are in charge?

That's not that's not what I mean.

I mean a system of control Where it isn't about connection.

It's about separation and This is what we've actually been living in for millennia That we do interact as two beings But because the theme was separation and control All of our ideas of masculine feminine yin and yang went awry everything it's like We all exist in unity.

We all exist as one we truly are we can feel that here gathering together We can feel a common heart we can feel a common Spirit running through everybody here right now We know this this is true Yet we also are all very separate We all are liver literally living in different spaces and times We are all over the world Some of us are already in tomorrow some of us are You know behind we are literally in different times and different spaces in different incarnations This is duality we get to experience each other we can experience the oneness and We get to experience what it is to interact the masculine and feminine dynamic is simply our Desperate attempt at finding words to describe how we interact with each other That's all almost like the masculine feminine poles of a Magnet or the positive and negative poles of a magnet How do they draw together or the masculine end of a plug going into a socket?

How do they go together?

It's really not more interesting than that There are times when it may show up in genders,

But that's not what we're talking about today There may be times when what we're talking about today shows up in all relationships regardless of orientation that there is a polarity that Strengthens one of us that it's actually really fun To stretch ourselves into the full masculine or stretch ourselves into the full feminine in relationship That is real and it's very possible that a lot of what we're gonna talk about today.

You'll feel that sort of expand into ideas and relationships with others But today we're talking about how it plays out inside of us how because we too are in duality You know we have left and right we have positive and negative We have hopes and dreams and we have fears and challenges.

We also live in duality right inside of us So when we actually have this masculine feminine dynamic inside of us in harmony in Connection that it supports each other That the feminine within us feeds the masculine and the masculine feeds the feminine and then we become bigger and stronger and more confident and happier and more ecstatic humans This is the goal when we You know how in yoga we often have this posture where we bring our two opposite selves together and Then we set this in front of our heart center This posture literally is bringing our two sides together our positive negative masculine feminine Physical non-physical all these things right in front of our heart chakra Like this posture alone if you ever do it in meditation or yoga This is such an ultimate balancing posture You know we just call it prayer pose or we call it namaskar.

We call it whatever we want to call it But this this finding this balance within is so powerful and then when we find it within Then we'll have the courage and the strength and the know-how To then play with other people But it's very hard to play in a masculine feminine dynamic with others if inside My masculine doesn't trust my feminine or my feminine doesn't trust my masculine or they're disconnected Or one of them's been sent to their room indefinitely Because you know they say that we sort of manifest outside what's going on inside You know it was one of the big things I That happened for me when I was first single was You know I would be dating and the words that came out of my mouth once.

I don't know who I was talking to some interesting Intuitive human I said What's wrong with the men out there?

They're all just so broken This is what I said,

And the woman just looked at me and went You want to repeat that Katrina?

I was like oh Oh That's me It's my masculine.

It's me.

It wasn't about anyone else in the world It was my masculine.

It was my connection.

It was my distrust it was my not showing up for me it was my not doing it and that's actually when I decided to go sell a bit and I just I talked about this in my book tantric intimacy that I actually said okay Then what what what am I actually looking for then I need to become that inside Forget about everybody else.

I can't keep blaming everyone else for the fact that I'm not I don't have it inside of me so So some of the dynamics of the masculine and feminine that I'm talking about again Some of you guys have heard a lot of this because we've done a lot of talks on this for example The masculine and feminine might be the masculine structure to the feminine chaos or the masculine protection to the feminine vulnerability Masculine giving to the feminine receiving the masculine kind of showing up in our weak times so I have to tell you guys a funny story that Years ago I decided to do a tough mutter and If you don't know what a tough mutter is later Go to YouTube and just search for tough mutter.

M-u-d-d-e-r It is the most insane obstacle course I Think on the planet you actually it's so hard.

It's it's it's about raising money for Wounded vets wounded veterans.

So it is about taking you to your very edge of all of your fears of all of your Whatever edge you have it's gonna take you there and it's really beautiful Like you don't leave anyone in the field you help each other teams help each other Like it's very very amazing and very difficult and and I'm not an athletic person That's not it's just not my wiring.

