Hello my beautiful soul and welcome to this guided meditation.
My name is Julia Bonder and I am a Transformational Life Coach and Reiki Master and Teacher and I am extremely grateful to guide you here today.
Today's meditation is all about reparenting and healing our childhood wounds.
Reparenting is learning to become a parent to yourself.
It's about learning to give yourself the support you may not have received as a child.
And I believe that every child deserves to be seen,
Loved and taken care of.
So in this meditation today we are going to visit some of your memories in the past where you didn't receive the proper attention,
Proper support and proper care.
So if you are ready to embark on this beautiful journey,
Find a comfortable space for yourself.
It may be lying down or seated on the chair or in a lotus position.
And slowly close your eyes.
Try to connect now with your breathing.
Inhale through your nose and exhale through your mouth.
Inhale hold and exhale release all your worries,
All your thoughts.
Few more breaths here,
Connecting with your inner self,
Your body is relaxing,
Your mind is getting clear,
All your thoughts are disappearing.
And now take a last deep inhale and with the exhale release everything what you don't need right now.
And now you are fully relaxed and ready to meet and heal yourself.
Yourself as a little kid and you are ready to become a parent to yourself.
I'd like to invite you now,
Staying with your eyes closed,
To imagine a time line of your life.
This time line can be a different color,
A different texture,
But this line goes all the way forward.
So give yourself some time right now to sit,
Sit in front of you and you are standing on the top of this line.
And where are you right now?
It is your present.
The front is your future and this line is so,
So long you can't see the end.
And behind you is your past.
So now take a deep breath in and on your breath out turn around towards your past and let the look behind you at the line which leads you all the way down into your memories,
Memories of your past.
Every day you start walking down the line.
You are above it and you walk slowly in your past.
And allow yourself right now to remember one of the events or situations in your childhood.
The event which was not really pleasant for you,
Which was perhaps even traumatic.
And where you didn't receive enough support,
Enough love,
Enough attention from your parents or your guardians.
Just give yourself some time and allow the memory slowly appear in front of you.
Keep breathing,
Stay connected with your breath and ask your higher self to show you the memory,
To show you that situation which has to be healed today.
And seeing this situation make sure you are staying an observer,
Make sure you are looking at it from this side.
You are not connecting with it,
You are not diving into this,
You are not associating yourself with it.
You are just looking at this event as you are watching a movie on the cinema screen.
So just connect with the situation,
Just look at it,
Remind yourself what was happening,
See yourself there as a little kid.
What were you doing there?
Why were you upset?
What did your parents do?
Or your guardians?
Why did they react that way?
But remember stay out of this situation,
Don't connect with yourself there,
You are just watching it from the side as a movie.
Keep breathing,
Staying relaxed and maybe some emotions are coming up right now.
Stay connected with them,
Try to sense what is happening right now in your body,
Perhaps you feel some tension in your chest or maybe in your throat or stomach,
Try to identify what kind of feelings,
Emotions are coming up and try not to judge it.
Just let it be there.
It is not easy for us to go back and revisit all those memories perhaps we might want to forget.
But we are not going to stay here long because we are going now to heal,
To heal that beautiful inner child,
To heal yourself there as a little kid,
To become your own parent.
So I invite you right now to have a look at yourself there in your memory in that event and do something,
Something really important what you think you should do.
This action right now is going to heal you,
To bring you love,
Peace,
Forgiveness.
So now you are having this amazing opportunity to do something what your parents didn't do that time.
It is your time to do that,
To give yourself what you didn't receive.
I am sure by now you know what is the right action to do,
Perhaps you can give yourself a hug there or maybe you can hold hands or maybe say something,
Some beautiful important affirmation.
Whatever you feel is the right thing to do,
Allow yourself to do that,
Become your own parent right now.
Give yourself that little kid in that memory,
Give something what you didn't receive and what you supposed to receive.
Allow this connection to happen now and just pay attention how the child in that memory,
How the child transforms,
How their inner state is changing when you are giving them love,
Support,
Attention.
What is happening to them?
And just allow yourself to feel this love,
To feel this connection and share this connection and love with your child.
And now slowly,
Slowly start to withdraw,
Say the last final words to that little kid in that memory and it's time to say goodbye.
So slowly,
Slowly start to dissociate again from this memory,
Flying away,
Leaving that event there and now you are back,
You are back on the line,
On your timeline of your life and you can see this memory is fading away because you are moving back to your present moment,
You are facing now your present and moving step by step,
Closer and closer to your present moment on your timeline.
Connecting with your breath again,
Checking your inner state,
How you are feeling,
What is going on inside of you and you are now back into present,
You are back on the line,
Now you are facing the future,
Past state behind you,
The healing has occurred,
You gave yourself what your parents had to give you and now you know that you are strong enough to provide whatever you require for yourself.
You take a deep breath in right now and breathe out one more time,
Slowly wiggle your toes,
Wiggle your fingers,
Stretch a little bit and when you are ready slowly open your eyes and bring yourself back to reality,
To the present moment and remember to give yourself as much love as you need.
Thank you so much for trusting me to guide you today and I am really grateful for your healing and for your desire to always,
Always take care of yourself and improve yourself.
Have a beautiful day my love and take care and see you next time.
Namaste.
