Hello and thanks for joining me for this attachment based meditation.
We will explore triggers that come up and how that relates to your early childhood attachments and how that's informing your life at the moment.
So go ahead and find a position that feels nurturing to you.
It could be sitting,
It could be laying down.
And close your eyes if you feel safe.
Go ahead and take a deep breath,
A nice deep inhale and a sigh.
Notice if you have any hesitation or reservations that come up.
As we move through this,
There's no right or wrong.
You're not doing it a certain way.
It's really about noticing the experience and what comes up for you.
So go ahead and think about a time you were triggered in the past week.
And ideally this trigger would feel familiar to you.
So some emotions that could feel familiar could be lonely,
Overwhelmed,
Hurt,
Intimidated,
Rejected,
Sad,
Confused,
Helpless,
Ashamed.
There's many more as well.
So go ahead and pick one.
I'll give you a few more moments to identify that.
And check in.
Is this feeling familiar?
If it's not,
Pick something else.
If it is,
Start to notice that thread,
That pattern.
Like when was the last time you felt it before the past week?
How often do you feel it?
And start to be open to exploring what story there is related to this triggered emotion.
Often we have a story that we tell ourself that comes from our early childhood.
So see if there's a story that starts to cultivate for you.
And the story could be,
I'm not worthy or I'm too much.
Once you identify that story,
See if you can imagine yourself,
Say from like 5 to 12 years old.
Is there any time within that span that this story and this feeling feels familiar to you?
And see how far back you can go with it.
The further back the better.
And once you're there,
See what happened.
Explore.
Explore where that story came from.
Your earliest memory that you have of it.
Who told you something?
Why did you feel the way that you felt?
And so diving into this can bring up things in your own body.
So notice what's happening physically in your body as you explore this.
There's no right or wrong.
And start to become attuned to how that story from that time when you were a child became a pattern.
How did you keep identifying with it?
Often we adapt to meet our environment.
It's a very intelligent tool that we have.
And at some point it becomes outdated and it stops serving us.
So whatever that story is,
If you're feeling triggered now,
It's probably outdated and you don't need it anymore.
And so once you've identified this,
You can start to make sense of it,
Which starts the healing process.
And so now that you have this new awareness in your life,
And you've brought your,
You've noticed where it shows up in your body,
The next time you're triggered,
And you feel that sensation like that clenching in your chest or the lump in your throat,
You can be like,
Oh,
This is more than just this moment.
There's this whole history that comes with this.
And I've identified the earliest memory that I have of this feeling.
And so the more you can start to make sense of that story and that narrative,
The more you can manage your emotions and be triggered to a lesser capacity or not at all.
It takes time.
So be patient with yourself.
You can come back to this as many times as you want.
Sometimes also finding a therapist to explore this content with further can be incredibly helpful.
So bringing yourself now back into the present moment.
Noticing the space in this room that you take up.
And tune into your breath.
Take a nice deep inhale and an exhale.
Allow your eyes to open whenever you feel ready.
And good work.
This is not easy to look at things deeply.
You did it.
I'm very proud.