It's healthy when I'm athletic,

But it's not my wiring by a long shot so when I got asked to join a team to do it and the little voice inside of me said You're doing this.

I was like,

Oh My gosh because it was like running.

I Think it was maybe 16 miles I think it was maybe it was 12 miles 16 kilometers or something But it wasn't just straight it was up and down a ski hill.

We ran up and down ski hills six times big ones like diet black diamond ski hills and We did 24 different really difficult Obstacles so anyway,

And it was cold.

It was like May 10th I don't know how long ago this was it must have been maybe eight years ago anyway We go through all it was so cold and we were wet and we were frozen like it man It was up and down the ski hill.

So there's actually snow on the hill and we're running wet.

Anyway,

A little wine fest So one one of the exercises one of the one of the obstacles We get to the top of the mountain after like the third time and I'm exhausted Like I am I couldn't run 12 miles on Flat earth let alone straight up a black diamond ski hill like not a chance,

Right?

And anyway,

So I'm exhausted inside and The obstacle we had to do all we had to do was slide down This sheet of ice It was like this huge rubber mat going down the hill and it was covered in ice and then there was a snow Snowbank at the bottom and realize we're just in t-shirts and shorts like it's not like we're actually dressed for winter or anything like that and we're soaking wet because a lot of the exercises are cold water Like I've told you guys one of them like the second obstacle.

I think the first obstacle we had to climb some eight-foot thing and then the second obstacle was called the Arctic enema where you had to stand on the edge and jump into a Huge vat which was over my head of ice water with like two feet of ice floating in the top Which was my ultimate fear of the whole thing was this ice water because I don't like cold water Anyway,

So you're cold and wet and running and exhausted and blah blah blah so I get to the top of the mountain and we have to slide down this ice and I think Well,

This is easy Like this has got to be the easiest one yet,

Right?

So I'm like so happy all I have to do is sit down and slide down the mountain Well,

Unfortunately,

I was cold enough and wet enough that as I slid down the mountain My butt and the backs of my legs froze solid like Froze I couldn't believe it by the time I hit the snowbank at the bottom.

I couldn't walk and I kind of kind of like robotically stood up But my butt was like a brick ice or an ice brick It was just it just wouldn't move and I stood there Thinking I can't I can't move my body.

I am frozen like I'm actually physically frozen But the wild thing is my body Started to run without me.

It just started to run and It was the first time I'd ever felt that I'd ever felt my body sort of go forth without the rest of me and it just started running and I was sort of just observing my body doing this thinking well,

That's really good and I Was pretty happy that I wasn't gonna have hypothermia or something like that but my body kept running and I was sort of so weak that I just allowed it and Then we got to a certain point where I had feeling back in my legs I could feel my butt and you know hypothermia the threat of hypothermia had passed and I was sort of back in my whole body So at the time I Just sort of interpreted as my primal self in pure self-preservation You know just this girl's gonna die.

She's gotta run.

She's got to move,

You know but this story came to me this morning while I was pondering our talk and In a lot of ways that also was my masculine That was my protective self saying come on.

Let's go.

I know you're hurting I know you mentally can't do it.

You're emotionally can't do it.

You are not going to Summon the power to get yourself out of this.

So I'm gonna carry you and This is really something inside and again I'm not talking like we don't want to extend this relationships or anything right now to really feel this inside of us to imagine that the masculine inside of us is there to help and This is one of the great Damages this is one of the great wounds that we have inside from this weird controlling separate System we've been living in is that we don't trust our own masculine Right,

We have guards up we don't trust our own inner strength,

We don't trust that we will show up for ourselves and protect ourselves and There's a lot of reasons for that one because historically we haven't protected ourselves And we haven't even been allowed to We've been forced to sit when we didn't want to sit We've been forced to be quiet when we should have been defending ourselves.

We've been forced to stay when we should have run there's a lot of weird things that like I remember even When I was young I was sexually abused by a neighbor and I remember like being I was seven and I remember Not knowing what to do because You're not allowed to talk back to an adult You're not allowed to run.

You're not allowed to escape.

You're not allowed to do that you just have to put up with it and That and again,

That's kind of a creepy story but in a lot of ways that permeates into so much of our relationships in our partnerships in our Boss in our in our workplaces all these things that our true human spirit the warrior inside of us says no But society has said now you be quiet You just put up with this We've been disconnected from that warrior inside that will carry us to safety if we let them And this is a really big deal Because without that how can we be vulnerable?

With how with it?

How can we take a chance if we don't trust that we will show up for ourselves if things go wrong You know and this is to me from in my world.

This was a very subtle.

It's a very subtle things like I'm saying them Like it's just oh,

It's so black and white But these are very subtle things One of the thing big reasons that I really want to talk about this today is that We talk a lot about the rising of the feminine in the world right now,

Which makes a lot of sense Which makes a lot of sense right because because of this weird system We've been living in and regardless of gender regardless of orientation regardless of all of these things We all have been living within this soup Whether we're men or women or what we all are struggling with this disconnection You know whether we we desire to be in the masculine in relationship we desire to be in the feminine We desire to manifest we desire to hear our inner feminine It's a very curious disconnect inside That is really really common So when all of a sudden we say all right,

We've got a we've got to strengthen our feminine I've got to learn to hear my emotions.

I've got to learn to hear my intuition I've got to allow wildness and chaos in my life.

I've got to allow myself to receive from the universe I have to start being in my feminine right this is what we talk about But if we do this disconnected from our masculine it won't work We need to build our feminine and our inner masculine all at the same time so that we stay in balance Balance is bliss.

Sometimes we think balance is boring or something But it's not Balance is strength Balance is is is homeostasis.

It's see all these words sound so boring,

But it's real inner peace Right,

It's uh It's like I have this vision of this,

You know Kung-fu master and he sits in perfect balance And he observes he's in perfect feminine observing watching receiving Everything around him and as soon as something is needed He moves he manifests he does Returns to balance but it's all in balance,

Right?

He moves based on what he hears Everything is in balance.

It's when we feel fully alive Right,

So it's a very interesting thing.

We don't want to disconnect from the masculine We need to reconnect to the masculine and the stronger our masculine is on the inside The more effortless our feminine will flow for all of us all gender all gender Expressions doesn't even we don't even have to go into binary things.

This is just being human right so for example one of the big things that we look at in terms of learning to express our feminine is learning to feel How do I really feel right now How do I feel when that happens?

How do I really feel about that thing in the past?

How do I really feel like this is our deep connection to truth?

What if I have trauma what if I have stuff I need to work through and I don't want to bury it any longer I don't want to keep it hidden I don't want to keep it in the basement poking at me all the time at the most inopportune moments.

I Want to be able to feel it Well,

Then all we need is to have a strong masculine inside of us That we trust that will hold space for our feelings It's like the masculine holds the container and says all right Go just like a good friend.

Sometimes it's an inner of a journey.

Sometimes we find a good friend to share with but the inner masculine holds the container and says how do you really feel I've got you and Maybe you crash and burn you know,

I I Feel really great right now.

I'm in a really great space.

I'm really happy But I mean you guys a lot of you guys have been with me for a while and a couple months ago Oh my gosh,

Maybe a month ago.

I just went through this time that I Don't even remember what it was now,

But I was I think I was angry I was sad I was heartbroken I just had all this stuff going on and if there's anything I'm really thankful for is I really do dive into those emotions.

I Don't pretend I'm okay.

I mean I even told you guys,

You know that I was really crappy It's having oh I remember now I think the police were looking for me or something and I was having an existential crisis and it was the it's the last thing that I could handle that day or something and But I just dove into the crisis Because I deeply knew That I'd come out of it You know,

It's almost like I had this this strong friend sitting inside of me saying keep going Go all the way to the bottom of it.

Let's find out what's really in the bottom of this Pit I'll pull you out.

Don't worry.

Even if you got to stay down there for days.

I'll pull you out Don't worry And I have deep faith in my inner masculine that no matter how deep I go into the chaos of my daughter Would come over and do we do jigsaw puzzles together there's kind of a eternal jigsaw puzzle going on my kitchen counter and I remember one day she came over and I'm like and she's like How are you doing today mom?

She knew I was in a crash and burn mode and I was like I kind of need to vent a bit more.

She was okay giver So it's one of those things that the deeper we feel I mean the stronger we are the deeper we can feel Right.

So this is a huge deal.

And again,

We don't have to like dive in right away We just have to know what that feels like and even say you're in meditation to sit in meditation and think Can I be a strong space Can I return to stillness even if I'm super emotional super sad grieving super angry Righteous wherever we're wherever we're going with it.

What if we feel incredible guilt about something?

Can I also hold space for that and let me explore it?

Without That strong masculine we just crash and burn We need to be able to have that within Another big one about really Exploring the feminine.

This is a big one in relationships is to be able to be vulnerable To be able to actually show our Gentle self with others to actually be able to admit that I'm hurting or I'm Whatever whatever my vulnerable truth is in the moment Well The masculine Partner of this is the protector So again within us do we protect our vulnerable side Or do we throw our pearls before the swine and they trample them?

I Love being vulnerable there is nothing I love more whether we are friends lovers family is Just to be allowed and feel free to just pour my heart out No holds barred But I don't do that with everyone If someone isn't safe if someone I don't know has other issues or other ideas about you know me or what things should be like or whatever I Also have a polite face which is my masculine protector that says oh right interesting Well,

I hope you have a great day Keep walking You know or if someone was to be a little bit more or if someone was to say something to me that was mean It's like no That's not okay You know that's not okay because I don't want to put up a wall inside of me.

I want to stay vulnerable I want to stay open.

I want to stay.

I don't want to have to put that wall up inside So you know what I'm not gonna get damaged by you either and I'm gonna put a protector So then all of a sudden what happens when I am really strong in that when I have a really strong inner protector That I have a strong no Right that's really what a protector does no no no no no what I said was no No is a full sentence here when I have that All of a sudden if I'm in relationship It becomes really clear when people aren't honoring boundaries And they're not listening and they're not paying attention And they're trying to control it becomes so it's almost becomes a visceral truth It becomes something that you don't even have to intellectualize your whole body goes whoa Whoa,

What's what's happening here?

Like okay everybody stop,

And if they try to like talk their way out of it.

You're like okay.

I I know what you're saying but everything inside of me knows that this is not safe and I'm not answering any more of your questions because this is the interesting thing about Vulnerability is sometimes what people will do is they'll ask you questions That are very personal,

But they're only asking To kind of almost use it against you maybe they want to fight.

Maybe they want to debate a topic.

Maybe they wanna Who knows what they want?

But I remember when I was really young I read a book and They talked about inappropriate questions Because of course in my deep training of My politeness training you always answer every question anyone asks of you and Whoever this was that taught me this they said no no you don't have to answer inappropriate questions You don't have to answer questions that just lead to a fight You don't have to answer anything like you actually can have discernment and Just say You can want everything anything you want,

But it's almost like someone's reaching inside to you,

And you're saying yeah I don't want to give that and they just want to reach in any way,

And it's like yet now you're crossing a boundary I've said no,

And this is new like again like for someone like me who just loved being polite and liked you know people pleasing And all that to be able to just look at someone and not answer their questions I'm not gonna share my vulnerable self with you Right I think the the example that the person gave in whatever the book was that I was reading was imagine Johnny it's always Johnny was it going to school and and Johnny's dad was an alcoholic and it was a small town and his teacher was a real busybody in the town and She asked Johnny as he walked in so Johnny is your dad still drinking Is that is Johnny obligated to answer her It's none of her business She's not asking for his well-being.

She's not going to take action about it She's she's not asking for any good reason She's just being nosy So what does Johnny say no my dad's doing great And it was the first example that I kind of went huh Even honesty is not that black and white Especially in the land of inappropriate questions,

Which is fascinating to me.

I love when things get a little blurry Especially in things like that That his masculine was allowed to rise and say Here's what you can hear and it's all I'm gonna tell you very cool very cool So one of the other things I want to talk about is Allowing ourselves to live in chaos allowing ourselves to live in timelessness One of the reasons I planned this talk I told some of you guys a week or so ago a couple weeks ago It's really weird experience because My whole life I've been very responsible Very left-brained in many ways that here's the system here's what I'm gonna do here and I always show up always responsible no matter what it is and And and I was very proud of being able to be depended on In the last month like so maybe this was two weeks ago,

I told you guys that I Do a lot of one-on-one sessions with people I do energy good readings through insight timer here you know all kinds of things in my personal practice and I had missed three sessions with people one that was organized through insight timer and two privately Because of course they aren't people aren't knocking on my door.

It's all through zoom and if I happen to be floating in timelessness Just all of a sudden I come back to you know the 3d world and it's two hours past the time and I'm like like I was Devastated like just devastated that that I did this and then through insight timer We had to we had to I get this message from them saying hey,

How come he didn't show up and I was like,

Oh I did it again.

That was the third time and I was absolutely beside myself like beside myself that I had done this and and one of the challenges for me was that I I Have been really I've been in a really creative space because I'm creating these big Big online programs and when I'm in that space I do sort of go into this timeless creative I don't even know what day it is space But that doesn't work when I'm still actually living in the world interacting with people and making plans and making promises right and So I Sat with myself.

I was so upset and I prayed or I meditated and I sat there and I was like and the answer was Girl,

You need yourself a bit of masculine That was the message to self and then as I kind of laughed about it and I started setting up excellent Systems of alarms and things like that when I knew something was coming and all right,

Here's the system I'm gonna put in place so that I definitely don't meet it.

I thought okay,

Maybe we'll do talk about this because I'm sure I'm not alone in this desire for a wonderful masculine within that I can depend on so that I can float in timelessness and chaotic creation in between right Another big partnership within between the masculine and feminine is we speak a lot about feminine intuition feminine insight feminine wisdom Listening deep within to our truth listening to what is the next step on our path?

This is deeply feminine because we're receiving information We're receiving information from the universe from this situation from our highest self.

We're listening deeply the partner to insight is manifestation We can have all the great ideas in the world.

We can receive whatever guidance we want But if we don't do anything with it if we don't actually bring it down into the physical world It's of no earthly value Then we just talk we talk and talk and talk and we tell ourselves things we make lists Which make us feel like we've done it But we haven't done it.

We have to do it We have to do the thing if we sit quietly and we ask for guidance and the guidance is Go for a walk every day Start with ten minutes Start with half an hour or the guidance is give up sugar for a while or Do yoga every day?

For a month or something,

Maybe that's the guidance and So for a little while we think oh,

Yeah,

That's a great idea and the next morning comes we wake up And we don't do it So it doesn't matter what the insight was.

It's irrelevant.

It doesn't have a partner.

It doesn't actually manifest in the world This is the masculine and this is a really really big one Sometimes we don't do it out of fear.

Sometimes we don't do it because we're afraid of change Sometimes we don't do it because we're stuck in a rut who knows why there's a million reasons why we don't manifest But this one when we actually let our masculine It's like the lead follow thing.

The feminine has asked for this Let the masculine do it Let the masculine Put on our running shoes and go running let the masculine put out your yoga mat and do the yoga like that's the that's the actual play in life and This is a really big deal because this is what makes us feel alive This is what makes us feel like we actually exist on the planet.

I received an idea and I did it.

I Received another idea and I did it This is when that yin-yang that masculine feminine Dances together and we feel alive and we feel like we matter and we have confidence in life And we walk around the world and it doesn't even matter if what we did worked out But this isn't like a success thing.

This isn't like we're not counting our Our successes and saying ah,

I had this great inspiration I manifested this thing and now I have this great story to tell that's not the point The point is the energy of the dance The point is I had this great idea.

I tried it.

Wow,

That was really entertaining didn't quite work out the way I thought but wow what an amazing experience it was to try to manifest this amazing thing inside of me and Then maybe another idea comes and maybe I try that and maybe I have another idea and I try that It doesn't matter whether it was successful or not.

It doesn't matter what the end point was.

This is what makes us feel alive Right you ever talked to someone like,

You know,

Not that I talked to or if you read about someone like Richard Branson You know Virgin Airlines Virgin Records Virgin Telecom all these things for all the things that you've ever heard that he accomplished He literally has ten times as many businesses that failed all that started with a virgin something Because he just loves manifesting He loves having a great idea and then letting his masculine self do the math figure out the plan.

Okay,

Let's do it Let's do it It's just fun.

This is like just being alive like we've been so Trained that all that if you do something,

You'd better get the a you'd better be perfect You'd better be the best it had better make money.

It had better be whatever and because we're so afraid of that's the failure or I don't know what other people would think all this fear.

We don't manifest and so again we Disconnect from the masculine part of us that wants to do the math that wants to do the heavy lifting So it's like getting up in the morning like one of the reasons I'm really happy today is because I got up and I did yoga I Did I when I do that when I really listen and I do the yoga.

I I feel like a million bucks all day,

But I'll tell you five seconds before I actually decided to let my masculine step in and roll my you know put my well,

It's just a yoga cushion I Wasn't sure and in that moment,

How did I feel weak?

Right,

I felt I don't know like I was in a rut like maybe I wasn't gonna do it Maybe I wasn't gonna show up for myself today all these weird things And then this little voice said come on let's do it let's let's do it Another funny story from the Tough Mudder one of the things I love about it is that they again You don't leave a man in the field,

Right?

Everyone's in it together.

So shortly after this trek with my frozen bottom and frozen legs We had to run along a flat for a while and It was really muddy.

It was spring there had already been I Don't know five thousand people through the course by the time I got to this spot It had rained it was like it had rained and the snow had melted so the ground was really Soppy and wet so it literally was a Tough Mudder like we were caked in muck,

Right?

And And so I'm running along on this flat and I'm just dying like I am emotionally finished It's probably only halfway through by the end,

I don't even know if I was really human I I'm so proud that I finished uninjured but holy mackerel I swear I had like this some sped up dark nights of the soul all the way through So at one point I'm running through this muck like in its muck like,

You know when you're running through mud and it's about a foot thick and as your foot goes down into it,

It does that and then as you pull out you're like And it's got to pull your foot out and it's more likely that it's just gonna suck your shoes right off of you That's the kind of muck it was and I'm running and it's just like down into this thing and I'm already emotionally at the end of myself I'm physically tired.

I'm cold.

I am NOT a happy camper So I'm standing there and I start swearing like I mean cursing like a sailor like just Fucking son fucking like just cursing I'm so mad and all of a sudden These two guys come running up behind me how they were running through this.

I have no idea They came running up behind me scooped me under the arms.

I have no idea who these two people are Like they were strangers.

They were just other people other participants They came up behind me hooked me under the shoulders and said come on,

Darling We're not leaving anyone out here and they just carried me and of course as they pulled me out one of my shoes came off and I'm like swearing like just swearing like a sailor and they grabbed my shoe carried me to this part of the thing that wasn't so deep muck and I put my shoe on he's they like Have a good race.

We'll see you later and they took off and I just sat there going Like what if we trusted our masculine that much Like what if no matter how many times we're like I can't do it I hate it I'm never gonna get out of this rut.

I'm never gonna change.

I don't I can't whatever but we actually realized that we've benched our strongest player and Then we kind of look at our strongest player who is our self and said All right All right,

You can play and they go yes.

Yes And they do the thing like this,

I don't know It's just a funny thing right that when we just let them play.

Oh my gosh life changes Then suddenly all of our wisdom matters all of our insight matters all of the amazing Intuition matters because it's all going to happen All of it it's just it's just It's so much fun then life becomes awesome because no matter what happens We know that you know what I'm gonna ask for guidance and then I'm gonna show up and I'm gonna make it happen What could we possibly be afraid of Right like life just becomes awesome and then you know what else we love ourselves Like this becomes this and not like I love myself like,

You know,

How you doing?

Aren't you pretty it's not like that It's like god,

I love being me I love this process.

I love this dance.

I don't even care what happens.

I just love being myself I love this process.

I love this dance.

I don't even care what happens.

I just I'm just really happy that I get to be alive right now So I actually want us to do a little meditation right now So,

Let's just sit up nice and tall Just close your eyes And I want you to imagine Imagine the Shiva Shakti energies within Shiva being the masculine Shakti being the feminine Right.

I want you to imagine that your body your physical body your manifest being Is the feminine Manifest being is the feminine that is Shakti your physical body Feels all the emotions it feels all The air around us it feels the food.

It feels everything it receives everything we give Really connect with that feminine Really connect with your body feel Your bottom sitting down feel your face your skin Be aware of all the organs in your body your skeleton your muscles your physical being Feel your thoughts your emotions your hopes your dreams your challenges your traumas your pain everything Everything this is all in your body in every cell In every cell And really connect with this who you really are Now feel your breath feel your breath moving through your body Feel your breath as the masculine spirit energy Power Feel how your breath touches every cell of your body Feel as you inhale the breath bringing prana into your body bringing life force into your body Mixing it with the blood and delivering it to your whole being Your masculine delivering nourishing life force to you Feel this never-ending breath whether we focus on it or not the breath is constant Whether we are happy whether we're sad whether we're struggling whether we're strong Every one of us has this beautiful masculine inside of us Always feeding the feminine always nourishing her Now imagine the cells of your body opening to that breath Opening even more to receive that prana to receive that light Feel all of your inner organs your liver your kidneys your organs your organs your organs your organs All of your inner organs your liver your kidneys your stomach everything feel them just opening receiving I don't know this these loving kisses of the inner masculine Feel the inner masculine flowing around your heart center listening listening to your deepest truth Listening to what your soul really desires Kind of circling saying anytime you want we'll make it happen I trust you I trust your wisdom I trust your intuition just just give me a sign and we'll do it Imagine this beautiful masculine even feeling in your body feeling your strong spine feeling this structure of even sitting and then feel the feminine body feel the feminine body moving in the breath feeling emotions flowing through you feeling thoughts and wonder and things flowing through and you holding space for that you being the container for everything that you are Because it's awesome everything flowing through you right now is amazing so I'm just let's just put this in.

Last minute Let's just sit in our own silence just for a minute,

Feeling that breath,

Feeling that masculine energy flowing through your feminine being.

We'll just breathe for a moment,

Letting them open to each other.

And just allowing that flow.

If you want to just tune out and sit in meditation,

That's awesome.

If you want to come back,

It's all good.

What if you feel,

Think your masculine is stronger than your feminine?

How do you strengthen your feminine?

The key,

If you feel your masculine is very strong,

Is that the masculine has to connect to the feminine.

The masculine only serves the feminine.

So if the masculine is strong without the feminine,

It's in a control mechanism.

It's in the disconnect.

So the key is for the masculine to be strong like a strong warrior and perpetually ask,

What can I do for you,

How can I serve you?

I just want to say this the first time I've ever opened up myself to this sort of masculine feminine language with spirituality.

Where you spoke it made me understand it wasn't something oppressive but helpful.

You're so welcome.

The truth is I'm so passionate about this masculine feminine.

I'm just,

I don't know,

It really started coming to me in this way a few years ago,

Maybe four years ago and I've created courses about it and all kinds of things and it's so important in tantra,

It's so important in that merging,

That true connection that we desire in relationships.

Again all orientations,

All gender expressions,

This is not about gender but it's so important and I felt that it's like the world wasn't ready yet because we struggled with the connection part.

We struggled with the love,

We struggled with the trust and because we've struggled with that so much we haven't been able to have this healthy masculine and feminine connection inside or with anyone else and I believe it's just what we deeply desire as humans and so I think that's why to really share this within in all the things that we have the power to make choice.

Right,

It has nothing to do with anyone else.

It's something all within how vulnerable I am with myself,

How strong I am,

How I show up for me,

All within my own strength and I guess maybe that's just where we start and then we slowly bring that out into the world and we learn to trust and we learn to be open,

We learn to recognize safety and true connection,

Then we get to dance with others and really enjoy this amazing world of duality.

Thank you so much for being here.

I hope you have a wonderful day or evening and I will see you soon.

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